#he's my son my bestie baby boy and he has so so many voices arguing in his mind all of the time

[spoondoodles]

You don't have to believe every single thought That tumbles through your head Just 'cause it sounds like you talking... - Turn Out The Lights by The Crane Wives My minotaur aasimar I played in two different oneshots (one in dnd5e, the other in pf2e) who I love very, very much. He's just a big lad, a nice boy with many, many angelic spirits in his head. Young, dumb and ready to help you out! I tried v. v. hard with this piece I spent like 10-15 hours on it altogether aaaaaaa

[khaleesiofalicante]

bestie do you really think it's funny to make me cry?

OK WHERE DO I START AUJHUJHDSDUJHFV

deep bre-INCOHERENT SCREAMING

That's it. that's all I have to say.

THEY PASSED THE CHILD PROTECTION BILL I'M GONNA BE CRYING IN A CORNER IF ANYONE NEEDS ME

All those shadowhunters who ran back to Idris I hope you starve to death there. have fun!

Anjali is so awesome OH MY GOD I LOVE HER ALREADY

Rafael is THAT kid I see...it suits him so well.

It had been two very long years stuck in this small office room. But every time Alec saw the way David giggled when Lexi called her father Jalapeno poppers or some other equally ridiculous name, Alec knew it was worth all the trouble.

THIS OMG I'M NOT OK

Alec wondered if that’s why so many leaders before him had been awful. It was easy to be a bad leader. But it took effort to be a good one.

This is so true...I'm so proud of him...

Dani...bestie THAT IMMORTALITY CRISIS WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO ME. I know it's gonna happen but I was having a very good day. why do you hurt me in such ways... (I'm pretty sure my family thinks I'm mentally unstable after the way I screamed reading)

“Anjali,” Diego sighed. “What have I told you about doors?”

“Knock them down?”

“I said knock on them!” Diego corrected, shaking his head. “Not knock them down!”

I'm in love.

HUHYUHKSDYKFVYUFVYU ALEC'S CONSUL VOICE I'M SCREAMING

SIMON BESTEST!! HIM SORTING THE STUDENTS INTO THESE GROUPS I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!! AND ANJALI BESTIE GOOD LUCK AT BEATING THE SEELIES!! (good luck with stealing the weapons)

well, Rafael do you perhaps have a little crush? (Grammarly ik I'm writing in lowercase stfu)

ok ok I know this is pretty sad but every time someone gives Magnus or Alec the "you haven't talked to him yet?" look I start laughing-

ALEC'S SO CLUELESS ABOUT MAX AND DAVID I CANT-

“So, you are just going to leave me here and go to York then?” Max demanded now; all puppy dog eyes. “Like my mom left me at the academy?”

Yeah. He took the news a little too well.

MAX PLAYING THE ADOPTED CARD I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

“Is it because you don’t like me?” Max pouted again. “Like my mom…Who left me all alone.”

“You can’t play the adopted card with me, you lil shit,” Rafael laughed. “I’m adopted too.”

I'M SO IN LOVE LEAVE ME ALONE

AWW MAX SEEING THE INSTITUTE AND IMMEDIATELY GOING "David would love this" ISTG THIS KID I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

“Weren’t you listening to a podcast on Mayan Civilization during breakfast?” Alec raised an eyebrow.

“Bapak said it’s historically accurate!” Rafe argued.

“Bapak is not that old!” Alec countered.

“Maybe he is,” Max said, analyzing the paintings on the walls. “Maybe you don’t know it.”

“Excuse me, I know how old my husband is,” Alec said indignantly.

“Then where are the receipts dad?” Max asked. “Show us the receipts!”

Where are the receipts, Alec? EXACTLY!

THANK GOD SOMEONE ELSE HAS CAUGHT ON TO MAX'S VERY OBVIOUS CRUSH

“I think he likes David,” Rafe whispered.

“Of course he does,” Alec whispered back. Why were they whispering? “David is a sweet boy.”

“No. I think he ‘likes him’ likes him,” Rafael giggled.

Alec looked at his son sharply. “But-He is..Da..They are children!”

“You’ve never heard a childhood crush?” Rafe grinned.

“No, I was too busy…studying,” Alec sniffed.

“That’s not what I heard,” Rafael bit his lip. “I heard you had a thing for boys in motorcycle jackets.”

“Okay that’s it! You are not allowed to hang out at Hotel Dumort anymore,” Alec said.

Really Alec? Studying? REALLY???

MAX AND RAFE RACING TO THE TRAINING ROOM!!!

the reference to the infernal devices...I'M GONNA KILL THE ALREADY DEAD STARKWEATHERS! I'M ABOUT TO DO SOME NECROMANCY SHIT TO BRING THOSE FUCKERS BACK JUST TO KILL THEM SLOWLY

Hugs max it's gonna be ok buddy.

In that moment, Alec remembered all the talks.

He remembered how his mother had lectured Izzy about not going out alone late at night, but she hadn’t said anything to Jace or Alec.

He remembered the way Jem spoken quietly to Mina in soft Mandarin about how people might call her names, but he hadn’t said anything to Kit.

He remembered the way Julian had told Ty to be careful about kissing his boyfriend in public, but he hadn’t said anything to Dru.

I hate this so damn much. I hate it. It sucks how there will always be people who will be targeted for being born the way they are. Whether it be skin color, sexuality, body type, or anything, people will always fucking talk and make the world unsafe for certain people just because they aren't generic male cishets. If you're a girl you're in danger. If you're a POC you're in danger, If you're neurodivergent you're in danger. If you're a member of the LGBTQ community you're in danger. If you're disabled you're in danger. If you're part of any minority you're in danger. If you dare to be different you're in danger. Fuck people. I'm a queer POC female and it's scary. I don't want to be always checking my surroundings when I'm out. I shouldn't have to feel this scared walking out of my own house but I do and it sucks. Ok, I feel like I'm derailing from the main point here.

Sorry for that just got really heated for a second there.

NO NOT THE NIGHTMARE. BABY NO

DAVID MY CHILD!! OMG, HE'S GONNA TAKE UP ARCHERY SOMEONE HOLD ME WHILE I CRY!

“This is who you are,” David said, his voice oddly soft now. Softer than usual. “And you’re beautiful.”

Alec blinked at that.

“Blue,” David said quickly. “I meant you’re blue. Uh, yes.”

BESTIE I SAW WHAT YOU SAID THERE. WE ALL DID

Also, alec sitting outside max's room...IM GONNA-

“David is in there,” Alec whispered. “I just wanted to…check…if everything was okay.”

“Alexander, are you spying on our child?” Magnus demanded. “Without me???”

“What? No! I-”

“Move over!” Magnus sank down next to him. “What are they saying? Are they kissing?”

“WHAT? They are not kissing!” Alec said in alarm. “Wait. Are they???”

He couldn’t hear anything now. Alec panicked.

“I haven’t talk to the kids about kissing yet,” Magnus pointed out. “We can’t talk to Max without talking to Rafael first.”

“Wait. Is Rafael kissing people???”

“Rafael is not kissing people,” Rafael replied as he walked past them to the kitchen. “Also, you guys are shit at whispering.”

Alec rolled his eyes at him and turned to Magnus. “It’s stressful enough that we need to talk about racism in the shadow world. Now we need to talk about kissing??”

“And other stuff,” Magnus chuckled.

Alec groaned into Magnus’ shoulder. “By the angel. Fine. We’ll just tell them there is no kissing. Until they are 30.”

“Hypocrite,” Rafael coughed into his hand as he walked back to the table with a bag of chips.

THIS WHOLE SCENE OH MY GOD.

And srsly alec? 30? really? whips out the extract "kissed" from cassie's website According to my files here-

“And David?”

“Yes, sir?”

“The bedroom door stays open from now on.”

David blinked, his cheeks pink. “I…What?”

“Door stays open,” Alec said, lowering his voice, just a register. “Is that understood?”

AYY ALEC DAD MODE YUCDUHDFHFUHJIUHC THIS IS SO AMAZING IM GONNA SCREAM

Alec advising David with the bow is so close to my heart...IDK WHY IT JUST IS

That conversation...PEOPLE FUCKING SUCK I HOPE HUMANS GO EXTINCT BECAUSE I SURE AM READY TO DIE SO LET'S TAKE THE EARTH DOWN-

“Why don’t shadowhunters have acne?”

"What?" Alec blinked.

“Their skin is like so freaking perfect and smooth and they can just freaking go through puberty without a one freaking pimple and don’t even get me started on the freaking dimples and then-”

Magnus started laughing. Alec felt a little confused.

EXACTLY MY THOUGHTS !!!!! THAT DAMN ANGEL BLOOD

That part about how we normalize these little things which are actually hurtful...I didn't realize that. I guess we really do, huh? This just made me want to be more careful with others and if I feel others do this with me, to stop them and correct them.

I loved this chapter so much. You're such a great writer.

I wanted to share something of my own now!! I FINALLY GOT MY COPY FOR RWARB!!!! I told my parents it was a thriller about how the first son and the prince forge a friendship and discover secrets about the government and the monarchy-

The place I bought it from sent me a very cute bookmark. It's a pride bookmark and it's just my first ever pride merch and I'm close to tears. Let's just say my family isn't the most accepting so this bookmark's really precious to me

Sorry, the quality isn't the best. I was in a hurry. It's almost 4 am now I'm gonna try and sleep (I'm gonna reorganize my bookshelf). See you on Tuesday!!

Thank you so much. I love reading your comments. They are so honest and full of life. You are going to LOVE rwrb. It's such a good book and it's so romantic and raw and perfect. Lmao about your parents. What they don't know can't hurt them ;) And I loooooooooove your bookmark. Be gay. Do crime.

PS -

"It sucks how there will always be people who will be targeted for being born the way they are. Whether it be skin color, sexuality, body type, or anything, people will always fucking talk and make the world unsafe for certain people just because they aren't generic male cishets. If you're a girl you're in danger. If you're a POC you're in danger, If you're neurodivergent you're in danger. If you're a member of the LGBTQ community you're in danger. If you're disabled you're in danger. If you're part of any minority you're in danger. If you dare to be different you're in danger. Fuck people. I'm a queer POC female and it's scary. I don't want to be always checking my surroundings when I'm out. I shouldn't have to feel this scared walking out of my own house but I do and it sucks. Ok, I feel like I'm derailing from the main point here."

THIS IS THE MAIN POINT. YOU GOT IT. SO CONGRATS <3

[changes-shorts]

Thanksgiving....

Chris: You think being out in zero below weather in the middle of the night is what I would consider taking it easy? Rihanna: (His voice echoing in the room sent a shock through her body and instantly her voice got caught in her throat) I’m almost finish… Chris: (Walking through the rehearsal room) Excuse me? I couldn’t hear you… Rihanna: (Stuttering) I’m about finished… Chris: How many hours you been saying that? Rihanna: You just got back and you starting already… Chris: (Appearing directly in Rihanna’s eye sight) Just got back? You sure? Rihanna: Huh? Chris: If you can huh you can hear…. I’ve been back long enough to feed and bathe my son…. Put him to sleep while patiently waiting for my wife…. Rihanna: (Shaking her head) Damn! I lost track of time… Chris: That ain’t all you’ve lost… Rihanna: Excuse me????? Chris: You’ve obviously lost your damn mind… Telling people not to tell me where you at…. Rihanna: (Rolling her eyes) Chris: Sit your Ass down and let me hear it since you’ve been here all fucking day… Rihanna: Who you taking to? Chris: (Looking around the room) Can someone bring her a stool, please! Rihanna: (Squinting her eyes) Again, who you talking to? Chris: (Pointing) You! Rihanna: Whatever! I’m not sitting tomorrow while on the float… Chris: Yes you are! Rihanna: I am…..Not! Chris: How many times you gone try to rub your lower back on the sly? Rihanna: Rolling her eyes harder than before…. Chris: Exactly! Rihanna: You get on my nerves! Chris: (Standing back watching them run through the song again) Can ya’ll slow it down.. My babygirl is getting bigger Robz lungs can’t expand like they used to… (Looking directly at his wife) You need to slow it down and take more breaths… Rihanna: (Throwing her hands up) You mind as well change the whole fucking production.. Since you know so much… Chris: I don’t have time for that…. Rihanna: Well, shut up then… Chris: Nope, I’m here now… So like I said, Slow it down Robyn…. Rihanna: (Slamming her mic in the stand) Chris, just change the whole damn thing… Phuck the fact that I’ve been here all damn day… You do it! Chris: Look! I’m not changing everything… I don’t have time to do that because I’m not gone be here so just do me the one favor and slow it down and let me hear it again…. Rihanna: Excuse me? Come again… What you say?? Chris: Slow it down and let me hear it again… Rihanna: No! Not that part.. Chris: I’m not gonna be here tomorrow?? Rihanna: Where you gone be? Chris: We can talk about it later… Rihanna: (Her tone in a small shout) NO! We can talk about it now! Chris: (Sarcastically) Okay, I guess rehearsal is over…. Rihanna: (Her voice getting soft and apologetic) Sorry everyone seems like that makes it a night….. Thanks for everything… See you all in the morning…

After fighting back and forth about Rihanna’s jacket not being heavy enough and switching with someone on her team then finding her a hat and scarf. They finally got into the waiting truck with the heat blazing and rode back to the condo in silence… Rihanna upset and trying to hold on to her anger but the heaviness of sleep was weighing down on her and she nodded off on the short ride…. Once they got outside the building, Chris lightly shook her awake and she seemed more upset than before… Chris knew she would be and there isn’t anything exciting about a restless cranky Rihanna and if he could have carried her upstairs without waking her he surly would have…

Rihanna: Where you gone be that’s more important than supporting me on Thanksgiving non the less…. Chris: Weren’t you just sleep….Can we just wash up and go to bed?? You’re obviously exhausted… Rihanna: Where you gone be, Chris? Chris: You wasn’t worried about where I was going to be when you wasn’t here when I got back! Rihanna: So this some kind of petty pay back? Chris: Not at all… I’m shooting a video with French… Rihanna: (Slowly repeating him) Shooting a video with French…. On my first Thanksgiving parade performance, huh…. Chris: Yeah…. Now can we go to bed? Rihanna: When were you gone tell me? Chris: I just told you… Rihanna: After the fact… Chris: After what fact? I just told you, Rihanna…. Rihanna: (Blowing out hot air) RIHANNA? Hmmmm… So you working on Thanksgiving? Chris: Yes, The same way you are… Rihanna: It'a not the same and you know it! Chris: Robyn… We not fittin to argue about this… I’m doing a favor for a friend…. Rihanna: Oh now it’s Robyn…A favor for a friend, Christopher???? Without any mention to your wife???? Chris: (Sitting on the bed) Head down…. Rihanna: So you get to just tell me shit, but I gotta run my shit by you??? Chris: Here we go wit this shit…. Do you run shit by me? Rihanna: Fuck you Chris… Chris: Anytime… Any place… Rihanna: How long is this video shoot suppose to run? Chris: You know how it go…. Rihanna: No Chris! I want to know how long my husband is going to be gone working on a Holiday! Chris: Robz, if I tell you a time and I’m not done by then there will be Hell to pay… So I’m not setting myself up for that… Rihanna: So, I won’t have my husband for Thanksgiving or Ro… Thanks! I’m sure to be in the holiday spirit… Chris: Baby, don’t be like that… You supposed to be focused on being thankful! Doing the parade is a great opportunity… Rihanna: Don’t tell me about great opportunities… Don’t say Shit else to me! Chris: Guess, I should go check on my son… You sounded good at rehearsal… Just make those changes and Stop moving so much… Rihanna: In true Chris Brown fashion… You try to tell me what to do then leave… Chris: Should I stay? Rihanna: You do whatever you want… Chris: I wanted to come home and Fuck my wife back to sleep! Rihanna: No such luck there… Chris: That’s what I thought..

Melissa: Good Morning Sunshine! Rihanna: What’s good about it? Melissa: It’s Thanksgiving! And I feel great this morning.. Rihanna: I don’t celebrate… I’m not American…. And it’s ass crack early and my daughter is balled up sitting on my bladder… But I’m glad you’re feeling better… Melissa: You sure sound convincing….. Rihanna: I am happy for you… Melissa: Okay, well you’re married to an American so you celebrate by default… And maybe my niece is upset because you in here hot as fish grease upsetting her… Rihanna: Her father is to blame! Melissa: What my brother do, now? Rihanna: Your brother in law is an Asshole! Melissa: Ooooh my niece is going to look just like that Asshole of a brother in law… Rihanna: No she is not! Melissa: The way he gets under your skin… Sorry sis.. You lost that bet… Rihanna: Mel, you not making me feel any better… Melissa: Okay, what happened? Rihanna: He decided to tell me last night at rehearsal that he doing a video shoot today. Then tried to sneak his Ass outta here this morning.. Melissa: He probably didn’t want to wake you… Rihanna: I was already woke…. Don’t try to take up for him, Mel… Melissa: I’m not….. Rihanna: Let’s just get this day started… Melissa: Chef here…. That should make you happy… Rihanna: This early? Melissa: Yup she made us breakfast so get up and get ready!

Rihanna: I been fucking up all morning… Why am I so nervous? Melissa: Probably cause your man not here… Rihanna: Don’t bring him up…. He the one who changed my damn production now I can’t get it right… Melissa: I like it…. Sounds good to me… Rihanna: You would say that…. And this damn dress….. I probably been fitted for this dress a hundred times and it’s still tight… Noella: Maybe, because my little cousin keeps growing… Rihanna: (Getting excited) Come here Maj… You look soo pretty.. Majesty: Thank You… Rihanna: You excited to get on the float? Majesty: (crossing her arms) No! Rihanna: (Stepping back and looking at her niece) What’s wrong? Majesty: I want Royalty on the float… … Rihanna: I know… I do too…. She’ll probably be watching… Majesty: No! Rihanna: I know you want your bestie…. But J.R. is here and you can play with him on the float… Majesty: (Folding her arms tighter) No! J.R. a baby…. Rihanna: And you’re aunties big girl so I need your help… Majesty: Listening intently…

The parade was not what Rihanna had expected, it was uncomfortable to say the least and she thought her bladder would explode. She was reminded that she was an Island gal and was not here for the cold weather at all… But Majesty seemed to have had a great time. She definitely loved all the attention from the crowd and enjoyed waving at the people and dancing around the float with J. R. running behind her in-between trying to knock the microphone stand down then when his mommy tried to fix it he commenced to try to take it from her… When it was time for Rihanna to perform he had to be carried away by Momma J throwing a tantrum when the float stopped and they had to get off for Rihanna to go to the stage… Returning back from the parade the condo was packed with relatives. Everyone had came to celebrate Thanksgiving and distract Rihanna from them not having Ro for this holiday just as Chris had asked except when he made the request he didn’t intend on not being there himself so what started off as a great idea wasn’t really panning out to be so great in Rihanna’s book… She had a long miserable morning of being cold and uncomfortable and feeling like a pig in a blanket although she was repeatedly complimented on how beautiful she looked and how well she was carrying. None of it registered especially since all she wanted was the one person she hadn’t seen all day….

Rihanna: (Entering the living room after changing her clothes) We can start… We’re not waiting for Chris… Chef, has prepared a lovely meal, Daddy can you come bless the food? Ronald: Sure…. but it’s still early. Chef said there are Hors de’ Oeuvre… We could eat that and wait a little longer for Chris… Rihanna: Daddy! Ronald: Okay Okay my child…. Whatever you want… Mommy: We can bless the table and eat the appetizers for starters and wait a little bit for dinner to see if the boi show up… Rihanna: Mommy! Mommy: Yes, that is who I am… Rihanna: Fine…. Mommy: And loose the attitude… Today is a day to give thanks… Leandra: We should play games while we nibble…. Momma J: Yes, ya’ll do that and us in the older crew will be in the other room with the kids… Leandra: Soooo we’re playing Taboo…. Rihanna: Why you get to pick? Leandra: Because Team Prego which consist of you, Mel, Jenn, and the babydaddys’ can’t make a decision with your pregnant asses! Rihanna: I don’t want to be on their team! I don’t have a babydaddy… Noella: I’ll be your babydaddy…. but you have to listen to me…. You not gone do me the way you do Chris… Rihanna: Shut up Ella…

After playing games for over a hour and Team Prego in the losers seat…..

Noella: I quit! Melissa: Why??? We're having fun! Noella: Every answer isn’t a food, Team Prego! Jenn: I’d like to point out that I’m not yelling out foods! Noella: Or a pregnancy symptom, Jenn! I need a new team…. Chris: (Entering the room) Who’s team am I on? Rihanna: Not mine! Noella: There’s your babydaddy! Team Prego is complete! I’m with Lele team now! Rihanna: Trader! Melissa: She wasn’t any good anyway! Noella: I was the best brain on the team! Jenn: In your dreams! We would have done better with Majesty! Chris: (Sitting next to Rihanna) Move your arm so I can lay across your lap.. Rihanna: No! You just got here and you already being annoying.. Chris: You know you missed me! Rihanna: No I didn’t! Mommy: (Entering the room) Come get your children and those without wash your hands and come so we can bless dinner and give thanks now that all the family is here!