#hi nicole kornher stace fans if ur out there

[iztopher]

firebreak spoilers under the cut

he died with his head on her shoulder like he'd fallen asleep on the bus. i don't know how i'm ever supposed to be normal again after that

and in the context of firebreak it's gut-wrenching, but in the context of archivist wasp/latchkey 22's death reads like a warm hug. i'd been thinking he'd died alone after losing the only person he really trusted. but he died with his side pressed against someone who thought she loved him before she even knew him, who did love him in the little time she got to know him, who gave everything she had to help him.

and it wasn't enough. it never could have been enough to do anything but borrow more time. and that's the tragedy, right? but it was something. it was more than i'd assumed he'd gotten. it was more than he expected to get. it was something he thanked her for.

and then in archivist wasp/latchkey, he's lost that. he doesn't remember his death. he doesn't remember mal. and all over again it's back to gut-wrenching and i'm literally nauseous over these characters in the best way possible