#hopefully ill have the energy to go through bsky replies soon

[monstyra]

it really doesnt feel adequate for how grateful i am but thank you so much everyone for your kind words and support💖it really means the world to me

honestly thank you so much

an update on hows it going for those interested:

its ofc difficult over here and we miss them so much but we re getting help prepping for everything. we ve got support and are supporting each other and that ll be enough.

fuck i miss them so much and i wonder how long itll be to get to stop being like 'hey it wont be raining too hard later maybe we can go for a walk-- oh'

its hard not to question and ease regrets... not second guess everything and wonder what possibly we could have done better even if we did the best with what we had. the worst though is my brain conjuring up what it must have been like before they passed. i know they felt loved but i hope they felt is especially then.

i love them so much and we have so many wonderful memories together, even after this all started they still had many actual good days where we were able to chase the depression away and go out for bike rides or hikes. ill cherish those memories always 💖