#here's to hope

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Here's to Hope

Han x fem!reader

(Chapter 4)

Chapter 4

Han made sure to take it slow with you, just like you asked. He even went so far as to ask before doing anything with you. ‘Can I hold your hand, baby?’ ‘Can I give you a quick peck on the cheek?’ ‘Can we cuddle for a bit?’ It was sweet, however, you continued to remind him he didn’t have to ask.

“Hey, baby,” Han greeted you as he walked up to you. They were currently getting ready to start dance practice and you decided to join them, sitting to the side to watch them. You looked up at Han and smiled at him, holding your arms out for him to give you a hug. He smiled back just before lifting you from your seat and giving you a tight hug.

It was so mundane, but the simple, gentle actions from him caused you to get butterflies. He did everything carefully and with love, it made you fall hard and fast for him. You didn’t think one week into your snail pace relationship you would want to move to the next step, but…what was that?

You zoned out, thinking intently about it while they danced. You didn’t even notice that they had stopped to take a break until you felt a finger poke your forehead. You blinked a few times, bringing you back to the real world, and looked up at the culprit. Felix was staring down at you with a concerned expression on his face.

“Y/n, are you okay? You look like you’re holding back from throwing up or something.”

You took a deep breath, realizing then that you were feeling slightly nauseous from nerves, and it was getting worse the more you thought about it. You rushed to your feet and ran for the door, making a mad dash for the toilets. You let your nerves get the better of you and it made you get sick.

When you walked out of the toilets, you were surrounded by the guys and their concerned faces. Han was the first one to you, examining your face and feeling your forehead with his wrist. “Are you sick?” he asked quickly. You pushed his arm away gently and shook your head.

“Guys, I’m fine. I just got lost in thought earlier and it caused me to get sick from the nerves.” You looked at each of them as you spoke. “Seriously, I just need a drink of water and a distraction, so it won’t happen again.” You walked past them, leading them back to the dance studio.

After entering the studio, you grabbed a water bottle and took a few sips of it. You closed your eyes, taking a deep, calming breaths before turning to face the group of boys that were still giving you concerned looks. You eyed them all suspiciously. “What?”

Felix walked over to you. “We are just worried about you,” he whispered. His face was serious and painted with concern. All you could do is roll your eyes.

“Okay, well,” you began, “I’m fine. I just got myself worked up over stupid thoughts.”

Lee Know was the next to move forward, Han following close behind him. “Do you want to talk about any of it?” Lee Know asked.

Han took your hand in his and gave it a reassuring squeeze. He felt like he was being useless in this situation, you could tell. You gave him a soft smile before leaning into him. “Maybe later,” you whispered. “But only with Han. It’s kind of personal.”

Han gave you a surprised look, his eyes wide and eyebrows raised. “Personal? Personal how?”

You made a quiet hissing noise, indicating you didn’t want to mention it in the presence of the others. You heard Seungmin chuckle and gave him a warning glare. Clearly, the young boy put two and two together. Changbin wore a smirk on his face as he turned away in an effort to hide it. Right, so they were all becoming aware.

“It has to do with our relationship, that’s all. You know how anxious I feel.” You laid your head on Han’s shoulder, enjoying the feeling of his close proximity as he wrapped an arm around you and rubbed your upper arm comfortingly.

Han nodded, giving you an indication that he finally understood. “Okay, baby. You know I won’t push you if you need more time, though.”

You looked up at Han and smiled, feeling like the weight of the world had been lifted from your shoulders. “I know.” Without thinking, you pushed up on your toes and gave him a quick peck on the lips. This caused Han and you both to freeze in surprise, a hard blush settling on your cheeks. You stared at him, gauging his reaction and trying to sort through yours. You slowly lifted your hand to your mouth and took a small step away from Han, worried you ruined something between you two.

Han tried to hide his smile, knowing you didn’t mean to actually take that step consciously. He didn’t want to push it under the rug, but he also didn’t want to push you to do anything further about it. He wasn’t going to deny how good it felt, nor would he deny how he just wanted to pull you in for another kiss, but he wasn’t going to do that.

Instead, he settled for slowly leaning close to you to place a soft kiss on your cheek. You were too frozen to react to him, but you still felt the butterflies flutter in your stomach as he made quick work of his kiss before walking back to the center of the room to continue their practice. All you could manage to do was watch as your boyfriend walked away, a cheesy smile on his face.

After a few more seconds of standing, you came out of your worried stupor and took a seat on the couch. Now, your brain was really running wild. You didn’t mean to kiss him like that, but it happened, and you couldn’t stop thinking about the feeling of normality behind it with him. It felt right and that halfway scared you a bit. Did that mean you were actually ready for the next step in the relationship? Did it mean you could speed things up, even just a little bit? Were you actually ready to kiss?

You shook your head, realizing you were probably overthinking things too much. You two were adults, for Pete’s sake! Besides, it was just kissing…right? But kissing could lead to other things, your brain whispered. You closed your eyes tight, taking deep breaths again. Kissing didn’t always lead to that. Only if you let it, and you knew you wanted to wait at least a little longer before taking that leap.

A hand waving in front of your face brought you out of your thoughts. You refocused your eyes and found Hyunjin leaning in front of you. “Earth to Y/N!”

“Huh? Sorry, lost in thought again. What’s up?” You gave Hyunjin a fake smile, feeling your anxiety start to swell in your chest. Why were you like this?

“We are ready to go back to the dorms,” he announced. “Changbin and Chan are going to order food for delivery. They want to know what you want.”

You gave him a sheepish look before glancing at the others gathered around Chan as he made selections on his phone. “I’m actually not hungry,” you mumbled.

He furrowed his brows, confusion and concern settling in his eyes. “You need to eat, Y/N. You haven’t eaten all day.”

You ignored him, insistent not to eat. You just couldn’t fathom eating while feeling the way you do; afraid it would cause you to throw up again from the nerves and anxiety. So, you watched as Hyunjin nodded, pursing his lips, before walking back over to the group. He leaned close to Lee Know, Felix and Han, no doubt informing them you were refusing to eat.

You directed your attention to your phone, mindlessly scrolling through it as you felt a presence in front of you. When you ignored it, you watched in your peripheral as he squatted to become level with you. Only then did you glance up to find Lee Know give you a stern glare.

“Why are you refusing to eat?”

You shrugged, looking back at your phone. “Not hungry.”

“That’s bullshit, Y/N. You have Han and Felix worried to death. The rest of us are just as worried, but they are going crazy with worry. Especially Han; he thinks he did something to cause you to be like this.” Lee Know reached out and grabbed your phone from your hands. You still refused to make eye contact with him. “I’m not going to let you worry us like this. Either eat or talk to me.”

You slowly looked up at him, feeling your anxiety get worse. You couldn’t eat, so there was only one other option. “I’m just anxious about mine and Han’s relationship.”

Lee Know tilted his head slightly. “How so?”

“It’s just,” you lowered your voice as you spoke, “I know it’s only been a week or whatever, and I want to go slow, but I’m finding myself wanting to take the next step and that scares me. I’m worried about what will happen or how I will react.”

Lee Know chuckled softly. “So, this has nothing to do with how Han will be with you?”

You furrowed your brows at him. “Why would I be worried about Han? He’s been amazing. I’m just worried if we take the next step, because, what if I get cold feet and change my mind? I mean, yes, I’m worried how he would react to that, but with how he has been I feel like he will understand. I just feel like maybe he will get annoyed with me because I am such a fucking wuss.”

“First of all, you are not a wuss.” Lee Know grabbed your hands, giving them a comforting squeeze. “We all understand why you are scared. Han cares about you, that’s why he is patient with you.” He paused, giving you a sincere look. “Second, you wanting to take the next step despite everything in your past just proves how safe you are with Han. You feel it, and that makes you think about it, which is a good thing. You are safe with him, too. He won’t push you.”

You nodded, watching Lee Know carefully. This was a foreign side to him you didn’t often see, but you knew very well if he was showing you this side of him, that he was confident and genuine with his words. He was completely right, too. You were feeling very safe with Han, and you couldn’t deny that. It only made sense.

Lee Know stood up, patting your lap as he did so. “Good talk, little Ducky. Now, lets get you something to eat.” He held out his hand, giving you his signature playful smirk.

You smiled, chuckling a bit as you took his hand. He helped you up and directed you to the group. When you walked up next to Han, he smiled down at you and pulled you to his side as he kissed your temple. The simple gesture made you melt, giving you more confirmation that you were ready to take the next step in the relationship. However, you knew that meant having a serious sit-down talk with Han and you wanted to do that in private.

***

Luckily, when you all arrived at the dorms the food was delivered. Which meant everyone could eat as soon as they went in. You still felt like you couldn’t eat, yet Felix convinced you to get something small. After you ate, you went to your shared room with Felix and changed into your pajamas. Your previous attire just felt too restrictive, so you adorned your favorite oversized shirt and loose sweatpants.

As you walked out of the room, you sought out Han. You felt relatively calm and felt it was the perfect time to talk to him, despite still feeling a bit anxious. Like, how exactly were you going to tell him you were ready to introduce kissing into your relationship now? It didn’t feel right to just tell him directly.

“Hey, baby,” Han whispered into your ear as he came up behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist. You smiled, leaning into his embrace. You certainly enjoyed being close with him like this. It just felt so good; so right.

“Hi,” you breathed out. “Can we talk? In private?”

Han pulled back just a bit, craning his head over your shoulder to look at you. “You sure?”

You nodded, pulling out of his arms gently to grab his hand and lead him to his room. He complied, but you took note of him keeping a respectable distance from you. Your heart swelled with appreciation and happiness. He was so patient and understanding, it just made you want to melt.

Once you two entered his room, you closed the door behind him and looked at him. He looked like he was just as nervous as you. You still weren’t sure how to tell him what you wanted, though, which caused you to pick at your fingers nervously.

“I have to be honest,” you blurted, “I’m not sure how to go about this, but I’m very sure about my decision.”

Han gave you a slow nod, his full attention on you. “Is this about the kiss earlier?”

A blush spread across your cheeks as you stumbled over your words. You couldn’t get the words out, your brain rushing you with overwhelming thoughts. You could feel the embarrassment flooding your body.

“Hey,” Han cooed, walking up to you and rubbing his hands on your arms. “Don’t worry about it, okay? It was a heat of the moment thing, I get it. It doesn’t have to dictate anything with our relationship. We can continue on how we have been.”

You stared up at him in awe. How was he so fucking perfect?

He gave you a sweet smile as he stared back. “I can’t deny that I really liked how it felt, but your comfort is my priority in this.”

You were hypothetically melting at his words. You didn’t feel like it was just a week anymore; it felt more like a lifetime of being with him at this point. Your control snapped and the next thing you did surprised you more than anything.

You grabbed him by the front of his shirt and pulled him down, attaching your lips to his in a spontaneous kiss. Han tensed up as your lips collided, but in seconds he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you closer to him. You took that opportunity to lazily wrap your arms around his neck, tangling your left hand in his hair. Your lips moved together, deepening the kiss.

A small moan from Han pulled you back to reality, causing you to slowly pull away from his mouth. You stared up at him, feeling something you never felt before. Lust. You could feel your body react in ways you never felt before, and for once it didn’t scare you or make you feel anxious.

Han took a ragged breath. “Fuck,” he whispered.

“I’m sorry,” you breathed. “I just didn’t know how to say it, so I decided in a split second to show you, and you were being so sweet and understanding, I just couldn’t-“

Han pressed his lips to yours again, interrupting you from your rambling. It was slow and soft. When he pulled away, he was smiling down at you like a cat who caught a mouse. “Don’t apologize, princess. I’m not upset, at all.” He chuckled. “Quite the opposite, actually.”

You looked into his eyes, searching for some reassurance. When you were sure he was telling the truth, you let out a bashful chuckle. You could feel your body buzzing with the new feeling running through your veins. Did it really have to stop here?

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*A/N* If you aren't up to date on this or simply want to re-read this, it will be posted on my masterlist! It's been too long since I continued this, but thanks to a friend I was able to find inspiration and motivation to continue writing!

[hansoeii]

the honda odyssey, huh?

[kiryuing]

[dreamsmthgold]

Do we think i will be able to pull off a stupid morning walk for my stupid mental health tomorrow? Doubtful, but not impossible

[happyheidi]

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

License to Kitty.

[onekisstotakewithme]

having online friends who are busy is just like. I LOVE YOU. I miss you. YOU GOT THIS. I'm giving you space to work. I LOVE YOU.

[emjaydoubleyou]

this post is fearmongering. the results of this study are concerning and should definitely be a matter of public discussion, but this is certainly not the conclusion the researchers came to.

the point of the study was to assess the risks of exposure to toxic metals- something one of the co-authors notes are “ubiquitous” fwiw- via menstrual products. Their research confirmed that these metals are indeed present in tampons, but no further conclusions are drawn. it is possible the metal entered into the cotton from the soil, which is a well-known phenomenon; cotton is so good at lifting heavy metals that it has actually been suggested as a part of the solution for revitalizing polluted ground.

the authors conclude with an acknowledgement that the study should be repeated- their sample size was 60 tampons- and a suggestion that further testing ought to be done to indicate whether or not these metals can even leech out of the tampon in the first place, let alone whether or not such leeching could occur at levels deleterious to human health.

there is, in fact, a body of research- too small, for sure, but much larger than this single study- indicating that long-term proper tampon use has no observable negative impact on health. i am grateful and thrilled that more research is being done and i hope that this study is the first of many on this line of questioning, but i am really frustrated at this post and the response it got.

obviously, if this study alters your approach to menstrual health, more power to you. consumers should be informed-risk-takers, and menstrual health is double-obviously a very personal choice. but it definitely wasn't the researchers concluding that you ought to “avoid using tampons at all cost," only this tumblr user did. the lead author of the paper, in fact, specifically says that she hopes people do NOT panic about the results.

(the notes of the post were disappointing. people affirming that they knew they were right to be suspicious of tampons all along, or even recommending alternatives that actually have very little to no research regarding the safety of long-term use, etc. it’s a different conversation, but categorical distrust of tampons is old-school misogyny. you certainly shouldn't wear them if you don’t want to, but there is nothing inherently scary or wrong about them, and people who prefer them are not being reckless or crass.)

((if you're really worried about exposure to heavy metals, you may want to turn a critical eye to fast fashion, as an aside))

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[rish-you-were-here]

Happy pride

[duckies-minsung-fanclub]

Here's to Hope

Han x fem!reader

Summary: Felix has been your friend since high school. He has been there for you from the start. From the debilitating migraines that land you in the hospital most of the time to the nightmare of your abusive ex, he was there. Lucky for you, his band mates became close with you as well after he followed his dream and became an idol. Because of your past relationship and the trauma it put you through, dating wasn't even on your mind. However, Han Jisung has grown attached to you and knows you went through hell in the past. How willing and patient can he be with you, though? Hope makes you give him a chance, but how much is he willing to go through to keep you? Here's to hope that he will help you pick up your broken pieces to put them back again.

Chapter One

You had known Felix since before his pre-debut days, supporting as a best friend should during his trainee days with the company. When he told you that he was going to be a K-pop idol, you couldn’t believe it. He fit the criteria, though. Cute, charming, talented. You just didn’t realize he was going to be in a group…of very attractive boys.

You could resist. Having a rocky relationship with a boy in high school kind of ruined relationships for you now. Being friends with guys was so much easier anyway.

That relationship in high school took a lot from you, though. Your confidence, innocence, positivity…your virginity. Felix was the only guy you could trust not to hurt you, and when your boyfriend at the time stole your virginity, Felix was your shoulder to cry on.

“She’s not interested in dating,” you heard Felix say. His tone was hushed, but you heard him. You glanced up to see him talking with Han and Chan. “Her past dating experience kind of…” his voice got quieter as he spoke. You know he was looking out for you, but it still irritated you that he was preventing anyone from even flirting with you.

“Y/N told me about it,” Chan mentioned. “Don’t push her, Hannie.”

Han Jisung was a major flirt, and you liked that. He made it clear the first time you two met that he found you attractive, and you couldn’t deny how attractive you found him as well. He was such a goofball, too. Class clown would have been his title if you went to school together.

Felix and Chan were right, however. You didn’t want to date. Innocent flirting and teasing you could handle, but dating just wasn’t an interest to you. The risk of getting hurt again made your skin crawl and your chest tighten.

Your head was throbbing, putting you in a bad mood, so you decided it would be best to leave the bustling noises of the dance studio and find somewhere quiet to rest. You walked up to Felix, hugging him around the waist.

“I think I’m going to find a quieter place; my head is pounding. It’s way too loud in here.” He wrapped his arms around you, resting his cheek on your head. “Just call me when you guys are ready to head back to the dorms.” Felix released you and nodded, letting you stumble out of the room to search for somewhere to rest.

You found a bench down the hall, plopping down onto it. Laying back, you placed your arm over your eyes and tried to meditate, your phone resting on your belly. Luckily, the building was pretty empty aside from the few quiet staff that would walk by.

You felt your phone vibrate and groaned as you answered it. “Yeah.”

“Are you doing okay?” Chan’s voice came through.

You sat up, blinking at the stars that formed. “Yeah, I’m good. Just a stupid headache. Can’t seem to get rid of it.” You wasn’t sure how long it had been since you left them to finish their dance practice, but since he was calling you had a good idea it was long enough for them to be finished.

“Hm, well, we are done practicing if you want to meet us in front of the building. Felix asked me to call you.” You could hear the concern in his voice.

You actually had an issue with migraines since you were a toddler, sometimes having them land you in the hospital. Chan’s concern was actually normal since he had known you for years now, and how he always acted like a big brother towards you.

You stood up, getting prepared to make the journey out of the building, only to fall forward onto the floor. The dizziness you felt was nauseating, forcing you to hold back the vomit that your stomach was trying to lurch up. Your phone slid about four feet in front of you, Chan’s shouting coming from it as you tried to compose yourself.

All you could do was lay your hot, sweaty face on the cold floor. Forget reaching for your phone, or even trying to talk. The world around you was spinning and you knew if you tried to move or talk, it would get worse.

Curling in on yourself and whimpering from the dizzying pain in your skull, you heard distant shouting and sneakers squeaking on the polished concrete tile floors. Each sound was excruciating, causing your brain to throb more.

“I found her!” You recognized Changbin’s voice. “Y/N, what happened?” He asked in a hushed tone as he knelt beside you. Within seconds, more squeaking from sneakers came closer.

You felt a hand wrap around your shoulders and legs, lifting you into the air and cradling you. “Hospital,” you heard Felix announce. “She needs to go to the hospital.” It was then you realized it was him carrying you. The swaying from his movements made you feel worse, and before you could say anything your world went black.

“She’s so pale,” Hyunjin whispered, fear and concern lacing his voice.

“This is a bad one, mate,” Chan noted to Felix. He already knew, though. Felix was holding back his tears as he rushed you out the front of the building into the van that usually transported them back home.

“Chan, drive! She’s unconscious!” Felix shouted, his anxiety too high. A few tears slipped through, but he quickly wiped them away and composed himself as everyone piled in. Han took position next to Felix and you, helping Felix to keep you in a safe position.

Everyone was beyond worried, but only Chan and Felix knew how bad this was, especially since you were unconscious. They were the only two who have ever seen you get this bad and knew if they didn’t get you treatment soon, you would be suffering much longer with the pain, dizziness and nausea.

Felix could remember the first time you had a migraine that was this bad. He remembered the fear he felt of his best friend blacking out in the middle of school as you two were walking to your next class. He went with you in the ambulance, refusing to leave you alone. When you came to you were embarrassed and tried to play it off like it wasn’t a big deal. Once your mom arrived, she explained to Felix just how bad these migraines could get and the danger it could have on you.

The next one happened after you arrived to stay with them. It had only been a couple days and the jet lag took a dangerous toll on you. Chan and Felix invited you to sit with them in the recording studio to hang out while they worked on some music. It wasn’t loud, and you never complained, but a few hours in you passed out and gave Chan a massive scare. Thankfully, Felix knew what to do and helped both you and Chan through it.

Today, you gave all of the guys a scare. Poor Jeongin was even silently crying in the back as Chan rushed to the hospital. He was so worried about his friend, even feeling guilty for not noticing your pain sooner.

Felix reached back and wiped Jeongin’s tears. He whispered comforting words to him as they arrived at the hospital. Everyone began exiting the van, Chan rushing into the building to get help.

Within an hour you were admitted into the hospital, still unconscious. All eight guys sat in the cramped waiting area, legs bouncing, nails being chewed on, and sniffles coming from a couple of them. Felix and Chan paced as they tried to patiently wait for a nurse or doctor to announce that you were fine and awake.

Finally, after almost three hours of nervously waiting a young female nurse came. “Party for Y/N.”

Felix rushed to her; Chan closes behind followed by the others. Her eyes widened in surprise as all eight members surrounded her. “She’s awake,” she took a deep breath and smiled shyly. “I’ll just take you all up to her room.”

As they followed, the nurse made small talk with Chan and Lee Know, joking about you having a group of young attractive boys doting after you. Chan made sure to clarify that they were only friends, not wanting the nurse to get the wrong idea.

Once they arrived in your room, Felix rushed to you and climbed in the bed with you. He pulled you close and held you tight, causing you to chuckle.

“I’m fine now, you guys!” You hugged him back regardless, watching as the others piled in. You noticed Jeongin’s red, puffy face and knew right away he had been crying. You pushed Felix off of you and motioned for the youngest to come to you. He took Felix’s spot, his sobs coming back as you held him. “I promise, I’m completely fine now. It could have been so much worse if Felix didn’t know what to do.” You continued to comfort Jeongin, though, knowing he was still very much worried about you.

“You have quite a posse,” a male voice sounded. You looked up and smiled at the doctor that had took care of you. “Who would you like me to give the medication orders to?”

“Channie will take them,” you replied, pointing to the eldest member. “He will make sure I get the medications. Thanks again for taking care of me.”

He handed him the papers, quietly explaining the medication orders and instructions. Chan listened carefully and nodded his understanding. After explaining, the doctor turned back to you with a soft smile. “Make sure you take the medications as instructed. I don’t want to see you back here unless it’s for a refill order. Take care.” He dismissed himself and left, giving you the okay to leave.

After leaving, Chan made sure to stop and get the new medication before you all went back to the dorms. You explained to the boys what the doctor told you.

“Apparently, this can be managed with medications. I can’t remember the name he used for them, but these migraines can actually be treated.” You explained. “He was actually surprised I didn’t have this dealt with sooner.”

“I’m just glad it can be helped without going to the hospital when it gets bad,” Felix announced. “I worry so much about you when have those migraines.” He held you close and played with your long, dark hair.

You leaned into him, holding onto Han’s hand as you sat in between them on the ride to the dorms. Chan was driving, and you noticed he would glance back at you periodically.

“Well, hopefully this medicine will prevent anymore worry,” Lee Know stated from the front passenger seat. He turned and looked back at you, so much love showing in his eyes as reached back and gently squeezed your knee. You gave him a small smile and nodded.

Once back at the dorms, Han insisted on holding your hand as you walked. “I was so worried; I just need to hold onto you to make sure you are safe.” You glanced up at him and noticed he was holding back tears. Before thinking, you wrapped your arms around his waist and pulled him close. He melted into your embrace and you could feel his gentle sobs as he held you tight.

“We were all very worried about you, Y/N.” Seungmin whispered as he exited the van. “You’re very important to us all because you are our best friend.”

You felt extremely loved in that moment. You knew Han had a major crush on you, but to know how much the others truly cared for you made your heart flutter. You couldn’t help the few stray tears that escaped.

You pulled away from Han, turning to each member and giving them all a hug. “I’m so grateful to have friends like you guys, even if you act like annoying brothers sometimes.” Your earned chuckles from the members, as well as a nudge from Felix.

When you turned to Hyunjin and hugged him he lifted you off your feet and spun you gently. “We love you so much, Y/N.”

“I love you guys, too.”

**A/N

I'm reposting it guys!!! I'm happy with what revisions I've made thus far, so here goes nothing! This chapter had no revisions, but future chapters have some or have been completely rewritten. Please, enjoy and give me feedback! If you want to be added to my taglist just comment or send me a message! ❤️

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"got your nose"

[atlasecrets]

i had a "fuck it" moment last night and decided to be intentional in my desire to heal and get better and it's like i could physically feel the moment when i got a bit of my spark back + i got so many compliments today. it's hard and it's a constant effort to not fall into negative thoughts, but i'm done abandoning myself just because other people did. i'm the only one who's got my back right now and i need to stand up and show up for myself every single day

[geezmarty]

(bellara/taash) nerd/jocks lovers rise up

[obscurecrows]

free yourself