#hissweetdarling thoughts

[hissweetdarling]

Every time I go on Instagram reels between stuff I'm actually interested in that app there is at least one reel about being in your twenties or thirties and not feeling old or things you should have known by then and let me tell you that I don't feel / remember to feel old until I see such reels-

And people compare a lot how our childhood used to be vs today's kids'childhood but I genuinely believe it's also adults fault (not all of them , obviously) who would rather give a kid a tablet / phone than play with them with toys or encourage them to play with other kids in the park or other places and I feel sad somehow even for these kids who might will also feel "old" later.

Besides my childhood was good only until a certain age and later I had and still have a lot of adult responsibilities but treated like a child.

Now I have adult responsibilities and I ask to be treated like an adult in case the people don't already treat me like one (a lot of people see disabled people and automatically assume I'm stupid in my country).

Back to " feeling old ", in a way I almost always feel "old" but I also don't think too much about it, ya know? I have a few friends I can be childish with or really excited about things without them making me feel angry or turn serious and mature ten seconds later because they actually like seeing me happy even if I seem childish in that moment.

Also I'm trying my best to do stuff that I enjoyed as a kid (until that certain moment which changed things even more)and later in life because even just a tiny bit or more of that joy it's still joy that I deserve to feel at that ages and now too.

This "old" concept it's so controversial especially because I think we should be focused more on actually living our lives as we can than "oh no I'm old based on different society standards it means I'm a failure I didn't do 100 things by this age and I will never be able to go back to that age and do them blah blah blah" everyone has a different life after all.

important addition to my 2025 moodboard

[hissweetdarling]

Guys sorry if anyone wanted to look for/say stuff to me in the past few weeks via asks. I deactivated them temporarily because the people asking for help which I kept blocking were stressing me and because university already stresses me a lot, I don't need even more stress.

I've been sleeping for weeks at 2:30 a.m and even later than that and I'm barely halfway? done with what I've been needing to do before the winter break.

Third year it's insane despite a lot of people told me this is going to be the easiest. I still don't give up and I still want to have other degrees as well but if you'll see me starting to reblog sad stuff along with the cute ones I'll still be okay and yes, I still want to read and ideas somehow still roam into my head despite not being able to write more than once in a while.

I'm thinking about adapting and improving then maybe finishing a messy fanfiction I started at the beginning of the year but at the same time I get winter and Christmas cute and romantic ideas? Like with stuff I've always wanted to try with someone but hey at least they can be tried in fanfiction, right? And on the other hand I get very dirty ideas that same with the fluffy ones I can't (mostly due to my tiredness) put them into words enough or good enough to be published anyway

I couldn't even change my Tumblr theme since September. Maybe I'll attempt to do it these days...

Take care everyone, please don't allow yourself to have continuous weeks of sleeping late like me and please don't overwork yourself even when you're supposed to give yourself time to rest (yes, I'm learning that too again)

[anotherteenageroninternet]

so i gotta study , test tomorrow yk . so imma make this short

HAPPY

FRIENSHIP

DAY

TO

ALL

YOU

DUMBASSES

i am so sooo very grateful to literally allllll of you here

you guys are the ones who helped me pull myself back from the downward spiral . i dunno what i'd do without you. y'all helped me in the ways you cant even imagine

i just-

im not a good writer, i dunno how to express anything well. so just remember you all are really really important to me and that i love you all and i just cant live without you guys

thanks for being there for me

you amazing, awesome, wonderful, dumbass dipshits

i cant tag all of you cuz my brain is going brrr but even if i dont tag you and you see this on your dash, it means i love you all

@willothewhisper @notdxbya @crzyprsn42 @thatpessmisticbookworm @crazy-beautiful @untowardflower @jurdan-my-beloved @queen-born-out-of-fire @clarys-heosphoros @denizoid @leidiosyncraticone @thatrandomfangirlll @fatpotatosaysmoo @thesexypanda-boo @hissweetdarling @mendesxruel @sherlux @midnigth-thoughts @herondalesunsetcurve @just-here-to-escape-from-reality @justmemyselfandthefridge @lazysarcasm--dazzlingbs @captainsarastilinski @icycoolslushie @ashwashw @ashiyaana @darkshadowqueensrule @not-just-a-brunette @satandrankmy-coffee @/ and like everyone who can see this, whether we talk or not , just remember, i love you and am so very grateful for you. thank you all for existing