#his presentation earlier made me emotional icl

[ezclubs]

I’ll just pretend I didn’t see the last pic Betis posted to keep this PG-13

[zhengxiong]

Day 28 | Close to A Month.

1:23 pm | You are about to finish “Our Love”

Starting to regret not starting the book earlier, for I underestimated the depth of our mighty love. The sheer volume of communication amazes me, coming to think about it. To top it up, the conversation was not trivial and contentful; there were, in fact, many thoughts that go into the construction of my replies that can never fully capture them. That gave rise to a lot of follow-ups presented in my perspectives to complete the picture. I guess I will make it up with more Tumblr posts to help with the agony. I can feel that the end is close. Caught between the desire for your return and your trip enjoyment; I selfishly yearn for your return.

11:22 pm | The 8-minutes Wait

Here I am back, back in my hall, cooking my dinner as usual. It has been some time since I last got raped mentally; being mentally weak. I dozed off a couple of time due to the fact that I don’t really comprehend what the lecturer is blabbering about, and it was not just his accent, it was the content comprehension that I was lacking. At the very least, I know where I’m lacking. And as I scrolled through Amanda’s films, there was a surge of emotions; how I wished things were better than, and how I, ironically, wished nothing had changed. It was one hell of a trip to be remembered; a constant reminder of who and what matters the most, and to protect it with all my might. Beyond might, there lies faith that will continue to be the bedrock of this relationship that I hold dear to heart. I learned to appreciate and devote my time and effort for what that really matters and not harp over the minute and petty details that would obscure better things from happening in life. “Rigidity is relative; to a baby, a wall might be rigid to punch, but for the two of us, the wall might not be as rigid.” - Prof Marcos. I find this comparison rather fascinating for no particular reason. It probably dug out and made me revisit some of my subconscious thoughts for education. My personal take on education would be that no one should be denied if the desire to upgrade and be better than their old self. To put a price on education is like selling air; ridiculous. Having missed the chance to pursue a high-quality education at ICL, I have a soft spot for people who struggle to foot their school fees; struggling just to better themselves. Doesn’t make sense at all. Why the need to tag a price to something you wish to share, like knowledge. Why the need to make it exclusive? How many brilliant souls would have realised their talent and worth if not for the high barrier of entry? I can only pray for greater strength that would carry this vision of mine far enough to set up an educational fund, which will fund worthy individual of potential good to explore the world and come back to repay this land we all call home. That’s how we, Singapore, can progress and survive; not trapped in our own shell of denial. 

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