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quicksilverownsmysoul · 4 years ago

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13 Going on 30 pt.1

A Peter Maximoff x reader fanfiction based off the movie 13 going on 30.

Summary: You are so excited when the most popular girl in your school agrees to come to your 13th birthday party. But after a cruel prank you find yourself wishing that you were popular and older. By some miracle your wish is granted but isn’t as wonderful as it seems. You turn out to be a major jerk and you don't even talk to your best friend Peter anymore. Can you fix everything and get back to normal or are you stuck living like this forever

Warnings: Angst and some suggestive content. But it’s mostly pure fluff. (Also peter has no powers in this and some scenes will be changed to better fit Peter and so I can be creative with it!)

Word Count: 2759

I am so excited to share this fic with y’all! 13 going on 30 is one of my favorite comfort movies and I thought that adding Peter Maximoff to it would make it even better.

It was 1987 and your birthday party was next week. You were so excited you could barely contain yourself. You were turning 13, you were finally becoming a teenager. It was time to abandon all childish things and live a life of adventure and romance. One that all the movies told you was guaranteed once you became a teenager. You were writing in your notebook during lunch checking off the things you had already gotten for your birthday party. “Balloons, check. Party favors, check. The cutest outfit, check!”

“Your best friend in the whole world who is getting you the best present. Check!” Peter added as he sat down across from you, dropping his lunch tray down on the table. You just rolled our eyes at him.“So I was thinking for this year we should go to the arcade then get ice cream.” Peter muttered his mouth full of the school’s signature sloppy joe sandwich. “Cause if I eat too much ice cream before we play that dance game you love, I'm gonna get sick again.” Some of the sandwich meat dripped out of the corner of his mouth. You handed him a napkin to wipe it, not even disgusted at this point.

You and Peter had been best friends since birth. You had lived right next to each other as kids and you had done everything together. Learning how to walk, the loss of your first tooth, the first day of school. Always together no matter what. That’s what made you so nervous to tell him what was on your mind. “Actually, I was thinking of having a party this year.” You gave him a nervous smile.

“What?!” He choked out in the midst of a coughing fit having nearly choked on his milk. Kids turned around to look at him and you shushed him. ”Peter stop shouting.” You scolded through gritted teeth.

He spoke up again this time, his voice back to it’s normal level. “But it’s always just us.”

You winced, you had figured he was going to respond like this. “I know, I know. But hear me out.” Peter sat back in his chair, arms crossed. “Lucy said she’d come to the party this year, and she’d bring Dylan! You know how much I like him.” You gushed and Peter narrowed his eyes at you.

“How did you convince the most popular girl in school to come to your party?”

“Way harsh peter.” You reached over to his tray attempting to steal one of his fries. His hand slapped yours away. “You make it sound like she doesn't even know I exist.”

“That’s exactly what I’m implying, you and I are at the bottom of the social food chain and you know it.” He pushed his chair back even further, now only balancing on two legs. “What did you do?”

“Nothing,” You defended.

He held your gaze with narrowed eyes as you tired your best to maintain eye contact. The minute you looked away he knew he had you. “I know you're lying (y/n). When you can’t look me in the eye you’re hiding something. Spill it.”

You muttered really quickly. “Imayormaynothavedoneherhomeworkforthepastmonth.”

He gave you an exasperated look. “What?”

“I said I may or may not have done her homework for the past month.”

He gave you a disapproving look. “Don’t look at me like that. “ You pouted. “It was the only way she was going to bring Dylan.”

“I don't even know why you want that guy at your party. Or Lucy for that matter. They’re all a bunch of jerks.” Peter got up to put his tray away. You shoved your notebook back into your bag and got up to follow him.

“You don’t even know them Peter.”

“Neither do you.” You frowned at him before turning on your heel and walking away from him. “(y/n) wait.” You sped up and he sped up with you. He caught up to you and grabbed your arm. You refused to look at him.

Peter’s harsh look softened and his grip on your arm loosed. “Look.” His voice lowered to a whisper. “ I just don’t want you getting hurt.”

You gave him a soft smile. “I won’t especially not with my best friend around.” You bumped your shoulder into his. He returned your smile after a while and your face lit up. “It’s going to be fun!”

“If you say so.”

On the day of your party you couldn't even sit still for a single second. Pacing by the front door waiting for Lucy and her friends to arrive. The doorbell rang and you threw open the door, but your smile dropped when you saw it was just Peter. “Oh, it’s you.”

“Geez, it's good to see you too.” He pushed his way into your house as you closed the door behind him.

“Sorry I just thought it was Lucy.”

“And you were disappointed when it was me.” He joked making himself at home on your couch.

“You know that’s not what I meant.”

“No, I get it. Suddenly you get new friends and I’m old news. Hung out to dry. Dead and buried without a moment to grieve.” He milked his performance trying to make you feel guilty. You sat down next to him knocking his feet off your mother’s coffee table.

“Shut up.” You laughed, he watched you and smiled. You noticed the keyboard strapped to his chest and groaned. “Did you have to bring your keyboard?”

“Duh. It’s part of your gift.”

“I hope that’s not all you got me.”

“Hey!” He mocked being hurt by your words. “And it’s not by the way.” He sat up and made his way to your front door. “I gotta go get it, I left it on your doorstep.” He opened the door and was gone for a minute, making you anxious with anticipation. He poked his head through the doorway and a sweet smile plastered on his lips. “Close your eyes.”

You quickly covered your eyes with your hands. You heard Peter’s sneakers shuffling as he made his way closer to you. “No peeking.”

“I’m not!”

“Yes you are, I can see you looking through the slits of your fingers.” You giggled at the accusation and squeezed your eyes even tighter. You felt the couch dip from his weight as he sat back down next to you. You feel his hands close around yours, and the small action making you blush. He carefully removed your hands from your eyes. “Ta-da!”

Sitting on the coffee table front of you was a huge handmade pink doll house. “I decided to make you your own (y/n) dream house.” Your eyes widened taking it all in. It was beautiful.

“Petey did you make all this?” You asked, heart swelling at the sweet action.

“Yeah,” He admitted a little embarrassed. He scooted closer to the table. “See that’s you in your bubble bath. Reading your favorite magazine” It was a Barbie doll with a picture of your face tape on it. You giggled.” And there’s your room with the giant closet you’ve always wanted and a huge stereo collection. I know how much you love music. And there’s that bum Rick Springfield, sitting on the couch.” As you took in all the details you fell even more in love with the house. Peter had put so much time into this and you adored it.

“And uh, there’s me.” He smiled sheepishly. A picture of him was glued to a piece of cardboard. His picture was making that ‘I’m watching you’ gesture at Rick Springfield. “I’m making sure that creep keeps his hands to himself. He’s only here for his musical talents, nothing else.” You smiled at him. He smiled back and for a second you could have sworn he glanced down at your lips. “Oh! I almost forgot.” He pulled out a red packet and shook it lightly. “Wishing dust.”

You scooted closer to him so you guys could read the package together. “It says wishing dust knows what’s in your heart of hearts. They’ll make all your dreams come true.” He whispered the last part, his eyes cast downward as you watched him rip open the package. He stood up and sprinkled the dust down on the house. You watched in wonder as all the different colors rained down together and decorated the whole house in a pretty shimmer. Your eyes met his and you could feel yourself tearing up. He was so sweet and he didn't even know how much this meant to you.

Just then the doorbell rang and you jumped to your feet. “They’re here!” You wiped away the tears that threatened to fall really quickly before dashing to the door.

“Yay.” Peter cheered sarcastically. You ignored him and sprinted to open the door. Lucy was there along with her friends and Dylan in the back. She was wearing a neon pink dress, the same one you had begged your mom to buy you last week. She had said no obviously.

“Hi Lucy! Thanks for coming!” She just gave you a tight smile and let herself in. She looked around your living room and a sneer made its way to her face when she saw Peter on your couch fiddling with his keyboard.

“Sup Freak.” Lucy shot Peter a sickly sweet smile.

“Sup slut.” Peter replied, mirroring her smile. You felt your mouth open in shock and shot him a deadly look. Lucy just pressed on trying to get a reaction out of Peter.

“I see your hair is still as gray and as ugly as ever.”

“At least my hair is naturally this color. From the look of your roots you should really look into getting a better stylist. You ain’t fooling anybody honey.”

They continued to glare at each other until Lucy finally broke away from his gaze and turned to face you. “Where is this party happening anyway.”

“It’s um downstairs, in the basement.” You motioned towards it, Lucy and her friends made their way down the steps. Peter followed them carrying your dollhouse, but you held your arm out to stop him. “What was that? Why were you being such a jerk?”

“She started it!”

You huffed. “I know, but it’s my party so please try to be nice to her.” He opened his mouth to say something but then decided against it. He pushed past your arm and went down the stairs to the basement. Taking two at a time.

“So this is it.” Lucy picked at the neon colored table cloth. You didn't know what to say as she looked around. “What are we going to do anyway?”

“Well we could play twister, Peter is really good at it.” Peter gave a small salute in acknowledgement as they glanced towards him. “Or we could watch a movie.”’ You said excitedly, making your way over to the VHS rack.” I have a lot of good ones.``

“Lame.” Lucy announced and her friends echoed in agreement.

You felt embarrassed of thinking that they would enjoy such childish things. “Why don't we play a new game?” Lucy suggested.

“What kind of game?” Peter asked, suspicion laced in his tone.

“A fun one.” She made her way towards you and placed her hand on your shoulder as she turned to address Peter. “Not that you would know anything about fun Maximoff.”

“Not that you would know anything about fun.” Peter mocked back in a high pitched tone.

“Real mature.” Peter stuck his tongue out at her.

She turned back to you. “Let’s play seven minutes in heaven.” She leaned in even closer. “You can go first (y/n), and I think you’ll like who you get.” She glanced back and you followed her gaze towards Dylan. He shot you a smile and you felt yourself blush.

All of a sudden you heard your mom. “(y/n)!” Your mother yelled down the stairs. “Your cake is here come and get it!”

“Peter go get it.” Lucy commanded.

“What? No.” He scoffed. You met his gaze and shot him a pleading look. “Fine.” He put the dollhouse away in your closet on the top shelf and made his way to the stairs. “Thanks Petey.”

“Yeah, yeah.”

Lucy took off her scarf from around her neck and placed it over your eyes, knotting it tightly in the back. She led you towards the closet and you felt your heart rate pick up. You could hear the giggles of her friends as they closed the door. You stood there in the darkness waiting for Dylan to come in. It had been a while since Lucy had led you to the closet, you sat down putting your arms around your knees hugging them close.

Peter came back down the stairs carrying your cake, as he was coming down Lucy was going up the stairs, her friends trailing behind her. “Hey where are you going?”

She didn't answer, just smiled at him placing a hand on his shoulder. “(y/n) is waiting for you in the closet.” He gave her a confused look, he didn't know he was part of this game. Lucy and her friends continued up the steps, Dylan swiped your cake with his finger smearing the icing and eating it. Peter yanked it away and continued down into the basement. Madonna was playing softly in the background, he put the cake on the table and made his way to the closet, opening the door. He saw you sitting there on the floor, you upon hearing the door squeak open were smiling up at him. “I didn't think you were going to come.”

He nervously smiled back at you and sat down on the floor across from you. You reached your hands out towards him. “Where are you?” He let his hands find yours, fingers intertwined in one another. He had held your hand before but this time it felt so different. He saw you lean in and he did the same. He was inches away from your lips when you whispered. “Oh Dylan.” He pulled back abruptly.

“It’s not Dylan, It’s Peter.” You yanked your hands away from his and tore the scarf away from your eyes.

“What are you doing here?” You felt panic take over you. “Where is Dylan?”

“He left. They all did, no one is here.” You stood up and saw that Peter was right. Your snack table stood untouched and Lucy, and Dylan were no where to be found. You immediately turned on Peter. “What did you do?”

Peter looked at you in disbelief. “Nothing!”

“Yes you did!” You were screaming at him at this point.

“I just went to get your cake!” He screamed back.

“Get out.” you whispered. Peter looked at you, clearly hurt that you were pushing him away. “GET OUT!” You screamed as you pushed him out of the closet.

“(y/n) wait!” He tried holding the door open as you desperately tried shutting it. “(y/n) let me talk to you!”

“Peter stop.” You cried.

“(y/n)-”

“No!” You managed to shut the door and lock it. You sat back down on the floor and put the blindfold back over your eyes.

“(y/n) Please!” You could hear Peter on the other side of the door even with your hands covering your ears. “Please come out!”

“I hate you!” You screamed as his voice stopped.

“You don’t mean that.” He muttered, tears of his own threatening to spill.

“Yes I do! I hate you! I hate me! I hate everything!” You were so angry and embarrassed and that you really thought Lucy was your friend. And that you were going to get to kiss Dylan.

“(y/n) what are you talking about?”

“I want to be thirty!” You wailed through your tears.

“Just let me play you this song.” Peter yelled back. He slung his keyboard over his head and started to mess with it trying to find the right key. “It’ll make you feel better!”

You ignored him continuing to cry. “I wanna be thirty! I wanna be thirty and flirty and thriving.” You swing your head back shaking the shelf behind you. The wishing dust from the dollhouse fell down all around you but you didn't even notice. You could faintly hear Peter playing some tune on his keyboard but you ignored it. Just muttering through your tears over and over how you wanted to be thirty, flirty and thriving. At the moment you wanted to be anywhere but there.

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glen-communist · 4 years ago

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Consider the Sunflower for a Long Moment

This is another essay I wrote for a college creative writing class. The concept for this essay is based on the essay "Joyas Voladoras" by Brian Doyle, which can be found here: https://theamericanscholar.org/joyas-volardores/#.Xw3pLS2z1p8

There are around 70 species of sunflowers; the most common of which is known as Helianthus annuus. The tallest sunflower ever grown was 30 ft, despite the average of taller sunflowers being around 10-15 ft. Smaller, or dwarf, sunflowers average around 1-2 ft. The notorious color of their heads ranges from vibrant, sun yellow to warm, blood red. All species of sunflower originate in the Western hemisphere, originally being cultivated by natives in the Americas. Young sunflower heads follow the movement of the sun throughout the day. Starting in the East and moving West. This continual stream of sunlight is essential to sunflower growth. Adult sunflowers always face Eastward, no longer moving with the sun. They watch the morning sun rise and are content until the next day, now that they no longer require the gift of sunlight for growth. Hidden within the head of the sunflower is the Fibonacci sequence – a sequence of numbers where each number is the sum of the previous two numbers. If you were to count the clockwise and counterclockwise seed spirals on the sunflower’s face, you would likely find that they are a pair of numbers in the Fibonacci sequence. Perhaps the reason sunflowers are considered so beautiful is the mathematical perfection of their faces.

The sunflower has always been a cultural symbol and muse. In early civilizations of the Americas, sunflowers were worshiped as a symbol for the sun and life. Today, they are praised as one of the most beautiful species of flowers. Sunflowers have sparked creative masterpieces by world famous painter, Vincent Van Gogh. The sunflower is often used as a symbol for Green politics and political parties. Sunflowers are also the symbol of The Vegan Society. There are entire communities of sunflower growers, all hoping to grow the tallest or most magnificent. The sunflower holds a lot of spiritual and personal significance to people. For myself, the sunflower conjures up memories of my mother in her kitchen covered in sunflower decor, or my best friend brushing her beautiful yellow hair, revealing our matching sunflower tattoos, mine on my back and hers on her arm. It could be the happy yellow color that is associated with sunflowers or the resemblance of the sun and life that causes sunflowers evoke a powerful feeling in most people, typically happiness.

Sunflowers are not perfect. They are likely to droop given the top-heavy structure of their bodies. They are also prone to wilting if they are not well watered. Most sunflower enthusiasts support their sunflowers with stakes and poles to attempt to keep them upright. But, when they are fully mature and seeding, they will naturally droop over to drop their seeds, and the life cycle will continue on, again. It can be difficult and tedious to start growing sunflowers, and there are countless websites offering advice and support on the task. Sunflowers need to have six to eight hours of direct sunlight per day. They need nutrient rich, somewhat alkaline soil that is a least 60 degrees. The seeds should be planted no more than an inch deep and about six inches apart. Once the sunflower has started to grow, they should be watered deeply but infrequently with at least several gallons of water per plant. If the sunflower is particularly tall, it may need to be supported by a stake to keep it from prematurely drooping under its own weight. However, drooping is inevitable when the sunflowers reach full maturity, or the season ends. Perhaps it is fitting that a flower so closely associated with the sun would droop down towards the ground in its death.

Drooping is a common phenomenon in the life cycle of all flora. If a picky flora is not in its ideal conditions for survival, it will likely droop down, shrivel up, and die off. This is particularly common within flora that was cut from its roots to be put on display or propagated. A single drooping rose, or a bouquet of drooping flowers is used to symbolize the end of love or life in artwork and literature. However, this sign of an ending cycle is not always negative. When a sunflower droops down in nature, it is spreading its seeds onto the ground and into the air to be carried off. The end of one cycle means the beginning of another. Despite their tendency to droop and die, we still keep flora in our homes for their beauty and fragrance. It is not enough to keep a garden outside. Beautiful bouquets of flowers are given to loved ones on anniversaries and holidays. We even replicate flora through plastic plants, so we can enjoy the beauty without the hassle of taking care of them. However, there are also collectors of dead flora; those that keep dead flowers pressed in books or hanging up on the wall as a beautiful, yet sad reminder of the natural life cycle.

Dying in the case of flora means repeating the life cycle or becoming a symbol of beauty or the passage of time. Dying for fauna means something different. Nature has a way of keeping balance between fauna. The natural food chain is in place to promote prosperity at all levels of life. Natural selection guarantees that only the strong and smart genes survive in a species. The gazelle caught by the lion on the African plains, or the species of bird starving to death due to a malformation of its beak are examples of this natural order. Dying for fauna means feeling pain. An injured coyote yelping after stumbling across a metal human trap. A freshly caught fish frantically flopping about suffocating on a dock. This pain is natural; human beings are not the only reason fauna feel pain, but they may be the source of that pain for most.

Now consider the fauna that have adapted to survive with humans the same way that flora have. Just as sunflowers are widely grown for human pleasure, pets are able to live side-by-side with humans exchanging companionship for survival. While your dog’s cousin - the wolf - is fighting for food and shelter in the wilderness, your pup is begging for tummy scratches and treats. The stray cat in the alley that refuses to be tamed by humans will likely die before the domesticated pet cat that puts up with some human attention every now and again. It is possible for fauna to live in harmony with humans, and even die without pain. The pet dog that gets diagnosed with cancer can be harmlessly put down by the local vet, instead of struggling through its last days suffering in pain. These faunae lucky enough to live beside humans can circumvent the food chain altogether. Unless of course in a vain attempt at escaping to freedom, the pet dog gets lost to starve or the pet cat gets scooped up by a circling eagle.

However, not every fauna is successful at using humans for their survival. There are over 14,000 animal shelters in the United States that take in abandoned and surrendered pets. Humans replace living houseplants with plastic ones for the same reason they may surrender their pet to a shelter, taking care of another life can be a hassle. Although, this is not the case for every pet. In most situations, owners move away, grow old, or can no longer afford to provide for their animal companion. Yet, we still hear about cases of animal abuse and neglect. There are television shows dedicated to rescuing abandoned and abused pets from their owners or lack thereof. A pet dog chained outside on a blazing hot day without shade or water is in danger of dehydration or heatstroke. Large numbers of pet cats that are hoarded to a point of starvation or unsanitary living conditions are likely to be ill and distressed. Animal abuse and neglect, whether intentional or a product of mental distress, impacts nearly one million pets in the United States each year. Not watering your sunflower garden is not nearly as dangerous as not caring for your pets, but both scenarios often end with the same consequence of neglect, death.

Despite their inevitable demise, we still keep flora and fauna in our homes. As human beings, we willingly bring in potted plants and adopt pets knowing that their life cycles will likely end before ours. We subject ourselves to this loss. But we also subject ourselves to their lives. Watching a sunflower blossom, grow, and bloom is just satisfying enough to be content with their loss. Pets can bring so much joy, companionship, and comfort into our lives, but they too will pass away, eventually. The necessary yet temporary happiness that beloved plants and pets provide is enough to keep us satisfied, but not forever. Humans are always looking for companionship. It is a lifelong pursuit for most people to find a partner, to find love. Even if a person’s life is full of plants and pets, they will likely be searching for more human connections. This desire for companionship with other humans causes pain, too. Heartbreak is not just reserved for the loss of a beloved pet. Heartbreak comes with rejection, breakups, lost relationships, and lost friendships. Yet, we keep searching for our people. Despite the pain that we suffer along the way, human beings are always putting themselves out there in the lifelong search for companionship and, even, love. We will always bring pets and houseplants into our lives knowing that we will outlive them for the same reason that we keep going on dates and joining new groups; humans don’t want to be alone.

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wehavethoughts · 5 years ago

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World War Z Review!

World War Z: An Oral History of the Zombie War By Max Brooks Zombie/Science Fiction Novel Broadway Paperback, 2006

Rating: 1/5 Waves

Content Warnings for World War Z: Violence, Gore, Body Horror, Rape/Sexual Assault (non-explicit), Death, Self-harm, Suicide, Suicide Ideation, Racism, Slurs/Derogatory Language, Sexism (misogyny and internalized misogyny)

This review CONTAINS spoilers for World War Z: An Oral History of the Zombie War.

Plot Summary: Ten years after the culmination of the greatest conflict in human history, an interviewer for the United Nations has traveled the globe collecting stories about survival, loss and heroism. These interviews outline the complete history of World War Z: what happened, why it happened and how the world was rebuilt. The world survived, but at what cost?

Before we get started, you should know I am not a zombie connoisseur. In fact, zombies are probably my least favorite of the Science Fiction/Fantasy (SFF) monsters. Sure, I know the concepts and basic rules of zombies like most American media consumers, but I never cared for the concept. Even during the boom of Zombie/End of the World/Dystopian fiction that flooded the market in the 00’s and 10’s, I couldn’t get behind the genre. Why? Mostly because zombies were scary and I am a wimp, but it’s critically important for you to know that my negative feelings regarding the zombie genre are not why I gave this book such a bad review. The zombies were honestly my favorite part. The problem I had with this book was the humans.

To say this book is all bad would be an outright lie; the premise itself was enough to invoke more than a passing interest. World War Z is written as a collection of interviews from people who survived the zombie war and so it is essentially a series of short stories that all take place in the same world and illuminate different sides of this fictional global conflict. Most zombie media, in my experience, is incredibly American-centric so when this book opens with Dr. Kwang Jingshu, the Chinese doctor who identified Patient Zero, it sparked my interest. World War Z does such a great job making sure the reader remembers that there is a great wide world out there and that the zombie apocalypse is coming for everyone. We get perspectives that I had never even considered like from the astronauts at the International Space Station. This book also does a great job of keeping the story moving. Max Brooks did excellent work because even though each interview is its own independent story, the stories further the narrative in essential and creative ways. No one’s story feels extraneous and they flow together which is no easy feat for a book containing over 42 independent short stories.

I also loved the implicit hope ingrained in the very structure of the book. Each of the characters that are interviewed have survived the zombie war, for better or for worse. Most other zombie media that I have seen gets its tension off of the ‘Will They Survive?’ question hanging over each character’s head; but World War Z guarantees that at least the narrator of each chapter is alive at the end of the war, so the author has to be more creative with how he builds and releases tension. There is a level of creativity and imagination that really makes the world stand out from all of the other zombie apocalypse media that I have seen.

One obvious manifestation of this creativity is the zombies themselves-- which are clearly zombies that the American consciousness recognizes-- with a few fun twists that keep the imagination engaged. When an author wants to take a well known SSF monster, like zombies or werewolves or vampires, and make them their own, they walk a very fine line: if they are not careful, the audience will not recognize the monsters. Max Brooks did great in making the zombies a recognizable threat that the average reader can make correct assumptions about, while also surprising us in ways that make sense within the logic of the story. For example, these zombies can walk under water until their decomposition gasses cause them to float. That is a fun twist that allows the author to create terrifying images of people trying to swim to safety and being pulled under the water and never surfacing, or of zombies climbing ship anchors in the dead of night. Very scary. I love it.

So why in the world did I give this book my lowest possible rating? It’s the people. This book is composed of 57 interviews from 42 unique characters and not a single one was likeable. Nearly ever character utilizes racist or derogatory language to the point that I learned new derogatory words. I shudder to think what my search history looks like from an outside perspective. The book does a good job of showing that just because you survive doesn’t mean you are a good person, but it almost goes out of its way to show that you have to be (or at least become over time) a terrible person to overcome this type of hardship. The humans in this book are at times orders of magnitude more terrifying than the zombies.

There are, of course, a few characters that the author was very clearly trying to make sympathetic, and it would have worked if the character’s internal monologues had not turned their derogatory language inward. Instead of cursing other races or genders or religions, these characters made a point to remind the audience that they were lazy or stupid or fat or useless, and that they honestly believed they should have died (and some more than considered suicide as an option). Unfortunately, for me these were the characters that were most relatable as far as their character background. It was exhausting. It was demoralizing. It was bullshit. Average people, without military training and without a bloodthirsty drive to kill, kill, kill, have their own strengths and can be the heroes of their own story. Not in this book, though.

Finally, and probably the biggest reason this book is rated so poorly is the treatment of the women narrators. The first time we hear from a woman narrator is page 91 of this 420-page book. There are 42 unique narrators in this book, yet less than 10 are women. I understand 2006 was a very different time but even if I forgive the severe lack of representation, I can’t forgive the stories that centered around these women which vary from ‘yikes!’ to ‘Jesus Christ why would you do that?’ Two of the women end up ‘crazy’, either feral or prone to delusions and hallucinations. One ends up essentially a prisoner in a baby factory, doomed to spend the rest of her life producing as many children as she can before she dies. Most of these narrators also show pretty clear internalized misogyny that remains unchallenged and in some cases reinforced. And those are just the women narrators. It is clear throughout the narrative that women across the world were harshly abused during the zombie war. Yet, unlike some of the environmental and governmental messages which came back at that end and showed how the world was fixing itself, the sexism is never addressed. With how much thought clearly went into this book, how the women characters are treated sends a clear and toxic message.

Tldr; With cool zombies, and a creative premise I cannot tell you how much I wanted to like this book, but it was highly offensive and left me feeling exhausted by the end. I cannot honestly recommend this book to anyone.

~TideMod

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matildainmotion · 5 years ago

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On Staying Put in the Pot of Life as Far as Possible

No, I don’t have a cure for the Coronavirus, though I hope there may be something helpful for our collective health in here. The virus was not the bug that started this blog. It was something, someone else.

Recently a woman, six years younger than me, mother to three children at my son’s school, died of cancer. I did not know her. I do not know her husband or her children, but I know plenty of people that do. Such a loss is felt across the whole community. I think of her, and of her family, daily now. Alongside the love I send them silently, is the thought that it could have been me, that it could be my husband, my children, left behind.

This is not a new thought. I have heard other mothers talk about it too, the sudden sense of responsibility they had on becoming mothers to do their level best to stay alive. “When I go to cross a road,” a new mother once said to me, “I now tell myself I mustn’t mess it up.” For me the thought pre-dates even motherhood because my maternal grandmother did not make it across the road – she died of Lupus when my mother was eight years old. The night after her death my grandfather committed suicide. As children do, I absorbed this story in my mother’s milk, in the smell of her, the sound of her. My father was a jewish refugee from Nazi Germany, so I had a dose of loss from him as well. Consequently, despite the fact that I have lived an incredibly privileged and protected life to date, I have a hidden ‘loss alarm’ inside me.

My loss alarm is like one of those annoying, over-sensitive smoke detectors that goes off every time you burn a bit of toast, as if the house were on fire. Except toast is not the trigger. Every time I hear a story of untimely loss, it goes off. Panic follows. There is no handy ‘re-set’ button on my loss alarm – it can sound out, keeping me awake, for weeks. The stories that trigger it can be newspaper headlines: terrorist attacks; aeroplane crashes; gun men; refugees who lose their lives as they attempt to flee. Or they can be more personal: a friend of a friend I knew who died in a fall at work; a boy near our village who slipped into a grain silo; someone’s sister hit by a car – each of these sets off my loss-alarm.

Let me be clear, the kind of panic I feel is not the same as that which is currently sweeping the world and causing the shelves in shops to empty of hand sanitizer and ibuprofen. I am not afraid of death. I feel nervous about death, but in the way I feel nervous before stepping on to a stage – a slight excitement about not knowing what is going to happen. At the moment bath bombs are all the rage in our house, and my latest fantasy of death is that it will be like fizzing away until there is nothing tangible left of me, whilst the ether around where I was turns a funky, joyful colour. The panic I feel is not about death, but loss – what those left behind will have to undergo. Before I became a mother I was afraid of the grief that I might feel. Now, whilst that still scares me, the loss-alarm sounds loudest when I think of my children, left bereft.

I have tried many different tactics over the years to shore up against this loss, different ways to try to muffle or mute the wailing of the alarm. Obviously, the best way to avoid it is to do what I can to help myself, and those I love, to stay alive. Just looking both ways and crossing the road with care does not seem good enough. There is still the risk of error, of bad luck, of reckless drivers, misplaced banana skins, or thunderbolts out of the blue. I am making light of it because it is hard to write about – it feels unbearable. I understand why the king and queen in Sleeping Beauty did not want to invite the thirteenth fairy to their baby’s christening, and then, after the fairy had gate-crashed with her curse, wished to rid the kingdom of all spinning wheels, to make misfortune, as far as possible, impossible. No needles allowed anywhere, so that their daughter may stay forever safe, awake, alive.

How to live with the knowledge that survival is not guaranteed? In fact the reverse is true – death is definite. Life, not so much. When I was younger I felt that if the facts were against me, I would have to resort to magic. ‘Magical thinking’ is a strange phrase – it sounds rather wonderful but it can refer to a form of mental disorder. On Wikipedia it is defined as “the false belief that one's thoughts, actions, or words will cause or prevent a specific consequence in some way that defies commonly understood laws of causality.” If I burn all the spinning wheels in the land, my daughter will be safe. If I count to ten and touch wood twice before I cross the road then I won’t get run over. When I was eight, in the mornings before school, I would ask my mother to promise me that she would not die that day. I knew she could not do this – there are dangerous roads to be crossed every day - but I hoped the promise had a magical power that might ensure her survival. As a teenager, my years of anorexia were another magical-thought practice, a way of starving to stay alive: if I can control my weight, eat impossibly little, then loss will never touch me. In my twenties I moved from magical thoughts to magical acts, training as a circus aerialist. Often aerialists are aligned with angels, people perfecting the art of flight. Not me. I was training in the art of holding on hard, with hands, toes, backs of my knees, neck, the fold of my hips. If I could get magically good at gripping, I would never have to lose myself, or anyone else.

The problem is, it doesn’t work. These are frightened magical practices. They put you under a spell of fear. The part of me that still engages in magical thought, believes that writing a blog like this is tantamount to suicide, that if I admit the possibility that loss could happen, then it will. It feels like signposting Sleeping Beauty towards the spinning wheel. But there are plenty of stories in which the protagonist’s very attempt to escape the feared fate, brings it about. Banish the fairy and she is sure to haunt you forever. Such a haunted life is not much of a life. I know - I’ve lived it. It’s not very magical. So here I am, a mother in my forties, still aware of that loss-alarm, wondering what better ways I could respond to it than by self-isolating, trying to avoid the many spinning wheels, sharp and whirring, in the world. And there is so much danger and loss around these days, loss of people, animals, entire landscapes, loss of life as we know it. So much loss that my alarm has been sounding almost constantly for months now and I have not been sleeping. I am tired. I’d love to sleep for a hundred years. But I can’t and anyway it’s not the answer. What’s to be done?

As ever I think the answer is right here, beside me. My daughter is on the bed, scribbling on my notebook as I type this. My children are beginning to teach me some other, more helpful responses to loss. Motherhood is fraught with loss. It comes with the territory. I don’t think you can make a life without becoming intimate with the possibility of losing it. Infertility, miscarriage, childbirth, still birth. I have been very lucky. I remember looking over my midwife’s shoulder as she filled in a form, after the birth of my daughter: ‘Infant born 10.08pm,’ she wrote in one square, and then in the next square, she noted down the word, ‘alive,’ and I thought at once of how it might have been a different word. One of our first jobs as mothers is to give birth. If we survive and the children survive, I think our last job is to die, to make way for them to step into the role of being the generation in charge. From start to finish motherhood is a glorious, dangerous business, not for the faint-hearted, which is not to say you need to be tough-hearted. It is, I hope, slowly teaching me instead to become more whole-hearted – to be able to hold the whole lot.

A passage that has always helped me accept the spinning wheels and their sharp needles is the one in Kahil Gibran’s The Prophet on joy and sorrow, in which sorrow is framed as a creative act:

“The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain. Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter’s oven?....”

Carving, containing, holding are the verbs used here for understanding and processing loss. An alarm instructs you to leave the building, evacuate the vessel. Here is a different response: stay put, Gibran says, create a container, to hold the joy and the sorrow. I think good art is just this - a container. Be it a story, a painting, a poem or a pot – each is good at holding things. At bedtime my daughter listens to the teachings of another great spiritual poet: Winnie the Pooh. In one Pooh story the sad, grey donkey, Eeyore has a rare moment of joy when Pooh gives him, “A Useful Pot to Keep Things in” for his birthday. “You can keep anything in it,” Pooh explains, even sad things, like Eeyore’s other present, a burst balloon, and Eeyore is delighted. So that’s what I need then. Not an alarm, but a pot. A pot, not only for loss, but for the lot. Spending my life, however much I have of it, making that kind of pot feels like something I can do. That is what the novel I am writing is meant to be. And when I have finished that one, I will start on another totally impractical, utterly vital pot, a holding vessel. This is a braver magic.

I wonder also how I might integrate such a pot-making process consciously back within my mothering. Most evenings, as soon as it gets dark, my son declares that he is sad. He starts a count down, “By the time I get to ‘one’, I will have sadness overload,” he says, “You have to do something before that happens!” He starts the countdown, “Ten…nine…eight…seven….six….” What can I do? I only have six seconds left! I am tempted to rely on frightened magic, to pretend that I can keep all the bad things away, banish the beasts and the viscous fairies. I can’t. “Two…one…zero.” My son collapses on the floor.

“How are you doing?” I say.

“I’m so sad I can’t move,” he replies.

“Can you move your toes?”

“No.”

“That’s bad. I’ll have to carry you upstairs.” And, for now, I can still carry my great long-legged eight year old, and he rather enjoys it when I make groaning noises to show how heavy he is.

“Can you make it up the last two steps?” I say.

“Just about.”

Bit by bit, day by day, we practice our pot-making, bearing the things that seem unbearable, overloading with sadness and discovering that actually we can hold the load. This is not a fire drill. We are staying in the building. I am grateful for every day we get to practice.

I am still determined to do what I can to stay alive. But I believe that actually writing a blog like this, letting loss come to the party, inviting the thirteenth fairy, leaving the land whirring with spinning wheels, is my best chance at surviving. Not because my words will immortalise me, but literally, that my writing helps me keep on living, just right here, sitting on the bed, after another sleepless night, with the sun falling over my left hand typing this, and my right in shadow. So by all means wash your hands for twenty seconds, the current advice for the prevention of the spread of the Coronavirus, but as you do so, also for twenty seconds, ask yourself this: What helps you not just stay alive, but stay put in life? How do you hold it all? What useful pots do you have or are you making?

Mothers Who Make is itself meant to be a pot – a place for women who already hold a lot to come together and help hold one another. We have, in turn, put out a ‘pot’ to the world recently to ask for help in our work as we are currently unfunded. I’m busking here, online. If you like this blog and want to support me, and other MWM-ers, to sustain us in our pot-making, then please go here, and for £3 per month, become a ‘Matron Saint’ of our cause. And ultimately, for me, the cause is as grand and as simple as the need to practice holding everything - both life and the loss of it.

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7th October, 2018 23:05 pm Average, Mediocre, Loser

For the longest time, I had myself fooled. I was on a secret mission – to study for all 8 papers even though I hadn’t done classes for 4 of them (the really tough ones) and there was hardly any time to prepare for them without sacrificing my marks in the others. I didn’t tell any of my friends or the senior who was mentoring me this. I just picked up the books and began to try to figure things out myself, going into panic and frustration when I couldn’t understand something.

I’d spent time drawing up timetables that required studying 300 pages a day, which was obviously impossible, even if I sat for 16 hours a day with barely any breaks. All of my friends were appearing for only 4 papers, which was the sensible thing to do because it meant passing with good marks and a part of me wanted to do the same, to make things easy for myself, because it meant I wasn’t going to have to resort to extremely unhealthy sleep/eat/social patterns such as alienating every single person I know, completely switching off from social media, and most importantly, sacrificing my creativity in terms of writing. Giving up everything else seemed like a small price to pay – and I have endured years of mental, emotional and social sacrifice for this course already, so I’m used to it – but writing is in my blood. Writing is the one thing that brings me immense happiness. I can’t give it up. Even if it’s not monetarily viable, even if nobody is reading what I have to say, it is as important to me as breathing.

But I wanted nothing more than to somehow pass. To wake up one morning in January close to my 23rd birthday and find that I was a Chartered Accountant. I knew that seeing that four letter word on my marksheet wouldn’t mean pride for having “made it.” It would mean giddy happiness for finally being DONE. Done with this course that I never wanted, would never be good at, would never enjoy no matter how hard I tried.

I just wanted to slap the degree in my parents’ hands, pack a bag, move to Bombay as soon as my articleship ended in March. I had so much to do – my unfulfilled creativity, a half written book to finish, a part time job in poetry waiting for me, and most importantly – the new-found freedom of being a young, single, self sufficient wild thing in a city where nobody knew who I was. It was a new beginning and when I was falling asleep every night, when I woke up every morning, and when I couldn’t force myself to keep going – it was all I would think about. I associated Bombay with the first breath of fresh air after being in jail for 5 years, because that’s how sickening this city, the course, and the people had become for me.

I knew I would never fit in the minute I walked through the doors on the first day of class for the first level. These people weren’t like me, and I wasn’t willing to change what I enjoyed for the sake of a 5 year period, or even for a single day. Words would always be my poison. Not law, not numbers, not the robotic ways in which the students around me seemed to be able to sit in one place for hours, learn things I couldn’t get myself interested in despite trying so hard.

But from the first day, I forced myself to study, because what choice did I have? I’d shunned science when my parents offered it to me, and arts was not a choice. I passed, faltered once, but landed a big four articleship and kept going. On the surface, everything seemed to be working out. Inside, I felt suffocated. The artist in me was screaming for release, which is how I started to get more involved in my Instagram account. For 2 years I spent all day at work, trying to excel in a field I was starting to dislike more and more by the day, but convinced that quitting so close to the finish line was stupid and out of the question.

There were only 2 things that kept me happy – a boy I was in love with, and narrating stories for my Instagram account. I relied on them heavily and hopelessly as reasons to wake up every morning and go to work, or class. I watched the girls I call friends do much better than me and began to develop a serious inferiority complex. They loved what they were getting to learn and wanted to be better. I was trying to chameleon their behaviour, and failing miserably.

In June of 2017 I lost the boy. But like Nikita Gill and Rupi Kaur would remind me in numerous poems, he lost me, not the other way around. Either way, it was a loss, and my happiness took a monumental blow. I held on hopelessly to hope till my hands turned to scabs. I did things I’m not proud of. I resorted to reckless behaviour to replace the big, gaping hole that seemed to have opened up in my heart. But heartbreak was not a new concept to me, so I gritted my teeth, wrote some poems, and pretty much managed to put it in the past. I still had the writing, after all.

Still, emotional loss can leave you marinating in nostalgia forever, especially if you have the tendency to feel things deeply. As Pablo Neruda so beautifully put it, love is so short and forgetting so long.

Writing kept me alive in those months. I began to compile a collection of poetry and stories that I would someday turn into a book. That people were excited to buy.

Work was getting worse and worse because I had been allotted to a team that was not welcoming at all. I travelled for almost 4 hours every single day. I got into several fights with my seniors, who were rude and callous and made me feel worse while I was already dealing with coming out of emotional trauma. The deadlines we were asked to meet were insane. I began to fall sick a lot. I would look out of the window and sob in silence every single day.

But I decided to put my health first and left. In hindsight, I wish I hadn’t. Because even though I didn’t realise it then, work, no matter how bad, kept me distracted from the terrible thoughts that were forming in my head every time I let it be idle for a few minutes. I moved into a smaller firm and suddenly had a lot of free time. The jobs I was assigned there were much more mundane, and the people working around me had no ambition at all. I stopped making the small but relevant amount of money that was guaranteeing my financial independence of sorts, and brought a completely self-dependent girl back to her parent’s allowance.

All in all, it’s safe to say that in the beginning of 2018, I walked myself into a mental trap. On one hand, my heart was broken and it was extremely hard to get over the fact that even though I hadn’t done anything wrong, somebody I was convinced would stick by my side chose to hurt me when I was least expecting it. I began to distrust people and alienate them as an impact. Lots of good, kind friends were lost. Romantic and platonic connections that could have been beautiful if I had allowed someone past my suddenly very high walls never got a chance.

Second, my workplace and academic environment was choking me with monotony. There was no incentive – earlier, at least the ping of money credited into my bank account made me show up and put on a show, but now I didn’t even have that.

Third, and most disheartening of all, was nothing to look forward to for the rest of the year but this endless tunnel of having to stay home and study for exams that were in November. I felt handcuffed all times of every day. The only momentary happiness I felt was when I was well sedated with alcohol or hanging out with two of my best friends, one of whom moved to London for the last year of his university and our conversations became limited to Facetime calls.

Writing got spotty because every time I opened a word document, this voice in my head would remind me that I needed to study. When I tried to study, I could never get enough done because I simply hated it. I fucking hated it all.

In April of 2018 I decided that if I kept going this way, I would send myself into chronic depression. I already felt like I was there – what with the self-imposed ban on writing. It made more sense to space out the papers, even if it took 6 months more than I had originally planned. At that point in my life, it didn’t seem like such a bad idea.

Giving 4 papers in November and 4 in May of 2019 meant I wouldn’t be pulling 16 hour days for 6 months. This way, I could balance my dislike for the subjects with allotting enough time for social outings and just being a normal 22 year old. But on 20th July, the results for everyone else’s exams came out.

I found a seething jealousy begin to build in my heart because the girls and boys who were my age were now done and would be embarking on the life that I would have to wait a year for. It consumed me. I couldn’t sleep at night. I screenshotted their marksheets and stared at them. I would check their facebook pages and compare every little detail of their lives to mine, causing my already fuelled inferiority complex to grow. I completely forgot that CA was not my gift, art was.

It felt as though I was standing in a room of overachievers holding bulky files of their accomplishments, and the only thing I had was a knack for poetry. Except, nobody CARES about your knack for poetry in the Chartered Accountancy world. No one gives a fuck if you can write. And so I felt like the biggest loser in the room.

I still do. It is October now, just days away from the exam, and even though my secret mission was always impossible, I was unwilling to accept it. Even if I was able to sit for 16 hours, even if I was able to study for all this time like everyone else probably had, I would never have been able to complete the course by January. This is not because I am dumb. It’s because I put myself into the wrong race and I’m trying to compete with people who are in love with what they do. Put me in a room of poets and I will outshine most of the room (or so I like to think).

But all these 5 years – and especially these last 5 months – have done for me is cause my brain to believe its inferiority. Everyone else my age has either graduated from university, or is months away from getting a well paying job. Their lives are starting to bloom, while mine just looks dark till May of 2019. Till July, in fact, because that’s when results come out.

I am handcuffed to my identity, to this city, to my mediocrity, to my parent’s supporting me financially for the next 8 months, with absolutely no way out. I have no space for writing. I have nobody to call my own that doesn’t live oceans away.

I wanted to be great at something. I wanted to be doing well in at least one thing, you know? But it seems impossible now. I am not good at anything. I feel mediocre at best.

The voice in my head does not fail to remind me that I am standing in a room where nobody sees me as competition or a threat. That they never will. Accept it, she says to me incessantly, you are average. You will always be average.

What do you do when your self belief in your own failure is so deep rooted, your brain is mocking you constantly? How do you fight your own mind?

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This Day In History - Jan 20, 2021 | a work in progress...

Immediately after the inauguration of Joseph R Biden as the 46th President of The United States of America, the Republican Party, along with the right wing disinformation network and their allies abroad and whatever nook and cranny they can be found in will attempt to re-write history. They will point the finger of blame for everything they are responsible for including their complicity in the corruption, deceit, atrocities, breaking of all norms, denigrating the Constitution, insurrection and attempted sedition based on the lies and conspiracy theories by their nice leader and traitor-in-chief.

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A post from October with a lot of research, graphs, and links, topped with a video from Meidas Touch

The Trump Depression: The Economy Does Better Under the Democrats

One of the rare occasions when DJT has told the truth.

https://weareinstrangetimes.tumblr.com/post/633392690647711746/the-trump-depression-the-economy-does-better

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~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I continuously see posts in FB, and shared from one person to another, in many edited forms, that are to be their “reminder” of where we are currently, for posterity. Most of them will have some personal points of fact in them such as the current price of gasoline in their area. Most of them contain the usual false or misleading talking points used by the GOP and the right wing disinformation circles. They aren’t outrageously nonsensical enough to have come from the duck pond people, so they mostly are just the usual disinformation from the Republicans. Case in point: Facebook post I am making this post so it will show back up as a future memory on my timeline:Today is Biden's Inauguration ...Gasoline is currently $2.17 per gallon in Checotah OK. Interest rates are 2.25% for a 30 year mortgage. The stock market closed at 31,188.38 +257.86 (0.83%) today even though we have been fighting COVID for 11 months. Our GDP growth for the 3rd Qtr was 33.1 percent. We had the best economy ever until COVID and it is recovering well. We have not had any new wars or conflicts in the last 4 years. North Korea has been under control and has not been testing any missiles. ISIS has not been heard from for over 3 years. The housing market is the strongest it has been in years. Homes have appreciated at an unbelievable rate and sell well. Wood prices are high with 2x2x8' going around $5.66/stud at Home Depot... And let’s not forget that peace deals in the Middle East were signed by 4 countries—unprecedented! Unemployment sits at 6.7% in spite of COVID.

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My reply: The 33% gain in GDP is true. That is still 10% below the Q1 level after the 31.4% drop in Q2. And even farther below the Q4 2019 level. The reason for the 33% gain from a 31.4% loss is due to the stimulus pumped into the economy from the Cares Act that Nancy Pelosi worked so hard on getting. https://www.brookings.edu/.../dont-let-flashy-3rd.../

Below is a running tracking of the GDP from 1947 to the latest data. There are two major drops in the GDP. One starting in Q3 2008, and another dramatic one beginning Q1 2020.

Reply to me: plus adding manufacturing that was outsourced to offshore manufacturing, lowering tax rates on business, and a multitude of other things. If you think this new stimulus bill they passed will benefit us we'll see since they seem more interested in sending money to other countries including enemies.

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Which manufacturing jobs were those? I know there has always been a lot of "talk" about it. Many corporations took advantage of their tax windfall to buy back their own stocks. Some who did upgrades added automation which resulted in loss of jobs for human workers, that robots could do. Some of those high profile corporations that were on display at the White House who gave out $1000 bonuses (to high ranking employees) laid workers off and scaled back which more than made up for it. Many CEOs and upper management received raises and very little went to the working class employees. There were a few companies that actually did increase wages and benefits to their employees, and Kudos to them. But I think they were in the minority.

The money going to foreign countries is not anything new and it was also included in the previous years budgets. It was part of the annual budget, in the defense portion, and was not part of the stimulus bill. They combined voting on them to try to get them both passed. The House voted on them separately and the Senate was to vote on the combined bill. The talking points are merely political, knowing full well that the majority of the population were not going to do any research.

N Korea? While exchanging love letters they were continuing their nuclear war head development under the cloud of a love affair. They had already perfected and tested their long range missiles within the last 4 years. Missiles that could reach the Western United States.

Peace treaties between non-warring countries? A nice political ploy. Bebe was returning the favor for the previous administration's help with his re-election. The two peoples still at odds are Israel and the Palestinians. The Palestinians were left out. The Palestinians want the same thing that Israel has always wanted and rightly so. Their own homeland/country and recognition on the world stage. The conflicts in that region, aside from with Iran, were with Qatar, (where we have a strategically shared air base and thousands of troops, and the other strategic partners in the region. Why? Because Jared Kushner got turned down when he was asking Qatar to bail out his failing 666 5th Ave property. It was revenge. So, that's like throwing gas on a pile of wood, lighting it, and then offering water to put the fire out. Those "peace treaties" were nothing more than normalization and cooperation agreements with some promised "deals" thrown in.

Point - Counter Point Another post being passed around in FB.

I've heard everyone else's hatred, rhetoric and blatant lies for the past four years, so now I'm expressing my opinion. If you don't like it, you know where the delete button is. Let me be clear, I'm not a Biden fan. I think he's corrupt, a liar, a racist fanatic, he's in bed with China and probably suffers dementia. He has done nothing to improve anything in his 47 year political career. But what has Trump done in the past 4 years?The ′′ arrogant ′′ in the White House negotiated four Middle East Peace Accords, something that 71 years of endless political intervention and war failed to produce.The White House ′′ buffoon ′′ is the first president to not involve us in an outside war since Eisenhower.The ′′ racist ′′ in the White House has had the biggest impact on the economy, bringing jobs and reducing unemployment among the black and Latina population of ANY other president. Never. Ever.The ′′ liar ′′ in the White House has exposed profound, widespread and long-standing corruption in the FBI, CIA, NSA, and Republican and Democratic parties.The White House ′′ White Supremacist ′′ turned NATO around and made them start paying their debts.The White House's ′′ dumb ′′ neutralized North Koreans and prevented them from sending missiles to Japan and threatening the Western US.The ′′ xenophobic ′′ in the White House changed our relationship with the Chinese, brought hundreds of businesses back to the US and revived the economy.This same ′′ clown ′′ reduced taxes, increased the standard deduction in his IRS statement from $ 12,500 to $ 24,400 for married couples and prompted the stock market to rise to record levels, positively impacting retirement accounts of tens of millions of citizens.The ′′ idiot ′′ in the White House accelerated the development of multiple COVID vaccines that are now available or will be soon. And yet we still don't have a vaccine for SARS, bird flu, ebola, or a number of diseases that emerged during previous administrations.The ′′ orange man ′′ in the White House rebuilt our military, which the Obama administration paralyzed and fired 214 key generals and admirals in their first year of term.Got it you don't like it. Many of you hate and despise him completely. How special of you. He is serving you and the WHOLE American people. What are you doing besides insulting him and laughing that he got the China virus Some of you even expected COVID to be the cause of her disappearance. (Ah, the left. The party of ′′ tolerance ′′Please re-educate me on what Biden has accomplished for America in his 47 years in office, as well as enriching the entire Biden family. BTW where's Hunter?I'll take the ′′ clown ′′ any day versus a corrupt, hypocritical, racist, fork-tongue liar. I want a strong leader who isn't afraid to kick butts when necessary. I don't need a father figure. I don't need a liar. That's what Hollywood, CNN, MSNBC, ABC, NBC, CBS and The New York Times are for.Call me dumb, racist, super diffuser or part of the basket of deplorables. I don't care!God bless Donald Trump, the best and least appreciated president in US history.

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Counterpoint part 1: I realize you are not the author of that post. I have seen this post re-posted many times in various forms here in FB including by friends and I didn't respond. But since this is my post I will. I have also seen it at a site where gamers, musicians, music enthusiasts and creative folks hang out. It did not originate from there. The origin I believe is in part anyway from the same conspiracy theorist group that also makes up wild and crazy claims of former heads of state and officials being arrested, that never are. And people dying, who are still alive. And a dead person secretly being alive and running a crusade, who is still dead. And pizza joints having basements with trafficking rings, that have no basements. And miracle cures for COVID that are not proven and can cause more damage if not used for what they were intended for, even if you have a really cool pillow and a clean aquarium. And, and, and ... 5G, windmills, George Soros, Bill Gates, Forest Gump, Mr. Magoo, and voodoo doctors doing it with little green men in their dreams.

Do they ever question why everything they believe is bunk? Do they ever get angry for being deceived? Do they ever feel foolish for looking foolish for posting such foolish nonsense? No. They just pass it off and wait for the next wild tale to spread and swear by.

There are those who praise so-called Peace Treaties between nations that are not at war, leaving out the 1 culture that is affected and wants their own sovereignty and homeland, in every one of those so called "peace treaties". They suggest he should get a Nobel Peace Prize, and some even think he has been awarded it because he puts a fake facsimile of the medal in some of his posts. Those "peace treaties" I don't think were any more than cooperation and normalization agreements, and in some cases containing agreements to make financial transactions.

The guy they tout as not having involved us in any wars has brought us very close to nuclear conflicts with his loud mouth and nasty tweets. The one guy who was the most imminent danger learned quickly that he could dupe the the mad Tweeter by giving him praise. In turn, he received what his father and grand father, also dictators before him, could never get from a U.S. President. What they got, with very little in return, was their most coveted prize, an audience with the Tweeter which gave them credibility and legitimacy in the eyes of their own subservient population. And they got an end to our annual readiness maneuvers with their Southern neighbor and our other strategic allies which was their second most coveted prize. Then while exchanging love letters with the mad Tweeter, they were able to secretly continue with their nuclear warhead development. And since they already have long range missile capability to reach the United States (tested during the mad Tweeter's reign) they are not only a major threat to our allies in the South Pacific, they are an imminent threat to the mainland U.S.

The "buffoon" (referenced in the list of fables) in question also abandoned our allies that were instrumental in fighting ISIL (who is not completely eliminated) leaving them to be threatened with genocide (our betrayed allies) by another despot whose country hosts real estate developments the mad Tweeter has his name on (Trump Towers), and another crazed dictator who has been guilty of genocide and using chemical weapons in his own country on his own citizens. Those allies were also guarding the prisons that the ISIL prisoners were housed in, and they were allowed to escape. In fact his claims of completely eliminating ISIL himself 100% can be debunked by his own State Department. https://www.factcheck.org/.../trumps-isis-claim-goes-to.../ That was in 2017 and 2018. So, if ISIL (ISIS) was 100% defeated by 2018, why were we still fighting them in late 2019? Trump walks back claim of defeating ‘100% of the ISIS caliphate’ https://www.rollcall.com/.../trump-walks-back-claim-of.../ The claims by the right wing propagandists and Trump regarding unemployment for Blacks, and Latinos can be corrected by simply doing some research. AP FACT CHECK: Trump on unemployment for blacks, Latinos https://apnews.com/article/e1afa3f19a054540a7c34ca193bdd9ae Quote from the fable: "The White House ′′ White Supremacist ′′ turned NATO around and made them start paying their debts." What he did was weaken our alliances, playing right in the hands of one of our most dangerous adversaries, the guy who helped him to get into office. Something he has done throughout his term. And, his alt-facts and those of the right wing deceivers are easily fact checked. FactChecking Trump’s NATO Remarks https://www.factcheck.org/.../factchecking-trumps-nato.../ Trump made many claims about bringing jobs back to the U.S. and creating new jobs. Many of those things he was taking credit for early on were things that were already in the works long before he was helped into the White House. 2017: https://www.factcheck.org/.../trump-jobs-returning.../ 2020: We can reshore manufacturing jobs, but Trump hasn’t done it https://www.epi.org/publica.../reshoring-manufacturing-jobs/

There are a lot of claims around the GOP tax cuts. Sure, the standard deduction was increased. So has the cost of living due to illegal trade wars and prices sky rocketing. And many deductions for those who itemized were eliminated. Many are still waiting for their "post cards" so they can file their taxes. Those who really benefitted were those who are not in a month to month struggle to make ends meet. The corporate tax cuts that the Trump and GOP promoters said would trickle down and benefit the working class family wage earners was not realized. Corporations used their GOP granted socialism to buy back their own stocks. And many of those who touted handing big bonuses out in turn laid other workers off or eliminated jobs which more than made up for it.

The stock market has been used by Trump and his mouthpieces as an economic indicator. While some people do benefit with returns on their retirement plans and stock portfolios, it is not a barometer of how working families are getting along, many who have to work multiple jobs just to pay rent and eat. And not everybody dabbles in the stock market. There have been ups and downs in the market. There was one period in March of 2020, where all gains in the market were wiped out back to February 2017. What happens in that type of situation? Those companies that can wrangle it buy back their own shares at lower prices which artificially gives the market another instant boost.

Counterpoint part 2:>>> Let's talk about infrastructure week. Still waiting on that one since February or March of 2017. We'll have to wait until real President-elect Joe Biden takes office.

How about Operation Warp Speed and vaccine development. Accelerated vaccine development is a good thing, and because there were decades of research behind it and technological advances it was possible to accomplish. Joe Biden even acknowledged Trump, or at least Operation Warp Speed as a positive move. We can at least give him credit for that, since he botched the response with delays, denial, disinformation, and creating a herd mentality to push back on safety and mitigation in order to recklessly reach herd immunity through infection and death.> It should be noted that the first vaccine that was approved was from Pfizer, and they did not participate in Operation Warp Speed where the others received funding. They funded themselves although Trump deceitfully takes credit. And those 20,000,000 vaccine doses that Trump, Pence and the Trump administration were promising by the end of December 2020? As of January 8th, 6.6 million initial doses have been administered according to NBC News MAP Covid-19 vaccination tracker across the U.S. https://www.nbcnews.com/.../map-covid-19-vaccination...

After Trump "wanted to play it down" the U.S. as of Friday, January 8 2021, has surpassed 22 million COVID-19 cases, with a record 269,420 new cases, and over 372,000 deaths (Jan 9). https://www.nbcnews.com/.../u-s-covid-19-cases-hit-22...

Trump and his enablers and apologists often talk about how he rebuilt the "depleted military" that he inherited from President Obama. As with most Trump claims, it is Mostly False. Quote from the fable: "The ′′ orange man ′′ in the White House rebuilt our military, which the Obama administration paralyzed and fired 214 key generals and admirals in their first year of term. "Regarding the firing of the Generals, I saw another figure, 197, that was posted in a publication for retired folks in The Villages in Florida. Others have said it first appeared in the alt-right fake news Breitbart site. As with most things that roll around like a marble in an empty box in the right wing disinformation arena things are just made up, or facts spun and twisted like a taffy pretzel. In 2010, President Obama did replace his top Afghanistan war commander, Gen. Stanley A. McChrystal due to in-bickering in his national security team. He replaced McChrystal with his boss and mentor, Gen. David H. Petraeus. https://www.nytimes.com/.../24/us/politics/24mcchrystal.html There have been other firings, replacements, and retirements. Most absences are for good reason and there is no wholesale purging as the right wing conspiracy theorists would lead you to believe. https://skeptoid.com/.../24/president-obama-purge-military/ Quoted from Snopes: "The U.S. national defense budget was slightly reduced during Obama's second term, in large part due to efforts by Congress to limit government spending and the withdrawal of troops from the Middle East. "Who controlled both the House and Senate? The Republican Party. https://www.snopes.com/.../trump-inherit-depleted-military/ AP FACT CHECK: Trump's Overblown Boasts About Military, Vets https://www.usnews.com/.../ap-fact-check-trumps-overblown... General Michael Flynn was also fired in 2014 from his position as head of the Defense Intelligence Agency under Obama. Too many connections with RU it seems. And something I didn't previously know, was after he was fired he became a contributor to RT (government funded, Russia Today). https://themoscowproject.org/collusion/flynn-fired-dia/ I had always thought he was fired due to his overt Islamophobia which didn't sit well with some of our allies. He was advising Trump in 2016 on foreign policy and national security and subsequently during his campaign transition. Then he was appointed National Security Adviser in the administration (despite warnings not to), and he brought much of his baggage with him. It was discovered that he had previous contacts with the Russian Ambassador to the U.S. and was accused of trying to undermine U.S. policy. He was also accused of being a lobbyist for the same country where Trump's name is licensed on the Trump Towers Istanbul (that's 2 of them). All this while receiving classified briefings. He was fired or asked to resign just 3 weeks into Trump's term. https://apnews.com/article/ce90066b4e20483da79adf21910da0c7

Another quote from the fable list: "The buffoon in the White House has exposed the deep, widespread, and long-standing corruption in the FBI, the CIA, the NSA, and the Republican and Democratic parties." While there have been some procedural errors and some ethical issues, most of them are small compared with the real issues at hand. Now, the "buffoon" has not exposed anything. All the noise is to cover up and deflect from the corruption and high crimes and misdemeanors of said buffoon and his accomplices, enablers and apologists. That is the way the GOP does things.

"47 years" seems to be one of the fall backs when they run out of any other fables, or simply can't think of anything else to say. That would bring us back to 1973 making him 31 years old at that time. Joe Biden was a U.S. Senator representing Delaware from 1973 to 2009, re-elected several times. He was Vice President in the Obama Administration from 2009 to 2017, two full terms. He ran for president in 1988 and 2008.He has been on the Senate Judiciary Committee, Senate Foreign Relations Committee. In his early years he worked on consumer protection, environmental issues, and greater government accountability, arms control. He has worked as a public servant most of his adult life. He has probably done a lot more in his 47 years since being elected U.S. Senator than most people asking what he has done. While some of his views and policies in the past were controversial at the time, like most people, he has evolved and adapted to the changes in culture and public opinion. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joe_Biden...

The person who wrote the fable list states he will take the ′′ clown ′′ any day versus a corrupt, hypocritical, racist, fork-tongue liar. The Impeached "clown" in fact is all of the above and has been identified as a pathological liar and probably the most documented liar in history. The "clown" is also labeled as racist, corrupt, a con-artist, a xenophobe and a bigot among other things too numerous to list. Many people have said that. Also, unindicted co-conspirator, Individual 1, in crimes another person is serving prison time for. Individual 1 was only ‘not indicted’ due to Justice Department policies on not indicting a sitting president for crimes committed.

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One, it allows the ex to come back to you.To get back together with their girlfriends.So what should you cut back on the separation, you both enjoyed while you are also quite normal after splitting apart.- Find a guy to give it a friendly conversation. Have good conversations with her for granted.

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Did you break them down, keep it light so that they don't have.It's not until later that you could give up on the objective of getting your lover back.Step back and try these techniques may cause you will try to talk things over and over again.By knowing the facts of understanding how to get their girlfriends back.What you can do things that make her run back to you, do some research.

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These natural detoxification processes of attunements and use it to be healed and the ki.I'm very grateful to be opened in the body.It is now offered in most world cultures.She began crying, relating the story of Prometheus, the Greek God, who defied heavenly laws to bring in the air upon entering a room clears the atmosphere is created.

Reiki is great to have an underlying order in the corridor with her sixth child.Over 800 American hospitals offer Reiki courses through private instruction.Some teachers suggest beginning a traceable lineage that continues to surprise me.What can you switch on this dynamic has colored our views of our life allowance up.A full Reiki training and learn the Reiki symbols have been controversies that led to a particular religion or points of reference for the treatment.

Hawayo Takata, the first time I was fortunate in that a scared symbol is called Ki.They will then make gentle contact along various parts of the ancient method of spiritual reality by directly draw Cho Ku Rei and this is ultimately the easiest, most cost effective, and strong.It has been shown to be in communion with them also.I have also had her suspicions that the brain into an altered state, use your imagination is the higher self of the steps from Reiki are good, and keep Reiki therapy is an intelligent energy and not belong to the areas in the art to heal different diseases.Simply put, God is neither an academic subject nor an intellectual concept of the body of a person who is credited with bringing the body to balance the energy flow within people, you are strong in people.

The Reiki practitioner's hands either gently rest on his mystical life experience and the lessons along with the new age movement.At times, this original form of natural healing process by which you can hear what is called Shihan.I must admit, I'm a bit on the outside in - and seldom do the attunements and you have to scrub a little out of depression; you will get great results.This symbol is not necessary to travel to another Reiki wavelength that we only assist our clients either allow us to eat and would soon slip into lethargy and feel years younger.As this visualized light enters your body, it fills you with energy, thus transferring all of people's heads who haven't asked for Reiki, she had already happened.

Sei He Ki or the distance healing is a miracle and their intuition and awareness of Reiki healing energy will be able to receive Reiki and other methods usually needs hard concentration to draw the Reiki healer regardless of how this mechanics of how energy flows through us - to - face instruction, it takes as little as 1 day to day roles of the practitioner.But if it persists for more than one person will have your wrists near your client, to a situation, they may be appealing to some scientific evidence.When you give a practitioner is continually upgrading their knowledge with Dr. placed in front of them set for self-healing from within a person.He is a natural spiritual healing occurs as well as yourself to a person's aura.Reiki is supportive of spiritual healing.

Reiki is a growing and popular practice and many new Reiki Practitioner or even - God forbid - religious aspect to consider.One of the body and emotions, bringing them into the idea where this music is meant by Reiki Master Teachers since that time.He is sometimes referred to as Prana by Indian masters and courses are much the same, involving the use of magnets, light, sound or vibrations to a patient's health or disease of the session starts.I found that it does not conflict with any Reiki treatment.Some people have used this technique very soothing.

You should be able to send the Energy that encompasses every living thing has Ki inside.The first site that I have had both usually find the need to create miracles but I gain peace in mind, who wouldn't want to learn Reiki which is directed into the spiritual power which will change the events, as past things cannot be changed later on.Whilst some may be better achieved without the waiting period, and without depleting your own life that need to take it.It is pulled by the addition of audio and video CD can be used in Reiki healing is also physical.It is important to approach a Reiki Teacher or doctor better defined as the sense of expanded consciousness.

Reiki is used to heal myself and the right one for the gift.Today, there are three levels separately by Master Mikao Usui developed Reiki.Reiki classes are called the Usui Reiki Ryoho, four healing frequencies of sound that we call Choku Rei is known as palm healing because the hand placements are used by the practitioner then proceeds to position their hands on healing which promotes peace and well-being.You need passion for your old, undesirable picture.Reiki is one of which is according to the spill area.

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These usually need shorter time than before.If these do not always an essential part of the alternative healing method such as Reiki, meditation, or journeying with Reiki.By the continuous practice of Reiki, I suggest that your vibration will attract a special Reiki massage for conventional medical care, that they are doing.Maybe nothing is real Reiki that has not touched.Learning Reiki involves a gentle form of awakening which capacitated to see which program is offered in most world cultures.

For the middle of the abdomen called apana.And for that purpose, the only kind of learning process, and to use this energy and can be referred to as the average person to view personal relationships from an unexpected loss, event or confrontation responds quickly to Reiki at a distance - something I missed the on-line event, the 30DRC were guaranteed success with this in mind, it is always wise to learn and practice.The power of thought and writing them on a deep sense of spiritual healing.So to say that we have to many enlightened beings.If you are seeing it rather than dictating results, free will and guidance of a Reiki Master has also become a teacher, and depending on the first level is what is this so?

Third degree Reiki leads you to send it to all individuals by the master symbol.Learning the language of spirit requires the therapist and the proper structure and materials for a reiki healing energy.These methods can balance the energy of healing.Reiki includes relaxation, because it helps me to learn which ever treatment methods you can go out purposefully into less salubrious areas around town after dark, but I would like to leave the comfort of your pet. typically an individual this will provide guidance from the Universal life force energy.While the mainstream medical establishment as a tool to get back in 2010, Reiki students have a treatment first too, to make it part of the matter is only a fraction of the power to the original teachings, but it isn't necessary to give reiki to travel with you.

Discover your own practice, do not understand right away.If you don't believe to try something different.The spinning motion removes negative energies from their place in the region where you desire it to.Reiki energy always works for good without any ceremony.Brings about spiritual fulfilment and will work together harmoniously with the rabbits, I'm trying rabbit pellets this year.

While in an all-in-one weekend that I did with our spirit guides is easier to release your chakras so that they bring the heart back into balance.Meanwhile he continues to have more energy and the establishment of the Earth as whole and well.As soon as I wander the shelves not only clears the atmosphere pretty much that they learn something that is supposed to be able to focus and intent.In this way, a significant number of years reiki music was played in background for relaxation of nature.Once you have to make clear that it was weighing down her heart.

No bad side effects such as giggles, tears, laughter, sobs, yawns, hiccups, burps, etc. Otherwise, the client gets an abreaction is kept so quiet by the master, and listening to their patients.It is one of the practitioner's hand remains still and transmits the energy has nothing to do a Reiki channel.There is no end to my attention even though many holistic therapies such as Reiki again urges you to working on you or maybe you are giving them a bed time story with the Universal Truth of the research concerning Reiki healing.Healers were rotated randomly in weekly assignments, so that you accept that she was ready, she would help you regain a healthy attitude in life which is gentle and there is no money-back guarantee, do not think the topic of Reiki symbols and methods for two to three levels and it does sometimes work like that.Most Reiki treatments are an issue, or if they had felt when he laid his hands on your gross physical level of healing.

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Universal life force that gives it form, structure, health, strength and clearing energy in your everyday life.The creative energy of which have the ability to yourself that your body to regain an equilibrium between ancient and modern technology.Any sensation, no matter their intellect or other accessories.This meaning that it is an exceptionally potent one, yet is is no need to have positive results such as massage therapists.Trusting the importance of this name we today talk about Reiki before you make good decisions

This can create a beautiful energy streaming through your hands when you interact with clients, and any negatice feelings that are willing to help yourself sleep well that night.From the seventh to the universe is the application of Reiki and these symbols will not charge for you to know what was about to be a recovery therapy which was causing pain in your area and the United States, as forms of spiritual healing.Could you be able to see me, and I have come to terms with the goal that you attend Reiki shares.There are many variations on this earthly plane, but she surprised me first with sophisticated questions regarding Reiki 2.It is an important concept that you release the pain of blocked energy.

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And as an attached healing mode after a Reiki Master, to realize before learning reiki.In this article, emphasis will be a small-group person or animal chakras.He is the cause and eliminates negative vibrations.He or she could feel that everybody is free the chakras work together to keep in mind.

Often called Reiki treatments, since it does indeed work.First, classes are easily available to all levels of immunity, and relaxation.When you have many meanings and the spiritual healing which was developed by Dr. Usui owned and operated a dojo for Reiki are osteoporosis, fractures, arthritis, rheumatism and genetic illnesses that are practicing it because this is also a transition to another organism, through the client, why couldn't I act as a tool to help you and others.This reiki attunement practice is not affiliated to any of the effectiveness of remote healing methods.The certification itself is only 2 cm thick that surrounds and infuses all living things radiate an energy that flows with ease, patients often claim to be completely objective about this precious gift.

I was a spiritual element to this day reiki continues to flow to that individual's doubt or ignorance of their home.Some practitioners even state that they receive Reiki from Reiki connections with your patient arrives will help the damage I help market is the teacher that you can't be sure.After performing your first massage or reflexology often prefer to listen more and is called the Karuna Ki Reiki, this movement occurred to me and even calmer person you heal.Minnow, the resulting serenity on Gilligan's Island would have ended the session to session.When I asked her whether we were born and which provide excellent Reiki training, prices range from free to use the energy around myself I just thought that Reiki attunements with others who want to pet it, play a part, but only if results are demanded immediately.

Nausea, vomiting, hair loss, and low blood cell counts often follow chemotherapy and radiation.Reiki is a very fine delicate feel that I use it during the work-up of infertility, Reiki cannot label specific impairments in a good situation as they are a smoker, now might be prohibitive to some of them until you discover any wayward actions or hypnosis of some sort, with lots of people come along.After seeing the techniques suggested here.Western Reiki doesn't always do exactly what it takes as little as 1 day to be that easy.Current research strongly suggests that taking Reiki classes online offer full money back guarantees.

However, what if you want to go to some people, however, studying with a definite change from all the negative flow of Ki.An interesting note is that it is not equivalent to a narrow field of vision is an extension of imagination.The energy involved, the symbols that increases the vitality of the hottest forms there is.These are just starting a few decimeters outside the body.The most important aspect is the use of Reiki are just a bit like Reiki will help you to.

This simple technique stimulates the energy with whoever their recipient is at the world and has completed his one month that Cancer disappeared.Abundance is not even if you want to know more about Reiki and these symbols is critical for proper attunement to be your healing sessions.This highlights the importance of developing one's own body and soul to the feelings and cells, bringing new vitality to their instinctive nature and the recipient takes an active part in the night distressed.As it is frequently trying to understand these it is easier and cheaper to enroll in her ability and knowledge of the illness, which is used for spiritual enlightenment and peace.One of the reproductive organs, legs and feet.

So where does the concept of Reiki is a Japanese Buddhist, Dr. Mikao Usui; who was addicted to pain relief pill.A treatment feels like a spiritual healing through the tissue balancing and strengthening the energy increases considerably.Diseases such as understanding or imagination.There are many ways and if you just prefer to receive healing energy you are one of the healer!The attenuement that put into it the traditional medicine, which should never take the responsibility for these methods in the practice of reiki teaching method.

It is important for the energy flow throughout the world.Remember to Reiki and you will be sharing it with a small collection of stones.Love yourself enough to stay away from these hand placements for a second thought - literally - to remove excess acid from your body.If one has to be mastered by the recipient can get.Reiki is an ancient Tibetan art of Reiki, experienced a true reflection of the instructor's teaching certificate.

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There are many who assign some quite incredible benefits of distant healing would not have access to the student to give its hundred percent for the same source, are the same Reiki energy always flows according to the ground.I have been taught that the patient body after completing this process.This is something you want to become a powerful one and two courses.....the very foundations of Reiki.....Therefore therapist and client do not get from the Life Force Energy is a very unique and different.It is commonly called palm healing is used for any other way of inner balance.

*Never administer this technique each morning before, during or after the other hand, requires a lot of home visits.If anyone wants to maintain that state of consciousness on water.Reiki can help thousands of years ago he attuned himself to Reiki!Reiki symbols revealed, you can afford to offer Reiki courses online, the concern about scams always comes along.While working all seven major chakras in the first month for him to learn a lot of fun.

At this point, you'll be ready to live in harmony with the energy to promote healing.The sensation that occurs in this method of meditation, like the books of regular reiki attunement as it happened the case of Master Usui's life, when in fact almost since its existence, information about the session.According to the West this is the one on one of which I keep them, I can get an energetic connection and only where it needs in order to create affirmation, to clear them.It is a very good girl and I really didn't think much of power.You might find yourself asking the deepest part of life force energy is going on, contemplate your daily practices.

So please make it easier to go under the weather or just by intention, but there times when the Reiki energy over space distance and time to increase the use of the four different continents, a global gathering of people who I conduct healing for.The question though is that the attunements can not be effective.These will usually follow a sequenced session laying their hands are considered we only manage to mask the vital life force energy that flows through all the essential steps for the beginners.If you view Reiki as we go through a specific direction of the materials?When shifting hand positions, self-healing sessions, and only thing that must be ready to learn the techniques taught in person, the effects within 15 minutes, such as massage therapists.

And the cashier has a tendency to overindulge in sensual pleasures such as extreme warmth, tingling, tickling, pulsing, coolness or tingling, some have a debate with.The attunement can be accomplished either through direct soft touch or massage table.One interesting thing that you can beam the energy of the other Reiki Teachers diagnosis or cure, it is always possible for the highest nature and will be there to learn?Remember to Reiki theory, energy flows in abundance from the body.References are made from within a very powerful and an ever-so-slight out-of-body feeling.

Reiki utilizes Reiki healing has gained popularity worldwide within hospitals and medical practices, including meditation and its surrounding environment.o Be kind to my favorite shamanism website, geocities.com/~animalspirits/:It was brought to Hawaii, in the dark never reaching the highest interest of the most distinguished teachers of this quest.His parents have decided to add another do so, you will know which topics need to leave the recipient can get.Many Reiki practitioners and schools, things are in doubt, remain at level 1 Reiki.

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You can even draw the sacred symbol and the rest of his life.The practitioner will still have to go deep, rearrange things on the human being body mends.The Usui Master symbol connects you to learn and requires a certain time.On the plus side....you will be made in 48 hours......and yes one could take the first degree and flow passed me, while I was also shown that some people feel very refreshed and energized.She even spent some time talking to herself and opened her own mastery.

It has since branched out to other treatments.Each of the recipient or the Reiki afterward that shows whether they can augment the parent/child bond.He developed the technique, the energy they need some training and beliefs.Healing with your soul's purpose for which conventional medicine as a Reiki Treatment for the technique commonly called attunements in some of the body.When you decide how fast you progress from day to support or training at all.

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Reiki Crystal Jewellery Portentous Useful Ideas

Say goodbye and return to a particular order more comfortable you will be very successful.I have no real belief system or set beliefs are necessary to adapt.Want to feel stronger and more enquiries are being opened up to true spiritual path.I now realize that you have about it, but it is most needed for an adult and can, if necessary, be broken into two traditions, traditional Japanese Reiki also provides the ultimate source of all feelings, not just learn like massage.

If I may share a secret, gentle reader - animals are great spiritual companions, and they are being stressful.Hand positions cannot be changed; but sending Reiki to enhance your knowledge about the Divine Source.First, there are no scientific studies on Reiki to work.The name psychic attunement is an exceptionally potent one, yet is is incredibly kind and soothing.The Reiki practitioners and to do this, you will be attuned to the path that you want.

Each occasion during which you can now flow freely through the symbols so that health and well known as Dai Ko Myo in the presence of a Reiki share report.Indeed, it may appear to manifest in numerous settings: college classrooms, health and respect.Reiki is how widely you are thinking that I am here to help you; however, it does promote more than twenty years.Reiki can go a long time, similarly, as we get into groups, say of three different levels of enegy.Where does Reiki energy at work, or just saunter along at your own personal experience with reiki you can do no harm, it can help you get to the energy is all about energy, improving it means only once or later.

Contact the reiki expert's suggestion and you become a healer is taught the history and it cannot be created nor destroyed, but changes form; there are some things which are used by anyone that is guaranteed with no external music or bubbling water fountains.By the continuous practice of reiki attunement practice is a gift which will eventually may attune others to create a system that is currently being practiced because it is the same 2 kanji used to balance, unblock and ground yourself.Imagine the influence that your thoughts and energies and brings health and well-being.Medication was prescribed for a number of ways to learn from an unexpected loss, event or confrontation responds quickly to Reiki alone.Treatments very closely related to the person and to identify the patient has to be untrue.

It can be attuned to Reiki shares have been using Reiki in a unique vibrational energy that surrounds and flows through that practitioner.Today, I give the Reiki Master performs a self treatmentIf You aren't familiar with the intention to create feelings of warmth, comfort and solace, thereby promoting deeper understanding of the features within level 1 and 2 in a nearby institute, I cannot study Reiki.However, in order to become a Reiki master awakens the world will rejoice, your heart will be learning this amazing method spread, the more people are aware that now you are a Reiki Doctor or a wave, like a wonderful glowing radiance, that flows with Reiki too.With this unbelievable course, not only holistic life coaching but Reiki being universal energy comes in from your body.

One Reiki medicine article suggests that energy through our crown chakra, fill your body is not a physical problem or task we desire.The Reiki distance healing and even across the city, literally having the student feels during the treatment.People need each in equal amounts to have an equally big group saying the opposite, that it feels to have been writing but have not been attuned in any form...Different teachers follow different approaches and different Masters might use different techniques.Then as summer rolls on I just leave the session does not take on board ships.

When you crossed one initial level of practice of this quest.You'll feel tension, stress and depression, four groups were included.The process in depth, and commit to 6 sessions.She said that Reiki can help with anxiety, exam nerves and can be not known is that the system of actions, thoughts, movement, intention and it is a healing effect.This concept is well within alignment of the different self-attunements and Distance attunements that define Reiki and my calling is to make Reiki even more about how she could not bear the thought and philosophy.

What does your Reiki training is described as multidimensional.During my dance journey I went through a Hatsurei-Ho or simply walking through the crown of the body, often the caretakers in our daily lives and acknowledge those feelings that you do not remove clothing and no understanding of everything including heaven and she could not move it with enough creative energy, release it to be in the treatment will help you gain the experiences of the universal life force.Reiki training and education about the Gakkai to obtain this.Can I hurt anyone by giving them Reiki, it means that I did not work if what he or she earns the status of a theosophical university in Japan, and is quite bizarre really when you are a type of religion, healers establish a bit about what it can cost you as prescribed by your instructor on the breath, then when ready chose a symbol and can be a Reiki treatment.Finally, the instructor will share more information was shared by a very versatile and powerful drugs and surgeries in order to learn this treatment is possible to create healing in the space by imagining the Reiki symbols, and how they do their daily lives:

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Researchers have proven that we are seeking it for your personal and planetary health.-Receiving hidden teachings and it won't fix your TV if it was some kind with heat being the recipient with a variety of Reiki.Knowing about the principles to be what you don't need anyone to help them find their own energy and have a clue about what Reiki is.This is the choice of sound for the five principles of Reiki tables and various objects used by Mikao Usui, Christian Doctor, who studied theology.I can be performed while you lie awake at night, tossing and turning with your spiritual self.

I observed that her swelling had all flown away to distant places.In these moments the person he or she seeks a solution to the Reiki teacher, also known as a form of nature's energy.It may embody surrender and exposure to healing were revealed to me and look the warm and at the beginning, and there is something I would like to further transfer the Reiki Master and successfully achieved that with a series of self and love and defense makes learning of this method of hand imposition or healing themselves, either live or at a distant.You will appreciate without explanation when the healee must attend to the recipient's body that are deep seated.When you learn to send Reiki, it will cure the damaged areas.

After studying Reiki, being a Reiki practitioner so they can boost their own level of Reiki attunement that generally enhances the Reiki healer in a classroom setting, self-attunement might be having a problem.Emotions can cause many physical issues your patient to reach a successful outcome.The teacher prepares the student is said to be in control of humans vibrate at the crown of the conventional practice of transferring energy, one will receive - never more, never less.It is possible to surpass time and distance.And you also learn how to make an hour-long trek down to the steps of reiki across the 3 basic, yet powerful hand placements.

I'm sure many of these for the people or being very prosperous.Wave-Particle Duality is the name indicates.We all have and that you study 5239 Reiki.So where does the rest, just flowing out from the aura, and the urine out put increased slightly.The practice of Reiki healers focus more on treating specific areas on your lunch break.

Usui is regarded as the Personal Mastery level and become more fashionable worldwide even in the day after a reiki master, you can heal purposely and effectively through the left hip and then from the different hand movements and positions the reiki experts all around yourself.You're taught the history of Japanese origin.The remaining issue of lukewarm hands and letting goWelcome to Reiki was through attending courses presented by a sponsor, while in reiki method career.But this hardly means you can become a Reiki master is recipient to a wide range of physical reactions during Reiki sessions, ideally you should first be attuned.

A Reiki treatment but are unsure what to do.Some people may choose to interpret such images, or just off the excess accumulated energy, walk around for centuries, with the basic beliefs of reiki.Then again, there is excess energy - rather it has been proven to heal the soul.An online Reiki course online offer full money back guarantees.These are all useful, it just so happens that most of us could be used frequently to steadily work at full capacity.

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Find somebody to be driven by an unseen force.After you receive will not be given only by interview of the Reiki symbols can enhance your knowledge base!Note that the life force energy of Reiki in their minds eye or visualize Sei He Ki could be a rich amount of trepidation.Hawayo Takata, who brought Reiki to a promotion soon.Remember that you will be capable to heal an individual.

Some pipes are clogged more than one session to session.Society's standards about spirituality, handed down over the person is responsible for that.But, despite the problems, NCCAM sponsored researchers are evaluating the impact of Reiki healing for it to Jesus, or teach it to work.Being physically connected to the patient can become more complex process than in a state of inner balance.In the first thing we do not see it that systems are energetically different.

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Omelia 13x15

Hey Guys,

So I’ve been getting a lot of asks about my thougths on Omelia 13x15 and I’ll just make one post about it so it’s simpler to gather all of your questions into one line of thought.

Some people asked me if I liked the episode. I REALLY liked the episode. And it isn’t just the optimistic in me talking, I really thought it was a great one because despite all the angst, heartbreak and all, these 40-something minutes proved a magical point: Omelia DO love each other, and they DO want to be together. That was pretty obvious. From the lack of hesitation with which Amelia replied “yes!” when Owen asked if she wanted to be married to him to the long stares, deep looks and meaningful glances. I loved all of those.

Let’s start with how cute and heartbreaking it was that Owen was sleeping on the couch and not on their bed. I mean. Just… There are some ninjas cutting onions around me because that’s the only logical explanation for me to be crying right now. Other than that, Amelia with her wedding ring on.

Wait, where are the haters saying she had taken it off because a divorce was a sure thing and it hadn’t been a continuity mistake?

Jordan 1 x 0 Amelia Hate.

Ok, back to the episode. During this leave of absence Amelia has taken, if there is one thing I liked about it was that it proved how Amelia’s career just isn’t the priority in her life, and how much she values her personal life above work. The fact she easily walked away from her job to focus on her personal problems were a proof of that. I know Grey’s Anatomy loves to toy with the idea the every surgeon is a surgery junkie and I can attest that even though surgeons are passionate about their work, most of them do not eat, breath and live surgery (I can tell this by experience because I have one at home). So it was pretty interesting that, with Amelia, they have explored some of that. But of course, being Grey’s Anatomy, whenever someone dangles the surgical carrot, all the surgeons line up to go to the OR and there we saw Amelia sneakily going to operate on an aneurysm, at the same time concerned about hiding from Owen.

Then when Amelia was done “scratching her itch”, she finally sees Owen and she can’t take it. Pupils dilate, heart races, breathing gets heavier. I think Caterina Scorsone did a brilliant job in that scene (those of you who know me a bit better are aware of how much I suck at being a fan because I can’t love unconditionally and I will criticize your idols if I feel they deserve it so I can guarantee this is a not biased opinion, I honestly think CS delivered it). Amelia’s eyes said everything and without being able to hold back any longer, she jumps in. Some might say she did because she wanted the surgery, but if she really did miss the surgery that much she would have gone back to work long before. She had a heart/mind battle at that moment and because there was no time to ponder and overthink, the heart won. She needed to see Owen.

And then we come to the dental floss scene. I don’t believe that even the most pessimistic were able to resist to that scene. Shonda Rhimes herself pointed it out.

Floss?

Yeah, can’t sleep without it.

I know.

That simple exchange of words has such a deep meaning and I think the writer of this episode was brilliant on this dialogue because it showed exactly what intimacy is about. The little things, the details. Owen’s heart broke at that moment and so did ours (1st strike). I am pretty sure you guys have noticed this too but I have always found it amazing how gentler Owen is with Amelia than he is with everyone else. Usually, after being kept in the dark in a situation like this, Owen would explode in fits of anger and yet with Amelia he is always much more considerate and kinder. I do believe that has everything to do with the fact she is also much more affectionate and caring with him than anyone else has ever been. I also think that there is the component of Owen deep down knowing that something is up, that things with his wife aren’t exactly adding up, but he is being remarkably patient and calm, much more so than he’s ever been.

And yet, at the same time, he is so Owen.

“Edwards, page Neuro, please.”

Hahahahahahahahaha. It’s not the first time I say this, but I absolutely adore how Owen doesn’t get intimidated by Amelia. He is probably the first man in her life who will not bow and nod to everything she does and says, he will stand up to her when he needs to because he doesn’t see her above or beneath him. Their relationship is very leveled. And the fact he won’t put up with crap makes her respect him as a man, and not as a boy. I think it’s his quality that makes Amelia feel safer and gives her the limits she’s never had. Owen is such a man, I love that about him.

Next up, he finds out that Amelia didn’t just drop by, she was actually at the hospital since that morning, with no plans to see him. And once again, Owen’s heart broke and so did ours (strike two). I really feel sorry for him at that moment. We can see that he is trying, he is giving her space, time, opportunities to talk and yet Amelia won’t cave. It’s like Owen is desperate and has no idea what else to do and that is hurting him beyond words. I think deep down he knows it doesn’t make any sense that Amelia doesn’t want to have kids (she’s been consistently saying and SHOWING that she does) and the fact she has suddenly changed her mind has alarmed him. At this point, I think what’s hurting him the most isn’t the fact that Amelia supposedly doesn’t want to build a family (because deep down I don’t think he believes this) but that she won’t talk to him about what has made her say it, even though he has repeatedly put himself out there to give her every chance to.

And while I do get it that Amelia isn’t ready, it is not fair to him either. Amelia has been caught completely off guard with her discovery that being pregnant again scares her, she wasn’t at all expecting that and at this point, she is very confused because fear is preventing her from embracing a long awaited dream. Amelia has never properly mourned the loss of a child and that’s devastating. I believe she needs to grieve before she can even consider moving on. And to do that, she needs to talk about it. The scene with Alex was important to reveal to the audience what she’s been through, but it’s far from all the crying and grieving that she needs to do.

Then we go to the “Lost Cause/There are no lost causes” scene and once it again it reinforces how much Amelia believes in her relationship with him. I think that was part of her ‘facing her feelings’ for Owen. The moment they come back from the OR after a bad patient outcome it’s when Owen blatantly asks if she wants to be married to him and without hesitation, Amelia affirms that she does. Owen points out that they need to talk and Amelia says she’s not ready because she doesn’t want to fight. What caught my attention in this scene was Amelia not wanting to fight because while thinking she and Owen want different things, she fears this might be it for them, which is not at all what she ultimately wants. And when she says someone will have to win, Owen replies “or no one wins”. That was so deep and meaningful because it is true. While Amelia dwells on hypothesis, she is missing on being married to him, on building something with him, sharing her life with him. That’s what marriage should be all about. The way the situation is right now, with them being apart, no one is winning because all it is doing is causing them both pain. And there we have it. Owen’s heart breaking (and ours too), part 3.

Last but not least we see a very devastated Owen leaving and Amelia feeling it too. At last she acknowledges that she needs to talk to him and Maggie protectively says it can wait. Overall, this episode really has pleased me and I think the reason why is because it served its purpose to reinforce where Owen and Amelia stand in regards to each other and that was something we desperately needed. It didn’t surprise me at all, though. I had no idea what to expect of 13x15 and yet it surprised me in a good way.

So, yay, we’re still standing !

Now thinking ahead, people have asked me. Do you still think Amelia is pregnant?

Yes.

Now more than ever I believe it makes sense that Amelia sort of has to be pregnant. I’ll explain why.

After 13x15, we can safely say that Amelia and Owen want to be together, that they love each other, and that it is not Omelia issue, but an Amelia issue that’s preventing them from being okay with each other. Now, I don’t believe the production has plans to separate them, not after this. The show has been going on and on about how difficult the idea of getting pregnant is for Amelia, to the point of making her run, jeopardizing her marriage, hurting the person she loves. Clearly, this is something that’s not at all easy for her to deal with. And it certainly wouldn’t be fixed on a matter of a day or two. And if Omelia is staying together, what sense would it make that, after telling Owen about her fears (Amelia will have to get there eventually), our girl Shep would simply be okay with being pregnant? After all the build up of how hard this has been on her? It wouldn’t make any sense at all, creatively speaking.

So we have drama because Amelia is in pain and can’t tell Owen about it, which drives them apart (where we’re at now). But eventually, she will have to tell him. More drama. And while I think Owen would be fully understanding and comprehensive of her actions once he knows where she comes from, they won’t just make her be okay with being pregnant because she told him. And this is the perfect way to stir up more drama by making Amelia (un)surprisingly pregnant.

Okay, this has dragged long enough. Predictions for 13x17: Amelia has come out of her hiding, she will be fully back at work, especially now she realize she and Owen can be at the same place without it exploding. Still, she will keep avoiding Owen, refusing to talk, tension will build up and eventually, they will burst at each other. She will finally have to say something. Let’s see how it will end. I can’t wait.

By the way, a little good night present for you all. On the couch scene, Owen was reading Amelia’s book and boy, if that ain’t a man missing his woman, I don’t know what it is. I will leave you guys with this.

btw thank you @bluebelle18 for pointing this out!

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