#hes a bosten tarier

[stumbling-old-boy]

i like cats more than dogs.

but my dog is dying soon. And he has been more present and consistent in my life than most things, most people even.

I hope he doesn't think I have abandoned him, only to start caring again when he is so far gone.

i once wrote a poem about how i hated dogs. how they seemed to haunt every bad memory i have ever made.

another bad memory with dogs is coming. i hope the dog knows it is not his fault that i will be crying. i hope he knows that i don't hate him.

i hope he knows im sorry for not loving him more.