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Sunki was on his way to work when he noticed a young man carrying a heavy suitcase, they seemed to have some trouble with it, so he decided to step in and help them since he was a real gentleman after all. “Hey, do you need some help with that suitcase? It looks pretty heavy to carry all by yourself. I will gladly help you. I’m Sunki, nice to meet you.” He added then, greeting other and smiling at them then.

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Maru looked up as he heard footsteps approaching him and a moment later he locked eyes with a stranger. His lips curled up into a smile many would call cute as he nodded his head as he was asked whether he needed help. “Yes, I would love some help. Moving all of your belongings into a new place isn’t as easy as expected.” The young male said, returning the smile. “It is nice to meet you too, Sunki. I’m Himchan.” He introduced himself after remembering that he wasn’t allowed to give out his stage name aka his nickname just yet.

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The Bias List

@avatarfantxsy @quyennie @despairandjo I decided to just list them. I need to make a separate post for bands tho. (that was a lie almost as fat as me) So in this bias list I will only list groups that I listen to. The last bias list I posted there were a lot of groups that I hadn’t listened to yet so this one will just be the groups I know of. I have a few to add, some I have taken off and I will have a section at the end for potential biases. Also some groups have 2-6 biases. For example I literally can’t choose with UP10TION. And sometimes I go back and forth and members in groups so often I’ve somehow tricked my brain into thinking I have more than one. If it’s confusing I promise the first member of each group on the list is definitely a locked bias. And another thing, if the member is specifically on my list of moms or daddies they wont be on here, unless they both

H.O.T - Kangta

Super Junior - Eunhyuk

DBSK/TVXQ - Changmin and Junsu

Girls Generation - Sunny

Fx - Luna

Shinee - Onew

Exo - Xiumin and Sehun

Red Velvet - Yeri

NCT - Doyoung and Yuta

1TYM - Taebin

Big Bang - Daesung

2NE1 - Minji

Winner - Seunghoon 

iKON - Junhoe and Jinhwan

AKMU - Suhyun

BlackPink - Lisa

2PM - Taecyeon

Wonder Girls - Sohee and Yubin

Miss A - Min

Got7 - JB

Twice - Dahyun (I had Tzuyu and Jeongyeon cause Tzuyu was my original bias in Twice and I still love her but she’s like my daughter now so she’s in another list and Jeongyeon is more if a bias wrecker with Momo and Sana)

Day6 - Wonpil

Stray Kids - Woojin and I.N

Itzy - Yeji

Afterschool - Nana

NU’EST - Ren (yes, Ren is actually my bias and not Baekho. Isn’t that funny how that works sksksk)

Seventeen - Jeonghan

Pristin - Nayoung

Hello Venus - Lime

Astro - Sanha

Weki Meki - Doyeon

Sistar - Bora and Hyorin

Boyfriend - The Jo Twins and Minwoo

Monsta-X - Shownu (sometimes Changkhyun is my bias and sometimes he’s not. Minhyuk used to be my bias when I first got into them funny huh?)

WJSN - Yeoreum

UNIQ - Yibo

Everglow - Onda (Aisha, E.U and Mia are like also my biases but I’m not sure where at they are in Everglow so for now it’s just Queen Onda)

Rainbow - Jisook

K.A.R.D - Jiwoo

Map6 - J.Jun

D-Crunch - Dylan

Noir - Seunghoon, Yeonkuk, Siha, Siheon and Minhyuk

B.I.G - Benji (Heedo isn’t my bias I swear, I don’t know what’s going on with him tbh)

Bigflo - Z-Uk, Junghyun and Euijin

A.C.E - Byeongkwan (A.C.E was literally pick a bias and get 4 free for me because the way I talk you’d think Sehyoon was my bias but nope.)

VAV - Ziu and St.Van

ZE:A - Minwoo

9Muses - Minha, Sojin and Hyuna

Imfact - Jian (again with the way I talked you’d think Jeup or Ungjae were my baises but it’s Jian)

24K - Cory, Daeil and Xiwoo (Cory and Daeil were my biases when they were still in the group and Xiwoo is my bias form the new lineup)

Halo - Heecheon

GWSN - Miya and Seokyoung

14U - Loudi and Hyunwoong

ATEEZ - Jongho, Mingi and Hongjoong (I couldn’t help it I had to add Mingis and Hongjoongs uwu!)

Mamamoo - Hwasa

Vromance - Chandong and Hyunseok

OneUs - Hwanwoong

OneWe - Cya

AOA - Choa (lmao at point Jimin was also my bias oOF)

SF9 - Zuho and Hwiyoung

CNBLUE - Jungshin

FTISLAND - Jaejin

N.Flying - Chahun, Seunghyub and Dongsung (lmao I fixed it so Chahun is first like he should be)

Cherry Bullet - May, Kokoro and Remi

Momoland - Jooe and Hyebin

Saturday - Chohee, Yuki and Ayeon

Z-Boys - Gai

Z-Girls - Piryanka

EXID - L.E

Trei - Jaejun

Teen Top - C.A.P and Niel

UP10TION - Xiao, Sunyoul, Kogyeol and Jinhoo (I took two off, can you guess which ones?)

Ladies’ Code - Sojung

B.A.P - Youngguk, Himchan, Zelo and Jongup

Secret - Jieun

Sonamoo - D.ana

Vixx - Hakyeon (obviously)

Gugudan - Mina

Verivery - Hoyoung

Dal Shabat - Serri

Dreamcatcher - Dami, Sua and Siyeon 

LC9 - King and A.O

Brown Eyed Girls - Gain

Lunafly - Teo

Royal Pirates - James

N-Sonic - Minkee, Sihoo and Jeonguk

Cross Gene - Takuya

KHAN - Euna

BTOB - Peniel (BTOB is hard because my bias used to be Sungjae and then there was a time when Eunkwang and Illhoon were my biases and now I’m like Minhyuk and Hyunsik)

4Minute - Jiyoon

B2ST/ Highlight - Yoseob and Gikwang

CLC - Sorn and Seungyeon

Pentagon - Wooseok and Jinho 

G-idle - Yuqi and Soojin

Block B - P.O, U-Kwon and Taeil

Speed - Sejun, Taewoon, Taeha

T-ARA - Boram

DIA - Somyi

Newkidd - Hwi

Black6ix - Taeyoung and Ziki

Great Guys - Dongin, Hwalchan, Horyeong and Uiyeon

Beat Win - Sunhyuk

M.Pire - Haru

Alphabat - Code, Heta, Jeta, Gamma and Iota

G.I - Oneket

M.O.N.T - Roda

Brave Girls - Yuna

Bigstar - Baram, Sunghak and Raehwan

Gfriend - Umji

Infinite - Dongwoo 

Lovelyz - Babysoul

Golden Child - Daeyeol

B1A4 - CNU

Oh My Girl - Yooa 

ONF - Hyojin (lets get this straight I’m n o t WYATT IS NOT MY BIAS IN ONF I SWEAR ON WOOSEOKS KNEECAPS)

Wassup - Nari

Hotshot - Timoteo and Junhyuk

Spica - Boa

Matilda - Saebyeol

Girls Girls - Miso

Girlkind - JK

IZ*ONE - Sakura, Yena and Chaewon

Glam - Dahee

TXT - Soobin

MBLAQ - Thunder and Lee Joon

Madtown - Daewon, Lee Geon and Buffy

U-Kiss - Kiseop 

Nature - Saebom, LU, Gaga, Sunshine and Aurora 

Topp Dogg/ Xeno-T - Nakta, Xero, B-Joo (I took out RIP Rap God ATOM let’s be honest on that one uwu!)

Evol - Hayana

Elris - Bella, Sohee

Loona - Chu and Vivi

fromis_9 - Seoyeon

H.B.Y - Taro

Hotplace - Hanbit

A-Pink - Chorong

Victon - Seungwoo, Sejun and Hanse

Girls Day - Hyeri

Laboum - Solbin

N.Tic - Seunghoo

Target - Woojin and Boun

Chocolat - Juliane and Soa

Boys Republic - Sunwoo

History - Yijeong

Fiestar - Yezi

N-Train - Yujin

Dalmation - Inati and Donglim

Myname - JunQ, Chaejin and Gunwoo

JJCC - Eddy

LedApple - Hanbyul

DGNA - Jay, Mika and Karam

M.I.B - Kangnam and 5Zic

Wonder Boyz - Master One (V.Hawk fun fact he’s actually super tiny sitting next to Niel, Takuya and 2Idiots it’s hilarious)

KNK - Youjin

Favorite - Gaeul

LU:KUS - Jinhwan and J.One

Mr.Mr. - Ryu, Doyeon ,Tey, Changjae, Jiwon and Han

MVP - Gitaek and Rayoon

Rania - Di, Ttabo and Riko

Stellar - Minhee and Hyoeun

Bulldok - Kimi

1Team - Rubin and BC

Snuper - Suhyun, Woosung and Sebin

TINT - Mirim

Tiny-G - Mint

Double A - Kimchi

2EYES - Dasom

W24 - Aaron

A6P - Jungyeon, Jelly-P, Yaho and Actin

Like a Movie - Domo, Siryu and Joha

Seven O’Clock - Hyun, Taeyoung and Vaan

Spectrum - Minjae and Villian

The Rose - Jaehyeong

IM/ X1 - Hangyul

Argon - Kain and Gon

Vanner - Gon and Taehwan

2Z - Bumjun and Hyunwoong

Shasha - Chaiki

Tweety - Ain

Be.A - Milly

Rainz - Wontak, Eunki and Sunghyuk

D-Unit - Ram

IZ - Hyunjun and Jihoo

Rolling Quartz - Hyunjung and Arem

D.Coy - Dosun

ENOi - Dojin, Gun, Jinwoo and Hamin

E’LAST - Wonhyuk, Rano and Romin

ANS - Bian

UNVS - Eunho and YY

N.Cus - Seungyong

G-Most - Jin

DKB - Heechan and Yuku

Trusty - Haru and Chance

Cignature - Belle

MCND - Win

3YE - Yuji

Pink Fantasy - Sanga

Potential biases: to avoid me confusing myself this section will be for members that might become my bias or members that go back and forth and I’m not sure where they fall. Mayhaps they double as bias wreckers.

Red Velvet - Wendy

Twice - Jeongyeon, Sana and Momo

Stray Kids - Jisung, Changbin and Felix

Itzy - Ryujin

NU’EST - Baekho, JR and Aron

Monsta-X - Chankyun

Everglow - E.U, Mia and Aisha

B.I.G - Heedo

Imfact - Jeup and Ungjae

ATEEZ - Seonghwa

SF9 - Taeyang and Rowoon

Newkidd - Hansol and Jiann

Verivery - Kangmin and Gyehyeon

BTOB - Minhyuk and Hyunsik

Pentagon - Yuto and Yanan

Infinite - Sungyeol and Sungjong

Loveylz - Mijoo and Kei

Golden Child - Joochan and Y

Oh My Girl - Mimi, Jiho and Seunghee

ONF - Wyatt, MK and E.Tion

Hotshot - Hojung

IZ*ONE - Nako, Hitomi, Yuri and Yujin

U-Kiss - Kevin and Jun

Elris - Yukyung

Weki Meki - Lucy and Rina

fromis_9 - Jiwon, Nakyung, Jiheon and Hayoung

H.B.Y - Marco

Victon - Seungsik and Subin

N.Tic - Sangwook and Jion

Noir - Yunsung

GWSN - Lena and Soso

Target - Hyun

Boys Republic - Onejunn

JJCC - Yul

1Team - Jinwoo and Jehyun

Varsity - Kid, Xiwoo, Damon and Anthony

Highteen - Sea

C-Clown - Siwoo

Lucente - Bao, Z.Hoo and Parkha

My.st - Woojin and Woncheol

Spectrum - Jaehan and Hwarang

Argon - Jaeun

2Z - Jiseob

ENOi - Laon and J-Kid

E’LAST - Choi In, Wonjun and Baekyeul

UNVS - Jun.H, Changgyu and Jen (literally the whole of UNVS tests me)

N.Cus - IF, Soon and Euntaek

G-Most - Melo, L and Jun

DKB - Lune

Cignature - Sunn, Chaesol and YeAh 

MCND - Bic

3YE - Yurim and Haeun

And this section is for groups that I literally haven’t checked out yet because I actually haven’t gotten around to it but I’ve already picked biases

OnlyoneOf - Junji

CIX - Bae Jinyoung and BX

IN2IT - Inho, Inpyo and Issac

The Boyz - Jacob

TOO - Chanhyuk

Aweek - Jingyu and Hyeon

Bandage, Wetter and Bursters I have not gotten into nor do I know the members but I want to add them anyway oOF

I think this is it. I hope. I know Z-Boys and Z-Girls aren’t kpop but I put them there anyway. I do have biases in Jpop and Jrock groups tho. Maybe I can post those another time. I’ve worked on this literally all night, it is currently 5:04 in the am. Jesus. Christ. I need to retire from kpop. It’s only gonna get bigger cause someone keeps throwing men at me, not like I don’t enjoy it tho

[the-hufflepuff-dramatist]

K-Pop Masterlist

Ailee

Loyalty 

BAP

Yongguk

- Series

Royalty AU (2/?)

Part 1

Part 2 

Secret Agent AU (6/6)

Part 1

Part 2 

Part 3 

Part 4 

Part 5 

Part 6/End

- One Shots/Drabbles

I’m Yours 

Himchan

- Series

Royalty AU (1/?)

Part 1

- One Shots/Drabbles

Broken 

Daehyun

- Series

Royalty AU 

Part 1

Zelo

- One Shots/Drabbles

Please Rest 

Big Bang 

G Dragon

- One Shots/Drabbles

But You Don’t Like Kids 

Movie Night 

Daesung

- One Shots/Drabbles

Drunk

Don’t Listen to Them 

Girl Talk 

Blackpink

Block B

Zico

- One Shots/Drabbles

Smitten 

P.O

BTS

Jin

- One Shots/Drabbles

Welcome Home 

Suga

- One Shots/Drabbles

Cold Nights

J-Hope 

- One Shots/Drabbles

Sick Day 

RM

- One Shots/Drabbles

Excuse Me? 

Jimin

- One Shots/Drabbles

Pranks 

I Don’t Want to Be Alone Tonight 

 V

- One Shots/Drabbles

It’s Over 

Jungkook

- One Shots/Drabbles

Calm Down 

Day6

Exo

GOT7

Jackson

- One Shots/Drabbles

Video Games

Locked Out

Jinyoung

- One Shots/Drabbles

Blackmail

Monsta X

Kihyun

- One Shots/Drabbles

Kiss Me

Hyungwon

- One Shots/Drabbles

You’re Mine and That’s It, Forever

Jooheon

- One Shots/Drabbles

I Understand

He’s Taken

Pentagon

Jinho

- One Shots/Drabbles

You’re All Children

Hui

- One Shots/Drabbles

At the Fair

Hongseok

- One Shots/Drabbles

Puns 

Evening In

E’Dawn

- One Shots/Drabbles

You’re Lucky I Love You

Shinwon

- One Shots/Drabbles

Someone Else

Yuto 

- One Shots/Drabbles

Homesickness -Exchange Student AU

Seventeen 

SF9

Shinee

Jonghyun

- One Shots/Drabbles

Paranoia

Vixx

All

Bad Day

N 

- Series

Bodygaurd AU (4/4)

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4/End

- One Shots/Drabbles

Distance  Part 2

Long Days and Late Nights

Honeymoon

You’re Safe With Me

Stress

Leo

- Series

Bodyguard AU (3/3)

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3/End

Music Brings Us Together -Cafe AU (1/4)

Part 1

Pages Between Us -Immortal AU (1/?)

Part 1

- One Shots/Drabbles

Hate

Pleurs

Late Night Cravings

Ken

- Series

Bodyguard AU (3/3)

Part 1 

Part 2

Part 3/End

- One Shots/Drabbles

Pet Store

Ravi

- Series

Bodyguard AU (3/3)

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3/End

- One Shots/Drabbles

Winning Isn’t Everything

Hongbin

- Series

Bodyguard AU (2/?)

Part 1

Part 2

- One Shots/Drabbles

Be You

Not a Morning Person

Hyuk

- Series

Bodyguard AU (2/?)

Part 1

Part 2

- One Shots/Drabbles

I Didn’t Mean It  Part 2

Just Friends  Part 2

No Thanks, Satan

[jos-corner-of-the-world]

Amnesia - 4

(3)

“Wait. Don't go. Please don't walk out the door like this. We'll help you.” 

“You can't help me. No one can help me. Just...let me go.” 

“No. No! I won't do that. You're not alone in this. Please. Please just stop.”

“I can't. You can't help me. I can't help me. Just stop. You're pushing me and I hate it. I need help. I need help that no one here can give me. Please just stop. Please.”

“Erin. Don't go. Erin, stop!”

The woman woke up in a cold sweat.

She was surprised to see Yongguk standing in the doorway, illuminated by the hallway light.

“Are you okay?” He asked her as soon as her breathing returned to normal. He never left the entryway.

“I had a dream. But...but it felt like a memory.” She said.

“Did it make any sense?” Yongguk asked her.

She thought about how to answer the question. She wasn't sure if it were a memory, or just a dream. But it felt so...real. The context also had her anxious. Was she sick? Was she dangerous? The only thing the dream did was make her have more questions.

Well, except for one.

“Erin.” She said.

“What?”

“I think my name is Erin.”

“Okay. Well that's a start. I'll talk to Jongup in the morning and let him know. It'll be nice for you to at least have your name back.” He said quietly.

Erin just nodded her head numbly.

“Why are you standing in the doorway?” She asked him before he left.

“Oh. I was in brushing my teeth and I heard you talking in your sleep. You sounded... distressed. I was making sure you were okay. your door was open already or I wouldn't have opened it myself. I would have knocked weather it was locked or not.” he knew he was rambling, but he didn't want Erin to think he'd just walk into her room anytime.

“Well, I appreciate that.” She said as she laid back down.

“Would you like me to close the door?” Yongguk asked.

“No, please don’t! I don't like the dark.”

Yongguk just nodded his head and walked away, letting the hall light illuminate the room even more, giving Erin a calmer sense of peace.

The next morning she woke up, not having dreamt again the rest of the night. She walked into the hallway and saw a lamp sitting beside her door with a note attached.

“To chase the darkness away.”

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Erin had gone back into her room for a while to try to wake up more, and plug the lamp in on the dresser. She put the post it note that had been attached to the lamp safely in a drawer, intending to keep it.

She was surprised to hear a raised voice floating up from downstairs.  Curiosity got the best of her as she walked to the top of the staircase to listen.

“This is a totally different situation!” An unknown voice yelled.

“How?” Yongguk asked, his calm demeanor the opposite of the second voice. “Nat and Himchan took me in when I didn't have anyone, they didn't know me either.” 

“You knew your name! And the problems that you were dealing with. You knew you needed help and they offered that. This girl doesn't know anything. She could even be pretending not to know anything. We don't know her name or her past. We don't know anything!” The other guy yelled.

“Her name is Erin.” Yongguk told him.

“That's convenient. She remembers it now. Couldn't have told you that yesterday?”

“She remembered during what I’m assuming was a particularly bad dream last night. Either way it's none of your business. I'm not asking you for help. I can't just let this woman walk away and possibly be lost forever. That's not right. Why are you even so mad about this?” Yongguk asked.

“Because you're just getting back on your feet! It's only been a year since your recovery really started taking effect. I'm worried what this is going to do to you. To your health, both physically and mentally. I'm worried Guk, I really am.”

“Youngjae. You don't have to worry. I wouldn't do this if I thought I wasn't stable enough to. I'm keeping all my appointments and taking all my medication. Nat and Himchan took me in once I'd already started getting better and admitting I needed help. What I needed was someone to help me when I was lost, when I was alone. I know it's not the same situation, but I can help her. I know how she feels, I can both empathize and sympathize with what she's feeling. I'm sorry you're so frustrated and I appreciate you worrying about me, but you don't need to. No amount of your anger or worry is going to make me send her away. That's not who I am and you know that.” 

“Damnit Guk I know that. I just...I don't trust her. It's nothing against her at all, I just…” 

“I'm not asking you to trust her, Jae. I'm asking you to trust me.”

Erin couldn't listen anymore. She felt an immense sense of guilt as she listened to his friend speaking. He had gone through something bad, still going through it. Yet here he was, helping her when he could be worrying more about himself.

She sat on the bed and weighed her options. She could start heading east now and hopefully hitchhike to where she needed to go, that would get her there sooner.  But yongguk's words rang in her ears about not getting the help she really needs. 

It was selfish of her to stay here, to take Yongguk up on his offer to help, but she didn't know what else she could do.

“I'll wait it out.” She said to herself quietly. “Yongguk said time heals things, so maybe time will give me the answers I'm looking for with this too.”

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(5)

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The Silence of Growing

Request: Qhh!! Open requests? Well seeing as you write Yongguk better than anyone else I've read, could I please request #2 yongguk?            

Prompt:

2) “Well, you certainly proved a point. I’m just not sure if it was the one that you wanted.”

Pairing: BAP Yongguk x Reader

Genre: Angst/Fluff

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. Yongguk's POV

Pulling down on the hemline of his oversized, knit cardigan, Yongguk smiled at himself, taking in the image of his grin reflected back at him. He swiveled in front of the mirror one last time before nodding to himself.

Good.

He had never been the type to necessarily double, or in this case, triple check his outfit selections, but today felt different. There was a fall feeling in the air making him nearly giddy with the weather change. While some people experienced seasonal depression when the colder months hit, he seemed to have the opposite reaction. As soon as the first autumn breeze rustled past his hair, he was a different man.

"Who are you trying to look good for?" Jongup asked, lifting a brow.

Yongguk spun toward his friend lounging in the sitting area of their shared apartment. "Thank you for confirming how I good I look."

"That didn't answer my question," the younger man sighed, keeping from rolling his eyes.

"I guess I didn't realize that you expected an answer," Yongguk smirked.

"If you avoid the question, I'm just going to assume you're going to see Y/n," he muttered. Glancing toward Himchan, Jongup nodded in solidarity with the fellow friend who had now joined them in the small living room.

"You guys going on a date?" Himchan asked, glancing up at Yongguk as he plopped beside Jongup.

"We don't like to put labels on things," Yongguk hummed, checking his vibrating phone.

Y/N: I'm here.

Yongguk hastily tapped on his screen that he would be down in a moment before looking toward his friends again. "I'm not saying that there is anything wrong if we did want to put a label on our...friendship, but-"

"Relationship," Himchan corrected. "Call it what it is."

"He hates that word," Jongup grinned. "Commitment issues."

"I disagree," Yongguk said softly. "I am not afraid of commitment, I am-"

"He's afraid of what happens if the other person isn't as committed," Himchan finished. "Our softie would never admit it, but he's afraid of a broken heart."

"My heart will never break over some torrid liaison," Yongguk sighed. "Heartbreak is reserved for much more important things."

"I wonder how Y/n would feel about being called a torrid liaison," Jongup clucked.

"You won't have to wonder if we ask," Himchan teased.

"You won't have to ask if I kill you both," Yongguk grumbled.

"You're too sensitive to be the killing type," Himchan sighed. "Like a man afraid of heartbreak would ever get his hands dirty with a double murder."

"You'd be surprised," Yongguk hissed. "And for the second time, I'm not afraid of heartbreak."

"Then why are you so afraid to ask Y/n to be a couple?" Himchan asked. "You two have been seeing each other for months."

"Because love, much like time, is a self imposed construct that isn't real," Yongguk sighed. "it's just a word humans crafted to explain the feeling of chemicals combining in your brain when you're infatuated with someone."

"So what you're saying is, you don’t plan to fall in love with Y/n?" Jongup asked, tilting his head.

"If it were real, maybe," Yongguk chuckled. "But we're speaking in hypotheticals here."

“Hypotheticals or not,” Himchan hummed. “I think it’s silly for you not to admit that you at least have some sort of feeling toward Y/n.”

“Oh, i certainly have some sort of feelings,” Yongguk nodded. “But to say it’s love may be overstepping. Love is a chemical imbalance in the brain. It’s the universe’s way of making sure you continue to breed. i have enough chemical imbalances where serotonin levels are concerned, so why would i want to throw another type of imbalance around?”

“Love isn’t practical enough for you, is it?” Jongup chuckled. “It’s not opportune for you, so you’d rather pretend that it doesn’t exist.”

“There’s no pretending here, friend,” Yongguk chuckled, shaking his head. “If Y/n expects for me to fall head over heels in love, it may take awhile.”

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Your POV

You shifted your weight from one foot to the other, gnawing on your lip in annoyance. He said he would be downstairs at least ten minutes ago, so what was taking him so long?

You and Yongguk had known each other for quite some time, but had just recently begun seeing each other more romantically within the past few months. While you weren’t rushing for him to express his feelings, you were interested in seeing a little more enthusiastic displays of his affection. You had hoped without hoping that tonight would be the night he asked you to become more serious, but if his tardiness was a precursor to the nights’ events, you were happy to never admit you had hoped at all.

“Screw it,” you grumbled, launching toward the steps of his apartment building. Might as well see what the hold up was.

Climbing stair after stair, you tried to calm your annoyance. It wasn’t the first time Yongguk had made you wait, and you were certain it wouldn’t be the last. Technically it could be seen as a larger metaphor for him making you wait to be an official couple, if that day were to ever come. Perhaps that’s why you were so irked. You weren’t just annoyed by his lack of punctuality today, but in general.

Reaching the landing of Yongguk’s floor, you stomped toward his apartment. Reeling back your annoyance, you knocked on the door, instantly becoming more annoyed as no one appeared to open it.

For a second, you were worried. What if he had slipped and hit his head on a counter top and was passed out on the floor? What if he had fell victim to a mounting anxiety attack and decided to lock himself in his room instead?

Feeding in to your imagination, you found your palm on the knob, and gave a gentle push. The door sprung open with little effort and you quickly slid into the entryway.

You suddenly felt incredibly foolish as you heard the laughter echoing from the living area and down the hallway. If Yongguk were hurt or upset, surely his friends wouldn’t be laughing. A heat of embarrassment began to travel up your neck as you heard Yongguk’s voice as well.

“Oh, i certainly have some sort of feelings,” You heard Yongguk insist. “But to say it’s love may be overstepping. Love is a chemical imbalance in the brain. It’s the universe’s way of making sure you continue to breed. i have enough chemical imbalances where serotonin levels are concerned, so why would i want to throw another type of imbalance around?” 

Tilting your head, the heat of embarrassment quickly changed to a heated anger. What was he talking about?

“Love isn’t practical enough for you, is it?” Jongup chuckled. “It’s not opportune for you, so you’d rather pretend that it doesn’t exist.” 

You felt hollow as the men’s laughter hit you like the truth you had been avoiding. In all of your hopes for Yongguk to confess, it had never occurred to you that perhaps he hadn’t loved you at all.

“There’s no pretending here, friend,” Yongguk laughed as well. “If Y/n expects for me to fall head over heels in love, it may take awhile.” 

Swallowing, you felt yourself choke on your saliva. You hadn’t realized how dry your mouth had become. You also hadn’t noticed the lump of emotion struggling it’s way down your throat. As soon as the whimper escaped your lips, you regretted stepping foot into the apartment. You remained cemented in your spot, wide eyed and teary as Yongguk and Jongup’s necks strained around the corner, looking at your placement not far from the door.

“I was waiting,” you choked out, unsure of what to say. “I thought something was wrong and...”

Yongguk’s face fell as you spoke, realizing you had heard a piece of his love-scorned diatribe. Jongup’s expression slid to one of shock as he cut his eyes at his friend.

“Y/n, I-” Yongguk began, taking a hesitant step toward you.

“I’m sorry,” you whispered, attempting to hold back the tears that had been brewing for what seemed like the entirety of your courtship (or lack thereof.) “I shouldn’t have.”

Turning on your heel, you fled from the boys, not bothering to stop even when you heard Jongup’s gloomy response.

“Well, Guk, you certainly proved a point...I’m just not sure if it was the one you wanted.”

.

Your feet kept moving until they hit the concrete of the sidewalk, finally stopping long enough for you to catch your breath. It wasn’t as if he had said that he didn’t love you, or that he never would, but the indifference hurt. Sure, you were mortified to admit you had essentially broke into his apartment. And yes, it looked as if you were spying on their conversation. But mostly, your heart ached with how apathetic the man you had grown to love had spoken about his own feelings towards you.

You had full knowledge that relationships weren’t always equal. Both people involved weren’t always on the same page or had the same caliber of emotion as the other, but this came as a shock. Yongguk had shown no sign of disinterest or lack of willingness to pursue things. Tonight, he had joked about love as if it were a mythical story parents told their children about before bedtime.

It hurts when you realize you aren’t as important to someone as you thought you were.

“Y/n,” Yongguk’s husky voice called from behind you. You didn’t want to turn around, but you knew that you would anyway.

You also knew you looked incredibly sulky as you turned to face him. Tears still slid down your cheeks and you felt your eyes growing puffy. You weren’t even terribly sad, but the excess emotion seemed to spill out through your tear ducts.

“I’m sorry,” he said quietly, stepping cautiously forward. “I didn’t think you would ever hear me say anything like that.”

“Either come closer or stay away because this in between is exhausting,” you choked, hardly able to look in his direction.

Heaving a sigh, he crossed the distance between the two of you.

“I don’t just mean here,” you croaked. “But with our relationship as well.”

Glancing at him, you shook your head. “Not relationship. I don’t even know what this is anymore.”

“It’s a relationship,” Yongguk whispered, his deep voice hardly registering words at such a low tone. He felt silly correcting you after he had just used the word “friendship” himself with Himchan.

“Didn’t sound like it up there,” you muttered. “And for the record, I would like to say that I thought you slipped and hit your head on something, so I was terribly worried that you were in your apartment dying, but instead, you were just making fun of how much you didn’t love me.”

“Well, that sounds like a dramatic take on the situation,” he sighed. “But If we’re putting things on record, I wasn’t making fun of how much I don’t love you. In all actuality, I love you very much.”

You blinked for a moment, uncertain if your brain had fabricated that last sentence. “And I quote, if Y/n expects for me to fall head over heels in love, it may take awhile.” 

“That didn’t sound very convincing, did it?” Yongguk winced.

“You don’t believe in love,” you whimpered. “You said it yourself.”

"Of course I believe in love," Yongguk sighed. "Even if I'm too much of a coward to admit that to my closest friends."

“So you were saying it was all an act?” you said quietly.

“I can admit freely to you,” he began, breaking eye contact. “That i have fabricated so many walls around myself, that I don’t even know how to be honest with my friends about my emotions sometimes. I don’t want to seem weak. I don’t want them to think that I’m distracted or less of who I was just because I have found myself caught up in feelings.”

“Who said it makes you weak?” you murmured.

“My own anxieties,” Yongguk nodded. “People in love are wrapped up in those they care about. They’re opening themselves up for heartbreak and hurt. It seems like love is a fool’s game and I didn’t want the people around me, who I think so highly of, to see me as a fool.”

“Then what about me?” you prodded. “Had no problem making me look like a fool in the process?”

“You have never been a fool,” Yongguk chuckled sadly. “If anything, you’ve been the brave one. You’ve been so open with how you’ve felt about me...you’ve made me realize just how silly I look even caring about the jokes my friends may have thrown my way.”

“Which they wouldn’t have, by the way,” you pouted.

“They wouldn’t,“ he nodded. “Really, I’m the only one standing in my way of being open about how I care about you.”

“And how is that exactly?”

"You make me feel things that I can't explain away,” Yongguk whispered. “Real love isn’t this spontaneous, electrifying, cartoon feeling. Real love is deliberate, it’s a choice. It’s for better or worse. It’s making you more of who you are and helping you accept what you could be. I’ve never felt more of myself than i do when I am with you, and if that’s not some inkling of love, maybe i’m a fool that doesn’t know what love is.”

You opened your mouth to speak, but could only close it again.

“Let us grow together, let us have our roots intertwined,” he said lowly, leaning down to press his forehead against yours. “Let me make up for the past five minutes with our future moments. Let me show you that I can learn.”

You chewed on your lip, unsure if you were about to cry or swoon. “Okay.”

“Okay?” he chuckled. “That’s all?”

“Anything I could possibly say after that would pale in comparison,” you murmured.

You could feel his gummy smile grow even though you couldn’t see it. His eyes were shut as his face stayed close to yours, and his hands snaked around your waist. You remained quiet, enjoying the moments of shared breaths, and just being.

“How lovely the silence of growing things,” Yongguk whispered, pulling you even closer to him. You smiled as well, taking in his scent and the pure feeling of being with him, finally on the same page. “Thank you for not walking away from the silly boy who wanted to pretend that he didn’t know what love is.”

“You knew all along,” you hummed, nuzzling your nose into his neck. “You just needed a little prompting.”

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[kpoprunsmylifenow]

I Wanna Make You Mine Chapter 1:

You’ve been running your father’s business ever since your older brother had died. Your dad had been raising him to take over the family business, but when he was murdered, your mother had taken it hard and it had led her to leave your father. Your father had almost killed everyone in his sight when he found out that she left.

When he started to train you, quickly might you add, to take over his business. He’d already been training you how to fight so that you could run his arms deals when your brother would take over. So you were versed on how to tell if someone was lying, how to tell if they were bluffing, and how to act during these deals. You already knew how to do most of this stuff since you’d been training to take over the weapons side of things.

You honestly didn’t know if you were ready, but you really didn’t have a choice since you father had been murdered on your doorstep. He’d been telling you about some trouble he’d been having with a rival group that was trying to take some of his land. So when you came home to see him on the step, you didn’t know whether to cry or to go out and find the bastard who did this. Deciding to go find the dumbass who did this, you called your father, who you guess was now your second, Jihun.

“Hello?”

“Jihun we have a problem.” You said as you looked away from your dad.

“What kind of problem?” He asked as you heard him yelling for the others. “And where are you?”

“The kind that involves someone killing my father on your front doorstep.” You tried to keep your voice steady, but you had grown up with him.

“We’ll be there in 2 minutes okay. Go inside. I know you have your gun on you, go lock the door and we’ll deal with your dad’s body.” You hurried inside and tried not to look at the blood that was splattered on the door. “Go and grab the files and stuff from your dad’s office too.”

“Okay.” You said quietly and hung up on Jihun. You pulled out your gun and cautiously walked inside. You didn’t see that anything had been messed with, but you still wanted to be cautious. When you grabbed the files, you sat down in the kitchen, waiting for the boys to get there.

You guessed you’d spaced out because the next thing you heard was your name being called from the entryway. Pulling your weapon out on the person who was calling for you.

“Hey, take it easy.” You heard Seoham say, holding his hands out. Sagging, you put your weapon down.

“Sorry.”

“It’s okay.” He pulled you into his tall, lanky frame. “I’m sorry about your dad.” And then Heejun was coming inside, along with Inseong.

When you’d started living at the main house, the one where almost everyone stayed at, you began to fall into your roll of boss. Jihun had been helping you a lot while you were getting used to calling all the shots. After you got through your first drug deal, many of the guys that had been loyal to your father, who’d been apprehensive about you leading, had started to trust you to make good decisions.

---

After 3 years, you still hadn’t found the people responsible for your father’s death. You’d been on the verge of kidnapping one of the rival gangs informats to find out, but you’d gotten a lead on the gang that had been having issues with your father before he died.

You’d made many allies through, many of them being female led since most of the leaders here were male. You’d grown close to Jiu, who had brought you information in exchange for some drugs that you’d gotten. Along with Jiu, you’d made allies with B.A.P., who had become some of your closest friends. Yongguk, their leader, had been in the same predicament as you. His family had been murdered, the only reason he was alive was because he was at school. He once said that you reminded him of their youngest, Zelo. Zelo had been abandoned as a child and when he started to get into gangs, Yongguk had taken him in. Now Zelo was one of the best assassins that anyone could hire.

You were sat in your office when Yongguk called you.

“Y/N.” He sounded like he was out of breath. “We have a problem. One of your shipments got hit. And when we realized it was the same group who’d been hitting our weapons shipments, so we went to check it out. We were ambushed, Himchan got captured.” You heard shots come towards him again.

“Head to the safe house. I’ll meet you there with the boys.” You said as you heard him yelling for the guys. “And please don’t get fuckin shot.”

When you rolled up to the safe house, which was one of the few you had around in this area, you immediately saw Zelo peeking out of the upstairs window. Nodding at him, you enter the house. First thing you see is Jongup patching up Daehyun and Youngjae. Yongguk was at the kitchen table, laptop and papers laid out across the table.

“We’ll I’m not surprised that you can’t listen to me.” You huffed as you walked over to Jongup to look over the other 2.

“We’ll you know how chicks love scars.” Daehyun tried to laugh as he winked at you. You shook your head, told Inseong to help Jongup with those 2, and walked over to where Yongguk was sitting. You looked over him quickly, making sure that he’d gotten his wounds attended too, and peeked over his laptop.

“So what do you know?” You asked as you pulled some of the documents to read.

“It’s a small group, they’re new.” He started as he handed you the file. “I don’t know how they’ve been able to get to our shipments. We think that they have an insider.” You looked up at that.

“An insider?”

“Either that or they have intel on us. Which is also possible but we really don’t have any idea which one it is.” He sighed as he rubbed his side. “Everyone has intel on everyone, I’m sure that they have intel on us since we run the trafficking and weapons mostly.” You smiled at him and bumped shoulders. “I’m gonna look into this group, you have Dongwon get some intel on their guys. What they do and what they’re good at. I’ll have Youngjae to look into their deals, see what they’re doing with the stuff they’ve been doing that they stole.” You nodded and called Dongwon over. Heejun was outside, Jihun and Dongwon had went up stairs to check on Zelo.

“What’s up boss?”

“I need you to look into these guys.” You said quietly. “Get with Youngjae when they get back to base to get what info they know about them.” Dongwon nodded.

“Do we at least know their name, I could see what I could find out now.” You shook your head. “Not right now. We need to make sure all of our shipments are extra guarded. I don’t want any more of my shit getting stole.” Dongwon nodded again. Leaving to go outside and make a few phone calls.

“Dongwon’s on it. Just send him the info when you get back.” You patted Yongguk on the back. “I’m glad you’re okay though.” You smiled a little and pushed him into the seat. “Now stop being a stubborn bitch and let someone check your wounds.” He groaned.

“How the hell did you know?” 

“You kept rubbing your side. And you didn’t put any weight on your left shoulder when you put your arm on the table like you usually do.” You shook your head. “Jongup are you done in there?”

“Yeah. What’s up?” He asked as he poked his head around the open doorway.

“Come check on him,” You nodded your head over to Youngguk. “He’s being an idiot and hurt himself.” Jongup sighed and looked like he wanted to hit him up against the head.

“Bang Yongguk, how many times have I told you to pull your head out of your ass.” You laughed a little as you went upstairs. Finding Zelo and Jihun in the main corridor, they were both looking out over where your guards and Heejun were.

“We’re getting ready to go Hun.” You said as you pulled Zelo into a hug. “Go get the guys and meet me at the car.” You ruffled Zelo’s hair and walked downstairs with him.

“Yongguk, stay here as long as you need.” You saw Jongup pathing up a small graze on his side.

“Thanks Y/N.”

[theworldofsisi]

Overdose Scene 2

Bang YongGuk, the leader and oldest member of B.A.P, sat at the desk in the band's recording studio, editing audio for a song that the band had been working on for 1004 (Angel's) album. With headphones on and gaze glued to the screen of his computer, he didn't hear the door opening, allowing the other five members of his band to enter the studio without his knowledge. He only noticed their presence when he felt a hand on his shoulder all of the sudden, which made him jump and somehow hit the delete button on the snippet of audio he had selected.

Daehyun, realizing what he had just made him do, stared at Yongguk with wide eyes. The leader took his headphones off and turned to face Daehyun, grinning slightly. “Everything's fine. The program I use has an undo function - I can get the audio back. If I couldn't, we'd be rerecording the entire song.” he turned back to the computer and pressed a button on the keyboard. The missing audio was put back where it had been a moment before. “So, what do you need? All of you came in here but you haven't said anything. Is it that important?”

Dae nodded even though YongGuk wasn't looking at him. “ Do you remember how we checked our weights together for fun right after we debuted?”

Yong turned to look at him out of curiosity. “Yeah. Why are you bringing it up- did you want to do it again or something?"

Daehyun glanced at the other members before nodding his head once. "I think it would be interesting to see how we've changed over the past few years, especially since Junhong has grown up so much," Dae said with a small smile. It was true that their Junhongie had grown and matured over the two years since their debut. However, that wasn't the only reason that he was smiling. He had managed to slip in a true excuse to cover up the main reason for the weigh in.

“Let me finish working on the song. When I get done, we'll go to the gym next door - they should have a scale.” He put his headphones back on and began working with the audio again. The rest of the members met each other's gazes before filing out of the studio, leaving their leader to his work.

A few hours later, the members of B.A.P were standing around the scale in the local gym. No one had volunteered to go first, so DaeHyun stepped onto the scale.

“It says one hundred forty-six,” Daehyun said after a few seconds, not really caring about the number. Dae stepped off and HimChan, deciding to go ahead and it get over with, stepped onto the scale. His weight read one-hundred fifty. He stared at the number in horror as he came to the painful realization that he had gained five pounds since the last time that he had checked his weight.

“HimChan hyung, is something the matter?” JongUp asked carefully when Him didn't step off the scale.

“N-nothing.” HimChan stuttered out as he moved off of the betraying scale. “Everything is fine.”

After HimChan, YongGuk sighed realizing that it was his turn to weigh himself. He stepped onto the scale and watched the numbers change.“One-hundred twenty-three.” he muttered casually after a moment. He realized that he had lost weight since the last time that the group had done a weight check, but he found that he didn't care. He stepped off and looked at his band-mates. He was confused to see that they were all staring at him with different expressions of shock and worry on their faces. “Is something wrong?” he asked carefully, still not understanding why they were staring at him like he was broken.

“YongGuk hyung... you've lost a lot of weight since the last time we came here together,” DaeHyun answered quickly, looking anywhere but at his leader's face. “You haven't been eating either - even when going out to restaurants, you don't order anything.”

YongGuk met Dae's gaze and sighed. “I do eat. Just because you don't always see me doesn't mean that I don't - if I didn't, I'd be dead by now. And you know that I like to work out - I come here at least once a week. That's why I keep losing weight.” Yong hated lying to them, but at the same time he hoped that they believed him - he hated making them worry more.

Zelo shook his head angrily. “Not lately you haven't been. I don't remember the last time that you said that you were going to the gym, even on days that we're not practicing. And maybe you do eat, but how often is it, huh? I see you eat maybe once every three or four days, and every time it's not even a full plate. How do you explain that, YongGuk-hyung?” he took a breath and glared into his leader's eyes. “You don't want us to see it, but you're not okay. It's alright to let us see you when you're weak, because we're not going to sit back and watch you slowly kill yourself, even if you don't care if you die. We care hyung.”

YongGuk took a step back and stared at his youngest member. He had been shocked into silence and couldn't formulate a coherent thought. There was only one time before that he had ever seen Zelo so adamant, and he didn't want to relive the memory that had led up to that event.

YoungJae gently laid his hand on Yong's shoulder. “The only thing that we're asking is for you to take better care of yourself, hyung. We need you to be our leader - you're the one who holds our band together. You could always get another member, but experienced leaders are hard to find. If we lose you, B.A.P won't exist.”

Yong shook his head. “I'm fine. Whatever you all think is the matter, you're wrong.”

“Didn't you say that you were “fine” when you tried to kill yourself? We could see that you were spiraling to a bad place, but we were too afraid to say anything. By the time that we realized that we should step in, you were already too far out of reach for us to help. We nearly lost you hyung.” Zelo was pleading with him now, feeling like had stepped on sharp glass and was trying to avoid making the cut deeper.

YongGuk looked down at the floor. “You don't know anything about that, Junhong.”

“I know that it started after your grandfather died,” Zelo responded, wishing immediately after he said it that it hadn't slipped out.

Yong turned away from Zelo and walked away without another word to any of the other members. He rushed out of the gym and began walking back to the dorm. He hadn't left because he was angry. No, he had left because Zelo had him completely figured out - the maknae knew exactly when his depression had started, and that it was still affecting him to this day. He wasn't ready to face that losing his grandpa still hurt him and made him have trouble sleeping at night. He didn't want to admit that he still blamed himself for not realizing that his grandpa was sick the last time he had seen him. He couldn't deal with the fact that he hadn't come home to see him more. He had betrayed his family for his career and was now paying for it by giving a piece of himself to his depression every time it tried to bring him to his knees.

Somehow by using muscle memory, YongGuk made it safely back to the dorm, but the damage had been done. The leader locked himself in the bathroom and broke down, allowing himself to cry for the first time in months. He finally realized that trying to act strong had made him weak. Hell, maybe his band-mates were right. He was broken.

[nothing-but-kpop-dreams]

VIXX Reaction: Another famous idol flirting with their s/o despite their s/o making clear they aren’t interested (request)

N:

The audacity of this- this- this man.

Never had he ever encountered such a situation. The incident itself almost caused N spit out his drink. He couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Did he really hear Himchan ask you out right in front of him?!?

The nerve of this “fellow idol”. Himchan was very well aware of your relationship status being that he said hi to both of you as the two of you walked in together, your arm wrapped around his.

N’s first instinct was to shove Himchan nto the table of finger foods behind him. Sadly, he couldn't, there were too many eyes watching.

Immediately N’s gaze went over to you. Your face was blank. It was almost as if you didn’t hear what Himchan asked.

“So how about we go out some time?” himchan repeated himself, using a chuckle to hide his embarrassment over having to ask again.

“Oh you were serious? No.” you said bluntly.

N watched with a smile as Himchan’s head swung back. It was as if he never heard the word “no” before. “Um, excuse me?” Himchan carried a tone as if he were offended.

“You heard the lady.” the words fell out of N’s mouth so fast and he was quick to stand between you and Himchan. It was too late to stop himself now. “She said no!” he said with a taunting tone.

“Babe, you take me home?” you asked from behind N.

N couldn’t hold back the smile that grew on his face as he glared at Himchan. “As you wish.” he replied grabbing your hand and leading you out the ballroom.

Ravi:

Even with the crowd of people surrounding them, it was obvious to tell what was going on. It hadn't even been ten seconds into leaving you alone and someone already hovered over you. He could read RM like a book. The way he smiled and stood over you like a vulture, the guy was obviously trying to make a move on you.

“Here we go again.” he thought to himself as he made his way over to the two of you.

He was used to it all by now. Guys, even girls, constantly gaucked at you, some having the confidence to try and ask you out. He understood though, you were hot. Sure it was hard to deal with at first, everyone eyes always on you (even though he was supposed to be the famous kpop idol) but hey, it wasn’t your fault. Besides, you were the one he could call his. No one else could say that.

“Here you go.” he said casually as he now stood besides you and handed you your drink. He could feel RM’s piercing side stare. It was liked he considered him to be competition.

“Thanks!” you smiled a smile of relief. He knew you were glad that he was back and he could be a distraction from the awkward.

“What’s up Namjoon?” he asked. He did his best to play everything cool. There was no point in getting jealous over anything. He trusted you and your relationship so there was nothing to be worried about.

Suddenly RM’s vibe changed. He was no longer so predatory over you and switched to his camera ready persona. “Oh hey! So you and Y/n know each other?”

“Uh, yeah, for a while now.” he said vaguely.

“Yeah, we’ve been dating like, what? Six months now?”

You brought up that fact so smoothly. It was hard for him to not crack a smile.

Rm’s face fell. “Dating? You guys are dating?”

“Yeah.” the two of you said in unison as Ravi’s hand slid protectively around your waist.

“Oh… that’s cool… Well… I  gotta get back to my group now. I think Jin is waving me over. See you later Wonshik.”

Rm walked away so fast, Ravi didn’t even get a chance to say bye back.

“...So what did I miss this time?”

You just shrugged. “He was trying to asking me out to lunch.”

“Oooooof course he was.”

“Hey don't be getting jealous now.” you said, wrapping your arms around him.

“I’m not… but now that your plans seems to be free, how about we go out to lunch tomorrow?” he joked.

Leo:

“Taekwoon!” You said in a warning tone.

He had yet to let go of you. No matter how much you asked him to stop, he continued to drag you our the party and back to the car without a word.

This behavior didn't surprise you. He tended to pull this childlike tantrum whenever he wasn't happy about something. The thing that was making you mad was the fact that you didn't know what he was upset about. You've already had a “conversation” with him over these outburst of his, but apparently he still wasn't keeping to his promise of taking everything out first.

“Taekwoon, talk to me!” You demanded, planting your heels into the ground and refusing to take another step.

Finally he stopped, letting your hand fall out of his as he stood still like a statue in his spot.

“Why did you drag me out of the party this time? I was literally in the middle of talking to Mino when you dragged me out!”

He said nothing. Instead he looked down at his shoes,playing with a loose pedal.

“Taekwoon, just talk to me! Why is it so hard for you to just say something!”

He let out a sigh of frustration before he decided to finally use his words. “... He was flirting with you.” He mumbled.

“What?”

“I said he was flirting with you! And right in front of me! And you kept going along with it!”

“He wasn’t flirting!”

“Oh yes he was! I know how idols flirt and what he was doing was flirting!” His voice had grown harsher in tone now.

It was time to tone thung down. “Babe,” you said softly. “If he was flirting, i genuinely did not know he was.”

Again he was quiet.

“How many times do i have to tell you that, if you are upset about something, you need to tell me about it? I get that you were probably upset about this, but you could have excused us and told me what you noticed.”

“You’re right… I’m sorry.” he said, going up to you and giving you a hug.

You were reluctant to give him one, but you did so anyway. You didn’t get to see him alot and there was no point in using this time fighting with him.

“Do you want to go back to the party?” his voice was soft, still filled with shame.

“Nah I’m kind of tired, we can go back home and watch a movie there or something.

Ken:

Considering how BTS blew up, Ken appriciated the times that he bumped into Jin. It was hard enough hanging out between schedules, so it was cool that BTS attended the MAMA after party as well. On top of that, Ken was able to sneak you in to the party. What a lucky man he was, his good friend and his girlfriend at the same event.

“So where’s this amazing girlfriend of yours. I’ve been dying to find out who you are this crazy over.” Jin said.

“I think she is sitting back at our table. Come with me.”

The two of them walked around the dance floor and over to VIXX’s table where you were waiting for him.

“She’s right there, in the red dress.” he poitned out.

“Wow! She’s pretty! Seems like Jimin thinks so too.” Jin laughed.

Just then, Ken saw as Jimin sat down next to you already chatting up a storm.

At the sight, Ken was by your side in the blink of an eye. “Hi babe.” he said obnoxiously, wrapping his arm around you for Jimin to see. “Oh hi Jimin!” he said with a fake smile. "I didn't see you there.”

“Hey Ken.” Jimin said, suddenly so quiet in his prescence.

“I see you met my girlfriend!” Ken soncitnued. “Babe, this is jimin, but I figured no inteorodcution is needed. Jimin, this is my girlfriend, y/n.”

“So she’s your girlfriend I assume?” jimin asled sarcastically.

“Yes! Thanks for noticing? What gave it away?”

Jimin only rolled his eyes, so used to how Ken can be. “Hey you hear that song? It’s my favortire Im’ gonnag  dance. Nice meeting you Y/n. see you later Ken.” Jimin said as he walked away.

Hongbin:

It was an honest mistake, it had to be, anyone could have done it. In this case is just so happened to be the one and only Gdragon, but hey, no one is perfect.

It’s not like you and Hongbin dated that long. Two months wasnt too big of a deal. Besides the two of you weren't even public yet. Which was why you came into the party as a plus one with one of the stylists and not as his date.

But now here hongbin was, watching you in a room full of idols being hit on by one of the most famous in the history of kpop…

“I don't know whether to be offended or honored.” he thought to himself. Sure he was pretty upset about it, but if the number one person on Earth was after his girlfreind,well, that meant Hongbin was the luckiest person on this world for getting to be with you.

Regardless if who was hitting on you, were still his and he intended on keep it that way. Very hesitantly did he get his feet to move in your direction. The closer got, the better he could hear the words beign said between the two of you.

“So, hgow about you come over sometime?” THe look in Gdragon's eyes was so seductive, even Hongbin was falling for him.

You however, stood like a soldier. You're body was tense and unmoving. “Well, um, I don’t know…”

“Aw, why not?” he asked with a sly smile as his finger went to move a lock ofy our hair out of your eyes.

“Um hi! Excuse me.” Hongbin’s voice interpuprted.

Gdragonns unamused eyes fell on him , and Hongbin’s blood ran cold. “Yes?” he was asked in a dark tone.

Immediately he began to laugh nerviously. “Hi again- didnt- I mean- I wasn;t tryto to interupt you Mr.dragon, sir, but I just… I just thought I’d- uh- steal my girlfriend  for a dance.” he mumbled.

“Oh… girlfrined?” gdragon went back to having his eyes on you. “I see someone else got their hands on you before I could. Aren't you a lucky one Hongbin? Well, I’ll let you two be. But y/n, if things dont work out, give me a call.” he winked before walking away.

The two of you stood in silnce for a moment.

“I can't believe that happened.” he said, breaking the silence. “Gdragon knows my name!”

Hyuk:

It was the annual company christmas party. It was a celebration of the year’s achievements where every employee of the company and their plus ones partied the night away in a fancy hotel ballroom.This year was the first year that Hyuk actually had a date to bring… well not exactly…

The whole relationship things was a secret, even to the rest of VIXX. As far as everyone else knew, you were just an old friend he invited. It was, you know, the good ole company rules that kept him from telling everyone, plus it had only been like two weeks of dating. He just didn't want to jinx everything by telling everyone about the two of you right away.

For this special night, the two of you went the whole nine yards. You came in seperate cars, walked in at different times, maintained a three foot radius and got through most of the night passing glances and smiles at each other from across the table.

Things were great until a certain idol by the stage name L thought he’d flirt with right within earshot of hyuk. Seems like the famous plus one was also fond of how you looked in your party dress. HYuk was forced to watch in disgust as compliment upon compliment spilled out of L’s mouth. It was hard to to show how bothered he was. He wanted nothing more than to walk up to him and tell him to back off already. But he bit his tongue and kept his cool in front of his bandmates.

Thankfully for him though, you showed no interest in the handsome idol/ A smile spread on hyuk’s face when you interrupted L mid- sentence. and said “Sorry, uh, I have a boyfriend.”

-Admin Boat

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best absolute puppies  ⟷  werewolf pack AU verse

6. blood in the snow

pairing: ot6 (yongguk focus) words: 3240 warnings: blood/gore, violence, injuries 

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Yongguk is in his room when he hears it; the howl.

It's Daehyun. He'd recognize those high notes anywhere. Only this time, it doesn't sound right. Where Daehyun's howl usually lasts for a long time, holding that beautiful note for as long as possible, this is rushed and shaky. The raw sound of it sends a shiver down Yongguk's spine, his heart sinking like a stone in his chest. The attic room suddenly seems colder than usual, making the small hairs on the back of his neck stand and his skin prickle.

He's rushing down the stairs before he's barely aware of getting up, pulling his shirt over his head and tossing it somewhere on the second floor. Youngjae comes out of his bedroom, already chucking his own shirt. Yongguk can hear the delta's heart pound just as fast as his own, the stench of their conjoined fear thick in the air.

"Stay here," Yongguk breathes out, already halfway down the next set of stairs, not having stopped.

"Hyung—" Youngjae says, voice unsteady.

Junhong is in the living room downstairs, standing in the middle of the room and meeting Yongguk's gaze with wide, terrified eyes. The omega's fingers are clenching the hem of his sweater.

"No," Yongguk says, still talking to Youngjae who's following him down. He stops in front of the door, ripping both socks off his feet.

"He's calling for help," Youngjae points out, as if that much wasn't obvious.

"Stay here, or I'll have to worry about you too," Yongguk growls, before lowering himself to the ground.

It's winter, but the cold only hits his naked skin for a second before he transforms, black fur sprouting all over his body. He runs, heart racing, heading in the direction Daehyun's call had come from. Their scents are all over these woods, as are their paw prints in the snow. Yongguk tries to pick up a trail. The forest is dead silent now, no birds singing in the trees.

Eventually, the distant sound of fighting reaches his ears.

He can hear wolves snarling, jaws being snapped shut, bodies colliding. How many? Yongguk asks himself, running as fast as he can towards his pack. What if they're too many for us? He regrets leaving Youngjae and Junhong at the house. While he hadn't wanted to lead them into danger, it might've been more dangerous leaving them behind. What if someone attacks the house?

It's been a long time since they had other wolves on their territory. They pick up unknown scents along the border sometimes — stragglers who've wandered into the area before turning back once picking up the alpha's scent. Yongguk hasn't stood face to face with another alpha in years, and he hopes to keep it that way.

Yongguk finally picks up on his members' scents. Daehyun, Jongup, Himchan. He smells blood, too. There are at least two other wolves with them, their scents pungent and unfamiliar. Yongguk bares his teeth already, a deep growl traveling up his throat.

First thing he sees is Himchan's body on the ground.

The snow is splattered with red, just like the white wolf's pelt. He's alive, turning his head towards Yongguk when he reaches the small clearing, but he's badly hurt. Yongguk feels cold dread settle in his stomach, seeing the exhaustion in Himchan's eyes.

Jongup and Daehyun are trying to fight off three wolves nearby, clearly trying to keep them off the injured beta. Snow and dirt is flying around them, the loud growling echoing between the trees. The stranger wolves are bigger than Daehyun and Jongup, but not as big as Yongguk and Himchan. They must've attacked Himchan first, wanting the biggest threat out of the way.

Yongguk can sense his members' relief, as well as their fear. He snarls, earning the attention of the three intruders. Daehyun is limping, his muzzle covered in blood. Yongguk lets a deep, threatening growl build in his chest before releasing it and lunging at one of the attackers.

His teeth snap shut inches away from the wolf's jugular, making it shriek in alarm. The other two are immediately on Yongguk, seeking retaliation, although he can sense how intimidated they are by his size. Jongup and Daehyun join in again, doing their best to keep the two wolves off their alpha.

Yongguk feels the burn of teeth and claw digging into his skin, but ignores the pain best he can as he goes in for another attack. The wolf who'd barely escaped his bite last time has its ears laid back, tail between its legs. It's snarling, baring its red gums and teeth, but Yongguk can smell its fear.

There was a time when Yongguk would have cared if the wolf was another shifter or not. But that's Himchan's blood around its mouth, no matter which it is. Yongguk no longer cares what is threatening his pack. The fact that they're not safe is all that matters. They've all been burned too many times.

Again, Yongguk goes for the wolf's throat, and he doesn't miss this time. His jaws close around the wolf's neck, the taste of blood filling his mouth as his teeth tear through the flesh and muscle. The wolf howls in pain, helplessly struggling to get free. It's paws claw frantically at the ground, dark blood dripping into the snow. Yongguk's heart is pounding, the adrenaline hot in his veins.

There's a part of him that doesn't want to let go, that wants him to give in to the bloodlust and be the predator he's meant to be. Something wicked and dangerous is brewing inside him, reminding him of the same feeling of rightness he feels when he's out running with the pack, or when they howl together. When they're giving in to their instincts.

But in the end, he does let go. The wolf falls to the ground, panting and whimpering. Fear is thick in the chilly air, and Yongguk can sense the hesitation from the other two wolves still fighting Daehyun and Jongup as they see Yongguk stand over their fallen comrade.

A howl is heard, coming through the trees, and all wolves pause. It's Youngjae and Junhong, sounding strong and confident, and Yongguk answers them. Wants the intruders to know that their pack is bigger, that there's more help coming. That this is their territory, and that they'll defend it.

The intruders are starting to back up, clearly scared off by how big the pack they'd attacked really is. The injured wolf is struggling to get to its feet, whining from pain as well as defeat. As soon as Junhong and Youngjae appears, standing next to Yongguk and baring their teeth, the wolves retreat. A trail of blood follows them as they disappear into the trees.

Yongguk looks to his pack, letting his gratitude and relief show that Junhong and Youngjae followed him. He looks to Himchan, the white wolf pushing himself up as if to answer the question Yongguk couldn't ask: he can stand. His wounds look ugly, but Yongguk decides they'll heal. They have to.

He growls lowly, gesturing in the direction of the house with his head. Take him back. His pack members make agreeing noises. Then he locks eyes with Junhong, the young wolf who's finally grown into his long legs, and huffs before following the trail of blood. Junhong follows.

They chase the wolves at a distance, all the way out to the border. Yongguk howls after them, cruel and threatening, and Junhong joins in. Yongguk looks to him once they've stopped, and Junhong broadcasts  nothing but relief. The only blood on him is what he got on his legs after running the trail. Yongguk rumbles lowly, stepping up to nudge the young wolf's head with his own. Thankful that his youngest is unharmed. The omega nuzzles the alpha's neck briefly in response, smelling happy.

~

It's dark when they return to the house. Yongguk had been worried the others wouldn't have made it back, that he'd find Himchan lying in the snow somewhere, but they're all there. Yongguk can hear the beating of their hearts within the house, and as always it makes his chest feels warm.

Youngjae is in the kitchen, smelling antsy, and he jumps up as soon as Yongguk and Junhong come through the door. He offers them a weak smile, and Yongguk knows what it means. He's glad they're back, but sad about what they're coming home to.

"Himchan's in his room. We cleaned his wounds, stitched him together best we could. He might be sleeping," Youngjae adds, probably sensing that Yongguk wants to go see him immediately. "Just… Maybe let him rest, hyung."

There's both blood and dirt smeared over the floorboards. Yongguk's sweatpants are lying where he left them by the door next to his socks.

"What about Jonguppie?" Junhong asks, who's already changed back and is putting his own clothes back on in the living room. "And Daehyun-hyung?"

"They're alright," Youngjae assures them, though unhappily. "They're all upstairs. I just— I wanted to wait for you guys."

Yongguk hums deep in his chest, feeling for Youngjae.

Junhong is already darting up the stairs, and Yongguk lets himself transform back into his human skin. He slips into his sweats before turning back to Youngjae who'd looked away momentarily. Something flickers across Youngjae's face once their eyes lock again. Yongguk can see his Adam's apple bob as he swallows.

"You should probably clean up, hyung," he offers quietly.

He's right. When Yongguk steps into the bathroom and looks in the mirror, he's almost stunned by his gruesome reflection. He's got caked blood smeared across his mouth and down his chin. It's under his nails, between his teeth. He's got some scratches on his skin, but they're not a concern. The teeth marks on his arm have already stopped bleeding.

It takes some scrubbing for the blood to come off. Yongguk brushes his teeth twice, desperately trying to get that blood taste out of his mouth. He feels dirty even when he's clean, feeling strange and sad about having brought anything but the usual dirt into the house. He remembers feeling the wolf's pulse against his own tongue when he'd held its throat between his jaws.

Jongup's door is ajar when Yongguk comes back out, his and Junhong's voices quiet from inside. Yongguk comes to stop in the doorway, peeking inside. They sense him, of course, and look up from where they're sitting on Jongup's bed. Jongup smiles at him, and Yongguk takes in the scratches covering him and the bandage on his arm.

"I'm fine, hyung," he says softly.

Yongguk doesn't know what to say, because it's like it wasn't real until now. Until seeing the marks they left on Jongup's human skin. He feels sick, knowing it all could've gone differently. If Daehyun hadn't called for help, if Yongguk hadn't heard it. Jongup wouldn’t have gotten off so easily.

"Come here," Yongguk sighs, torn between relieved and heartbroken. Jongup stands from the bed and then Yongguk is there, pulling him against his chest. Carefully, Jongup hugs him back.

"We should've gotten you as soon as we picked up their trail," Jongup mumbles. "I'm sorry, hyung. I know we should have. But then they were on us, and they just— I thought about running to get you," Jongup whispers, his breath hot against Yongguk's collarbone. "I'm fast, I could've made it. But I couldn't leave Himchan—"

"Shh, Jongup-ah," Yongguk hushes him softly, cupping the back of his head. There's still some dirt in his hair. "You did good. I'm just glad you're okay."

Jongup exhales, shoulders slumping as he nods into the alpha's chest.

Yongguk meets Junhong's eyes who's still sitting on the bed, and there's so much emotion in his eyes it makes a lump form in Yongguk's throat. They are the youngest of the pack, and Yongguk always worries about them the most. Worries if he's doing right by them. All he ever wanted for them was to feel safe here. To not be afraid to live.

Daehyun and Youngjae are standing in the doorway when Yongguk and Jongup pull apart, Youngjae with one arm wrapped around Daehyun's waist, supporting him. He'd been limping back in the forest, and Yongguk notices his ankle is badly hurt. But what breaks his heart the most, is Daehyun's face.

Yongguk swallows, stepping up to stand in front of him. Carefully, he reached up to touch Daehyun's cheek ridden with cuts and scratches. In his wolf form, Yongguk had only seen blood covering his muzzle, and now he tentatively touches the horrible cut from the corner of Daehyun's mouth. His bottom lip is split open, several other cuts running down his chin. It's gonna take a long time for him to heal enough so that humans won't ask questions.

Daehyun's eyes are glazed over once Yongguk's gaze meets his. And it makes Yongguk's heart ache, knowing how Daehyun will avoid mirrors for a time. How his self-esteem was already low to begin with, without this. Without those animals laying a hand on him.

"You did good," Yongguk whispers, still cupping Daehyun's face. "You did so good, Daehyun-ah. Wouldn't have found them without you. Himchan wouldn't have made it home."

Daehyun closes his eyes, tears trailing down his cheeks. The cut on his lip is still bleeding. Yongguk wants to punch something. Wants to rewind time and give in to the bloodlust. Wants to avenge this.

"Thank you," Daehyun whispers after a while, their heads bowed together so close their foreheads are nearly touching. "For… finding us. For a moment… I thought you wouldn't."

Yongguk shakes his head, exhaling shakily. He imagines what it may have been like for the younger two, after Himchan went down. When it was just Daehyun and Jongup against the three attackers. When they didn't know if anyone heard their call for help, if they would make it.

"I'll always find you," Yongguk promises.

~

When Himchan comes to, hours later, Yongguk is in his bedroom.

It's dark, and the beta's eyes probably haven't adjusted yet, but Yongguk knows Himchan can smell him. There's some grunts and shuffling around, until Himchan eventually sighs and goes still.

"Since you're here, why don't you make yourself useful."

His voice is strained despite his cheeriness. Yongguk abandons the chair in the corner and comes to sit on the edge of the bed, careful not to bump against any of Himchan's limbs under the blankets.

"What do you need?"

"Help me sit up, will you?" Himchan pleads, sounding annoyed more than anything.

Yongguk helps him prop up enough pillows so he can lean back against the headboard comfortably. The others have done a good job patching him up, though some bandages are gonna need to be changed soon. His skin is hot to the touch, body working in overtime to heal him. Once he's settled, Himchan lets out a heavy sigh.

"Better," he says.

"How bad is it?" Yongguk asks, wanting to know. And  he can't help from making his voice stern, because he knows Himchan is gonna try to sugarcoat it. He can't see anything but scratches and covered wounds, the smell of caked blood still thick in the room, but he can't decide how serious is it.

Thankfully, Himchan doesn't seem to be in the mood for hiding things.

"Lost a lot of blood," he admits, holding Yongguk's gaze. "Still feeling a bit lightheaded. But it's fine, the kids did good. Stopped the bleeding."

Himchan looks down, pulling the blanket aside to reveal the big bandage around his middle.

"Ribs hurt. Don't think they're broken, but they're something. And this is useless," he mutters, waving his left arm. Yongguk hadn't thought about it before, but he'd barely used it when shuffling around earlier. "I'll heal," he says, probably when seeing the alarm on Yongguk's face.

Yongguk's eyes return to Himchan's face, seeing the hint of a smile there. They're close, Yongguk sitting fully on top of the mattress next to him now. Everything smells of dried blood and rubber alcohol and pain and wrong.

"I'm sorry," Yongguk says after a moment's silence. It's what he's wanted to say since it happened. "I'm sorry I didn't get there sooner. That I didn't know."

"You're not psychic, Bbang," Himchan sighs. "How could you have known they were there?"

"I should have," Yongguk insists. "Somehow."

Himchan snorts, shaking his head. But it's fond, and then he's reaching for Yongguk with his good hand. Their fingers brush on top of the sheets, before Yongguk fully takes Himchan's hand and intertwine their fingers as hard as he dares.

"You came," Himchan murmurs. "That's what matters. We survived it."

Yongguk purses his lips, nodding slowly.

"Did you check on Daehyunnie?" Himchan asks after a moment's silence.

Yongguk's heart sinks at the reminder, and he knows Himchan can tell exactly what he's feeling.

"They would've ended me, if not for him," Himchan says quietly. "He threw himself at their claws, kept them off me." He pauses, visibly disturbed by his own memories. "They tried to silence him, when he called for help. Went for his throat."

"He'll be okay," Yongguk finds himself saying, even though he needs to hear it himself. Suddenly his hands are itching to go find Daehyun again, make sure he's really okay. Check all his wounds.

"Yeah," Himchan agrees.

Some more time passes. Yongguk listens to the steady sound of the six heartbeats close by. Himchan runs his thumb back and forth over Yongguk's knuckles.

"You know I'd never kick you out of my bed," Himchan hums after a while, "but I'm afraid I'll have to."

Yongguk allows himself to scoff.

"I'd bring the whole pack in here to sleep if I wasn't so worried about us hurting you," he says honestly.

Himchan smiles, weak but real.

"Stop punishing yourself and get some rest, Bbang," he tells him. "We're okay."

Yongguk nods, squeezing Himchan's hand once before letting go.

Back in the hallway outside, Yongguk stops to listen to his pack sleeping. Breathing. The thought of going upstairs to his own bed feels wrong and dangerous, the wolf in him not wanting to leave his pack even for sleep.

So he doesn't.

He transforms again, parking his big wolf body in the middle of the hallway, facing the stairs. Nothing would touch his members before getting past him first. Yongguk rests his head on top of his front paws, fighting to keep his eyes open for a bit, until he finally gives in to sleep.

~

It's still hours till dawn when he jerks awake again.

Youngjae is there, sitting down on the floor next to him. He carefully puts one hand between the wolf's shoulder blades, fingers carding through the fur.

"Couldn't sleep," he whispers, rubbing at his face with his sleeve with his free hand. "Heard you."

Yongguk rumbles in response, shifting his body to press more against Youngjae's side. Youngjae notices, and smiles. Yongguk wishes they'd spoken more, before. He's too worn-out to change back and use human words now. But he knows the others understand that about him. Youngjae smells content to be here with him like this. He gets comfortable leaning against the wolf's side, sighing softly when finally resting his head on Yongguk's shoulder.

"It'll all feel better tomorrow," he mumbles.

Yongguk can't tell whether it's for himself, or for Yongguk. But he hums in agreement nonetheless.

They're okay.