#hnnnn WOW this post got conveluted

[lovebunnie]

fuck da rules anderperry headcanons lets go

neil doesnt tell todd his birthday because neil, due to his fathers abusive nature neil is uncomfortable with personal things and people getting to know him too well. todd eventually finds out and writes him a poem, leaving it on his pillow and promising not to tell anyone

todd birthday is sacred as they always throw a deskset at night, and neil makes it his mission to tell as many people as possible that its todds birthday so everyone will know and tell him happy birthday

todd first falls in love with neil from the moment they enter their room, and sees how he interacts with others and stands up fro him immediately despite knowing nothing about him

neil first falls in love with todd after hearing the madman poem, literally sitting in the middle of class and realizing hes completely in love

todd is new to emotions such as this, one who tends to stay away from others. hes known he is gay from seeing attractive men in advertisements and such, but has never personally had a crush on another person

neil tends to fall a bit in love with many people being the romantic that he is. however with todd, his feelings go alot deeper than just infatuation; this is the first time neils heart has stopped at the sight of todd and he cant breathe when hes around him

knox realizes it first, being the only one with ‘’romantic’’ experiences. he knows the look of longing they exchange from his own. he keeps it to himself, knowing its not his place to barge in

neil seeks todd out throughout the days and asks him to help with the acting, while todd is visibly more relaxed when neil is around

their first kiss is right before the play, in the dark of the backstage and surrounded with the sounds of thier future. todd deciding hes done hiding and hes done pretending

it takes .76 seconds for neil to kiss him back

the confidence stays with neil until hes dragged back home, finally standing up to his father. they spat and neil is sent back to welton under strict supervision and no more acting

todd writes neil little plays to satisfy his acting cravings, and the poets all go to the cave to watch neil perform todds plays

its unspoken that neil and todd are together until charlie suddenly says ‘so how long have u two been together’

they go back to their room, and neil confesses first, breaking as soon as the door is closed because he knows he wont live anymore without todd knowing the truth, the complete and honest truth

he says that hes been in love with todd for a long time

“you make life easier. you give me a reason to wake up and you give me a future. im in love with the way you write and the way you look at me”

todd, being harder with words than neil, simply shows him all the poems and letters and journal entries that hes written about neil and his love for him.

“im in love and it terrifies and excites me. i dont know whats to come, but with him, whatever happens, i think, will be okay. god must exist if he put me in the same life with neil perry”

neil is very unused to love and comfort with other people after being raised by abusive parents, so he basically collapses and hugs todd until he aches

after their confessions, they take things slowly, both uncomfortable with displays of affection in front of others. simple and easy things like hugs and cheeks kisses and holding hands

when they graduate, they both move to new york city to finally live their dreams. they keep in contact with the poets regularly

the first person who gets an invitation to their wedding down the road is keating

they tell each other they love each other every single day, even if they are fighting or across the country. just so they never forget. not that they would, but just in case they need reminding. that little boost. theres love in the world and it exists between them

hnn neil perry and todd anderson arent soul mates, the universe isnt nearly that forgiving. they found each other; nothing is making them be together, no promise or soulmate. they simply are in love with one another

(gay)