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[hwxnghyynjin]

Billie bby hiii !! it's been so long how are you? 💕

JINNIE HIIIII I MISSED YOUUUU IM GOOD (well, apart from me losing it because i had a dream where i made oUT WITH HEESEUNG AND I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM) I've finally finished college and I start uni in October 😁

[yaoigremlin]

[jinnie-luv]

i need someone to pick 1 or 2 for me

[turtlycute]

I've been catching up on Paws and Claws on Lezhin and I noticed something in chapter 16 that's got me asking questions. Pup is hiding in the closet, inside the house Wolfie has lived in alone until now. So why are there all these women's shoes all over the place?

Like seriously why does virginal loner wolf Yoon Chi-young have these? Did they belong to a previous owner who mysteriously disappeared right before he moved in? Does his wolf form prefer chewing on them? Does he think Pup enjoys chewing on them? Does he want to see Gyeon Heeseong wearing them? Like seriously why????

[mapsareforbraindeads]

seeing people liveblog shows i basically have memorized is so fucking funny

[boyingray]

i appreciate hyunsoo confronting heeseong in the middle of ep. 15 saying that heeseong doesn't scare him. and then thought "he can't be scared if he can't recognise that inside himself" because alexithymia.

and then he's told jiwon got murdered. and suddenly nothing else matters except the bastard claiming he killed his wife suffering as much as possible.

i like how the show has him be vulnerable. not that his worst fear is realised. but that they show he's not always sure what's real. that he's scared, even if he doesn't really understand how to qualify those sensations that come with it.

he says he sees his dad, a man who's been dead for half of hyunsoo's life. he hears jiwon talking and isn't sure if she's real. heeseong said he killed her. the police said she was dead. he isn't sure if he's actually hearing her or if the voice he hears is an auditory hallucination.

he says "i see a dead person" and looks so lost. that to me is when it sunk in that he feels as lost as he looked that whole scene. the psychiatrist who treated him didn't care to actually understand him. the one person he trusted, the one person who wasn't manipulating him for years, isn't sure what to think anymore. and in that moment, he wasn't sure either.

[domokunrainbowkinz]

probably my last manhwa post of the year eheheh.....

titles discussed:

don't mess with the pooch! (18+)

dear zero (18+)

the count's secret maid

night of muheun (18+)

when the third wheel strikes back

regas

don't mess with the pooch! (18+): I'm always biased towards asshole MC's who will not hesitate to throw hands...these hands are rated E for Everyone...the ML is also the exact flavour of unhinged that I like to read about. the tone is very lighthearted and I do feel there were certain scenes that felt too unserious in tone. I ended up binging the novel it's based on and I feel the manhwa doesn't do a great job in conveying the tone or character thoughts in certain scenes (like that scene where chiyoung turns into his true form for the first time, in the novel they make it very clear its a terrifying experience for heeseong but in the manhwa it has like a slightly comedic tone which idk it was weird dude). overall the novel was a pretty fun read, I classify this as "junk food bl" bc it is very "turn off your brain and just go with the Vibes" kinda read. I also do love bitches with separation anxiety heheheh...I will be reading the manhwa tho bc I like the art and they made chiyoung very pretty...I am not immune to prettily drawn men

dear zero (18+): I s2g ive said something about this one but I guess not...anyways it's by bwat so I already knew going in I would like it. it was also my intro to guideverse, which I had No Idea existed before this. the story seems like it's being told as a confession tape by the MC in the future, and I am so curious to see how the story progresses!!! the story starts with the main pairing's first meeting, and then immediately after it jumps to a point into the future where they make it very clear Something happened, bc the ML wiped his own memories and is in cryo sleep, while the MC had to retire early bc of a permanent leg injury. the ML also has the power to manipulate other ppl's memories, so we can't even fully trust what the MC remembers about the ML. they're just starting to remember bits and pieces of what actually happened in recent chapters and I'm so looking forward to see how this all unfolds. I love me some stories told in retrograde that deal with unreliable memories ohohohoho

the count's secret maid: this one is promising so far, only 17 chapters out for the manhwa and I'm already gnawing at the walls for the next update. It's based off a completed novel (which I am planning to read lol) and all the reviews say its a banger so I have a good feeling about this one. even just based on the manhwa chapters, I already love the way the character interactions are written. both the FL and ML are traumatized and have their own issues, and it seems like the story is about how they help each other heal and move on. the FL is a poor peasant who had been abused since birth and called ugly/hideous, she's extremely sensitive about her face to the point where she refuses to look anyone in the eye bc she's learned that everyone recoils in disgust when they look at her. the ML is a count who went blind after a poisoning, and refuses to leave his room after several assassination attempts bc he's become afraid and fearful of everything due to the attempts and also the fact he cannot see. their interactions are so fun to read and there are also some beautiful scenes that had me going "oh they're Cooking cooking". anyways I really really hope this one won't let me down like some other romance manhwa that have started out promising only to peter out once the main pairing gets established 💀

night of muheun (18+): I ended up dropping this one bc I didn't like the ML. he comes off as very wishy-washy and there wasn't really anything compelling enough in the story to draw me in. the MC has a childhood crush on the ML and like. idk man. I don't like the way the ML treats the MC...he's keeping a lot of secrets and treats him like a bit like a clueless kid, I just don't see a compelling romance between the 2. maybe I will pick this back up in the future since it is my favourite genre (modern-day supernatural / ghost hunting romance) but like. I got more and better things to read lol

when the third wheel strikes back: I read s1 of this manhwa like months ago and idk why I never talked about it...anyways I haven't read s2 bc I heard from novel readers that it skips over some events and isn't a super great adaptation, so I'm planning to read the novel instead lol. despite that though I really enjoyed s1, it had a lot of funny moments and also many moments that made me go 🤨🏳️‍🌈 like I could not believe this isn't a romance novel. my one gripe is that I thought there would be more emphasis on like the worldbuilding, the power system, and maybe we'd see Jesse train his skills as a priest but every single time they say they're training they just end up drinking tea and eating biscuits 😭 GURL I WANNA SEE YOU DO MAGIC....I know it's not the emphasis or main focus of the story (the emphasis is on The Polycule which I loooooove don't get me wrong) but I personally like a good balance between these elements. I might just end up picking up the manhwa again bc atp I got so many webnovels on my tbr that are at least 150+ chapters long, my brain capacity is gonna be at max. anyways for the orv-ers who liked the yoohankim scenes during the kaizenix arc. I would read this bc it's giving fantasy yhk LOL (except jesse/yeseo is the polar opposite of kdj he knows Nothing about the novel he got transmigrated into except that he's gonna die, and thru some wacky shenanigans he somehow ends up in a polycule with the 2 ppl he was supposed to avoid. c'est la vie 😌)

regas: I also read this a while back and even read a good chunk of the novel it's based on, but I just never continued it 🧍‍♀️ I think it presents a pretty interesting concept, basically a fantasy world where the rulers have dragon blood and bc it causes them to eventually go mad, they require a tamer, called a "regas", to help soothe them and retain their sanity. except that as time went on, the surrounding court becomes corrupted and eventually chips away at the king's power by feeding them poison and training up regas that are pretty to look at, but would not be functionally uself / able to handle an essentially humanoid dragon. I actually thought the politics were quite interesting, and the rship between the MC and ML is quite sweet but sad. the MC starts off as like a big burly guy who was properly trained as a regas who can handle wild beasts, and he was brought in to tame the young prince who was born with particularly strong blood, so he's been chained up and abused bc no one can handle him. some ppl are really iffy on the age difference (bc the way the first part is depicted, it almost seems like a parent / older guardian raising their ward) but I didn't mind it?? something about the devotion and affection of a powerful being directed at the 1 person who showed them love and kindness makes me go AWOOGA!!!! the most heartbreaking thing about this story is the MC ends up dying and reincarnating into the body of a frail and pretty twink 😭 THEY TWINKIFIED MY BEAR....I'm still so sad about that. I think I may pick this manhwa back up in the future, tbh I think I stopped bc I felt a bit burned out by reading too much manhwa in a short amount of time lol

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[hwxnghyynjin]

You Should See Me In A Crown

Pairing: park jongseong x reader Genre: royalty!au, horror, smut, angst Warnings: character death, mentions of throwing up blood, gore, illness, mentions of witchcraft, nightmares, smut (unprotected sex, biting, grinding), swearing, I think that's it Word count: 6,063 Taglist: @foxdaisy @heeseongism

There are two types of people in the world. Rich and poor. You came from the latter. Growing up, your family didn’t really have much, which meant that you couldn’t afford to buy medicine in case you end up sick. Luckily that didn’t happen. Until one day.

Your younger brother suddenly got really sick, to the point where he was vomiting blood. A fever so bad, he felt like he was in a sauna, sweating profusely. He felt so weak, couldn’t get out of bed. He couldn’t even eat or drink, his throat burning, feeling like he was swallowing daggers.

You didn’t know what to do, crying every single night to sleep, worried about your little brother. He got sicker as the days passed, starting to smell like rotting meat, which confused you. You’ve never seen anything like that before, and it scared you.

On the 7th day of his illness, your brother passed away, his eyes bleeding out of their sockets, blood trickling out of his mouth and nose. That was one of the worst days of your life, you felt like you failed to protect him. The sight of your dead brother made you scream, tears blurring your vision. Your parents didn’t say anything, crying silently as you laid over your brother's body. Your mother tried to pry you away from him but you wouldn’t budge. Your younger sister sitting in the corner, sobs leaving his small body.

A few days after his death, your sister was the next person to get sick, the same symptoms as your brother had. She even died the same way: eyes bleeding out of their sockets, blood trickling out of her mouth and nose. You didn’t know what to do at that point, but you were definitely sure that something was wrong.

Your questions were answered a few days later as your mother was sentenced to death from being accused of witchcraft. Why would your own mother kill her own children? Your own brother and sister? Did she actually do it, or was she framed? Or was it something else?

Seeing your mother being burnt at the stake was something you weren’t expecting, but being accused of witchcraft is the worst type of crime, according to the government. Hearing her screams echoed in your mind, haunting your nightmares every single night.

Now, 8 years later at the age of 20, everything else has gone to shit.

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You woke up in a dark room, more specifically your bedroom, the sound of birds knocking on your window. Getting out of bed, you trodded your way towards the window, drawing back the curtains to see a bunch of crows knocking into the window, some of them falling to the ground. Not again, you thought. That’s the third time this week, and it’s only a Tuesday. 

Since you’re now out of bed, you thought it would be a good idea to get dressed, and that’s exactly what you did. Taking your nightgown off, you grabbed the first items of clothing you saw, which was a pair of black pants and a white dress shirt, buttoning it up. You brushed your hair, getting rid of your bed hair, brushing through the knots. Tying the laces of your boots, you left your bedroom, going to do your daily errands.

You walked through the woods, taking in the surroundings around you. Leaves crunched under your feet, the smell of smoke hits your senses. You wondered where the smoke was coming from, until you found the culprit. A small barn was engulfed in flames, which wasn’t surprising to you anymore, especially after the riots. You just hoped no one was in there. 

Ever since the rich and the poor have gone against each other, there have been numerous wars, both big and small. All the poor have been trying to do is live their lives, but the rich have been ripping that away from them: stealing their money, livestock, even their homes. Thousands of people have died because of it, you’re surprised you haven’t been attacked.

You walked further into the woods, on your way to the farmers market. A sudden loud noise made you stop in your tracks, a loud growl ringing in your ears. A shiver ran down your spine as the sound got closer, fear running through your body.

Suddenly, a huge boar-like creature came charging towards you, its teeth sharp and tusks massive. It seemed rabid, drool dripping from its mouth, the creature roaring aggressively. You screamed, turning on your heels as you ran away, flight kicking in. 

You avoided running into any obstacles, jumping over any rocks so you wouldn’t trip. You didn’t bother turning around, not wanting to see the rabid creature chasing you. Suddenly, the roaring of the creature stopped, replaced by a squeal as a loud thud was heard from behind you. You turned around, seeing the creature lying on the ground, an arrow piercing its side, blood gushing out of it.

You tried to find where the arrow came from, looking in different directions. A boy around your age appeared, holding a crossbow. His jet black hair slicked back, wearing what looked like protective gear. You don’t know who he is but he's really attractive. 

“Ma’am, what are you doing out here? You’ll get yourself killed if you’re not careful now please, turn back around. Unless you want to get yourself killed”, what an asshole. You scowled at him, not even bothering to thank him for saving your life. You turned around, leaving the woods.

“Hey, a thank you would be nice!” he yelled, earning a middle finger from you, making him speechless. How dare a peasant give him that attitude? 

“Who was that?” one of his knights asked him. “I have no idea but she’s feisty”, he continued looking at you as you disappeared into the distance, completely out of the woods. “Jay, we should head back, I don’t like these woods, they’re creepy”, the knight, known as Jake, said. 

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You laid down on your bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking about what happened a few hours ago. That man saved your ass from being eaten, yet he was a complete asshole to you. By what he was wearing, you were sure he was one of the rich. Now it makes so much sense why he was an asshole. You scoffed to yourself, already beginning to hate your saviour. Then again, you’ve always hated the rich for how they treated the poor, including yourself.

Back in the kingdom, Jay walked down a corridor, minding his own business when he heard 2 distinct voices coming from behind a door. He’s not one for eavesdropping but he just couldn’t resist. 

“What do you mean the king has proposed a meeting? A meeting for what?”

“I’m not sure but he said something about something, or someone, wanting to destroy the kingdom, which might lead to hundreds of deaths and he wants to do something to stop it”

Jay’s heart stopped. Something wants to destroy the kingdom? He was deep in thought that he didn’t hear the door opening until it was too late. One of the guards that came out of the room cleared his throat which got Jay’s attention. 

“You ok, sire? You look like you’ve seen a ghost”, one of the guards said, raising one of his eyebrows. “I-i’m fine”, Jay said as he walked off, going towards his room. He closed his door, thinking about what the guards were talking about. Why would someone want to destroy the entire kingdom, wanting to kill hundreds of innocent civilians? 

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It’s been a few days since your near death encounter, and you’re wandering around the forest, and you know you shouldn’t but your curiosity got the better of you. The sound of leaves crunching under your feet is all you could hear apart from the sound of your breathing, it was that quiet, which was strange. The atmosphere felt heavy around you, your breathing becoming heavy. You felt like someone, or something, was watching you, your movements getting slower. As you turned around, you felt your body being thrown, your body hitting against a tree, knocking you to the ground with a thud.

You groaned as you held the back of your head, trying to sit up. As you eventually managed to sit up, you came face to face with a woman. She had fair skin, long dark hair and her clothes looked dirty, her feet bare. The thing that stood out to you the most, though, was her eyes. They looked cloudy, lifeless. She was looking at you but she also wasn’t. Like, she was looking at you but her focus wasn’t on you. 

You went to get up to go towards her but as soon as you moved, she disappeared. She didn’t turn around and leave, she literally disappeared into thin air. Did you just witness a ghost? You managed to stand up, holding onto the tree for support, when the sound of footsteps startled you, making you turn around. There he was, the same guy who saved you, the asshole.

“I told you to stay out of these woods”, he said, narrowing his eyes at you. You didn’t say anything, just continued holding your head, feeling a lump forming. Suddenly, a whistling sound could be heard around you, making the both of you look in the same direction. A black mist headed towards you, fear running through your body. Jay suddenly grabbed your hand, turning on his heels. 

“Hey, what the fuck are you doing?!” you shouted, wondering what he was doing and where he was taking you. “Do you want to die? Because I can leave you out here if you want to”, he said, raising his eyebrow. You didn’t want to die so you just followed him. Jay jumped onto his horse, helping you onto it after him. He held the reins of the horse, whilst you held onto Jay for support, not wanting to fall off. The horse galloped away, heading out of the woods, heading towards the castle. You turned around to see if the mist was still following you, and to your surprise, it wasn’t. It stayed above the woods, the black mist getting thicker as it surrounded the trees. 

Jay reached the castle, the sound of hooves trotting against concrete as he headed into the grounds of the castle. The horse came to a halt, other knights came running out of the castle. Jay got off the horse, helping you down after him. “Jay, who’s this?”, one of the knights said, when he suddenly recognised you. “Isn’t this the same girl you helped the other day in the woods?” he asked, to which you rolled your eyes.

“I do have a name, you know”, you said, looking between the two. “Well, what is your name because I don’t recall you telling me it”, Jay said, looking at you. You glared at him before telling him your name: Jung Y/N. Just hearing your name made his eyes grow wide. “Wasn’t your mother burnt at the stake for witchcraft? Well, accused of witchcraft”, Jay said, making other knights look at you. You felt uncomfortable with all the eyes on you, glaring at Jay. 

“Shut up”, you muttered under your breath, running into the castle, wanting to get away from all the attention. Jay and his knights followed you, wanting to ensure that the king doesn’t see you. Jay caught up with you and grabbed your wrist, turning you around to look at him. “Don’t just come running into the castle without me, the king might see you and kill you”, Jay said, a hint of fear in his voice, which you weren’t expecting. Why would the king kill you? Jay noticed the confusion on your face, bringing you into a room. He closed the door behind him, pushing you into the middle of the room. 

“I heard a couple of knights talking the other day, after I saved you, talking about someone or something wanting to destroy the kingdom, which could lead to hundreds or thousands of deaths, and if he sees you, someone who he doesn’t know, in his kingdom, he might kill you. He’s been cautious the past few days, being careful about who he lets into the castle. So I would be careful if I were you”, Jay said, his eyes burning into yours. 

“This means I can’t go home, doesn’t it?” you asked, Jay nodding his head. You sighed, running your fingers through your hair. “There’s a spare bedroom which isn’t in use opposite mine, if you want to use that. I mean, only if you want to”, Jay said, his turn to run his hands through his hair. All of a sudden, the sound of thunder boomed loudly throughout the kingdom, making you jump into Jay’s arms. Jay wrapped his arms around you, rubbing your arms up and down, trying to calm you down. You pulled away after a few seconds, apologising. Jay may be attractive, but that doesn’t mean you will fall for his charms. 

A few hours went by, and you're sitting on a bed, which was a lot more comfier than yours. You looked around the room, noticing the details. The red velvet curtains, which had a gold fringe, the textured cream walls detailed with a large gold mirror. There was a knock on the door, making you jump. You called for the person to come in, a woman revealing herself, holding something in her hand. She bowed, putting some clothes on your bed and left without a word. You noticed she put a nightgown on your bed, the material soft underneath your hands. 

You realised it was getting dark outside so you decided to get changed into your nightgown, and turn in for the night. You wondered if the dark mist had moved past the woods, the thought alone just terrified you to the core.

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You saw your brother and sister, their backs towards you. You raced after them, but the more you ran, the further they got from you. You ran for what seemed like ages, getting nowhere near them. The more you ran, the more your vision became clouded with blood. There was blood everywhere, the sound of your brother and sisters screaming deafened your ears, the screeching became louder and unbearable. You covered your ears, your running came to a stop. 

You dropped to your knees, your vision now blurred with tears. The screaming wouldn’t stop. You screamed for it to stop, shaking your head from side to side. You screamed once more for it to stop, finally being able to hear yourself shout as silence surrounded you. You looked forward, seeing your brother and sister ahead of you, now looking at you. But there was someone standing behind them. It was your mother. 

You shouted at her to leave them alone, but it was no use. She grabbed your brother and sisters shoulders, gripping them. Blood started pouring out of their eyes, nose and mouth. That’s when your mother burst into flames, her screams making your ears bleed.

You woke up with a scream, covered in sweat. Another nightmare. You tried catching your breath, your heartbeat erratic. You managed to calm down after a while, but you couldn’t seem to fall back asleep.

You just laid there, looking up at the ceiling. You laid there for a moment, when the sound of whispering from outside your bedroom door caught your attention. You got out of bed, tiptoed over towards the door and carefully put your ear against the door. The sound of 2 men talking to each other, but you couldn’t quite make out what they were saying. You realised you weren’t going to find out what they were talking about so you turned around and went back to bed but in the process of turning around, you knocked into something and fell over with a yelp.

The door opened, revealing 2 knights, who you assumed were the ones outside your door. You were prepared to get yelled at but to your surprise, the complete opposite happened. “You okay, m’lady?” one of the knights asked, causing you to clear your throat. “I’m okay. Just wanted to stretch my legs since I had a cramp, but I must have tripped in the process of going back to bed”, you managed to come up with an excuse, and luckily the knights believed you, nodding their heads and closing the door behind them as they left. You let out a breath you didn’t realise you were holding in, and got back into bed.

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Over the course of the next few days, the black mist has gotten closer to the kingdom, a few people in your village getting sick, which ended up with them dying. Everyone in the kingdom is panicking, running around like headless chickens. You and Jay have been helping each other come up with a plan on how to stop whoever, or whatever, is trying to destroy the kingdom. You were in your room whilst Jay was in his, getting ready to go out with the other knights to go on a hunt to the woods. The both of you knew it was dangerous, but you had no other choice. All you had to do was be extra careful.

You laced up your boots, straightened out your clothes (which was given to you by one of the female knights) and looked at yourself in the mirror, before leaving your room. You came face to face with Jay, who nodded at you and headed towards the entrance of the castle, where some of the other knights were waiting. 

You made it into the woods, seeing dozens of dead bodies on the ground. Every single body has blood coming out of their eyes, nose and mouth. They all died the same way your brother and sister died, 8 years ago. Your mother didn’t kill your siblings. Whatever the black mist is, killed your siblings. And it’s come back to destroy the kingdom. 

You didn’t realise you were staring at the dead bodies until you felt someone touch your arm. You came back to reality, looking down at the person touching your arm: Jay. “you ready?” he asked, to which you nodded. You’re not sure what you’re ready for but you’re ready for something. You got off your horse, heading straight into the woods. Once you made it into the heart of the woods, that’s when you saw something, or someone: it was the same woman you saw a few days ago only this time, she looked cleaner.  

“Hey, what are you doing here, it’s dangerous”, one of the knights said to the woman, who didn’t budge. The knight, who’s name you didn’t get, walked towards the woman but that was a bad idea as she grabbed the knight by the neck, breaking it immediately. Is she behind this, or is she being controlled by something?

A few knights ran in the other direction, but the woman seemed to summon something, which grabbed the knights who tried to run away, killing them instantly, ripping some of them in half. It was a bloodbath. You didn’t know what to do as you just stood there, watching everything unfold in front of you. You saw Jay run towards the woman, and that’s when something clicked in you. You ran towards Jay, putting your hand out to try and grab him, but you weren’t quick enough. Jay was thrown against a tree, hitting his head. The woman clawed at his chest, making him scream out in pain. You stood behind her, grabbing her and throwing her backwards away from Jay.

“Leave us alone!” you shouted at her, or whoever she was because she was definitely not human. “You look like your mother”, she said, her voice definitely sounded non-human. You screamed, lunged forward and tackled her to the ground, grabbed the nearest object and whacked her over the head, but that was the wrong thing to do as she threw you backwards, your back hitting the ground. You don’t remember anything after that as everything went black.

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When you came to, you noticed you were in an unfamiliar room. You also felt… different. You couldn’t describe it though, you just didn’t feel like yourself. You sat up and looked around the room you were in. You definitely weren’t in your room that you were located in. Who’s bedroom are you in? Suddenly a voice broke you out of your trance. 

“Oh thank god you’re awake, I was worried you weren’t going to wake up”, Jay walked over to you, and that’s when you realised he was shirtless. There were marks on his chest, from when he was clawed back in the woods. His hair was wet and slicked back, probably from recently being bathed. You weren’t going to lie, he was very attractive and you won’t deny it. There was something in you that just wanted to mark his neck up and down, which wasn’t like you. 

Jay sat down next to you, placing an arm on your shoulder. He took back his hand with a gasp. “You’re freezing! I’ll get you something more warm to put on”, he went to get up to get you a blanket but you stopped him, not saying a word as you grabbed his wrist. You’re not sure what came over you as you kissed him, smashing your lips against his. His lips were soft, you could taste wine against them, the sweetness hitting your senses. You pushed him on the bed, climbing on top of him, not removing your lips from his.

Jay was confused as to what came over you, but he didn’t stop you. He deepened the kiss, holding your hips as you straddled his waist. You grinded yourself against him, gripping the material of the sheets on the bed, digging your nails into it. Before you knew it, you were underneath Jay, your clothes discarded on the floor. His lips attached to your neck, sucking purple spots on your skin, eliciting a moan from you. You grabbed his clothed cock, palming him through his pants, earning a groan from him. The next thing you knew, you were both naked on the bed, Jay thrusting in and out of you at a reasonable pace.

You arched your back as Jay hits your sweet spot, his cock hitting you in all the right places. You grabbed his buttcheeks, squeezing them as you dug your nails in the flesh of his cheeks, earning a hiss from Jay. You reached up, kissing him, sucking on his bottom lip. You weren’t usually like this. You were on the calmer side of things, like to be soft and sweet. This was a completely different side to you, and you didn’t know what got into you, but Jay loved seeing you like this. You came to your orgasm, your legs shaking as your eyes rolled back, Jay soon coming to his not long after you.

Without giving Jay a chance to breathe, you flipped the both of you over, you now on top. You grinded against his cock, your nails digging into the flesh of his thighs. Moans kept escaping Jay as you continued grinding against him, cum leaking out of his tip and onto his stomach, his abs glistening with cum. You leant down and shoved your face into the crook of his neck, attaching your lips to his skin. You sucked dark purple spots on his skin before latching your teeth into his skin, biting him. Jay hissed as you bit him hard, causing blood to trickle down his neck. Jay was surprised as he loudly moaned at the sensation, making him cum instantly, staining his chest with cum.

Jay laid there as he tried catching his breath, his chest moving up and down at a fast pace. As Jay continued to lay there, you grabbed your clothes, putting them back on without saying anything. You went to leave Jay’s room when you stopped you. “Where are you going?” he asked, looking at you, now sitting up. You just smirked at him, opened the door and left without another word. Jay looked at the door in confusion, wondering what the hell has happened to you. Did something happen to you in the woods?

You walked along the halls, which were lit up by lamps, the only source of light in the kingdom due to it now being dark outside. You put the hood of your cape over your head, your black dress, gliding along the floor with every step you take. You managed to leave the kingdom without being seen, running down the steps, the moonlight being your only source of light to lead you on your way.

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“Where’s Y/N? I can’t find her anywhere, she’s not in her room”, one of the servants exclaimed, worry evident on her face. She’s been trying to find her all morning, unfortunately with no luck. Jay, Jake, a couple of other knights and the King sat at the table in the great hall, looking at the servant. “What do you mean you can’t find her?” Jay asked, worry now written all over his face. He stood up, making his chair fall backwards. It was the King’s turn to stand up now, towering over the table.

“She probably wandered home since she doesn’t belong here. Jay, you brought her here, didn’t you? She lives in the poor part of the kingdom, right? I want you to go find her and when you do, I want you to kill her, no matter what”, the King ordered, but from the sound of his voice, Jay realised there was something more to this than the King is saying. 

“What do you mean ‘kill her’?! What aren’t you telling us? You can’t keep things to yourself without telling us, sire” Jay said, annoyance in his voice. He kept arguing with the King until the King had enough. “Enough! You do as I say or I will kill you and then kill Y/N myself. Now go!” the King said, slamming his hands down on the table. Jay grumbled before leaving the table, Jake and a few other knights following him. Before they got to the door and left, the King spoke up, his voice full of fear.

“You really want to know what’s happening?” the King said, making them turn around to look at him. The King sat back down, sighing. “8 years ago, the same thing happened across the kingdom. Everyone in the village got sick, ranging from children to adults. I knew Y/N’s parents as I saved Y/N’s mother when she was still pregnant with her. I was just passing by when I saw her standing on top of her bridge, assuming that she was going to jump off, I ran to her and got her down, to which she broke down in tears, her husband running to me holding her. Since that day, I watched them from a distance, keeping an eye on them to see if they’re safe”, he took a deep breath before he continued.

“I continued to watch them from afar for years after that, watching Y/N grow up, as well as her siblings. One day, as I was strolling along through the woods, I noticed something strange. I saw a figure of what seemed to be a woman. They had long black hair, their skin looked pale and their clothes dirty. Though I had a feeling it wasn’t actually a woman, but a spirit. My suspicions were answered when a few days later, the village got infected, children and adults growing ill, dying. It was a bloodbath. When I got to their home, there was blood everywhere. Blood stained beds and carpet, as well as blood on the walls. The house was empty, or at least I thought it was empty until I heard a voice. A female voice. It was Y/N, she was talking to someone, or something. I looked inside a room, and there she was: Y/N sitting on the floor, tear clad cheeks. I saw the same thing I saw a few days prior, sitting in front of Y/N”.

“Get away from her!”, the King yelled, trying to get the thing away from Y/N. The thing ran away, out of the house and back into the woods. But in the process, Y/N got scared and ran in the same direction. What did the spirit want with Y/N?

“Why didn’t you do anything?” Jay questioned. “Because by the time I realised, it was too late! The spirit possessed Y/N’s mother, killing her children, but not before destroying hundreds of lives in the village. But that’s the thing. Y/N’s mother wasn’t supposed to become possessed. It was supposed to be Y/N. And I think that’s why it’s come back”, the King said, fear in his eyes. “Now go, before it’s too late”, the King ordered, Jay and his knights running out of the main hall and out of the castle, hoping to find you before it’s too late. 

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Jay and his knights wandered into the woods, and the sight they walked into made them frown. There were dead bodies everywhere, blood coming out of their eyes, mouth and nose. Some bodies were torn into 2, some had their limbs missing, and guts were hanging out of their chests. Jake wanted to throw up, to which he did, puking his guts up. Jay walked forward, trying to see any sign that you were there, but he couldn’t find anything. Suddenly, a gust of wind came out of nowhere, making some of the knights almost fall over. Jay saw you in the distance, walking towards them. But you didn’t look like yourself. You were covered in blood. Blood splatters on your face, dress and on the sword you were holding. Wait, sword? Where the fuck did you get a sword from?

“Y/N, what are you doing?” Jay asked, walking towards you slowly. That’s when you spoke up. Except, it wasn’t your voice. “It’s too late. Y/N is gone”, your voice- which wasn’t your voice- sounded demonic. You lifted your arm, putting your hand out. Black mist appeared from behind you, and you pushed your hand out, making the knights behind Jay be thrown backwards, some of them being thrown into a tree, knocking them out. The sound of thunder roared in the distance, lightning lighting up the sky. Rain came pouring down from the sky, making it hard to see in front of you.

“Time to die”, you said, a smirk on your face.

You lifted your bloodied sword, ready to strike. Jay ran forward, holding his sword up. Both swords came into contact with a clang, the force causing vibrations to run through your bodies. You both fought, clashing swords. You sliced Jay’s arm, making him hiss as blood marked his arm. You fought for what felt like hours, losing track of time.

“I will rule the kingdom! It should have been me, not that stupid king. If he didn’t kill me, I would have ruled the kingdom and become Queen! Guess the King isn’t as innocent as everything thinks he is”, you said, smirking at Jay, making him stop in his tracks. “What do you mean?”, Jay asked, lowering his sword, letting his guard down. 

“Ah, he didn’t tell you, did he? He had a wife years ago, who was going to become Queen but become the King was fucking jealous of that, he murdered her in the woods. She thought that they were having a nice day in the woods, going to have a picnic, but he grabbed his sword and struck her right then and there, her body falling to the ground. That was me, I was the wife”, you said, your voice becoming more and more demonic the angrier the spirit got. Suddenly, the King ran out of nowhere from behind Jay, standing in front of him. 

“Guinevere, stop this please!” the King bellowed, hoping that she would stop. But unfortunately for him, that made her more angry. All of a sudden, the King gasped and fell to the ground until his body came to a stop. Blood trickled out of his eyes, nose and mouth. Shit.

“Guess I’ll be Queen after all”, you smirked at Jay, raising your sword, getting ready to strike. Out of nowhere, Jake’s body stepped in front of Jay’s, raising his arms. He grabbed the sword, yelling as the blade dug into the palms of his hands. “Stop it, you bitch”, Jake yelled, managing to grab the sword out of your hand. You screamed like a banshee, making Jay and Jake hold their ears, the sound too painful to listen to.

Jake looked at Jay, giving him a look that said ‘you know what you need to do’, to which Jay nodded. Jake threw the sword to Jay, and Jay ran up to you. He turned you around, putting the sword to your throat. You held onto Jay’s arms, digging your nails into them. “Y/N, if you’re still in there, I’m really sorry for what I’m about to do”, Jay said as he closed his eyes. You chuckled evilly, the spirit inside you preparing for what’s about to happen.

“You can do what you want to me, you’re not going to get Y/N back. She was already dead before I possessed her”, the spirit said, taunting Jay with her words. Jay let go of her and turned her around to look at him. He grabbed the sword with both hands as he yelled, striking the sword right into your chest, a scream leaving you. The spirit possessing you let out a screech, making Jay’s and Jake’s ears bleed. Black mist came out of your mouth, heading towards the sky before it disappeared completely, evaporating. 

Your body dropped to the ground with a thud, the sword still in your chest. Jay wrapped his arms around you, tears staining his cheeks as he sobbed. Jake stood there, not knowing what to do or say. Jay stayed like that for what seemed like hours, just holding your lifeless body. Some of his tears dropped onto where the sword used to be, falling into the wound on your chest. All of a sudden, the wound in your chest started to disappear, the colour in your skin now becoming more full of life. You gasped as you opened your eyes, startling Jay. 

“What happened? How did I get here?” you asked, looking around you, wondering why you were in the woods, and why Jay was holding you. He started crying again, of happiness this time as he hugged you, wrapping his arms around you. “You’re alive, I thought we lost you, oh my god”, Jay cried of happiness. You were confused but wrapped your arms around him, melting into the hug. 

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You laid in Jay’s bed, looking up at him as he explained what happened to you, and you felt awful. You killed all those people? Including the King? You knew that it wasn’t actually you as you were possessed, but you still felt awful. You started crying as the guilt started eating you up, the whole kingdom is probably going to be scared of you or hate you for what’s happened. Jay was startled as you started crying your eyes out, not knowing what to do. You voiced your feelings, feeling like you were at fault for everything that has happened, even though that it wasn’t you and you shouldn’t feel like that, but you couldn’t help it. 

“Hey, if anyone says anything to you about it or tries to make you feel like shit then, they will have me to deal with, ok?”, he said, smiling softly at you. You returned a smile, smiling up at him. You leaned closer to him, lifting your head up. You gave him a soft kiss on the lips, holding his cheek, rubbing your thumb along the skin. Jay smiled into the kiss, melting into you. You’re not sure what’s going to happen now but what you do know is that you're most definitely in love with Park Jongseong.

[yaoigremlin]

[sorairokakera]

Favorite BL Manhwa/Webtoon —1.3

[11-20]

I try to organize my favorite list of BL manhwa, It's quite long so I divided it into 4 parts (I pick 40 titles). Here is the third part of the list, from 11 to 20~

강아지는 건드리지 마라! / Don't Mess with the Puppy!

novel by Marine Code (마린코드), art by Duuhaem (두햄)

Puppy~~!! A small fluffy white puppy with strong spirit and a gentle loving werewolf, Don't Mess with the Puppy! is very lovable. Yoon Chiyoung (werewolf) and Kwon Heeseong (puppy) have really hard lives but then they found each other, loving each other. I really enjoy reading their interactions, their relationship is so lovely. The art here is so adorable~~ I wish they don't skip details though I'm going to read the novel ><

— werewolf x puppy

하프 오브 미 / Half of Me

novel by Samk, art by Juhan (주한)

I really like the dynamic between Minjae and Heechan a lot~! When more things about Taekin are revealed, it brings all kind of emotions, not only Minjae-Heechan's relationship that is really lovely, Taekin's story also great. Their talk about 'half of me' is interesting. I wish they adapt everything into manhwa/webtoon (it's on hiatus) ; ; I need to read the novel, from spoilers I see that Half of Me is a really nice read, specially Minjae and Heechan adorable relationship.

— body swap (one of them, the student, unconscious), PE teacher x vegetable store owner (high school's classmates)

가이딩 해저드 / Guiding Hazard

story by Sunsun (선선), art by Cheongnyeon (청년)

Guiding Hazard is likely to be my top favorite of guideverse genre. I adore Seo Eunsung and Lee Taegun relationship so much. Their interaction and relationship development, their past in high school that encourages Eunsung greatly, everything about them is so lovable. I also really like those chibi talking/thinking parts inside their mind, very cute. Taegun's past is really upsetting, but he has Eunsung with him now ; ; Their guiding sessions are ♥♥ (the breaking things are amusing too ; w;)

— guideverse, best compatibility (top s-rank guide x nation's top s-rank esper), high school classmates in the past

무흔의 밤 / Night of the Unmarked

novel by Today Spring (오늘봄), art by Jaewoo (재우)

I adore Kim Muheun and Seo Seungjoo's dynamic and relationship so much. They are solid. Even though sometimes Seungjoo keep a little bit stuffs because he knows Muheun will be overly worried, he tells almost everything to Muheun which I like. It might seem that Muheun is frustrating at first (not for me) but what he did are understandable. He foreseen his future with Seungjoo but instead of letting that happen, he try his best to keep Seungjoo safe and happy from a distance, because Seungjoo is extremely precious for him. After Seungjoo first kissed him, he realized his feeling (love), but he still try to keep the safe distance with Seungjoo because he believes it's the best for Seungjoo. Though Seungjoo hates that. Sometimes their safe distance failed to be kept because this and that. It's really hard for both Seungjoo and Muheun. I was so heartbroken when Seungjoo tried to give up loving Muheun, then so happy because Seungjoo try to get hold of Muheun and work things out. I really like Muheun's tattoo that looks like ink painting, beautiful and cool, though the story behind it is painful. Night of Muheun is a very endearing read~

Spirit of Muryeong, Muheun's younger brother and Seungjoo's childhood friend, Kim Muryeong's story is adorable. Muryeong is like a soft warm sunshine.

— supernatural, exorcist, childhood friends/neighbors

빠나나 스캔들 / Banana Scandal

DolSHA (돌샤)

The story setting of Koreans studying overseas is interesting and feels realistic (I don't have much knowledge). Their struggles within the community, four main characters personalities and stories are well-written. Taehwan and Taehee are lovely brothers, their childhood scenes are so adorable. The first couple Taehee and Dojin is nice but the second couple's story in Banana Scandal, Woo Taehwan and Shim Yeonwu, is really heartfelt. I feel that Taehwan's redemption is one of the best redemption arc in BL manhwa/webtoon. Taehwan was really bad to Yeonwu, even though Yeonwu did wrong to Taehwan in the past, what Taehwan did was damaging. Yeonwu did something that triggered Taehwan's trauma (which Yeonwu know about much later), they were really good friends in high school but separated badly. When they met again in university, it was really bad for Yeonwu —Yeonwu, who neglected himself and has a very low self-esteem, brainwashed himself that he deserved what Taehwan did to him and he likes that he still have sort of relationship with Taehwan. When Yeonwu got extremely tired with everything and stayed away from Taehwan, Taehwan was shocked and tried to pull him back but it's not working. Taehwan who was in denial then realized his feeling, tried to do things better with Yeonwu. They almost got together again (because they're so passionate to each other) but it was really hard for Yeonwu who hadn't healed yet, it was really heartbreaking when Yeonwu realized how he neglected himself a lot, how pitiful he was. It was really heart-wrenching process of growing up. They continued their lives separatedly. Yeonwu have proper time to heal and loving his own self better. Taehwan tries to be worthy of Yeonwu, enduring his longing while regret things deeply. When they met again and talked about everything, poured all their feelings— damn, I've been very emotional when reading about their story but at that point it's emotions overflowed ;;__;; I think I cried several times reading their story. I feel like I can breathe again when they genuinely happy together, Taehwan and Yeonwu loving relationship is ♥♥

— Koreans studying in university overseas then work and live there, 2 couples, psychological

레가스 / Regas

novel by samk, art by Daengmeong (댕멍)

Regas is really good~!! Prince's childhood was heart-crushing, the abuse and the loss of Abel, the one who genuinely cares for him. Prince and Abel moments are so wholesome. Many might not like that Abel reincarnated to blonde-green eyed beauty because twinkification(?), but it's an important part for the plot. The artist does a really good work in Abel's reincarnation, even though the physical appearance is very different, we can see and feel the real Abel, it's Abel. The beginning part after reincarnation is very funny, I really enjoy the interaction between main and supporting characters. Karas (prince -> king -> captain commander) and Abel relationship is so ♥♥

— dragon power, royalty, reincarnation

터닝 / Turning

novel by Kuyu (쿠유), art by 6초 (6cho)

I saw that Turning has many good reviews that I got interested in reading. The novel is really long but seems it's really a great work. Hope the manhwa/webtoon adaptation will be great too >< The dynamic between Kishiar and Yuder is exciting and their relationship seems very lovely (from spoilers). Since it's regression, it's likely that their first life was very heartbreaking. I'm excited with the story and their world-building. Also, Yuder's expressionless is amusing.

— awakened, royalty, second gender (omegaverse) between awakened, regression

유언 때문에 죽는 건 잠깐 미뤘습니다 / Mission: Save the Hunter

novel by Sorim (소림), art by Hyeon (현)

Mission: Save the Hunter is very heartbreaking yet very encouraging. The Great Dungeon is really painful, Seo Chaeyoon ;__; I really adore Yoon Seo and Kwon Jihan dynamic, they are really lovely together. Yoon Seo is very adorable when he's liking and getting closer with Jihan. Jihan is the best mate (in work, life, everything) for Yoon Seo. Some of the last will are very nice, I particularly like that looking for certain-shaped clouds one —this feels like it's able to keep Chaeyoon alive and gradually healed at the same time. The art also getting more beautiful, I want more of Chaeyoon/Yoon Seo and Jihan ♥

— awakened, dungeon

해뜨는 집 / Our Sunny Days

Jung Seokchan (정석찬)

Our Sunny Days is very wholesome aaahh- this is really lovely~!! Kwon Haebeom and Sung Ho have a very loving healthy relationship and the baby aaaaa sooo cuuutteee ; ; ♥ They resolve things around them so well. I can feel the heartwarming sunshine when I read this beautiful work.

— countryside, single father with a year-old baby, village head x ex-military single father

보스 빗치 베이비 / Boss Bxtch Baby

Dacto (닥토)

Boss Bxtch Baby is a very enjoyable read~! I really like the dynamic between Koo Hojin and Baek Yooseong, specially their chibi are very adorable I like them a lot~!! I really enjoy reading their chibi scenes and extras (from Dacto's twi- X's account). Feels like this gets higher position on this list because of their chibis ;w; Yooseong can be so violent it's scary though I can't hate him. That part in side story "all the trauma from different universes" is amusing ; w;) Both Hojin and Yooseong are broken and flawed, it was toxic but they heal each other and have a loving relationship. I also like that song which Hojin's favorite, I listened to it sometimes around the time I was reading this (Hojin made me wanted to listen). Their side stories AU are interesting, their fox babies are so cute~!

— master x boy toy contract relationship, badass bottom x pupper-fox top

[1st edition of SK-FKBL]

[elhanoka]

i've watched 3 eps of Flower of Evil and my only concern is the main murderous baby boy!!! please leave him alone and let him have a good life.

now for the points i've gathered so far:

// – should I tell you about the kind of person I am?

– I promise to love you more and more. I'll be good to you. then all of a sudden everything may just change. like a lie. //

these non-verbal exchange is our sweet welcome to the show. already a tone of foreshadowing going on, making me think everything is fishy from the get-go.

"my life was never my own" "you've become quite human, you know" "did having a child with her made you develop special feelings for her?"

as of ep 3 i somewhat understand ⬆️this⬆️ words said by his parents from the scene of baek heeseong's birthday in the 1 ep. his life was never his in quite literal sense — when he ran away from home (I'm guessing that's what he did), he found a delivery job. then when his coworker betrayed him and literally tried to murder him, hyunsoo survived having fought back. once he was out of the woods, he was hit by a car. his "new" parents car, apparently. their real son seems to be in a coma for God knows how long, so they decide to help (?) hyunsoo by giving him a chance to start anew by taking the identity of their son. I'm very eager to know at what cost. + his life is not his because he's haunted by his father, or at least have been in the past. I think this is one of a few crucial statements that will become more layered and nuanced as the show progresses. hyunsoo becoming "more human" in relation to his antisocial disorder. i wonder if the show will explain the nuances of it or just continue calling him a weirdo and a monster. i don't know a lat about the antisocial disorder, but I wonder if hyunsoo has really changed because of jiwon and their daughter. I guess I'd hope he did.

"jiwon only believes what she sees. and I am someone who shows her only what she wants to see. so for someone like me.. jiwon is just so easy. that's why, you needn't worry about me."

I refuse to believe that hyunsoo completely trusts his parents. I think he knows that they will always consider him a psychopath (but still somehow have feeling for him?) and are against his happiness. disappointing but not surprising. so him having said that is so much easier for them to belive rather than that their son has really changed. i will hope until the end that he's being hunted not only by his demon of a father but also by the narrative.

the reporter woojin: "its not like you need a grand motive to kill anyone". this line caught my eye in the 1 ep and now, knowing that he was a witness (or an assistant? even) to a murder, it appears in a new light. as if woojin still trying to convince himself that he's a good man, that he did nothing wrong, that killing somebody without having a motive or a plan or by mistake or coincidentally or unknowingly will somehow relieve you of responsibility. interesting.

+ detective who isn't looking at evidence right in front of him. reporter whose pen doesn't work. a family which doesn't seem like a loving family —[you only see what you want to see]

policeman hoobae about his wisdom tooth: "why would I remove it? it's perfectly fine. even if it's causing pain, it's still a part of me." guess what? it was never about the tooth.

jiwon: there's a piece of truth that will destroy your life, in a flash. and you know this truth will be exposed one day. but if I could delay that day by one more day, I think I'd take this pills.

girl, respectfully, i think you have been doing it for a long time. since i saw the flashback of her confession scene to heeseong, i knew she knew. and I'm excited to see how many more signs of somthing she has been deliberately missing in her husband, in their marriage.

"he that will steal a pin will steal an ox!"

there's just something something about going against the norm — nonconforming in the most criminal ways — but also in just slightly immoral ways. heeseong gets to revenge on behalf of his daughter by tossing that doll in the trash. and the whole conversation after about being a "good guy" so you won't be suspected in the future. i wonder how that's going to go for you, baby boy.

[boyingray]

my reaction to episode 15 of flower of evil was literally the "i was so caught up in x that i forgot y"

in this case: i was so caught up in the ending being more sweet than bitter that i forgot how convoluted this gets. seriously how the fuck did heeseong get the gun. the man was about this close to being in handcuffs.

[beomsl]

MEL SWEETIE HAPPY BIRTHDAY AAAAAAA !!!!! 🩷🎉 I hope u have a rlly wonderful day u deserve it ilyyyy

HEESEONGISM OMG THANK YOUUUU i love you stinky jinnie you're invited to my bday party :)) you're the cutest thank you <33 😚😚😚

[ikeuz]

💌 Send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome. 💌

thank you sweet nonie <3 sending one right back to you !!

@telesvng @tuesdeads @seolboba @sensitiveandhungry @hee-pster @heeseongism @gyuitas @moonlighthoon @donghoonie-3 @flwrshee @full-sunnies @ashxxgyu @angelsvngg @reivrze @riikiblr @chaeoniz @beomsl @lvmazzy @jaehunnyy @heesbaby @yoursjaeyun @iheefleur @ioveuntold it’s more than 12 but oh well </3 I LOVE YOU ALL MWA <3

[hwxnghyynjin]

There's just under 7 hours until 2024 and idk what this post is gonna be but let me ramble for a sec

I had good and bad moments this year, which is ok because the good outweigh the bad. I've been on testosterone for over 2 years and I'm loving the change in myself, I'm so much happier now. I wouldn't say that I fully love myself but I don't hate myself, if that makes sense?

I started uni the beginning of October and I'm enjoying it, I never thought I'd actually get into uni (thanks low self confidence 🤪✌️). I've given up smoking and vaping, which I'm proud of myself for so hooray 🙌

I know I haven't exactly been active but I wanna say to my moots/peopleim following: I love you guys and I hope you have a great new year 💜 💓 💗 💖 💛 💕 💜 💓

@heeseongism @hee-pster @chanstopher @changbeens @jaylaxies @hyunpic @hyunlixwife @hwanghyunjinenthusiast @shoverse @yangjeongin @foxdaisy @hyunsung @alphadisaster @lee--felix (and to those that I haven't tagged: I love you all 💕)