#hoping after. so at least shes not uhh. alone lmao. but the AUs potential with xav...

[glubandeepspace]

thinking about rafayel and the process of loving mc

how in forgotten sea he only had a month (+ however long they may have known each other as kids) and her loving him was treated like a requirement but he had a resigned air to that part of it, how he wasnt supposed to love her as much as he ultimately did

how he loved sea witch mc bc she was the same mc but amnesiac but all the traits that remained and eventually returned. probably similar applied to siren's song's mc

so basically memories influence a lot of this, but he has kept an eye on linkon mc so long he ofc knows that how much even more she is different. but even then he'd know every similarity still fatefully there and memorize every new thing just as well, and even if hes way more wary about love now let alone the two-way kind he cant help craving what he was repeatedly robbed of before,

sure that surely there is an end to that cycle (and mc's cycle of being born into the most shitty situations too where ppl keep wanting to use her even after shes freed of the worst, and he does not want to be one of them as the sea demands bc it uses him doesnt care if she was manipulated into that betrayal or how he still felt (and the risks he takes are calculated) where they can at least remain alive n good company longer,

but ofc he falls all the way again bc shes so sweet and fun and strong blahblah and it's extremely better than ever but then god the world dies and more centuries pass and shes a recyclable fucking princess on philos and hes so so worn and yet-!!