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atinymonster · 3 years ago

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connected pinkies

ateez 9th member.

jiyu and jiyong catch up after a while, but little did she know it would spark a huge storm.

can you guess what happens next? D;

➴ taglist: @banhmi07, @jiyeons-closet, @jaeminpeachy, @mochibabycakes, @euphoriamingi

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"Is that him?”

At the manager’s question, Jiyu followed his gaze to see a familiar, slender male wearing a black bucket hat and a mask waiting in front of the cafe. Her eyes lit up before nodding enthusiastically.

Chuckling at her restlessness to meet him, the manager unlocked the car door. “Remember, be careful out there!” he quickly reminded.

Ever since ATEEZ’s popularity started to grow, he’s been aware of the many fans that won’t hesitate to approach or crowd them in public. He’s seen it happen to Jiyu once, and it wasn’t a pretty sight.

“I will, thank you for driving me!” she smiled before closing the car door.

Looking left and right to make sure she wasn’t about to be run over by a car, she dashed across the street towards the man. “Jiyong!”

At the sound of his name, the man looked up from his phone and a huge smile broke out onto his face underneath the mask. Opening his arms, he grunted at the impact when Jiyu crashed into his embrace and hugged him back.

“If it isn’t my lovely little sister,” he smiled, taking off her bucket hat and ruffling her hair. “Look we match today,” he teased, gesturing to their matching bucket hats and masks.

It’s been a while since the last time Jiyu and Jiyong met, considering how busy the both of them had been. If one had a break from their schedules, the other would be busy, making it difficult for them to meet since the new year started.

“Have you been watching our Kingdom performances?” Jiyu eagerly asked after they settled in a corner booth of the cafe.

“Of course! I keep up with all of your schedules, you know,” he proudly puffed his chest. “I didn’t know my little sister was so talented, I thought my bones were going to break after watching you dance each time. And I was the one that felt out of breath, too.”

“What, did you cheer for us too hard that you ran out of breath?” she snorted, sipping on the strawberry latte the waiter had brought over a few minutes prior. “You’re really getting old, if that’s the case.”

“I’m only five years older than you, and one year older than Seonghwa and Hongjoong,” he rolled his eyes, but he couldn’t help but scoff at his sister’s playfulness. He had to admit, he missed it.

“You know, I send your performance videos to năinai and yéyé.”

Jiyu tensed at the mention of her grandparents back in Guangzhou. Ever since she left to become a trainee, she hasn’t contacted them since, too afraid to hear what they had to say. She’s always carried around the guilt of taking their son away from the world, hence she thought minimizing her contact with them would be better for both parties.

“What do they say?” she quietly mumbled, twisting the straw around her drink. Whether it be demeaning comments, she decided to accept them.

Contrary to what she was expecting to hear, Jiyong slid his phone across the table towards her. “Here, you can read them yourself.”

Jiyong wouldn’t have her read hurtful comments, she knew that and she trusted him. But it still sent a wave of nervousness when she hesitantly picked up his phone and started scrolling through the messages.

The latest videos Jiyong had sent them were her fancams of both performances from round three of Kingdom. Taking a deep breath, she scrolled down to see her grandparents’ response, bracing herself in case she read something unpleasant.

But there were no demeaning responses. Only responses praising her talents and cheering her on.

[năinai] Little Jiyu is all grown up now

[yéyé] Gosh, look at her energy! It makes my own bones hurt just watching!

[năinai] I wish she’d call us, but I suppose we made it a little awkward for her...

[năinai] Jiyong dear, if you get the chance to, let her know that she’s free to call us anytime

[yéyé] Just keep the time zone in mind, though ;)

[jiyong] Haha! Will do!

She didn’t know how to react upon reading their heartwarming messages. They were, quite honestly, really unexpected for her, and the impact hit harder since it was around the time of her parents’ death anniversary.

“See? They don’t blame you one bit,” Jiyong reassured, reaching over the the table to pat her head. “You can save their numbers onto your phone if you want.”

Silently nodding, she took out her phone and began inputing their numbers, all while feeling a small lump in her throat, realizing that all these years, she had been avoiding them for no apparent reason.

They still loved her, but she was too scared for herself that she didn’t consider how they felt.

“Thanks,” she mumbled, handing him his phone back. “I guess I needed that wake up call.”

Jiyong chuckled before throwing her a knowing smirk. “Just be glad I didn’t send them your dating articles with Sunwoo.”

A small gasp left her lips at the realization. “Ah–”

That’s right. She never told Jiyong about her relationship.

Jiyong had to find out about his sister’s new love life through Dispatch articles, rather than his own sister telling him herself.

Avoiding his smug look, she resorted to looking out the window. His angelic smile looked far from innocent, looking more menacing if anything.

Knowing she was in for a barrage of questions, she made herself comfortable in the booth. “Alright, have at it, but keep it down so we don’t get caught.”

Jiyong wasted no time, leaning forwards on the table with curious eyes before firing off questions at rapid speed.

“How did you meet him?”

“We had a Weekly Idol shoot together back in 2019.”

“Who made the first move?”

“I guess he did...?”

“How long have you two been actually dating?”

“Since our Inception comeback.”

“And why didn’t it cross your mind to tell me?”

Jiyu was at a loss for an answer. “...That’s a good question.”

Jiyong’s face morphed into one of a kicked puppy. “Hey! That’s just mean, how do you forget to tell your own brother?!”

“It slipped my mind since I got so busy with the comeback, and I thought I told you but I guess I didn’t in reality,” she sheepishly answered, scratching the back of her neck.

Leaning back into his seat, he dejectedly crossed his arms like a child throwing a tantrum. “Fine, I guess I’ll forgive you,” he pouted his lips.

“You love me too much,” she sang, giving him her best aegyo performance, but only bursted into laughter when he started cringing.

He faked a gag. “Never do that again for the sake of you and I.”

“I know, that felt terrible,” she couldn’t help but agree.

“Jokes aside, I hope he makes you happy. And if he makes you cry, let me know, you hear?” Jiyong said, his brotherly protectiveness seeping into his tone.

Jiyu nodded with a hearty chuckle. “Yes, yes, I will.”

“But how’s modeling? I swear you got skinnier the last time I saw you,” she frowned upon seeing how baggy and loose his clothes seemed on him. “Are you eating?”

“Funny how you’re the one breaking your back for these performances and you’re worrying about me,” he joked, hoping to ease her worry. “But I’ve been eating my meals, don’t worry. I just went on a diet—”

“What diet? You’re already skin and bones as it is,” she pointed out. She knew being a model was difficult, but she never realized just how much effort it takes for a model to take care of themselves.

And when it comes to ESteem, a branch under SM Entertainment, she knew how strict things were.

“I’ll be okay, Ji, don’t worry!” he smiled, “I should be asking you about your eating and sleeping habits.”

“Seonghwa makes sure I eat at least two meals a day and that I’m in bed as soon as possible, I think I’m more inclined to worry about you.”

An airy and defeated huff sounded from the man. He knew she was right, she had eight people to look after her, while he was out at castings all day and lived by himself. It was a relieving thought—his sister was well-taken care of when he wasn’t around.

“Fair enough,” he said, raising his hands in mock surrender, “But seriously, I’m okay. I won’t work myself to exhaustion.”

“Promise?” she stuck her pinky out, a worried pout on her lips.

Jiyong intertwined his pinky with her’s, mumbling his promise with a soft smile.

Too engrossed in their bonding time, little did they know someone had spotted them from across the street while he was on his way to buy drinks for his members as punishment for losing a game of rock-paper-scissors.

And his face and heart fell when he saw the familiar white bracelet on the girl’s wrist, but her pinky was connected with another man’s while she adoringly smiled at him, the man mirroring her expression.

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junicai · 4 years ago

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Relationship with NCT Dream

➣ MARK ☾ mari

½ of the best friend crew

honestly at the beginning, mark and aria weren’t very close, having only really seen each other in passing or with johnny

but after being dropped into training together the two quickly became fast friends, and now they’re borderline inseparable

you thought you knew pain? watch aria’s reaction to mark’s graduation from dream :)

mark’s the reason why aria felt confident enough to pitch some of her lyric ideas to the team, after staying up until 4am to help her make some edits so she was as confident as possible

kinda just, rests his head on her shoulder? and wraps his arms around her waist when he’s tired

mari being confused in foreigner: ???

aria said once in a vlive that she finds mark really comforting to be around - when she feels stressed or worried about something she’ll go to mark’s room and just sit on his bed for a while

aria is so close with his parents - “ahh, how’s my favourite child” “i’m doing great mom.” “no not you, how’s aria?” “wh-hu-MOM?”

you’d swear sometimes mark is younger than her, considering the pout he puts on and how much he whines when they’re not on the same team together for promotions

mark big protecc boi but also little small cuddly boi

they’re so soft for each other ( ╥ω╥ )

in one of the fancams for mark’s solo stage during superm, someone zoomed into aria singing along with him in the wings and dancing to herself with the Proudest Smile™

he’s! so! proud! of! her! constantly! she could be walking and he’d be like “omg get it”

when aria refuses to get up and make herself food (this happens way too often, she just gets into the groove of her work and doesn’t want to move) mark gets her to by threatening to do it himself

consistently caught by czennies just standing behind her and holding her hand in crowded areas - airports, waiting rooms, etc.

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

mark and aria were standing off to one side as the mc explained the rules of the game they were about to be playing. mark looked totally confused, and elbowed aria in her side before looking down and mouthing “what?” to her. aria opened her mouth, before closing it and looking down at the ground, muttering to herself, “결합… 結合….. le chéile…. le… le.. oh oh - combined! we have to put them together, markie.”and thus, a new confusion meme was born

➣ RENJUN ☾ renjaria

renjun and aria room together while she’s promoting with dream

they were so awkward around each other at the beginning :(

only really spoke in passing, or when they had to

it was renjun that broke the ice at first, asking if she wanted to go shopping for the dorm together

now it’s their thing

“no aria, we can’t get more ice-cream we’re all supposed to be on diets.” “but ｡ﾟ･ (>﹏<) ･ﾟ｡ please”

he’s lowkey soft for her but he’d rather throw himself off the roof then tell her that

piano pals

he started teaching her how to properly play once he found her messing around on a keyboard in the studio one day

they actually argue quite a bit

not about big things, but about smaller things that push each other over the edge because of stress

the first time he yelled at her, aria spent the night in hyuck’s room

hyuck yelled at renjun for making her cry

now they’re probably the best pairing for talking through their emotions instead of blowing up on each other

they’re both quite opinionated people, and they’ve learnt to navigate that well so fights don’t happen as often

does that stop renjun from teasing aria an within an inch of her life? absolutely not

“i’ll kill you” “can you, reach?” “LISTEN HERE-”

he acts like he’s 10ft tall, excuse you sir you are barely 5′6″

renjun was her mandarin teacher for a while, but then kun kindly told her that her “introduction” was actually calling herself an idiot

aria has a bad problem with saesangs go away bitches and renjun is iconic for going off on them for her because she doesn’t like to make a big deal out of it all

he gets so angry on her behalf

that was actually a topic of one of their biggest arguments smh

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

aria was leaning on a pile of books to prop herself up as she leant forwards to try and hang a string of lights on her bedroom wall. renjun walked in, and immediately came to her aid, speaking with a teasing tone. “need a hand?”

aria, without ceremony just elbowed him in the stomach and used his then folded up figure to push herself up higher. “yes, thank you!”

she got hate for that one, but it was all in good fun and renjun was laughing after it

➣ JENO ☾ nori

aria is his princess and everyone else can fight him

like they’re both doyoung’s children, but if it comes down to it he will lay down his life for her

and not even in a romantic way, just a “you’re too precious i have to protect you” kind of way

czennies thought he was in love with her for the entirety of nct 2018 promotions

this boy was hanging off of her at any given second, and there was an edited video of jeno “glaring” at lucas’ back when the taller boy walked away after hugging aria

it was faked, stan twt needs to chill out

he drags her to the gym

he’s basically her big brother? but they’re the same age - its a weird dynamic but they make it work

they’re so LOUD together

not chaotic, but he makes her laugh so hard

vlive 191030: “nono-ah makes my cheeks hurt so i can’t spend too long around him. my sides hurt too ~ ♡(｡- ω -)”

any and all fanfictions written about the two are definitely either coffee shop, university or library AUs

this man walks like a bodyguard around her - boy got the arm over the shoulder, tucked her head into him, covering her face, its a whole ordeal

dispatch released some pictures of aria one day and accidentally blurred out jeno’s face because they thought he was her bodyguard

is so. so mindful of how long aria spends in the training rooms

like, yes everyone else expects her home before midnight (long story)

but jeno actively makes sure to ask people what time she left the dorm at, and texts her to remind her to take water breaks and to come home at a good time so she can sleep

these two are the creators of so many iconic vlives - they have a bad habit of going live at 1 or 2 in the morning, just doing random things

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

“hi hi! so, nono and i- jeno stop it, stop it! - nono and i are walking down to the park to go feed the birds - yes we’re going to feed the bird- no! we are not going to feed the ducks, bread can kill the ducks! why did you bring brea-”

jeno pulled the camera from aria’s hands. “ari and i,” he looked at her purposefully, “are going back to the dorms because someone forgot to bring the bird seed, and apparently we can’t give bread to ducks anymore.”

*sounds of aria intermittently hitting and scolding jeno ensue*

➣ DONGHYUCK ☾ arichan

the other half of the best friend crew

absolute heathens to be around when they are together

donghyuck is the person aria is closest to, and someone she’d call her best friend (only when she was sure he wouldn’t hear her)

she calls him “the demon child i can’t get rid of” but will, and has definitely pouted when he ignored her for too long

generally aria is a pretty soft spoken person, but not with hyuck around - he brings out all her chaos energy (please pray for the patience of dotae)

the pair have a little tradition of kissing the back of each others’ hands before going on stage for good luck. they can’t even remember how it started, but now its an unnegotiable pre-show ritual

he’s so clingy with her absolutely everywhere its painfully adorable (ಥ﹏ಥ)

interviews? hyuck has a hand on her knee, or if she’s wearing a skirt he’s tucked his hand in between their chairs so she can hold it discreetly. in the dorms? full body tackle onto the couch, where he proceeds to lay on top of her completely.

because of hyuck’s nickname being the sun, and aria always being around him, czennies gave her the nickname “moon” to go with him

fans thought that aria was older than hyuck for a good year and a half before she released her birthday on a vlive, because she’s normally the one tasked with reigning his chaotic energy in during promotions (that is, if she hasn’t already joined him)

but off-camera, aria is absolutely hyuck’s baby there is no disputing that. aria’s sad?he’s there with ice-cream and a blanket and a baseball bat.

the winnie the pooh character that is on aria’s bed was a gift from hyuck for her 17th birthday, after she made him watch seven episodes of the show on netflix with her one night

yes he complained, but he slapped her hand away when she went to change it to something else

a twitter thread of a czennie comparing their horoscopes together went viral when people realized that it was quite plausible that the pair were each others (platonic) soulmates

after an incident involving blueberries, donghyuck took it upon himself to check the ingredients of every. single. food item in their dorm to make sure it was ok for her to eat

hyuck clowns her for her irish accent, and aria curses him out in japanese

tldr: they cute or whatever

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

donghyuck was doing a vlive in his bedroom, sitting and talking to czennies when aria opened the door to his room quietly. she didn’t say anything, just waved slightly with almost closed eyes before she crawled underneath his covers and tucked her plushie underneath her chin. hyuck didn’t even blink at it - so it must have been a regular occurrence.

➣ JAEMIN ☾ nari

jaemin highkey flusters her

not in a oo you’re so cute, cute boy make nerves go eeee

but he’ll wink at her and teasingly compliment her and now she looks like a firetruck this isn’t fair

he absolutely takes advantage of this where ever possible

“riri, can i have some?” “no, i just made these you should have helped me (-_-)” “riri~ but you looked so cute making them i didn’t want to interrupt you~” *aria.exe has stopped responding*

but when aria isn’t trying to get her cheeks to stop being red, they’re really cute together

you’d swear aria is older, by how much jaemin whines for her attention

the mighty battles between jaemin and hyuck

hyuck’s just biding his time for the rooftop fight

kinda panics around her when she’s crying, but is always the first to offer up a hug

has a period tracker on his phone but no one knows about it

he doesn’t like to coddle her because they’re so close in age, but that doesn’t stop him from getting protective in certain situations *cough cough the fansign cough cough*

jaemin and aria cuddling when they’re drunk? more likely than you’d think

he definitely professed his undying love for her at one point while being drunk, and chenle caught it on video

“noona we’re playing that at your wedding”

designated blanket/pillow hunter at award shows, and if he can’t find one then he usually just gives her his jacket

the amount of coffee these two consume should be illegal

aria prefers to call him nana and he prefers to call her riri in the dorms, so when either of them get called by their first name by the other it means A: they’re on a schedule, or B: someone’s about to die

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

nct dream on idol room were trying out jaemin’s death-in-a-cup (his coffee) and as the cup got passed around, aria grew more and more concerned with each face the members made. “jaemin if i die from this-”

he only smiled at her while passing over the cup. aria held it up to look at the black liquid skeptically, before sighing in resignation and bringing the cup to her lips to take a sip.

and then another.

“wait this is good i like this”

➣ CHENLE ☾ leri

hide yo kids and hide yo wives because leri is entering the chat

*cue aria and chenle wearing 2000s rapper clothes with backwards baseball caps*

these two are so chaotically calm

its like the energy cancels out or something

aria with hyuck is just so loud and obnoxious, and the same with chenle with jisung

so when you put those two together it just turns into le positive vibes

you ever meditated to those 132 hertz sounds? thats them in a sound

aria will hold him like a baby kitten she’s expecting to try wriggle out of her grip at any moment and its comical because he’s a good head taller than her

aria definitely has a knack for making her groupmates’ parents fall in love with her

every two weeks or so she goes for dinner in chenle’s house upon his mother’s request

they have a mutual understanding of the mental toll it takes to be around the rest of the dreamies constantly

chenle and aria sitting peacefully, watching a cdrama:

the dreamies, throttling each other: AAAAAAAAAAA

will never admit it but he misses her the most when she goes away to promote

he thinks of her as a big sister and the dorms feel empty without her there

aggressive proud hugs

so aggressive, he legit tackles her

he had to tone it down after knocking her over once backstage and she narrowly missed clocking herself on a nearby soundboard

“YAH ZHONG CHENLE YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL!”

he always gets a little bit anxious when they eat things outside of the dorms because he’s never seen her have an allergic reaction before and he’d like to keep it that way (`皿´＃)

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

chenle was particularly restless that day, constantly shuffling about in his seat to the point where renjun forcefully tossed an arm over his shoulders to hold him still while the vlive was still playing.

not one to be defeated, chenle then turned to press his lips to renjun’s cheek playfully, laughing when the older boy turned away in disgust. he turned to do the same to aria, coming closer to her cheek before aria turned her head to face his.

“AAA-” “EW CHENLE WHY”

➣ JISUNG ☾ jiri

oh god oh god oh god

if aria could take this boy and wrap him in a blanket and keep him in her pocket she would - no questions asked

jisung knows she loves him the most out of dream sorry markhyuck and takes advantage of it every second

she used to coddle him a lot when he was smaller, but now that he’s older aria tries to rein it in as much as possible

that doesn’t mean it goes away completely though

“noona can you cook for me?” “of course jisungie! what do you want?”

*jeno gobsmacked in the background* “you just told me you were too tired to cook tonight”

aria: big baby, must protect

jisung: tiny noona, must protect

jaemin and aria are really the only people jisung is ok with seeing him be super emotional - and he flip flops between the two depending on the reason why he’s emotional

self-esteem, feeling poopy side of it all? straight into aria’s bed, letting her roll him onto his side so she can tuck his head into her shoulder and covers the two of them with her duvet the way she used to do when he was shorter

this boy cannot curse around her unless he wants to get his ass Beat

dancing bros

they go so hard in their NCT Dance duet videos

he keeps band-aids in his bag for her in exchange for her keeping an extra bottle of water in hers because jisung always forgets his own

jisung rests his elbow on her head a lot

but only briefly because the last time he stayed there for too long she stamped on his foot

tldr: aria is jisung’s emotional support gnome

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

jisung and aria were doing the chicken leg battle (this one) to fight for first dibs on the rooms they were going to be sharing for the next week or so. just before they were about to start, mark started laughing and pointing at how high jisung’s leg came up on aria’s, with aria’s knee barely hitting jisung’s mid-thigh

“this is an unfair advantage! this is cheating!”

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kpoptart216 · 4 years ago

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Never Alone- Namjoon Oneshot

Genre: Angst. Fluff ending?? read till the end to find out.

A/n: I’m sorry in advance.

Length: 6.4k+ oops

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It was a rough week. Probably the roughest week Namjoon has had since he debuted, he thought. He’s probably had worse weeks but this one at least took the cake for the last year or two.

He fucked up one too many things. First, he messed up choreography during one of their live stages, and the fancam happened to go viral. What he thought was a small mistake ended up trending on twitter. It wasn’t that bad, even Hoseok hadn’t berated him about it. He just didn’t like worldwide attention on his slip-up. Next, he ended up deleting an entire file on a song he was working on. No back-up or anything. It was just gone. In all his years composing music, he had always created a back-up so of course the one time he didn’t, it got deleted. Then management came to him and said he couldn’t take time off like he wanted once he got back from his Bon Voyage trip to spend with you and his family like he had wanted. It was his mother’s birthday and he didn’t know how he could face telling her that he couldn’t celebrate with her in person- again. The cherry on top had to have been when he decided to pack early for his trip and then ended up spelling an entire glass of juice into his suitcase when he tripped over the phone cable he had laying around. He felt like tossing the suitcase out the balcony with the level of frustration he was facing and he could feel the stress and anger bubble inside of him.

The boys were wary of his mood and tried their best to stay out of his way, but unfortunately no one had warned you of his increasingly angry mood. Not even your best friend, Jin, who was busy with his own work before the trip.

It was now the night before they had to leave and it was always tradition Namjoon came over to see you before he left the country, let alone Seoul. He trudged into your apartment with the spare key he had used a million times before, and if it wasn’t for his mood, he probably would have sensed the tension inside.

You weren’t aware of your boyfriend’s miserable week, since it felt like you were having a pretty bad one yourself. A few months ago, you had found out your father was dying. You and your father were never really close growing up. After your mother passed away, you and your father grew apart while grieving. You didn’t really blame him, but you grew up with the belief that you could only rely on yourself in this world, no one else. Over the last few years, you and your father have been trying to mend what little of a relationship you had, so when you found out that he was sick and needed a liver replacement, you cursed the stars for such a fate. Why did he get such a diagnosis when you just started to get to know one another again.

Earlier that day, the hospital had called and said your dad needed the surgery very soon and they were hoping to hear back about an organ donor from the next city over. Since then, you had been on edge, besides yourself. But the only comfort you knew you needed was from that of your boyfriend. But you were so out of it, you hadn’t even noticed he was there till he plopped himself onto the couch next to you, sighing loudly.

Namjoon just needed to sleep this entire week off. He loved his career, but sometimes it was...draining. Though he had 6 other brothers going through it, it looked like they seemingly had it easier. Why weren’t their mistakes broadcasted to the world? Why were some members allowed to go home when they needed it? He felt physically and mentally exhausted, it took a lot just to drive over here today. But he knew he had to see you before he was off for the next two weeks.

“Y/n I don’t think I’m going to be staying very long tonight, I’m really tired, love” he said, rubbing his eyes. It was only then that you had turned to face him, feeling the sadness engulf you twice has hard now. You just needed him to hold you right now and tell you that everything was going to be ok.

“C-can you stay?” You ask timidly. You never asked this of him. Never once had you requested more time of your boyfriend because you understood the importance of his time and career. One of the things you both valued about your relationship was that you both understood each other’s careers. While Namjoon was a world class idol, you were an up and coming lawyer. Both careers demanded a lot of your time, and yet you both made it work. And you made it work well.

“What?” he asked, still not really looking at you. “I don’t think so. I still have to pack a few things and I have an early morning” he said, looking at his watch now.

“I-I just need you tonight” you say, choking up. You were about to explain the situation before Namjoon interrupts you.

“What part of no do you not understand, Y/n?” he said loudly. This was the first time in your relationship he had ever yelled at you. “I can’t deal with this right now. No means fucking no. I thought it would be nice to stop by like I usually do, but I did not plan on coming to see my clingy girlfriend. You said you understood my career, so what the fuck is this? I’m telling you I have an early flight tomorrow and now of all days you ask me to spend the night? Jesus Y/n, either learn to accommodate to my schedule or find someone who can be here when you decide you need to cuddle or whatever” he says angrily before stomping out of your apartment.

You sat there, shocked at his remarks. You had honestly forgot he was leaving tomorrow for his trip with the boys. With everything going on with your father today, it had completely slipped your mind. Was your request really that outlandish?

(X)

Namjoon pretty much passed out as soon as he got home and finished packing, the exhaustion setting in quick. It felt like he was only asleep for a few minutes before his alarm rang a little too loud for his comfort. Before he could really comprehend everything, he was sitting in his flight seat, well on his way to New Zealand.

Slowly as he started to relax into his seat, he replayed his last week. As he was on his way to enjoy his time in a new country, he felt thankful for the experience. He eased into his seat further as he tried to sleep until he jolted up, remembering his conversation with you.

You had hardly said a sentence or two before he practically blew up at you.

“Ahh Hyung, what’s wrong, you scared me” Jungkook says, startled by his sudden actions.

“I- I had a fight with Y/n last night. Well I don’t know if you could consider it a fight, but I said some things I really didn’t mean...” Namjoon said sadly, looking down at his phone.

“It will be ok! Y/n noona is always so forgiving. Remember that time I accidently threw a water balloon at her when I was aiming for Jimin hyung? She was only annoyed for a second before she threw one right back at me!” Jungkook laughed, making Namjoon smile at the memory. You had always got along so well with all the boys having known them for so many years. Namjoon had the biggest crush on you as soon as Jin had introduced you as his childhood friend. It was only a matter of months before you both started dating.

“I hope she finds it in her heart to forgive me this time too. I don’t know if I deserve it” Namjoon says, sadly.

“Of course she will! Just call her once we land and explain everything, I’m sure she will forgive you!” Jungkook said before returning back to his movie.

(X)

As soon as the boys had landed, Namjoon yearned for a moment alone so that he could finally call you. But just like this whole week had been going, he didn’t get what he had wished for. The crew started filming as soon as they all landed and by the time they got the bags and the car, he was chosen to drive.

And drive he did. For what seemed like hours, Namjoon drove and drove. Only by the end of the first night did he find a moment to himself, when he didn’t have a mic or a camera filming.

He waiting eagerly as the phone rang, rehearsing his speech in his head. He would apologize profusely and explain his week to you and how he genuinely meant nothing he said. How foolish was he to even insinuate you find someone else when he was so head over heels in love with you. Such a beautiful and intelligent being, and more importantly understanding. The more he replayed the words he said to you in his head, the more he berated himself for spewing complete nonsense. You had been nothing but understanding of him and yet he threw that right back in your face.

He frowned as the the call went to voicemail. Should he leave a voicemail? would that do his apology any justice? He turned off the phone and called again, hoping you would answer this time.

Except you didn’t answer. You didn’t answer the next three times he called either. He sighed, realizing you were probably more mad than he had hoped. He decided to send you a text, hoping you’d read his text and decide to answer the next time he called.

Namjoon: Baby, I’m so so so sorry. I’m such an asshole, you definitely didn’t deserve anything I said last night. I promise you, I never meant any of it. I had a really rough week and I took it out on you. Please talk to me, hmm? I know you’re mad, but please let’s talk?

He waited eagerly for you to respond, but once again exhaustion took over and he passed out in the bunk bed to the sound of his brothers all sleeping too.

When he opened his eyes again, light was peeking in through the curtains. He felt disoriented, not really understanding where he was for a second. It took another few seconds before he realized he was in New Zealand, and only then, did he remember to check his phone.

He searched for his phone in the tiny bed. He sat up quickly, forgetting he was in the bottom bunk and hitting his head on the top bunk. He groaned in pain, rubbing at his head while still trying to find his phone.

He forgot to charge it so of course, the phone was completely dead when he found it. He quickly put it on charge and when the phone finally turned on, he quickly unlocked it, only to find no new texts from you.

He frowned. Maybe his phone wasn’t working? That couldn’t be true since he had received plenty of other texts from others. He sighed, sending you another text, and a sweet good morning for good measure.

Just like the previous day, the boys had a packed schedule. Between driving and filming and other activities, Namjoon barely had any time to check his phone. Any time he felt his phone vibrate within his pocket, his heart raced, hoping it was you who finally responded.

However, any time the boys had a break and he check his phone, there was no new notification from you. And for the rest of his trip, that is exactly what continued to happen. He didn’t hear from you.

On one day, while the other members decided to do various activities, he opted to spend some time alone, claiming to do some work. He spent the entire two hours he had alone trying to get in contact with you. Calling your work number, calling your phone multiple times, texting. He even tried calling a close friend of yours, who also didn’t answer.

What if you actually took his words to heart? What if you’d dump his stupid ass as soon as he was home and you’d find someone truly deserving of you. Someone who wouldn’t yell at you when you didn’t deserve it? His mind flashed with different scenes, all with you seemingly happy with another man, and he groaned in actual pain. Just imagining that engulfed his body in pain that he didn’t ever want that to happen.

At this point, after not hearing from you for almost two weeks, he just need to make sure you were ok.

Namjoon: Baby please. I know you’re mad at me, but please, just let me know if you’re ok. That you’re safe.

And once again, no response.

(x)

The boys watched Namjoon as he eagerly packed his bags in a hurry the night before flying back to Seoul. While all the boys conversed about how amazing New Zealand was and how they wish they could stay a little longer, it was clear as day that their leader was itching to go back.

“Hyung, we get that you’re dying to see your girlfriend again, but you’re making feel more and more single every second!” Taehyung complained.

Namjoon didn’t respond as he continued to gather his things and pack. He didn’t care if he had things to do as soon as he got back, the only thing he needed was to go see you and make things right.

Jin followed Namjoon into his room, closing the door behind him, “What’s gotten into you? Why are you so anxious?” he asked, sitting down on the bed and watching as Namjoon continued to pack.

“I need to see Y/n” Namjoon said plainly. He didn’t want to confide in his hyung about this one thing, because he knew how close you both were. He didn’t want his hyung to be disappointed in him.

“Yeah, I can see that, but it’s worse than usual?” Jin said.

“I- I had a fight with Y/n before we left hyung” Namjoon said, finally slowing down and hoping Jin would drop it at that. Jin waited for him to continue though. “And... and I haven’t heard from her in two weeks” Namjoon sighed, realizing he couldn’t hide it from Jin.

“What?! She hasn’t called you at all since we got here?” Jin asked.

“No. And she won’t answer her phone or even respond to my text messages. I even called her friend, and she won’t answer either. I think I really fucked up. What if she breaks up with me over this?” Namjoon says, panicking.

“Ok no, it won’t come to that. Just tell me what happened, ok?” Jin said, trying to calm down Namjoon.

And so Namjoon explained everything to his hyung. The terrible week he had, the overwhelming stress and anger he felt, the way he exploded at you, and all the terrible things he said to you.

“Wow,, that was really loaded” Jin said, sadly. He knew just as well as Namjoon that you didn’t deserve any of that. “Now that I think about it, I sent her a few pictures while we were here and she never responded to that either” Jin finally realizes.

“Oh...” Namjoon said sadly. He didn’t know if that was a good or bad thing yet. Would it have been better if you were still willing to talk to the others and not him? Or had something happened to you?

“How about as soon as we land, you take another car, buy the biggest bouquet of flowers, and go over to her place. It should be after work hours. Spend the night, I’ll explain things to our manager, hmm?” Jin offers. Namjoon smiled slightly at the gesture.

“Thank you hyung” Namjoon said. “And I’m sorry” he said truthfully.

“I’m not the one who needs the apology, stupid. Just.. don’t hurt her again.. next time I’ll whoop your ass” Jin says, smiling as he heads to his own bed to sleep.

(x)

Just like Jin had suggested, Namjoon had taken a separate van from the boys and stopped at the local flower boutique to pick up some of your favorite flowers. He even got some of your favorite cake slices at the bakery near your house too for good measure. You might be able to deny him, but there was no way you could deny that lucious coffee cake you loved oh so much.

The sun was slowly setting when Namjoon had gotten to your apartment. He took a deep breath as he held the flowers and cake and one hand and finally pulled out his keys to your place. He swallowed loudly, before opening the door, bracing for what was to come. He’d let you yell at him and take out all your frustrations out on him, but you leaving him was not an option.

“Y/n, love?” Namjoon says, finally entering your apartment. The apartment was still lit from the natural light, but it looked like no one was home. He frowned. where is she?

He decided it was just best to wait for you. He needed to see you, talk to you, hold you after what felt like forever.

After waiting for over half an hour, he finally heard the keys enter the lock on the front door. He quickly stood, gathering the flowers in hand, and squinted his eyes when the lights turned on. He hadn’t even noticed it was now completely dark outside.

“y-” he began, but frowned when he only saw your friend, Yerin instead.

“Holy shit you scared me” she said jumping. Before Namjoon could answer, he looked down at the keys she was holding, and they were clearly yours. He knew that little bear keychain he had gotten you by heart now.

“What are you doing here?” he asked. “Why do you have Y/n’s keys?” Namjoon asks, placing the flowers back down on the coffee table.

“Nice of you to finally care about someone other than yourself” Yerin snarled. Yerin was always wary of your relationship with Namjoon. She knew it couldn’t be easy dating an idol, but she always admired your willingness to put 100% into the relationship. Namjoon knew that Yerin wasn’t very fond of him, but they always tried to be polite with one another.

Namjoon flinched at her words. So you had shared what had happened with her. “Where is Y/n? Please, I really need to see her. Is she ok?” Namjoon asked. He looked absolutely dejected at this point. It was evident in his eyes that he was incredibly worried about you and really needed to see you.

Yerin had a whole speech planned out for when she had to see him again. She was ready to rip into him, but even she couldn’t ignore the look in his eyes. And while she really hated Namjoon at this moment, she knew that he only felt genuine love for you. What relationship didn’t have ups and downs? And who was she to judge your relationship.

“Namjoon... her dad passed. The day you left for your little joy trip, her dad passed away. His surgery didn’t go well. She asked you to stay not because she felt the need to cuddle as you so slightly put it, she needed someone to lean on when her father was sick in the hospital. And you couldn’t even let her explain before you left, so no, she’s not ok. She passed out at work earlier this week because she went through the funeral basically alone. She didn’t eat, or sleep, let alone drink water. So she’s been in the hospital all week. The doctor said she could probably come home tomorrow so I’m only here to get a change of clothes for her” Yerin explained. “I wasn’t supposed to tell you this in case I saw you, but I think you deserve to feel at least a fraction of the pain she’s felt these past two weeks” Yerin finished before heading to your room to gather your clothes.

Namjoon just stood there in shock. Your father... had passed. And he hadn’t been there for you. He wasn’t there to help you through such a painful part of your life. You sat through his funeral, absolutely alone. You hadn’t found the energy to take care of yourself which resulted you being hospitalized. What kind of a sick boyfriend makes his love go through that all alone? The one who hadn’t thought of her.

“Which hospital?” Namjoon asked slowly as Yerin emerged again with a small bag. “Please, let me come with you” Namjoon pleaded, tearing up. “Please” he basically whispered.

“Fine. I swear to god though if you make her cry again I won’t hesitate to kick you out myself” Yerin threatened.

Namjoon followed her like a lost puppy, sadness filling his entire being as he got closer and closer to the hospital. What was he even supposed to say? He knew what your relationship was like with your father. You were so happy that he was now back in your life and he remembered how you cried when you found out about his sickness. He remembers assuring you that everything would work out, that your father would recover and you’d spend more time with him

Yerin parked her car in front of the hospital, telling him your room number and that she’d be up after parking her car a few minutes later. Even she knew that you both needed a minute or two alone.

Namjoon basically ran all the way to your room, asking any nurse he could find where your room was. As soon as he reached your door, he took another deep breath, before sliding the door open.

If he thought he felt sadness before, nothing compared to the pain and sadness he felt now that he saw the sight before him now. You laid in bed on your side, resting your head on your arm. You faced had thinned, dark circles under your eyes, and there was absolutely no life in your eyes. Your eyes met his for a few seconds, acknowledging that you noticed him, before your eyes returned to the wall.

Namjoon walked in, closing the door behind him. He gulped, walking slowly to your side. “Y/n...” he started, causing you to close your eyes.

“Y/n.. I’m so sorry” He starts. His voice trembled with each word, and he was pretty sure it was only a matter of seconds before the tears spilled from his eyes. He sat down on the chair next to your bed, and he reached for your hand. The tears finally spilled when your jerked your hand back with what little energy you had left.

“I’m so fucking sorry” Namjoon tried again. He was at a loss for words. No speech he rehearsed for could fit for this.

“I-” he started again.

“Leave me alone” You say, eyes still closed. You said it so quietly he wasn’t sure you had even said it, but when when the tears cascaded down your face even with your eyes closed, he knew you had.

“I can’t do that” Namjoon said. “I’m not leaving you now. Or ever. Not like this” Namjoon said firmly.

“Go, Namjoon” You commanded again.

“No”

“Don’t make me ask the nurses to get you to leave” You say, still not opening your eyes.

“I’m not leaving” Namjoon says again. No way in hell could he ever leave you like this.

Just then Yerin had came in as well. She had heard your request. “Namjoon, leave” she said firmly. “She doesn’t need this right now”

“I can’t! How- How can I? She’s not well and I- I can’t” Namjoon fumbled.

“Just GO” you said as loud as you could, causing Namjoon to flinch. You turned to your other side, signaling that this conversation was officially over and that he was no longer welcome here.

Yerin held the door open for him, urging him to leave. Namjoon plopped himself down on the chair outside your room, resting his head in his hands. How had things become this bad so fast? If he had only taken the time to listen to you that night, he could have been there for you! He could have taken care of you like deserved rather than leaving you alone when you need him the most.

Yerin stepped out of the room a few minutes later.

“Look, I have to go into court tomorrow morning to take over for Y/n’s case. I can’t take her home. So as much as it kills me to do this, I need to ask you to take her home once she’s discharged in the morning” she says, angrily. “Or I can call Jin?” she thinks out loud.

“NO. I’ll do it. I’ll do it.” Namjoon says, thankful for the opportunity. He wasn’t sure that when morning came, you’d let him take you home, but at least it was a start.

(x)

When the doctor noticed him sitting outside, Namjoon quickly explained that you were the last of her family and the doctor explained to him as simply as possible what went down the last week. You were extremely weak and had to take it easy for the next couple of weeks while you gained your strength back. No work, and you needed someone to take care of you as well. Namjoon cursed at himself internally as the doctor only confirmed how much pain you must have been in emotionally.

“People deal with loss differently, but this is an exceptionally grave way of dealing with it. Please take care of her” The doctor requested before leaving to check on other patients.

After singing all the paperwork and paying for the long hospital stay, Namjoon entered your room again. You stood by your bed now, and the shirt that used to fit you so well a few weeks ago hung loose on your shoulders. Was it possible to lose that much weight in two weeks? It looked like you had basically starved yourself.

Namjoon cringed internally.

As you placed the last of your things in the bag, you turned to face who you assumed was Yerin. You glared at Namjoon when your eyes landed on him.

“I thought I asked you to leave” you sighed, sitting back down on the bed.

“I’m taking you home” Namjoon said, ignoring your request.

“No, I think Yerin is” you say, pulling out your phone.

“No, she had to take your case to court today. I’m taking you. End of discussion” Namjoon said.

“No. I’ll take an uber or something” you mumbled, cursing at Yerin inside.

“Unfortunately, the doctor requires that a family or friend take you home and I’m the only one right now. So unless you want to stay here another day or so...” namjoon said as he walked over to grab your bag “I suggest you let me take you home” He said.

You glared at him again. While the stubborn part of you would have stayed here another night just to avoid the car ride home with him, you hated the hospital. Once the funeral was over, you had prayed to get out of there as soon as possible and yet you ended right back there a day or so later for yourself.

Namjoon led the way to his car and you got into the passenger seat, holding onto your bag tightly. You only looked out the window the entire car ride back. You didn’t say a single thing and Namjoon was too afraid to say anything.

When he parked his car outside your apartment complex, you quickly unbuckled your seatbelt and stepped out. You turned to face him for the first time “I can get inside perfectly fine” you say, implying Namjoon was not welcome inside your apartment.

“Let me take you inside, please Y/n” he pleads. He was supposed to be taking care of you, how could he do that when he wasn’t allowed in your place.

“I was stupid before. I can take care of myself without your help. You’ve taught me that once again, I can’t depend on anyone but myself. Goodbye Namjoon” you said, ending this conversation as you closed the door.

You couldn’t depend on anyone but yourself? Had he really let you believe that? He teared up again at the thought. Namjoon could only watch as you walked slowly back to your apartment. Your weakness was evident in the way you walked and he told himself that in a minute or so he’d follow just to make sure you made it inside ok. Before you walked into the building though, you had stopped and turned your head to the side. Someone had called out to you.

Namjoon follows your line of sight to see none other than Jin step out of his own car and rush over to you. Namjoon had called him the night before and explained everything to him. Jin was incredibly upset and mad that he hadn’t called sooner. He only said that he’d see you as soon as you got back home before hanging up on him.

Namjoon watched on as Jin runs up to you, and the both of you engaging in some conversation. Jin hugs you a moment later, and that was all it took for you to break down in sobs in his arms. Jin tries his best to calm you down before ushering you inside, but not before shooting Namjoon a look letting him know that he’d take care of you,

(x)

Namjoon trudged back into the dorm, with all eyes on him. “Hyung, what happened?” Jimin asked, running up to him. “Jin told us about Y/n and her father. We thought you’d be with her”

“I fucked up, Jimin. That’s what happened. I’m now the last person she wants to see. I said things to her before our trip that I didn’t even mean and now she can’t even be in the same room as me. The person she was supposed to depend on and trust? I’m no longer that person for her. And I don’t know what to do” says Namjoon before breaking down in sobs himself. Did he really just lose you?

Between worrying about your health and the fate or your relationship with him, Namjoon was absolutely terrified. Fortunately the boys didn’t have any schedules for the next few days because there was no way in hell that Namjoon could have stepped out the dorm without looking like a complete mess.

Could he call you? show up at your place again? Would you even let him inside, even if he had a key? He raked through his mind with any possibility of you letting him just talk to you but he couldn’t see it happening, and that just tore his heart apart even more.

(X)

You told yourself you’d do anything to avoid the hospital again, so you ate, even if all the food tasted like dirt. Even the cake that was in your fridge didn’t appeal to you. You drank water forcibly and tried to sleep at a normal time. Luckily, work had given you a few weeks off to recover and grieve, but part of you just needed some normaly again.

Your mind was overthinking everything. Not only had you lost your father suddenly, but you also felt like you lost Namjoon, even if it was you pushing him away this time.

You always though you had understood him and that he had appreciated you all the more because of it. So when he threw that right back in your face the one time you genuinely needed him by your side, it hurt like hell. You were also angry that you felt the need to depend on someone when your whole life taught you that that would eventually blow up in your face anyways. Your mom died when you were young and still growing. Your dad died when you finally let him in your life again. And Namjoon left when you didn’t even expect it.

You didn’t know what made you more sad- the fact that the last of your family was dead or that you felt like you were going to be alone for the rest of your life.

Jin had been over the last few days, bringing food and just sitting with you. He’d play movies or watch some tv with you while you just sat. He’d let you cry, or force feed you some food, but you were glad you weren’t alone at the moment.

One night though, he finally decided enough was enough. Even he could tell that what he wasn’t doing enough. You were missing a certain someone and it was evident, even if you’d never admit it yourself.

“Y/n, we need to talk” Jin began.

“I’ve been eating all the food you leave me, I swear” you say.

“No not about that. But good, I’m glad. I actually need to talk to you about Namjoon” and he could feel you still next to him on the couch. “You need him, sweet girl” he said slowly.

“No I don’t” you say, irritated.

“Yes you do. And more importantly, he really needs you as well. You should see him at the dorm. While you’ve been here slowly recovering, he’s going in the opposite direction. He hasn’t been sleeping well or eating” he says.

You frown when you hear that. You hadn’t wished that for him.

“He’s so incredibly sorry, Y/n. He had such a bad week when he blew up on you. Of course, that doesn’t compare to your pain in any way, but you should have seen him the entire trip. He was itching to be back in Seoul and see you. He felt so bad. He called you and texted you so many times, and you were all he could think about. I’m not saying you have to forgive him right away, but just talk hmm? You both need it” he coaxes you.

You contemplate it. Despite what you told yourself, you really did miss him. You could understand the week he had after Jin explained it to you. And despite the fear of depending on someone again, you knew you needed him.

“I’ll... I’ll call him later” You say. “ You should go home, Jin. Thank you for the last few days” you say, smiling for the first time since you got home.

“Promise?” he asks.

“I promise”

(X)

Namjoon laid in bed, just staring at the ceiling, a seemingly favorite pastime of his recently. He heard his phone ring next to him and he lazily answered it, not even bothering to see who it was.

“Hello?” he asked, slowly.

“Namjoon” he heard, and that was all it took for him to jump right out of bed.

“Y/n” he says. “It’s you” he says, as if he had to confirm the fact out loud for it to be true. He could hear you sigh over the line.

“Do you.. do you think you can come over?” you asked after a moment.

“I’m leaving right now, love” he said, darting out of the room. Jin watches on with a small smile.

“I have a feeling he won’t be back for a few days, guys” Jin says to the other guys who watched with a confused look.

(X)

Namjoon ran all the way up to your floor, despite it being three floors up. He wasn’t really sure why you had called, perhaps it was even to end the relationship once and for all, but he didn’t care. You had asked to see him, and that’s all that mattered.

He didn’t want to just barge in on you, so he knocked on the door and a few moments later, you opened the door, staring at him with doe eyes. He breathes a sigh of relief when he sees some life in your eyes again.

“Come in” you say timidly.

He steps in and takes his shoes off, and he just stares at you. Both of you are unsure what to do, this is new territory.

“Y/n, love, I’m so so-” he starts

“Don’t. Please just... I don’t want to talk about that” you say, interrupting him.

Namjoon stares at you again. Was this going to be the end? He feels his heart drop.

He watches as you visibly swallow. “Can you just... can you please just hold me?” you say, quietly, and finally looking up at his eyes.

Namjoon eyes widen in surprise a little, but he wrapped his arms around your small frame almost instantly. He could never deny you of anything. “I missed you so much” he says into your hair before placing a small kiss on your head.

It was only then that you also returned the gesture and wrapped your hands around your boyfriend’s bigger frame. He felt you slowly cry into his shirt as it got wet from your tears.

“I love you so much baby, I’m not leaving you ever” he said, holding onto you tighter.

He lifts you into his arms before walking the both of you to your dark bedroom. He didn’t even need to turn on the light, he knew that room like the back of his hand. He placed you slowly down on the bed before getting in with you and holding you while you wrapped your legs around his.

It was such a weird feeling that took over the both of you in that instant. While the both of you were still quite sad about the previous weeks’ events, the both of you were also slowly starting to fill with happiness because of the unsaid truth that you both would be ok. You’d make it through this, despite the words exchanged. You’d both lean on each other and love each other unconditionally, despite the bumps along the way, but you’d be together nonetheless. And that was all the both of you needed as you fell asleep in each others arms.

A/n: I hope you guys liked this. I’d appreciate the feedback! Would you like to see more oneshots?

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briarrosescurse · 4 years ago

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(dances) 📖 what if, idol au 4 all ur beebs

i may know shit abt idols and how everything works BUT id die on a hill for this au (dances with u)

also pls dont mind my inner kpoppie coming out, my bias for certain styles is rlly shining through... IM ALSO NO EXPERT, SO DONT JUDGE ME

idols au

roza: she is in an unit but occasionally releases single albums due to her astounding popularity! roza follows usually girl crush concepts or concepts focused around love (including heartbreak) but her fans also adore it when she deviates from that and takes another turn - for example, in their latest comebacks (and roza’s solo), their concepts changed more into self-love!

despite that, people are so surprised to find out how much of a playful sweetheart she actually is. due to her clueless but entertaining personality, people love seeing her in interviews or shows.

roza is vocally quite strong and is usually praised for her range. she definitely has room for improvement in the dance apartment, but in her unit, she is the main vocalist. other people would consider her to be the visual alongside with another member.

examples would be; blackpink and mamamoo but as well as heize and iu

xiang: this man works as a solo idol and he is known for his more mature, sensual and sometimes rather explicit concepts. his albums are always a... sight to behold, honestly. let’s just say, they follow rather risque ideas - but hey, the producers and managers can’t complain, he’s bringing in the cash.

xiang is most definitely a more visual and dance heavy idol - his good looks attract attention and not to mention his build allows for some rather unique wardrobe choices. fancams of those love to go viral and they make people’s jaws drop.

other than that, he is actually excelling quite well at demanding dances - people like to praise him for keeping up a great vocal performance despite the difficult dances.

compared to actor au, however, he is viewed with a much more critical eye; xiang’s bold and doesn’t hold back his tongue, after all. not to mention, his fans grow quite jealous of him being possibly involved in love affairs.

if i had to give examples of the type of music he’d have, i’d say... wonho - it’s exactly what i imagine for xiang. other than that, i’d add taemin, nct or vixx

theodor: sweet lil’ theo is in an unit! his height brings him a bit at an disadvantage but his vocal abilities are very outstanding for that. he very much fits in more cheerful and crush themes - people eat that shit up and think his unit’s eras with those concepts is where he shines.

people love to gift him plushies of alpacas or llamas during fanmeets. he keeps every single one of them and the amount of photos that he posts of them with himself is astounding - not to mention during the fanmeets, you can see him hugging them for almost the whole duration.

watching the dance practices is usually pretty fun because you can see theodor making funny faces; he always brings a lot of sunshine with that cute face of his into the room and that makes him a huuuuge fan favorite for the stans of his group.

examples would be: shinee and got7

balgair: ASSUMING balgair would be in stagrove as a sort of. subunit? OR AT LEAST in a group with a similar style. i’d say he is definitely a dance heavy idol. most likely lead dancer AT LEAST. i think of like... very on point and synchronized. definitely also pretty rebellious and bad boy concepts going on.

like i said, i'd deem balgair to be a lead dancer - people would say he is rather underappreciated and deserves a lot more recognition. they also complain about the lack of his lines. but further than that, balgair's got a very charming and charismatic character - he only lets his mischievous side show during shows or interviews. he also appears to be fluent in a few foreign languages, so international fans always joke about him having a secret account to see what content the fans produce for him.

during fanmeets people LOVE talking to him, just because of how extroverted and friendly he is. they also comment on how, close up, you can really notice his unique fox-like face structures.

examples: nct and block b

chloe: she's a rather more 'unknown' idol, if you are not part of the community, but still has a certain reputation. as a solo artist, she goes against the typical girl crush concept and follows something more gender stereotype breaking.

she's very heavy on the vocal parts and also is praised for her pretty face, despite the lack of facial expressions she shows during lives or interviews. however, according to her fans, the longer you follow her and her content, the more you realize she's just a very awkward girl, bad at expressing her feelings - but that's what makes her so loveable.

she isn't the most actice idol, thus comebacks are rather not frequent for her, but you can very often see ads where she participates.

examples: moonbyul

madeline: good ol' maddy is the visual of his group. his vocal range is outstanding, but he is only considered as the lead vocal in his unit. he's another one where people like to say that his dancing leaves room for improvement; it's an inside joke in his fanbase that he is stiff like a log during dance practice.

madeline was formerly just an actor before he switched branches. his fanbase carried over as well, so he already made a name for himself. people did enjoy watching his growth, though; at first, it was hard for him getting used to teamwork, as he appeared to see it all as a competition instead of a group project, thus he was rather hostile in his trainee days. but he grew and developed and his fanbase really enjoys pointing that out about him.

his concepts are often a bit more on the emotional side; showing a rather vulnerable side of love, so to say. other than, his concepts are a lot more 'artsy' and tend to carry a convoluted plotline throughout the album. it's unusual, but certainly unique.

examples: bts and exo

briar: and lastly! our pricky prick himself! briar is one of the unexpectedly older idols but for that he is pretty much a talent in all fields - dancing, singing and even his visuals are nothing to complain about. he is a bit more... controversial, so to say? a lot of multistans think he is rather arrogant and really unfriendly - while they recognize his talent, they are critical of his attitude.

his concepts are varying, but it's usually also more of a bad boy and mature theme. his dance routines are fun to watch. sometimes, behind the scenes, you can see him teaching other members or helping them out. it's not too unusual for people to believe he is the leader of the unit.

examples: nu'est and 2pm

#twst oc #twisute oc #twisted wonderland oc #rozalina von dorimé #xiang yu #theodor peigne #balgair lane-fox #chloe-ruth chester #madeline hadder #briar prickler #au scenario rq #[my writing]#[idol au]

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howllscastle · 5 years ago

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🕊️ bias tag

i was tagged by @forehead-enthusiast to list my biases and just,, describe them? talk about them? yeah something along those lines

and since this will get long i’ll put it under the cut also some spicy changes to the bias list below check if u have any interest

the ult ult

huang renjun (nct): the light of my life (hahahjas get it ,,, i’m sorry), i would DIE for him, i would go STRAIGHT for him, a pure ball of light that also tears people apart for fun. has the prettiest and i mean PRETTIEST voice known to the universe, i literally just sit and listen to his radio shows while doing work and not even caring that i can’t understand him bc i love listening to him that much. and don’t even get me STARTED on his singing voice oh my god it’s so smooth and pretty and angelical and just- wow. sm we need a renjun solo album NOW. and he’s literally? so smart? and intellectual? despite only being 19 he has such great life advice? i’d pay him to be my therapist despite him not being a therapist. he may seem like a sarcastic little typical aries but he cares for his members so much, chenle and jisung are literally his children, sicheng is literally his older brother, i can’t. ok this is getting way too long i’ll shut up now

other ults but not huang renjun level ults

na jaemin (nct): where do i even begin with na jaemin, he’s a ray of sunshine, a very whiny sunshine, but sunshine nonetheless. he is also a comedic genius but unlike renjun who’s snarky and sarcastic and witty, jaemin is just plain weird. he’s so dumb but in the cutest and most endearing way. his love for his fellow members is absolutely PRECIOUS can they pls accept his hugs and kisses pls. and the way he loves nctzens oh my god we Literally don’t deserve him. like at all. and his TALENT. the legend jumped out. his verse in go and the opening of we go up send me into another dimension. ok before i go on and on and on i’ll stop here

moonbyul (mamamoo): a new addition to the ult list, she’s taken over my heart insanely fast. i even have a counter that started the day i realized she’s my mamamoo bias . it’s only been 13 days. N E WAYS. whenever i see her my heart just?? feels so full? and content?? and happy?? and warm?? she’s a literal goddess, i’d gladly idk,, sacrifice myself for her. and we can’t Not talk about her VOICE. whenever i her lines come up in songs i have a meltdown. but u know what RLY gets to me??? how she’s gotten so much more confident in her singing voice (despite auditioning as a vocalist but i assume she just lost confidence as she became known as a rapper and wasn’t singing as much), i’ve noticed there’s not many older clips of her singing but then boom!! i found out she was on masked singer at the end of last year. that’s wild!! wow,,, ok i need to STOP

just normal biases from here

kim doyoung (nct): yes,,, he has been moved down to just a bias,, i’m so sorry doyoung ILY but fate just put u here again. but yeah can i just say, he has my favorite voice out of nct, i literally have a playlist on yt of him singing to listen to when i’m sad/not feeling good. sm we also need a doyoung solo album. and the way he literally doesn’t put up with anyone’s shit? iconic. like yes . put fans in their place. have a member u clearly like more. be lazy and own it. but also ! he can be such a babie like,,, who allowed this. WHO

mark lee (nct): omg that rhymes mark lee from nct ahhahahsjjhi’msosorry let’s be honest, everyone is at least a tiny bit a mark stan, i just happen to have lots and lots of the mark stan gene. he’s so so talented and so so hardworking he rly deserves the whole entire world. if u see him laugh i guaranTEE your day will immediately become better, unless you’re sitting next to him and he slaps u maybe it won’t. anyways, i don’t say this enough but i love love LOVE his voice and his lines are almost always my favorite part in songs. he’s also such a dork he’s so cute and does dumb things and says weird things but it’s cute !! and endearing!! again: he deserves the world

hendery (wayv/nct): yet another dumb and extremely endearing dork, he’s literally SO funny, whenever i watch . almost any video he’s in i’m guaranteed to cry from laughter. and his facial expressions? absolutely hilarious. but he’s also so so sweet like,,, “i’m your chinese book” ??? lit rally the most caring, and when he was talking about something along the lines of wanting to be recognized for his talent and character not his looks (don’t remember exactly what he said but yeah) wow,,, anyways . i would do anything for him

chungha: does she count as a bias ?? as she’s a soloist ?? idc i’m including her. u can’t get anymore legendary than chungha, she’s top tier. that wink in rollercoaster?? universes are created whenever she does it. a PERFECT universe was created when she did it and the bling under her eye sparkled at the same time. and chica?? all female backup dancers?? again . LEGEND oh speaking of backup dancers, she’s so close with all her dancers it’s honestly precious. u know who else is precious? yeah u guessed it, chungha. the way she gets scared so easily honestly i feel bad but it’s CUTE

young k (day6): literally,,, love this guy,,,, so much,,, how can someone be THIS perfect i don’t get it. perfect vocals,,, perfect rap,,, perfect face,,, perfect personality,,,,, HOW. ok can we talk about his voice for a second, his range??? the way he goes from that low voice to perfect high notes ?? (that one part in my day,,, if u know, u know) and when he has fun with the notes (like in feeling good or . basically every live stage tbh) u can TELL how much he enjoys singing i just,,, let me go cry

jeon heejin (loona): the nations gf, everyone loves her. as they SHOULD, she’s a pure ball of sunshine, just a babie. also can i just say, the acoustic version of vivid is Superior, and the video of her playing guitar while singing it??? legendary we won’t talk about the greedy fancam bc that’s too much to handle

kim hyunjin (loona): imagine biasing the best pair of best friends, only icons can relate. ok but rly people don’t appreciate her enough it makes me sad : ( like yes she lowkey has rbf but she’s a whole cutie !! highkey relatable with her love for bread like . me too and her voice : ( it’s so deep and pretty and : ( basically in conclusion she makes me sad bc i love her so much

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tagging: @empathyuck @1ove1ies @d6hotel @cinanamon @wlnwin @wantmv @pinktea99 @rcnjun @nctweboom @adorablejeno

#i didn't do Every bias bc this would be waaayyy too long #this is already too long i'd be surprised if anyone reads the whole thing #also this is so late omg..#tag game

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dong-hyucks · 7 years ago

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Dating Lay Would Include…

A/N: okay !! so as you guys may know, there is a high chance of me opening applications for a new admin so keep on the lookout for that sometime soon [it also depends on the response i get, like if no one talks to me about it i’ll probably think no one is interested in being an admin so--]

Masterlists

okay so wow

it’s only been 14 days since the baekhyun one guys be proud i didn’t take 14 years

lmao jk MOVING ON

so you’re just a regular person

you live your life normally, working as a [profession/job]

to be honest, your work life takes up so much of your time, you don’t get to enjoy the luxury of plain old relaxation

it wasn’t always like that, but after your hard work got you noticed by your employer, he promoted you which meant more money, so who were you to complain

however, it also meant more hours

what is free time? you have no idea

but !! thanks to your countless overtimes and hours worked, you managed to grow a hefty amount of time off

which you took the moment your birthday neared

after that, you met up with your friends

friends: wow, look at that-- [Y/N]’s not working for once wowow what?? a?? rare?? occasion??

anywhoodle, your friend had become an intern at the one and only, SM Entertainment

and that week happened to be a ‘holiday’ of sorts, in which different ranks (of employees) were allowed to bring a friend or family member on a specific day

it was friday, the day for interns and other lower ranked positions

ps this is not a real holday lmao

so, she brought you

unfortunately,,, you got lost literally half an hour after you arrived

at that point, you were just wandering aimlessly down hallways

luckily for you, you were given a guest pass so you didn’t get reprimanded by security

as you passed a room, you could hear a familiar song being blasted from within

you naturally got curious and whoop-di-whoop you walked in without knocking

good job, very polite

you were shocked at what you saw

a man, presumably in his twenties, was dancing in the dimly lit room

he apparently didn’t see or hear you, too focused on his movements and on the music

you were just :o the entire time

his body moved fluidly, as if the bones and all the joints in his body didn’t feel pain as he bent this way and that

as you watched in just utter amazement, you didn’t notice the male sneaking up behind you

you too were focused on the dancer and the music

suddenly, someone -- the male -- firmly took hold of your shoulders

you let out a noise, perhaps a squeak, maybe not

your little noise alerted the wonderful dancer of your presence

the man, the one who had surprised you, chuckled

“wow, yixing, looks like you’ve got a fan here.”

yixing laughed a little, but he looked like he had no idea what was going on

same

anywAy you were reunited with your friend via security and nothing else really happened for the rest of the day

your life went as usual, until your birthday <<

your friends took you out to a restaurant and bOoM guess who you see

that’s right, the dAnCer from before

he was w a group of friends, but your own must’ve noticed you kept glancing over at their table because they started laughing

your intern friend was like wOaH [Y/N] yOu LiKe tHem??

they almost forced you to go over to their table bUt wow the boys did it for you

basically the same guy who had you by the shoulders walked up to your table, dragging yixing with him

“hi, hey, hello, i’m baekhyun-- i saw you last week, yes -- my friend would like your number”

cue awkward silence

your friends were practically convulsing in their seats while you were just ???

you made eye contact with yixing for a split second before he looked away in embarrassment -- from his friend or from the eye contact, you weren’t sure

“sure”

even baekhyun looked shocked, no one was expecting you to actually agree

that was the start of yours and yixing’s friendship tho, so it’s all good

at first, you only sent texts together like once a week but after you mentioned one of his favourite songs he instantly became the person you talked to most lol

rip your friends

anyway he didn’t catch feelings until like five months later

and when he realized he liked you he may or may not have accidentally confessed to you

oops he accidentally called you instead of kyungsoo and practically spilled about his crush

“... yixing”

“oh shit”

yes but anyway you were the one who asked him out

it was a pretty straight forward convo over the phone but both of you were left smiling at your phones once you hung up

woo we’ve reached the main part of this post

okay so

i feel like yixing would be such a sweet boyf

like, he’d randomly buy you gifts and be really nonchalant about it all, he’d compliment you at least twice a day, he tells you he loves you often, etc.

if you say something about his gifts, i.e “yixing pls are you trying to buy me over--”

“what do you mean? i just love you so much, you deserve the world and more.”

yeah he’ll say cheesy stuff like that sometimes

other times he just says and does the randomest things

like some days he’ll be really quiet for a while and then the moment you look over in his direction he’ll pull a strange face or just start dancing

you’re either ??? half the time or you’re joining in on the randomness

eventually he just gets you to join in honestly

overall a v fun relationship

anywho!! the first ily happened pretty early on

yixing was quite straight forward bc honestly he fell for you and your wonderful personality so quickly

so he had no shame in saying it

that by no means mean he forced you to say it back, he’d be willing to wait as long as he had to for you to say it

but!! when you did say it he was ecstatic

he was over the moon

he’d get this smile on his face, one different from the one you see in pictures and fancams

and he’d get really cuddly

a bit more than usual

from then on you guys say it like everyday

whenever he’s texting you and he has to go, he ends his texts w ‘ily xx’

and when he’s in town he always kisses your cheek good bye and says ‘i love you’ whenever he’s leaving or you are

moving on

your first kiss happened about a month after you two started dating

you were having one of those casual dates; pyjamas, food, movies in the living room, etc.

truthfully, you had picked a very boring movie but the two of you were too comfortable under your blankets to change it

so you just talked to each other the entire movie with it quietly playing in the background

he had his arm around you and you had your legs thrown over his lap

you talked about random things

from your job, to his career, to the puppy you saw earlier in the day

and while you were talking about something, you had this small smile on your face due to your enthusiasm for what you were talking about

yixing was staring at you with literally heart eyes bc ‘wow, i’ve been truly blessed to be in a relationship with an angel’

after a moment or two, you noticed how he was just looking at you fondly

you got flustered for a moment before relaxing under his gaze

it got really quiet, neither of you speaking

completely tuning out the movie, yixing leaned forward and just kissed you

it wasn’t a long kiss by any means, a second long at the most

but w o w his warmth was just transferred to you in a single second

he wouldn’t even say anything about it, instead he would press another kiss against your temple before bringing you closer to his chest

“i love you”

soft

okay so you two talk about pets quite a bit

sOrRy iF yoU’Re ALLeRgIC? you can have a golfish bubs

you would both love to have a pet but both of your jobs are quite demanding and you wouldn’t be able to take care of said pet very well

but you still talk about it a lot anyway

you live vicariously through the other member’s and your friends whom own pets

that was a short topic

moving on again

your first fight yikes

you two don’t fight fight that often

like, you have mini squabbles every now and then

over what movie you wanted to watch, whose playlist you’d play in the car, etc.

but the first actual fight you had was over nothing, really

you were both stressed from work and at that point you both just wanted to sleep for eternity

the two of you ended up having a little argument about something small

one thing led to another, you were leaving the vicinity and slamming the door without a single word

yixing didn’t follow, too tired to function as he normally would

it was only half an hour later when he realized that you had rushed out in anger

he got super worried because ‘what if you didn’t get home safely?’

he began to get super guilty

quickly rushing out of the dorms, with the boys asking why he was in such a hurry, he looked for you

he only realized after he stepped outside that it was raining

then he was literally in panic mode because you could hurt yourself somehow aNd get sick

so he basically stole one of the member’s cars and started to look for you

eventually, he found you standing underneath the shelter of a corner store

he easily recognized you from down the street, even though your head was bowed

as he parked the car, he noticed how you were shivering

he walked up to you, gently placing his hands on your shoulders and rubbing up and down your arms

you jumped, but you relaxed after seeing who was in front of you

“yixing? what--”

“‘what’ doesn’t matter right now, you’re freezing. c’mon we’ll head back to your place where you can take a nice, hot bath.”

you just followed, staring at his back as you both walked

the drive to your house was in silence, even the radio was turned down

when the two of you arrived, he waited patiently for you to open the door, not uttering a word

after that, he told you to make yourself a hot chocolate [or tea, or coffee-- whatever you prefer] while he drew a bath

you just complied

by the time he came back into the kitchen, you were sitting at your kitchen table sipping on a cup of cocoa

he sat across from you; “the bath’s ready,” he said, even though it was quite obvious

you just left to bathe in silence

when you came back, yixing had fallen asleep at your kitchen table

you started feeling worse because ‘wow, i’ve taken so much time away from his day already and now he’s probably uncomfortable--’

you moved to shake him, so that he could sleep on your bed or something more comfortable, but he awoke before you could

he merely looked up at you, his head still in his arms

“i’m sorry.”

“i’m sorry too.”

he shifted, stretching his arms

he smiled gently over at you, making you melt a bit inside

“what were we even fighting about?”

“if we can’t even remember, it was probably something dumb.”

standing up, yixing took your hand and brought you to your room

he slowly lied down, bringing you with him

his arm fell over your body, tugging you closer to his chest as he always did whenever you hugged

he pressed another soft kiss to your temple, then your cheek, and finally your lips

it was like his way of apologizing again

you could tell he was falling asleep because he started to blink longer

“yixing, we’re still in our outside clothes and we haven’t brushed--”

“shh, i’ll still love you in the morning even when you have stinky morning breath.”

“yiXING--”

you just laughed into his chest before relaxing

you could hear his beating heart, how it began to slow as he fell asleep

as you closed your eyes, the last thing you could remember was him shifting to hold your hand

okay wow

this took an hour

anywho-- a relationship with yixing would have so many sides to it

the soft, romantic side

the random yet amazing side

the serene, quiet side

and at times, a hyper side

overall, yixing would treat you like royalty

i’d hope you do the same for him

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smuttykpopscenarios · 7 years ago

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The Perfect Outfit

Anon: Can I have a smut with Song Kyungil from HISTORY?

Author: Admin A

Character(s): Kyungil (HISTORY)/Reader

Word Count: 2526

Summary: Picking an outfit for a concert is incredibly important.

“Fuck they look so good.” You groaned and fell back on your bed, holding your pillow over your face. On the foot off your bed, a playlist of History played. Music video after dance practice after fancam. You loved it, but they all drove you insane. Especially the giant with the angelic voice. “Freaking Kyungil tryin’ to kill me over here,” you muttered to yourself, sitting back up to answer a few messages.

You hummed along with their singing as you replied to everything, finalizing plans for your trip to stay with a friend in Seoul for the History concert tomorrow. You still couldn’t believe it when you best friend called you up having a fit about how she had scored VVIP tickets. You were going to get to meet them. You were going to get to meet History! As the thoughts tore through your mind, you couldn’t help but squeal in excitement, falling back again and kicking your legs. How you were going to be able to sleep after this, you had no idea. You rolled over to look at the clock on the wall, seeing it reading 2:15 am already. You let out a sigh, knowing you would have to hit the road by 5 to get to your friend’s house by 7 to get ready.

“Well, I guess that answers that question. No point in sleeping now.” You stretched your arms over your head before getting up out of bed to finish packing.

Two hours and a large coffee later, you found yourself on the road to Seoul to be greeted with open arms at your best friend’s doorstep.

“Seojin!” You smiled brightly and hugged her tightly. “You ready for this?”

“Duh! I didn’t sleep last night I was so excited!” You smiled and laughed at her excited expression.

“Well that makes two of us!” She led you inside with a smile. “I seriously couldn’t believe when you told me you got meet and greets.” She laughed and nodded.

“Same, honestly. My luck is never good with buying tickets!” She led you up to her room where she had seven different outfits laid out on her bed. “I’m having a harder time figuring out what to wear than I had getting tickets!” She laughed as you set down your bag and looked over her clothes.

“Hmmm, I’d definitely go for the off the shoulder black blouse and the blue faded jeans. I have a feeling Yijeong will love it.” You winked at her and laughed as her face instantly flushed bright red before she stuttered out:

“W-Well I know you’re trying to get Kyungil’s!” It was your turn to flush bright red.

“Yah! Leve my fantasies alone!” You pulled out your distressed black skinny jeans and the white lace spaghetti strap you had chosen and Seojin let out a low whistle.

“Damn girl, you’re gonna be turning heads left and right!” You grinned.

“That’s the plan! One very specific head, hopefully.” She laughed as the both of you started getting ready. A light smoky eye, white and black converse and leather jacket completed your look. You smiled at yourself in the mirror, satisfied with your punkish look. Seojin stood next to you, in a much more innocent yet sexy outfit. You high fived one another before grabbing your things, triple checking your tickets before heading to the venue.

The obscenely long wait was always worth it as soon as the members hit the stage. You had managed to get right up next to the rail at the concert and man did those boys take your breath away. Their moves were in sync and crisp as they moved as a unit. No matter how hard you tried to focus on everyone as a whole, your eyes just couldn’t stay away from the chiseled leader as his presence commanded the attention of the audience. Throughout the concert, you noticed him flashing looks your way, winking and pointing in your direction more often than other. ‘No way he’s just looking at me.’ Even if he wasn’t your heart couldn’t help but flutter.

After the final encore, the emcee asked everyone with wristbands to wait for the following fan encounter and high touch. As you were organized in to lines, you and Seojin chatted excitedly about what had happened. Yijeong had come over and given her a rose after Queen was done. You were sure she was going to pass out right then and there. The line slowly began to move as all of the concert goers were funneled through the small room for the meet and greet and high touch. Your heart kicked in to a sprint as the door drew closer and closer. You had thought the boys were handsome on stage, but it didn’t even hold a candle to how they looked now. So not fair.

As you walked through the line, thanking and smiling at each of the boys, you felt your nerves start to still. That is, until you got to Kyungil. He looked up at you and you saw a light of recognition in his eyes, followed by a butterfly inducing smirk.

“Well hello there gorgeous.” Your mouth went dry.

“H-hello Kyungil…You looked really good today!” You spoke quickly, trying not to stumble on your words too much. He just chuckled and went to sign your album.

“What’s your name?”

“______.” He smiled and nodded, sounding out your name as he wrote it down.

“Beautiful just like you.” He winked at you as he handed you the album back and you left the fansign in a daze. Seojin was trying to talk to you as you made it out but you didn’t really hear her. It wasn’t until a staff member came over and tapped you both on the shoulder that you were broken from your trance.

“Could you two please come with me?” He asked.

“Is there a problem?” You asked, concerned. He just smiled and shook his head. You gave Seojin a look before following the staff member backstage. The two of you murmured to each other. What on earth was going on? You didn’t have your phone out during the event, so why did they need you back here? The staff member directed you both to separate doors before nodding and leaving. Nervously, you tapped on the door. It opened almost immediately to reveal Kyungil standing there. He towered over you, smiling down at you.

“Hello again beautiful.” You stood there, staring up at him. This was a dream right? It had to be. He chuckled and closed your mouth that you hadn’t even realized was open before taking your hand and pulling you inside. “You know, you were quite the distraction during the show today. I couldn’t keep my eyes off of you.” He brushed a strand of hair behind your ear. You blinked as his touch brought you back to reality?

“R-Really?” He smiled and nodded, something smoldering in his eyes.

“Really. And when you came through the fansign, I just knew I couldn’t miss this chance to get to know you…a little better.” He slowly backed you up to a couch that was in the middle of the room. The back of your knees hit the sofa and forced you to sit as your balance was thrown off. You looked up at him in a daze as he rested a hand on the back of the sofa, leaning down so his face was close to you. Damn, he smelt so good… “That is, if you’re alright with it gorgeous.” Your eyes glanced down to his lips before looking back up at his eyes and nodding. He smirked and gently pressed his lips to yours. That gentle kiss quickly developed into a passionate one, one of his hands coming up to cup your cheek as he nipped at your lip. You granted his request and opened your mouth to him. At the feeling of his tongue exploring your mouth, you let out a moan. You hesitantly lifted your hands to his chest before reaching up and around his neck, draping your arms around him. A few moments later, he broke the kiss, pulling back only slightly to look down at you.

“Before we go any further, are you ok with going all the way?” You bit your lip and nodded. Hell yes were you ready. That smirk returned to his lips and he reached up to push the jacket off of your shoulders, dropping it to the floor. His quickly joined yours before he pulled you up off of the sofa. He pulled you against him, a hand on the small of your back so you could feel how excited you were making him. Looking up at him, you reached your hands up to place them on his stomach through his shirt. “Don’t be shy, beautiful.” With that, you moved your hands to run them up under his shirt, along his stomach. He closed his eyes and let out a deep hum at the feeling. It had your knees shaking. You worked the shirt up further before he got impatient and pulled it off. His hands went to the hem of your shirt, lifting it over our head before reaching around to undo your bra, letting it drop as well. You moved your arms to cover yourself, but he stopped you. “No need to hide from me.”

With a grin, he moved you back to the couch, laying you down as he climbed on top of you. He pressed his lips to yours again, allowing his weight to rest against you. His hips rolled against yours, the friction drawing a moan from your lips. He chuckled softly before starting to kiss and nip down your neck and over your chest. “You’re so fucking beautiful. I’ve never had a girl drive me crazy like this.” You almost didn’t hear him through all of the pleasure that was clouding your mind. His lips against your skin were so warm, it caused your body to tingle as played with your breasts, kissing and nipping over them. You wrapped your arms around him to tangle your fingers in his hair, tugging gently and earning a pleasured grunt from him. He looked up at you to see the blissful look on your face and that tell tale smirk returned to his lips.

With a chuckle, he sat up and undid the snap on your jeans, slowly dragging them down as he watched you closely.

“I have no idea how you knew exactly what kind of outfit would turn me on, gorgeous, but you nailed it. Now though, I think it looks better on the floor.” He pulled your jeans the rest of the way off, discarding them along with your shoes on the floor before reaching up to undo his leather pants, quickly ridding himself of them. You licked your lips as he kneeled there, straddling your leg, his member straining against his boxers. He reached and slowly, teasingly pulled your panties down. “So fucking beautiful.” You smiled and reached up, slipping your fingers in the hem of his boxers, pulling them down slowly. When he was finally free of the restrictive garment, you swallowed thickly. Good god he was huge. “I’ll be gentle, princess.” Your heart leapt at the nickname and you looked back up at him. “Oh, someone liked that pet name.” The confidence he was putting out was overwhelming. He hovered close to you, causing you to slowly lay back on the couch as he reattached his lips to yours.

As he kissed you, swallowing your moans of pleasure, he reached down to play with you, rubbing you gently. You pressed up in to his hand before letting out a loud moan as he pushed one finger inside of you. “Fuck…” he mumbled against your lips. You arched your back slightly, moaning when he pulled his fingers out of you. He got up briefly to go over to get his wallet, pulling a condom out from inside. He tore the foil packet open with his teeth before rolling it on, crawling back over you and nestling himself between your legs. “Are you ready princess?” You bit your lip and nodded and he grinned, reaching down to guide himself in to you. You let out a gasp and gripped on to his biceps.

“Oh holy shit!” He stilled his hips for a moment, letting you adjust before starting very shallow thrusts. The slight discomfort you felt was quickly replaced with pleasure as he moved in and out of you. Moans and his name were soon the only sounds coming from your mouth. Kyungil grabbed your hands in one of his own, holding them over your head as he looked down at you. The blissful look on your face as he fucked you excited him that much more, causing his hips to speed up. He leaned down to capture your lips again before starting a line of hickies down your neck. The pleasure was starting to coil up in your stomach and you moaned again.

“K-Kyungil…I-I’m so…Oh god I’m so close!”

“Cum for me princess. Let me hear you.” He grunted, thrusting in to you harder. Once. Twice. Three times and you finally came undone around him. Arching up off of the sofa, you nearly screamed out his name. He groaned at the feeling of you contracting around him. A few thrusts later, he came for you, letting out a guttural moan that sounded oh so sexy. You watch him with satisfied eyes as he came. The way his face scrunched up in bliss was so erotic, you would never forget it. His head lolled forward and he opened his eyes, looking down at you with a satisfied smile. “Princess, you are fucking incredible.” You couldn’t help the giggle that escaped your lips, causing him to grin a little wider before pulling out of you. He got up off of the couch and disposed of the condom, handing you a wipe to clean up while he gathered clothes. He placed his jacket around your shoulders as you sat up before helping you to dress again.

“So, I guess I picked the right outfit, huh?”

“Princess, even in a ratty t-shirt and gym shorts I would have noticed that gorgeous face of yours.” He smiled and kissed your forehead before getting dressed. “But yeah, the outfit helped.” Once he was dressed, he helped you stand up and handed you back your phone that you hadn’t even realized he had. “I put my number in there. And Princess, keep the jacket. I’ll pick it up when I see you again.” He winked and took your hand, leading you to the door before kissing you once more. In a daze, you left the room to meet Seojin who had a similar blissed out look on her face.

“Holy shit,” she said.

“Yeah, no kidding.”

“Pick my outfits every time.” You laughed at her comment before heading to the car. Your phone buzzed and you took it out to see who it was. A message from Kyungil appeared on your screen.

See you soon Princess.

#Kyungi #history #kyungil smut #history smut #his story #his story smut #kyungil history #admin a

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hanwooz · 7 years ago

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170819 KCON LA Fanacc

hi hello the whole experience is still so surreal to me but i'm going to document as much as i can in this post while it's still fresh in my memory :^) note: i didn’t reread this since i’m literally just rambling everything and trying to recollect what happened HAHA read... with discretion? - FAN ENGAGEMENT - so this was my first time at kcon and i was super confused with everything, but luckily i went with a friend who already had experience from going previous years (@ftwonwoo HI TRACEY). we were lucky enough to get three seventeen audience passes from the vouchers that came with our concert tickets (( WHICH ARE COMPLETELY RANDOMIZED I MIGHT ADD )). i reaaallly wanted hitouch and was willing to pay up to maybe $50 for it but seventeen was in high demand so every offer i found was $100+ OTL. i mean i was able to afford it, but i didn't think it was worth buying for, maybe, 40 seconds of interaction ;_;. waiting in line was like a blur to me i just remember thinking it was hot because we were told to stand in line outside with no shade at all. i was straight up sweating buckets and also screaming internally because i was going to look like a mess in front of seventeen AHAHAHAHA. i kept admiring some of the fans in line who made the effort to have really nice rose quartz serenity outfits while i was wearing like......black lmfao good job kellz what the heck were you thiNKING. the only rose quartz i had on me was my phone case and this headband i made that said 최한솔 (chwe hansol) on it which i’m 120% sure vernon didn’t see it Bye

okay so all hell broke loose while seventeen were coming onto stage one by one, and unfortunately i missed them walking onstage since there was this girl in front of me―who i thought was a fansite bc she had a camera with detachable lens―holding up an ANNOYING AS FUCK POSTER THAT BLOCKED MY ENTIRE VIEW. i told her to put it down (several times actually) and when she did, i immediately counted the members and noticed hoshi wasn't there?? i was a little disappointed for a sec but i understood he needed his rest so it was for the best, so props at pledis for not letting him attend for the sake of his health ;_;. they first introduced themselves and oh my god Y'ALL hearing "SAY THE NAME, SEVENTEEN!! hi, we are seventeen!" is so goosebump inducing lol i've heard them say their signature greeting so many times through my laptop screen but it's a whole different level hearing it in person. okay fast forward my memory kind of gets broken here but they basically answered a few questions (i remember them naming s.coups as the dad and jeonghan the mom of the group) and they also had a mission every time they rolled a dice. dino - random dance to dnce's 'cake by the ocean', seungkwan - favorite pop song (he sang adeles's 'when we were young' OMG THIS BOY'S VOICE IS HEAVENLY I NEED A FULL VER ASAP), seokmin - random dance to big bang's fantastic baby (before he danced, he threw the dice into the crowd which was sO funny and unexpected, i didn't see where it went but he had his hands together afterwards and looked like he was apologizing LOL also s.coups was literally on the floor dying of laughter), joshua + jeonghan - aegyo, mingyu - sexy dance to justin timberlake's 'sexy back' (he was really into it at first doing body waves and then he got shy, it was so cute LOL), wonwoo - i think he also got favorite song? he sang 'see you again' and it was nice hearing everyone in the room singing along with him!! i was worried that they'd be tired from flying in from chicago hours before the event started, but they were all really energetic and lively and cute. after this segment ended, it was time for the hitouch and it was so interesting seeing how each member interacted with fans since it... really reflects their personality if that makes sense?? i think s.coups, mingyu, and vernon probably had the best fan interaction. they never wiped off the huge smile they had on their faces and s.coups was legit CLASPING each fan's hand instead of giving high-fives alfkjalskfjaljsk. the hitouch went by really fast and on the screen, it showed their faces one by one and i remember fans screaming the loudest for jun omfg he is sooooo handsome;; well all of them looked really handsome tbh and i really liked jeonghan and woozi's chokers :^). minghao had a really cute smile the whole time too!! after they left i went outside and really just sat there letting it all sink in that i saw them.... me.... with my own two eyes.... seeing their adorable faces and laughs and interactions with each other and then suddenly realizing i probably won't be able to experience this again LOLLLLLLLL okay no need to be dramatic onto the next part - SATURDAY CONCERT - it was unannounced that vernon, joshua, and s.coups would be the MCs in the beginning so it was the biggest surprise of my LIFE i think i went a little overboard with the screaming at times rip but vernon was such a natural at emceeing!! his english was flawless omg and joshua, s.coups, and mingyu did a really good job too! the concert stage was set up as.... i guess you can call it a 360 stage? so sometimes the artists entered in from the sections where audience was sitting. i knew they were coming from between section 110 and 111. 110 was the section i bought for combo saturday and sunday tickets, but i sold it for saturday's concert because i found better seats, but it was still the section i had for sunday's concert, which seventeen didn't attend AHAHAHA wow is this what i get for being greedy and purchasing closer tickets just for saturday??? ehhh it's okay, the seats that i had were far on the right and they entered in the aisle on my far left so i wouldn't be able to see them anyway LOL. seventeen's first performance had unit stages, which went in this order: performance unit - swimming fool > vocal unit - 입버릇 > hip hop unit - check in. and then there were other artist stages afterwards, but they came back to perform other tracks (don't wanna cry, rock remix, and aju nice). the vcr kcon played before seventeen’s second performance was amazing, it was quite similar to the kcon japan vcr, except for LA they had a different logo which i'm sure a lot of you have already seen lol. i think some fans were calling it a hearbeat logo which is genius imo it's an actual representation of what my heartbeat looks like when i see or hear anything seventeen related!!!!!!! throughout their performance i remember seeing jeonghan, seokmin, and s.coups coming to my side of the stage the most. they were so cute always waving to fans are i practically walked out of the venue a jeonghan stan. ((( i’m joking vernon’s forever my number 1 but JEONGHAN GAVE SUCH GOOD FANSERVICE ))) s.coups was also a really eye-catching performer. the way he vibed during check in was out of this world I FELT SO BLESSED TO BE ABLE TO SEE IT PERFORMED LIVE INSTEAD OF WATCHING 394839 FANCAMS OF CHECK IN PERFORMANCES AND ALSO during tock remix, there was this part in the choreo where they look up after vernon / seokmin’s part and the lighting in the venue shined down on the stage floor, coups looked completely like an anGEL and don’t even get me started on vernon because i felt like losin’ my goddamn mind whenever he appeared on the big screen i know i might sound biased but i think seventeen were the best performers out of attending artists;; they really engaged the whole audience, from having everyone chant 'seventeen' in unison before they even performed to having everyone do the mansae move with them during their random play dance / pinata time;; it was an amazing experience and it honestly felt like a mini seventeen concert LOL. i had to hop on a flight four or five hours after sunday's concert with barely any sleep;; my flight consisted of nothing but listening to the Al1 album OTL post-concert depression is already hitting me hard HAHA i really hope in the future i can see them at one of their tour stops one day ugh i love seventeen so much;;;;

#personal #k:text #KCONLA17 #seventeen #sunday's lineup was really good but i just talked about seventeen since... i literally only went for them LOL #God i hope i didnt make a lot of grammatical errors but i'll reread this later i think i need to nap

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taeminsphltrum · 8 years ago

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Unpredictable

Im Changkyun | bff!Jooheon | Fluff | WC: 4.5k

♥ summary: everyone is wrong in thinking you have a thing of hyungwon.

It happens when you’re off stage, back in the audience with the rest of your group after performing a couple of songs at the award show. You’re talking to the members, telling each other how well you all did when you get interrupted by the sound of your best friend beginning to rap on stage and your attention is stolen. You’ve yet to see Monsta X perform to Beautiful yet, and you’re excited because Jooheon kept talking about how much you’d like the choreography when you finally see it. With your eyes on him, you smile and nod along, already appreciating the dance and the aesthetics. The suits with silk shirts and Jooheon in his suspenders make you laugh to yourself. When Changkyun makes his way to the front of the stage your smile slowly falters the longer you observe him.

Usually when you watch them perform, your eyes follow either Jooheon or Hyungwon around the stage no matter who is in the front singing, rapping, or dancing. But right now you can’t seem to take your eyes off of the maknae. It’s been a while since you’ve seen anyone in the group other than Jooheon since they started preparing for their comeback and it looks as if Changkyun has lost some weight in his face, his jawline more prominent than the last time you saw him.

Even as Hyunwoo begins singing and gliding his way across the stage, your eyes stay on the youngest member, your head tilting to the side a bit.

"Hyungwon looks good,” Bo Na says from beside you, gently elbowing you in the ribs. You side eye her before glancing at the said male.

He does look as fine as ever, long limbs moving effortlessly, hair dark and fluffy. You look at the rest of the members and they look good as well, but your gaze shifts back to Changkyun.

The dance to the chorus has you screaming along with the fans in the audience with how smooth it is and Bo Na is cheering along with you, the both of you laughing as you begin nodding to the beat again. You catch Jooheon’s gaze during the dance break after the course and he raises his brows in acknowledgment before looking straight again, but then that deep voice of Changkyun's comes back and he’s gliding his way to the other side of the stage, body rolling elegantly. Your lips thin as you openly ogle at him. You just don’t understand why you’re so drawn to him tonight.

Soon jackets are being taken off and dropped then slung across a shoulder and Ana on the other side of you is screaming loudly, singing and clapping along excitedly. When the performance is over you all stand up, applauding them and yelling. As they walk off the stage Jooheon smiles widely at you and does a small wave, both in which you return with a thumbs up afterward.

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“So?” Jooheon asks with a bright smile on his face when he sees you walk through his front door.

“It was alright, I guess,” you shrug, looking disinterested.

His smile falters and he lightly knocks you upside your head, making you laugh.

“Hyungwon was amazing,” you say loud enough for the said male to hear as he walks past you, causing him to wink.

Your best friend rolls his eyes and nods.

“Of course you’d think so.”

“It was great, Honey. You were right, I really liked the dance, especially that one part in the chorus,” you compliment, showing him the part of the choreography you’re referring to.

His smile is back and he’s giving you a quick bear hug.

“Wanna learn it?"

"If Hyungwon teaches me,” you tease and dodge Jooheon’s next attack, bumping into someone in the process.

“Oh sorry-” you begin to apologize until you see who it was.

His hands are on either side of your body, holding onto your arms to balance you back into place after the collision and you kind of freeze like an idiot in his hold and under his stare.

“Sorry,” he chuckles deeply before nodding his head in the direction of Jooheon. “Mind if I steal him for less than five minutes?”

You nod and he tilts his head.

“It won’t take long.”

You realize you just told him yes, you would mind and you wildly shake your head.

“Oh! No. I meant go ahead,” you laugh awkwardly, smoothing escaped hairs back and out of your face before walking away briskly and heading straight to the kitchen to see if they have anything to eat.

Once you’re away from them you sigh and put your face in your hands, wondering what the hell just happened.

“You good?” you hear from behind you and it makes you jump, quickly turning around and finding Hoseok sitting at the island with his head propped up by his hand. He laughs at your reaction before raising a brow, waiting for your response.

“Yeah, yeah. Just tired,” you lie, grabbing a bottle of water and the bowl of grapes in the fridge.

He gestures for you to sit in the stool next to him.

“Your flow has gotten better and you’re looking more comfortable on stage now,” he compliments as he watches you chug down half of the bottle in one swig.

You don’t show it, but you’re touched by his words. He knows how hard it has been for you to adapt to performing and the idol life in general. Your group is still considered rookie, only having one mini album and one full album out so far, but with the good attention you’ve been getting lately your popularity is skyrocketing and the nerves of not being good enough have left your body. Now you can perform comfortably and freely on stage.

“Don’t get all sappy on me,” you say rolling your eyes, but you know he can hear the hidden gratitude in your words.

After some more small talk Jooheon comes in the kitchen and leans next to you on the island. He nudges you, but you ignore him in favor of listening to Hoseok's story about how Hyungwon almost fucked up the performance but no one else noticed. The two of you are laughing as he stands up to show you exactly what the problem was, when Jooheon’s nudging becomes incessant and actually starts to hurt your arm.

“Oh my gosh, what do you want?”

“What was that about?"

You glare at him, telling him to shut up with your eyes.

"What?” Hoseok asks, being nosy.

Your eyes squint, intensifying your glare, but it goes ignored.

“Why were you acting like that with Kyunnie?”

“What do you mean?” you ask in the best confused tone. You unscrew the cap to your water bottle and start drinking the rest as a distraction.

“You were acting like you ran into someone you had a big ass crush on or something,” Jooheon explains. “I’ve never seen you so… so awkward in front of someone.”

“Her? Being awkward?” Hoseok asks.

“She was all like,” he says before proceeding to mimic how you were nodding and shaking your head crazily and the look of terror you gave Changkyun when you realized it was him you bumped into.

You want to hit your best friend, facepalm and scurry out of their dorm all at once. But you just snort at Jooheon instead.

Many tell you that you have a confident, nonchalant aura and you take pride in that. Aside from stage fright, you don’t find many situations awkward. Meeting new people and interacting with basically everyone, even crushes is a breeze for you. You don’t let many feelings come to the surface. No one can ever sense doubt, hesitance, awkwardness or fright when speaking or even just looking at you because your face is always straight or smiling.

What the hell has gotten into you tonight? First you’re finding someone you usually don’t do a double take on extremely attractive and captivating and then when it’s time to interact with him you feel so small and can’t think straight…

You’re just tired from practicing all day and performing, that’s all, is what you tell yourself.

“I think you’re looking too deep into it,” you say with a chuckle, looking Jooheon dead in the eye. “When I bumped into him I froze because I was shocked and when he asked if I minded if he stole you away I meant to say no but I’m exhausted so I did the wrong head movement. That’s it,” you shrug.

“Okay but what about how you wal-”

“Like I said, looking too deep,” you tsk before turning your attention to Hoseok. “I mean, can you imagine me getting flustered and whatnot over a guy? Especially Changkyun?"

Hoseok looks between you and Jooheon and shakes his head.

"Yeah Jooheon I think you’re forgetting we have an Ice Princess here. Plus,” he stands and does a little stretch. “If she can act calm and collected in front of Hyungwon when she’s so far up his ass then you’ve got to be imagining things.”

Before you can even say anything about how you actually don't like Hyungwon in that way and just appreciate his face, body, personality and dancing in a platonic way Hoseok is out of the kitchen, calling "don’t stay up too long" behind his shoulder without stopping. So you say it to Jooheon instead.

“I know I joke about Hyungwon a lot but you gotta stop taking me seriously,” you sigh exaggeratedly.

Jooheon sticks his hand out for you to grab before pulling you up and out of your seat. He leads you to the front door and starts putting his shoes on and you get the hint. Time to leave or else your manager will raise hell. It already took a lot of convincing to let you come over to a boy’s dorm in the first place, but after you, your group and all of Monsta X convinced her that Jooheon is strictly a friend and they all see you as a younger sister, you got the privilege of being able to see your precious Honey. Public outings are a little tricky due to needing to avoid fans and paparazzi, so unless you’re meeting somewhere super late, the dorm and your studios are the only options. Fans know that the two of you have known each other since way back, but since you keep your distance in public no one has any reason to believe anything is up between you guys.

Plus, dating is banned right now. So there’s that.

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Days after the award show, you find yourself slightly obsessing.

Your YouTube history shows nothing but Changkyun fancams and you’re slightly ashamed of yourself. You honestly thought it was because you were just tired that night, but when Hoseok texted you to watch the video of the performance that night and see if you could find the part in which Hyungwon messed up you looked through the suggested videos and there was a solo cam of Jooheon. You tapped it and watched it, catching glimpses of the maknae when he crossed paths with Jooheon and this made you curious as to if you could find any videos with Changkyun as the center of attention. Watching one fancam turned into watching ones all the way back to Trespass.

“The dance practice to Beautiful has been uploaded,” Jooheon tells you excitedly.

You give him a look before playfully rolling your eyes.

“Put it on the t.v.”

It’s no surprise who your eyes land on as soon as the video begins.

You’re leaning on Jooheon as the two of you relax on the couch in his living room on his day off, your schedule not starting until several hours later.

You watch the choreography with Jooheon talking about his most and least favorite dance moves in the background.

All you can think is wow, Changkyun has improved so much over the years.

“What?” Jooheon asks.

Eye widening at the realization of you voicing your thoughts aloud, you internally panic, but resort to asking him in the best confused tone, “What?”

He looks down at you before shrugging the shoulder your head is on, shaking you off of him.

“Changkyun?”

You side eye him.

“What are you talking about?”

You’re really good at playing dumb, but he isn’t buying it today.

“What’s up with you and Changkyun lately?” he says lowly, the man of topic only a few meters away in his room.

Sighing, you turn your attention back to the men dancing on the screen.

“There you go again.”

You feel Jooheon’s body shift closer to you, his arm going behind your shoulders to lay across the top of the couch as he leans in close to the side of your face.

“I’ve known you for a while, sweetheart. I can sense when something is off about you,” he explains, voice low and deep right in your ears. “I know how you act when you’re tired and I know when you’re bullshitting me. You can fool Hoseok but not me.”

Internally you’re cursing yourself out for being so obvious in front of him of all people when he knows you like the back of his hand. You were hoping that after that night he’d forget about it or at least never bring it up again but then again, he is Jooheon and he can’t let things go without having answers to all of his questions.

You slouch into the couch, sinking until your neck is stretched and the back of your head is on top of the arm behind you. This isn’t what you want to talk about right now.

“Can you not?” you mumble under your breath.

“If we don’t talk about it now, I’m going to keep bringing it up.”

You’re just grateful he loves you enough to keep his voice low to save you the embarrassment of Changkyun hearing the conversation.

“I mean, you literally froze when he touched you,” Jooheon continues. “And then you avoided him yesterday. Yes, I noticed.”

Eyes closing in defeat, you whine. And then you’re throwing a mini temper tantrum because this is not how you wanted to spend your morning before a busy evening.

Yeah, you avoided Changkyun last night when you quickly stopped by to drop off Jooheon’s sweats that he let you wear a couple weeks ago when Hyungwon tripped and spilled his juice on your jeans. Jooheon needed them back for whatever reason you didn’t question and your dorm is only a ten minute walk away from theirs. When you got to the boys’ dorm you greeted Kihyun when he opened the door for you with a small hug, as well as Hyungwon and Minhyuk on your way to Jooheon’s room.

When you were walking out of his room Changkyun was coming out of his own.

“Oh, hey-” he started to greet you but you were out the front door after interrupting him with a high pitched, nervous “Hi! Bye!”

But it’s kind of awkward interacting with the guy you’ve practically been stalking during your free time. You have a great poker face but there was no way you could pretend like you weren’t being a creep just minutes before coming to the dorm, so you had to blast.

“Don’t tell me you have a crush on him,” Jooheon breathes out in amusement.

“Who? Hyungwon?” a deep voice chuckles from behind you, making you start and fold into Jooheon for protection.

“Nah. You,” the man holding you responds and you hear Changkyun choke on his spit.

“Wh-what?” he stutters. He clearly wasn’t expecting that answer.

Your fingers are pinching Jooheon’s side and it has him hissing in pain, slapping your hand away as discretely as possible.

“I’m kidding,” he says, saving the day. “Stop being nosy.”

You want to see the look on the maknae’s face but you can’t find it in yourself to look up at him right now.

If you look at him all you’ll be able to think about is how attractive he is and how gross and embarrassing is that?

“I should go,” you say a little too loudly, springing up off the couch and speed walking to the door to slip your shoes on, saying bye without looking back as you exit the dorm.

The walk back to your dorm consists of you calling yourself an idiot while facepalming.

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I swear I am going to kill him.

Changkyun is sitting on the couch looking as comfortable as ever, arms spread out on the top of the couch and legs stretched out wide as he watches you.

“Jooheon isn’t here.”

Yes, you noticed that.

“He should be back in like an hour, though.”

You nod and turn around, heading to the front door.

“You could just keep me company and wait for him,” is what he says next with a low voice, stopping you dead in your tracks. “I feel like I haven’t talked to you in forever.”

Technically, it’s been a couple weeks since the last time you’ve had an actual conversation with him.

There’s a mental debate going on in your head on whether or not you should stay before your feet are moving back into the living room and your ass is sinking into the cushion of the couch adjacent to the one he’s occupying.

Your eyes drift to the reality show playing on the television screen and you know already how tense your body looks from an outsider’s point of view.

“Why are you sitting all the way over there?”

You ignore him.

He chuckles before you hear movement, and before you know it, the cushion you’re sitting on is shifting and he’s slightly pressed against your side on the small loveseat. You look at him in confusion.

“What the hell are you doing?”

Changkyun is laughing again, nodding his head.

“Now you’re starting to sound like yourself.”

His arm is snaking behind your head and he’s getting even closer in proximity.

“Hyung told me everything,” he says nonchalantly, like he’s speaking about the weather.

“What do you mean?” you ask, dumb act kicking in.

“Well,” he says, licking his lips. You fight yourself so hard not look down at his mouth afterwards. “I know that you two really were talking about me when he was talking about you having a crush on someone.”

Your head rolls back as you internally cry. You’re definitely going to kill Jooheon now and you can already see his dead body in the middle of the living room floor.

“And?” you question.

It’s weird how as he’s confronting you, you don’t feel awkward and the need to leave right away. You’re still embarrassed as hell and want to die but the fact that you don’t sense rejection has your nerves eased. For the most part at least.

“And,” he drags out, using his hand to bring your face forward so that you can look at him.

His fingers stay under your chin as he observes the new look of anticipation written all over your face.

“I’ve kind of been attracted to you for a while now.”

Your brows raise at this information, a bit of pride swelling in you.

“How long is a while?”

His eyes look up to the ceiling as he hums to himself.

“A couple of months?” he questions out loud before nodding.

“And you never said anything.”

The playfulness in your tone is clear and the corner of his mouth lifts up as he shrugs.

“Everyone knows you have a thing for Hyungwon so there was no point.”

If you hear someone say that you like Hyungwon one more time you’re going to fight them. The only reason people think that is because one day you went to their dance studio when Jooheon told you to so that the two of you could leave immediately to have as much time as possible to celebrate your debut. Admittedly, you were staring at Hyungwon pretty hard as they were practicing their choreography. He was helping Changkyun with a certain part of the dance when Jooheon came up beside you and followed your gaze. You appreciate dancing, and you really appreciate guys that can dance exceptionally well, and your best friend knew that. The teasing started when he whispered in your ear, “Like what you see?" and you thinking he was talking about the choreography, nodded and kept your eyes on him since he was the only one dancing at the time. Yes, he is very attractive and would probably be your bias if you didn’t know the group personally, but it’s not as deep as everyone makes it to be. Word got around to the rest of the group that you had "heart eyes” for Hyungwon and after a while of constantly denying it, you started playing along.

But now isn’t really the time to bring up another guy when Changkyun just confessed and is holding your face close to his own.

“I do not have a thing for him,” you deadpan.

He smiles at the switch in the tone in your voice. You can’t help but notice just how nice his crooked smile is up close and now you’re paying attention to how good he smells and suddenly you’re lightheaded.

“I know. It’s just fun messing with you.”

You fake snarl at him before lessening the space between the two of you slightly.

“Are you just going to keep staring at me or are you going to kiss me?” is what you ask next, the confident you coming back out.

His smile only widens and once again he’s chuckling at your words. But then his lips are on yours and you’re sighing in satisfaction, the small build up of anxiety deflating from your body as he takes his time. The hand on your chin moves to the side of your face, bringing you even closer to him when your bottom lip is being sucked into his mouth. You can feel the goosebumps rise on your arm in the wake of the hand that’s sliding down it before moving to your waist.

Soon you’re practically on top of Changkyun, fingers gently gripping the hair on the back of his head while his tongue separates your lips. A small groan comes from him when his actions cause you to ball your fists briefly, his head jerking back in the slightest bit.

“Jooheon should be back soon,” you struggle to say. When you try to back up to speak Changkyun only chases your lips.

“He never left,” is mumbled on your lips, your leg being lifted by your thigh so that’s its across his lap.

You nod, breathing out an oh, okay before his words actually hit you.

He never left.

You successfully pull away from the kiss this time to glare at the boy in front of you.

An uncomfortable smile is on his face as his hand rubs on the back of your thigh.

“He’s in Hoseok’s room. I asked him to tell you to come over so that- well, this,” he gestures your proximity and squeezes your thigh. “could happen. If I were to have just invited you over that would’ve been weird because we don’t text so if I would’ve just randomly texted you asking you to come over you would’ve been like what the fuck and like-”

“So basically he’s hiding out in Hoseok’s room to give you the opportunity to bust a move?” you interrupt his rambling.

Changkyun nods.

You laugh at the situation. That was actually very smart of Changkyun because if you wouldn’t have been left alone with him you definitely would’ve continued avoiding him until your little infatuation died out.

Shifting, you sit on Changkyun’s lap. His eyes widen before he’s looking up at you in anticipation. With a playful tsk you lean down and slant your lips over his once more. There’s a little more aggression, maybe because you’re just so flattered he went through all of this just to confess, and he seems to like it because he’s groaning when his bottom lip is in between your teeth. Fingers slide down your back in favor of splaying out across your ass.

Pulling back has his mouth traveling south and towards your neck, but you stop him briefly.

“JOOHEON!” you scream out then wait until you hear his footsteps from down the hall.

Changkyun questions what the hell you’re doing but you shut him up by bringing his face into the crook of your neck by the back of his head. He wastes no time in softly pecking before his tongue is tasting the salt of your skin.

Jooheon pokes his head from around a corner and has a guilty smile stretching his mouth, trying to distract you from your expected anger by looking cute. When he notices the position you and Changkyun are in his smile turns sly and he’s walking up to the couch. Changkyun’s back is facing the other and he either didn’t hear Jooheon and feel his presence, or he just doesn’t care because he doesn’t stop his ministrations.

“So it worked I see,” he says, satisfaction clear in his voice.

The rapper underneath you pauses.

You stare up at your best friend with a smile, hand petting at Changkyun’s hair.

“You’re gonna get tired and annoyed by us,” you promise Jooheon.

He shrugs.

“I doubt it.”

You hum.

“This means less time with me,” you continue.

There’s a change in emotion in his eyes before he shrugs it away once more.

“You’ll miss me too much,” he retorts.

Laughing to yourself, you nod. Moving back results in Changkyun’s face no longer being in your neck and now he can bend his head back over the top of the couch to look up at Jooheon.

“You sure you’re okay with this?”

Jooheon's rolling his eyes and flicking him on the forehead.

“If I wasn’t okay with it I wouldn’t have texted her for you, dummy.”

“You won’t be okay with it when I’m ruining your day by moaning and screaming his name,” you joke with a straight face.

The reaction you were hoping to get comes when Jooheon’s face turns in disgust and now he’s mushing you in the forehead, your head going back from the force of his hand as you laugh loudly. Changkyun chuckles as well.

The sound of the front door opening behind you stops everyone’s laughter and you feel Changkyun’s body tense underneath you as yours does, too.

Loud chattering stops immediately and you don’t have to turn around to know that whoever just came in is staring at the three of you. Slowly, you climb off of Changkyun and take your place next to him, fake smiling when you face Hyungwon, Hoseok, and Hyunwoo. They all look taken aback, but then Hoseok is smirking and shaking his head.

(This was honestly just a fictionalized version of how he became my bias lmaoo)

#monsta x scenario #monsta x scenarios #changkyun scenario #changkyun scenarios #i.m monsta x #i.m scenario #i.m scenarios #mx scenarios #mx scenario

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lubdubsworld · 7 years ago

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Under My Skin ( Namjoon/Oc/Yoongi)

Chapter 2

When I first started doing fancams, my boss thought I was shit at my job. HJe used to sigh in deep disappointment, completely unimpressed by clarity, angles or the lighting.

“You need to focus on the hip thrusts, the neck, the crotch as they grind and the skinship... “ He said bluntly , tossing away my first work in the bin. I didn’t let it offend me of course. Because he was actually right. No one would watch a fancam that didn’t make them at least low key horny and at the most sweaty and hot and bothered

Speaking of hot and bothered, i’m pretty sure that’s exactly how i felt , the first time I saw BTS live on stage at their concert.

Concerts are actually pretty different from music shows. For one, the idols are less self-conscious. They know their fans will love them even if they pick a booger on stage and they know there are no censor boards waiting to change lyrics and generally, they just know that they can be themselves and have fun.

But, no one could have prepared me for the way Kim Namjoon looked spitting lyrics in a concert. There was something inherently, honest about him and I’m just one of those poor besotted souls who fall in love with the little things : you know, the sheen of sweat because he wants to push himself just a bit more than he can, the way he smiles and tosses a bottle to his bandmate because he noticed that he’s exhausted, the way he kicked plushies out of the way to make sure his bandmembers don’t trip, the way he dragged his shoes up and along the stage during sound check , because he didn’t want them to take a fall.

So, yeah i did think it was odd that when I started out, the first time i recorded BTs, my boss picked Namjoon out for me.

“ He’s the one who gets the least views usually, so i don’t think it will be much of a problem if you screw up...” My pseudo mentor, a young girl called JJ had said, later as we stood shivering in the cold waiting for the gates to the show to open. I had done a bit of research on the boys and it was still ther start of 2015 . They’d just had their first win and I knew that, technically, Namjoon was the leader.

which is why the whole , ‘ least views’ confused me.

“Isn’t he the leader and like the lead rapper?” I had said surprised.

JJ had shrugged.

“Yoongi is the lead rapper, i think Yeah. and you’re right. he makes , music, writes lyrics takes good care of his band members, probably is the only reason they haven’t disbanded yet but ... you know ... he can’t dance for shit. that’s what most of the girls care about. .” She had shrugged.

“Really? He didn’t really look that bad...” I frowned, remembering the few videos I’d watched.

“He’s not. I mean, if you were to pitch him next to me or you he;s probabaly a billion times better but his bandmates are much better. And he’s just intelligent and ... sexy smart. That’s where the appeal is. He’s got some bomb IQ and he’s really smart but well, he keeps the sensuality to a minimum on stage. “

I had nodded. What i hadn’t been prepared for was the way Namjoon looked on stage. He didn’t look sexy in the traditional sense but holy hell I felt weak, numb, my hands trembling as i made a shitty recording of him, mind completely thrown by how ... passionate he looked.

And that was when i realized how important it was for me to detach myself from the performance and not get carried away and over the months i realized that they were humans too. i sometimes got comp backstage passes and honestly they were just like everyone else. Finding a way to get the job done and live life.

I got better, over the months and now, two years later , I was a lot better. Still, it was almost october and the wind was pretty cold and I knew my boss was sorry about making me go in the cold. whatever the reason, he did not fire me when i turned up at the office, seven hours behind schedule.

“He’s staring right into your camera. That’s quality content right there. I’ll let you pass this time.”: He says with a wave of his hand.

His roommate however is not so forgiving.

“why are you wearing a shirt with that skirt. You look ridiculous.” She says with a grimace. I toss my bag into the shelf before cleaning my camera and Placing it on the cushion lined box in the floor. Sighing, I pull off the scrunchie in my pony tail letting my hair fall to it’s full legth. i had long hair , which I usually knotted up twice over.

My scalp stings but not as much as my pride.

didn’t Yoongi hyung pay you yet?

I grimace.

It’s not often that i let words get to me. Raised by a father who was literally the epitome of verbal abuse , i’ve heard much, much worse and honestly, it’s not that I need everyone’s approval or something. It’s just that , Namjoon had al;ways been one of those people i respect. i mean, i always thought that he’;s the sort to not judge people quickly.

Apparently not.

sighing, I feel misery weigh heavy on me. Should I have not done that last night? I didn’t regret sleeping with Yoongi per se, i mean it was great . I enjoyed it. But I wasn’t a one night stand kind of gal. I didn’t do it often ( hell I didn’t do it period. )

I suddenly remembered the snow globe in the bag and the note as well.

“I slept with one of the back-up dancers.” I say easily, when my roomate, Jiah badgers me some more. I grab the snow globe and stare at it. it’s pretty and dainty, with two dancing figurines inside. i shake it again and the snow flies around again, before beginning to settle on the miniature cathedral and the couple. This is it, I thought miserably. I got swayed by this stupid snow globe and let my heart make the decision instead of my mind.

Still, Yoongi had been absent in the morning and that confused me. i mean, why go to such lengths, buying something meaningful, writing a note and stuff ... if you’re just going to ditch me in the morning. He’s an idol. It’s not he’s short of girls willing to warm his bed.

The moment i plug my phone and switch it on, it begins buzzing in quick suggestion and i frown. The texts are a little frantic and from jinah , and i smile a bit at her concern.

But one of them stands out.

It’s an unknown number .

Was last night so bad? You were gone by the time i got back

I stare at it for a while, trying to understand what I was looking at. Got back from where? I hesitate. Should i reply?

What was there to reply anyway?

Before I could decide my phone began ringing.

it was him.

“Hello.”

“You sound different when you aren’t moaning.”

Men.

“Yoongi?”

“You remember me then.Where are you?”

“Home.” I say shortly, trying not to look at my roommate who looked very curious. “ why are you calling? How did you get my number?”

“I want to see you tonight.”

Heart attack.

“What?”

“Tonight. Dinner. Park Hyatt.”

Holy fucking hell. the most expensive hotel in the city. What the hell was he playing at?

“This isn’t funny.” I grit out.

“Isn’t meant to be. I want to get to know you better.”

“Your leader called me a prostitute today morning. is that what this is about? .” I say drily.

“What? Joon-ah? That doesn’t seem right.”

I frown.

“Believe what you want. Anyways, you don’t have to pay me for last night with expensive dinners. i had fun. It’s all good.” I say briskly.

In the corner, my roomate groans., “ if you don’t want a free dinner let me go instead.”

“Come on, I booked the skywalk. Bring your camera . Pretty exclusive views. if you’re a good girl, I’ll even pose for a couple. You could literally sell those pics for a fortune.”

I scoff.

“Or do you want me to take you to Florence, instead?”

I froze.

“You’re not playing fair.”

“Never said I would. One night. Dinner. A walk. Let’s talk a bit about you, a bit about me and then we can get some meringue pie or Patbingsu, I’ll serenade you on the skywalk and pose for a couple of pictures, we’ll kiss in the starlight and I’ll take a proper tour of that awesome body you’re blessed with. With the lights on. For posterity.”

I struggle but it’s impossible to keep the grin off.

“you’re so annoying..”

“you can’t convince me that anything you’ve got lined up for tonight is better than what i just said.”

“Fine. One night. I’ll meet you at the subway. ” I hung up.

Jesus, what the hell was I doing?

#bts fanfics #bts namjoon #bts min yoongi #slowburn

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veryotl · 7 years ago

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Y'know what? Just gush about those girls please. Girls are amazing. What do you love about each of them?

I really don’t talk about girl groups enough right? T-T Let’s see here…

Luna and Amber of F(x) - Luna’s vocals are fantastic and she’s just completely stunning. Her vocals in La Cha Ta completely made me obsessed with the song, and Love Somebody was the bop of the century. On the variety I’ve watched with F(x), she’s really charming too. Amber I love because… well.. does anyone not love Amber? She works really hard, she’s very talented, and she’s been defying industry standards since debut even though some people give her a really hard time about it. Plus, it seems like she goes out of her way to make friends and make industry hoobaes feel more comfortable.

Wendy and Seulgi of Red Velvet - Wendy’s vocals are fantastic for one. She works really hard, and she’s very smart. Her guitar and instrumental skills are really good too, and she’s just a sweetheart. And I like Seulgi, even though I don’t know that much about her, because I can tell how talented she is at dancing and I really respect that. Plus, she’s just… stunning.

Ailee - I first heard about Ailee through Amber, but I’ve really grown to respect and love her. Her vocals are god-tier, like really. Plus, she’s a pretty awesome person. I got to see her live when she went to Kcon, and on the very first song on her very first time performing in her hometown (plus a song that she promoted while she was injured!) the music cut in the background and like a pro she kept singing and dancing live to the end of the chorus. She’s a queen and I really respect her talent and her sweet heart. Plus, again, freaking gorgeous.

IU - I wasn’t really sure I liked IU as much until I heard 23, and then I started to absolutely love her and her music. I really relate to the song 23, because I feel like that a lot. Uncertain of what I want my future to be and who I want to become, feeling like I’m trapped in wanting to be an adult but also wanting to be a young girl forever. And then when she released Palette I actually cried watching it because it’s like a response to that, saying that she’s a little older now and she’s learned to just simplify. These are the things she likes and that’s who she is, and that there’s still plenty of time and that she has people who love and support her in the meantime. I just love a lot of her music and her as an artist, I think.

Suhyun of AKMU - So much talent for such an adorable ball of love. I really love AKMU a lot and respect them because they have such talent for kids who had such little training but they also want to really remain who they were and not let the industry change them too much. I also love how recently Suhyun is becoming a lot more individual, starting her dream of a makeup channel artist and pursuing personal growth. Her talent is amazing for how young she is, and I really love how she’s determined to go after her dreams and become the kind of person she wants to be. She has a lot of playfulness but also a lot of hope and I love that.

Hani of EXID - Like I said, she doesn’t take anything, and I really love that. She’s out here getting a name for herself in the variety world and working hard, but she’s also very confident in her own charms and quirks. I think a lot of people called her ugly at first and it was probably very hard on her, but she’s really become very confident and doesn’t give a whole lot of what other people think about her, and that’s badass. She practically pulled EXID out of disbandment with her sexy fancam that went insane, but she’s not let it go to her head and define all of who she is either. Basically, she defies a lot of standards set for her and rolls up her sleeves and genuinely works hard to let people know who she really is. I really love her and respect her and again. She’s just really pretty.

IOI girls - Chungha is stunning and talented. She’s just. Very. Very. Pretty. I realize my reason for liking her is entirely shallow but I’m willing to let it pass because HAVE YOU SEEN HER FACE. Sejeong is a QUEEN. Her talent is off the charts and she worked so hard during PD101. I really loved how well she took care of Sohye during the Irony evaluations, and how she earnestly tried to help her improve. I started to love Yoojung during the… second (?) episode of PD101 when they highlighted how she didn’t really participate in classes, yet somehow jumped all the way to A rank and became the center of Pick Me, and then revealed that she had been working on her own because she was too shy to talk to the other people in her rank. Honestly, I can really respect someone like that because as an anxious person I think it’s really easy for me to get anxious and let it trap me into not doing anything. But when you have a shy person who is too shy but then legitimately works hard all on their own even though it would probably be easier to let someone else help you, I can really respect that. It’s not like she thought she was better than them and refused to work with them, but even though she was scared she still determined to do her best. Plus, she’s freaking adorable and her rapping is super good. Nayoung is a good leader even though it might be a bit hard for her. Even though most people call her stone face or say she’s boring, I really think she’s a very sincere and caring person and her rapping is very good as well.

Yuju and Eunha and SinB of Gfriend - I liked Yuju and SinB first because they’re both really good dancers and I was absolutely in love with SinB’s talent and style, and then Yuju’s voice is really fantastic and they’re both pretty and charming and fun, but then I got to know Gfriend a little more and I really started to love Eunha too. I’m not generally a huge fan of cutesy voices as you might be able to tell, but Eunha is just really charming and her voice is really sweet like candy. I especially liked her duet with Park Kyung. It really showed off her voice and charming spirit nicely, and she’s very adorable.

Min from Miss A - Min has a lot of combinations that I like. Her looks are cute and small but also fierce and pretty, and her voice is steady and nice but also on a lower tone than most kpop girls. I really also like a lot of her styling with shorter hair and heeled boots, and her makeup is always on point. Although, her long hair for Only You was really adorable too. In general, I think Miss A is a really interesting fresh group.

Hyorin from Sistar is just like… hmm. She’s not my goals necessarily. I could never be like her, but if I was somehow reincarnated she would be who I would want to be reincarnated as? She’s another god-tier vocalist with Ailee and she’s gorgeous and confident. Also that hair. I personally never want to have long hair again in my life, but she has like the ideal long hair. Her body is fantastic. And she’s very unapologetic about defying Korean beauty standards with her darker skin, and her confidence in herself just makes her even more pretty. ALSO, if that wasn’t enough, her dancing is beautiful too. She’s just unbelievable.

So, in conclusion, girls are amazing and I should show some more love to girl groups more often.

#Personal stuffs #blog stuffs #anon #Anonymous #my wifi went down in the middle of this T-T #clover overthinks things

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pharahlesbian · 8 years ago

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hi, so i just followed you recently and i see you're into kpop. i've been trying to get into kpop for a while (esp the girl groups) but it's just such a big community i have no idea where to even start. do you know what i should do or who to listen to?

ok ok im so happy someone’s asking me about kpop lol? i generally dont talk about it that much. pls feel free to talk to me more as u get into groups and such. anywayy, here are my favs!!

(everything under the cut bc im about to talk for a while)

GIRLS

-f(x)

top bias, favorite group ever, i love them. they debuted as 5 members (victoria, amber, luna, sulli, krystal) but sulli left the group in 2015, right before their most recent album. managed by sm entertainment, debuted in 2009.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H7MHZpSNJQc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n8I8QGFA1oM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xnku4o3tRB4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4j7Umwfx60Q

look up any of their stuff, i have literally their entire discography lol they really don’t have a bad song, imo. they were introduced as like a “cool” little sister group to girls generation, another sm girl group who’s really big in korea and who u might have heard of if ur sort of already getting into kpop.

-girls generation (snsd)

speaking of girls generation, lol. their korean name is “so nyuh shi dae”, hence the snsd acronym. they debuted 10 years ago under sm, and they’re so impactful on korean culture that they’re like in textbooks and shit. they’re currently 8 members (taeyeon, yuri, yoona, sooyoung, tiffany, hyoyeon, seohyun, and sunny), but they debuted with 9. jessica left in 2014 after some messy shit with the company. snsd is like HUGE in japan. their japanese songs are so good.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7mPqycQ0tQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nVCubhQ454c

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q_gfD3nvh-8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8j_XEn9b_8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wq7ftOZBy0E

-red velvet

one more sm group lol. i kinda hate sm because they treat their groups rly shitty but i love their groups so much. ANYWAY, red velvet is sm’s most recently girl group, debuted in 2014 with 4 members: irene, seulgi, wendy, and joy. in march 2015, they got a new member, yeri, which everyone was kinda confused about. she was super young at the time, like 16 i think, so maybe she was too young to debut in 2014? dunno. their concept is that they can do girly concepts (red) and more mature, r&b type concepts (velvet).

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JFgv8bKfxEs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QpAn9ryoB4Y

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glXgSSOKlls

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XGdbaEDVWp0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=px2Q47O0_eE

-twice

managed by jyp, another big company like sm. debuted in 2015 with 9 members (jihyo, nayeon, jeongyeon, sana, mina, momo, chaeyoung, dahyun, and tzuyu). they were formed after participating in a survival show called sixteen where sixteen jyp trainees competed to be in the new girl group. i’ve been following them since their debut so i have a special place in my heart for them. also they’re all younger than me so they’re all my daughters

they’re pretty huge in korea atm, and everyone’s calling them the next snsd, which is making snsd fans (sones) all pissed off and starting a really dumb fan war. this is why i dont rly align myself with kpop fandoms lmao theyre all so embarrassing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rtV5esQT6I

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c7rCyll5AeY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ePpPVE-GGJw

-gfriend

another favorite. i forget what company they’re under. they debuted in 2015 with 6 members (sowon, yerin, yuju, sinb, umji, eunha). they’re from a super small company but theyre so fuckin talented that it caught everyone’s attention. also they went viral because yuju fell down a lot on a rainy stage once alskdfjs. they’re super known for their really tight dancing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxnD5AViu6k

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m-CKVr6Z1Tw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ag2R7Mt8yI8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Se8bbsUFjC8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8CydQ-Y3Hs

-mamamoo

debuted in 2014 with four members: solar, moonbyul, wheein, and hwasa. literally the most talented and straight-up performers in every sense of the word, on this entire list. i havent even written the boys list yet, but they beat all of them. they have amazing chemistry, beautiful harmonies and dancing. they have amazing control

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGgrRoMJ6Yc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFuJAIMQjHk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h41Rrk_6rzs

they’re literally so funny and cute and charismatic and talented as hell, pls get into them

BOYS

get ready for this list to be like dramaaatically shorter lmao anyway girl groups are better than boy groups bye

-shinee

best of the best. shinee fucking invented singing, dancing, and the concept of boy groups altogether. they’ve done some really stupid concepts, but somehow they ALWAYS WORK. they’re under sm (surprise, surprise, i love everything sm does ugh) and debuted in 2008 with 5 members: onew, jonghyun, key, minho, and taemin.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DocBfPIgk70

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=roughtzsCDI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dww9UjJ4Dt8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UF53cptEE5k&spfreload=1

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcu7yZBeSKw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WJua7KEP_oE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nchkAmc49p4

-bts

literally everyones fucking obsessed with bts, including me. stands for bangtan sonyeondan, which roughly translates to bulletproof boy scouts. debuted in 2013 with 7 members: rap monster, suga, j-hope, jin, jungkook, v, and jimin. they were like crazy hyped-up pre-debut, which is probably why they’re so big.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pw540DtB5mM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m8MfJg68oCs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BVwAVbKYYeM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ALj5MKjy2BU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hmE9f-TEutc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xEeFrLSkMm8

HONORABLE MENTIONS

Sistar

Exo

Ladies’ Code

Wonder Girls

2ne1

Block B (if ur into homestuck you’ll recognize nilili mambo)

Girls’ Day

Oh My Girl

After School/Orange Caramel

Pristin

Seventeen

AKMU (duet)

Ailee (solo)

AOA

IU (solo)

Lee Hi (solo)

Blackpink

CLC

Crush (solo)

Dean (solo)

Exid

Monsta X

4 Minute

Kara

WJSN

#long post #i spent like an hour on this #kpop #as we all know there are three genders #girls boys and honorable mentions #+filed: anon!#+filed: answer!

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Blog #12: “Awake” at 4am, I knew this is the song // Jessica Rahel

May 7, 2017

!!!WARNING!!! This is an incredibly long post. I don’t know why or how I managed to write so much in one sitting. I titled each section, so please read at your own convenience.

Introduction

POP! is in two days, and I’m really excited to show everyone our music video and watch everyone’s performances. Even though POP! hasn’t happened yet, I want to make this post to reflect my feelings and thoughts while working on this tedious, yet really fun, project.

“Spring Day” = finally some good music

If you’ve read my long ass post about BTS, you know that I’ve been obsessed with them for quite some time now. This all started with me falling in love with the song “Spring Day” in class when a group presented a music video that they made of them dancing to it. Note that I only fell in love with the song at that time. I’ve heard of BTS but didn’t care much for them because I wasn’t into K-Pop. Also, I didn’t like any particular music at that time. I’d enjoy a mainstream song here and there, but get bored of them easily because they get overplayed on the radio or at grocery stores. Listening to “Spring Day” was kind of like getting a wake-up call from the universe telling me, “THERE’S STILL GOOD MUSIC OUT THERE!” I believe it now.

So. Much. Content!

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An example of a BTS “content”… and yes, this is a very important 22 second video

Because BTS debuted in 2013, they have over 4 years of content on YouTube. These include live performances, interviews, vlogs, live streamed videos, reality show episodes that they’re on, “fancams” (videos that fans took), and so on. It was so easy to get hooked on them because of the amount of content they have! Though they speak in Korean, there are English subtitles at the bottom of the video, thanks to the fans who do the translations. It wasn’t long until YouTube picked up on my watching patterns and started recommending me more and more BTS content. All of this started from watching the “Spring Day” music video. I started liking them more and more- their other songs, their dances, and their personalities.

Biases

Because some of my friends like K-Pop, I know that they have “biases”, or a “favorites”, from each group. It was so hard choosing a bias from BTS. I have asked my friends (and watched YouTubers) about who their bias is from BTS, and a lot of them said V, Jungkook, Jimin, Rap Monster, and Suga. V and Jimin came up the most, which made me biased against them because I thought they were too “overrated” in a sense. At first, I was biased towards Rap Monster, the leader, because he speaks fluent English. As a fluent English speaker, who wouldn’t be biased towards him? Then, after watching the “Dope” music video, I fell in love with Jungkook, the youngest, because he just looked really handsome. I then changed my mind after finding out that he was only 17 years old in that music video. He is almost two years younger than me. When I find out that a guy is younger than me, I automatically see him as a little brother figure because I have a little brother. Now, I just adore Jungkook for his voice and personality. He is an attractive boy, but I can’t bring myself to crush on him and V, who is 3 months younger than me.

Who is my bias?

So, who is my bias? Who did I finally settle on? JIN. I decided when I re-watched a live performance of Spring Day. I was trying to find a bias based on their voices. I don’t know how to describe that moment when I fell in love with Jin’s voice. It’s like all of a sudden, when I matched the voice to the face, it happened. This was on Tuesday, April 4. I told my friend “Jin is so cute. His voice is so smooth!” I also realized and went on to find that fans think that he is pretty underrated. He also doesn’t have that many lines in other songs compared to the other members. Also, I don’t know anyone else who is Jin biased. I think he is really popular, but not as popular as the other members. That’s why I like him. I root for the underrated guy.

“What the hell am I gonna do for POP!?”

We needed an idea for what we wanted to do for POP, and honestly, I wasn’t planning on doing that much. Honestly. It’s my last semester, and I felt like I deserved to take it easy. In the past semesters, I was always the group leader, chasing down every single group member and making them do their part of the project. Not a fun game. Even though I am sort of leader for Wontonkatsu, I love this group because we all work well together and look out for each other. I think the fact that this class is a “family style class” helps us collaborate better than groups in other classes because we get to do fun things, like hanging out outside of class. I also have 2 other ongoing school projects aside from POP. My plan was to collaborate with people who just needed a piano accompaniment. That was why I asked Allayne, the viola player in our class, and Ryan, the drummer, if they needed someone who has been playing piano for over 15 years (aka me). Basically, I just wanted to play piano because that’s literally the only thing that I’m comfortable at doing. Little did I know.

Awake at 4AM on a Thursday (April 6)

BTS was still new to me at this time. I could not stop watching them on YouTube. Over 4 years of content? Heck yeah. I got sucked in so quickly. I learned all of their inside jokes. I wouldn’t sleep until like 4am or 5am watching BTS all day and night. My life was a mess. What good could come out of watching these videos? NOTHING. Or so I thought.

That night (or morning), I guess I was exploring their other songs. I read a comment on one of the videos saying something along the lines of, “There’s a significance each of them having a solo song…” I was like, “WHAT? THEY EACH HAVE THEIR OWN SOLO SONG? WAIT, I WANNA HEAR JIN’S SOLO SONG!” It was only 2 days after I decided that my bias is Jin. So, I searched up “jin solo bts” and the song “Awake” came up in the searches. That’s Jin’s song. I clicked on the version with the English lyrics and listened as I read the lyrics.

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Here are my thoughts as I listened to the song:

“Ok this is so sad. Ok this is really sad. Wait I’m crying. What? Omg. I feel the same way. I feel this song on a spiritual level. Jin omg. You’re singing my thoughts right now. *Cries*”

I cried some more. I replayed the song. I watched the music video. I read the comment sections. I read fan theories about how Jin feels that way about himself. I cried some more because I could relate. I cried and cried until I fell asleep.

Awake at noon on a Thursday (April 6) (No, I won’t stop with these “awake” puns)

Because I slept after 4am, I naturally woke up at 12pm. Responsible, I know. I took a shower and got dressed. It was 1pm, 3 hours before our class.

I had an idea for POP.

I want to recreate “Awake”. The song that made me cry last night. I want to recreate THAT. In a performance form, in a video form… doesn’t matter. Let me make my own art and live my dream.

I need a violin player. Drums. A piano. Korean speaker. Chinese speaker. Singers. Actors. Cameramen and camerawomen. A director.

I texted our Wontonkatsu group and asked if anyone knows how to play a musical instrument. Except for Kevin and his belly drums, no one else does. That’s ok. They can be a singer/actor/etc.

I texted Allayne, the viola player in our class, if he has an idea for POP yet and would like to collaborate. I told him my idea and he agreed.

I had 3 hours to write my idea. I made sub-ideas just in case we couldn’t do one idea. Here are the ideas I had:

· Idea 1a: Perform with instruments – no video

· Idea 1b: Sing with instruments – music video shown behind the performance

· Idea 1c: Sing with just piano – no video

· Idea 1d: Sing with just piano – music video

I even wrote out a one-page long explanation as to why I really wanted to do this and how this can relate to our class. This I will talk about in my POP reflection post.

I typed them all up, printed them out, and ready to pitch in my idea in class at 4pm.

Wide Awake at 4pm, in class

I was excited to pitch my ideas. In the back of my head, I knew that this might not work. But that’s ok, at least I could say that I tried.

When I got into class, I talked to Wontonkatsu and they seemed like they’re down to make this idea come to life. I met up with Allayne and went over my plan with him. Floris overheard us since she was sitting right next to him. That was when she mentioned that she’d like to help direct if anything.

I wrote down all our names. We had a team. Wontonkatsu minus Troy, Floris, Eric, and a Korean person, Seoyoung! Exactly 8 people, which is the maximum number of people allowed in a POP group.

Long story short, we got a spot as a team to do this project. Thank you TAs. I got to live my dream!

We ended up being in the category of “Visual Arts”, which was to make a music video. I had 4 ideas, but we had to make “Idea 1e”, which was to just make a music video and compose the music. I don’t know why I wanted to be performed live and have a music video playing at the same time. It could be because I slept at 4am that night!

Now what?

Awake but tired at 7pm, in my finance class

In my finance class, I realized that I could not take this burden on my own. I had to give the director positions to Floris and Eric. Even though I was the one who came up with the idea and wished that I could direct, I couldn’t. It was just not possible because I still had to learn and compose the song for piano and viola. Remember that I barely knew this song at that time, so it was very overwhelming. Not to mention my assignments for other classes. .

STRESS.

I barely ate nor sleep during the next few days because of this project. I was feeling all kinds of emotions. I listened to the song religiously, trying to listen for the violin and piano parts. I asked my older friends for advice on how to sing and compose music and spent a lot of time composing. It’s harder than you think! It was definitely harder than I thought. Apparently, the music for viola is very different than the music for violin. The viola is played on the alto clef, which I did not know about until I had to do this project! It was a lot of stress because I had a debate that was due as well for another class. I also don’t sing on a regular basis, so I had to relearn how to sing all over again. Looking back, I guess it wasn’t that bad. However, because it was my first time officially composing for something and the fact that I can’t really sing, the stress really got to me.

Slowly but surely.

Slowly but surely, progress unfolded. Floris was willing to help with the translation, recording, and literally everything. She did a lot of work and dedicated a lot of her time and effort into this project, which I appreciate soo much. Eric was the director who used his vision while Floris carried out the vision by filming. Seoyoung helped me understand the song a little more with her fluent Korean. Chao and Peter helped translate part of the song to Chinese. Haruka translated part of the song to Japanese. Chao, Seoyoung, Haruka, Lucy and I were part of the singing team. We practiced. We filmed. We recorded. We struggled. We disagreed. We agreed. We compromised. We fought for the sake of the team.

Reflection before POP!

Well first of all, I’M SO THANKFUL FOR EVERYONE WHO HAS CONTRIBUTED TO THIS PROJECT! GOOD JOB, PROUD OF YA’LL. You know who you are. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart <3

A lot of my vision did not come into life throughout this project. We ended up not using the Allayne’s viola parts because it did not fit the song well. I still thank Allayne for his time and effort for volunteering to help us since he’s part of a different POP group. Floris filmed, edited, and produced the song. If it wasn’t for her, this project wouldn’t happen. I did a lot of work too, but I have to give it up to Floris for putting it all together. I do hope that I can make my own content in the future someday. For this project, it’s been a Floris Production, but that’s okay since she has experience and I definitely don’t… at all. If I was producing this, everyone would have a hard time..

Instead of being an accompaniment, I ended up starring in this project. Sometimes things turn out differently than we planned, and for the better too. This has been a dream come true. To star in a music video and to record a song from scratch.

I can’t wait for everyone to see it.

I’m so excited for POP! Meanwhile, I’m struggling to end this post because there’s still so much more to talk about. Like, how can Asian-Americans identify with this song? It’s a K-Pop song after all. What does this song have to do with anything we learned in class? Those questions will be answered in my next post, the actual POP reflection.

If you’ve made it this far, thanks for reading my long ass post. I’ve forgotten how fun it is to blog and reflect. My hearteu heart is full.

- Jessica Rahel

#jessica #idontwannatalkaboutit #howmuchtimeiwasted #writingthispost #ilovebts #somuch #imworsethanmyfriends

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i think it was because god's menu was released around the same bp and svt made their comebacks. same thoughts tho on gm > bd and i was also glad that bd got the wins gm didn't. and same with the streaming mvs while studying : ] ahh, the easily distracted people we are. (reading cut and litol font bc poor ppl who see this on the dash TT)

i've heard chinese ballads (usually osts of films and from a chinese friend) and their songs really tend to tug on my heartstrings. i hope sm gives shotaro more stuff to do soon :[ with some of the units being active and sungchan being an mc on a weekly show, it makes me wonder what he's doing. do you think nct will form a new subunit?

no, i'm not lactose intolerant so it really took me by surprise. it was a one-time thing. hopefully it doesn't happen again. i can't really say i'm a big fan of ice cream but it's good occasionally yk as a treat to yourself. and ahhh, i miss drinking smoothies. my favorite stall has been closed for nearly two years now, idk if they ever re-opened since our city mall burned down :[

i think it's an nct thing? it's why i never get tired of them bc they're always active in a way. you should've seen how things went down last year! march 127 album, april dream mini-album, may 127 repackage, june wayv album and the whole nct 2020 thing. it was a wild year. about the track, i listened to it once and forgot about it. might give it a few more listens but it might not grow on me at all. yes! wasn't a big fan of hot sauce at first too bc i thought the intro was weird (not jaemin's part, like the first thing that plays). and yes, that hook loops in my head 24/7. i even made it my instagram bio.

stray kids world domination indeed! and i agree that their performances were really impressive (specially the deadpool one, best one yet) but sometimes i would fancy ateez' more. i didn't watch kingdom too bc it stressed me out as a multi. always caught between being happy for one group and being sad for the others. and atz and tbz! you're still getting into nct and you're thinking of adding 19 more boys! judging from what i know your taste in music is, i think you'll like tbz's music better since there are a lot more soft songs there than in atz. but do give both discographies a listen in the future!

oh izone! i've only heard of them at music shows and dance choreo compilations bc of them being in sync. they're really satisfying to watch! i thought their title tracks were catchy as well! quite unfortunate that i never got into them really. but again, i dont think i can handle stanning temporary groups.

i'm starting to see a pattern in your biases :D i wouldn't be too surprised if you'll be drawn to jeno at some point in your dream venture. dream is soooo easy to love so if you really end up ulting them, i would understand why. and also, YES PLEASE WRITE FOR DREAM AND TAG ME IF YOU WILL. THANK YOU ><

thank you! :c don't get your hopes up tho, the masterlist must've been interesting to browse but are the fics truly worth it? XD i think not. since you already know koe, i'm reccing users @/rouiyan, @/nsheetee and @/loonacitys. i don't have that much fluff in my ficrecs blog. i think, i've heard of lvdsc before (maybe even read a fic or two) but i can't find their blog now. be careful in privating your works, you might end up losing them forever if you don't keep track of their links...(?) that's what happened to the works that i privated :/ take me with you if you move blogs ;n;

seungmin frequently left updates abt what he was doing, left good nights and good mornings, the occasional i miss you. he called fans 'baby' once. not sure if it was a mistranslation, or really just a one-time endearment. other than that, nothing beyond the usual. seung vlives always make me cry ;n; he always look so adorable and precious. also the gif, the fic was more on fake head-butting really but yes you could say it was also a fake nose boop bc it sounds cuter. i'll make sure to tag you on future seung content on the dash. (time to officially claim him as your ult, yes. dont make him secret anymore :3)

sorry it took me a while. tumblr went batshit. the ' werkl;' stopped working midway and i got busy with school yesterday. also haechan birth today and i'm so emo abt it. it's literally just a boy turning 21.

little font and cut saga lets go!!

(just kidding, i cant do little font typing for long periods of time, makes my eyes go beserk haha.)

true true, im afraid for txt on music shows now because theyre going against some big names (literally bts like whatj jsdf what was hybe thinking). yeah, streaming mvs while studying aka watching mvs on loop lmao. i still want to stream skzs final kingdom performance on instinct but i remember that theyve already won!! hehe

ah chinese ballads always make me emo, i like to scream out lyrics to the songs at the top of my lungs and sit there on the verge of tears. its a cultural thing maybe *sobs*. ooh, what show is sungchan mc-ing in? ill check it out. i thought sm would make nct japan for sungtaro (i heard sungchan speaks japanese) so it was a shocker when they made...nct hollywood lmao. given the current circumstances we're probably not going to get a new subunit anytime soon :( hopefully taro will have stuff to showcase during that period of time.

burned down?? oh my, what happened to your mall? that sounds terrifying. i remember when the front of my school caught on fire and we were all ushered out but we thought it was a drill and didnt find out till years later lmao.

oh true, since theyre such a big pack too. constant comebacks and promotions haha, nctzens never catch a break with 23 members. i listened to the new track again (ive forgotten the name already) but i cant- i cant do it. its just not my style hhh. i rewatched the mv for the godly visuals though. i dont know if youre talking about that 'bibididibibidiododo' part by that female morphed voice at the beginning of the song, because i wasnt a fan of that too. it grew on me though.

same, actually! im not an atiny and dont stan any other group in the show besides skz but i watched each groups performance and ranked them haha. at times ateez would rank over skz, it was wild. also yeah, my other multi friend was freaking out about kingdom and ended up abandoning the show because she was so scared of the fanwars and having to deal with her 'conflicting feelings'. about the stanning thing, in my defense, i have a list of groups i want to stan and ive recently added tbz and atz. the list is long, i have a long way to go! also yeah, i dont prefer ateez's songs and i have a bunch of tbz title tracks in my playlist but if i approach their discography like i did with nct then i think i would like at least five songs.

izone are my queens. theres a reason why theyre the only girl group who made it to my ult list haha! super talented and filled with variety and visuals, a perfectly concocted group (literally, sobs in pd48 scandal). ah, temporary groups. yeah i cried about their disbandment for like 3 days straight, it was bad.

a pATTERN?? INTERESTING. DO ELABORATE. jeno, oh my gosh hes like bang chan. an intimidating-looking bear whos actually filled with love and softness on the inside. im currently having a jaemin run though, his make a wish fancam is doing some wacky things. also yeah, dream is really easy to love. i fell for them so hard, theyre all talented and cute and adorable and the team ambiance is so nice. really rising up my stan list now. i mightt write for dream! ill have to see, hehe.

personally i think the fics are going to be worth it. i can feel it in my boOOnes. ooh, recommendations! fun :D ill check them (and yours) out after i finish this 30k jisung fic. ive been trying to finish it since yesterday but i keep getting sidetracked. also, i made a mistake. its luvdsc with a 'u', maybe thats why you couldnt find it? ahh. thank you for the privating tip though! will keep in mind. and of course ill take you with me if/when i move blogs. we're friends now! <3

SEUNGMIN CALLED STAYS 'BABY'???!!@)(@#*()! I SHOULDVE BEEN THERE ASKDFJDF. im exciting for the fake nose boop drabble!! i love soft couple moments hehe. also yeah maybe its time to make him my ult...hes going to have to compete against jake my beloved ope.

dont worry about being 'late' or anything! we all have our own stuff to do. also yeah tumblr is weird asf sometimes. if you havent realized i typically answer longer asks around the same time everyday, when i get to sit in front of my computer and pull out my clickity-clackity keyboard. super relaxing.

AND YES HYUCKIE DAY!!! HES SO ADORABLE HONESTLY. im in love with all seven members of dream, my fic rec blog is currently filled with fics for them haha.

#「 asks 」#moots — [♡] ;#toffee — [♡] ;#neo-shitty

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