#holic theme: watanukis choice

[koushirouizumi]

{H.O.L.I.C} [LORE] ~ T W O D r e a m s ~ {Shopkeeper!}WATANUKIs Dream World

"I was thinking I could go on if it was all a D R E A M..."

"Both kinds of D R E A M..."

"When S Y A O R A N paid the P R I C E..." {Cap's by Me} (Please ASK to Use)

[pirepoumon]

Well I finished all of Rei last night and it's even more disappointing than I remembered, because I no longer have hope. The shambling dream-corpse that resembles Yuuko in Watanuki's stupid dream is emblematic of the whole of Rei: it too wants to return to a time when xxxholic was good and fix things, but you can't return to the past - doubly so if you're still keeping that stupid fucking egg in your pocket.

Reading the first 104 (lol cool douwata reference) chapters of holic was a beautiful whirlwind that had me constantly wondering why I don't remember this series even more fondly than I do, but as the great work it is... and the last 2 chapters soured me right back to my fond but derisive judgement I've had for years. Holic, pre-timeskip (or perhaps, pre-egg dilemma) is the most effective execution of CLAMP's "your self-sacrifice will hurt others, defeating the point of your original intent to treat youirself as disposable to save them from pain" themes (seen in Tokyo Babylon, X, Clover, etc.) as much its horrifying case of the week episodes nail the perfect balance of mystic foreboding and thematic resonance.

And all of this - the horror, the moral, the tone - hinged on the interrelationships between hitsuzen and choice. So rei, with its fifty fucking chapters of waiting for Watanuki to choose and having nothing more than some vaguely interesting customers and the vague hope that maybe Sayaka Doumeki isn't canon. That's over half of the original series' length, and even the Yaobikuni and Jorogumo relationship felt disappointing and shallow given the compelling premise! And it'll never be done! but it doesn't matter because everyone should read holic and love it and stop at 104 to just go... read the professor's wife. full stop

[koushirouizumi]

xxxHolic Rei ~ Chapter 17 ~ Shizuka Dōmeki + Yamainu & Kimihiro Watanuki

"Are you a {Shinto}...??" "No, I'm just the {Child} of..." {"Child of a Shinto--"} -> "And those people will never forget you"

"There are people who want to stand beside you, Definitely"

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[koushirouizumi]

Just DouxWata Things

Me, watching Holic 2k13: ... Domeki: {Unlike (Haruka)} I can't save people mE: Domeki: I live by saying goodbye. M E: Yuuko: {However} YUUKO: Because, YOU have a Bond {Enishi} with WATANUKI M E: {BANGS FISTS DOWN}

[koushirouizumi]

{H.O.L.I.C R.E.I} ~ Dōmeki + C H O I C E S & W O R R Y (+ The E G G)

"SOMEONE LIKE ME,

...Who's BEEN BY {WATANUKI}'S SIDE All this Time-" ~ during Zashiki-Warashi Arc

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[koushirouizumi]

{H.O.L.I.C} + {H.O.L.I.C R.E.I} ~ Dōmeki seeing S Y A O R A N {Through their shared eye via W A T A N U K I} + Showing Acknowledgement of S Y A O R A N{s} (+Support for Watanuki)

"I still have to... Choose."

"You're just {W A I T I N G} for W A T A N U K I to {C h o o s e} EVEN THOUGH the T R U T H is YOU

CAN C H O O S E as WELL." - Yuuko, to Dōmeki

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[koushirouizumi]

{H.O.L.I.C} (before Yuuko's fate) ~ WATANUKI's D r e a m ~ {B U T T E R F L Y} O b i Yuuko + "This Place" & "The Day That Must Come" + Watanuki & H A P P I N E S S

"T H I S P l a c e was B U I L T"

+ "For the sake of" {T H A T} D A Y Which MUST C O M E

{T I M E}/{D A Y} - A P R I L 1 S T

"...THOUGH YOU'VE NEVER Worn those same C L O T H E S, Y U U K O-"

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[koushirouizumi]

{H.O.L.I.C R.E.I} ~ Dōmeki's H E L P " Dōmeki is A L W A Y S H E L P I N G Watanuki AND {A L W A Y S} WILL"

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[koushirouizumi]

{H.O.L.I.C} x {R.E.I} ~ YUUKO's + WATANUKI's "STOPPED TIME" ~ + Dōmeki (as Support) + Haruka Dōmeki (as Support in Shopkeeper Watanuki's Dream {Talk}s) + CLOW (wishing to "stop" Yuuko's "time") + Watanuki's WISHES & CHOICE{s}

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[koushirouizumi]

{H.O.L.I.C R.E.I} ~ #49 ~ Watanuki's C H O I C E "The C H O I C E was NOT MADE for 'the sake of' ONE PERSON, but to {R E S C U E} (T W O) P E O P L E---"

"It is only that there is {NOT ENOUGH T I M E} and (I N F O R M A T I O N)."

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