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chisatowo · 2 years ago

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I wish I had enough money to order food for myself it'd do wonders for my eating habits if I could order full lunches for myself instead of just microwaving smth every day because I have no motivation to actually cook

#rat rambles #best I can do is like chocolate chip muffins or scrambled eggs on the rare occations I can actually force myself to actively cook lol #like I wish I could spice up my diet more I rly do but its so hard to find stuff I both have the energy to make and can force myself to eat #eating a decent variety has always been a problem for me but lately its been so much harder to force myself to eat more than like 4 things #like theres other things I like but theyre not available to me most of the time #either because I cant order food or I cant cook it (usually cause of motivation but also because of serving size sometimes)#so like idk what else to do. I can try as much as I like to mix up the things I can eat from day to day but thats still not great #like for context what I can eat in the house rn is microwaved ramen granola bars microwaved chicken and fries and chocolate chip muffins #and again on occation srambled eggs but thats a big on occation #so like. not great.#Ive been trying to eat carrots more since I like carrots but theyre a hard thing to build the space and time to snack on #I feel like Im trying to find a way to trick an animal to take their medication but the animal is my brain #if I could order meals thatd be a literal life changer man I could actually work to eat better #and if you wanna help with that goal commisio-*gets shot*#as much as Id appreciate that I think Id rather save for other things but idk maybe I should look into it #especially since jbhunting is coming to a halt for now since I rly am not in a space to work rn #Im not doing bad per say just. unstable I think #basically I dont wanna jump straight into smth like that after like 3 years of isolation #hm I should probavbly tag this as a vent huh #rat vents #ok boom time to keep sitting in the depression zone ig #gonna be fucking 20 next year and I still have like no independence since I cant motivate myself to do anything lol #hopefully by next year Ill be doing better

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