#hid my face cuz im paranoid

[zan-77]

So ummm.... *taps mic* I've finished college! ::3

My thesis project has been approved and technically speaking I'm already a bachelor of fine arts hihi

It's been fun learning and growing, and god this was so much but I managed, and now is the end of one cycle n the beginning of many others ::>

I can finally have free time to do all the shit i wanna do lmao

[spinster-sisters]

Asshole. CS

TW: Dom! san, Sub! reader, Pillow humping, stepping, generally very derogatory and lowkey rude, possessiveness. Im gonna put this here cuz i dont know where else to but this is not an example of a healthy relationship, no it is toxic or abusive, it is implied that they are just two very different people who shouldnt be together.

Your relationship with San wasn't a good one. From the moment you two got together you have been arguing about every little thing, and while the good moments were absolutely perfect the bad was far worse. Many of your friends were surprised you were still together. But despite all the fighting and miscommunications, San was still the only man you could look at, and that was infuriating.

Honestly, the two of you had tried to break up multiple times, but each period wouldn't last more than a week, because nobody else knew you like the other. So inevitably you would find your way back to each other.

Tonight was one of the bad nights. Your mutual friend Yunho was throwing a huge party at his apartment. The trouble had started before you even arrived. The plan was to get ready at San's place at ride over together, but at the last moment, you had decided to get ready at your own home, simply because San always rushed you. You figured that this way he could leave whenever he was ready and so could you. However, San did not see it that way.

You had just stood up from your vanity, having just finished applying your makeup, but a text alert brought you back down to sit.

"Your impossible" was all it said. This made you scoff. It was from your boyfriend. San had always told you that you were too indecisive and flaky, that he never knew what you wanted and it made it impossible to please you. It was probably true, but he was not without faults himself so you still found it annoying.

You chose to leave him on read before making your way over to the party. You were still simmering with annoyance over his attitude while you drove. Eventually, you landed at Yunho's building. You don't know exactly how your friend was able to afford the place as it was pretty big for only him and his roommate, but it certainly allowed for fun gatherings.

You were buzzed up and not too long after you were at Yuhno's door. Only seconds after knocking, you could hear the music and talk from outside, the door swung open to reveal the tall man.

"Hey!" Yunho cried, pulling you in by your arm. Yunho rarely drank more than one or two beers at his party so he could keep everyone in line, so it wasn't a surprise when you found him still completely sober.

"I almost thought you weren't going to make it!" The tall man spoke swinging and arm over your shoulder for a side hug. You smiled into it.

"Yeah sorry, I was running a bit behind," was all you said.

"When San showed up without you I thought you had canceled," your friend spoke while pulling away from the hug.

"Yeah, well plans change" you replied. You had thought you hid the contempt well enough but Yunho knew you too well. He gave you a questioning look but you changed the subject.

"Where is he anyway? You asked. Yunho only pointed into the living room. Your mood only darkened. There were tons of people but you could still see your boyfriend clear as day sitting on the couch with at least three girls hanging off of him. This was one of your problems with San. No, he had never cheated on you, if they tried to kiss him he would push them away, if they made a suggestive comment he would brush them off, but of they flirted with him? He ate that shit up. He said that it shouldn't matter because at the end of the day your the one who gets to fuck him, but the fact he would just sit there and let them feed his ego was pissy as all hell.

You frowned deeply, not even trying to hide this one, and turned the opposite direction into the kitchen for a drink. You could feel the judgment coming of Yunho in waves, but he said nothing. When you reached the kitchen you found the first bottle of whatever and poured yourself a tall glass of whatever. You weren't about to let your boyfriend ruin your night, even after he ruined your mood. So you opted to ignore him all night.

It had been a while. After you finished your drink and allowed it to take effect you moved back into the pandemonium that was the living room. Here was the source of the music and the majority of the talking. You danced lazily to the music, not paying any attention to anyone just allowing yourself to unwind. The pounding base felt nice in your head and along with the buzz of the alcohol you were more than content.

Soon an arm slipped around your shoulders again. This time it was Mingi. Yunho's roommate. You weren't as close to him as Yunho but you could easily call him a friend.

"What's up?" You called over the music, stepping out of the dancing bodies to talk.

"Just coming to say hi, where's san?" He asked taking a little look around.

"Don't know don't care" you replied leaning against the wall. Mingi laughed a little.

"You two at it again?" He questioned with a quirk of the brow. You returned the laugh.

"Call it whatever you want, I don't want to talk to him tonight," Mingi sighed with a smile.

"You two are impossible," Mingi walked away after finishing his comment but his choice of words soured your mood again. You dared to look around for San. Once you found him it made it worse.

It seems like two of the girls had lost hope because the last one remaining was laying it on thick. She was sitting so close their legs were pressed together and her hand was dragging up and down his arm.

You scoffed and turned away before a thought hit you. If he was able to entertain other people then why can't you? With that idea in mind, you set out to find a cute boy to mess with.

It wasn't hard, within minutes of putting yourself out there a guy who clearly wasn't close enough with anyone here to know your situation had approached you in the hallway on your way to fill up your drink.

You both stood in the hallway against the wall for a bit, he was hopelessly eager so flirting with him was a breeze. Slowly you made your way into the living room once again and made yourself comfy with the new boy. No, you weren't as obvious as the girl hanging off your boyfriend, you were too good for that, but it was clearly enough to have him hanging on your every word. At some point, you glanced up and made eye contact with Yunho who only threw you a curious look but you only winked at went back to your nameless boy.

You spoke for a bit longer, playing into him as much as possible as he showered you with compliments. You were happily basking in the praise when a sudden presence made itself know in front of you. You turned, and low and behold, it was San.

His perfect features were screwed into a glare fixated on both you and the boy. You almost let your giggle show when you look behind his perfectly shaped body to see the girl he had been entertaining looking lost and confused exactly where he left her on the couch.

Your satisfied smirk must have shown on your face however because soon your boyfriend's cold fingers wrapped around your chin hold your chin up to face him. He crouched down so you two were eye level.

"You think this is funny?" He asked in a dangerous tone. He only used this voice when he meant business but tonight you were standing your ground.

"Very funny," you replied, managing to hold your smirk even with his hand clamped on your cheeks.

"What the fuck man? Let her go," the boy finial voiced only after recovering from the shock of the scene before him. He reached out to pull Sans hand away before you stopped him.

"You can leave now," you said, not looking away from San. (not like you could) but still very clearly talking to the boy. You could hear the confusion in the silence. Before he spoke again.

"Wait what?" He asked stupidly.

"You can go, I'm done with you for now," you spoke.

"Wait this is crazy what are you-"

This time San in all his severe and intimidating glory turned to the boy and cut him off.

"Hey dick head, I think my girlfriend told you to leave us alone." He spoke with an edge. Having finally got the message the boy got up and left. And San's piercing gaze returned to you again, his hand finally dropping to let his forearm resting on his knee.

"So I'm your girlfriend now?" You asked with contempt. Crossing your arms, and swinging one leg over the other.

"Oh shut up" San replied scoffing.

"I'm just wondering if you told those girls that, that you have a girlfriend. Or maybe it's that you did but they just didn't care because clearly, you enjoyed all the attention they were giving you" the words rattled out of you in quick succession.

"Clearly you're broken up about it. Throwing yourself at any guy who will give you the time of day," he spits back, "if I remember correctly you were the one who didn't want to come together as a couple," he reminded in a scathing tone.

"Only because you are a controlling asshole," you spat back equally as resentful.

"And you're a paranoid drama queen I guess we all have our problems." He shot back. Eyes narrowing even more.

"Well maybe if you have such a problem with it I should go find that guy and fuck him. If I am so annoying then how about I go be someone else's problem!" you almost screamed at him beath heaving slightly when you finished. San stared at you unreadable for a moment.

He stood abruptly, taking you roughly by the arm and pulling you to your feet. He wordlessly dragged you through the crowd.

"San what the fuck let go!" You tried to pull free but failed. Moments later san had dragged you into Yunho's room and slammed it shut before locking it. Your boyfriend turned to you with eyes darker than you had ever seen.

"Never fucking say that again." He spoke dangerously calm. He took two quick steps twords you before slamming his lips onto yours. You reacted quickly, returning the kiss with as much anger as you could. Yeah, you wanted him to fuck you, but you weren't about to let him forget how pissed off you were.

In moments your dress had been pulled over your head and you were pushed onto the bed and Sans body trapped you there. He reconnected your lips. Your kiss was anything but sweet, your teeth were clacking and your lips were swollen. San pulled back once or twice to bite at your bottom lip and pull before it snapped back into place. His hand wound its way into the roots of your hair and yanked.

With your head now pulled away and a dull ache radiated out from your head you groaned and rolled your hips into his feeling him harden through your underwear.

"Your such a needy slut." he spoke with venom while nipping and sucking at your neck, determined to leave as many visible marks as possible.

"Like you aren't?" You scoffed running your nails down his forearms, leaving your own mark on him.

"Shut the fuck up. Do I need to remind you whos in charge here?" He punctuated this with a particularly hard bite on your shoulder. You winced.

"No, I can tell there's no need. I just need to remind you whos slut you are don't I?" He asked in a patronizing tone. "Because your all mine baby, and I am not going to let you forget it."

In a moment he flipped your bodies over and pushed you off him to stand on your own feet in front of where he sat on the bed. You stumbled a little in the process and had to brace yourself on his shoulders. He looked at you unimpressed.

Your arms crossed and your brow furrowed.

"Strip" he commanded easily. You were only in your bra and panties but clearly this was too much for his fully clothed self. You glared.

"You first," you said indignantly. After a beat and a long stare San's hand shot out and clenched your ass hard. You couldn't help the yelp that escaped you.

"Unless you want me to spank you so hard your ass turns purple you should start undressing." He let go of you.

You knew he would keep to that promise so you slowly began to unhook your bra.

"Don't keep me waiting" he spoke in a warning.

You pulled the garment off your shoulders and slid your panties down.

"Finally you learned how to behave" he spoke with indignation. You humpfted unhappily.

"Does my slut, want me to touch her?"

"I think that much is clear," you mumbled.

"Speak up," he demanded.

"Yes!" You groaned. He glared at you for a moment.

"I don't think you deserve it," he replied. Instead, he reached behind himself and grabbed one of Yunho's pillows, and tossed it at your feet.

"You want to get off? Use that." Your stomach filled with dread.

"There is no way I'm doing that," you said, trying to convince yourself as much as him.

"Then I guess your not cumming tonight" he spoke flatly, staring you down. You stared at him in disbelief.

"Go on," he insisted. You felt your resolve slip as the ache in your core grew. Slowly but surely you knelt down and straddled the pillow. In the moments you sat down you were already dreading this. It was far too soft and smooth to gain any kind of fiction without some serious work. You already felt humiliated without having done anything yet.

"Look at me," San directed from the bed. Your pink face turned to look at him. He looked damn good as always, practically glowing in the bedroom haze. You couldn't help but clench the plush between your thighs. One more expectant look from San made you move.

After the first drag of your pussy against the pillow you almost cried at the lack of sensation. It was unfair how little feeling you got from it. But in San's eyes, you could see that that was exactly what he was looking for, the desperation.

You began moving your hips again. You were rutting your pussy against the pillow as fast as you could chasing the tiny bit of relief that came each time. You were already panting from all the work, grunting each time your clit dragged against the too soft fabric.

Slowly the pleasure was starting to build and you could feel the wetness pouring out of you dampening the cushion bellow you. Now that it was wet the material was a bit rougher so you got a little more of the friction you desired. Your eyes meet your boyfriend's dark gaze.

"Not so big now are you? Humping a pillow just because I told you to. Acting like my good little slut. Whose slut are you?" The filth spewed out of Sans mouth leaving you breathless, you were hesitant to admit defeat so you stayed silent. After a beat, Sans boot lifted from where it was planted on the carpet and dug into your thigh dangerously close to your sopping pussy. You whined as he stilled your movements. He pushed you down by your thigh keeping you immobilized on the pillow.

"I said, who's slut are you?" He asked in the sickest sweetest voice, leaning down slightly forcing the eye contact you wanted to break. When his boot dug even harder into you, stinging in the process you finally felt your resolve crumble.

"I'm your slut," you said barely above a whisper.

"Didn't quite catch that babe," he encouraged.

"I'm your slut," the words came out much more forceful this time to the point you almost shouted it. As soon as they were out of your mouth you burned in shame, looking away from the growing smirk on his face.

"All mine," the words slipped out almost absentmindedly. He reached out at cupped your burning cheeks and titled your head up.

"Come here baby,"

You obeyed him eagerly. Your hips ached a bit from the exertion but you stood perfectly still and waiting in front of him. San eyed your body up and down, reaching out to feel up every inch of you. He took special care to play with your thighs, messaging them in his strong hands for a moment. You keened happily in his touch, letting him play with you however he wanted. It helped some to ease the burn but that wasn't his goal. His hand slipped between your legs and slid between your folds.

You realized a shaky moan in response, almost jumping away as you were still so sensitive. But you stayed put.

"My little slut is being so good, letting me toy with her pussy like this." He cooed at you, fueling your blushing face. His finger ran up and down your most sensitive area sometimes stopping to pinch your clit or cup your heat entirely, but never slip inside. That he was avoiding. You felt so empty knowing he was right there, so close to filling you up but still not doing it.

You whined wantonly.

"What's wrong sweetheart," he smirks at you.

"San, please fill me up?" You begged.

"My baby wants to get fucked like a slut?" He asks, one finger prodding your hole but still not entering. You cried out in desperation.

"Yes! Yes please!"

"OK baby," he finally replied in a soothing tone, but the retracting hand made you quiver, you were so needy but you had yet to be given any kind of release and it was killing you.

"Hands and knees, baby"

You scrabbled onto the bed to do as you were told, presenting your ass to him as well as you could with a slight arch to your back. You could hear his low chuckle behind you. You felt him stand up momentarily and heard the familiar sound of a belt buckle to show he was finally undressing. You wanted to look at him so bad but you didn't want to take even the slightest risk right now.

Finally, he climbed onto the bed behind you, cupping your ass tenderly in both hands with a small squeeze.

"So pretty, and it's all mine" you heard him speak. You mumbled in agreement with a nod. You breathed heavily in anticipation, waiting to finally feel something.

In one unexpected movement, San sheathed his cock into you. Your cries were so loud you were sure they could be heard over the pending music in the next room, but you didn't care. It felt so nice to be full.

San was never one for preamble so it only took a moment for him to start to pound his cock into you at an inhuman pace. The sound of the music was now being completely drowned out by the cries from you, the grunts from San, the slapping skin, and the obscene wet sound coming from your pussy.

San knew his way around your body so well, it only took a moment for him to find that special spot inside you that had you spiraling, your front half collapsed onto the bed, muffling the sounds coming out of you. It only lasted a second though before a rough grip took hold on the back of your head. San yanked you up by your hair keeping your mouth free to spew filth.

The pain in your scalp returned as your boyfriend leaned down to whisper in your ear through his own panting breath, still nailing into your hole.

"Don't you dare, keep your head up and let them hear just how much of a slut you are for me." He spoke deadly serious. Your reply was a loud cry of his name that echoed around the room.

His focus returned to fucking you to tears, which is about where you were as you felt the first pricks of wetness in the corners of your eyes.

San was speaking again,

"Whos are you baby? Tell me who is it that's fucking you this good?" He practically shouted the words at you, his cock was sliding deliciously in and out so quickly that before you could even register his pull out he was slamming back in dragging your walls as he went pulling even more wetness out with each thrust. Your eyes were rolling back but you answered somewhat absently.

"Yours San, all yours" after the words left your mouth the first time you couldn't seem to stop, constantly spewing the word "yours" over and over again. San began repeating his reply as well with a little more force,

"All mine."

San removed his hand from your hair but you kept your head up however difficult it was when he was fucking you like that. Instead, both of your boyfriend's hands took hold of your waist, and with this newfound grip, he was pulling you back to meet his thrusts. Each push now had even more force behind it and you could feel your release fast approaching.

"San-" you tried to speak but lost the words in your mouth.

"I know baby, my little cockslut is going to cum all over me isn't she?" You cried out your affirmation when your words failed you.

"Go ahead sweetheart, cum while a fill your pussy up even more."

You finally came and came hard. It was by the will of God you kept yourself upright as your orgasm washed over you, especially with San still keeping pace although it began faltering as his orgasm crashed around him. You felt the sticky cum shoot into you in ropes coating your inner walls, making your orgasm even more fulfilling.

After a moment San stops moving. You could feel him begin to soften inside you but you were still clenching hopelessly against him. Your arms finally gave way and you came crashing down. San kneeled above you catching his breath before falling onto the bed beside you. He dared to pull you close to observe your face.

A sudden smirk arose on his perfect features.

"I won,"

"You asswipe."

[solarpunksoftie]

additional fun facts about the Gene Pool

because i cant be stopped and oh hello new obsession

my sides

A - Adrienne   E - Ethan   L - Laura   P - Pandora   D - Daryl

Favourite Colour

A - Green

E - Red

L - Blue

P - Yellow

D - Purple

Favourite Music

A - The Struts, Major Lazer, Ariana Grande

E - Rise Against, Green Day, Paramore

L - Lindsey Stirling, Sleeping At Last, Ratatat

P - KONGOS, Arctic Monkeys, Bastille

D - Twenty One Pilots, The Neighborhood, The Front Bottoms

Favourite Foods/Bev

A - Popsicles, Bananas, Mussels / Dr. Pepper

E - Yogurt+Granola, Lamb, Bacon / Juice

L - Steak, Mushrooms, Ramen(its convenient!) / Tea

P - Berries, Spaghetti, Clif Bars (chocolatey ones) / Coffee

D - BBQ Chips, Goldfish, Cheesecake / Hot Cocoa

Favourite Movie

A - Avengers

E - The Sting

L - Cosmos: War of the Planets (they fuckin lov terrible movies)

P - Indiana Jones and the Lost Arc

D - Heathers

Favourite T.V. Show

A - Rick and Morty

E - Brooklyn Nine-Nine

L - Star Trek (tos)

P - The Walking Dead

D -  Cutthroat Kitchen

Favourite Fiction Genre / AO3 Tag

A - Action / Smut

E - Drama / Hurt Comfort

L - Sci-fi / College AU

P - Fantasy / Graphic Depictions of Violence

D - Slice of Life / Whump

Favourite Musical / Song from it

A - Catch Me If You Can / Live in Living Color

E - Les Miserables / Do You Hear The People Sing 

L - Hamilton / Non-Stop

P - Into The Woods / I Know Things Now

D -  Heathers / Lifeboat

Favourite Activity

A - sex, dancing, late night shenanigans with friends

E - attending protests, witchcraft, hiking

L - painting, research, watching movies

P - cooking, playing horror games, playing with animals

D - sleeping, listening to music, cuddling (but they’ll never admit it)

Favourite Affection

A - kisses. not necessarily romantic, forehead, cheek, hand, etc are all awesome

E - massages, especially shoulders

L - hair play

P - hand holding and casual touches

D - hugs, but so touch starved he’ll take anything

Favourite exercise

A - Dance!

E - Swimming

L - Climbing

P - Bicycle

D - pass…

If They Had A Super Power…

A - Flight

E - Pyrokinesis/Pyrogenesis

L - Time Stop

P - Invincibility

D - Invisibility

Weapon Of Choice

A - Falchion… specifically this one 

E - spiked bat

L - Pistol

P - Bowie Knife

D - Switchblade

Travel Destination

A - Amsterdam OR Cross Country Road Trip

E - International Relief Aid (they have no concept of relaxation)

L - Ireland

P - Hawaii

D - no thanks..

Element

A - Air

E - Fire

L - Earth

P - Water

D - Smoke

Theme Songs

A - Raise Your Glass, P!nk - Don’t Threaten Me With A Good Time, P!atD

E - Architects, Rise Against - Uprising, Muse - Feeling Sorry, Paramore

L - Conquest of Spaces, Woodkid

P - Laugh Till I Cry, The Front Bottoms - Stressed Out, Twenty One Pilots

D - Trapdoor, Twenty One Pilots - Be Nice To Me, The Front Bottoms - The Draw, Bastille

Little Quirks

A - Happy Dances, Winks, Hair Fluffs

E - Impatient finger tapping, “Cool Kid” posing, Blowing hair out of face

L - clasped hands, Adjusting glasses, straitening tie

P - deforest kelley bounce, hands nervously in pockets, always ready to rabbit

D - Tired face rub, eye roll, lip biting

Zodiac Sign/Planet (all from my full chart)

A - Aries Moon

E - Scorpio Mars

L - Libra Mercury

P - Sagittarius Jupiter

D - Pisces Saturn

Shadow Emotion

A - Loneliness

E - Sadness

L - Confusion

P - Fear

D - Anger

Alignment

A - Chaotic Neutral - fuck it this looks fun

E - Chaotic Good - I will burn this city to the ground to save a child

L - Lawful Good - do the right thing the Right way and you get the best results

P - Lawful Neutral - follow the rules and you won’t get hurt

D - Neutral Evil - I’m tired just kill yourself

Hogwarts House

A - Gryffindor

E - Slytherin / Gryffindor

L - Ravenclaw / Slytherin

P - Gryffindor

D - Hufflepuff

D&D Class

A - Sorcerer

E - Druid

L - Wizard

P - Ranger

D - Rogue

MBTI / my function stack

A - ESFP / Se

E - ENFP / Fi

L - ENTJ / Te

P - ISTP / inferior Ni

D - INFP - none, hes a disorder

God Tier 

A - Maid of Breath

E - Knight of Space

L - Sylph of Mind

P - Mage of Rage

D - Page of Doom

High School Superlatives

A - Best Person to Travel With

E - Most Likely to Help Hide a Body

L - Most Likely to Succeed

P - Best Person to Get Stranded With

D - Worst Case of Senioritis

Vices/Virtues

A - Sex/Kindness

E - Rage/Courage

L - Overwork/Diligence 

P - Alcohol/Vigilance 

D - Drugs/Humility

When Stressed

A - loses all sense of direction and will jump onto the first suggestion someone makes to relieve the stress. Gets paranoid about appearance. Easily becomes overwhelmed/sensory overloaded and needs soft things, stim things, and fidgit toys to keep from becoming entirely incoherent.

E - Gets really impatient and short with people. If the stress escalates they will angry cry from frustration. Slams doors, yells unnecessarily.

L - Comes to a complete stop. They can’t complete a thought coherently and are easily confused. Prone to quitting from distress, coming to the conclusion that the most logical thing is to remove ones self from the stress while also stuck on the fact that it’s stressful because it’s too important to ignore. They basically experience blue screen of death by becoming a feedback loop of “oh no”.

P - The paranoia is in full bloom. they can get delusional and jumpy. Fears intensify. Outwardly, the only sign that somethings wrong is the occasional thousand yard stare or, contrastly, they get hyper vigilant. They’re just always ready.

D - Nap Time. If naps are not acquired they become crazy aggressive and verbally abusive. Every problem is a personal attack and it must be Gene’s fault. Craves death but will settle for a razor.

When They Like Someone

A - a smooth motherfucker. loves the seduction game. will wear lingerie under her clothes in case the opportunity arises to take it off ;)

E - Skittish. romance is the one emotional department they always fumble with. will compliment a lot and try to win them over, but takes a long time to act on anything for fear of misreading the other person’s intentions and making them uncomfortable.

L - Direct. knows the importance of presentation and is a good manipulator, so may implement their skills unintentionally. Really they just want the other person on the same page as them.

P - Suspicion. they normally aren’t attracted to someone unless the other person flirts first, and they are distrustful of others’ intentions. only once they feel safe with their crush will they act more directly and can actually be very charming.

D - Obsession and Despair. This person becomes their everything, which terrifies them, so they try and pull away to avoid getting hurt, and then get upset that the person isnt paying enough attention to them, and then the “im unlovable” spiral begins.

When Injured (with irl experiences oops)

A - powers through with force of will. will convince herself that its not a big deal. would probably try to finish a marathon with a broken leg. not stubborn if told to seek help, however, theyre just really bad at judging the severity/urgency of an injury. (went through their day without a care in the world after a head injury, legit didn’t think it was a big deal. the bump just looked nasty)

E - stubborn as a mule to keep up their badass image. will brush off most things even if they know its bad news. the only time the facade drops is when theyre alone, and then theyre a mess. (helped someone move despite the fact that they were seriously ill. hid it the whole time. collapsed when they got home)

L - reacts appropriately to the situation. has an objective enough knowledge of medicine and anatomy to assess the severity and urgency of an injury and will seek help if needed. 

P - Panic. has a slight inclination to hypochondria that only comes out when something is wrong. stubbed tow? its broken. stomach ache? it could be cancer or their appendix is gonna burst. weird symptoms they dont recognize? absolutely positive theyre gonna die. if they cant see whats wrong the panic is worse. is actually not bad dealing with flesh wounds, but still wont hesitate in seeking care. (full blown panic attack when a uti started exhibiting unfamiliar symptoms and couldn’t receive immediate care)

D - secrecy. wont tell anyone. 10/10 most likely to silently stitch up a wound themselves and no one would be the wiser. (suffering silently through a migraine without medication, cleaning up self harm cuts)

Negative Influences

A - Reckless behavior, abandoning obligations in favour of a fun activity, drug use

E - Being argumentative, “anyone who doesnt agree with me is the enemy” knee jerk reaction, grudges

L - Obsessive behavior, hyper focus, over rationalizing feelings away

P - Irrational fears, distrust of others, exhausting hyper vigilance

D - Depression my dudes, self worth issues, self harm in all forms

Positive Influences

A - Trying new things, Courage, enjoying the simple pleasures

E - Passion, Moral compass, Determination

L - keeping my life structured, love of learning, the designer

P - self preservation, observing others’ personal boundaries, being prepared

D - ?????, keeps me from becoming too powerful,, ???????

When To Worry About Them

A - would rather stay home than go out, reclusive behavior

E - either theyre constantly fuming or they become painfully apathetic

L - none of their ideas make sense, language issues

P - always v stressed

D - smiley mask, overly compliant, overly positive

How They Chill

A - Nature Walks

E - Low Key hangouts with friends

L - Coloring books

P - Music - will often chill and listen to music with Daryl

D - Sleep - falls asleep while listening to music with Pandora

ill probly add onto this when i think of more stuff, but here for now

Self Care

A - Dressing up, cuz looking good for your own sake does wonders for emotional wellbeing

E - Talking to people, it’s not fair to you or your friends to shut them out, and the attention makes Adrienne happy

L - Hot Shower. As well as being good hygiene, hot showers improve circulation and relax muscles and the mind

P - cooking a whole meal for yourself, because you have a penchant for denying yourself food, and its a creative, mentally stimulating activity that gets you moving and is satisfying

D - He’d say sleep, but he always wants to sleep so its mostly detrimental. So he’s with Laura on hot showers, but like, in the dark. They’re good for if you’re upset, or nauseous, or tired, or have a migraine, or need a cry. Don’t gotta put much thought into it, if somethings wrong it can probably be fixed with a shower. Also the warmth is super nice, and a locked dark bathroom is basically the most secure place you have access to. AND you can use nice smelling soaps and stuff, so Addy is happy too. Showers are just default best.

Which Sanders Sides theyre most like

A - Patton

E - Roman

L - Logan

P - Anxiety

D - get fucked

As My Friends… 

A - Kevin - big puppy dog, adventure/food/trouble friend

E - John - loud and proud and also my libra buddy

L - Owen - too smart jesus christ

P - Bri - anxiety ridden and prepared for everything

D - Jake - seriously hes the embodiment of depression anyway its horrifying

Physical Details

A - always wearing body glitter. nothing too Extra but just enough for a slight shimmer

E - has all the tattoos ive ever fantasized about. when i think up a new one it gets added to the collection. the buffest looking; when they work out they go for tone cuz they love the look

L - the only one who wears glasses. also wears a binder cuz theyre most comfortable flat-chested

P - carries any injuries i have at the time, including random bruises or cuts. actually the strongest even though they dont look it

D - has cuts all up their arms. they’re normally wrapped in bandages or hidden under hoodies. Deep under eye bags and the thinnest by far cuz they never heckin eat

Group Opinion

A - despite being the oldest everyone sees her as the little sister they need to protect. they love when shes happy and they all put in efforts to keep her out of too much trouble for the most part

E - they see them as a bit of an egomaniac, which isnt too far off. they are the judicial voice of the group, keeping everyone in line. those who deviate too far face their wrath.

L - the nerd. the others actually try to dismiss them a lot, since a lot of times they end up holding the group back. wildly unappreciated even though theyre normally right and helpful

P - doesn’t normally pop into group discussions, and is more of a casual observer, only participating when necessary. the others appreciate this about them, because for real if they contributed all the time id be a lot more stressed out

D - the villain. everyone always attacks everything they say (with good reason). despite this they still somehow end up winning a pretty good amount of decisions, cuz they are disgustingly good at twisting words and appealing to what at least one of the others wants. no one trusts them

[kurtstyne]

[6:25 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: them? [6:25 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: What you indicate? [6:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: the audios [6:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: audios dont know if shes recording them or not [6:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: she had problems at work so Im helping her now [6:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: a guy tried to abuse her [6:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: t_t [6:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im telling her to resing the job [6:27 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: what you mean? [6:27 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: she ddnt told her parents, is telling me [6:27 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: there’s a guy at her work who’s married with the owner’s daughter who tried to kiss her [6:27 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and she freaked out [6:27 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and asked me all nervous what to do [6:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: She is pretty? [6:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: So im telling her to resing and leave that place [6:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: It is so weird [6:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: is not weird [6:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: is normal that guys does that [6:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: well at least here in western world [6:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Her co-worker is very rude [6:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but she freaked out [6:29 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: guys are always rude [6:29 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: there’s a reason Im going under makeover [6:29 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Men respect me more when my hair is dark [6:29 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: just to give you an example [6:30 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but when Im blonde nobody respect me [6:30 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: The beauty can be toxic. [6:30 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: No, guys are jerks [6:30 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: sorry no offense. [6:31 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Beauty has nothing to do with that [6:31 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: u can be ugly and if they want to abuse they will do it ayway [6:31 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but from personal experience [6:31 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: when my hair is black or brown [6:31 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: guys respect me more [6:32 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: now when Im my blonde self [6:32 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: they think Im dumb [6:32 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and easy [6:32 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: is a stereotype [6:32 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Which is your original color of hair? [6:32 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont know if this guy is asian or not [6:33 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but like she works at kroean places I think is korean [6:33 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: My real color is strawberry blonde [6:33 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: is kinda redish [6:33 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: my mom is redhead [6:34 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but in summer gets very blonde [6:34 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: when i was a kid it was very blonde but it changes [6:34 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I prefer it  dark [6:34 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Which you prefer? [6:34 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: it suits me more [6:34 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: in person is better even [6:34 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I mean ‘Which color*’ [6:35 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: dark [6:35 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: makes my face …like [6:35 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont know like I look angry [6:35 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: when Im blonde I look stupid [6:35 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: there were men who stopped talking to me depending the color of my hair [6:35 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I Agree [6:35 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Agree what? [6:36 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: it sucks to be stereotyped [6:36 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Your vibe depends on hair color [6:36 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I always get stereotyped and I cant do anything about it [6:37 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I had every color u can imagine [6:37 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but it always gets back to blonde because the hair dye simply fades [6:37 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Stereotype.. [6:37 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: yes [6:37 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: ppl label me just for the hair [6:37 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: or the way I look [6:38 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: so thats the reason I study lots [6:38 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: to dont be like they think I am [6:38 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: If you are born again, you would be born as male? [6:38 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im sorry about today tho [6:39 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Oh yes [6:39 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I would [6:39 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: life would be easier [6:39 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: a man with my intelligence would be respected [6:39 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: instead I have to double prove everything [6:39 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: If only you know…all the shit I went through [6:40 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: you woyld see me different [6:40 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im still alive because Im strong [6:40 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: If you was man, you might have be fighter. [6:40 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and i have strong values [6:40 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: been* [6:40 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: probably [6:40 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but life would have been different [6:41 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: u are lucky you are a guy [6:41 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: to be a woman is hell sometimes [6:41 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: But i envy you [6:41 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and Im not talking about femininsm because i hate that shit [6:41 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: sorry [6:41 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: envy what? [6:41 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im the one who envies you [6:41 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: U have a dick [6:41 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I wish  had one [6:42 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Now that sounds weird but yes I wish [6:42 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Female usually live longer than male. [6:42 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: hold on my dad is calling [6:42 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: done [6:42 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: envy what? [6:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Envy [6:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: ahhh [6:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: No really it depends [6:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: U dont wanna be a female [6:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Dick is uncomfortable [6:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: tits are uncomfroatble too [6:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Especially in summer [6:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: is they’re big like mine [6:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: in summer [6:44 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: it hurts like hell [6:44 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: You win [6:44 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: No justthat [6:44 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: 😅 [6:44 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: its heavy [6:44 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I wanna get rid of them because they’re heavy [6:45 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I can’t run much it hurts. [6:45 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: os if I wanna sleep on them is hard. [6:45 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: or* [6:46 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and the periods… [6:46 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: ugh [6:46 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: annoying thing [6:47 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: guys have it easier [6:47 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and u dont get pregnant [6:47 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: The pain of giving birth to baby [6:47 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: yes [6:47 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im paranoid of that [6:47 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: getting pregnant [6:47 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: ugh no [6:47 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Sacrifice is worthy. [6:48 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont think id ever have babies [6:48 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: The destiny of women is worthy. [6:48 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: is a lot of responsability [6:48 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im not selfish [6:48 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: this world is horrible [6:48 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont think I wanna bring a baby here [6:48 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Women have made this world and guys [6:48 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I know [6:48 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but I dont think I want to have babies [6:49 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont like this world [6:49 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: is too cruel [6:49 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: too inhuman [6:49 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im not that selfish [6:49 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: So [6:50 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I don’t like going outside [6:50 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but i think is a gift of god [6:50 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont like outside either [6:50 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I like to be stuck in my room [6:50 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: in the dark [6:50 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: in front my pc [6:50 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: some ppl thinks is a pathetic life [6:50 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but I like it [6:50 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: These days, doomsday [6:50 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: It is [6:51 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: why u dont like to go outside? [6:51 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: is there a reason? [6:51 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Pathetic??? [6:51 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Too hot. [6:51 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I personally dont like it because I like to be in the dark of a room [6:51 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Cuz of summer😂 and cruel world [6:51 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: hot or cold I just dont like to be outiside [6:51 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: hahaha [6:51 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: U got bullied? [6:51 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Abused? [6:52 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Bullied? [6:52 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: yes [6:52 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: when kids make fun of u at school [6:52 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: or beat you [6:52 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and stuff [6:52 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: No [6:53 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Okay [6:53 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I got abused [6:53 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: for example [6:53 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I started smoking at 13 years old [6:53 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: And my parents never knew [6:53 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I hid it all my life [6:53 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: really? I started smoking when I get nervous [6:54 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: when Im pressured [6:54 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: So there, you know something not even my parents know [6:54 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: And i started riding motorcycle at 14 years old [6:54 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: That’s good [6:54 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: a normal childhood [6:55 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: well if u lived here that would be normal [6:55 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I’m normal [6:55 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont know much about your culture [6:55 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: or how you culture see some things [6:55 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but smoking or motorcycle is pretty normal here [6:55 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Then, i’m universally normal . [6:55 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: yes [6:56 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: In the other hand I think Im not normal [6:56 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I wanna abuse drug with you [6:56 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I think of myself as someone unusual [6:56 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: drug? what u mean? [6:56 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Could you? [6:56 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: U know I never know if you ask me things because you wanna do them or because you are testing me [6:57 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Both [6:57 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and why u wanna do that? [6:57 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Because you wanna see me all indefense [6:57 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: ? [6:57 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: For pleasure of unknown [6:58 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I like update [6:58 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Don’t use that word with me [6:58 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: What is indefense? [6:59 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: being weak [6:59 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: you want me weak? [6:59 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: The irony with you [7:01 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: U know what [7:01 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: ? [7:01 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: What [7:01 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I don’t like the power you have over me [7:01 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: But i’m stronger than you in reality [7:02 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Physically [7:02 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I know [7:02 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but Im saying power [7:02 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: as the power your persona has over me [7:02 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: the effect [7:02 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: you remember Superman? [7:02 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: he was weak to the krypnite [7:02 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: kryptonite [7:03 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: What is mean 'over me’? [7:03 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I think I am weak about you [7:03 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Like Surpass? [7:03 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: In simple words: I like you so much that I think you could do anything with me [7:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: you are dangerous for me [7:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Ah- [7:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Yes, i am [7:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: But i can give you pleasure [7:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I told you once, if you give me a few kisses Im all lost [7:05 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Are you fucked up? [7:05 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: be honest with me [7:06 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Don’t be serious. [7:06 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im not being serious [7:06 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Just KD [7:06 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: No ure nt kidding [7:06 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: We can’t make meet, you know [7:06 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: ure being serious [7:07 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: ok I understand [7:08 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Actually, i have no interest on drugs. [7:08 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: It is strictly illegal in Korea. [7:08 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: God [7:08 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I just like coffeee and smoking [7:08 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: what are u pkaying [7:08 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: do u really think Im a toy or what? [7:08 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Pkay? [7:08 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: play [7:08 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: U have me in constant test [7:09 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Look [7:09 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I think you think I do drugs because Im a writer [7:09 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I already know you didn’t, you don’t, you will don’t. [7:09 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I have already known* [7:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and I never did [7:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but I know about them lots [7:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Actually you love pleasure, are’t you? [7:11 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Yes who doesnt? but I dont do anything. Im not whore [7:11 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: You hate them? [7:11 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Do you have motivation of being hater? [7:11 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: No but I dont want to be stereotyped as one [7:12 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: U know how the world is [7:12 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: if a woman feels comfortable in her body [7:12 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and enjoys sex she immediately is labeled as a slut [7:12 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: or a whore [7:13 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Is that valid? In case of playing with boyfriend? [7:14 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: That’s different [7:14 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I believe with a boyfriend is ok [7:14 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im saying that I dont do anything out of relationship [7:14 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: For instance [7:14 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I didnt had sex with my korean ex [7:15 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I have problem. [7:15 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: because the times we were together I was on my period and he blamed me [7:15 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: what problem? [7:15 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: blaming me like I can control such thing. [7:16 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: That was awful [7:17 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: No, nothing [7:17 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: tell me [7:17 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: You can’t solve my concern [7:17 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: U know I dont judge [7:17 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I have huge desire of pleasure. [7:17 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: This is my concern [7:18 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im gunna ask you something [7:18 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: have u had this pleasure before you got ur heart broken? [7:18 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: this desire for pleasure I mean [7:18 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im gunna be honest with you [7:18 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Say [7:18 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: so let me [7:18 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: tell you first [7:18 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I have this thing called hypersexuality [7:18 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Okay, say [7:18 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I want it all the time [7:19 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: But I repress it [7:19 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: so I eat lots [7:19 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: or I do lots of things to keep my mind busy [7:19 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont do it [7:19 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: So i kinda know what it feels [7:19 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: no. I KNOW what it feels. [7:20 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: But the first time I did it [7:20 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: It was so damn traumatic that it left a mark in me [7:20 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: so i repress it [7:20 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: What mark [7:20 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: My ex who was a british guy [7:20 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Yes [7:20 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Made a bet with his friends [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I was part of a bet [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I didnt know [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I thought he loved me [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but he was just playing with me [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: so when he came here [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: played the bf [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: then did it with me [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: totally left me afterwards [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and exposed me on a forum [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: in front of a lotofppl [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: IT TRAUMATIZED ME [7:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I had to lead with it by myself [7:22 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: nobody know this. Just my friend who died [7:22 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I deal with my stuff alone [7:22 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: even when I have ppl on the psycholgy field everywhere [7:22 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont tell these things to anyone [7:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Even to police? [7:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I hate british men [7:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I had to report the forum bacl in the day [7:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: back* [7:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I’m sorry for hear that. [7:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: because there’s a hate thing between Argentina and England [7:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: for some islands [7:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: so these guys played with me [7:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: to mock me [7:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: That’s the reason I dont do it, but I have the same kind of desire u have [7:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Don’t belive love too much [7:25 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: All guys are same [7:25 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I do believe in it [7:25 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im a woman [7:25 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im still very naive [7:25 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I think i can’t repress [7:25 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Like you [7:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I am more than you. [7:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and what do you do? [7:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: ? [7:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Writing keeps my mind busy [7:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Do what? [7:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: very busy [7:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: u said u cant repress it [7:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: so Im asking what do you do? [7:26 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: you masturbate? [7:27 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: LOL [7:27 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: No comment [7:27 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: whats so funny? [7:27 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: u get laid with everyone? [7:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Sex is bad? [7:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: No [7:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Usually [7:28 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Sadly [7:29 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: usually what? [7:29 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I tch m s [7:29 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: what is that? [7:29 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Just say it [7:29 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: ? [7:30 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Um [7:30 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: ? [7:30 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Um.. [7:30 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: so u get laid lots? [7:30 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: when u sad u didnt. So u lied to me [7:30 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I know you are smart [7:30 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I already know that mean [7:31 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Who is that [7:31 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: who [7:31 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: On your profile pic [7:32 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: why [7:32 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Kojima. It’s a joke I set for a friend who’s still crying over a videogame that was cancelled ages ago. [7:32 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Ah- [7:33 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: If i was born women, i would have been whore. [7:33 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: lol [7:33 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: is ok I dont judge [7:33 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: If ure saying all these things to push me away [7:36 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Vix [7:36 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Okay,,, I’m sleepy [7:36 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: ok [7:36 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: sleep well then [7:36 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: See you [7:36 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Thx [7:38 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I think I wont send the audio then. Is totally in vain now. [7:38 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Okay [7:39 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: U won. [7:39 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: No, i don’t [7:40 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Yes you did. I will leave you alone. [7:40 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: It’s obvious you are pushing me away. [7:41 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: XX [7:41 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: u are just playing with me [7:42 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and I was nothing but a good person with you [7:42 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I don’t make meet , yet. [7:42 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: why u ahte me so much? [7:42 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: hate* [7:42 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I don’t hate you. [7:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: so [7:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: you despite me [7:43 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Why did you think like that? [7:44 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: hahaha. I should go to bed. [7:44 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: because u push me away [7:45 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I didn’t [7:45 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Is not my fault I like you [7:46 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I’m not good as much as your thought. [7:46 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: CU [7:47 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: But I want you anyway 

[8:02 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I think now you prefer talking with that leelo person that’s why u lose interst into talking with me. [8:02 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: If that so, when you are more sober I would like to ask you something [8:02 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: a ultimate thing [8:03 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I cant listen now [8:03 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Yes you can [8:03 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Ask me [8:03 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Sure [8:03 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: No [8:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Why u do this to me? [8:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Not today [8:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I want you sober [8:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and nice not like this [8:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Okay [8:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: U hate me? [8:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I’m sleepy [8:04 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I’m not drunken [8:05 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: No, i don’t [8:05 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but you lose interest in me [8:05 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: its obvious [8:05 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Plz don’t make me doing repeat.. [8:05 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: You know, you already ask me samething in several times [8:06 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Im sorry [8:07 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I feel like Ive lost 2 years of my life you know [8:08 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but if u are sleepy, I’ll write you in 20 hours or 10 [8:08 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I just dont wanna think I’ve lost 2 years of my life. [8:09 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I think you don’t trust me now. [8:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: You losed trust. [8:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I didn’t fake you befor. [8:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: No Is not that [8:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Believ me [8:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: fake what? [8:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: u are breaking my heart so bad [8:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I gave up the most important thing of my life for you [8:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I mean i never have faken you befor [8:10 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and u dont even appreciate it [8:11 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and no other wuld have done that [8:11 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but i didnt it for you [8:11 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: So what you want.. [8:11 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Tell me.. [8:11 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I do for you [8:12 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Tell your brother to unblock me so I can tell him about my book. And I will leave you alone [8:12 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: because its obvious u dont want me [8:12 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I gave up that for you [8:12 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: because I cared more about you that my work [8:13 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but now u found better ppl and i cant compete [8:13 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont wanna lose 2 years of my life [8:13 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I will miss you terribly and u will lose a great person because I know my worth and Im a great person. but that was just your choice [8:13 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: you are exchanging rocks for diamonds. [8:14 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: But is up to you. [8:16 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: You hurt me, too.. [8:16 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: How.. [8:16 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: its you the one leaving me [8:16 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: .. [8:17 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I told you a million times I am in love with you [8:17 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: All fault always is mine. [8:17 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but you said so many things [8:17 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont see how I hurt you when Im always over you [8:17 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: trying to make u feel loved [8:18 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Now i’m headache [8:19 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I know you said love me [8:19 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Then, if we make relationship like couple , how we could date or do something? [8:19 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: It doesn’t make sense. [8:19 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: 😅 [8:19 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: i know. Im aware of that [8:20 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Its clear is not easy but if you make it so hard and u want to let me go [8:20 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: at least do that for me [8:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Do that = my brother [8:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Right? [8:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: Yes. Because my book [8:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: You don’t want to be blocked [8:21 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: he blocked me because he doesnt even know who I was [8:22 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: But i already give you help one time , you know [8:22 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: just say u dont want to help [8:22 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: because its very obvious now [8:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: …….. [8:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I’m sad. [8:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I need the time to think [8:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I need time too [8:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Let’s talk tomorrow [8:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: because I left eveything for you [8:23 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: and u dont even appreciate it [8:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Burden [8:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I know I am. [8:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I think [8:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: you want me too [8:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: You maybe press me [8:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: but like is hard [8:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: you just act this way [8:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I dont pressure you on doing nothing [8:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Victoria: I said it’s up to you [8:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Anyway [8:24 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: See you [8:25 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: I must go [8:25 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: Let’s talk tomorrow [8:25 PM, 8/9/2018] Taesun: :)