#house norms and dont want to be labaled terrible for that“ is a confusing concept siu has yet to grasp | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

drunkndaized · 5 days ago

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How do I explain I'm being a fucking weirdo and using inanimate food objects to ground / keep calm and taking them and putting them out of reach when there's nothing else I yet feel safe getting is Very Hard for me.

#ranpo dont look #ranpo look away #i do this at home too but right now its kinda a bit more imperative #since apparently “youve literally acted like this house is completely unsafe to eat in and thus i feel nervous because i dont know your #house norms and dont want to be labaled terrible for that“ is a confusing concept siu has yet to grasp #and also because when hungry its really hard to cope with the panic and anxiety so its even harder to leave to eat in an unfamiliar location #i forgor that i can be so dysfunctional with food brcause its been so long since sonething triggered it #i may just try to avoid eating today since if i go long enough itll stop hurting #i didnt used to be able to eat where people could see me and would have panic attacks when seen and i just kinda forgot because its not been #a problem anymore. oops #maybe i should bring back the phrase my therapist used of “emotional support puckle jar” since that feels apt and i really dont like my all #of three snack things no longer being allowed near me #yes i know a closet isnt that far away but i cant see them there without my glasses and thats An Issue #also it brought up something about hygiene / water / showers and now im feeling extreme anxiety over that #i have a feeling im gonna get sick today. cant imagine why.#im glad crying doesnt ALWAYS bleach my face because then siu would be worried.

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