#hehehe i can’t wait to get better grades than them while not trying as hard bahahah i’m evilll

[dumbbelle]

hello!:) how do you think joshua would act when he sees his girlfriend breaks down rly badly for the first time? thankyou!

✄ Joshua || Reaction to his S.O. having a breakdown for the first time

In my opinion, Joshua has this innate ability to be soothing and gentle when needed most

If his significant other has a break down, he might not immediately understand

But he will still be able to make them feel better, ya feel? 

storytime So the two of you have been dating for about six months now

And everyone constantly jokes about how they thought the honeymoon period would be over by now but if there’s any couple that makes it work, of course it’s the two of you

Or they otherwise comment about how the two of you make the perfect couple

Like there’s Joshua, gentleman prince with a mischievous streak and enough under the table memes that only serve to make him more endearing

And then there’s you!! hardworking university student with your head on your shoulders and your whole life ahead of you – everyone thinks you’re destined for success

Not to mention you have nice smelling hair, a sweet smile, and a pretty laugh…. pretty much most of the younger members have a small crush on you

They would never admit to it though because you and Joshua are the literal dream team and no one would ever dream of splitting the two of you apart

hehehe that pun game tho

And you like being the perfect couple and you like how everyone admits that one day they hope to find a relationship as loving and supportive as you are with Josh

Which is why it’s so hard to admit that your life is falling apart 

It’s hard to admit it even to yourself – and much less to Joshua and everybody else that you know

Besides, he’s busy with his schedules and stressed out enough, you don’t want to tack on to that

Those internships that everyone thought that you were a shoo in for?

You haven’t got a callback from any of them

In fact, you’re pretty sure you saw one of your interviewers chuck your resume into the trash can just as you were leaving

All those high grades you’re getting? 

You haven’t gotten more than 3 hours of sleep in the past two months trying to achieve them

Living expenses are… Living expenses, and the combined rising rent and cost of living in Seoul has left you with barely a dollar to your name

Your family is stressing you out because they expect just as much from you as everyone else

And your fish died 

So yeah, life ain’t very pretty for you right now

But you don’t say anything because you think it’ll just pass over and that this is just a steep wall that you’re going to have to climb over

Another month passes and you wonder if the wall is made out of glass because although you can see the other side, it’s nearly impossible to climb and fragile to top

And any moment now, you feel like the glass might shatter and hurt you irreparably and you’re too afraid to do anything about it

Joshua notices your eyes look a little empty and that your walk is a little wobbly sometimes

He can feel that something is wrong

It’s his spidey-sense observing nature

And he’s a little hurt that you didn’t immediately tell him about it

But he trusts you to tell him everything when you’re ready

So he goes on as if everything’s normal though he subtly amps up the visits and affection and gifts

In fact, he’s visiting your apartment one day when everything finally crashes

He’s carrying your favourite bakery treats and some coffee to help you with your late-night cram session

He arrives and enters as usual, riding the elevator up and checking his hair in the elevator mirror to make sure his hair looks fine for his boo and all that

Finds your apartment with ease and knocks on the door. You don’t answer immediately but that’s fine, he’ll wait

He waits

And waits

Okay, maybe you didn’t hear him? He knocks again

He waits

And waits

Oh! You probably just have your earphones in, and are listening to music while you study. He’ll just call instead.

When your phone goes to voicemail twice, he starts to get a little worried. After all, he did call to notify you that he was coming. 

Of course, there’s always the possibility that you just fell asleep, but he can’t take that chance. He digs out the extra key from underneath the rug (he keeps telling you to move it but you always counter that if anyone is desperate enough to rob from a struggling college student with only textbooks and a crate of ramen in their possession, then it’s not worth the fight). 

And runs in to your apartment, forgetting the baked goods right outside the door

goshdarnit josh that shit’s gonna get snatched and you know it

He rushes into your small bedroom, only to find you cuddled up in a corner, rocking back and forth as your body shakes with your sobs 

He can see the strewn pages of your study sheets across the floor and it’s a little overwhelming but he doesn’t waste his time  in coming over and immediately taking you in his arms, whispering words of comfort inside your ear

“I’m here now, I’m here now. I’m sorry I wasn’t before.” 

“I love you, and you’re okay. I love you, and I’m here for you, whatever it is.”

He does this until you’ve finally calm down enough for him to push further. When you stop shaking he asks you:

“What happened, love?” 

Shoot, wrong thing to say? You start sobbing again and he tries to say that you don’t have to tell him but you just blurt it out anyway

“The fucking printer is broken!” 

Darn, he’s even more confused now

“I-I-I can go out and buy you a new one. Or we can go to the Pledis building and print whatever you want. In colour too!”

“And my fucking fish is dead,” you wail. 

“I don’t know any pet stores open this late but… We can steal the fish from the VP’s office? Beta, right? They’re even similar colours.” 

Josh is trying so hard to do what he can for you even though he’s lost and confused that you can’t help but chuckle slightly at the ridiculousness of it all, even though you must look awful with the tears streaming down your face.

“Shu, I can’t get you kicked out of Seventeen for stealing a fish.”

and hallelujah that’s a freaking smile he got out of you, so Joshua continues on because he feels like he finally did something right. 

“He’s got like 10 of them, he’s not gonna notice.” 

You let out a choked giggle and Joshua leans in to wipe away the tears and snot off your face.

“Really, what’s wrong? You’ve been out of it for a while.”

Which is when you lay it all on him: the internship, your lack of sleep, the pressure from your family and friends, high expectations, and how you felt guilty for not changing your fish’s tank water enough… The printer was the last straw for you

You even explain to him your glass wall analogy, and Joshua takes it all in stride

He nods at the right parts and asks you to elaborate when he doesn’t fully understand something because he wants to fully understand everything

You finish feeling a little less burdened, though still generally in a bad place

Josh, now fully caught up on the situation, leans in to kiss your forehead and tells you one last time that everything will be alright before insisting that you head off to bed

You try telling him that you just can’t but he’s not having any of it

And when Joshua’s firm and set, you know you can’t win

You reluctantly give in, but only if Joshua sleeps beside you tonight

He immediately agrees, and the both of you get ready for bed, Joshua taking back one of his shirts that you stole

He tucks you in and hops in beside you, recounting antics of the boys until you fall asleep

✄✄✄

You wake up to find that Joshua isn’t beside you anymore, and immediately start to worry

Did he leave in the middle of the night, deciding he’s had enough? 

But then you finally take a look around and ???

All of your stuff is tidy again, your work is all organized, and there’s a brand new printer set up too!! You’re busy admiring the new setup when Josh enters the room, breakfast platter in hand

“Ahh, I was hoping to return before you woke up.” He settles the platter down on your lap, before gesturing to your desk excitedly. “Like it?”

“Shu, you didn’t have to.”

“Yeah, I know the stapling and hole-punching feature is a bit much but that stuff can be a pain.”

“No, I meant– wait, it can staple documents for me?” 

Joshua goes to explain all the cool features and you realize just how damn lucky you are

You love him so damn much, and if you remember correctly, he said so too.

“Hey Shu, about what you said last night…”

“I’m still down for stealing the fish. Seokmin’s always telling me about how I got to live a little bit more–” 

“Shu, you said that you loved me.” 

He gets all flustered and blushy and he’s quick to reassure you.

“Yeah, of course I do,,, but don’t worry about it I just told you how I felt there’s no need to say it back but I’m always here to support you because I really do love you and if you think for one second that I’m not going to try my best and help you climb over this glass wall then you’re wrong and I’ve got a mountain of pillows and hugs to catch you if you fall and–”

“Shu, I love you too.”

This boy beams like it’s Christmas day– his face stretches so wide. He just stands there and stares clumsily at you for a while because he doesn’t know how to respond

He never really knows what to do when it comes to you

But that’s part of what makes it so exciting

Finally, he snaps out of it when he remembers something important

“By the way, you’ve got to move that key. There’s a thief in the neighbourhood, I tell you. Would you believe all the baked goods that I bought last night are gone. And they had the gall to leave a sticky note with a smiley face behind, the gall–”

Yeah, you had a feeling you’d be getting over this glass wall sooner than you expected

[x-irememberyearsago-x]

Move on – Jeff Atkins x Reader

Request: Hello! :) I'm a sucker for angst so I was wondering if you can do one based on the song Lips of An Angel? Like maybe the reader and Jeff broke up then months later they decided to get back into dating someone through dollar valentines? They're dating someone new but both is secretly still in love with the other without them knowing? And both regrets or smth. Fluff or angst ending you decide hehehe –K

Summary: The italicized letters mean that the scene described is a flashback..

I heard this song while I was writing.

Words: 3572

Reader’s point of view.

Enjoy it!

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The music was too loud, possibly heard in the next few blocks. The party was at its point and i was dancing in the middle of the room, shaking my hair and a red glass at the top of beer in my hand. I wasn’t worried that i would shed a considerable amount of liquid in every movement, but who cared? Everyone here was drunk enough to need my drink. Tomorrow I would regret this, especially for the hangover but I would take care of that in due time.

I stopped for a few seconds to drink the little content I had, I didn’t used to go to parties, but when I did, I knew perfectly how to have fun. I usually came with my boyfriend, but lately he's committed to his qualifications after receiving an ultimatum from his trainer, who had missed this one. I could have been a good girlfriend and stay home an assistant, but the reality was, i wasn’t better than he at school, and this party was important so that we both lost it. For the moment, I received no threats to drive me out of the cheerleading squad, so I don’t worry about staying home and studying, not on a Friday night. No doubt, I was already drunk. Jeff wasn’t going to love this.

"You move very well, girl"

I turned with a big smile on my way to the voice behind my back. A boy, who was supposed to know because his face was too familiar, perhaps sharing a class or two, it didn’t matter, it wasn’t the time to think about the institute, or tasks or anything else.

After seeing that boy at the party, there is no record of anything else, until a few hours after Jessica was in charge of giving me a good reprimand, regret that she hadn’t had a portal like a saint during the celebration, although At least she did it with her boyfriend. That boy, he wasn’t my boyfriend. My boyfriend had stayed at home among books, while I was making one of my worst mistakes in my life, and there was no day until today that I regretted every action that night.

I balanced my phone in the dark of my room. There is no record of having brought me a house where I wasn’t very well received, now carried a good punishment, and not for attending the party, but for the painful state in which I came. At least I’m not drunk anymore. But i repent and be destroyed. I look with tears in my eyes at the screen of my cell, the name of Jeff is there and just press the icon to call to end this. How could it have happened? How could I have made him the best boy he has ever known? Why did I even attend that party ... without him? I cover my face with my hands and sob. There were many people who realized what happened. On Monday someone would tell Jeff, and i knew he had to know for me. He was going to send me to the devil, perhaps in such a kind way that it will make me feel worse. At no time in our long relationship has he manifested with me in a bad way, I have never had the voice, no matter how angry I was for the madness that I sometimes made, it was more than madness and even then I knew him well enough. Who will not even dare to tell me the word "bitch" to think about it, is another matter that I would never know.

I bit my lip hard. It was three o'clock in the morning, possibly I would be asleep. Later we were going to the movies and then to dinner, but I couldn’t look him in the eyes, I couldn’t go out with him, not after what I did. I always knew Jeff was the good of the two ... and I didn’t deserve him. He didn’t deserve someone like me.

Finally I pressed the call button and while I waited for him to answer, I worked on reassurance.

"Y/N? Is everything okay? "His voice sounded sleepy but alert. Who would call in the wee hours of the night unless it was an emergency?

I closed my eyes, letting more tears drain away.

"No," I whispered.

"Where are you? Did something happen to you?" I heard the squeak of his bed. Possibly sat or got up. I imagined him taking his jacket. He was able to drive to my house right now. A pang pierced my chest and I felt worse.

"I'm home," I murmured.

"Then why are you calling me at this hour?" Another squeak. He sat down again.

"I ..." I covered my mouth at the threat of another sob "I ... I have to tell you something, Jeff"

It took a few seconds to respond.

"You're worrying me, I can go to your house right now, just leave the window open"

I smiled through tears. It wouldn’t be the first time he would sneak into my room, possibly his most rebellious act, but only when my sadness and worry wouldn’t let me sleep, he would come in, we would lay on my bed and caress my arm while telling me some anecdote . He wouldn’t leave until I fell asleep, when I woke up I found a note, either on paper or on my phone. My smile was blurred again.

"Stay there, Jeff." I couldn’t see him. "I did something very bad." And I burst into tears. I couldn’t tell him, I couldn’t even want to break his heart, but neither did he deserve to stay with me, nor could I pretend that nothing had happened. I didn’t want to lose him, but that decision no longer belonged to me. He waited in silence "I can’t tell you what, but ... I can let you go"

"What are you talking about?"

"Jeff ..." I closed my eyes to say the following words: "I'm breaking up with you. You and I ... we're done"

"Y/N"

And I hung up, not giving time to his questions or his talks trying to blame himself for my decision so hurried. But it wasn’t his, it was mine. I couldn’t break his heart, not with the truth, but with the call, i knew that i had already done so. I dropped my phone and ran to my window to close it securely and run the curtains enough not to see a shadow. I would give him at least fifteen minutes for him to play in this one, i only had fifteen minutes to fall asleep or torment me with the nonstop touches Jeff would make.

A slap on my shoulder startled me back to the present. Liberty High at the time of changing classes and crowded aisles. I had been five minutes in front of one of the posters that announced the Dollar’s Valentine while remembering that soon it would be the dance, the first one that would go without a partner ... Without my boyfriend. It had been two months since I ended my relationship with Jeff Atkins because of my actions and not being able to control myself with the drink. A few days later, he had learned the truth, what i had done, and finally he understood why my call at three in the morning. At present hardly and looked at me. We practically passed the other without talking to each other, not smiling at us and not looking at us, at least he didn’t, I would usually stop in the middle of the aisle and turn to see him leave, with the slight hope that he would return to do the same, But he never did and that hurt me a little more, just as guilt was growing.

I looked at Jessica who smiled at me and looked at the poster that had brought me a bad memory.

"Will you come in?" She asked.

"To our own campaign? Would that be fair? "I said in a muffled tone. The truth is that I didn’t want to find a list with future ideal couples. It's to the benefit of our squad, but I was afraid to see five names and that none outside of Jeff, though that would not change at all.

"It would serve to set the example." Jess smiled again. She knew my situation perfectly and didn’t waste a day trying to cheer me up.

"Will you come in?"

She snorted and rolled her eyes.

"You know I don’t need it"

Of course, she had a perfect relationship with her boyfriend Justin Foley.

"We'd better go," I murmured, and without waiting for her, I began to walk. It remained in her if she followed me or took a different course.

 After that awful slide that caused me the loss of someone important in my life, one of the best things that could happen to me, I decided to commit myself to raise my grades in high school. At home, they thought, having finished with my boyfriend had raised my notes, which was why Jeff had been classified as a distraction. Usually after school I went to the classroom to finish my homework or catch up with notes from a classmate; I was also motivated by the fact that I could observe Jeff in the distance, even working with Clay Jensen.

I left my things on a table far enough away from that pair and went to one of the shelves, I needed to get a history book that was worth it to do a rehearsal. I stopped to examine the titles in front of me, but in fact, I didn’t read them because I had a perfect panorama of the profile of my now ex-boyfriend. I couldn’t help it. Having done so because of my mistakes didn’t mean I didn’t love him anymore. Instead, every day, every second of my life, my love for him grew; When I saw his smile, when I saw him playing, or when I peered at him from my desk and I saw his reactions relieved when they gave him a task and the qualification was high. That's my boy, committed and mending his mistakes instead of running away and hiding. He was the opposite of me. Besides, i wouldn’t find someone like him and wasn’t interested in doing that search. I only wanted him, even though now it was impossible.

I had it all with Jeff Atkins and my foolishness made me lose it. I should never have gone to that damn party. I should have driven in the opposite direction, direct to his house and help him in his work.

I felt my eyes fill with tears as I returned to the present. I took a book without bothering to read the title or not, the truth is that I had lost interest in doing homework on this site, I would take care of it at home. I looked at Jeff one last time to find that he held a paper in his hands. I narrowed my eyes at the decorations of the same one, the same ones that I had suggested when we were preparing the Dollar’s Valentine. Was he entering the game? I felt my heart break and however much I wanted to claim him, I had no right. He had moved on, just what I wanted, maybe find a girl much better than me. At least I thought, but my body took on a life of its own, went to the table, took her backpack and folder and left the classroom directly to the reception. I would buy my Dollar’s Valentine too.

I lost five dollars for five names. Jeff Atkins and I had few things in common, but at least enough to have him on my list and I show up in his. I filled out the form as fast as I could but being honest and deposited the money in front of my partner who smiled. Yes, I supported our campaign, but those had been my last five dollars to survive on the week. When I was handed the sheet, I doubted those results, four names I knew, one not really, but what puzzled me was that nowhere was the name of Jeff. This was really wrong, what kind of deception are we promoting?

"Sheri?"

She looked up at me with a smile. She was hoping to tell her the names that had been my list.

"From cheerleader to cheerleader. Did Jeff Atkins come by or did you give him his list?"

She laughed and shook her head. Yes, it seemed the typical ex who didn’t exceed the boy, and it was true, but if his name didn’t appear and I was honest in my answers, I even knew what he would answer, then it was possible that I imagined it with that sheet. No, my imagination had not been, I was sure.

"Jeff?" She mocked "No, not at all, and I doubt he does. You should know that, Y/N"

"I know. I just ... I don’t know ... "I looked at my sheet. Five dollars in the trash, I would run out of food to try something.

"Then you did it for him?"

I folded my sheet in half, it would look bad if I wrinkled it in front of her. This was our idea, which bad example would be giving, everyone would take it as it was a simple crap.

"I'll see you at the dance"

I left the office and school as a soul that leads to the devil.

 Dave held out his hand to me as he kindly opened the door to his car. I managed not to step on the dress with my favorite color that I had decided to wear at the Valentine's Ball. I still questioned why i had agreed to come and especially with a date, product of the absurd list of Dollar’s Valentine that in the end had decided to take the floor, After all, if the boy was in the five chosen, then we had to have something in common, although the way here was absolutely silent, or it was my lack of motivation to try to move forward. I looked at the sidetracked boy as we walked to the entrance of the auditorium, he wasn’t even half of handsome that Jeff, in fact, what I thought, is that he didn’t get to the heels of my boy ... my not boy.

I tried to put on my best smile as we walked through the doors. My arm recharged in Dave's, how much falsehood in one scene. I had also turned out on the guy's list, incredibly first, instead, on mine, turned out to be the third. I didn’t want to take the first one because it was one of my friends, it would only make it more uncomfortable. So I took the stranger, whom I probably decide to ignore after tonight.

"Do you want something to drink?" His voice caught my attention and I watched him blink. I hoped he hadn’t found me looking all over the place for that smile that fascinated me.

"Sure." I replied with a smile.

Dave left and I sighed in relief, why didn’t I just decide to come myself? Why didn’t I just throw the list in the trash and get on with my life without five dollars less in my wallet? What's more, why did I even come to a party full of lovers? For him? What if he didn’t come? What if he came with someone else? It made a knot in my stomach, as if I had not eaten all day and I moved from the place, forgetting for a few seconds, that my partner would look for me at any moment, but I had had enough of Dave, I hadn’t even attracted a bit.

I moved near the door, hiding behind balloons, I hadn’t seen him in the gym, so he may not have arrived. I remained there for at least ten minutes, until he appeared, with a girl hanging from his arm; A smiling blonde, as if she had waited for that opportunity all her life. And I recognized her, oh, of course I knew her; She is in my algebra class and I was also aware of the taste she had for who was my boyfriend, that was the main reason why she hated me or why she snorted and rolled her eyes every time I entered the classroom, Yes I'm still breathing, fool. And I felt doubly hurt. Jeff knew I couldn’t stand her either, the product of my jealousy, and had brought her to the dance, wanted to prove something? Did he imagine that I would introduce myself and see him? The blood began to boil, I left my hiding place and I avoided that my eyes were filled with tears. Now it was more my anger, of all the girls of Liberty High, had to be precisely she with whom he come.

"I've been looking all over for you, Y/N" Soon I had Dave by my side.

"I’m finished with this. Find someone who has come alone." I didn’t even look at him when I left following that couple.

To have seen him with another, one that I didn’t approve of course, and that went against my good wishes for him to move on, made me understand, that i had been a complete idiot in having lost him and that i wanted to stay with him. I would somehow amend what I did, and that he would forgive me.

When I got to where they were, with my best smile I took him by the arm, he turned and his eyes widened, or he pretended quite well or really didn’t expect to see me here.

"Can we talk for a second?" I tried to hide the anger. The blonde took his other arm.

"Now he's with me, pretty"

"You quiet you look prettier. Maybe you'll catch something else." I looked at her with superiority and she rolled her eyes "Jeff?"

He sighed.

“All right. I'll be right back." He said to the blonde, oh, of course he wasn’t coming back.

I smiled at the girl, who, after making sure Jeff didn’t see her, showed me the middle finger.

"What?" He told me once that we were far enough away to speak without screaming.

"I don’t know ... I just" I looked in the direction of where we had gone "Really, Jeff? Her?"

"Do you worry about me dating someone else? Isn’t it what you wanted, Y/N? I don’t understand you. She is a good girl"

I swallowed the mocking laugh I was about to take out.

"It's what I want," I said. "Or I wanted ... I'm not sure anymore. I just ... I realized that ..." I squeezed my lips "I never asked you to forgive me for what I did" He looked away "I know I did you a lot of damage and I did to me too, but I guess I deserved it. I'm not going to tell you that it was just a kiss, because I know how important that is for you ... for both"

Jeff finally looked at me.

"Why after two months, you come to the dance and you apologize to me?"

"Because I couldn’t remain at peace with myself, the guilt still follows me" I crossed my arms "I just needed to ask your forgiveness to understand that I must let you go. You can go with her now"

It hurt too much. My first intention to pull him away from that blonde was to retrieve it, but now, being alone, I remembered that ours was finally over, that there was a possibility that he would never forgive me and that I should go ahead, just what I too should be doing.

I watched as Jeff hesitated, looked back, wondering whether to go back or to go somewhere else, then he saw me again and smiled half-heartedly.

"Do you know how hard it‘s for me to date someone else?"

"I know, I also came with someone" I looked away "With whom perhaps I should apologize for having planted it right here" We both laughed and looked at each other until the laughter died "I don’t think I could be with someone else again" I bit my lip, maybe saying what was in my head would hurt me more, wasn’t it enough punishment? "Because you're unique, Jeff Atkins, and I love you more and more"

He nodded. I understood in his gaze that he was debating what to say or do. In what was wrong or good. Forgive me? Was he considering it? In what category did he put it? Nerves were eating me, but I wasn’t ready to say goodbye forever.

"To hell with the past, Y/N. I love you, and maybe I'm making a mistake but I'll find out in time"

"I'm never going to hurt you again, Jeff. Never again"

His hands settled on my cheeks. I let the tears emerge from my eyes as he bent to join his lips with mine. This promise was never going to break, and if it were, I would even take care of ceasing to exist in this world.

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A Magical Night to Remember ✨

It has been eighteen years since I was born in this beautiful yet complicated world. Time flies really fast. I was just a cute little kid way back then but now I am of legal age. I remember when I was a kid I love watching tv; I saw there how the celebrity teenagers spent their 18th birthday or debut. Most of them have cotillion and etc. I was amazed by those themed parties, the gowns, cakes and everything. That’s the time when I started dreaming of having a huge party on my 18th. I told my mom everything I wanted. She told me, “I’ll give you what you want, but you should study more and get good grades.” That’s why I studied well. I browsed for cute and simple dresses on the internet. Even though I’m not sure that I am having that kind of party still I prepared. It’s funny because I’m just 9 years old and yet I have too many plans for my debut. Since I’m the first grandchild, I thought it will really be possible—all I need is to wait. While growing up I understand all the importance of life—what really do matter. I started thinking practically because I know having that kind of party will cost us a lot of money. I don’t want my family to have a hard time preparing for what I want, so I just decided to celebrate a very simple party in our house. But I guess my family, my parents specially my mom loves me so much that they insisted to have a party for me—not a simple one. Even though I wanted the idea, I convinced them not to continue their plan because it’s just costly. They told me to study and finish college then that will pay off everything; that’s why I became more motivated in studying. I became busy from the month of October to December. These months are really stressful for me. I had to finish so many things. I need to take care of who will organize my party, who will make my cake, who will be part of my debut, when will I practice my special number and etc. Thanks to my aunt because she helped me in everything. I won’t forget the day that I had my first photoshoot. I’m so shy, I can’t pose and smile properly because many people who I don’t know are looking at me but after few hours I worked with them comfortably. In my mind I hoped for my shots to be good cos I’m not that pretty you know. Hahahaha. I enjoyed that day but I’m so tired to the point even smiling became hard for me. On that day I realized it is hard to have that kind of party; many things need to be settled. For me, the hardest part in preparing was that I need to choose the suited people for my 18 roses, 18 candles, 18 gifts, 18 shots and 18 blue bills. It’s hard for me because I have too many friends and I can’t invite them all. That’s why I only chose the best and true people in my life. I chose my cousin—CJ as my escort. They were all confused why I didn’t chose my boyfriend to be my escort hahaha. We were not in good terms that time and I never regretted not choosing him. Anyway, while the day of my party is coming, I became nervous because I don’t know if things will work out well. I became more nervous because of the gown that my mommy will bring. I don’t know if it fits me or what, I just have to wait for my mom so that I’ll be calm. My mom arrived from taiwan. I’m excited to try my gown and cocktail dress. Luckily the gowns fit in me. Mom brought all the Ferrero giveaways. Woah too many ferreros! I became more excited for my debut. Yay this is the day I’ve waited and prepared for: December 21,2014. I arrived at 10:00am on JW Function Hall because I’ll have a photoshoot. I saw everyone; they are so busy organizing and preparing the hall. The party has not yet started but I’m tired already because of that photoshoot thingy! But it’s okay everything paid off when I saw all of my love ones in the venue. The party started at 7pm. While entering the hall(with background music, A thousand years), I became more nervous. I have too many thoughts like what if I slip, what if I embarrass myself and many more but luckily it didn’t happened. So the program started and I saw that everyone’s enjoying the party. It’s the time for my 18 roses. My first dance was my grandpa and the next one was my dad. I can’t help being emotional on that time. I don’t care if everyone is looking, I just can’t control my tears that time. I don’t know why. While dancing with my 18 roses, they gave all their sweet messages for me. I felt so lucky having those guys as my family and friends. The next was my 18 candles. I know this time I’ll be more emotional because those friends I chose were all true and sisters to me. Everyone gave their greetings and wishes for me. They also have too many revelations about me that most of the people in the party didn’t know. When it’s MJ’s turn, she and I cried because we realized that we are more than blessed to have each other. Among those messages, MJ’s message was the one I’ll remember forever. Having those pretty good friends, I know that I will never be alone. After the candles, we watched a video that is all about me. Photos when I was a baby until now that I’m already a grown up. We also watched my MTV. I can’t help but laugh at myself, I can’t believe that I did such thing that never in my life I expected to do. While watching we were also eating. The program continued, it’s now the time for my 18 gifts. I can say that my friends knew me well because their gifts are based on the things I liked. They need to tell why did they chose those gifts and also their messages and wishes for me. I laughed all the time because of their messages. The gifts from Ate Micah and Nicole were the gifts I will really treasure. I got a bible from Ate Micah and a diy gift from Nicole—the effort though. After the gifts I changed clothes because my dance number is up next. While I’m preparing, the host interviewed my friends like: who is andrea when she’s with you, what are andrea’s favorites and many others; they also gave messages for me. I can say that I’m beyond blessed by having those people. It’s time for my dance number and I know that’s an epic one because I forgot too many steps hahaha but it doesn’t matter since I’m the debutant. After the dance number I changed again, I wore my cocktail dress. While waiting for me again, the host entertained the guests and she asked for some of my grandparents, uncles/aunties to have their messages for me. Before they gave their messages, they told the guests first what kind of person I am. Hearing those words made me cry because I didn’t know that I’m such a good person for them. The next thing was my 18 shots! I saw the disappointment in their eyes because they only drank nestea and not alcohol, which is better hahahaha. Because in our family, I’m not allowed to drink. ‘Twas epic though. And lastly my 18 blue bills. Maybe many people will think that I chose them just because of money, but it’s not. Actually those who were chosen are the ones who suggested to have blue bills. Hahahaha okay, that’s fine with us! They gave their messages and advices. All of it were so inspiring that I’m not the only one who learned but also the guests. I’m blessed to have those people because aside from my parents I know they were the ones that will also guide me on my journey. It’s time to end the night! I thanked all my friends, everyone who attended my party, SP Galleria, Forever Cupcakes and specially my family and God. My family, I’ve got so much to thank them for. Because this event will not be possible without them. I am beyond blessed to have such loving family. And lastly, I give thanks to God for everything because living for 18 years will not be possible without Him. I’m beyond grateful to God. After the program, I hugged and thanked all my relatives and friends for being part of my magical night. And that how my party ended Hehehe but it’s not yet finished because some of my friends stayed with me in the rest house and we spent the night and morning laughing together. How I missed that day. All my true friends are together. Even though I have many circle of friends, that night they became one that’s why I’m so happy. That night was really one for the books and I’m more than happy because everything worked out well. Indeed, that was one of my most amazing and unforgettable day. Sorry if I didn’t detailed everything but I hope you enjoyed reading this! 😊