#hold my brainworms i gotta write this fic

[goatboard]

in my head Jecka is mostly attracted to men and has actually pretty decent taste when it comes to them and Nicole is literally her exception

and it pisses her off so bad because if she likes girls can't she at least like someone decent? someone who's not fucking Nicole?????

[calowlmitygoddess]

:3cc Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love❤

(I’m holding up a big-fan sign waiting for my bug fics updates)

SHOOT hm ok i've got a few works so mm

The Sun Rises- REALLY like this one, Lys beloved, still have another one shot of her i must get out of my system. OC origin story

Worlds Apart- Radiance centric, also still pretty happy with this one

How far have we fallen - PK and Radiance, i need to write more of these two tbh, they scratch my brainworms.

Our Birthday- Honkai Impact 3rd, Amber and Theresa centric, because They are Sisters your honour, and also terribly underatted

And lastly this one's for you dropout

We're so close but so Distant- multichapter fic where the HK siblings fail to communicate anything with eachother, and end up involved with yet MORE god bullshit but in another kingdom. I swear i'll get back to this one i just gotta finish my Original Wip that has consumed my brain

[gwagwagwagoogoo]

i hope this helps u write ur fic but consider; ur fic might not hold up to ur own standards, but the regular sulemio shipper isn't going to be doing literaary analysis anyway? if i saw a new fic in the tag I'd just be happy to consume more wlw content

the 2 cakes metaphor basically

Oh! thank you ;w;!!

I kinda forget that I am now developing a following on my tumblr dot gov account so y’all will actually remark on my late night bitching, it’s a bit of a shock tbh but the advice is appreciative I mean it ;;

That is true! I just get nervous is all, some liken me to a prey animal at heart and then I think about how others will react to my material and then I get prey animal nervous, where it’s built up on irrational thoughts and stuff

I’m still writing and I’m tryna just write for myself and sulemio brainworms and enjoy what I write rather than like. Take it so hard over literally nothing like it’s just an ao3 fic I don’t know why my dumbass gotta take it so seriously sometimes

Sometimes tricking my brain to deprive a cathartic sense of self indulgent pleasure from the experience eases the whole horror of perception thing I ultimately have and what i like to call ‘my anxiety brain’ describes as a lack of skill in the medium I try to create art in

Aka im tryna just have fun with it and not over think bc I overthink a LOTT it’s not anyone’s fault expect my own this is literally me

Tl;dr: im weirdddd But the words have put me at ease ;;; idk I just appreciate it thank you two cakes metaphor is so real, I try to not take things seriously and I try to not give my thoughts after 7 pm ground to fester

[ribbitdeltarune]

the post like i said. its been 2 days later (maybe a bit more. im a bit late at this point..) But! 14 of november! My birthday !!! :p didnt do anything for myself but i did spend some (more like a ton) time with friends

so ahead will just be rambling . read if u want

Alriiight so. i am. Dead. i dont post very often . Thats bcuz i dont actually have a active online presence when it comes 2 posting lol this is sorta my first time . however i did post a few times on twitter before and got a decent following but that was basically never anyway . Thank you all for (checks notes) 19 followers! That. is a first actually

however i also kinda have 2 apologize since i dont post a lot which makes this account.. uh, semi-inactive? shrug. as i did mention before in a prev post i am holding back a lotta stuff that i havent posted yet . oops! i personally dont like posting irl photos because 1) i am actually dogwater at taking photos, 3) my camera quality sucks and 2) i dont actually draw on A4 paper very often or like notebook paper at all lol. (its this small one thats more like a notebook to write stuff down stuff you gotta remember, an agenda or whatever. not like i care i use it to draw anyway. it aint got lines its just full white paper (sometimes colored depending on the one i buy) so its for drawing in my view.) but the bad thing is most drawings i made of ribbit so far are... On Paper.

Now. I can just upload them as is but i dont like doing that . i can also just make them digital drawings but if you think im capable of doing that without immediately doing something else you may be wrong

Speaking of thats mostly why this acc is also semi-inactive . whenever i DO draw digitally im probably also doing another thing at the same time so i get distracted and then get stuck on doing something else completely and forget i have to draw!!! Oopsies. im also bad at executing things (''man im gonna draw ribbit right now'' (doesnt do it) (its also a 50/50 if i actually do it or not)) so thats part of it. do i Think posting and/or drawing ribbit stuff is a chore? Not really. i actually like drawing stuff 4 this fandom and im attached 2 the characters + the mod anyway so its not like im gonna stop This soon . not even a year in yet!

I also have a lot of ideas so i hop between 'em a lot (i have so many animations/animatics in mind but guess who cant animate and also drawing frames take longer than just drawing sighs)... thats why most posts on here is just doodles so far .

to be fair though i have been in a . Uh. I guess fine. Maybe a bit bad headspace as of a few weeks now so i havent really gotten the urge/want to post rn and who knows how long that'll take to go away anyway. thinking of trying 2 get sum stuff finished and then queueing a few posts just so i can get some brainworms out of ma head . and Who Knows if i'll really do that. Future Is Mystery!

Oh and to add i still need to finish or get to like maybe the 5th chapter for a fic im working on rn so theres that too. im still on chapter 4 (progress is fine. i think ill rewrite the dream segment?) and then i will Hopefully get 2 work on chapter 5. god bless being unable to execute things AND to spice it up focus on things (sarcasm)

i am however kinda busy these days. Schoolnstuff. I get in drawing moods a lot (literally everyday bro i dont get burnt out easily or get demotivated that much bc i just finish it eventually anyway) but i need to pass math to pass the year itself so maybe no art posts until thats done. i might post every now and then though. Speaking of posting! Did you know VeeReMia is actually a pun on viremia which is, ''a medical term for viruses present in the bloodstream''. vee came first as part of the instrumental theme, and then maxine added the other syllables. Fun isnt it (i cant stop thinking about it now)

Thanks for reading . I think thats all. Maybe. Shrug.

Also current pfp is placeholder i also need 2 make one BANGS FISTS ON TABLE REPEATEDLY

[ghostbeam]

omgg i loved ur vamp dabi fic smmmmm what if dabi there were other vampire clans or grps out there and wanted to prey on you as revenge on him n like ,,,,, one day he comes back into the castle ur there for safekeeping and he wants to hide away from u so ur not scared of him n ur like "babe let me take care of u already" and drag his bloodied up, roughed up, bruised up ass to the bathroom n he cant help but lean into your touch as you patch him up (hi hi imma go and feed into ur vampire brainworm xoxo hahaha -🍞)

Hiiii ohmygod I truly have so many thoughts running through my brain over this

I didn’t say in the fic but like the backstory for how reader and Dabi met was he saved u from like. Another vampire ajsjsksj (which that was all mari’s idea gotta thank her for giving me the inspo for this<3) but yeah I might write like a little Drabble about it at some point but idk yet

But anyways yeah……genuinely I think he’s so so so protective over u. Like I mention it once in the fic where he thinks about how he doesn’t want anyone to get to u first. he has to be the one to turn u so yeah definitely I think if other vamps came after u to get back at him he’d genuinely go fucking insane ajjssksksk

And I think if this happens around the time he turns you and you’re still getting used to like being a vampire and figuring out ur own strengths and he’s training you and taking u out to feed and stuff then yes Dabi is absolutely incredibly protective of u in this moment. Ur a little fledgeling u couldn’t fight vamps off if u tried right now (but you’ll learn cause Dabi wouldn’t let u leave the house without knowing how to protect yourself in some capacity)

So yeah he comes home covered in blood that’s not his and instead of greeting u where u sit in the living room he marches straight passed you and into the bathroom to clean up. It would take come coaxing from outside the door but he would finally let you in, let u strip him from his bloody clothes and wash his hair for him, watch the blood swirl down the drain. You’re far too good for him, completely unafraid even at his most brutal. You hold him gently and you wash the blood from his staples with care. You let him cling to you while you do it, fingers digging into ur hips and his face tucked into your neck. And when you’re done, you let him hold you close in his giant bed like it’s what you need, but it’s really for him.

Also gonna answer ur other ask here ajsjsksjks soooooo I don’t go into much detail in the fic cause I like Dabi being mysterious ajshdkdjd but yeah Dabi was turned the early 70s and ran from home afterwards because he couldn’t face his siblings as a vampire (and he also couldn’t control his bloodlust very well in the beginning) but yes he absolutely came back from the dead and got more fucked up hes been through some shit and has hardened over the years (except u make him softtttttt) but yeah I have a lot of likeeee thoughts about vamp Dabi and like his siblings cause he’d have to watch them grow old (and he does he keeps tabs on them the vase and the cup that reader drinks from are things he stole from fuyumi’s house during her pottery phase ajshdkdjdk) and I think him having to see that is part of the reason he turns reader.

But yeah wow this got sooooo long but I do love talking about him ajsjsksjsk thanks so much for being so sweet about it I’m so glad u liked the fic🥺🥺truly it means the world to me<33