#hopefully i hit the right toggle for no reblogs cAUSE I CANT READ THE LABELS

[torao-chan]

lil leo rant that hasn't been proof read for reasons included below

it's really frustrating. trying to explain to someone. how our language comprehension just Turns Off when we're tired or, sometimes, just randomly. like, it's a legit disability we have. like

yes i know i sound eloquent when i talk. yes i know we can still talk at you, and type out words, and communicate clearly. yes we can still see art, and comprehend very basic visual icon-graphic based instructions.

but also no we can't read a paragraph, or read a sentence that's more than one line long. no i can't correct whatever we've typed. no i don't understand when you give me long carry on sentences, or more than one semi-complex idea at a time verbally.

yes i know we're communicating clearly, and that my eyes are in my head, and i can see what you're pointing at and that they're words.

no i can't understand them right now.

half the time, i'm more frustrated with me than anyone else is about this. and the other half of the time no one believes me when i say i can't understand them right now, because i'm able to tell them that clearly.

it is our receptive language that suffers the most from our disability. that means i can't take in information right now, and when i can it's often more delayed registering than it appears.

i just. gods. it's so frustrating. i can type this out, but i can't check what we've written. we can't hold a conversation like this, because we're not processing what's being said/written.

we need to rest to help to fix this, but we're too frustrated to sleep, and too tired to distract ourselves, and it's just >:C