#honestly after my current audition cycle ends i might just say “f it” and give this up for good

[boldlychristina]

im gonna be real with you chat, it has been very hard to attempt to quell my "irrational" thoughts when the universe seems intent on proving them right

[cinder-timber]

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i did all these instead of working on my articles due today

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? cause i’m dumb af and cause i’m thinking about everything and making myself anxious

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? sometimes i get them from my mom when like something big is about to happen (like when i had auditions and stuff) or i’m feeling sick. they’re sweet

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? yeah. i mean i’m not going to just drop them. i’m not an ass. but like. it could be an issue

4: Do you find it easy to trust others? not really but i like to think the best of people. like i’m really guarded but kinda hopeful too. i w a n t to trust others but i don’t do it well

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? trying to get motivation to do my work

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? idk i’m probably doing it alone tbh. i f anyone, i’d hope zuma or peter

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?cry. a lot. cycle between anger and sad. I’d give them a chance to maybe like explain or to fix it. but that trust is ruined. and i’d probably eventually end it8: Are you close with your dad? yeah but no. like, im a lot closer with my mom and i’ll share stuff with her but like. i love my dad there’s just some (a lot of things) that i’m like nope

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? heck off

10: What are you listening to? podcast. Off topic. not really listening though i just can’t sit in silence

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? apple juice maybe

12: Do you like hickeys? never had them so. but maybe. i like the fact that they usually mean someone had a real nice time

13: What time do you go to bed? whenever my body just. shuts down. usually i wake up like fuck i fell asleep

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? myself bit c h

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? not as quick but still pretty dang quick

16: Do you always answer your texts? i try but sometimes i A) don’t know how to respond B) can’t find the energy to C) the text makes me anxious and i can’t even look at it17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? No. Opposite

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? like. fifteen minutes ago. talk talk though, Thursday

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? Zuma, Layla

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? Let’s just say it was bad things

21: Is anyone else in the room with you? nah

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? a bit. very satisfying when it happens

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? about four months ago i was home with my dog so no.

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? kinda. not like we hate each other and i wish i could fix it but like. yeah

25: In the past week, have you cried? yeah

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? black. it’s usually safe to assume i’m wearing black

27: Do people ever call you by your last name? not really

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? i feel like it but i’m probably just overthinking like usual

29: Do you have a best friend? Zuma

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? no last person i kissed so

31: Who was your last call/text message from? zuma and how he’s basically furby jesus

32: Are you mad at anyone? not really. frustrated but not mad

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? no

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? 0

35: How many more days until your birthday? 38 days

36: Do you have any summer plans yet? i have a study abroad trip in June. Plan on seeing Zuma at some point but other than that, no

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? yes

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? eh

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? i have several

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? hasn’t happened

41: Do you think age matters in relationships? yes but like. extremes.

42: Are you available? Y E S

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? one?

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? i have a septum piercing. i wanted a industrial bar but my ear is too tiny. some other earring piercing that i can’t remember the name for. i like labret piercings (the one on like your bottom lip in the middle). if i was more confident with my tummy and would actually show it off, a belly button piercing. 45: Do you believe exes can be friends? depends on how it ended but yeah. i’d hope so. i can’t imagine getting that close to someone and then just. ending it. it makes me anxious thinking about it

46: Do you regret anything? many a things

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? mean things that i’m not gonna worry people with

48: Did you ever lose a best friend?no. i’ve lost a friend but she was more a “friend” 49: Was your last kiss a mistake? 😒

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? because i know for a Fact it will not happen/work

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? 😒😒

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? 😒😒😒53: What was the last thing you ate? a pack of fruit snacks

54: Did you get any compliments today? i have not even seen anyone today

55: Where are you going on your next vacation? i probably won’t until my study abroad trip. maybe a small trip for my birthday

56: Do you own anything from other countries? postcards

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? it’s a pretty even split tbh

58: Where have you lived most of your life? Tennessee

59: When was the last time you took a long drive? ok like. how long is a long drive? to me that’s like five hours. and i haven’t done that in a while

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?no61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? nope

62: Who do you text the most? Zuma

63: What was the last movie you saw?Logan64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? 😒😒😒

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? none 😒😒😒😒

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? 😒😒😒😒😒😒

67: Do you curse around your parents? very small doses. and when i’m like relaying a story usually

68: Are you happy with where you live? eh

69: Picture of yourself? in a second

70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? i’m pretty sure i’m a monogamous person. if i did the open end, it’d have to be a we’re all three in a relationship together kind of thing.

71: Have you ever been dumped? no

72: What do you most like about making out? 😒😒😒😒😒😒🖕🏻

73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? no

74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? 😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻

75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? smiles are pretty nice

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? i think zuma. if not him, no one

77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? nah

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? listen i’ve never had sex and tbh not the biggest fan of it

79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your faceanimals. and when someone does/says something nice about me. like honestly someone tagged me in something like offhandedly nice and i almost cried and screenshotted and stared at it for like twenty minutes

80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? idk there’s a lot of variables to consider in that. but it’s not a hard no

81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? no

82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? n o

83: Do you miss your last sweetie? sigh

84: Last time you slow danced with someone? like senior prom two years ago.

85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?never dated. the never met part makes me anxious though. i gotta know a little bit about them 86: How can I win your heart? we just have to like. get along, kinda click. it’s not that hard

87: What is your astrological sign? Taurus

88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?i think i was in the shower89: Do you cook? yeah. i think pretty decently too

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? no

91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? yes

92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? i don’t do either

93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? physically, i’m really not picky. i find a good majority of people attractive

94: Name four things that you wish you had!1. my dog2. more pets3. a relationship or something like it at least. (i just need cuddles man)4. my best friend being not so far away

95: Are you a player? no

96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? no

97: Are you a tease? i don’t think so

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? Zuma. Burrowing owl

99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? i think so but idk

100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? yeah

101: Hugs or Kisses?either one honestly102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? I’m too shy to say yes to anything even remotely close, let alone ask someone out

103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? that they’re. the opposite sex i guess. idk. something unique about them (anyone tbh)104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? i mean. i’ve been called babe by friends before. i might find it cute when it’s said romantically but idk

105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? Fuck no. Fuck anyone that does that

106: Do you flirt a lot? no

107: Your last kiss?

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? who does this. who does all this kissing that there’s so many kissing questions

109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? W h y

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? stop

111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next? enough

112: Does someone like you currently? lmao no

113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? kinda

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? serious. i get too attached to people for flings

115: Ever made out with just a friend? no. we do little nose or forehead kisses but never made out

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? idk