#hopefully naming the beast will help me live beside it tho

[glittercorvid]

saw this post

and much love to the autists in the room who feel comfortable being a gremlin (affectionate) online but to me personally it's fucking baffling. the internet is the scariest way to socialize. no script. no facial expressions or vocal inflections to read. it's like trying to harmonize with someone who's singing a song you've never heard and you can only hear them through a crackling old walkie talkie

also i know it's The Masking™ but it's so much easier to be :| with people i'm comfortable with than new people. i need a sizeable backlog of positive interactions with someone before i can allow myself to fail to be personable with them and still feel like they don't think i'm mad/uncaring/not worth their time