#histbi

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hi! i just wanna say, i was looking though my bookmarks on ao3 today because they are always changing, whether its because i lose interest or it is just my tastes evolving. anyways, i noticed that here is something to believe in is my longest lasting bookmark! in other words, out of all my bookmarks i have saved it is my oldest one. i can honestly see myself keeping it there forever, in all honesty. at the time when i first found it i remember it totally inspired me to try writing my own stuff as well. i’m leaving this anonymous because i feel like i honestly have left a lot of comments over the years on your story on ao3, and i didn’t want to give the impression that i’m like pressuring you into updating or something. i’m willing to wait forever, because that fic kinda means a lot to me… take your time, and however long, just know i’ll be here! i could keep going on forever but i just wanted to say: what you’ve created is important to me in one way or another, and it impacted me. i probably never would’ve attempted writing my own stuff if it wasn’t for seeing your fic and thinking: i want to write something that impacts someone the way your work impacted me! if that makes sense? ugh, im so sorry this is so long… hope you have a wonderful day! thanks again!

when I say this made me ugly sob I am not lying...

these past few years that I've been attempting to fight through the insane amount of terrible fanfic-author poor luck.. I got told I can no longer work for the foreseeable future, was forced to eat one meal a day and then move back home, was rejected twice for any government support and am in the middle of trying to appeal, was forced out of uni for mental health reasons, the list goes on an on.

basically all this to say it's been extremely difficult (and atm, impossible, since I can't afford my writing software) to find the time, energy or motivation to write anything at all. there are some days where it takes everything to roll out of bed and eat and shower. the days have been getting away from me quickly, and it's already coming up on another year since I last updated.

but I remain positive! will never let go of this story. it's the one I have always wanted to read. I read one close by shadow panther and said to myself you know what? I'm just gonna do it myself.. and it remains the piece of work I'm most proud of. it's gone through countless revisions, rereads, little tweaks, despite not even reaching 50k. it's what I read when I feel like I can't do anything worthwhile or when I feel like I amount to nothing. histbi and everyone's comments are a constant pulsing light reminding me that I've done something that people love.

it's so incredible and so humbling to me that I inspired at least one other person to do the same the same as me - to take their thoughts and try to make some coherent meaning out of them. doubly so when you say my work means that much to you.

and if this is who I think it is, THANK YOU. and thank you so so much to everyone for sticking with this fic for nearly five years now. I have read every single one of your comments at least 5 times.

thank you for helping me find my path forward. thank you for reminding me of what's important - that I do what I love before anything else. and thank you so much for your lovely words, as always. they mean everything to me. 💕

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hello gorgeous people!!! if you follow me for my fe3h fic here is something to believe in you'll be pleased to hear that the next chapter has hit 4k words. the new chapter will be out so soon loves!!! thank all of you for your unending patience <3

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HERE IS SOMETHING TO BELIEVE IN UPDATE

holy crap i cannot believe i am writing this post. yes hello i doubt anyone still follows me for this but IT IS COMING OFF HIATUS SOON I REPEAT I HAVE WRITTEN A PLOTLINE AND IT IS COMING OFF HIATUS i have plans! it’s all so exciting! if any of you read this i love you. estimated update date approx one month because i want to write a good few chaps before i start posting again but hoo nelly watch your inbox!!!

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major fanfic progress update! please check here for updates on ALL wips!

hey everyone! this may be a bit of a long one, so i’ll post the tl;dr here and then continue on under the cut! these are all as of the 28th of May 2020!

posted: it's nothing: currently completed. if there's more carmen/gray content in the next season you betcha I'm gonna update it though! hash for updates: its nothing

here is something to believe in: on temporary hiatus while I work out where I want the direction of the plot to go. i try to post progress with the hash: histbi

unposted: red threads, golden chains: Phoenix Wright! a wrightworth-centric eight-chapter analysis of the original game (with artistic liberty involved, of course!). hash: red threads golden chains

You can lead a horse to Water: Fire Emblem: Three houses! a half-finished claudeleth drabble focusing on Byleth's thoughts of Garreg Mach. not sure how far it'll extend yet; we'll see. hash on tumblr: horse to water

Jump into the Fog: Overwatch! a multichap Symmrat fanfic based around the overwatch recall (cause there isn't enough of those!). title is shamelessly stolen from The Wombats and the legendary vargrimar and nezkah. hash for this: jitf!

more information on all of these under the cut! 

Extended version!

it’s nothing: currently completed at about 8k words!  i originally intended to leave it open ended at chp 3 for next season (which is confirmed!! hooray!!) but I eventually succumbed to y'all asking for more haha. not sure the direction i would take other than that though, and i feel like the ending suits the rush of it!

here is something to believe in: on temporary hiatus at around 30k words! i know this is disappointing to a lot of you but i honestly wrote most of those words in a spur of inspiration without any thought as to how it would work lmao. i need some time to work out what the plot will be so that my writing has direction and you guys aren’t left disappointed. the other thing is that chapters are currently spanning a half day at a time and i cannot continue that considering the game spans several years! so i need to plan that out too. would appreciate any advice/assistance! i’m also still looking for anyone interested in betaing it! please pm me if you are :D

red threads, golden chains: currently sitting in my doc at about 20k words. i started this fic almost a year ago as a guilty pleasure during my last year at school (which is mostly why it didn’t get finished) but it is almost completed! i think only another 5k words max before it’s edited and posted which is super exciting! it’s likely going to be about eight chapters, posted weekly. keep an eye on the hash for updates! here is a taster (i haven’t written the description yet lmao): 

“Edgeworth glares at him again and Phoenix remembers when they were on the same side. He supposes that it had never been intentional to chase Edgeworth, but that was just how things ended up: he doesn’t think he’s thankful for Dahlia, exactly, but almost certainly without her he never would’ve met Mia the way he did.

The more he thinks about it, the more he thanks his lucky stars that he fell into her lap and reconsidered that day - the day Miles defended him in class and seared himself into Phoenix’s memory. From that day, Miles showed him he wasn’t and never would be alone.

Until the incident, of course.

He left, and never explained why. He left Phoenix behind, and though that view is childish and he knows it, he can’t help but feel the cold space he left behind, tugging at his very being for years and years.”

look forward to it!

You can lead a horse to Water: it’s a oneshot; currently about a quarter done at around 1.5k. Claudeleth/Bylaude is probably in my top fire emblem ships so i just HAD to write something for it after the feels of this fic and ESPECIALLY this fic! the stunning poetry inspired me so much; just read these lines: ‘He wonders in-between breaths “If she could see me now, would she hate me?”.

Yet what he says is “If I need to shut up, then make me.”

And what he thinks is “If this is a nightmare, then wake me.”’ SPECTACULAR! unfortunately the fic is orphaned, but still, please go read it!

songs such as Charlie by Mallrat and Apricot Princess by Rex Orange County also inspired this! no clue when it’ll be up, but i’m not letting go of it. here’s a taste:

“The first time Byleth saw Claude, it was like something clicked.

Not visibly and hardly mentally, of course - but in her heart, despite its determination not to beat, something almost shifted, like it realised its perpetual emotionless state was unsustainable and impossible against his charming smiles.

Except, his smiles weren’t charming; they were razor-sharp, pointy and pointed, and it would take a long time before that changed, unfortunately.”

watch this space for more updates!

Jump into the Fog: the plans are currently at about 6k lmao! i am very excited for this fic cause it’ll be my first fully planned one! i have the overarching plot and all the characters planned out (everyone will be there, even Echo!) and am just writing the seperate character arc plots and finishing up the ideas for individual missions and such! here is the summary:

“Through no fault of her own, Symmetra finds out of Vishkar’s wrongdoing. Not knowing who to trust and having nowhere to go, she follows the last person on Earth she wanted to see to somewhere that can help her; Overwatch.

His health quickly deteriorating, Junkrat resigns himself to his shortened lifespan and decides to go out with a bang. Recalling a doctor who saved countless lives from his youth, Roadhog doesn’t take that lying down, and the ensuing hunt places them at Overwatch’s door.”

timeline placement: takes past after two weeks after the Paris mission shown in the Overwatch two release video. easy to assume after the events of the Christmas of year one of the recall. Baptiste’s betrayal of Talon brought a year earlier. Junkrat and Roadhog in Australia for Christmas, Lucio’s record released after Vishkar left Rio in November of that year. hence, this takes place in early Jan.

at the moment the planned ships are 100% symmrat, gency and bunnyribbit, and am considering the rest of the characters’ ships. i am also trying to make it as scientifically viable as possible! no cheesing here, i did my research into radiation poisioning lmao. Satya actually gets her friend *cough* Baptiste *cough* to disconnect her arm as she flees from Vishkar! the people present at the Overwatch base when they arrive (a week between them) are the people shown in Zero Hour, minus Genji (which will be explained!)

I’m SO excited for this fic, but I have no idea when it will be ready to post lol. I will likely try to finish other things before starting writing it (namely horse to water and red threads, golden chains and maybe even histbi), so the plans may sit dormant for some time. will be putting out a call for betas when i start writing!

thank you for reading, everyone! stay safe out there!

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Chapters: 7/? Fandom: Fire Emblem: Fuukasetsugetsu | Fire Emblem: Three Houses Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Relationships: Other Relationship Tags to Be Added, My Unit | Byleth/Claude von Riegan, Caspar von Bergliez/My Unit | Byleth Characters: My Unit | Byleth, Jeralt Reus Eisner, Sothis (Fire Emblem), Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd, Edelgard von Hresvelg, Claude von Riegan, Ingrid Brandl Galatea, Lysithea von Ordelia, Cyril (Fire Emblem), Ferdinand von Aegir, Alois Rangeld, Seteth (Fire Emblem), Dorothea Arnault, Ashe Duran | Ashe Ubert, Caspar von Bergliez, Linhardt von Hevring, Manuela Casagranda, Felix Hugo Fraldarius, Hilda Valentine Goneril, Marianne von Edmund, Ignatz Victor, Sylvain Jose Gautier, Mercedes von Martritz, Leonie Pinelli, Rhea (Fire Emblem), Hanneman von Essar, Bernadetta von Varley, Jeritza von Hrym, Petra Macneary, Raphael Kirsten, Lorenz Hellman Gloucester, Gatekeeper (Fire Emblem), Dedue Molinaro, Flayn (Fire Emblem) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Time Loop, Canon-Typical Violence, Blood and Gore, Sexual Content, strap in boys this will have everything, sothis meddles for no other reason other than she thinks it's funny, i love literally every character in this game except for edelgard and rhea, so get ready, cause everyone's here, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Other Character Tags to be Added - Freeform, Swearing, Vomiting, Polyamory, Major Spoilers Summary:

because I will yield to none.

Soulmate + Time Loop AU.

Byleth has always been different. Aside from her nine marks, apparently. But somehow, she knows she’s done this before. And the familiarity makes her want to vomit.

Or: everyone looks to Byleth as the light. Byleth looks back.

new chapter out now everyone!! thank you for your continued support!

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Chapters: 9/? Fandom: Fire Emblem: Fuukasetsugetsu | Fire Emblem: Three Houses Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Relationships: Other Relationship Tags to Be Added, My Unit | Byleth/Claude von Riegan, Caspar von Bergliez/My Unit | Byleth, Ashe Duran | Ashe Ubert/My Unit | Byleth Characters: My Unit | Byleth, Jeralt Reus Eisner, Sothis (Fire Emblem), Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd, Edelgard von Hresvelg, Claude von Riegan, Ingrid Brandl Galatea, Lysithea von Ordelia, Cyril (Fire Emblem), Ferdinand von Aegir, Alois Rangeld, Seteth (Fire Emblem), Dorothea Arnault, Ashe Duran | Ashe Ubert, Caspar von Bergliez, Linhardt von Hevring, Manuela Casagranda, Felix Hugo Fraldarius, Hilda Valentine Goneril, Marianne von Edmund, Ignatz Victor, Sylvain Jose Gautier, Mercedes von Martritz, Leonie Pinelli, Rhea (Fire Emblem), Hanneman von Essar, Bernadetta von Varley, Jeritza von Hrym, Petra Macneary, Raphael Kirsten, Lorenz Hellman Gloucester, Gatekeeper (Fire Emblem), Dedue Molinaro, Flayn (Fire Emblem), Hubert von Vestra Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Time Loop, Canon-Typical Violence, Blood and Gore, Sexual Content, strap in boys this will have everything, sothis meddles for no other reason other than she thinks it's funny, i love literally every character in this game except for edelgard and rhea, so get ready, cause everyone's here, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Other Character Tags to be Added - Freeform, Swearing, Vomiting, Polyamory, Major Spoilers Summary:

because I will yield to none.

Soulmate + Time Loop AU.

Byleth has always been different. Aside from her nine marks, apparently. But somehow, she knows she’s done this before. And the familiarity makes her want to vomit.

Or: everyone looks to Byleth as the light. Byleth looks back.

HOLY SHIT YALL ITS HEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEE TYSM TO EVERYONE FOR BEING PATIENT W ME <3333

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HISTBI UPDATE!!

Unfortunately I have been ultra busy with work so I have to delay the new chapter even more - I've had basically no motivation or time to write. I'm so sorry everyone!!

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histbi update!!

Sorry for the delay!!! I've been super unmotivated this week so hopefully will have an update by Christmas 😅

I know a lot of you have been waiting for the new chapter and I promise it's coming!! I just want to do it properly and not post something half-hearted 😊

Thank you SO much for all your support!!