#holy cow this is some heavy drama hahahaha

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Alyssum of Magnolia

Species: Butterfly

Design based on: Dragontail butterfly

She was too young to even remember the fall of the previous royals within Highgrove. Magnolia, a young usurper of the time, already took Alyssum in as a grubling and raised her under the reformed rules of the kingdom with the lady as a new queen. Other members of the newfound family Magnolia helped raise her within the conditions they set in stone to all Highgrovians.

While it’s hushed and never told, Alyssum was part of the poverty before her new queen but there was no need to touch upon that subject. It never matter because she was raised as a noble from the start. With those who rose to power holding the experiences of living in their lowest, the Magnolia family held a lot of aces in their sleeves: knowledgeable and informative, skilled fighters and veterans, medics that worked underground with only what they could afford, the ones discarded for who or what they are... they were all teachers to Alyssum.

Magnolia made sure Alyssum was raised, first of, as a proper lady. Second, a useful member. She was thought on social behavior and reading of body language while also keeping herself as mysterious as possible. The skills of fighting is something Alyssum never took interest in but the ruthless way of Magnolia both scared and fascinated her. With such skills, Alyssum begun to form her own attitude and persona. Reaching maturity and graduating in a sense was rewarded with spell bound wings: sewed in by the weaver on the family’s side, the bindings are of Soul and made for both defense and offense.

However... visiting City of Tears at Hallownest slightly changed her perspective. Being confident as she is, Alyssum wonders off on her own into the Fungal Wastes near the city gates. It was by chance that she met a trapper moth named Mugo who engaged in a conversation with her first. She knew how to read the look in the male’s eyes all too well. After all, it wasn’t the first time nor the last that someone would fall for her physical look so simply. At first, she was playful about it, understanding she could dump him when ever she liked but... Mugo wasn’t like that. Slowly, as they chattered more and more, spending more and more time together, Alyssum begun to realize this isn’t just someone going after her looks and position. The Magnolia emblem with a necklace she gave to him to sell at the black market, knowing it will be pricey and bring him good money, was kept safe with him because he cared. She truly fell in love with Mugo as well...

Their dates were secret, no one from Magnolia should know Alyssum was seeing a random, unimportant moth from Hallownest, a kingdom that was already crumbling and was soon to be left to die by it’s fate caused by the Pale one. She had this in the back of her head. Once the time to head back to Highgrove comes, she didn’t want to leave Mugo behind. At least, that’s what she told him to be the reason... but truthfully, she didn’t want to feel without a partner again, especially not after experiencing such happiness from their private meetings.

Mugo was then open about his opinions regarding the Magnolia and Highgrove. He made it clear to Alyssum he will not take part in such family and ways of ruling the kingdom, never wanting to go back there, especially since he did his best to leave the kingdom in the first place. His proposition of her to stay with him is when it all started to shatter and fall apart for Alyssum. How could he be so selfish to ask of her to leave everything she’s been part of and worked on so hard her whole life?

Disagreements, arguments, anger, shouting... fighting. Everything she asked of him was denied. Alyssum broke and accept it... Under the idea that he might as well die there and not wait for the infected kingdom to finish him. No. She genuinely wanted him dead for feeling so betrayed by one person she allowed herself to be... herself and not a mare persona. She herself was denied by one person she truly loved.

Mugo escaped and Alyssum’s wings of aggression. She was infuriated, disappointed, crushed, eventually sad...

Magnolia was not to stay within Hallownest for too long then. She had little time and her mind and emotions weren’t settling. Alyssum was obsessed. She understood the way things are at Highgrove that she will never have another proper opportunity for a partner like this. Mugo had to be hers... So in one last attempt, she did something despicable. 

A single egg was birthed. It was so simple in her head then. He will have no reason to say no to this and even if he does, he will turn irresponsible and a terrible person. It was Alyssum’s ticket to owning Mugo. No one but herself and her personal maid knew about this act.

Despite Mugo going into hiding, Alyssum sent him a letter. A meeting at the Crossroads, near the tram station where she was to depart with the rest of Magnolia, one last time, with a little surprise... Of course, Mugo never showed up.

Hooded and carrying a small caterpillar that Alyssum never looked as a child but a tool, she waited but to no avail. Her plan failed. It hit her hard and she realized all of the things that happened in Hallownest must be left behind and never spoken of again. So she left the child behind...

After returning to her home kingdom, Alyssum grew up just as ruthless as her queen, only looking up to Magnolia from that point on. The queen trusts her to the fullest, being most loyal underling of hers. Thus, she allowed Alyssum to create her own faction of underground leaders and members called the White Magnolia. She worked on creating links to their family’s chain of power and has been so far busy with it, eventually forgetting at what happened at Hallownest, or at least she told herself that. Until...

Amalma, a young spy on a mission to keep an eye on Zeeke of Highgrove, had an interesting encounter Alyssum found out through Zeeke himself upon their return from a little adventure at Hallownest. Mugo was still alive. And he was accompanied by a girl moth with a little vessel.

Alyssum could feel, old suppressed fury set under the last twenty years of new, cold experiences, made her current, confident self know she has yet another chance... to ruin him for what he did to her.

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Characteristics:

+: collegial, enduring, straight forward -: egocentric, manipulative, apathetic n: cunning, social, skilled

Inventory:

Emblem of White Magnolia: A must for a member of Magnolia and faction of White Magnolia. High pride is taken in carrying one of these in Highgrove and a radiance of fear to lower classes of the kingdom.

Seals of Spring’s Fall

Alyssum’s wings carry magic sewed in by a weaver. The bindings on her wings allow her to manipulate soul in shape of floating, spinning, twirling, slow or rapid petals that can be as gentle as a feather and a sharp as a nail when packed together and shot as high speed.

It allows her to manipulate soul within small things which is most often within growing flowers of her settlement, controlling the petals and leaves off them as well with less soul cost.

She can also generate dome shaped seal like shield around herself and use wings to hit blow enemies away from her using the said shield that takes patterns that are the same as the ones on her wings.

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.·゜゜·. Holy Cow A Survey .·゜゜·.  (and holy cow, it’s my 800th on here) by junkie_dreams

1. What made you pick up the last book you started reading? I started reading it for a while, then thesis made me too busy to read it for a few weeks, then when I was finished with that I realized I’ve left the book alone so I continued it and proceeded to finish the whole thing.

2. Have you received any bad or troubling news lately? All things revolving around Covid19, George Floyd, & Trump < Pretty much, though replace Trump with Duterte. He’s being such a cranky ass about hastily passing this new bill that will essentially allow warrantless arrests to anyone complaining about him on the internet, so everyone’s kinda stressing out about that right now. 

3. When was the last time you were relieved about something? Since Tuesday, every day that I’ve woken up without a fever is a relief. Another thing is that it’s Gabie’s birthday today and I was relieved to find out that she loved the surprise I made for her :) I pooled all her friends together and made them do video birthday greetings and submit photos that they have with her and I compiled it in a simple short film. It turned out super cute!

4. What about your life concerns you the most? Anything job-wise. They say 2020 graduates are heading into the worst job market in a very long time, and I think that’s pretty straightforward information.

5. Is there a common thing most people seem to do without trouble, but it scares you (talking on the phone, driving, interviews, etc)? When was the last time you had to do one of these kinds of things? Talking on the phone, ordering in a restaurant, and asking for help in any kind of store. I had to talk to a Grab delivery driver the other day to help him with directions going to my house; andddd I don’t usually have to recite my order or ask for help at a store myself because my girlfriend will often be the one to speak for me HAHAHAH.

6. Is a pen pal something you would enjoy? If so, what kinds of little things would you send your pen friends? No, only because writing exhausts me these days. I only enjoy writing for people I already know very well and love, and I wouldn’t feel invested enough to write to people I don’t know all that much yet.

7. Describe a time when you were there for a friend? Angela was sad the other day so I dropped her short messages to let her know I was there for her. She never replied, but it’s okay; it was just important to me that she knew I wasn’t going to leave her alone.

8. When was the last time you went somewhere for the first time? I dunno, I obviously haven’t gone around the city in months...though I’m thinking it’s the milk tea place we have at campus, called Nomu. I was there to pick up a drink a week before lockdown.

9. What is a situation that makes you feel especially confident? If it’s a situation that I know I can handle, like a test I studied a lot for; or if it’s a situation where I have a lot of support.

10. What was the subject of your most recent conversation? My dad was asking if he can have one of my soju bottles (my mom recently bought me five) and was also asking what flavor is really good. That prompted me to walk over and hesitatingly point out the good flavors, until he said, “Just kidding, I was just checking to see if this will make you stand up. You’re so predictableeeeeeeee” hahahaha

11. Hypothetically and generally speaking, how would you go about breaking up with someone? Is there anything you would make sure to say, or perhaps not say? I’d do it personally, say everything there is to say, and let’s face it, I see myself crying a lot too because I can never have serious conversations without tearing up lol.

12. Are you more of a night person or a day person? What is it about the night/day that you favor? I like the nightlife more. I hate the sun and when it’s bright out, so I’m most active when it’s evening and the lights and stars are pretty.

13. What do you find particularly offensive? Would you say you’re easy or difficult to offend? Mostly anything racist, misogynist, sexist, homophobic, transphobic, biphobic, acephobic, and anti-poor. I’m very alert about these things and will call out anyone making insensitive sentiments about any of them.

14. Is there a belief you have that most others around you don’t have? Do you share this belief with others, or do you tend to keep it to yourself? Have you ever offended anyone with this belief? Ok so it’s technically the opposite of belief but I am atheist in a predominantly Catholic country. I’m very vocal about it except with my family. I probably have offended some people by stuff I’ve said or shared, but I don’t care. If they choose to ignore the myriad of issues surrounding their religion, they’re part of the problem and the reason why I’m so wholly against it.

15. Do you consider internet friendships as important as offline friendships, or do you view them differently? I value offline friendships more.

16. When was the last time you visited relatives or friends of the family? Is visiting family something you enjoy? I visited my lola, aunt, and cousins last Sunday when I was sick, since the doctor we were heading to lives in the same village. I hadn’t seen them since December I think? so my lola cried when she saw us walk through the front gate :’) I love visiting family, whoever it may be. It’s always fun to catch up, as long as conversations don’t turn into politics lol.

17. What did you do for the last holiday or event you celebrated? For my birthday we were stuck in lockdown so I couldn’t really do anything, but we had lots of food which is the easiest way to make me happy anyway. My parents and sister bought a blueberry cheesecake but had the blueberry part scraped off and then they crushed a whole pack of Oreos to turn it into an Oreo cheesecake lol; and Angela sent me a box of sushi.

18. If you’ve moved out from home, what was the scariest thing about it? What was/is your favorite thing about it? I haven’t yet.

19. Are there any fictional characters you like even though they’re “bad” or “evil?” What qualities draw you to a character? Yeah. Many antagonists speak the truth, and that makes it so easy to root for them. It’s this case very often in pro wrestling.

20. What are your thoughts on “forgiving” murderers, rapists, attackers, etc? Do you think it’s even possible to forgive these people? I don’t even forgive friends who betray me, so much less would I forgive assholes like the ones you listed. It’s definitely possible; I just choose not to do it because that’s my way of being in peace.

21. What was the last series you finished watching? Do you have any plans to begin another? I’m awwwwwwwful at finishing series man. I’m still on Descendants of the Sun but I also started a rewatch of The Big Bang Theory lmao. I want to finish DOTS first though and then maybe move on to Crash Landing On You, another Korean drama. Big Bang’s not really a priority for me and just something I wanna watch when I don’t want anything too heavy.

22. What is one way in which you are different from a year ago? What is one way in which you are still the same? I’m a lot less afraid of dealing with people (and been better with it) thanks to the stuff I’ve had to do in the last year, like my internship and heading external relations for my org. I’m still the same in the sense that I’m still deathly terrified in the last few moments before I do the aforementioned dealing with people lol. Once I jump into the conversation I’m perfect, but I take f o r e v e r to get prepared.

23. When was the last time you had to walk somewhere in the rain? How about the snow? I don’t like walking in the rain and we don’t get snow.

24. Are there any types of survey questions you dread or don’t like answering for whatever reason? What kinds of questions do you like best? Questions that make me think too much or are too deep. I also don’t like basic surveys. Random is where it’s at. Ask me what I got at the last restaurant I was at, places I plan to visit soon, the last time I got mad, stuff like that.

25. If you could learn about anything without the stress of grades or cost, what kind of classes would you take? Law.

26. What was the last item of clothing you purchased? Do you wear it often? Two identical tops in different colors. I haven’t gotten the chance to wear either a lot because lockdown happened shortly after I bought them.

27. Has anything made you feel nostalgic lately? Sure. When I was compiling stuff for Gab’s surprise video, I came across some very old photos of us and of her and Angela.

28. What was the last chore you completed? Wash my plate from breakfast.

29. Name a song you’ve listened to today? 7/11 by Beyoncé, heh.

30. Is there anything you’ve promised yourself you’ll never do again? Drink buko juice. I had to drink it for the first few days of my UTI treatment and it’s so disgustinggggggg.