#his self-hatred is too deep to heal in one book ig

[morteisshipping]

I think it speaks for itself that HJYJ couple is so far the healthiest ship I've ever shipped in my life lol.

It started off unhealthy ofc, what with SHJ treating and keeping HYJ like a pet or an object (albeit a favorite one that he treats gently & mindfully) and HYJ just went on w it bcs he has no self-preservation instinct and literally hates himself so much he prefers to bcm an object to serve ppl around him than a human being. The fact that he doesn't care that SHJ named him "Item" in his contact says a lot about what sees in himself.

but then it evolves into something else?

SHJ caught... feelings??? that he doesn't know what to do with??? he becomes anxious with the thought that he can't keep HYJ safe (in which the feeling is new to him as well so he doesn't know what to do with it), so he starts to keep his distance.

and HYJ, with his trauma unresolved, keeps getting anxious that SHJ will abandon him as well (especially bcs SHJ is notorious for discarding "toys" once he's bored w them), like Yoohyun in pre-reg; so he holds on tighter to him and bombs his house when SHJ ghosts him.

but instead of writing a series of misunderstanding, Geunseo actually have them FIGHT IT OUT OF THEIR SYSTEM. Literally.

Both of them actually learns how to love.

For SHJ, it's love for life that he always deems boring and dull.

For HYJ, it's love for himself, to heal from his trauma, and learn that he is lovable as human being as well.