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[akxrra]

❝ talk to you. ❞

ricky montgomery.

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synopsis: it's hard voicing out your feelings, especially when they're miles away. featured: himeko x nb!reader contains: mutual pining, kinda angsty, a little bad links: masterlist | introductory post and rules a/n: shshd i love himeko sm pls marry me

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"do you really have to leave?"

it felt like a piece of your heart was torn, ripped, and left incomplete.

you and himeko were classmates in college, both so ambitious and full of wonder. though your personalities are mostly different, you two never fell apart. each and every problem was resolved, no matter how stubborn the both of you were.

you pushed her limits and helped her out of her comfort zone, and she kept you grounded and level-headed in the middle of the chaos around you.

she was your rock, she completed you.

and now, she's gone.

"i'm sorry," the college student himeko said, clutching her suitcase tight. "i promise i'll be back."

it's been nearly 2 years since she said that, and himeko never once came back. you understood that she had bigger dreams than you, but you just wished receiving at least one letter from her.

you don't even know why it hurts you this much. sure, you were both extremely close in college, nearly spending every minute with each other. sure, you had frequent study "hang-outs" and went shopping together. sure, himeko and you shared a strangely small sauna tub during a vacation. and sure, you always had this fuzzy feeling whenever your hands brushed against hers.

but should it really hurt this much?

"himeko," you'd mindlessly mumble whenever you saw something reminding you of her. "himeko," you'd chuckle out when you saw a character with red hair like hers. "himeko," you'd sigh, reminiscing about the days you were still side by side.

you never noticed it, you never acknowledged it, and you never even thought about it.

you wanted to hold her again, bask in her presence, and talk to her.

you wanted to love her.

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"i'm sorry. i promise i'll be back."

that was her reply to you, her heart crushing as she sees your saddened eyes. she made you, the usually cheerful and smiley you, upset. and that was even more devastating than actually leaving you.

himeko knew she'd have to leave one day. she knew it ever since you both talked about your dreams. they were just so distant from each other, and if they wanted to achieve their dreams, then they also need to be distant.

it's a fate that neither of you could avoid, so himeko just wished she wouldn't get attached to you.

alas. in the end, the red-head couldn't ignore you.

himeko would see your toothy smile in the corner of her eyes. she'd see the way your orbs would sparkle when she gazes at the stars. the truth is, in a room of people and gold, himeko would notice you first.

you, you, and always you.

even after 2 years, himeko would go through her old pictures, most of them containing you. although the red-head fulfilled her dream to see the world through the astral express, she sometimes wishes she didn't go and just stayed with you.

because, in truth, she wanted to live her life with you. and even if she denies it,

she wanted to love you.

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[akxrra]

— i am the one who loves to write, but hates to speak. i am the one who loves silence, but dies without music.

conny cernik.

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hello. it's my first time on tumblr, so please go easy on me. i go by she/her pronouns, and this is a strictly a wlw blog. men, dni. i write for genshin impact, honkai: star rail, and sometimes valorant. though, the amount of fandoms i write for will probably change in the future.

rules. - i do not write stories with male!readers, mlw, or mlm. only fem!readers, wlw, or nblw please. - i will not write anything that contains explicit, heavy gore, or incest. - dni if you don't like lowercase writing. - i will not tolerate any homophobia, racism, or other types of discrimination in my comments/requests. you're immediately blocked if you promote any type of hate towards others.

links. masterlist.

bye. thanks for reading this. see 'ya.

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