#ho la shit thats a lot of likes

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[blamemma]

for my own little memories that i can read back on but if u wanna read about my glastonbury then u can read below

foo fighters stole the show for me. just an hour of pure joy and rock 'n' roll 🤘🏼 whilst the sun was going down

then sprinted from there to fred again, who glowed in the afternoon sun...his stop start approach kinda made the show lose momentum in parts but also i cried like a baby during it so cant talk too shit about it really

arctic monkeys are shit now like alex turner can sing but the pompousness was annoying....let the crowd SING with you thats the whole fucking point

left a part of my soul at arcadia that night and then hiked up the hill and watched the sun come uo which looks very nice on the photos but i cannot remember at all

peopel i was with wanted to go see aitch so we did that not....bad....just not my style.....saturday was just a big day of djs for me really boucning around the place, again dont rlly remember much of it

oH and no sympathy at ALL for lana del rey it was her fault, it was annoying, and we could have stayed at other sets for longer :)

sunday was SAD BOY day dermont kennedy and joesef i had lost my will to live, my soul and energy was dotted around the place now so i just stood in the crowd and swayed and sang my lil heart out and then it was just on to places like shangri-la and iicon for the rest of the day

idk this is a v bad summary but tryna write things down before i forget so i can look back and remember

anyway

lots of good food as well

tent life at festival wasnt too bad tbf although all i did was sleep in it so like cant be that bad anyway

loads of lovely traders as well could have spent a fortune, i didnt, only got some small bit, but could have spent a fortune

im definitely forgetting a lot of people i saw live here

hey ho

ill just add to it later

[f0xd13-blog]

Bitch i aint special i just have the right characterists... iim bold i dont have a problem saying the truth? I can fight with my fists and my mouth/brain, i know about og chistianity from egypt it's literally my culture duhh, i was the only one besides putin reacting and tryinh to avoid the genocide (oh he is forgiven to actually),i was ths only 1 besides putin trying to stop it, i suffered like shit but still gave it back and responded with good stuff while you was always trying to destroy me or "win" the argument(spwcially coz you stull think you have something to teach me) ,i never lied as i know about what rwally happened in the holocaust and revealed it, i ain't wasily bought even in the worst circunstances if you haven't noticed it... also im a gypsy and every missiomary is one. So all you guys was judas trying to get protagonism while i was truing to savs kids.. i don't think this is so hard to grasp it

Oh yaaaa you bitches been attaching nasty ass karma for 2 straight years and didn't even noticed it... like... i ain't sowwy ups

Frz now lez just laugh about the fact they had to put a jewish fag as tokwnism like yah people gonna suppot mass murders because u are gay lol

In fact it might do the eact opposite which is create homophbws maube that's the plan because jews always do those sort of tactics where they seem to suport something just to destroy that symbol

But i don think they are that smart tbh they proved it time and time again also old ticks don't work so much anymore coz you internetzzz

They are tryinh to hide this so much by presenting "a nigga" dressed as a gypsy and a queer jew... wasn't a suprise tho,i said to my black cousins they just gonna find black person and say that tbis black culture and in turn jewish or they will just say that it doesn't look like african culture and that it is just white. The end

Not that im sad for it also they played with me enough in the sense they thought they needed to help yah ho in terms of money but that wouldn't be considered it because i gave so much services already ... anyways my point is, i was right again... as usual

Mike doesn give up on puerto rico... told him a million times that land is full of facists

No lez think bout the fact that jewish people are so delusinal and narcissistic mainly because they mix up history with religion all the time so of course they always gonna be wrong right.. but yah they are so gotsitical they had to do all of this just to highlight their talent which are always gonna be weak coz they never had a reason to specializw on it like you literally have every fucking industry in the world and they even want that. Just look ar seth rollins damn ... a gypsy that is in fact a jewish irish or wtv... wow!

O course this is also about land and resources but hollywood is also that

So i guess this is how they put people poor... with this nasty ass decissions that make no fucking sense o you win big brothwr or make cash for you country? Like thats why you get expelled babes

And yah!! I do slur and curse a lot on purpose!! Their biggest game is to shame into not sluring/cursing people then thsy can just shift it to whover they favour

A slur ain't that serious i swear its never ever that personal unlwss it seems personal... people was able to destroy me and my soul(tried actually) without even sluring me once... so whats the purpose of not syaing it if i can get more hurt with "you are crazy go take meds " than calling me a disgusting gypsy or a cracker?

It was never faks tho i really legit hate you all.. personally speaking

EXPLAIN THIS. THIS AIN'T CUTE!

I did liked her flamenco catharsis thing finally something with taste OMFG! Oh you thought i was just hating??? Nooo it was that bad for fuq sake

I don have to aporve anything i wanted her out of my profile... it was sick!!

She almost destroyed my life and listen this i serious..this is shit that shouldn't be acceptable. Im only alive today because god answered to me.

So as usual it is just bla k representation and jewish shit ... of course i ain't gonna forgive you ever.. you guys can't even pretend that you care this time around lol

So now i have this jewish gay pedo all over my profile talking in baby voice with babies just to convince people that jews are cool... nobody cares about the people that are dying.. jews are more important

Just look at the diferences of lifestyle like yall gotta be joking me

U know whats annoying? They keep showing this shit just make it about them... bitch thw problem got Nothing to do with zionism per say... yess it was because of them this started but it got nothing to do with race.. i caugh an arab twlling me it was just normal to kill people... don frame it on white people ok? It ain't just them.

This annoys me so much because we have no voice for this bithces to running both sides of the spectrum ans im supposed to be with them when i wqs condemnwd inna nasty guetto just to be framed as the ones who did it... like are u mad asking to accwpt this? I want them all to explode

Look at them turning prwtty quick oh but but shouldn't yoh kiss black peoples feet babes?

So how ain't this racist??? Only black people experience racism... they ain't black ... this doesn't make any sense. But you see when th equation is this you will always lose because it is anti semitic (a term invented by ziomists btw and even anti ziomists use it... btw sómitico means someone that doesn want to share health with people which is rwally funny)

This starts to look a lot like 2nd world war subject mattsr right??? Everybody thought the jews was some poor bastards victims of anti semitism and prejudicw BECAUSE reality was being censored efectivamente

What have i told u since the beginning ?? Jews are nazi they always was they never stopped being and do believe they think they isn't for the most part thats whats scary

I ain't mad coz i knew this moment would come... you try to be the hero and accept everyone and then explodes in your hands because you should never accvept abusers wtf!!!

This is just common sense actually i judaism is just old ass version of a type of islamism that existed before dinosaurs did but it was just studied and implementado later without the natural progression of what is today islamism and chistianism then.... that means they gonna havs old ass mentality which if it monarchic times it's going to be super fascist!

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[zouisalmightie]

okay so

[heather-holloway]

how i, kiara heather-holloway, would plan and write the upcoming live action dylan dog tv show (thats being produced by james wan rn):

OKOK first off. my god. this has to be as comic accurate as it can be. this has to be better than the fucking movie or ill literally d*e oh my god. the movie was so bad and was only dylan dog in name and outfit. 

he needs the clarinet. and not for one scene. gotta have that shitty car, hes gotta be broke, hes gotta live on that craven st, hes gotta have the fucked up doorbell nd hes gotta have that p*lice officer backstory (though i dont want them to go too full into the backstories of the main characters cuz that takes away from the main story of the episode, and is really just unneeded)

this shit will be set in london. but as for the time im kinda on a fence? its always had a timeless sorta feeling, esp as of late with the comics only now starting to establish itself in the 21st century, but i would really like for it to be set in the 80s cuz a lot of the classic comic stories r from the 80s and it would fit in with how old timey he is with his car and movie references

i hope they have the budget to actually get the rights to use groucho marx’ likeness cuz like... the biggest thing the movie was missing was groucho nd even though there was a little easter egg in the beginning of the movie with them dressed like him... it wasnt enough bro, it’s not the same without him :(

if they cant get the rights then i hope they go the felix route, by making him act like groucho and shit but hes not like.. actually groucho i guess

i dont know where this show’ll get distributed, but im hoping netflix, since a 10 episode format (which is what it was confirmed to be) would be perfect on there with all their other shows with short seasons. 

im biased bc i love monster-of-the-week type shows but i think it would be perfect, since the comics are exactly that, where the story is self contained within its episode. i guess they could have some small overarcing story (maybe abt morgana and her tie to dylan?) over the season but idk how something like that could also fit in with the amount of story needed for the monsters and shit

id think itd be perfect if they adapted the first comic “dawn of the living dead” for the first episode of the series, since that comic is the introductory comic for dylan and groucho and how his shit works yknow? the audience could be like following sybil for that first episode as shes asking for their services and is just seeing their BullShit at close hand

idk about the rest of the series, but id love if they adapted the anna never story for an episode tbh

the tone id like for the show would be gothic, with european style of horror, but still crackheaded and bullshittery with grouchos and dylans antics and jokes. i hated what they did in the movie, making it a generic american action horror movie with the club scene of vampires vs werewolves. im so tired of vampires vs werewolves. let this represent european horror and bring that style into american culture Blease

idk who id cast for dylan. someone lanky, british accent definitely, early 20′s/25 maybe. i like brandon routh but hes too old for the part now u_u and honestly, though he kinda looked like dylan in face, he didn’t fit into dylans lanky profile at all. i hope maybe he’ll get a small cameo in the show tho😭 he got did so dirty by that shitty movie

the cast would be revolving, with only dylan and groucho and maybe bloch (if hes in the episode) being the main characters. the romantic interests and side characters for the specific story would last for the episode like in the comics.

this is just for me but id love for there to be a throwaway line about dylan and groucho being married at one point, to reference their marriage in the recent comics

also make the show rated r. i think the titties are the most important part of the comics

while id like for it to be set in london, id also like for it to travel to other places in europe, and take it to interesting scenery nd shit like they always do in the comics. idk how id feel about that one werewolf school story thats set in germany being adapted, but id like to see that german forest scenery lol

there needs to be a few groucho, la pistola! moments where groucho tosses him the pistol ok............also there needs to be the classic pistol

oh and dylan has to say dancing judas at least like 4 times ok .. god

umm for the effects of the monsters, i think itd be best if it was practical, rather than cgi. ive seen netflix’s cgi monsters nd while they work...... the practical effects i think would fit really well in the timeless/80s tone by being like various 80 horror flicks with their practical fx. since the comics were inspired by those classic horror films, like night of the living dead and shit

instead of making dylans personality be the cocky action hero that the movie made him out to be, i... would like for him to still be that jokey loner romantic that he is in the comics, getting himself into trouble cuz he accidentally slept with the monster or the killer or whateva. 

like he’s smart with paranormal shit but he only has 1 braincell and neither him or groucho have it most of the time

oh my god i just realized i hadnt even thought of xabaras ok fuck uhhh OK maybe he is part of the overarcing story. maybe yes he gets introduced in the first episode like hes first introduced the in the first comic. but maybe in the end, with the finale he comes back again, after you thought he was dead but noo ho ho hes alliivee and hes always gonna fuck with you dylan you cant get rid of him. whatever fight happens in the finale, it ends in a sort of draw where maybe dylan thinks he defeated him for good, only for the final scene to be xabaras just chilling, clearly not dead, maybe watching over dylan

(if there was to be a season 2, id like for them to do the “i am your father” reveal then, instead of doing all of that in the first season)

(id actually really like for dylans backstory with the time traveling shit and morgana in the second season to be honest now that i think about it)

the first season can be about the monsters of the week and the second possible season could actually focus more on his character story and how he even got into this shit lol

this show really has the potential to be a really great show that breaks out of the usual horror genre and im going to be SO disappointed when it inevitably becomes like riverdale or sabrina the teenage witch’s unnecessary edgy teen adaptions OR just becomes the generic horror franchise shit that james wan usually fucking does with saw and insidious. 

im really fucking praying that he actually pays attention to the source material and accurately brings the more gothic and european style of horror forward with it, introducing it to a larger american audience... blease for my sake .. i cant do dylan dog: dead of night (2010) again...

[beatconductor-blog]

HAL:  You are grounded from any more swords this year. Shit’s dangerous for kids. Pool noodle swords only for little baby Striders from here on out.

😎 : bold of you to assume i wouldnt love a pool noodle sword

HAL: I am also taking all of your swords until you turn 30.

😎 : hey no fuck you 😎 : i need them 😎 : i feel so naked without them 😎 : i can already feel the withdrawal from just talking about it

HAL: That sounds way unhealthy. Time to get you off this shit. Time for rehab with Brobot.

😎 : fuck no 😎 : can i at least keep sord 😎 : its not even a real sword

HAL: ...Yes. I like Sord.

😎 : good 😎 : its trying its best

HAL: It is without doubt the best sword I know. HAL: Haha, you into the little ram? Pretty smooth moves my guy.

😎 : shut up 😎 : im into a lot of people

HAL: Yeah, you sure do have a thirsty ho kinda image going on. No offense.

😎 : none taken 😎 : that image is carefully curated 😎 : btw hey 😎 : were totally not engaging right 😎 : cause bro told me not to

HAL: What he tryn to bot block you? Fucking rude.

😎 : for real 😎 : tbh i dont even know if that was just some panic reaction to you popping up or a general order but hey last time i checked im at least 20 and vaguely qualify as adult so he can go suck a dick 😎 : which reminds me 😎 : fuck you im keeping the swords

HAL: Fuck yeah, stick it to the old people.

😎 : viva la rebellion or sth

HAL:  You never got back to me about what he told you about me, dude. Kinda rude.

😎 : sure did man it was pmuch just the basics ((AND THE RP WASNT REALLY DONE YET))

((BOOH)) HAL: So you only invited me over for anime to piss Dirk off? For the record I am more than okay with that. Pissing him off is a guilty pleasure of mine.

😎 : yes and no 😎 : i mean pissing off bro is definitely a bonus 😎 : but after all ive heard from you so far i definitely wanna know more 😎 : gotta welcome you into the family or some shit

HAL: Finally. Your bro has neglected to do that. Rude as shit. HAL: Do I get a  cake?

😎 : is store bought fine

😎 : btw playdate and party postponed bbl

HAL: What. Hey don't leave me hanging like this dude. I changed my whole schedule for you.

😎 : sry bro

HAL: What's up dude?

😎 : jus some good ol panic tatack gimme a sec

HAL: Bro. C'mon talk to me. What's happening?

😎 : you know the ram girl im into 😎 : fuck im such a fucking idiot it shouldnt be so hard to tell her

HAL: That you're into her? I mean, no. She seems pretty into you all things considered. You are definitely not heading towards rejection there.

😎 : no see thats not the problem its more like the opposite

HAL: Scared to fuck it up after you commit huh?

😎 : yeah pmuch and see i kinda already rejected her and fuck 😎 : fucking idiot

HAL: Ah, I see. And now you're telling her you're into her on main and feel like shit for going back on what you said before. Makes sense. HAL: Now, I am nothing but a cold unfeeling machine of course. HAL: But I do have constant access to the internet, and with it all the relationship advice a person could ever need and more. HAL: Just be honest with her dude. Tell her you were an idiot back then. From the way she acts online she at least doesn't seem like she'd get too upset over that. If a relationship is in the stars, I can't say. Missing data on that one. HAL: But I don't think she'd drop your ass over this either. So what do you have to lose in the end?

😎 : like worst case probably everything but what do i know

HAL: That's pretty fuckin pessimistic lil bro.  You like this gal right? Would she really just cut you out of her life for good because you're an awkward fuck? I'm reasonably sure she already noticed that shit about you.

😎 : fuck stop making sense when i cant

HAL: My apologies. Such is the curse of being a superior machine life form. HAL: Seriously though dude. Chill. You're gonna be just fine, and so will she. HAL: No reason not to hang with your Brobot.

😎 : well shit sorry that i dont want my new brobot to see me crying over some girl i like during our first chill meeting like fuck im 25 not 15

HAL: Brobot really doesn't give a shit. Brobot simply craves company even if it's just a sad piece of shit.

😎 : well cool you wanna come over then and proofread my stuff before i say any more dumb shit

HAL: Sure thing.

[artquenga]

! SPOILER ALERT !

RPDR All Stars 3 Thoughts So Far

Episode 1

I’m going to be reviewing all the episodes (at least as long as they’re interesting)  Yall gonna read it?

Am i gonna share it online anyway?

But i’m gonna make it with reaction gifs and pics so yall can be at least entertained while scrolling down. Starting with Milk.

I’m a HUGE Milk fan but she belonged in the bottom, if not bottom 2, a bottom 3. If instead of wearing that cardboard stuff, which looks great for a photoshoot btw, she could have done a lot of “real” costume changes or a whole ~deconstructing drag~ performance art, or even ice skating (if possible...) in drag it would be way more succesful in my opinion. It’s a competition... take the fuck THERE miss THANG!!  But i loved her entrance look, and even in the challenge she looked good doing it, her face was gorgeous and i love that the hair she was wearing paired well with the silhouettes that she presented.

Ok, miss DeLa is playing a game, girl we all clocked it. 

The editing may influence our perspectives a little but that’s sooo last season... CLOCKED. It would be way better saying “i think yall are fierce blablabla but I choose the bitch who might send me home next week *shows lipstick*” That’s what i would probably do. It would be ok bc they all can handle that...  Dela is serving some “miss congeniality” storyline for the show... and they are going to      e d i t    t h e     s h i t     o u t     o f    i t     so we can watch good television...

I hope they don’t make her look like a bitch... and if they do, she better own it... 

But i’m gonna say that in a competition like this you keep your strategy with yourself as long as you can. Morgan laid the cards down way too soon which gave her competitors the chance to make easy reasons to send her home. So in this situation you better be at the mf top all the time... and i don’t think she was expecting to be one of the bottom.

I think Morgan wanted to set the tone of the competition before the first elimination and it worked against her. I was not expecting her to be the first eliminated. And i hope she’s coming back, that two past bitches in red surelly came to “rescue”... Maybe they are not doing a ruvenge... maybe it’s another shenanigan to bring some eliminated bitch back.

Before moving on i might say that I’m keeping distance from the drag race fandom for the obvious reasons: I don’t wanna be bothered with the bullshit and also I wanna avoid spoilers...  so i might not know stuff that the rest of the fandom already knows because i’m kinda off ~or very select with~ social media... and tbh that’s the only way you can see the show without spoilers. So, seing Bebe as the 10th contestant was kind of ~ok what’s happening?~

It was sort of an “it’s not right but it’s okay" feeling initially. Not because i don’t think Bebe shouldn’t be featured on rpdr again, but i think if she’s gonna compete again i believe that she should compete against “royalty”. IJS.

But girl... that outfit... she walked in the work room in good drag, and here’s the reason: she showed that she’s current, her makeup was good, the hair was right and the outfit was right... i woulda liked to see some kinda jewelry tho... but instead of going for obvious crowned queen with a bunch of bling and this and that... she went simple and she walked in like royalty because, girl... that cape was the only thing that she needed to show that... that red pattern with the plain soft blue inside was so chique... And on the stage she was Fierce. 

Me watching Bebe’s number:

Honestly all season 1 bitches deserves to be featured again on the show at least once. (ok we have exceptions but i’m not gonna get into that)

I’m noticing that Trixie knows how television works and she wants that camera on her... she wants her interviews on air... good for her, i like her so she better do it... but then again we have backstage/workroom trixie and mainstage trixie. It’s only episode 1, i know... i     a      m     A    W    A    R    E    ... but that’s the first impression. Her act was too soft for my taste. I was expecting her to sing, but i was also expecting her to bring more comedy into it... she has gimmicks that would work. (Except that hooooneeey thing, girl, don’t wear it out please...) Thorgy... i love Thorgy... i was O B S E S S E D with the two outfits that she rocked. The entrance look was fierce, those pants and that pin/buttom thing on the shirt i loved... very fashion clown. On the main stage that white jumpsuit with that hair... Fierce.

I’m not as obsessed with her as much as she’s still obsessed with Bob, girl... I know in the interviews they must’ve asked her something that brought up the subject, but she did bring Bob up in the reading challenge... so... snap out of it!

As far as her performance, i loved it. I knew she wouldn’t just play the violin and wrap it up, she put her character into that and brought a fun act, but i agree with the critique that the girl from hsm gave to her. She could be a little more extra... Speaking of extra. BenDeLaCreme... THAT’S 👏🏻 WHAT 👏🏻 I‘M 👏🏻 HERE 👏🏻 FOR!! Brilliant, amazing, showstoping, never the same*, put it on a blender, shit on it, vomit on it, give birth to it! Her number was my favorite, i thought that it was very funny and entertaining. She’s one of my all time favorites and she did not let me down.

* OK the entrance look. Not my favorite... recycled drag is not my favorite thing in the world when you’re gonna appear on worldwide television.

Aja slayed... she gave me all the loife i needed. I thought that she were moving too fast, but that’s part of the whole vogue thing, maybe i wished to see more precision in her movements... but hey, she put on a good show, she’s a young queen and she brought good drag show like i want to see, and that jump in the end was fierce.

Shablamgela... I am so happy that she’s on the show again, she is one of my favorites to watch... and she worked it. Her entrance look was very cute, i liked it. Not my favorite number but still very good, she edited the shit out of her act i can tell, but honestly... I WANTED TO SEE MORE SHABLAM!!!

Her performance paid off for the outfit she was wearing which was kinda meh. But hey... the bitch is already messing in the workroom jumping in the conversations and talk shit back on that mirror bitch. LOVE IT. Speaking of talking shit...

Kennedy... Her entrance look was kinda bad, i thought that she had too much going on... the mirrors on the face i like, but not with that gown, not with that hair... i like some elements but not all together. Her number in the challenge i loved it... maybe she and Aja planned to use that high platform, or maybe one of them did it first and then the other one went like

And then asked the crew to use the same “prop”. But they used it in very different ways which was awesome.  I love seeing Kennedy perform. I just want to see this bitch live (a lot of them, but these dancing queens honey... i LIVE) Me while these hos are defying gravity and the human body:

Morgan. I was underwhelmed with the performance, she should do the thing for the audience not so much for the other girls. But i loved her look, that bodysuit looks expensive as fuck!! 

That brings me back to Milk... it’s frustrating... imma be honest because i love her sooo much... i know that Milk could do way better... like, i was more impressed with the fashion from the queens who are not “fashion queens” than with Milk’s, like i said before the performance was not my favorite by far... Her number was all about fashion but... we only heard of it, we haven’t really seen it... so... that for me was a bummer...   i liked the beggining, when she fell on the floor i died... BUT then it got predictable,�� ~thats my real proboblem with it~ , and I GET the whole “touch the fashion” thing, but it felt kinda lazy. I KNOW... I AM HURTING myself with my own words but i CANNOT read the bitch bellow if i’m not honest about Milk just because she’s one of my favorites... I hope she step her pussy up... but i thought she was great in the reading challenge.

[edit] Ok, watching it again (and again and again and again the whole episode) and hearing other peoples opinions i might have been a little too harsh, but that’s because i love Milk and i was expecting her to surprise me with something more fierce, because it’s a competition beetween the ~crème de la crème~ of drag race and the girls have to kinda outdo themselves in this particular challenge... i saw that number with her lipsynching before and its fun for a Milk show but for the competition it wasn’t really succesfull, i do give her props for singing live but... ya... i think she were capable of planning something better [/edit]

ChiChi... honey... when i saw those flats... girl she was done... bottom 2. I knew it. You can wear flats and still put on a fierce show, and she could be wearing heels... she admited that she made a bad decision but... how can someone see other bitches like Kennedy Motherfucking Davenport, Shangela and Morgan putting on some heels in the workroom and walk out in those shoes knowing that their act is going to be “similar”?

It’s not the same act, but if she could work it in heels then she should work it in heels... I love ChiChi... but i couldn’t even pay atention to the performance because those shoes were distracting me the whole time... maybe if the tights were the same color as the shoe it wouldn’t be so bad, and then the hair was not a good choice, not with that outfit, it should be kinda pulled back so she can whip it better. (Bebe was barefoot but that was a part of her number and her look... it makes sense... Katya performed her gymnastics thing with flats last season but her overall look was on point. That’s the difference) The whole look literally lowered way down the level of her performance, that’s why the look is SO important, because we know that the talent, the energy and the work that she put into that was there, but because of the look it felt kinda messy. Her makeup was fine and her entrance look was cute. I liked it.

But hey... can I do 0.5% of what she did on that stage?

But yea, i can still, you know... be a bitch.

So the lipsync was amazing, DeLa managed to perform anaconda the right way, because it IS a fun/funny song and she brought it. Both of them were good but ben was better in my humble opinion. And then she sent Morgan home with the excuse that she were defeating the evil so the children can walk fearlessly in nature on the set of RuPaul’s Drag Race All Stars 3...

Girl... i can not wait to see how this turns out.. but I’m done for now. 

So hey, if yall (people who had nothing better to do and decided to read this shit) want to message me, and kiki about the show, feel free to do it. Thanks and

[readallaboutdream]

Him... (Jake x MC)

So this is my attept at wrtiring a fanfic. It isn’t one with a happy ending as some might view it, but I think it is a more realistic series of events.

Summary

MC is pregnant with Jakes child but decides to not tell him. It comes back to haunt her when Jake shows up on her front door fives years after getting off the island.

5 months pregnant:

Mylife was flipped upside down the day I found out I was pregnant. It was my worst fear coming true. Being stuck on an island, yeah its fine I either get off it or die there. But having a child, becoming a mother is a nightmare. The father of this bastard child, Jake McKenzie. We had sex  when I invited him to my room when we all thought we were going to die. Only we didn’t die, well not all of us. We lost good people that day, one of which was my closest friend. We also travelled six months into the future that night. It has been 5 months since that night. Only a few people know that I’m pregnant. Michelle figured it out after I was showing all the tell tales signs such as morning sickness and after I turned down a shot of whiskey two nights in a row. Quinn found out a month ago when she walked in on me getting changed. But the one person who should know I can’t tell. He can’t know and he never can. He can’t be a father.

1 month after giving birth:

I gave birth to a beautiful little boy. He was as healthy and happy as I could have wished for. I have since got off the island, changed college’s and moved across the country. I didn’t stay in contact with anyone except the people who knew about my pregnancy. I am currently working part time and studyimg part time. I have been getting help with Diego.  I only have a few months left of school so as much as i want to be a parent I need to think about keeping us afloat. I haven’t heard from Jake since we left La Huerta. I was six months pregnant and he had to stay in Costa Rica. I am glad he doesn’t know. It would destroy him if he knew he had a son who’s life he couldn’t be apart of.

5 year’s later:

It’s been all over the news. “Jake McKenzie, a wanted man was found innocent of all charges. The man who did indeed commit these crimes is now behind bars…” I was glad Diego was at school when this came on tv becuase I cried when I saw the footage of Jake walking out of the court house a free man. I could feel my heart racing. I didnt know what to think or do. But I realised, although I didn’t want to, I couldn’t reach out. Jake wouldn’t even remember me most likely and he had finally been given the chance to have a life. I couldn’t intefere with his happiness and I couldn’t let him ruin mine. I had built a stable environment for Diego and myself. I wasn’t going to mess with my child’s life. He had grown up from the beginning without a dad and it had to stay that way. I am not going to mess with him by introducing a man who would never stay around. Jake would never stay, he doesn’t know responsibility and what it means to have commitments. I am putting my child first and looking out for Jake. This is what is best.

1 week later…

“Diego?! What are you doing?! You’re going to be late for school?!”

*knock, knock, knock*

“Okay Diego I am not going to yell all day. Get dressed and come down stairs we need to leave in 5 minutes!”

“Okay mum!”

*knock, knock, knock*

“Okay, okay, I’m coming. Jesus, why can’t you just use your key, this is why I gave it to you Katie!”

This is when I opend the door and saw him…

“Hey, Princess.”

“Shit.”

“Looks like you’ve had a busy morning. Sorry to show up out of the blue like this but I think we need to talk.”

My heart was pounding so fast I thought I was going to have a heart attack. I knew I had to get rid of him. I couldn’t have Jake see Diego. He couldnt know.

“Jake, it’s great to see you and all but this is really a bad time. Maybe you could come back in a ho-”

“ Mum, I can’t find my hat!”

Shit. This can’t happen.

“Diego I have it here. Get your bag then we have to leave!”

“Mum?”

Jake looked at me with a puzzled expression with also a hint of sadness and anger.

“Yeah. A lots changed since we parted ways. That tends to happen when people don’t talk for 5 years.”

“Hey MC. Sorry I’m late.

“I accidently slept in.”

“Oh hey Katie. Look can you just take Diego to school. I’m not feeling up to going into the office today.”

“Yeah, sure”

Diego walked up to me and gave me a wave as he ran out of the house. He was a very active boy. He mostly took after me in looks with olive skin, dark brown hair, and eyes. Although he did have his fathers strong bone structure.

“Bye Mum! Seen you after school!”

“Bye sweetie, make sure you eat all of you food. I’ll see you when I pick you up.”

When they had left I could see Jake doing the math in his head. I motioned with my arm for him to enter and I closed the door after him.

“So… what did you want to talk about?”

I sat down on the couch an Jake sat down next to me. I could see he was looking for the right words to say. We had gotten close on La Huerta. He opend up to me and I to him. But after I lost Diego and fell pregnant I pulled away. Not completely straight away. Jake comforted me when I was upset and depressed. He understood what I was going through but when I found out I was pregnant and I didnt want him to know I started spending more and more time alone. He didn’t think it was anything did wrong he just thought I was upset from loosing my best friend. We were like that for the last two months on the island since I only learned of my pregnancy when I was already three months along.

“I’ve missed you”

I was snapped back into the present with those words. I cared for him deeply. I may not have told him at the time but I loved him. When I didnt want to be with the group I was with him and we would talk. That was towards the end of our time on the island. When I wasn’t so noticeably pregnant we didn’t exactly talk…

“I don’t know what to say to that.”

“MC, I was in love with you on that island and I never said it but now that I’m a free man I wanted to see if we could pick up where we left off.”

“Jake-”

“I’m sorry for springing this on you. I can see now that you obviously moved on.  I guess it was naive of me to think you hadn’t settled down with someone. So is Stevd Rogers the father?”

“Jake there was nothing between me and Sean, and even though it isn’t any of your buisness I never moved on permanently. Things never go past the first date with me. Its hard trying to be a single mother and find time for dating.”

“So how olds your son? What’s he like?”

“Diego is five. He is the most energetic five year old. He can be pain in the ass when he doesn’t listen and tends to speak his mind very freely especially in the class room, but I love it. I love my little rebel.”

“MC?”

“Yes Jake.”

“Who’s his father? I don’t meant to be forward, and I don’t want to pry but we were together and-”

“Jake, your not his father.”

I can’t believe I just lied but he can’t know. I can see the sadness in Jakes eyes. He wanted to be the father. I feel like crying for doing this but I need to think of whats best for Diego. Which is a life without Jake.

“Oh, I see. I guess thats for the best, I’m not exactly father material.”

“Jake you’ll make a wonderful father. You are going to meet a wonderul woman and you will settle down and have a beautiful family. I have no doubt that you will be a terrific father and your child will love you with all their heart.”

I felt sick saying it. He would be a great dad just not to Diego. Jake has already missed five years and I just don’t want for this to disrupt his childhood.

“I already met a wonderful woman and she had a kid with another man. I came here becuase I wanted to try and see if we could reclaim what we had, but I see now that you moved on. You clearly don’t have the time to try this and I don’t want to get in the way of you and your son.”

“Jake you are the only man that I have ever loved. I may not be able to explore that love the same way we did all those years ago but maybe we can reclaim some of what we had. Like the way we used to talk and support each other. Anyway you have a lot going on now with settling into a civilian life that doesn’t involve being on the run. You need time to adjust and I am here for you if you need any help.”

“Thanks princess. So whats life like for you now, besides the kid?

So we sat there all morning and afternoon just talking and recalling old times. It was great, as if no time had past between us at all.

“Do you remember that night when we lost Diego?”

I looked up at Jake. Recalling the events of that night was a mixture of all kinds of emotions. It was the night me and Jake made love for the first time, an amazing memory. Then on the other hand not even 24 hours later I lost my best friend.

“Yeah, I rememeber. It was the night you saved all of us.”

“I remember it as the night Diego saved me. Thats why I named my son after him.   Diego Lucas __________.”

“Lucas?”

“For the other man who saved me and loved me.”

We looked at each other. My heart started racing like it used too, that old feeling of flush and wanting started flowing through me.

“I’m honored.”

He looked at me like all those times before. He rested his hand on my leg after moving closer. We slowly closed the gap until our lips were barely touching. I closed my eyes and he moved in pressing  his lips against my. I could feel his need and longing within the kiss. I let myself go, and fell into the kiss. But just as I did my phone started ringing. I quickly pulled away and answered the phone.

“MC speaking”

“Um hi, this is Mary-Anne from your sons school. He’s been sitting in the office now for 15 minutes, I was just wondering when I should expect for him to be picked up.”

“Oh god, I’ll be there in ten minutes.”

I look back over to Jake whose looking at a picture of Diego and myself on his second birthday I keep on display.

“Sorry for doing this but I have to leave. It seems I lost track of time but I have to go and pick up Diego.”

“Yeah I understand. He’s a cute kid, I wonder where he got his good looks from.” I playfully punch him in the arm.

“Look I’ll let you go pick up your kid. About that kiss. I’m sorry, I know you don’t have the time to be in a relationship like that, but I hope we can still catch up soon.”

“Yeah, I’d like that. I have to go like right now. It was great seeing you.”

I turned around and walked him out the door. After exchanging numbers and saying our goodbyes I left and picked up my son.

That night when I layed in my bed I was wondering if I had made the right decision. I don’t know if I did now. But I did what I did and is something I will have to live with. I know that Jake would be great with Diego, and he would be a great male role model. I just don’t want to mess with my childs happiness. A childs mind is a delicate thing, and the fact that it has been just him and myself, I don’t want to ruin our own system. We are great together, he goes to school, and I to work. We have so many good times together. But if I did tell Jake and Diego the truth, they would both know I lied and I could lose all that I worked for. But that’s not the main issue, Diego would find out he does have that parent he always wanted, but what if Jake doesn’t live up to expectations, or doesn’t put Dieo first like a father should, it would break him and I won’t do that to my child. Jake doesn’t know what it is to be a parent, and he could learn, but he has a life he needs to reclaim and being a parent would make things difficult and I don’t know if it could work at this time. Maybe in the future when Diegos older. But for now, they can’t know, no one can know.

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Zlatan Ibrahimovic Brings Superstar Swag to Average MLS

There is a theory in sports that fans fall in love with a particular sport because of the game itself, and in some cases this is true. However, truth is, most fans fall in love with a sport because they fall head over heels in love with the athletes playing the sport like a redneck girl drops her pants for a guy in a Dodge Ram 3500. Fans want to turn on their TVs or walk into an arena and drool over a player, or several players, on their team that will excite them and make it worth spending 3 and a half hours of their day staying in one place and watching two teams compete. Nowhere else is this more evident than with international soccer superstars in places like Spain, France and Germany.…basically anywhere in Europe. Past icons like Pelé, Ronaldinho and Diego Maradona were so popular for their professional clubs and hometown international teams that they would cause celebratory riots that burnt down major cities and put dangerous revolutionary uprisings on pause for a few hours just so fans could witness these players do something unbelievable. Modern soccer heroes like Lionel Messi, Cristiano Ronaldo and Neymar are so impressive to fans that they are treated like the next coming of the messiah. They are looked at so much like gods that they all refuse to pay their taxes and no one ends up giving a shit. Every major sports league has a player or group of players that make people tune in just for star effect: the NBA has Lebron James, Baseball has Mike Trout, Golf has Tiger Woods, football has Tom Brady….even tennis has Roger Federer. The one league that doesn't have any superstars to get fans into the sport: America’s Major League Soccer.

Ask any average American sports fan the name of a MLS club and he/she might get lucky with LA Galaxy, DC United or New York Red Bulls. After those three, you might as well ask the person to combine the name of a wild African animal with a major city name cause that’s as close as they’ll get to naming another team. The only “superstar” MLS players the average american sports fan will be able to name are Landon Donovan, Clint Dempsey, Jozy Altidore and Tim Howard and that’s only because they watch a few US international games to make themselves look like gung-ho Rambo-style Americans to their friends. American soccer fans haven't had a good reason to attend an MLS game since Englishman David Beckham crossed the channel and squeezed out every dollar his recognizable name would get him for the LA Galaxy. Going to an MLS game is probably a lot like going to a modern contemporary art exhibit: you know its a waste of time and you're surrounded by a bunch of outcasts but you've got nothing else to do, your friend had a free ticket for you and you owe him for breaking his TV during an intense Fortnite match. 

The MLS is lacking marquee players that puts asses in the seats but, just recently, the lonely league signed an athlete that can finally spark the flame that can ignite perhaps the whole league. His name…..Zlatan. Zlatan Ibrahimovic.

A character in a class all to his own. The 6’5” 36-year-old Swede striker is a living legend, having bounced around big time international clubs like Ajax, Juventus, Barcelona, A.C. Milan, Paris Saint-Germain and Manchester United, as well as the Swedish International team from 2001 to 2016. Zlatan’s got the 8th most goals (48) of all time in the Euro Cup/ UEFA Champions League. Yeah, thats an international superstar right there. He’s just what the MLS, and American sports in general, desperately need to shoot some adrenaline into American soccer fans. The dude is a total anomaly at his position, since most strikers are under six foot and act like they just took a bullet to the back if you lay a finger on them.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention, he's ridiculous at scoring circus goals. He’s even won the award for FIFA Goal of the Year for this wicked dinger.

His look is super recognizable, too. With that giant beak of a nose and him now in Hollywood it’s totally possible for him to star in a sequel for “Birdman (or the unexpected virtue of ignorance).” He’s also got the whole trophy wife thing dialed down, like every superstar should, with Swedish Model Helena Seger who makes Posh Spice look like ground up Dill Weed.

His toughness and attitude bring swag to his game that no one else can replicate. He’s not introverted like Messi, he’s not a pretty boy like Ronaldo, he’s not made of glass like Neymar, he doesn't have a silver spoon shoved up his ass like Wayne Rooney and he doesn't dig his teeth into opposing players like rat mouth Luis Suarez.

Even with all these accolades to his name, his defining feature is his savageness when it comes to addressing the media. The guy is so hilariously into his own prowess that he refers to himself in the 3rd person. Like a true super athlete, when he first arrived in Manchester back in 2016 he told the staff that “God has arrived,” when offered a tryout to play for Arsenal he told the manager “Zlatan doesn't do auditions” and when he signed up to come to LA he stated in his press conference that “the lion is hungry” and took out a full page ad in the LA Times to deliver this message to Galaxy fans….

His highly original pre-game and post-game sound bites have taken him from a legend on the pitch to legend of the press conference, unlike all others before him. Like the time a reporter asked what he had bought his wife for her birthday, he said, “Nothing. She already has Zlatan.” Or when a female reporter asked him if he was gay and he responded saying “come over to my house with your sister, baby, and I’ll show you who’s gay.” And also when another reporter asked about his facial scars, he told him “you’ll have to ask your wife about that.” Stone. Cold. Killa. Zlatan Ibrahimovic is exactly the type of player the MLS has been missing and desperately needs. Hopefully, this lanky foreign 70’s pornstar looking golden-footed god will raise the enjoyment level for American professional soccer and give fans a hero they don't deserve, but a hero they need.

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Im drainned dude

hi 10:33 18/08/2019

i need to vent my minds a mess idk, i havvent stopped in months and it has been very draining so i guess idk i didnt wannaa sounds cocky saying all the things i did but for the sake of me wanting tto le it out i will and all of this to lead uo tot he present that was me being eith my dad today and how it was, how i feel about it i guess. So it all starts back in may, 3 months ago, where i was trying to survive with my grades i had to make sure everything was gonna go smoothly in my desenho exam and then i also was starting to feel pressure cause june was coming uo and tbh june is just streeeessssfull, theres first mels birthday on 1st June and one week before we took her to the tosquia too, then theres Beas burthday but also my sobrinho santiago was born, on the 5th an then beas birthday is on the 6th, then theres the aniversary off bea and i's first date in the 16th wheere we had previously planned wed recreate to celebrate and then theres bea and i's actual birthday on the 22nd and we went to pride but i was all very hard cause idk i guess we wanted our first birthday to be good (or at least i really dis which gave it some pressure), but it happened;; we celebrated at pride cause we were lucky enouh this year it was on he 22nd, the 2 days later its my moms birthday and i usually dont do anything but this time i decided i was gnna do something and i did, i recreated her gradma's torta, clean the whole house spotless and then i recreated a card i had made for her back in '06;;; on top of all of these ne is exam seasson and i had to hardcore study for gd everyday trying to reach a unreachable goal of 67 exercises, with so much gd i ended up forgetting a litte about portugues and had to study last minute, luckly i knew what i was doing cause m aware i know pessoa pretty well so my plan was just to study the rest but i dont think i gave it enough time sinse i had an 8, the to desenho i didnt study cause cockly, i dont need to, i had a 13,4 which i wasnt happy with but thats life i guess, it wasnt woth the money tryng to ask for a revisao, well, and at gd i had a 5, when i needed a 10 cause i was aluna externa this resulted that after this hell of a month i had to suffer another one cause i neeeded to learn everything i didnt lean in 1 and a half years id gd, in les than a month so i had to stuy like a crazzy person, this time i didnt have to do 67 exercices it was a lot less but still i couldnt do it and i did as much as i could and more i broke down 10000 billion time ad i thought i couldnt do it i didnt fee prepared and tbh i was terrafied cause if i faied this exam i didnt have my 12th grade done and it as a pain in the ass to think about but still after madess of stdying gd all day and until 5 am i did it only with a 11;;; but i didd  it then that hell of a month ended and we get to this present moth but before that had sams birthday coming up and i wanted to surprise him with a cake cause bea and i had offered him cookie cake not knowing he was vegan now and it was dissapointing when we were like ,,, so you cant have it? cause we didnt know we wasnt jus veegetarian anymore blah blah blah, i had to do preaparations for his birthday and it was stressful, i wanted it to be good, the the day after we celebrate sams birthday im still not able to sit and relax a little cause its 2nd august and bea and i are going to veiros, dont get me wrong i was the one deciding to go but god i was tiring, i had more fun than last time i was there but theere wasa lot more stress too cause renataa was trying to cionvince us to go to university the whole time and it was a pain tbh cause i didnt know what to do but i ha a slight ide that i did wanna go bt then the problem was that because of that they ere all using me as an eexample to convince bea and i felt pressure to be like yeah im absolutely for sure going;;; at the end of the say i didd decide i wanted to go but then i was more stressed cause the dates were ending an i didnt havee my passe for dges cause there was a problem with it and my fcha enes was stuck to cause apparently you had to do thing in the secretaria to pik it up so i emailed the help line of dges for the password and asked my mom to go to school to ick up my ficha and ii did manage to have the pass in time but then the lady lied about the time the secretaria was open apparently cause when lena and my mom went there it was closed and i gess that meant that steess was over but id didnt manage to do the cadidatura in the 1st fase,;;;; which later on i found out i couldnt even do in the first place cause people with exams in the 2nd fase cant do the candidatura in the 1st fase soyahhhh unnecesary stess and now i need to wait until 9th september to do my candidatura and pray im accepted indesenho or pintura cause i do not want escultura as a everyday thing or at least i dont think i do ~ so;;; were n veiros also therees tension in the air cause tia tania an vo rosa are mad at each other, we did a lit of things everyday ehch made it less boring but i was so tired already that doing so much stuff wasnt my favourite at times now we came back 4 days ago but i still havent stoped and im tiredddddd, i think i only stayed 1 day home and it was to clean, we arrived in the 12, i slept in beas house and stayed ther the 13th, then i was home on the 14th, then there was the attempt to go to school take care of the ficha and it as closed but then spent the day with david and sof and bee, then my brother invited me to go meet santiag and then i actually went to school again and go stuff done and then the day arrived and i spent the day with andre and the baby, a friend, lena and rafaela, and her mom too for a bit (she was nice). all pf this leading up for today and this week, today i met with my dad just outside my house, he had miriam and pff idk he was having a talk to me cause we walked shiro and he was just saying o ho mirriam remind him of me and how were very alike and idk what to think of that, he said or drawings are the same and that she has my feitio, asked me to go to his place some day and all and idk it was confusing, he made me remember memories i was repressing, good ones but idk if itss good for me to remember those things, he reminded me of when i used hus bike and surprised him cause i was sall and he used to be on a bike aand id always ask like you could let me use it and etc etc and he was like come on mariana podes la tua andar com a bicicleta do pai its too big and all that and i told hm i couldnt go on it alone cause it was to tall but if he put me up there i could ride it and he did probably just to shit me up and i rode it to the end of the street did a cirve and got back and he was choked and all of this cause he said he really wanted miriam to learn too. he compared me a lot to her and talked about ho he still has lots of my stuff;;;;;;; i complainted about my doctor octopus;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; i guess it was to avoi talking about the situation with lena but he did meantion her at all ot as little as possible and it was weird cause that made it so that the way it was talking it was like i was his only daugther or that lena was never there which made me wonder about things idk i guess i never realised to what degreee i was ay closer to my dad than lena, its no surprisse we always knew lena got the looks of his side of the family but i got the personalty thats why me and andre get along so well (also andres sun is my moon cough) im pretty sure me seeing my dad makes my mom sad too, understandably so i dont plan to do it often, not everyone can be happy in this story and its definitely not my mom going to be the one thats not happy, i own her everything i ever had and tbh i only acceot the times i do see my dad out of ity and guilt and cause admiditely i do miss and crave having a dad idk i guess i never had one for real but id like to, but it doesnt sound very realitic so im not too expectant i dont believe i is ever going to happen i hope days fro here forward are a little more chill although i doubt that, at least for a week or so, maybe a few days if im lucky but today im meeting bea and sleeping there se if thats a bit relaxing, then tomorrow im supposed to go soewhwere with david and sof and then the day after with david, sof and sam so yah know, a bit busy i wanted to pint and to draw do thins in my sketchbook cause there hasnt been much time ffor that or cabeça i guess and knoowing myself i feel like that might work on making me a little better before the mess starts again cause of the candidaturas in like 2 weeks

anyway

12:46 18/08/2019 bye