#hnstly highkey fuck dru she didnt deserve graves any-fucking-way and u can catch the motherfuckin tea on THAT

[kuppiekay]

holy fucking shit. so i was in the library today right? and while i was looking for a book to read, i just so happened to come across the first book in a series that i used to rly rly love. i have all the books in my possession except the 1st (i lent it out yrs ago) so i picked it up out of nostalgia and curiosity. dude. the main character's sidekick/love interest is described as "half-Asian" and a "half-breed" (*pterodactyl screech of rage*) several!!! times. The MC even thinks something about how "he's lucky he didn't get the REALLY asian eyes (read: smaller/narrower/whatever) that most "half-breeds" are stuck with." thats not verbatim but its pretty damn close. Just. what the fuck????? I mean,,, what in the fucking fuck????????????? how the fuck was this even published??????????????????? like ok i get it, the books are in the 1st person POV of a girl raised below the mason dixon line somewhere in bumfuck appalachia BUT STILL! idgaf abt her hillbilly genes, that was so gross!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i sat there for a whole half hour contemplating on why the author would've chosen to write such a thing. even if she was not-so-subtly pointing out some (of the many) flaws in MC's character in some off attempt to make her seem more human -- which, i get it, humans are ignorant & no one in the history of ever has one unprejudiced bone in their body-- it is never resolved. she just keeps thinking these things in her head. there's no growth, no change. she is never confronted. As far as i can remember, the term halfbreed is never used outside the 1st book, but Graves (the sidekick) is constantly referred to as half-Asian. What the fuck does that even mean????????????? Its like calling someone "Oriental." we never ever find out if he's Chinese, Korean, Japanese, Filipino, Vietnamese, Cambodian, Laotian, etc. Bc MC doesn't gaf. And that was so devastating to me. I mean it. Devastating. I loved that fucking series and the joy i got from it is absolutely tainted. i cant believe that my 11/12 /13 yr old self didnt catch this. it just makes me think abt the thousands of kids who read that series and just absorbed it and thought it was ok. jesus.