#hi yes I just watched 13x01 and I am utterly unwell

[bragginball-z]

Dean going to see Cas’s body by himself. Pulling back the sheet so slowly, so achingly nervous to see what he already knows is under it. And then he sees him lying there, cold, unmoving, color drained from his skin and he just can’t do it. Can’t even bring himself to look at him like that. He covers him back up and then grabs the curtains, a mourner ready to take care of the man he loves one last time. He ties the cloth around him but his hands hesitate as they tie the knots. He wishes so badly that he didn’t have to do it, that this wasn’t his reality. But it is and he has to be the one to do it. Sure, Sam could do it but it wouldn’t be the same. Cas always took care of Dean, always treated him so gently, it was Dean’s turn to take the time and make sure Cas was comfortable and looked after. It’s what he deserved, one last time.