#hello to future rachel who came here to mine the drafts for something worthwhile

[rachelminetti]

harkive 6/21/22

it still doesn't feel like june, i'll have to accept its loss of meaning at this point. dramatic? probably! this year isn't chained to anything, it's of its own kind. today was a day of its own, it's as if sunday and monday never happened and tomorrow will be nothing like this. i've been caught up building fake memories, sticking myself in a camp life i never lived. this is definitely going in the drafts, i have no good words left in me for now

i had a warm day in june stuck in my head while i was getting ready. finally made a wakeup playlist last night, it had been about a month since the last one. did not listen to it on the way to work, was in too much of a hurry to get something playing before i pulled onto jefferson. spotify played what i was listening to as i fell asleep last night (I a moon by north sea radio orchestra), kind of boring.

listened to my wakeup playlist while i went through this weekend's emails and sort of planned my work day out. this week is candy, so everything is a little sweet and not very serious. overall, not a bad lineup.

candy coated kisses by the autocollants - this prompted me to queue up some more stuff from this album, such sweet, sweet music.

candy corn by jon hyde - did not like, but it's been in my library for a while and i feel like high school rachel (like early high school rachel) would have liked it so i can't bear to get rid of it (i'll probably delete it tomorrow)

candy floss by wilco

candy girl by the four seasons

candy rush by minuteflag - summer 2019, wusc, delight

candyboy by weyes blood - added this to june 2022, this album is delightfully weird, i love her range

candyman by bill horwitz

candyman by tsunami

at this point, i wanted to listen to something from a previous june. jumped into by album rotation from april-june 2018. most of this stuff is pretty predictable and incredibly dated to this time in my life. i figured i wouldn't have been able to process 2018 until 2022, in line with my four year cycle. which i think might have ended? no bloody knees on april 30th, no trips planned to tampa. i guess at least i have savannah to keep me chained to this reoccurring past. i might not need 2014 or 2018 anymore, but i will cling to 2012 forever. listened to a song from each album on here. some highlights: round room - phish, a tribe called quest, jenny and johnny, q-tip (i thought i was so cool for this), destroyer.

went on instagram, bonnaroo posted the lineup from 2002, this brought on a total vibe shift for the day. it is after lunch at this point, i have moved onto citations. i switched to spotify, started from the bottom of the lineup, and just started adding shit to the queue. in no way would i actively listen to any of this, but there is some of it that i wouldn't mind adopting into my personal history. like if i were x person, i would have made x self. a self that had this stuff on cds, friends at camp and college who listened to this. this seems like the equivalent to my dmb/dispatch phase (i recognized more names on this list than the non informed would have!). it's interesting. i wonder who i'd be if i were 25, planning the trek up to manchester. i definitely wouldn't be a dirty wook, i would go more camp counselor core. some acts i would see: dj logic, umphrey's (for the culture), drums and tuba, donna and the buffalo (i would have loved this. probably would have been a favorite cd for me if i'm keeping in line with this persona i've created), prob would have enjoyed the disco biscuit set, definitely would have loved cut chemist!!, moe. (once again, for the culture), karl denson's tiny universe, jack johnson (couldn't miss it in this alternate world, just because), phil lesh and friends (duh), trey anastasio (DUH). what a trip this was.

went back to the 2018 album rotation while i ran around forsyth and drove to whole foods. it felt good to run, the park was gorgeous. it actually did feel like june for a hot minute there. queued up in the shower by homeshake for the drive back. just finished the bonnaroo 2002 queue lineup, thank god. i will forget all of that tomorrow, probably. going to finish the homeshake album while i shower, then probably pick something from am i asleep or awake while i attempt to read before bed.