#hello hello i thought i wasn't going to be able to update this week because it was friday night and i hadn't started with a busy weekend

[chrrychills]

Hello, could you do an sbg Tyler x reader with a really nice and forgiving reader (basically the grumpy x sunshine trope) headcannons. Thanks in advance :)

you're too sweet for me .

tyler hernandez « sunshine s/o!

•really admires how forgiving you are. he can hold grudges for weeks, but you forgive and forget almost immediately.

•at first, he finds you naive. he doesn't understand how you're so sweet and extroverted.

•grows to love your carefree attitude and kind personality.

•at first, also thinks that you can't handle yourself. when the first shift happened he wasn't entirely confident that you wouldn't drag everyone down. he was quickly proven wrong– he's watched firsthand how quick you are to defend yourself and everyone else. that's partly one of the reasons he fell for you.

•he doesn't get jealous, but he does get protective. he knows that there are people out there who will take advantage of how forgiving you are, and the thought saddens him.

•looks up to you, in a way. a small part of him wishes he could be so kind and forgiving. he thinks that those are two of your best qualities.

•is so incredibly whipped. he'd rather die than admit it, but he's a sucker for your cheery smile and bright eyes.

•is a lot more easygoing with you. he finds himself smiling more and going along with whatever spontaneous plans you have. before you, he'd scoff at the idea because he's to busy with school, baseball and a million other things. with you, however, he lets those worries melt away and focuses on you.

•overall, he adores you. even though you two are opposites he holds a lot of love for you.

lacey's notes: i'm so sorry i took so long to get this posted. i'm on a cruise ship atm and my service is awful. i'm trying to update in the days i'm on land, but i might not be able to.

ty for the request!

[alittlefanatic]

hello! would it be alright to request something for a reader who really looks up to howdt as a sort of father figure?

idk man, i collect fictional parental figures like pokemon, welcome home happens to be my latest obsession, and YOU happen to be my favorite fan writer for said obsession, so i figured id ask- no pressure though! college is rough, and i want you to take care of yourself!

I'm going to cry qwq THANK YOU SO MUCH! That means the world to me that I'm your favorite! I never thought that I'd be someone's favorite writer awawawaw.

🐛 Howdy Father Figure Headcanons! 🐛

Child Version

🐛 Howdy LOVES to hold you and pick you up! You are just so tiny and small!

🐛 He would love to give you head pats and even ruffle your hair! (If you are ok with it of course)

🐛 Got a boo boo? He will be right there by your side like a frantic parent! "Are you hurt? I have cute little butterfly bandages! Let's get you cleaned up!"

🐛 He will hang all of your crayon drawings throughout his Bugdega! He wants to show off how creative and how proud he is of you!

🐛 If you knock over a stand at his Bugdega: "It's alright bug! Are you hurt? No? Ok good.. mistakes happen, don't be upset! What do we do when we make a mistake? We clean it up! See? It's better! Mistakes make us feel bad but they don't define us!"

Teenage Version

🐛 He would have you work in his store! "It helps build character and understand responsibility better!"

🐛 With that being said though, he also helps you define your boundaries!

🐛 "You don't want to work on Saturdays and Sundays? Do you need the day off to rest and work on things? That's ok! Thank you for telling me! Let's work things out if we need to~"

🐛 If you are wanting to sell anything, he will help you put up a little stand in his store! He's your biggest supporter and will personally send out your work to other neighbors to get them interested to buy!

🐛 This man has absolutely no idea how to drive a car (mainly because he cannot fit in many, nonetheless drive) but he will try and guide you nonetheless! That is until he gets one of the other neighbors to help. He would get you a little 'beetle' car purely for the name.

Adult Version

🐛 He would absolutely cry at the thought of you moving out but he would help you 'spread your wings' if you did want to move, or at least have a place of your own nearby!

🐛 "My little bug is all grown up! I can't believe how fast it flew by...I'm so proud of you! Know you can always come back to your ol' pops ok? I may be getting older but I still have all these arms to hug you!"

🐛 He would let you take over the Bugdega if you wanted it! He would feel like you would do a phenomenal job.

🐛 If you don't though, he will be your number one supporter and will send you baked goods in the morning for your work as a courtesy gift!

🐛 If you move away, he would send you letters every week updating you about what's going on in the neighborhood and how he misses you and loves you, and that he's proud of you every day!

🐛 He is a very sentimental man, keeping every letter you write to him, or anything you've ever given him. Don't you ever think it wasn't appreciated, because he has a little area in his room dedicated to things from you.

I felt so bad that I haven't been able to write, I got a few more personal things to do then I'm completely free so expect more soon I promise! I'm so happy to finally be able to write more content for this fandom soon it brings me joy Be sure to get some water and a snack neighbor! Howdy would like you to take care of yourself 🐛

[erriga]

EDIT: week 3!

About arfid... again

So, long story short, I have recently begun working on my eating problems in therapy. I've been trying to find a way to do it for quite some time through other methods but in the end it turned out that I was able to devise a sensible plan with my own therapist. She has spent a lot of time and put a lot of thought into our new process, for which I am forever grateful, because the main thing that I have struggled with throughout my life was people not taking my eating disorder seriously.

This post is one of two posts about my current arfid-related process I'll be making, the next one with general tips and tricks I have learned so far will be written shortly after this one. Right now I would like to document my progress (which I will update to the best of my abilities). The main reason I'm doing this is to perhaps give some of you who are struggling with the same issues hope that things perhaps can change, and also to kinda de-stigmatize arfid, because I know first hand how difficult it is to talk about it. So yeah, let's go!

I'M AFRAID OF (MOST) VEGETABLES AND DELI MEAT

For two unrelated reasons. I have problems with textures, food temperatures, different kinds of compulsions around food, moral beliefs and other things that generally made my relationship with those two food groups pretty fucking difficult. Right now my therapist is encouraging me to introduce new vegetables (bc let's be honest, this is the most important food group for me to overcome both for health and societal reasons). And so far it's been going like this:

WEEK 1

baby carrot (perfectly ok, within my abilities!)

dried/baked tomatoes (a bit harder but I managed)

capers (eughhh)

WEEK 2

lettuce (not terrible!)

cherry tomatoes (this was a hard one and I didn't like the taste at all, but I hope that with time I will get used to it enough to not panic at the mere scent)

WEEK 3

baked bell pepper - pretty good! not as terrible as I feared, will definitely explore it more

various fried vegetables from one of those frozen mixes (the only new one was cauliflower). Pretty meh on the taste and the texture, would def prefer to it as a side to a different meal. But we're going somewhere!

Fortunately, I wasn't starting from total ground zero. I eat certain vegetables but usually they must be pretty processed and served hot. So right now we are focusing on getting used to the texture of cold, raw plants! Hurray

Next week I'll update it with more vegetables so please keep your fingers crossed <3 and if you're one of my friends who wasn't aware I have this problem in the first place, ehm, hello. I am finally getting better!

[takaraphoenix]

#28 Lonely And College for the Stiles prompts! Would love something with Stiles and Jackson (but always happy with Sterek or Steter)

(I am assuming you meant 14 and not 28, with the prompts!)

Tags: fluff, friendship, the Hale Pack moves to London

Main Relationship: Jackson & Stiles & Danny & Lydia

Teen Wolf Characters: Jackson Whittemore, Danny Mahealani, Mieczysław 'Stiles' Stilinski, Lydia Martin

@writersmonth Prompts: lonely + college

Summary: Jackson is missing his pack, not knowing that his favorite people are moving to London.

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Missing Pack

Stiles Summer Stories 2024

London was lonely, when he first arrived. He didn't know anyone, just his parents, who he hated during that time. They'd taken him away from the love of his life, from his chance of pack, from the town where his biological parents' graves were located. They thought a chance in scenery would help him. They were wrong. All he was was miserable and lonely.

Even when the London Pack reached out to him, after apparently having gotten a call from Peter Hale (Derek's dead uncle who had been resurrected but then Jackson was apparently the last one who got to judge that considering he'd been legally dead too for a bit and Jesus fucking Christ there had been so much trauma to unpack actually).

The London Pack helped, somewhat. Alpha Hayes was a good and fair man and he took Jackson under his wing and even recommended him an actual therapist (not a school counselor), who was a supernatural being herself and with whom he could work through everything. There were even a bunch of bearable people to hang out with in the pack.

But it still wasn't the same. He missed his girlfriend and his best friend above all else.

Jackson and Lydia broke up, agreed that the long distance wasn't working for them, they were both too physical for that. But they'd always love each other and deep down, Jackson knew one day they'd be together again and then they'd stay together.

Danny was tricky, at first. When Jackson thought his best friend had no idea about the supernatural. But he actually did. Danny knew. From thereon out, it became so much easier for them to talk and they talked for hours, multiple times a week. Danny kept him updated on Beacon Hills, together with Lydia. Often times, they'd talk together, all three of them. Those times, it felt like home.

And then something fucked up happened in Beacon Hills and the most unexpected person suddenly became one of Jackson's most important people. Fucking Stiles Stilinski, of all people.

Stiles got possessed by a chaos demon. It killed Allison. Lydia had been a wreck, unable to get a whole sentence out. Danny had taken the phone from her and, with a tight throat himself, explained to Jackson what had happened. The demon, having taken over Stiles for months, using him to kill people, killing Allison just before they were able to exorcise it.

It also killed Lydia's boyfriend, who was the twin-brother of Danny's boyfriend and that was a kind of rom com sub-plot that Jackson would have loved to witness. Danny's boyfriend left and found his way to London, because Danny sent him there because Danny knew a wolf and thus a pack in London, and somehow, for a while, Jackson was dating Danny's ex, which Danny found way too funny, thank you very much.

Stiles had been possessed by a demon and he had killed two pack-mates, on top of countless others. And it had severely fucked him up. Lydia spoke so often to Jackson about how worried she was about him, how he wasn't attending pack meetings and wasn't talking and not going to school and that nobody from the McCall Pack could really get through to him.

So Jackson asked her for his number, startling them both equally. The first time he called, both of of them didn't speak at all, beyond Jackson's 'hello', but at least Stiles didn't hang up on him. They remained on the phone for an hour. The second time, Jackson found the guts to say what he'd wanted to say. But even with therapy, talking about the kanima still hurt.

It was exactly what Stiles needed to hear though. That he wasn't alone. Wasn't the only one who'd been used to kill, who had been robbed of his bodily autonomy by another to kill. They bonded, over this trauma that nobody else could relate to, this jarring, awful thing that had been done to them, through them. It took some, for Stiles to start talking too, but Jackson got that.

Somehow, Stiles Stilinski became Jackson's best friend, beside Danny. They talked near daily. Once Stiles was actually doing better about the possession, they started talking about other things too. For the first time, Jackson was open to get to know Stiles. And he liked Stiles.

Gradually, over the following months, the Hale Pack reassembled in London. Two Alphas were a bit too much for Beacon Hills and Derek had conceded, had packed up and left with Peter, Cora, Isaac, Boyd and Erica. Came to London, because he… still considered Jackson his beta.

The Hayes Pack was nice, but the Hale Pack were where he belonged. And he was happy. Happier. But something was still missing. His people were still missing. He was making connections with Cora, Isaac, Boyd and Erica (honestly, him and Erica really clicked in a way that terrified Boyd and Derek), but his pack felt incomplete without his people.

Finally, graduation came. He couldn't bring himself to ask where everyone was going for college, too afraid that this time, it would tear them apart. Part of what made it so easy to keep contact with Danny, Stiles and Lydia was because they were all in the same town, they'd meet up in Stiles' bedroom and video call him together, they'd have movie nights in Danny's living room and have him on speaker phone while he watched the same movie at his place, they'd send him pictures of them at Lydia's pool during the hottest summer days. Once the three separated and went to different colleges, in different time-zones, it would become much harder to get them all together.

Knocking on the door disturbed his depressing thoughts and since nobody else in this damn house – lazy ass werewolves – could get the damn door, Jackson stalked over to it annoyed, cursing Boyd and Erica for being too busy making out. Until he opened the door.

Danny had an arm around Stiles' shoulders, Lydia standing on Stiles' other side, all three of them looking at him with matching grins. And at what point had Danny and Stiles become friends? Oh, right. When the painfully obvious truth of Stiles' bisexuality became public knowledge (a guy could only get away with so many tee-shirt and flannel/hoodie combinations and asking if he was attractive to gay guys before it became undeniable). Jackson stared at them, stunned.

"Did you forget all manners, Jackson?" Lydia looked at him sternly. "Ask us in, it is hot out here."

"That's just all the hot people out here," Stiles grinned, motioning at the three of them.

Danny snorted and rolled his eyes, but it was so clearly fond. It took another second before Jackson launched himself at them, wrapping his arms around all three of them so tightly, like he never wanted to let go again because he didn't. There was laughter, but there was also sobbing.

"Did you know London has a lot of great colleges?" Stiles asked.

"But…" Jackson blinked, staring at their large suitcases.

"We're here to stay," Danny smirked. "Though I am not taking a room anywhere close to you and/or Lydia because I do not need to listen to the epic reunion sex."

Lydia huffed and hit him on the arm. Jackson watched them enter the mansion like they owned the place. Jackson felt three pack-bonds snap into place as his pack was finally complete.

~*~ The End ~*~

[thefrenchydude]

Game update #1

Hello everyone!

I would like to apologize for my absence. I've been quite busy lately and haven't had time to do what I wanted to do. The request I wanted to answer is still not finished and I haven't made that much progress on chapter 4. I'm truly sorry. But now that I've got two weeks to rest ahead of me, I intend to do what I love and finish what I set out to do.

Also, I'd like to talk about the VN and everything I've done so far:

About the game:

Firstly, I've written and coded some of the first part of the game, I still have to correct it, complete it, change a few things (and I'd like to implement an inventory and level system in this game, but I don't know how yet.).

The different routes:

Wukong and Macaque: The first two chapters have been implemented in the game.

No choice yet to change the story.

Arthur (temporary name) -a tiger demon-:

Chapter 1 completed with some choices and a finished combat phase.

Start of chapter 2 (in progress)

M??n Wuk?ng: A hidden path which is not fully developed as yet in the game.

The tea house and sauna routes are still not finished and doesn't have yanderes yet. I think for the tea house it could be a dragon and for the sauna I really have no idea right now :')

The game will have three main paths (triggered by a choice at the start of the game):

Murderous Lust (you're with Lex and you follow the story)

Variant 1 (Lex is dead and you're working with the Facility for Mother)

Variant 2 (Lex wants you dead and you're tracked by the Facility for having betrayed Mother)

About the art:

It was a lot more complicated than I thought. Firstly, I needed a furry artist at all costs (Wukong, macaque, ect… are demons with anthropomorphic designs, so a furry artist was the best option). I spent several afternoons looking for artists. On Discord, Twitter, Furafinity… It was so long and complicated. Either their style didn't match my project, or their commission were closed, or I couldn't trust them.

After a while, I found someone. I wasn't totally convinced by his style -although it was beautiful, I wasn't sure it would go well with my VN-. We started talking, he seemed interested… then nothing. With no response even after more than a week, I decided to give up and turn to another artist. So off I went again in search of an artist. Later, I found one. His style appealed to me and everything seemed okay with him. HOWEVER, there is something that I always do, I check all the artist's network. 1 - Because I like to do so and to know more about the person I can work with. 2- Because I don't want to work with a jerk. AND THIS ONE, it was a true specimen. He left hate messages on other artists' accounts, and I even found homophobic messages he'd left under the account of someone who'd asked him for commissions. I ran away from this creep.

And the more I searched, the more I lost hope of finding someone for this project. Maybe I was only going to be able to make a VN without art… I didn't like that idea at all, but if I couldn't find anyone, I had no choice.

Defeatist, I gave myself one last afternoon of searching. If I still couldn't find anyone, I was going to have to make up my mind. And then I came across an artist whose style attracted me. His works were beautiful and the more I searched through his accounts, the more I liked this person.

So I went ahead and contacted him, I was so stressed about getting a negative response or no response at all. But the artist got back to me. He's a really cool guy and he draws so fucking good ijnreijnevineinzijnoznfiojfnipnlckd.

The first commission should be ordered early this month. I'm so happy to have finally found the perfect artist for the job!

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One rather important question: Will there be any NSFW? After a lot of thought, yes. There will be scenes like that in the game.

Sorry again for the absence, but I'm very busy with the VN. Thanks to everyone who sends me love through questions or private messages, I love you! It really makes me feel great, and I can't thanks y'all enough for that.

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[zombeebunnie]

Game development Trembling Essence update:

Hello and welcome new followers, I am here with another update to share today! :]

This week mainly focused on sprite rework!

This was something that I thought would happen later into development but I'm finally looking forward to doing this since I like how my art style has been developing. :]

The old files for his sprites were very unorganized and hard to follow so I redrew everything from scratch!

My coloring/shading has improved since early January-March so I wanted to fix certain details to define him but nothing that would drastically change him.

So to go into a bit more detail and add some more lore:

Noah's hair is healthy and well taken care of but still recovering from damage which makes it uneven. The hair on his right side that's over his shoulder is very long and reaches down towards his chest while his left side is shorter and slightly inches over his shoulder. The center part of his hair reaches down to the mid part of his back! :]

It's more noticeable in most of the CG's since his old sprites didn't show that too well.

In very early development for sprites, I was going for a sort of "anime" shading style and used a very small brush and minimal shading. The line art was too thin and didn't transfer well into the game so I redid them. In the second attempt, the main sprite from the demo that you would see on the screen had more details but I overlooked adding that same type of shading towards his side sprite in the bottom left corner in the demo. I didn't notice any of this until the early summer so it was something on my radar to redo.

I even changed the way his over-sized hoodie looked since I didn't know how to properly draw them at the time. Everything ended up taking a couple of tries before I was able to finally get what I wanted.

It took longer than expected to restore the new sprites when I first started adding them because I tried using the "replace" method and it messed up what I was trying to do. I wasn't really too bothered by this so I combed through everything one by one instead which helped me catch a few more grammar mistakes/do some minor quality of life changes.

Speaking of quality of life, Noah also has more sprite expressions too, It went from about 10 to 17 so far! Some of his original expressions didn't line up the way I wanted them to in the demo/full game and now they fit a lot better this time around. :]

There will also be alternate sprites being used when he's in what he considers his pajamas! I had some old sprites of this but I really did not like them as time went on and his sprite expressions no longer fit what I'm trying to go for anymore. This will be something I'll talk about in the next update post! :]

With that being said, that's all I have to share for right now!

Thank you very much for all of your support and constant encouragement on what I've been working on! I will always wholeheartedly appreciate it! This week was really productive and I'm very happy with how much got done with the games' development! :,]

[kuleana--does-anyone-care]

capstone update #1

TO REITERATE: I'm planning to produce a 30-min documentary film.

Hello, I'm finally here to update my blog! I meant to do this last week, but didn't... I was struggling to wrap my head around this project and what I'll be doing this semester.

I think I'm a little crazy for taking this on. Sometimes it feels like too much, but I certainly won't be quitting.

My first reality check was trying to populate the workback plan. It was a necessary step, but so difficult. I had to come back to it a few times to get it sorted out. I always feel like I'm overlooking something when I'm planning out a project, and I've never tried to produce something of this magnitude before. But I sat down with my workback plan again tonight and finally have it in good shape. Coming back to it has helped me process what I'll need to do, and I feel pretty certain now that I'm not forgetting anything. I also recreated my workback plan in Notion, because I don't think I'll be able to stay on track if I only look at it on Google Sheets. (The formatting... the lack of color-coding and other viewing modes... Nah, homie, I can't. TwT) I also gave myself dates to complete things by. I know I can work to a deadline, and now I have a ton of them. Isn't that fantastic!

Anyway, I'm really happy with my organization on this project now that I have all my tasks thought out, written down, and with dates. The tricky part now will be keeping the Google Sheet updated according to the Notion.

Right now I have a bunch of tasks marked as "in progress." There's so much I need to do in the next two weeks, mostly making lists of people and Instagram accounts to reach out to. I already follow a lot of accounts but I have not created a master list for myself to keep track of them all. Once I have my list, I can start drafting up messages to send to them, asking if they might want to participate in my doc, or could put me in connection with people who would. I'm kind of worried that I don't have much to show for myself, a presence, or a reason why they should trust me, that kind of thing. But I'll try it anyway.

I also need to draft emails/ send texts/ make phone calls to people I know, who said in one way or another that they might be able to lend a voice to my project. Cast out a bunch of lines and see if I get any bites. 🎣

Another thing is, I want to find videos on YouTube and Vimeo of the ʻOnipaʻa Peace March that happened a couple weeks ago. I wasn't able to go myself, but I'd really like to incorporate footage of it into my film. Maybe someone would be willing to let me use a few of their shots. If not a person, maybe one of the local news outlets. I also need to do some research. I have a playlist of some news clips about the Red Hill water crisis from when I made my 5-minute piece about it in Fall '22. But there have been updates since then, and I need to collect even more. I'm not 100% sure what or how much I'll do with it yet. But my creative process is 'collect all the stuff, look at and absorb it all, ???, get vision, create the vision'... so step one is gathering more things. :)

Also want to find more PDFs. Last semester, I found some studies and national news articles about Red Hill, pollution by the Navy/ issues similar to what's happening here, but my research topic was persuasion, so I spent the vast majority of my time on that. There's definitely more out there, and I want to find it because I'm thinking of using scans/ screenshots in my film.

Oh, and I'm planning to request titles from ʻUluʻulu by 2.16. Gonna try my absolute best to stay on top of the deadlines I've set for myself. LONG POST: FINITO!!!

[littlexscarletxwitch]

Little update

Hello, my loves. It's been a while lol.

So, here's the thing… my laptop just wasn't working therefore I wasn't in the mood to write, the goddamn thing wouldn't even turn on.

I thought I was just going through I really bad writer's block, but it turns out it was all because the little piece of shit just wouldn't cooperate with me lol.

I just got it fixed and got back to writing, so I will be posting a fic tomorrow. I'm actually really excited about that fic, it's a request and I just loved the idea and I hope I did it justice.

Also, (not that any of you care lol) I got a job. Never thought I would be working at 19 years old but here I am, and I like it so far lmao.

Therefore, now with a job and studying, alongside trying to reach my reading challenge and watch f1, I don't think I'll be able to post a fic once a week BUT I'LL TRY MY BEST.

Good to be back,

Love, M <3

[perexcri]

As a fic writer, how do you stay positive and not stress yourself out with constantly comparing?

I've been really struggling with that. I start spiraling when a certain chapter doesn't get as many comments as usual, comparing my hit counts and kudo counts to other fics, and it's really not healthy but I'm struggling with knowing how to stop, how to just be happy and proud of the response I've gotten. Any thoughts or suggestions would be much appreciated.

ahhh hello anon!! apologies as this will probably be long alsjdlkasj, so i'm gonna put my answer under the cut~ 💜💜💜

first of all, i'm sorry that's something you're struggling with right now, and i'm here to tell you that i struggle with it all the time too, as i'm sure almost all fic writers do. which isn't to say your pain isn't any less - just know that you're not alone :]

it's something i struggle with, but tbh, i think it's just gotten less painful because of lots (and i mean LOTS) of exposure to it lol. half of the time i'm posting on ao3, it's me stumbling up to the posting portal's doorstep with a bloody nose and two black eyes, barely able to stand on my own, waving my fists around going "yEAH i can go another round!!"

here, let me tell you a story:

ok, so i started writing this fic called to hell and back again in like August of last year, right? and it was a silly little byler fic for me - just picture me typing away at my keyboard and going "hahahah but what if they got trapped in the UD but it was like a ROMCOM??" anyway, flashforward three weeks later, and suddenly it starts getting a lot of attention, and i start seeing it shared around. and then, for the rest of my time posting that fic, it had a lot of attention. i got very used to each of my updates getting like 20 comments, bare minimum. it was exciting, but also scary, because i was starting to go through a Not Great time in my own mental health, and i could see the cliff coming the closer that fic drew to a close.

so that fic ended with a bang, it had a lot of attention, etc. but before i'd finished writing it, i had come up with another fic idea and started working on it. i thought the concept was super interesting, and i was really excited about the emotional themes i was gonna get to explore in it, which, coming off of to hell and back again, where i had been so scared for it to end, i was excited about because i had something to look forward to again! plus, a bunch of people had commented on to hell and back again and said they'd gladly read anything else byler-related i would write. so, i was excited, wrote 70k of a fantasy au, and when i posted the first few chapters, i didn't hear a whole lot back. some, but definitely not as much as i had been used to (even though that other fic was more an anomaly than the norm tbh). every update just made me feel awful because i felt like people were looking at this thing that i'd put a lot of my heart and soul into and going "eh i think i'll pass." which is fine, of course, because i shouldn't expect people to automatically read something i write simply because i wrote it, right? it didn't change the amount of pain and embarrassment i felt posting it and maybe getting one or two comments, though

but i kept posting!! at that point, i'd worked too hard on it to give up on posting it just yet, so i kept it up, and i was grateful for the people who did leave kind words, even if i truly did feel embarrassed crawling onto ao3 once a week and posting chapters in a fantasy au it felt like very few people actually cared about. eventually, i hit a point where i was stuck on the writing, and i figured that a lot of people weren't reading it anyway, so what if i just let it fade out, yeah?

well, then my own mental health woes kinda leveled out (medication is a beautiful thing✨), and even though that fic still wasn't getting a whole lot of engagement, i kept working on it, and a few people did eventually find it that became super invested in it. this fic is a flower that resembles you, btw, and there's a reason why it's been gifted to 4 people: i legitimately wouldn't have finished it without just having those few regularly there to encourage me and offer their predictions for what they thought the next chapter would hold. they're the only reason i was able to get myself to finish it. even better, i've made a lovely friend because of this fic that i now talk with every day, and i wouldn't have had them come into my life without that fic. and now that it's been finished for about a couple of months, i've received several lovely and thoughtful comments from other readers about how it's made them feel. people have made art for it - hell, somebody just wrote a song for it!

this is still one of my least kudosed fics btw. it's not my most popular, but for the people who have read it, it's really resonated with them.

idk if this anecdote is helpful at all, so i'll just condense it to this: as long as it's not completely destroying any joy you receive from creating, don't stop posting. that's honestly my best advice, to just keep posting and writing, and know that your story will find the right people that it's meant to find. if it hits a point where it's seriously affecting you, then take a step back from it so you're not causing yourself pain, but if you can go on posting, i think, in the end, you come out the winner, no matter how many people interact (and at least that pesky little voice in your head telling you you're not good enough doesn't get to win, right?)

and i know that's really contrite and the thing everybody says: just keep at it! even if it's hard! unfortunately, the lesson i've learned the past year is that that thing everybody says is, for better or worse, pretty truthful. if you stop, it won't get any better; if you keep going, though, you never know what will come from it

and that's just it: ultimately, you never know how a story will hit with people or what will come from posting! i know it helps me to remember that i can't predict the future, nor can i in any way make people react to what i write in a certain way. once it's out there, it's out there, and it's up to The People to decide how they feel about it

and i've found that there's a certain flavor of joy i have with my least-kudosed/commented/bookmarked/what-have-you fics that i don't necessarily have with my others. i appreciate and love when people interact with any of my works, but i've found that the responses on my least popular fics tend to be a lot stronger or lead to interesting conversations with others. so i guess that's another thing that's helped me, too: realizing that it's not necessarily about how many people find your work so much as who, because when somebody finds your work who really needs it, or, conversely, somebody finds your fic that you really need to meet (as was the case with my aforementioned fantasy au), i think that's more fulfilling than worrying about how many people are seeing my fics

...which isn't to say that i don't worry about those things. believe me, i very much do, because when you create something and share it somewhere, obviously you want people to interact with it, right? and it's been especially difficult since i had a fic get kinda big so early on in my posting, but i'd like to think i'm getting better. hell, if you like at my ao3 profile, all the fics listed on my page right now don't even break 100 kudos 😆 it's almost kinda freeing at this point, and even though these worries still trouble me, i'm trying to slowly beat them out of me through lots of practice (i.e., posting) and patience (reminding myself that the right people will find my work when they need it!)

i hope this was helpful!! and sorry for rambling about myself - when i'm upset, one of the most comforting things i can be told is that somebody understands what i'm going through, so that's what i tried to do for you!! you're not alone, and i hope things can get better for you.

i know you're on anon, so no pressure, but if you'd like, i'd love it if you sent me your work so i can read it 🥺 you could send me another ask or a just dm me, if you're comfortable!! i'd just love to give your work some love since i know what you're going through right now, and i know it can suck a lot~

anyway, i am sending you much love anon!! i look forward to reading your work, if you're so inclined to share :] 💜💜💜

[hotarutranslations]

Day Before Graduation!

Evening

Its the day before I graduate,

What should I write about, What should I say to everyone, Addressing the members, I've been blogging for the past 13 years so, Looking back on that,

Does it seem like, something that I would do?

For me, I've seen off so many members up till now, When I graduate some day, I have imagined like, what will I write when its me~ but,

Really,

I've heard about it but,

There are things you don't understand until your on this side, a lotttttt of thingsss!!!!!

Well, its my first and last graduation, So it feels like its not within the realms of my imagination--

Its interesting, and fun☺️☺️ fufufu

Whats gone beyond my imagination is,

First off,

After announcing my graduation, There are a lot of places, Where I could talk about my feelings!!!

Today as well,

Consulation With Tsunku-san

Tsunku Wrote A Follow-Up The Day After

Its interesting, I though this but,

Because I had the opportunity to speak in so many places,

Why I decided to graduate, What changes have happend in Morning Musume, Of course those parts don't change whereever I talk about them but,

Talking about after my graduation, At first I was unsure…about how much I should say, There was a time I thought I would be a bit more specific, Times when I spoke more specifically about stage plays, It also wasn't very forward-looking, Receiveing others opinions, There was a time where it changed like, maybe it'd be alright to try it..

I though there was so much!!!

There was a back and forth with releases but, Surely they can be arranged chronologically?

One way or another,

I was telling everyone-- I realized that just now myself 🐤ྀིkya

There were many opportunities to talk, Also thank you very much, To everyone that received it!

Since there were those,

All of the fans, and the members too, Please read them, Looking back on things and the enthusiasm,🫣🫣 So, I'll spoiled you a bit…

I just, love you🫶🏻

Also,

I can't believe how many words, That I've gotten from so many people…!!!

I'm not being humble⚠️ lol

I've gotten to meet a lot people, Everyone is kind, Saying, I'm thinking of you 🥹ྀིactually, I am grateful, For this but!!

Perhaps there is even more…

Its amazing, really, These 13 years were amazing!

Recently, I recevied some passionate words backstage at Utacon, it was kind of like…

Thank you very much for watching me in this world, Its kind,

I did my best🐤ྀི🎗️

Since I joined Morning Musume, I watched 13 people graduate🪽

In terms of all of Hello! Project, its more🪽

Seniors, genmates, friends, juniors, Everyone was sparkling as they graduated, Therefore someday I will too! Graduation was one of my dreams🪽

I would like to thank everyone for that,

Also I though that this time I'll be showing everyone a graduation,

I'm heading towards tomorrow, To make 1 dream come true💎🪽

I love Morning Musume lives!

Standing on stage as Morning Musume, I will enjoy what I can only do now, Up until the end

Everyone, please look foward to it!

Interview With Ishida Ayumi Before Graduation "I'm really glad I was able to make a lot of happy announcements" 【Edited by Tokyo Sports/Over 6600 Characters】

.🫶🏻

Graduation Commemorative Series Updating Every Week (Fri) at 6:00PM From non-no-san

(TL Note: The below links go to English translations of the below articles!)

🌙"Tohoku and "Connection"" Love for my hometown, becoming a beloved idol

🕺 ""Connection" With Dance" Whether its within Hello Pro or away at Fests. The Groups First Dance Machine

🐣"Connection" With History and Memories" Memories of Growing Up While Nurturing My Love For Morning Musume

❤️ྀི"Connection" to the Future, Thoughts Towards The Members, Wanting To Connect With The Spirit of Morning Musume

📺Hello Pro Dance Every other Thursday at 11:30PM~

Its also airing tonight Behind the scenes recording! Watch it ok!

Thank you for following.. Instagram💙🩵

💿November 27th New album✨

Professionals-17th

This is the last CD release for Ishida "Yuukan na Dance" is being performed at autumn tour It Includes 8 new songs, with a total of 13 songs

🪩"Morning Musume '24 Concert Tour Autumn WE CAN DANCE!"

December 6th at Yokohama Arena

🎗️Live Viewing 🎗️Hulu Live Stream

Please watch the last of the 13 of us

see you ayumin <3

[1cai-fleakz1]

Update: Nov 25th - Dec 1st, 2024

Hello! It has been over a week since I last made an update on here. About ten days I would say. I just finished Thanksgiving break I guess, so here's all that happened:

[Monday, November 25th]

First thing in the morning during geometry, I had to take 5 of those a stupid clear sight tests...It was not fun to say the least. It took up all of class time, was tedious, and I knew absolutely nothing on there, yet, I still wanted to do my best (up until the last two tests, which were very rushed). After that, we had WINN time, and I played cards with 2 of my friends plus my love. So that was pretty fun. Then it was band class, and we talked about Thanksgiving and what not. Then in Business class, we played The Price is Right Thanksgiving Edition, and I unfortunately came in 2nd...but I still won a pity mint..Yay! Then I watched all of season 1 of Arcane after school...Lol.

[Tuesday, November 26th]

First in the morning I went to give my Spanish teacher my extra credit project, and he was lowkey being an opp about it, saying that i did it wrong...but like bro, it's not that deep, just take the freaking poster. Then in fiber arts, i worked on my project, but my table mate wasn't here, so i didn't talk the whole class, which was fine. Then at lunch I talked to my best friend, of course. We discussed our friend's current actions, and we were just a little annoyed at by how he has been acting lately. Then in English class, we did a vocab assignment, where the whole class had to create a cohesive story about Macbeth while using up all the vocabulary words from our unit. It was actually harder than it sounds. Then finally, Biology. It felty so miserable at first, but then I talked to my friend, and it got better. I actually cannot stand that class on some days. But once school was finally over, I was just excited to head out of school, so I could hang out with my love at my house. My dad said he would be able to pick us up, so I thought this meant he got the truck fixed, but little to my knowledge, he actually had a surprise. When my love and I walked out of the school, and up to the car, we were a little confused, because my dad was in the passenger seat, and we couldn't see who was riving in the front seat. But then it hit. IT WAS MY SISTER!! I yelled, "OMG it's my sister!" And my love didn't believe me at first, but then she saw her too. We both immediately ran up to the car to hug her. It all felt so insane. I was so surprised, and happy. Then we went to surprise our mom at work. After that, we called up our two besties to go to mall with us, but only one could go, because the other was at work. So we went to the mall, and then we surprised one of our friends at work, and the other at his house. It was so fun. I ended up getting a few things at the mall too. I got a shadow the hedgehog shirt, a new scent from bath and body works, a pin, a matching necklace set I got for me and my love, and then some cards. We also stopped at the photo booth too of course. I got some loaded steak fries and a banana and strawberry smoothie too. Then we went home, and my love and I cuddled till she had to go. That was the last time I saw here until when I go to school again, because they went to Vegas for break.

[Wednesday, November 27th]

All day my brother, sister, and I just played Roblox. It was so fun. We played two tycoons, some monkey raft, and we also played some board and card games. We just had a lot of fun catching up on our gamer grind.

[Thursday, November 28th]

This day was my birthday!! And Thanksgiving of course. I just turned 16. Which is just so crazy to me. I can't even comprehend that. It is just so crazy how old I'm getting. And I know I'm not necessarily "old", but I feel like I just landed on this earth, but I'm actually 16??? Anyways, my parents greeted me with a gift when I came downstairs, which was really nice. They gave me an $100 gift card too a piercer shop, to get my eyebrow piercing done. Which I have been wanting for over a year now. I'm just so happy they're letting me do this!! I also got a present mailed to me from my aunt. She sent me a whole paint set, with canvases, paint, and brushes. She also got me a keychain with a cute and clever quote on it saying, "The Earth without art is just eh." Get it? cause if you remove...Yeah, you get it. Hehe. I put it on my backpack though! Then We later had the best feast ever at our home with just us, which was actually pretty nice. Then I wanted to put the tree up, but everyone was so tired. And I just wanted my sister, but she was being mean, and she made me flipping cry on my birthday bruh. It was so mean, but I felt better after a bit. Then we put the tree up super late, and I ended up going to ed at 1:30am.

[Friday, November 29th]

BLACK FRIDAYAYAAYA!!! My sister and I were out shopping ALL day! My dad gave me $100 dollars to spend, and my grandpa ended up giving my another 4100 later, which was CRAZYZ. I've never gotten that much money on my Birthday before. Well it wasn't my birthday anymore, but it was because of it, you know. But we went to target, Walmart and 5 below. I spend the most money at five below coming in at $140.....Yeah. I spent it all on gifts though. And I would say it's worth it, cause I got something for all my friends. Then we got Jamba juice, but for some reason that made me feel really sick, which has never happened before, so that was strange.

[Saturday, November 30th]

I hung out with my two besties on this day!! We spent the day at my house talking and being silly with us and my sister. It was a very fun day I would say. Then we ate dinner, and they left. Not much to it. Well besides the fact that our insider at the "Boys' night party" forgot everything because his ass got wasted...idiot. Also we didn't get to prank them, because they had their little party the day before we got together. So no pranks this time...but watch out, cause they're comin'.

[Sunday. December 1st]

FINALLY! DECEMBER! It feels like it'd taken so long to get to December. I literally did nothing on this day. I just sat in bed mostly, and watched Instagram reels. Even though I told myself I would get ahead on my school work for A days. (This did not happen) I also forgot to do my weekly band assignment...oops. It's okay though, because I have a 98%. So I think I'll be fine. Then I jus drew for the rest on the ight, up until now. Well now it's December 2ndf technically, right? But it's time for bed, so goodnight world!

[allylikethecat]

Ally!!! I loved the new chapter!! Also the air is getting colder where I live so I literally poured myself a glass of prosecco and curled up with a blanket in my living room to read the newest chapter 😭😭

The fact that fictional!Matty wandered into fictional!Noahs place and didn’t notice is hilarious. The fact the Noah didn’t bother to wake him or freak tf out over a random person in their home is even funnier (i say that because it’s something that would happen to me lmao) I guess Noah is already a little smitten over a handsome drunk man stumbling into his space and Matty is smitten over a nice tall mountain man offering to feed him…

Also quick question: Is fictional!George gonna pop up in the fic or is he a thing of fictional!Mattys past??? Is this gonna be a love triangle????? I wouldn’t complain either way I fully trust the vision

anyway,,,, I hope you’re doing well how are you and pop???

🥤

Ahhh Hello My Dear Smoothie Anon! It is a pleasure to hear from you as always, I hope you are doing well. I'm so happy to hear you enjoyed the new chapter and that you were able to get all cozy while reading it! It's still 100+ degrees out where I live, so I am very much pretending I am living in the cooler Vermont weather!

HAHA Fictional!Noah was just so confused, he was just trying to walk his dog he wasn't expecting to find a man in the back of his pickup truck... but also the man was pretty cute and CLEARLY going through it... no way his pathetic hungover ass was a threat 😂 But also ... Fictional!Noah is very empathetic and observant, and he knows a person that is doing *well* doesn't just... move to the middle of nowhere Vermont and then get drunk out and pass out in the back of someone else's truck. 👀 thank you SO MUCH for reading and I am so excited for this one to continue to unfold!

In terms of Fictional!George - he will be playing a role in this fic but maybe not in the way one expects, it also is NOT a Gatty fic despite Fictional!Matty's fantasies in the beginning!

Pop and I are doing well! He took a bit of a tumble a few weeks ago that upset me a lot more than him (luckily only his ego was bruised and he was physically fine even if it emotionally took a few years off my life) I've just been so busy with real life lately which is extremely rude, like excuse me I have FIC to write and TUMBLR to spend time on! I hope you are doing well and that you continue to enjoy my works! I'm excited to here your continuing thoughts on Forever. as well as tomorrow's update! 👀 Thank you so much for being so lovely and wonderful! I hope you have a great rest of your night and a wonderful rest of your week!

❤️Ally

[1d1195]

✨part two✨

Okay sooo finally got to read the Honey and Most updates and I’m going insane!!! Idk where to begin lol

I’m most definitely NOT mad the way this last part of honey ended or even turned out! If anything this made those most sense for them! I was so devastated when she started to tell how she ended up being a nanny 💔 also CODY?!? Never trust a guy named that 😭 anyways fuck him 😊 how could he basically try to manipulate her into finding that “family” need somewhere else when all she wanted to do was have one of her own and then HIM FUCKING CHEATING ON HER AND STARTING A FAMILY WITH ANOTHER WOMAN?!? HELLO?!???? I love when we get a good backstory for your characters especially when they are so devastating 💔 though it of course makes so much sense as to why she’s like that obviously! And ugh I wish she was able to pursue her own dreams(I’m sure she will) but also that undertone of her not seeing herself being able to have her dream career and home life is so💔💔 the sperm donor part TRAGIC BC SHE IS SO LOVED! Though there is absolutely nothing wrong if people choose that route! (I’ve thought about that too!) and tbh I didn’t expect Harry to immediately beg her to give him a chance bc he is also kinda emotionally unavailable lol but I’m so excited to see how they will play out because I know you’ll never fail me!!!!! Loved it of course!

Now the most extra… I NEED HIM BAD😩😩😩 he’s so omg bestie you don’t even know! When I was younger I loved firefighters so him being just so perfect is so😭 he’s so down bad and I love when that happens! And I loved how we got a glimpse of the MC being so vulnerable when expressing how much she missed him😭 that detail of never sleeping alone 😭 and THEM TALLING ABOIT MARRIAGE😭😭😭 I will die when or if we get to read that😭😭 loved this so much like you do fluff and just sweet romantic stuff so much😭😭!!

Oh Sam you don’t even know how I was weak in the knees when I saw him😭 the motivation I got for that class actually went up lol

Anyways I’ve missed you lots Sam!! Was a really busy week but hopefully now it won’t be too bad! Hope grocery shopping went well! And I hope this past week treated you well too! Have you done anything fun recently? Hope this weekend is a bit relaxing! Love you lots!!!-💜

I am seriously running out of names but I've never met anyone that likes Cody. Idk how they exist. Tragically, I love the name Josh and Ben but I fear those are also red flag names. I really wasn't intending to make her background so tragic but I was struggling to put something down for this part and I was like "FUCK IT MAKE HER SAD" I tell my bf all the time if he died (lol) or we broke up I would refrain from another relationship. I would most likely just do the sperm donor route. I thought Harry caved kinda easily too, but I had someone message me about a prequel if you will for Honey and it's literally such a good idea, I can't wait to thank them profusely when I write it. I think it will be the first extra and it will kinda make sense why he caves so quickly after the fact. I am glad this part was okay. I'm still a bit nervous about the last two parts, but we shall see!

Honestly, I'm lowkey sick of writing about weddings 😂 almost all of my couples I've been writing about are married, I think. Or at least, they all act married. So idk if I'll write about their wedding. I think it would probs be similar to my Zipper wedding. I think she would be to nervous to do the whole thing in front of everyone--especially out of her guilt for leaving for a few years. I think she would feel like everyone is judging her. But I don't think Harry would care either way. He's so in love with her he would probably agree to getting married in the middle of a tornado if she asked. I also love firefighters. I think they're cute af (like personality, not physically, although they're good at that too). It's like someone just put a bunch of golden retrievers in one space and told them to literally put out fires. It's cute 🥰

Have I done anything fun? Hmm... no not really. I read my book last week and I've been spending money I shouldn't. But other than that, not really. I've been trying to lesson plan but my brain is not focusing. I've got my sweet treat and everything and nothing is working. 😭 I still have till like Wednesday to get some stuff done but I'm an early bird when it comes to due dates so this is cutting it close for me tbh 😭 We're planning a game night and a trip to Salem this month. I'm so amped that it's fall. It's making me think more and more about My Friend's Toyota. May have to revisit them next! I'm hoping to write a bit more but yeah. Nothing crazy!

LOVE YOU! Hope you are having a good weekend! 💕 Also, do you have classes every day? I know you commute and you're not crazy far, but do you only go on certain days or do you have a full 5-day schedule?

xoxo



[aitathrowaway987654]

Hello, this is me! I know this is quite early in the submission's existence to be writing in with more information, but honestly I forgot that I submitted this (I was tired and upset at the time so I don't remember much) so it was a shock to stumble past this on my dash. It was very much a *Leonardo DiCaprio pointing meme* moment. Thank you everyone for all of your responses so far! Just here to clear a few things up that I didn't think to mention in my submission. In no way trying to justify anything! Just providing some extra context. Also giving you a little update, since this ask was written a week ago.

The main thing that everyone's bringing up in the comments is that I should have told my work that I had prior commitments during my interview. I did not have an interview for this job. I was planning on creating a resume and searching around to see who was hiring. My mum happened to be walking our dogs past the cafe one day, and went in quickly to see whether they were hiring, so I could know whether I should bother putting a resume in. She asked to talk to the owner, and then told him that I was going to be looking for work and asked whether they were looking for casual employees. The owner was basically like "We're always hiring. Send her in for a trial shift tomorrow, and if she likes it, she can start working". So that's what happened. There was no sort of interview or application process at all. If there had been, I almost definitely would have mentioned during that that I did have prior commitments and wouldn't be available. But because everything was so abrupt, I didn't think to bring it up during my trial shift (and the fatigue and burnout didn't help this), and by the time I was even finished I had already been rostered. Obviously if I could change that I would have let them know (hindsight's a bitch isn't it), and everyone is absolutely right in saying that it was my responsibility to do so. I just thought I should explain that I didn't have that typical application or interview process that everyone is mentioning.

The second thing is people saying I should have tried to reschedule my shifts. I did mention it in my ask, but I didn't really say it explicitly enough, but I did try to reschedule and couldn't find a way to. My paperwork was a mess, which meant that I never received the contact information for my manager or for the owners. Even now as I'm typing this over a week after I submitted this ask, I still have no one's phone number, email, or anything. This meant that I had no way to contact my manager and ask her to change my shift. I then tried to talk to one of the owners about it in person after my first official shift, who insisted that the manager's phone number was on the paperwork and that she was the one I had to ask. I double-checked the paperwork once I got home, and it was definitely not there. I then tried to talk to an owner again at my next shift, but they were busy and then had to leave early to pick up their kids so I didn't get the chance to ask them. When I wrote and submitted this, I also hadn't met my manager yet because she was away, so I couldn't contact her in person either. I tried asking one of my coworkers for the manager's phone number, and she said that she'd contact the manager for me. I tried to say that it'd just be helpful for me to have the manager's phone number for the future anyway, but she insisted on just doing it herself. And then she never did. That was my final shift before the day I was supposed to have rehearsals, so it was my last chance to talk to anyone in person. Once it became clear that my coworker hadn't contacted the manager for me, and I had no way to do this myself, this was when I decided that I had to text S and tell her I wasn't able to make it to the rehearsals.

One person also mentioned that I should have bowed out of the solo part — I offered to let someone else play the solo. After I missed the rehearsal that I wasn't aware about, a different music teacher (who was conducting the piece) contacted my mum because she was worried about me not knowing my part. I replied back to let her know that me and S had been rehearsing it in our lessons, but if she thought it was best if someone else played it instead, I would completely understand and be fine with it. Also worth mentioning is that it was not a big or difficult solo part at all — it wasn't the type of solo that was really exposed and everyone would be able to here, more just a slightly more melodic part than the rest of the cello section that complimented the violin solo part (which was a lot bigger). So I was confident that I could play it, but even if I wasn't, there were other people who could have done it if needed, and I expressed that I would be willing to bow out if that was what was best.

I think those were the main points being brought up, so now the update, since it's been a week since the concert itself. The piece I had a solo in went fine! No dramas in that. The Year 12 piece ended up getting cancelled — only one of the four of us showed up to that first rehearsal and the other two people didn't even tell S that they weren't coming, so she decided it was for the best that we just called it quits. I explained everything about not being able to cancel my shifts to S and she was a lot more understanding about it in person. So basically everything turned out for the best (which I'm extremely grateful for).

Thank you for everyone for being empathetic but honest — I've got a lot less going on now than I did when this was written, so I've had the time to acknowledge and understand that there were a lot of things I could have done differently. If this had been posted a week ago when all of those emotions were still flying high, I would have been a lot less receptive to the criticism, so it's definitely for the best that there's a delay in the queue. As I said, I'm not supplying this information in order to try and justify anything — I'm happy to accept the YTA verdict if that's what everyone thinks — just adding some info I should have included originally. If there's anything else I can make more clear, feel free to let me know.

@am-i-the-asshole-official

AITA for missing rehearsals for a concert?

I (17X) play the cello and am participating in my local conservatorium’s string ensembles concert in three days. I have been aware of the concert since the start of term (aka four weeks ago). For the first three weeks of this term, I have been completing my final high school exams (I can’t be more specific because it differs wordwide, but they’re the exams that acknowledge that you’ve fully completed your secondary education y’know) so that was obviously very intense and I had a lot on my plate. At the start of term, my cello teacher S (late 20s?F) told me that I’d be playing a solo in the big finale piece that everyone from every ensemble plays in, as I’m one of the more advanced students. I was given the music for this at the start of term, and we have been practicing it in our weekly lessons so that I am prepared. There will be a rehearsal for this piece a few hours before the concert begins. I was also aware that I was performing in my school strings ensemble (which is a piece I have played before with the ensemble and am familiar with), and S also organised that the four Year 12 students (including me) would play a piece together. She organised to have three rehearsals for this on the three days before the concert (aka today, tomorrow and the next). As by this time I knew I would have finished all my exams, I told her that I should be free to be at these rehearsals.

Since finishing high school a week ago, I have gotten a job at a local café, as I haven’t had a job in high school like most people due to not having time with my music commitments. Unfortunately, I was rostered to have work on the days of the first Year 12 piece rehearsal (aka today), the third Year 12 piece rehearsal, and the day of the concert itself (so I would miss the finale piece rehearsal beforehand and would just make it on time for the concert). I considered trying to swap these shifts so that I could go, but A) given that I am brand new (today was my third ever shift) I didn’t think it would be a good idea to try and get out of it so early on in my employment, and B) I didn’t actually have any way to contact a manager and ask for shifts off until today because they hadn’t properly sorted out my paperwork and information yet. I tried to look for solutions for this, but yesterday I decided that I just wouldn’t be able to make it, so I message S to inform her and apologise. She obviously wasn’t happy about this (she started her reply with “yikes”), and checked to see whether I was still happy to play in the school string piece (which I confirmed) and asked whether I was able to play in the concert with another ensemble that I used to play in (I said yes, and she said she’d get the music to me). I left it at this, with the intention to practice my pieces a lot over the next few days.

Today, both me and my mum received an email from S. She was quite angry about the fact that I wasn’t able to attend two out of the three Year 12 piece rehearsals, calling it bad etiquette and saying that it “reflects poorly in the professional world”. (I agree that it wasn’t great for me to have to pull out of those rehearsals when I had previously said that I should be available, but as I said above, I wasn’t really in a position where I could change this). She also said that I was supposed to be at school strings rehearsals yesterday, and at rehearsals for the ensemble I’m no longer in and was only just asked to play in. In this ensemble’s rehearsal, they also ran through the finale piece that I am playing a solo in (which I wasn’t aware they would be doing). S claimed that I had been told that I was supposed to be at these rehearsals this week — I have absolutely zero recollection of this, to the point where I doubt I was asked, but if I was, it was before or during my exams, in which case it doesn’t surprise me that I forgot, as I was highly stressed and just trying to focus on getting through school. I was never given another reminder to be there, so I had no idea I was supposed to be at the rehearsals yesterday. Because of how annoyed she was, I was forced to speak to someone about leaving my shift on the concert day early so that I can attend the rehearsal beforehand, but I’m still not able to attend the Year 12 piece rehearsal in two days time.

I feel really bad about the whole thing, because I genuinely am quite close with S and I know she’s put in a lot of effort to this concert. However, I feel like she’s being unfair in her annoyance. I was unaware I had to be at any rehearsals yesterday because this wasn’t clearly communicated to me (and even if to others it was implied that I should be there, I’m not the kind of person that will pick up on this — I need to be explicitly told). If I had known I was expected to be there, I absolutely would have been there. And obviously not being able to go to the rehearsals because I’m working is frustrating, but I really don’t feel like I had much choice in the matter. If I had been working there for a while, I absolutely would have asked for the days off, but I feel like it’s unfair to expect me to try and cancel those shifts when I’ve only just started the job. I’m glad I’ve managed to arrange to be at the concert day rehearsal, so that I can practice the solo with the rest of the ensemble, but even if I hadn’t been able to, I’ve been practicing the piece and I’ve done performances where I haven’t had a proper rehearsal before, so I think it would have been fine.

Hopefully this made sense, I tried to provide as much detail as possible but I’m very tired and am struggling to be coherent, and it’s also hard to explain the situation through text. So, tl;dr, AITA for:

Not being at rehearsals yesterday that I was unaware I was supposed to be at?

Having to cancel rehearsals because I was rostered during those times?

What are these acronyms?

[darkacademicfrom2021]

The Dark Team (part 10)

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Warnings: adorable jerks.

As the sun finally came up (for what it felt like an eternity, a night with seven nights inside of it), you rubbed your eyes and greeted your teammates, who somehow were both already up and having breakfast.

“I was wondering when would you join us”, said Loki, covering his mouth with the manners of a Prince while eating a piece of something. “Barnes made dessert for breakfast”, pointed out more amazed than reproachful.

“Desert?”, you laughed. “A cake?”.

“Yes”, said Loki, very sure of himself, and Bucky rolled his eyes and chuckled, correcting him.

“It’s a pancake, Loki. It’s a normal breakfast in Midgard”.

“Actually, probably just in this country”, you added. “What do you normally have in Asgard?”. As you chattered, you started getting ready and fixing your hair, stealing a piece of pancake from Bucky’s plate. “Wow, I didn’t know you could cook. It’s actually great”, you said, tasting a mouthful.

“Well, as in Midgard’s nordic areas, back home it’s often fruit and bread, or porridge with dried fruits” he recalled distracted, and immediately interrupted himself with “are we not supposed to alert the rest of this?”.

“About Buck knowing how to cook? Yeah, I’m impressed, we should tell everyone”.

“I guess we should’ve told them yesterday, instead of going to sleep”, said Bucky, ignoring you. “Only God knows where that supersoldier is now”.

“I don’t, actually”.

“I didn’t mean... nevermind”, he sighed. “I'm calling Stark and let’s hope we don’t get too yelled at”.

You recalled yesterday’s events. You had so many dreams, you could barely remember being awake at all. First, the bearded man’s nightmare. Then, something about… the compound? Then, you remembered distinctly, Loki speaking Old Norse begging Thor about something. You remembered the phonetic of the words, but they were all gibberish now. Then, a last dream, something about buying rotten apples and being forced to eat them by Thanos. Your imagination surely was active on the nights.

Loki seemed paler than usual as he stared at you, without even blinking.

“What?”, you snapped him out of your head.

“You dreamt with me?”, he muttered, getting up and cleaning his plate with a snap.

"I also dreamt with Thanos".

“Don’t get too attached, I’ll be back to Asgard soon”, he promised, or alerted. Intentions unclear.

“I’m not attached”, you protested. You thought he’d smirk or be the smug idiot he usually was. He didn’t. Instead, he looked unsettled; disturbed even. “I didn’t dream with you on purpose, it was probably because of yesterday’s thing”.

“What thing?”, peeped in Bucky. “Oh no, did you two fuck?”.

“I didn’t let them die, big deal. I was just saving myself the amount of annoyance it would be to have Stank on my neck all week long if your blood was sort of in my hands”.

“Sounds like a lot of deflecting emotions to me, buddy”, said Bucky, and you chuckled.

“He’s just embarrassed he saw himself cry in one of my dreams from last night”, you mocked. He got up and you didn’t get to see his face, but presumed it would hold something near a death threat.

“You two have an intense bonding experience and decide to concentrate on it with more insults? You know, this is why you’re single”, added Bucky.

“It wasn’t a bonding experience”, you said, cutting-glass sharpness in your gaze.

“I’m not single”, corrected Loki at the same time, with an equally whetted voice.

Both Bucky and you looked at him with plate-wide eyes, waiting for him to elaborate. He didn’t. Neither of you asked, but surely shared a fair amount of desire to gossip about it. Oh, how much you wished to be able to tell Bucky about Loki re-reading Hamlet to reminisce about his beloved. But there was a line you wouldn’t cross in there; you knew where to stop.

“Mr. Stark”, you called through the earbud, “you there, sir?”.

“Painfully”, he answered. You connected the earbud to your phone and held it on speaker, so the rest of the team could join. “Tell me more about what I’m gonna yell at you three about”.

As you walked him through (almost) every event in the past twenty four hours, you could feel how his hands traveled all the way up to his face, and had to hold in a few sighs of disgust and utter hate towards… Well, you weren’t sure towards what, exactly.

“Are we grounded, dad?”, spat Loki with sarcasm.

“Listen, Rock Of Ages, if I could, I’d have you in a prison cell still to this day. Don’t push any buttons”.

“Come on, it’s been, what, nine years since he last fucked up something in here?” you defended him, not quite sure why. Loki grew nervous as Tony laughed obnoxiously at him.

“Sure. He didn’t keep fucking things up in here after that”.

“I can assure you I didn’t. How Odin manages his deals with Midgard does not concern me”, explained Loki, and you frowned at the mention of that name. Of course, Loki Odinson. That was where that name resonated from. Besides the Mythology. Though you weren't sure until where those stories were true or not; in there, Loki wasn't even Thor's brother.

“Going back to your current screw up, what happened to the civilians you frightened in the process? I imagine they didn’t realize about the new supersoldiers”.

“They should be extremely blind or idiotic to not have noticed, since the soldier jumped out of nine floors and survived”, answered Loki, looked at you up and down, and kept going “so, no. They have probably slept on it”.

“Wait, what?”.

“What?”.

“Nine floors? Pretty sure Capsicle and Barnes wouldn’t survive that either”.

“Are you thinking what I’m thinking?”, you asked, concerned.

“I’m afraid so. Loki and Bucks won’t cut it, especially when we don’t know the number of new super-supersoldiers out there. And you’re coming back to the compound, directing the mission from the distance”.

“Are you kidding? I’m fine here. I’m all levels of mean, you said it yourself”.

“You’re too young and inexperienced in combat for these kinds of things, and they have special genetic advantages in their bodies, you know, the serum”, explained Tony as you rolled your eyes. But you understood exactly what he meant, and in fact, you agreed. “Do you understand?”.

“Yes; supersoldiers and Gods only”.

“Good kid. Now, Teleporting Popsicle, would you mind taking there with you the rest?”.

With an overly dramatic sigh, Loki vanished behind a party of green lights and reappeared in a matter of seconds in the same spot, holding carelessly Thor and Steve’s arms. Thor, for obvious reasons, was unfazed by the trip. Rogers, on the other hand, seemed about to throw up. There wasn’t anything balance would help with when your cells are reconfigurated inside and out in a fraction of a second. How the hell did he do all of that? You knew it was magic, but it still wouldn’t stop you from being absolutely astonished by it.

Loki arranged his hair behind his ears and locked eyes with you, followed by his typical smugly smile and a “thank you”, as if you were praising him in your thoughts. Oh, wait.

“I didn’t say anything”, you retorted, hoping to maintain at least a drop of pride left.

“You thought I was impressive”. You were going to correct him but realized that absolutely astonished was even worse.

“And since when do you offer gratitude?”.

“In case you wonder, yes, they’ve been like this the whole mission. You’ll get used to it”, said Bucky to Steve and Thor.

They started arranging their things and got updated as thoroughly as they could. Meanwhile, you stood exactly where you were the following ten minutes, absorbed in your own thoughts. Once you snapped out of them, Loki was still staring at you, standing in the same place too.

“What?”.

“I hate to break it to you, but…”.

“What?”.

“I’m your best option”.

“You’re my what?”.

“Your best option”.

“You’re not giving much context”.

“You’re going back to the compound. I figured you’d think about the mission or something about it for the past ten minutes you were zoned out, but apparently you only have room to think about how terrified you’re of that quinjet”.

Your palms got sweaty and a shiver ran through your spine by the only thought of remembering how heights felt under your feet, and how a simple machine wouldn’t stop you from landing on water and drowning, or crushing against a building and being burned to the bones until all you become is dust and…

“Hello? You’re spiraling again”, he snapped you back. “It’ll be just a blink. You won’t even notice”.

“Uh-uh. No, I’m not doing that. I’m waiting for whatever Tony sends to come and get me”.

“You’ll feel terrible”, he said, and he was right. For a moment, you considered accepting his offer. “And I’m the best”. His humble offer.

“I’m sure you are, but it’s not my best option”.

He sighed.

“Will you allow me to teleport you or not?”.

“Heavens, no”.

“Alright, you little stubborn human mortal”.

“Long nickname, you better come up with a shorter one”.

“Like what?”.

“I don’t know, something that bothers you. I’m not the one supposed to make your insults towards me”.

“Let me think”, he said, looking around the room. His gaze landed on the still unwashed plate of Bucky’s breakfast. “Pancake”.

“Not... that’s not an insult”.

“Why? They’re too sugary. They rot your teeth”.

“Yeah, but it’s not derogatory”.

“Fucking pancake”.

“It doesn’t cut it”.

“But what’s wrong with my pancake?”.

“It’s actually a pet name. You know, like the ones we said when we were in...”, but apparently that was all a distraction (of course, he was the God of Lies, after all), and when you were already thinking about how to explain to him why he shouldn’t call you pancake, he stood in front of you and held you by both sides of the arms, surrounding you almost completely, holding you still.

And just as he said, a blink later you were in the compound, perfectly fine. Peter and Tony greeted you as he pulled out and you stood there in shock. So, you really just needed some stabilization to not die in the intricate process of teleportation. Just before stepping away from you, he leaned over your shoulder and his whisper made your ear ticklish, saying “you’re welcome” with a grin. You didn’t look at him.

You started to gather all your stuff; papers, maps, laptops, and getting ready for the planning of the following steps of the mission as fast as you could, until you realized Loki was still there, and Tony and Peter were waiting for you. For what, you weren’t sure.

“Aren’t you going?”, you asked Loki.

“No, I’m staying, apparently”.

“Why?”.

“That’s what Stark was thinking, I don’t know”.

“Hey, Elsa, don’t read my mind, would you?”, snapped Tony. He was about to explain himself, but you kept talking to Loki, cutting his words.

“What’s wrong with you that you read everyone’s thoughts all the time? You know how unethical that is? It’s invasive”.

“You say that because you think slow”.

“Untrue, I’m actually a very fast thinker”.

“How would you know? You’ve never read anyone’s minds so, how could you possibly…?”.

You stopped dead on your tracks, and didn’t listen to what he was saying. That phrase. That exact phrase you dreamt with. The darkness. It was the exact same voice of the darkness, you remembered. It wasn’t darkness, it was his voice. Were you just imagining things? Too suggestionated? Definitely. How could you dream with something you’ve never heard before?

“Sorry to interrupt, you two seem to be having a long, unnecessary and avoidant conversation that could be resumed in three tiny words, as you did all mission long” interfered Tony, sick of listening to you two. Loki was observing you as heedful as he could; your thoughts had caught his attention. You couldn’t read his face. “So, I’m gonna cut it shortly”.

“What?”, you went back to reality. You needed to actively ignore Loki’s gaze on you to actually pay any mind to Tony’s words.

“The rest of the team has another mission, and both Peter and you are technically still kids…” and as soon as you opened your mouth to argue, he shut it “no, don’t interrupt me. You know I’m right. So, I can’t leave you two alone for the entire week”.

“Oh”, you understood. Peter’s innocent eyes shone at the idea. Yours, not so much. “So, Loki is our babysitter”.

“Yes”, said Loki, while Tony answered “No” at the same time.

"What about Happy?", asked Peter.

“I think we can manage perfectly on our own. Besides, what makes you think he’s more responsible than me?”.

“He’s an adult”.

“He’s seventeen in human years, and fucked a horse”.

“Wow, someone has been stalking my mythology”.

“If you two quarrel too much, Peter will tell me and I’ll be back with Clint Barton in charge of you three. So you better behave. Alright, I’m leaving”.

“Wait! What are the rules?”, asked Peter. You grabbed your face and Loki muttered what a damn nerd.

“Eh, don’t burn down the compound, I don’t know, kid”, said Tony getting inside his bright red suit.

“The bar is on the floor. Let’s play macarena”, you whispered.

[nightfcvcrx]

hello guys! this is star again. as my second character, i decided to bring in the galaxy's greatest alien, kris statlander. she is one of my favorite wrestlers and one of my main muses. i have a ton of fun playing her. i hope you all enjoy my interpretation. i have some headcanons listed below! i'm open to all plots with kris. whether is friends, enemies, hookups, flings, friends with benefits. kris is at a place where she doesn't quite know what she wants in a relationship. i'll preface this, chemistry is needed with ships. your muse has to really interest her. you can dm or shoot me a message on discord related to plots.

• kris doesn't go by kristen too often. only certain people are able to get away with calling her kristen. (her best friends, family and significant other).

• kris and caleb aren't together. they broke up on good terms. they are pet parents to dino and harlot. (boots is kris' baby through and through).

• every few weeks, kris goes to the store to refill her stash of pixie sticks.

• kris is pansexual.

the secret: UPDATED 4.8.22

• after kris' breakup with caleb, she met someone. they hit it off instantly. it wasn't long before they started dating. frankly? kris thought she found her true love. . after three months of dating, kris' partner proposed to kris. she said yes to the proposal. the next few months were a little stressful for the couple because they were planning a wedding. there seemed to be something a little off with kris' partner, but the young woman didn't think anything of it. weeks later, the date of their wedding came around. after kris was done getting ready for the wedding, she was informed her partner left. they were nowhere to be found. she doesn't have any answers to what happened and why they left. frankly, she hasn't quite moved on. she tries her best to act like she is fine. kris uses working out as a way to keep her mind of things.

• if anyone wants to fill in the role as the ex, let me know. shoot me a message on here or on discord.

the tag dumps are here ↓

𝒐𝒐𝒄 ; 𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒔 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒅𝒐 𝒊𝒕 👾

𝒗𝒊𝒔𝒂𝒈𝒆 ; 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒊 𝒅𝒐𝒏❜𝒕 𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒌 𝒉𝒖𝒎𝒂𝒏 👾

𝒂𝒔𝒌 ; 𝒊❜𝒎 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒍𝒅 👾

𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 ; 𝒘𝒆 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒆 👾

𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒔 ; 𝒃𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒗𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒔 👾

𝒕𝒆𝒙𝒕𝒔 ; 𝒊 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒉𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒑𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒃𝒂𝒓 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒊𝒎 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒏 𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒉 👾

𝒎𝒖𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 ; 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒖𝒑 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒂 𝒖𝒇𝒐 👾

𝒕𝒖𝒏𝒆𝒔 ; 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒐𝒏𝒆❜𝒔 𝒒𝒖𝒊𝒄𝒌 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏 𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒏 👾