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butchdykekondraki · 1 month ago

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the more time i spend working around christians the closer i am to just going Fuck It and reverting back to being religious. im like already one step of the way there vis a vis the jesus freak posting so like. i think this is perhaps Inevitable. very very very funny considering i have spent the last near year on here being like "NOOO IM AGNOSTICCCC IM NOT CHRISTIAN IM JUST WEIRD ABOUT RELIGION NOOOO"

#i dont know how to phrase this .#im not. OPPOSED. to it.#its just Odd bc i grew up raised by a vaguely christian mother and a stark athiest father while also having a stark christian aunt #so when i kind of. renounced christianity I GUESS it wasnt bc i HATED it. it was just bc i was Weird.#and also a schizophrenic with ocd who was having delusions about god watching me for . nearly my entire life up until like 3-4 years ago(?)#fuckin hell dont get me STARTED on the shit the internet put me through #not a fun experience being on the internet hearing horror stories of christians and viewing them as pure evil for several years when i -#- was 1) surrounded by them 2) also christian at the time and 3) gay and disabled #thats not rlly related but it DOES add to why im so.#gestures vaguely.#Like THIS.#anyway.#what was the point i was making here.#OH right. point being ??????????? dont be surprised if im just randomly like ''hey im christian dont be weird about this''#this is what working thru religious trauma does to a bitch. IT MAKES THEM RELIGIOUS FML #holy fuck i do NOT SHUT UP do i. THE RAMBLERRRRR.#anyway. Swagever #speaking.mp4

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