#he's from a wip thats now abandoned so i don't really have any current writing for him either

[adelidae]

Talk about your favored OC [im on desktop and dont know if/how to add emojis please imagine an eyes emoji here] ?

WAUGH thank u for the ask omg. i can't promise coherence but i will do my best 💖

ESSENTIALLY. his name is darius he's 24, 5'5. three older brothers and a wealthy mother who is more interested in her public image than her children.

he's a very career-oriented guy. personal excellence and perfection comes before anything else in his life (especially interpersonal relationships). he calls himself a pragmatist but really he just self-isolates even to the point of his own detriment.

he's not really easy to be around, his personality comes across as quite blunt or even mean at times (his buffer for pushing people away) and he's spent a lot of his life isolated as a result of it. despite having a large family they don't come together often and all live apart.

his character in general is kind of a character study in how self-repression and a fixation on doing/being the "best" kind of prevents you from living a fulfilling life, he was originally based on characters i idolised when i was younger and i think he was pretty instrumental in me going Ohhh i don't want to idolise those kinds of people anymore

it can be hard to talk about him because i'm aware that like. If he was real he wouldn't be a good person or particularly nice to be around (he doesn't really care about other people because of the way he was raised, think poisoned by capitalism) but something about the way he behaves and how he willingly perpetuates the cycles of like. Tragedy for lack of a better word in his own life and towards other people compels me. like this is a man who could choose at any point to act in kindness but chooses not to because of some kind of sunk cost fallacy.

there's genuinely so much i could say about him i could ramble on for HOURS (and have in the past!!) but for the sake of keeping this readable i hope this gives a sort of introduction ^_^