#honestly im really glad my autism comes through in my art

[time-woods]

immediately thought of your art when i saw this

i could power a city with the amounts of autistic radioactive waste i give off

[corvidae666]

honestly, overall i had a pretty shit year, but i also had an amazing year at the same time.

i missed out on countless experiences because of my health, but thats okay, because i learned a lot along the way. i got diagnosed with ADHD, giftedness, juvenile fibromyalgia and POTS, and as the year comes to a close i am seeking out diagnosis for autism, dpdr, and generalised anxiety disorder. thats a lot. but coming to terms with all of that had helped me accept myself and my limits in a much healthier way, and i am learning to live with these boundaries instead of despite them.

i also got into the select entry arts school that i tried out for. school has been a wild ride for me, from a traumatic experience on my very forst day of kindergarten, to going through the education system as a gifted kid, to having a system i used to trust fall through when i got sick, its really been a lot. but next year i a starting a fresh (start fresh next semester /ref) and i hope that i will have finally found an environment that will support and engage me in school again.

i started posting my art this year as well. and although currently i am fighting to get out of one of the worst art blocks ive ever experienced, i truly believe that starting to post has caused huge improvements in my art. thank you to all the people who have liked or commented or reblogged something i created, it means the world. im so glad for the people who follow me, and for the support that has been shown for my creations. thank you all. (and to those who sent in requests when i asked -- i *will* get those done i swear, its just gonna take me a while)

on the more trivial side of things, i played d&d for the first time this year as well. it really seems like a small thing, but its been something ive wanted to try for years and never got the chance to, but now i have a group of friends who i play with, and its been wonderful!

another thing that may seem trivial to most -- i went to my very first music concert this year! thats something i never thought id be able to do for a myriad of reasons; i thought i would have a panic attack, or faint, or throw up, or have a meltdown from overstimulation. but this year, in november, i made an impulse decision to buy tickets for the twenty one pilots show happening four days later, and that was one of the best decisions of my life. yes, i had to take anti anxiety meds at the show, but i had the time of my life that evening, and i would never go back on it, no matter how much i complained about how i was supposed to save for a new school laptop.

and finally, most importantly, i met my partner valerie this year. i cannot accurately put into words the impact you have had on my life, it is much to big and complex for me to express. so i will simply say this; i love you, and i will continue to love you as long as you allow me to. you are a wonderful, amazing, lovely creature, and i look forward to spending my life with you. thank you for existing, thank you for being here, and thank you for reaching out to me after i drew that silly little sketch for you. im sure you had no idea what you were getting into with that lol. once again, i love you, and i will be with you as long as you will have me. you are everything to me and i hope you know that. <3333333

thank you to everyone who has been by my side this year, and who will continue to be next year. i hope i can offer you the same support.