#hezey talks

[incubus-puppy]

i love saying controversial sex things. im gonna say it.

[incubus-puppy]

i actually did a little research on this in a college queer history class because i was in psych at the same time! personal opinion and takeaway from my research is that it's context-dependent, not shocking. as a title, anyone can say it because it's an Identity and the only word that really exists to describe the concept. but as i think someone in the tags said, if someone is using it to try to cause harm, it's probably a slur, especially if the person it is being wielded against feels harmed by it.

i still have this research around somewhere if any other psychology/linguistics autists wanted to see it :3

[incubus-puppy]

GUH someone telling you to present like a good puppy but you haven't been let out to pee in so long and you don't know if you can hold it but you don't want to disobey so you open your legs for them and show off your puppy parts before you lose control completely and make a huge mess on the floor 🥰

[incubus-puppy]

so. that intox post about being known among your friends as the person who gets uncontrollably horny when they smoke.

thinking about being the pissboy stoner of the friend group. the guy who can't handle his weed, and it results in humiliation. everyone giving each other knowing smiles and laughs as they light the joint for you. it starts to hit you, and every time you cough you have to press your legs together to hold it back. you barely notice as they pass the joint back to you after just one other person's turn, seeing if you'll catch on, but you mindlessly smoke what's given to you. you have a tendency to relax, maybe too much, but the high washes over your body again and again. you're caught in another thought before you notice it, a dripping against your thigh, the damp fabric brushing against you, and you jolt, wondering if the others noticed. you try to act natural, like you're not miles away and not about to piss yourself like a child in front of all of your friends. your mouth is dry, you drink more once you remember how to swallow, your bladder tensing. it works for a minute, until someone distracts you, or makes a joke you laugh just a bit too hard at. you try your hardest but you simply can't clench muscles hard enough through the daze. you lose control for seconds that feel far too long. someone in the distance laughs, pointing out the visible wet spot streaking down your leg. you fight as hard as you can but the work becomes tiresome, and all the tension in your muscles gives way to relief as you completely wet yourself. you relax in a daze. your friends take their time bullying you, whether you're really conscious enough to hear it or not. next time they have to make sure you're protected. they'll help diaper you next time before you smoke, sure you'll be humiliated but they'll teasingly remind you of last time. one of them just happens to have pictures of it. you just can't be trusted to control yourself when you're high. good thing a stupid fag like you has such good friends to take care of your messes.

[incubus-puppy]

okay google how to stop thinking about piss

[incubus-puppy]

this is a love letter to the comfort of dry diapers. like, having a really big and humiliating accident in clothes and having to wear them home still while they stick to you uncomfortably but then FINALLY peeling them off and tossing them aside. and the process is still plenty comforting if you change yourself, but like someone helping you struggle out of your damp clothes, laying you down and cleaning the mess off of you before they care for your tender irritated skin. and then finally they slide the diaper under you and wrap you up, and everything just instantly feels dry and soft and perfect. you have little cloud strapped to you to prevent any other humiliating accidents and to keep your skin soothed and you can always feels it pressing up against your sensitive skin, and sometimes when you shift it rubs up against your dick and it's so hard not to just immediately grind against something. and god just the intimacy of changing + the overwhelming comfort of a dry diaper. especially after an upsetting and damp situation.....

[incubus-puppy]

making brownies and trying sooo hard not to piss myself. outcome uncertain.

[incubus-puppy]

they're both commands you're meant to pee on the spot when you see the other one

I was driving today and literally saw a billboard that deadass only said “Don’t Hold It :)”

?!???????!?!?!

[incubus-puppy]

so what i was going for on my first day wearing properly to the office was to get a little bit leaky and at that point rush to the bathroom just to make sure there wasn't any damage. what happened is that we got assignments in, i got distracted and was holding harder and more tensely than i meant to, i leaked twice really bad as soon as we finished and i wasn't distracted anymore, and of course as soon as i remembered that i wanted to get up when i started leaking i had a complete and total loss of control accident at my desk :< and now i have to wait until i can take my whole bag with me to the bathroom without suspicion to change. woe.

[incubus-puppy]

sorry. was in the car with pax today and we were talking about a post i saw where (not recommended to try at home) they put a little bit of their tgel on their dick and it made them uncontrollably horny, heat-levels of discomfort and needing to grind etc. i have also been wearing diapers quite a bit (not technically 24/7, but most of the time) as an act of submission for them (i also have to ask permission to pee, fantastic dynamic and extremely fun). we were talking about trying this out on me because they use the gel, and we agreed we should try it on a day I'm off of work and don't work the next day in case it ends up just being massively uncomfortable for me. and then they kept going with "the first time, for sure. but if it ends up just making you, like, insatiably horny, or makes you cum uncontrollably, i am absolutely going to put it on you and send you to work like that. we'll have to put you in a diaper for work, so you don't have to worry about how much you cum." and I'm. gonna pass out bye

[incubus-puppy]

yes that kink is horrifying and/or disgusting, no its not ethical or moral, but the part that they dont understand is that my partner is trans-

[incubus-puppy]

"well my daughter turned out alright-" sir your son is pissing on me

[incubus-puppy]

you're telling me that there are dumb mutts who will literally just piss themselves?? just because i told them to??? just because they want to see how feral it makes me when they lose control and when they get off in their mess??? AND they'll beg to be knotted after???? insane. it's a beautiful world.

[incubus-puppy]

im really high and t shot horny. do we do live holds on this blog. do i have enough non lurkers to be a live hold blog. i have anons turned on always and forever because of my romantic relationship with the delete button and general nonchalant demeanor on the internet. anyway

[incubus-puppy]

can't post the video bc i realized way too late that i was wearing my work shirt but. had the extremely transmasc gender experience yesterday of doing a hold with a packer on. the way it sat comfortably for me was like, right over my dick and in the way so i couldn't really use my hands to hold. so i pinched the tip while pressing the packer against me and i think that is about the best simulation of amab desperation I'll ever get. and then when i couldn't hold it you could tell from the pattern that it was running down along the shaft and i just. 😵‍💫

[incubus-puppy]

sorry what were you saying i was thinking about boytits in chainmail