#hey 🦝 i think you abandoning me was the best thing you ever did for me xoxo | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

basils-dreamhouse · 1 day ago

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yknow something i didnt realize while with them was how little i wanted to vent or open up because they made me feel guilty about it or made it about themself every time i did (even if they didnt mean to, they still did)

and how much im more willing to randomly vent to my friends now and admit im not doing okay or hell, *even tell my boyfriend when i have issues in the relationship*

hindsight is 20/20 for sure, but it's crazy how much has changed in the timespan of a little over half a year just because one person left my life permanently.

it should not have been normalized for me to be scared of telling my partner things.

#like im also more open about liking neopronouns and such #or media that my friends might not also like #or CHARACTERS or HEADCANONS they might not also like #hell ive given some characters headcanons i had before but didnt feel safe expressing because they would get angry if i deviated from their #so anyways gay lloyd from ninjago <3 #lesbian barb from trolls <3 #and bicurious daniel from little hope <3 #im sure theres more i cant think of rn lol #i can also fully admit i like ships like climbing class now lollll #idk im rambling :P but its amazing that i can be open with my friends and boyfriend now about the things i like #and they actually wanna listen to me talk about it and dont give me one word responses or shut down the convo?#wow????#do yall understand how amazing it was to have 💙 start getting into my interests just because i went “i really like this thing”#without having to be bribed or begged to #like. wtf!!!#ive never had that before!!!#or the fact he's actively working with me towards a future where we can live together and we're working out the details?#instead of just letting shit sit around for months without looking at it?#and im not the only one saving up towards living together???#and i dont have to feel guilty about the way i feel towards things! like my polyamory!#wraow.... i love my friends and boyfriend actually #🦝#🌱 vents #vent #hey 🦝 i think you abandoning me was the best thing you ever did for me xoxo

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