#hopefully im getting the pronouns right i kinda forgot

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nurse care from volume 3 (i think)

she’s so pretty…i love her design <33

[smol-grey-tea]

I was gonna write the romo attraction thing today but honestly i dont feel like doing it bc im just rlly upset about smth that im sure a lot of ppl can relate to

So my irl friend groups are very... well they dont know much about these kinds of things, i had to be a walking encyclopaedia for them about my identities like nb stuff bc they didn't bother to just... look it up.

When i told them i was trans they would say "omg are you actually trans?? I have a trans best friend!!" Yikes

Instead they would ask me to explain it. Which is fine, i kinda hate having to explain for the 5th time that no, using the correct terms and pronouns is not a fucking burden, and that yes, dysphoria is awful and wont just magically go away.

and when i tell them to yk, not use pronouns for me and just use my name instead, not 1 person did that. They just... misgendered me and used she/her when i explicitly told them that it makes me dysphoric. I then told them to use coo/coos/cooself instead bc i quite like it, but they still didnt use it.

Then i gave up and told them to use they/them since it doesnt make me dysphoric even tho i lowkey hate it. They still misgender me but said "they'll try to get used to it". Its not that hard guys what the actual fuck???

Anyway, i was actually going to talk about aspec stuff. So i only told one of them that i was demiromantic demisexual, and they said "wtf is that" which yk is not a nice way to react to someone coming out, but i have thick skin so i just explained it bc again they couldnt bother to search it, and they said "ok ig" and changed the subject when i wanted to explain my attraction???? I've never had anyone that i could talk to about my complicated feelings with being aspec and just when i thought i could i was shut down.

I thought it was over and done with, until they started to... ignore my fucking identity??? Which i would say is way more important and personal to me than my bisexuality??? They never did any of that bs with my bisexuality probably bc they were pansexual themself, but jfc is it that hard to not make jokes about me being horny or having a crush or joking about setting me up on blind dates??? It legit made me so uncomfortable and i have no idea what to say.

Bc remember, they didnt exactly respect my pronouns and kept using gendered terms to refer to me even more after i came out??? I swear it feels like its on purpose every time they called me a girl but whatever

Istg they forgot that im demi bc they keep making these jokes and ignoring that i dont feel sexual or romantic attraction like that and keep acting as if i want to date ppl or fuck them when i say they look pretty??? I spent way too fucking long mistaking my aesthetic attraction for sexual for ppl to once again reinforce this idea and im done with it. Please for the love of god stop it.

I said i liked wilbur and thought he was rlly cute and they then proceeded to, you guessed it, act like im in love with him or that i want to fuck him. First of all, hes a real person on the internet that i do not know, 2nd of all, fucking eww, and 3rd of all, hes a whole ass adult and we r both in high school. Yikes again.

Ofc i didnt tell them these things and just said that i dont like him that way and just thought he was pretty and nothing else. They completely ignored this and thought i was just embarrassed or smth or that i was in denial. Yikes again again.

So yeah. The only lesson i learned is to never come out as aspec to anyone irl ever again. Tbh i kinda want to tell them that im not bi and that i dont feel any kind of attraction. It would be a lie but christ i wish they would stop. They can validate my bisexuality but not my nb or aspec identities? I knew that queer sexualities were more normalized now which is awesome but why cant they do that for trans ppl or aspecs? Why does it have to stop there?

Sorry for venting like this but i thought this might be relatable for yall. Ive never had the experience of feeling "broken" bc of any of my identities, im very confident in them. I just wish other ppl other than my online friends would feel the same.

Also sorry for delaying the romo attraction thingy i just rlly dont feel like it rn. Idk when i will write it but hopefully if i feel better i will finish it today

There's no pressure to write it up dude it's cool :) whenever you're ready ❤

And those ppl do not sound like good friends- idk exactly how old you are but ik I'm older, and I can tell you for certain that you will find better friends one day. It's guaranteed :) they don't deserve your friendship and I am glad to validate and help you in any way you need ❤❤

Yee I've never felt broken either! I think an element of that is that I thought I was allo for a very long time? But on the other hand I was bullied in my childhood for not having attraction so idk why that hasn't manifested into a phobia of romance but eh I'm better off this way whether it makes sense or not.

It makes me happy as well cuz a lot of ppl in the community seem very pessimistic abt how we're treated but it's nice to know that not all of us feel broken cuz the 2 of us are living examples of that :)

But unfortunately yeah, your experiences above are things many ppl can relate to. I'm sure almost everyone can remember a time where they came out to someone and weren't met with good responses,,

Let this be a reminder that this is not right and we deserve more support for something so personal. Even if you don't understand someone's identity that doesn't give you the right to dismiss or ignore them. Our identities are very important and personal to us and supporting them is basic respect.

[lunatens]

tag game!! ✨

thank you @loonaanight for tagging me!! 🥺💖 this was super fun hehe

i’m gonna tag @ggulovebot @cutiejoshi @bruh-changbin @noniesgirl @changbinniee @vanillajoshh of course only if y’all want to!! 💖💓💘💕💗

—

what do you prefer being called name-wise?

luna 😌 but if you know my actual name feel free to call me that, i don’t mind at all whichever one you use!! when i first made this blog i was so scared about people i know irl finding it so i didn’t wanna use my real name, but now i don’t care anymore lol and most of my close irl friends know now anyways 🥴 but i still keep it as luna because idk that’s who i’ve been here to most of you so yeah!!

when is your birthday?

march 6th!!! 🐟

where do you live?

i live in canada!! kind of near toronto

three things you are doing right now?

lying in bed, writing the next go higher update, recovering from joshua’s birthday live 😭😭

four fandoms who piqued your interest?

if we’re talking within kpop then ig i’ll say seventeen, skz, txt and tbz (mimu i am!! slowly learning them!!!!!) but if we’re talking kpop as a fandom in general then three other ones i guess would be haikyuu, voltron and star wars!!

how’s the pandemic treating you?

honestly not too bad for me personally!! i got to spend a lot of time with my family which was nice after a really rough time before the pandemic. and also we got a puppy hehe (not because of the pandemic we just happened to get her right before) and also i’m grateful that up north where i go to college it hasn’t been that bad so i could safely see my friends!!

a song you cannot stop listening to atm:

hmm i’ve been listening to fairy of shampoo by txt a lot these days!

recommend a movie!

ok!! i recommend wall-e because i just watched it the other day for the first time in a while and i forgot how good it is

how old are you?

i’m 20 :3 ‘00 line hehe

school, university, occupation, other?

i’m in my third + final year of animation in college!! i’ll (hopefully) be graduating in april!!

do you prefer heat or cold?

cold cold cold i get hot pretty easily so i don’t love hot weather

name one fact others may not know about you:

uhhhhh hm...oh i got a gigANTIC stuffed dolphin for christmas!!! a big boy hehe

are you shy?

a little bit? i’m not shy as much as just introverted and quiet around new people but i wouldn’t say i’m that shy

pronouns?

she/her

biggest pet peeve?

idk if this is my biggest pet peeve but i rlly do not like when people make food and then leave all their stuff out for like hours yk..idk im a pretty clean organized person so the mess bothers me 😖😖

what is your favourite “dere” type?

i’m not really a fan of any of them personally

rate your like from 1-10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be:

maybe like an 8 or 9? would be higher if i could see seventeen in concert hehe

what’s your main blog and what do you use it for?

this is my main blog!! i use it for posting fics but also reblogging cool stuff and interacting with you guys :3

what are your side blogs and what are they for?

@/tsaje-art is my art blog i just made hehe altho i kinda wanna change the url hmm

(update: i changed it sllfkssk it’s @ericast now 🥴)

i also have a side blog where a couple summers ago i was bored and i started translating stories from my latin textbook from high school lol but i haven’t had time to translate any in a while 😔

is there something people need to know about you before coming friends?

sometimes i take a long time to respond to messages because i’m fairly busy irl, but pleASE be my friend 🥺🥺🥺 i love making friends on here but i’m not that good at initiating things (so thank you to all my lovely friends who came and talked to me first 💖)

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rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

I was tagged by @notwvrriors ♡

— what was your last…

1. drink:: juice

2. phone call:: my grandma

3. text message:: “did i send u that cover i found of aint it fun??”

4. song you listened to:: Bye Bye Bye - Further Seems Forever (cover)

5. time you cried:: 2 days ago? i think

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice:: nope

7. kissed someone and regretted it:: hahaha no

8. been cheated on:: hAH no

9. lost someone special:: yep

10. been depressed:: ye

11. gotten drunk and thrown up:: HAH NO

— fave colours

12. pastel yellow

13. peach

14. pastel mint

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends:: yep!

16. fallen out of love:: i mean idk if I was “in love” but yeah sure

17. laughed until you cried:: Y E S

18. found out someone was talking about you:: nope (maybe?? idk it might just be me being paranoid but I thought I heard something and it made me really hHh)

19. met someone who changed you:: i dont think so

20. found out who your friends are:: yeah ;-;

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list:: lmao who uses facebook ((imsorryijust))

— general

22. how many your facebook friends do you know irl:: sorry i’m not outdated,,,

23. do you have any pets:: YES AND I LOVE HIM

24. do you want to change your name:: no but I won’t present myself with my “real” name on the internet/youtube

25. what did you do for your last birthday:: escape room with some friendies

26. what time did you wake up today:: around 6:50? i think

27. what were you doing at midnight last night:: trying to sleep (but i cant but i cant when you all have,,, gUns for hAnds, Y E A)

28. what is something you can’t wait for:: FOB CONCERT AND LEAVING SCHOOL AND MEETING MY INTERNET FRENS AND THE NEXT TIME PALAYE COMES TO CANADA

29. what is your favourite animal:: foxes!!! and hedgies

30. what are you listening to right now:: buzzfeed unsolved

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom:: i don’t think so nah

32. something that’s getting on your nerves:: my school friends

33. most visited website:: google probably

34. hair colour:: dark dark brown

35. long or short hair:: i have long hair but it’s frizzy/curly so it’s kinda short-ish. I’m gonna cut it and straighten it tho so it has that kinda vinatge 1950s style

36. do you have a crush on someone:: crush?? crushcrushcrush??? the bop by paramore??? ((i dont think so but honestly feelings are too complicated so i kinda just ignore mine))

37. what do you like about yourself:: i’m a pretty good artist?

38. want any piercings:: maybe but probably nah

39. blood type:: idk(how)

40. nicknames:: nixotine, nix, idk if this counts but violette

41. relationship status:: s i n g l e ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

42. sign:: (i’m the new) cancer

43. pronouns:: she/her

44. fave tv show:: dirk gently!! asoue!! doctor who!! b99!!

45. tattoos:: dont have any but have LOTS of plans

46. right or left handed:: right handed!

47. ever had surgery:: nop

48. piercings:: ears but im p sure they’re closed now

49. sport:: i used to do gymnastics and ice skating. I still like to ice skate sometimes and i’m trying to learn to rollerskate

50. vacation:: i’ve always wanted to travel across europe!! and also go to japan!! and back to disney lol

51. trainers:: ??

— more general

52. eating:: quoi?

53. drinking:: qui?

54. i’m about watch:: probably gravity falls

55. waiting for:: my friend to say if we’re going to see panic! or nah

56. want:: to meet my favs (and give them so much love!!!)

57. get married:: idk if i want to but if i do i have ideas

58. career:: (concert) photographer or own a bakery or design merch

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses:: hugs (probably)

60. lips or eyes:: eyessss

61. taller or shorter:: taller? i don’t really care

62. older or younger:: idk? younger?

63. nice arms or stomach:: idc???

64. hookups or relationships:: relationships!!

65. troublemaker or hesitant:: troublemaker? but if they’re being an actual bad person then n a h

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger:: nope

67. drank hard liquor:: nope

68. turned someone down:: no? i don’t believe so

69. sex on first date:: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA N O P E

70. broken someone’s heart:: hopefully not!

71. had your heart broken:: maybe?

72. been arrested:: nope

73. cried when someone died:: almost ((a book character))

74. fallen for a friend:: y e p

— do you believe in

75. yourself:: yea!

76. miracles:: it’s possible, but is it plausible?

77. love at first sight:: oR SHOULD I WALK BY AGAIN YOURE PHOTOGENICALLY DRESSED THE CONVERSATION BEGINS OH GO-

((no, you can find someone attractive as hell but maybe not actual love))

78. santa claus:: st nicholas? sure. santa who travels around the world? idk probably not

79. angels:: did you mean tyler joseph? did you mean josh dun? did you mean geoff wigington??????????

— misc

80. eye colour:: brownnn

81. best friend’s name:: awsten hater 2k18, hannah, gabrielle (kinda),

82. favourite movie:: LOVE, SIMON

83. favourite actor:: dont have one?

84. favourite cartoon:: GRAVITY FALLS, SU, CAMP CAMP

85. favourite teacher’s name:: iT starts with a K but i forgot how to spell it cuz it wasn’t commonnNnnsnsjajjzks

I tag: @hint--of--red @scolarin @hottopic @yalocaltransboi @existential-greenbeans @crankthatfrank @underscoregeoff @awwwsten @panicwithryan @howrydenprobablybrokeup @happypandaparade

[randomlut]

Tagged by : @themanwithakeyisking  (much love :* ) Rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people   THE LAST 1. drink: Coffee (OF COURSE) 2. phone call: Gojek Driver (Gojek is like Uber, but for motorcycle)  3. text message: Boyfriend 4. song you listened to: Counting Star cover by George Ezra 5. time you cried: Totally forgot , I guess i haven’t cry in the last 2 months? 6. dated someone twice: yeah, once in the junior high school (if that counts?) 7. kissed someone and regretted it: Never. i always make sure that someone deserves my kiss ;) 8. been cheated on: No. 9. lost someone special: No?  10. been depressed: Well, i guess? 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: No. 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS 12. Navy Blue 13. Maroon Red 14. White IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. made new friends: Yes. 16. fallen out of love: No 17. laughed until you cried: Yes 18. found out someone was talking about you: Yes. Not a bad thing though. 19. met someone who changed you: No...? 20. found out who your friends are: Pretty much the same.  21. kissed someone on your facebook list: Does boyfriend and ex-boyfriend count?we’re friend on facebook :’D GENERAL 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: I don’t use my facebook anymore, i totally forgot who my facebook friend are (except bf) 23. do you have any pets: No, never a fan.  24. do you want to change your name: No. even though it’s only 1 word and make any administration situation kinda complicated, but i’m proud :D 25. what did you do for your last birthday: eating a very delicious chicken waffle  26. what time did you wake up: 8 AM. 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Sleep. I’m very tired.  28. name something you can’t wait for: Weekend? haha. i’m so basic.  29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 2 days ago. 31. what are you listening to right now:  BBC Live Lounge Playlist from youtube 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: No. 33. something that is getting on your nerves: Unreasonable waiting time.   34. most visited website: YouTube and Tumblr  35. hair colour: Black 36. long or short hair: Short  37. do you have a crush on someone: Well i have a bf already, but i have a huge crush for Allie Teilz (Alfie Allen’s girlfriend) 38. what do you like about yourself: I’m a good listener. 39. want any piercings: Nope. 40. blood type: AB 41. nickname: Lut, Lutfi 42. relationship status: In a relationship 43. zodiac: Cancer. 44. pronouns: She/Her. 45. favourite tv show: Game of Thrones, Brooklyn 99, Preacher, Bojack Horseman, Speechless, Stranger Thing. Breaking Bad  46. tattoos: None 47. right or left handed: Right handed. 48. surgery:None. I never been admitted to Hospital, Thank God.  49. piercing:None 50. sport: Treadmill Running? haha. Idk why i prefer running on treadmill rather than in the running field, lol.  51. vacation: I went to Bali last year. 52. pair of trainers: Haha.....  MORE GENERAL 53. eating: eat fish with sambal (Indonesian tradisional chili sauce)  for lunch 54. drinking: Coffee  55. im about to: finishing my office work, haha.  56. waiting for: next weekend.  57. want: delicious steak.  58. get married: Hopefully, in the next 2 years? lol.  59. career: Ha...Ha...Ha....

WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: Higs :3

61. lips or eyes: Eyes. 62. shorter or taller: I’m only 146 cm so almost everyone is taller than me :’D. But my bf is 186 so....   63. older or younger: Older. 64. nice arms or nice stomach: stomach 65. hook up or relationship: Relationship. 66. troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant HAVE YOU EVER 67. kissed a stranger: Nope 68. drank hard liquor: Yes 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: Oh yeah.  70. turned someone down: Yes.  71. sex on the first date: NOPE! 72. broken someone’s heart: Yeah.... 73. had your heart broken: Yeah 74. been arrested: Well, Once :’D, but not by police though.  75. cried when someone died: Yes. 76. fallen for a friend: Yes DO YOU BELIEVE IN 77. yourself: Nope 78. miracles: Yes. 79. love at first sight: Yes, happen once with my ex.  80. santa claus: Nope, raised in a muslim family so..  81. kiss on the first date: Nope 82. angels: Yes.  OTHER 83. current best friends name: Confidential :) 84. eye colour: Dark Brown/Black? idk.  85. favorite movie: Memento Mori, The Usual Suspects, Fight Club

Let’s tag @mrs-storm-andrews, @selkiewife, @deliciousdonutgiver, @roombagreyjoy, @deusexmachinathings  and anyone that have some free time :D

[bruceewayne-moved]

tagged by: @thewintersadie

RULES: answer these 85 statements and tag people

THE LAST: drink: starbucks java chip frapp phone call: the mom of the kid i tutor/family friend text message: “come out when you hear garage open pls” song you listened to: when i come around - green day time you cried: while ago dated someone twice: nah kissed someone and regretted it: nah been cheated on: nah i don’t think  lost someone special: yep yep many been depressed: i think so. not clinically diagnosed tho gotten drunk and thrown up: YEP.

FAVOURITE COLOURS: black, blue, pink, red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: made new friends: yep fallen out of love: yep laughed until you cried: yeah found out someone was talking about you: yeah met someone who changed you: yeah i think found out who your friends are: yeah kissed someone on your facebook list: nah

GENERAL: how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: like all of them

do you have any pets: yeah dogs and cats and my dads piegons 

do you want to change your name: nah what did you do for your last birthday: nothing, i don’t celebrate birthdays

what time did you wake up: 7:55am what were you doing at midnight last night: think i had just went to sleep name something you can’t wait for: starbucks again on saturday. oh and concert tomorrow night + drinking :) when was the last time you saw your mom: last night what are you listening to right now: nothing i have friends over  have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah i think something that is getting on your nerves: my “Friend” showing up all late today and me not knowing when im gonna work again cause i hate the stress of being broke most visited website: tumblr i never get off this damn site. haircolour: dark brown long or short hair: long do you have a crush on someone: yep. what do you like about yourself: uhm. nothing. maybe my music taste. want any piercings: nah blood type: no idea nickname:  meena, rina relationship status: married. to seb stan. incase yall forgot. zodiac: capircorn pronouns: she/her  favorite tv show: the office, project runway, iasip, portlandia, americas got talent tattoos: no thanks right or left handed: right surgery: nah piercing: just my ears when i was a baby sport: futbol mostly but i don’t keep up anymore cause i have no time but i also enjoy baseball sometimes vacation: i wanna go to paris so bad. also wanna go back to san francisco!

pair of trainers: too many. i have SO MANY.

MORE GENERAL: eating: double smoked bacon sandwhich from starbucks drinking: java chip frapp im about to: write a letter waiting for: this weekend want: a husband. get married: hopefully soon

career:  i wanna be a photographer and or housewife

WHICH IS BETTER: hugs or kisses: both lips or eyes: eyes shorter or taller: im shorter but i like taller people older or younger: older. for sure. nice arms or nice stomach: arms. my kink are hands and arms. hook up or relationship: relationship troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant i think but not TOO hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER: kissed a stranger: nah drank hard liquor: yeah lost glasses/contact lenses: yeah

turned someone down: yeah sex on the first date: nah broken someone’s heart: maybe had your heart broken: yeah been arrested: nah fallen for a friend: yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN yourself: yeah right miracles: yeah love at first sight: kinda Santa Claus: nah kiss on the first date: maybe

angels: yep for sure

OTHER: current best friends name: evylen

eyecolour: brown

favorite movie: oh boy. goodfellas, pacific rim, catws, star wars (all of them), oceans eleven, the man from uncle 

i had an issue with copy paste so i hope all of the questions were answered

tagging: @osxarisaac @praecher @groovyleia and anyone else who wants to say i tagged you