#he’s just a Guy yk? not into all the romantic stuff like calling me pet names or pda

[tahdashi]

:0!!!!

[mimez-meme]

Tenya iida headcanons‼️🥳

Owns all social media that his class has to monitor them and make sure their posting ‘appropriate’ stuff or nothing mean.

Linked to the last hc, has twitter. He has a fan acc of his brother to show his support and he will correct anyone who gets any info wrong about tensei

Likes comics and wants to make one of his own one day and he has written his own little book, but it isn’t published or anything it’s just on his computer. (The book can be about anything you guys think he would write about.)

He makes sure to get to class early to leave little compliments or motivation quotes on the board for the students to see when they arrive

Struggles to tell the difference between platonic and romantic feelings, once thought he had a crush on ochako but he didn’t (or did, depends if you ship them)

Straight ally but demiromantic. Makes sure to show his support the best he can.

Use to have imaginary friends when younger, people lowkey thought he was crazy. He still sometimes thinks about them, but knows their fake obv.

Has a friend from childhood who moved away, they still have contact with eachother and iida loves to send letters to them. He sometimes complains to them about his class.. not in a bad way tho ofc.

Has a pet lizard named lizzy

tried to learn French for aoyama and when he tried to speak French with him he accidentally said something inappropriate and he still can’t stop thinking about it.

Doesn’t really understand emojis, he mostly just uses ‘<3’ ‘:)’ ect. Once when delivering sad news to someone by text he used ‘😹’ thinking it was crying. He learnt it wasn’t and apologised to that same person whenever he remembers about it

Pulls bitches. But he doesn’t necessary want to be in a relationship along with being a hero. However he does have a mini crush on momo but is in denial (I’m an iidamomo shipper leave me alone😓✊🏻)

Photogenic. he doesn’t even know he is, but he looks good without even trying🙏

Vegetarian

Daily phone time is atleast 30mins-an hour

Has a random obsession with jelly fishes. He knows so many facts about them. He just finds them interesting and pretty. Sometimes he would be like to his friends “this jelly fish reminds me of you!” Via message normally

Loves pugs. He owns one.✊🏻

Use to get called sonic a lot as a kid and still now but he didn’t know who sonic was, denki forced iida to watch a sonic movie and now he lowkey likes them, he watches sonic in his free time.. no one knows.

Sees special and amazing traits in all his classmates. He observes them the best he can so he can help them. Always knows how to compliment them and comfort them.

As a kid he found his quirk to be quite boring and nothing special but his brother helped him to see the amazing part of his quirk.

Mild-dyslexia, mild- ocd

Doesn’t really have a type, mostly goes for personality not looks.

Once didn’t do up his top button to be ‘ rebellious’ but no one noticed😕

Not the best at reading the room unless it’s really obvious

HATES wasps, bees or any ‘loud’ insect. He doesn’t know why but he does.

Fear of being abandoned and small spaces

Didn’t learn how to drive a car until he was 25

Has a projector in his dorm

Always feels ashamed of having problems. People have it worse. Are they even considered problems? It’s hard for him to open up, he normally hates to, especially if he knows the person he’s opening up to or is offering to talk has it worse.

Struggles to sleep due to his quirk, and he just struggles. He sometimes has nightmares about loosing his brother, friends and the first time he, izuku, todoroki, momo, Kiri met AFO

Views todoroki as a brother. (If that make sense..)

Grew up watching mr bean (just hear me out on him being a mr bean kid and even having me beans teddy irl🙏)

Doesn’t like going to graveyards or any religious place like a church beacuse he gets an off putting feeling, he feels like he’s being disrespectful yk? And he doesn’t like thinking about death. (He respects religions don’t get him wrong! This headcanon is lowkey based on me except I like going to graveyards)

Brings hand sanitiser with him no matter what

Present mic and Shouta use to look after iida sometimes when he was younger since in my au tensei and then are friends. Iida has a very vivid memory of Shouta and zashi kissing infront of him and a vivid memory of hizashi offering him beer😭

Listens to motivation music, I did have a song in mind but I forgot 😭🙏 and he listens romance music.. also once went to jirou for help on music.

Watched the titanic and cried.

Loves sunsets, always goes out and sees them, takes photos, invites people to just look at the sky with him. He finds it relaxing and a way to appreciate nature

Likes tea and biscuits, hot chocolate but doesn’t like coffee and not a massive fizzy drink fan, only really likes orange fanta

Basically knows all the drama. People usually come to him to just complain or talk about drama and he always overhears stuff without meaning to

Has all the wimpy kids books but no one knows

Fav animals are jelly fishes and seals.. he like sea animals if you couldn’t tell.

Has the NASTIEST side eye

MASSIVE gentlemen, he treats all girls/women with respect.

Fantastic listener however he can be distracted like if someone was doing something bad behind you or in his view he will pay attention to that person until he can’t hold it in anymore and tells them off as you were talking he but then apologises.

Not fully Japanese he’s 25% Swedish, 10% Greek

Is mei’s personal ‘test doll’ (nothing romantic 😭)

Everyone always asks him for piggy back rides and he doesn’t understand why. He’s only given piggy back rides to children, uraraka and people who need it like injured people. He figured it was because he can run fast and he wants people to experience it.

Has central heterochromia

Gets cold easily and always overdresses for winter

Likes decision games but most of the time picks the wrong decisions..and he like murder mystery games, he’s good but not the best

(Sorry if any spelling mistakes)

[silly-lil-scribbles]

Introduction post!!

FREEEEEEE YEEHAW

status: drawing the sillies again (peterick)

lyrics that fit the current vibe: the only thing i havent done yet is die, and its me and my plus one in the after life

current chance of a response if you dm me*: 0%

* does not apply to mousie cuz its my emotional support friend

- My name is Finn! You can also call me scribbles, soup, or really any dumb nickname will do. it/he <3

woah look at that.. its me.. on another website!! slight flash warning for spacehey btw ^^

if you havent read this in a while, i would suggest reading again cuz i update it a lot <3

- faggy but in the most aroace way possible

- as far as gender, boy-ish

- I MADE A JAIL ACCOUNT SO IF IM JAILED I MIGHT BE OVER THERE ‼️ @soup-has-been-imprisoned-noooooo

- I POST ABOUT BUGS A LOT! if you dont wanna see that …. sorry? i always tag if op didnt but just proceed with caution yk

- i post about the magnus archives/protocol and my chem frequently, though I also just reblog a ton of random shit. may be nsfw. Also I forget to tag for spoilers a lot so just know that there are magpod spoilers in general on my blog.

- music artists I like: mcr, arma angelus, fob, lemon demon, will wood, dazey and the scouts, cavetown, mother mother, nova twins, that handsome devil, noahfinnce, qbomb, gum disease, sparkbird, mischief brew, poppy, be your own pet, pierce the veil, specimen, faetooth, the mechs, rabbitology, scene queen, she/her/hers, femtanyl, leathermouth, baby queen, pansy division, the spook school, the crane wives, the used, and slutever

overall i really enjoy a lot of punk and emo and dark cabaret

- Shows/Podcasts/Other Media i enjoy! DANGER DAYSS, Malevolent, The Magnus Archives, Stranger Things, Welcome to Nightvale (though I haven’t finished it yet), the Osemanverse, Nimona, Adventure Time, Gravity Falls, ATLA, LOK, It, Hilda, Camp Here and There, Radio Rental, warrior cats, the silt verses, dead end: paranormal park, the saw franchise, the thankskilling franchise, invader zim (just now getting into it im only on s1 rn), arcane, happy tree friends, also im a big fan of horror movies so id love suggestions

- my blog is super messy so all of my art is under the tag #scribbles draws a thing and my original text posts (not the short personal ones typically, just the one i actually want people to see) are under #scribbles says shit.

- my body hates me very much (in other words im physically disabled)

- surprise, my brain also hates me very much! And yes this is also undiagnosed!

- tone tags are appreciated <3

- i post a lot! if you left an anon ask please check my #scribbles asks tag if you cant find it, sorry ‘bout that

boundaries n stuff:

- not ok with sexual or romantic comments

- platonic flirting is ok if we’re moots

- feelings on sex fluctuate a lot but im usually pretty indifferent, same for romance but usually averse

continued:

- i have a tmagp fic i just starting writing! If you wanna know more, posts related to that are under #electric desires have unraveled all my wires :(

- I have 4 cats and a dog, also a gecko

- i have a queerplatonic partner!! hes awesome and swaggy and writes so much. so. much writing. wow. not saying wow in a bad way im just genuinely impressed. chou if ur reading this i love you <3

- SURPRISE i have another queerplatonic partner too!!!! its super fun and cool and pathetic /vpos. my favorite excitable soggy cardboard box ilysm <3 (if ur a regular around here im sure ur familiar lol)

- i love them both so much holy shit guys aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

- coyotekin therian !!

- i love bugs!!!!!!!!!!! please show me bugs!!!!!!!!!!!!

- My favorite colors are hot pink, cyan, neon green, and red

- I love interacting with mutuals and getting asks! plspls send me random shit in asks im begging

- I’m creating a cartoon called Catlantis (still in progress)

- I have a love hate relationship with writing but i do it anyways so oh well

- Frogs.

other tags i use a lot are:

#soup poorly draws gay people out of obligation; my series of promised dyhard drawings.

#soup gets pathetic about friendship; me when im a sappy bitch about my friends or partners

#objectives list; save file for when i say im gonna do something so i dont forget about it

#catlantis save; hoarding info for catlantis

#insomnia induced rambles; i cant sleep and im making it your problem

#our lady of sorrows; not the song, my mcr inspired goddess i made up for my dnd character to worship

#scribbles asks; asks

#info save; good to know

#scribbles liveblogging tmagp; exactly what it sounds like

#art save; resources for doing art

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[angelplummie]

Okay so like for starterssssss, I love getting represented as a chubby gal 🥺🥺 so I love you for writing that last Oikawa imagineeeee 😩😩😩

Soooo, I was wondering if I could request a plus size reader that really likes Kuroo, (and he’s like a super cliché bad boy🤰🏽) but he’s too embarrassed to be seen with Y/n. So she starts to hit on his friend or try to make him jealous. (I want you to add your own little idea here! But likeee, make her a baddie 😘😘)

Thanks baby 😚

HE’S A SCUMBAG DON’T YOU KNOW

KUROO X CHUBBY F!READER

Angsty?? kinda, a pinch of suggestive stuff

masterlist

post girlboss was referring to

a/n:i decided to go for emo / anger issues / definitely has punched a hole in his wall kuroo, just cuz i love writing losers, and i love seeing grown men cry. reader is like 20/21 just like college age yk, kuroo is 23 as stated in fic. p.s where my artic monkey hoes at

warnings: swearing, mentions of sex n specific sexual acts, suggestive stuff, uhhh bad boy but he’s not a (bad boy) he’s just a (bad) (boy) he’s just no good, like no fr never date guys like this, he may SEEM COOL and give you the dick but girl you will be so embarrassed once u realised u gave up the kitty for a man that genuinely believes tame impala and mac demarco are unheard of and calls himself an empath even though he’s mean to his mum every time she comes over to help with the laundry and has manipulated every girl he’s ever been in the vicinity of but i digress! on with the story!

“Kuroo-!” you yelped in surprised, bed bouncing beneath you. The second he had thrown you down, he ripped off his shirt and made a noise of frustration when he couldn’t shed his skinny jeans fast enough. Brows furrowed, he began hopping furiously to yank them off.

You laughed, much to his annoyance.

“You’re gonna hurt yourself if you keep up with that. What’s the rush?”

He sighed, and carefully pulled them off his ankles. Standing up straight, he seemed to have composed himself, with that cocky smirk on his rugged face. Your eyes trailed down his lean, long body. It was all you could do not to scream, he was so gorgeous. He took a few sweeping steps to where you lay, and got right on top of you, hands either side of your head. His eyes bore into you, it made you squirm internally, not that you would ever admit it.

“Just want you so bad, kitten.”

You barked out a laugh as if your heart didn’t jolt at his stupid pet name. It was such a stupid name, but coming from him it made you melt. Again, not like you’d ever admit it.

“Ew, Tetsu don’t call me kitten, it’s cr-“

He cut you off by leaning down and kissing you, you could feel his snake bites against your bottom lip. He groaned softly, shoving his tongue down your throat. He tasted like his sour apple vape, and his hair was soft when you ran your fingers through it. You could barely contain your butterflies, eyes squeezed closed.

“Come on babe, you know you like it.”

No matter how many times you and Kuroo hung out, it always felt so fresh. Maybe it was because he was exciting, or because he was a little bit wild, you didn’t know.

He leaned down closer to you, getting on his elbows, deepening the kiss. He pulled away and smirked at your breathlessness. With a slender, ring adorned hand, he reached beneath your top and cupped your tits over your bra. He gave them a sharp squeeze and started placing chaste kisses on your neck. He was considerate like that, didn’t leave hickeys because he knew they’d be hard to cover for you. He groaned as he jiggled the fat of your boobs in his hands,

“God, you have the nicest tits, babe.”

You had been dating for nearly 3 months now, if that was what it was. To be honest, you weren’t really sure what you were. You hang out all the time at his or your place, there was rarely a time when you didn’t have an ache between your legs, one way or another. He didn’t really take you on ‘dates’ but chatting to him was fun in itself, you didn’t need to go out to do that. He didn’t necessarily say romantic stuff either... but he didn’t not say romantic stuff either? He beat up your ex at a party one time! That had to mean something right? He exactly wouldn’t tell you how he felt but he showed you, kissing your cheek or tilting your chin up to look at him or kissing your neck or feeling you up. But that usually led to sex, so you couldn’t be certain. It wasn’t like you only screwed though, you watched your favourite movies together... although the last couple times he just started fingering you. You showed him your playlists? No no, he showed you his playlists, his sex playlists. There seemed to be a common theme here. But... there were times, afterwards, when he would pull in you so tight, tell you how good you were for him, how well you did, how pretty you looked. Any doubts you had were gone after a few hushed words on his tobacco reeking rickety old bed. You’d never really had a relationship like this before, but you assumed it was just because Kuroo was so chill. You were probably boyfriend and girlfriend, he just didn’t feel the need to announce it, he was laidback like that. So what if you guys had a lot of sex? Weren’t you a new couple? Wasn’t this just the honeymoon stage were you can’t get your hands off each other? You didn’t want to seem high maintenance and nag, so you let it be. He was sweet enough to you, right now everything was good.

Until it wasn’t.

A clatter sounded downstairs, the door slamming open against the hallway wall.

“Kuroo! Hey man, I brought some California!”, a voice called from bellow.

Kuroo broke away immediately, spit trailing from your neck to his pink lips.

“Shit, shit, shit, shit,” Kuroo mumbled, pushing off the bed and scrambling the pick up his discarded clothes and shove them back on.

You sat up, disgruntled, rearranging your bra strap from were he’d kneaded at it.

“What’s wrong? Who is that?”

He shot you a glance before continuing to yank back on his jeans.

“Uh, so change of plan, I can’t do tonight. I need you to go home. Discreetly.”

What?

“What? Tetsu, I’m already here,” you scoffed.

What was going on?

Why was he acting like this?

You had never seen him so... frantic.

“I know babe, and I’m really sorry about that, but my friends are here early than I said.”

“So? Can’t I meet your friends?”

He didn’t reply for a moment, just let out an exasperated breath, zipping up his fly.

“Well, yeah you can meet them, just not with me. I don’t want them knowing that I-“

He cut himself off, but you had heard enough to understand.

There was a beat of silence, only disturbed by Kuroo’s friends calling for him.

Your mouth hung open, and you scoffed in shock.

You shouldn’t be surprised really. It’s so obvious now that you think about it. So that’s what this was. That explains everything. He didn’t really like you, he was just using you. That’s why he didn’t take you anywhere, or why he didn’t show you he cared. It was because he didn’t. He wasn’t “afraid of getting close to people” or “emotionally distant”, he was just upfront about not giving two shits about you aside from your vagina. I guess he didn’t want his friends to know he was furiously screwing a fat girl any chance he got. He was embarrassed of you. You were something to be ashamed of. Your stomach jerked as you got to your feet. You were pissed, but that didn’t mean it didn’t really hurt. You had liked him. A lot.

“What the fuck is that supposed to mean?”

You could see the panic in his eyes, it was quite funny actually. Of course you new what it meant, but it still made you feel a little better to watch his eyes widen like that, to hold a shred of power over him.

“I mean- well I didn’t- come on babe you know I didn’t mean it like that-“ he laughed nervously, not noticing the footsteps in the landing. You rolled your eyes. You may have been naive, but you certainly weren’t going to fall for his shit again. Whatever he spouted.

“Don’t give me that bullshit. Just say it, your embarrassed of me.”

“Y/N, please, don’t you think-“

Two men burst through the door, one with spiked grey hair and one with fluffy black hair.

“Kuroo! What the hell are you doing up here we’ve been-“ the grey haired one, stopped when his eyes went from a shirtless Kuroo to you.

Your eyes flickered to Kuroo, he looked mortified.

“Ah. I see. Well, Akaashi, we better give these two some time, we can just-“

“Oh no, I was just leaving,” you grabbed your jacket from on top of his chest of drawers and turned back to the two men, putting on a big smile, adrenaline and fury spurring you on.

“I’m Y/N, by the way.”

Your eyes shot to Kuroo, who looking like get was about to shit himself.

“You probably haven’t heard of me, me and Kuroo have actually been having sex for three months. He kept it a secret because he’s embarrassed of me. We should hang out soon though!”

“Y/N-!” Kuroo yelled, exasperation clear in his tone, but you were already descending the stairs.

He came into the hall, hands rubbing his temples.

“Y/N just come talk for a second, I can-“

But he was cut off by the door slamming.

You got in your car parked outside and sped away.

The whir of the engine and the monotony of the roads cleared your mind a bit, a mist of anger still remaining.

You can’t believe you let yourself be tricked. you were a fully grown woman, but you had been reeled in hook, line and sinker. Not only had you been reeled in, you have been reeled in by a man that still had tik tok LED lights in his room and a fucking monster can collection at the age of 24 fucking years old. The more you thought about him, the more you realised how much of an emo loser he was. Of course you were still hurting, but it was more of the angry hurt you feel when it turns out your crush is homophobic or something (been there done that, don’t ask). He was a waste of oxygen, you had decided by the time you made it back to your apartment. A waste of perfectly good space that could most definitely not get the kitty anymore. You got inside your house, pulled on some comfies and got on facetime with your friends.You told them all about what happened, and they passionately bitched about him with you, confirming your suspicion that they never liked him in the first place. They also told you to forget about his existence, he wasn’t worth a slither of your brain power, he was dirt compared to you. All in all, you felt marginally better, saying goodbye to your friends while they still giggled about how stupid Kuroo’s hair was.

This was just a speed bump, you thought as you tucked yourself into bed, you would get over this.

Fast.

“Who’s Bokuto been talking to all night?” Yamamoto leaned over to ask Lev, shouting over the blaring music.

It was a week after you had thrown Kuroo to the curb, and he was out with a couple of volleyball friends, some from Nekoma, but there was also Bokuto with them.

“I’m not sure. I think it’s Y/N something? She’s in class. She’s pretty chill.”

Kuroo’s ears perked up, and he turned around to face his friends up against the bar.

“Bokuto’s talking to who?” he said through gritted teeth.

“Y/N. She goes to my-“

“I know who Y/N is,” kuroo snapped, taking a swig of the beer in his hand and scanning the dance floor for either one of you. He found bokuto first, shoulder against the wall, holding a drink as he leant down to have you whisper something in his ear. That’s when Kuroo paid attention to you. You looked... you looked gorgeous. He felt jealousy creep up inside him. How many times had you been out looking like that since you broke things off? How many guys had you slept with since? How dare Bokuto chat you up when he knew you two had been a thing? Wasn’t he meant to be Kuroo’s friend? As Kuroo wound himself up, you and bokuto continued your extremely pleasant conversation.

“I just wanna say, sorry about Kuroo. He’s a real bonehead, but we’ve been friends since high school so I can’t ditch him.”

You snorted into your cocktail.

“What?”

“Bonehead?”

He frowned and straightened up indignantly.

“Yeah, and? What’s wrong with bonehead?”

“No no, nothing, it’s just very Legally Blonde.”

He beamed down at you.

“I love Legally Blonde!”

“You do? Me too!”

This big beefy man was very cute, you had been talking for nearly three hours now, but you never ran out of things to say. And, aside from the obligatory introduction compliments, he had not made any move to try and get you into a wendy’s bathroom as quick as possible, which you couldn’t say of yours and kuroo’s first meeting.

He had dreamy eyes, you noted as he smiled for the nth time that night.

“Whose your favourite-?”

“What the fuck are you doing man?”

You glanced scathingly over to the familiar face of your old fling.

“What?” Bokuto asked back, clearly done with his friends bad boy shtick.

“Why are you talking to her when... when you know?”

“What’s there to know? I’m talking to her because I want to, and she wants to.”

He looked over to you for approval.

“Right?”

You nodded, a little nervous. You hated Kuroo’s guts, but you knew how weirdly possessive he was, you didn’t wanna cause trouble for Bokuto.

“See? Now I don’t think she wants to see you, right?”

He looked at you again. You nodded again.

“Ok? You guys are over, now are we done?”

Kuroo huffed. His eyes flitted from Bokuto to you, remembering you were there most likely, and he scowled.

“No, we aren’t done, what are you trying to pull anyway? Trying to piss me off by talking to someone I know? Are you really that petty? Well, your little plan is working, so just-just stop, ok?”

You felt like screaming. You had just come out here to have a nice time, not listen to Kuroo’s narcissistic whining.

“Can you just fuck off? Was I not clear enough or something? You’re dead to me, Kuroo. I’m just trying to have a nice night.”

Kuroo’s mouth gaped open. He had never been spoken to like that, never. He clenched his fists at his sides and his glare intensified.

“You’re lucky I gave you the time of day, fat ugly slut.”

He grabbed Bokuto’s shoulder roughly, turning him to face him completely.

“Hey man, thanks for clearing up my sloppy seconds, really good of you. Good to know I’ve got great friends like you.”

Those were the last things out of Kuroo’s mouth before bokuto landed a punch on his cheek, knocking him to the ground.

“You’re a fucking asshole man,” Bokuto grunted.

He stepped over where Kuroo lay, and held out a hand for you to step over too. You took it quietly and trailed along behind him to the door, fingers still locked. His hands were warm, and big. Kuroo’s face must hurt right now. The thought made you smile. He held the door open for you before sighing, resting his back against the wall. You stood in front of him, twiddling with your fingers.

“I am so sorry about that,” You apologised, embarrassed and shaken by the scene Kuroo had made, “I shouldn’t have wound him up, and I shouldn’t have talked to you after I knew you guys were friends, I promise I didn’t mean to start anything.”

“Don’t be, if anything I’m sorry for not making him leave right away. And either way,” he gently reached for your hand again, and you let him take it,”I’m glad you talked to me. I’d like it if you talked to me even more.”

DISCLAIMER FOR KUROO STANS!!!! I DONT THINK HIS HAIR IS STUPID!!! it’s just when ur bestie is going thru a break up or anything entailing a male you shit talk everything about him to high hell, doesn’t matter if he’s the most beautiful man you’ve ever seen. also i have no ill will towards kuroo nor any of the characters i write shit bag fan fics about i just like to complain any way i hope you enjoyed! reblogs and replies always appreciated!!!

[vrisrezis]

May i have nsfw headcanons for post covid Kyle and Stan?

WOOO BOY YOU DONT KNOW HOW EXCITED I WAS FOR THIS RQ

Stan:

- ohhh boy

- total sub sorry y’all . There is no way your subbing with him .

- I just wanna say.. his nipples are sensitive . Take that as you will .

- he doesn’t have any particular kinks, though he’d be pretty open to most things. Not things he’d consider really weird though (like pet play, bdsm, stuff like that)

- he would probably love both heavy praise but also degradation

- and when I say that I mean praise like “you’re doing so good” and degradation like calling him a “slut” and other things of that nature.

- regardless of your gender, he has probably called you daddy and would be all for calling you that if it makes you comfortable but honestly he’s probably just called you it on accident while you guys were having sex

- he likes rough sex more, but he likes gentle sex every once in awhile (very rare tho)

- but you being rough with him helps him forget about … a lot of shit he has to go thru

- would probably be all for cross dressing for sex simply because he secretly enjoys wearing that stuff . Don’t tell anyone .

- his neck is very sensitive too btw ;D

- he likes oral sex, but more on the giving end since he likes making you feel good (it’s a ego boost for him)

- he whimpers and moans a lot, and while normally isn’t too loud it’s easy to make him a loud writhing mess

- he’s a begger too

- this man is completely different in bed, like all sense of dignity is gone he’s completely different and will say the raunchiest shit

Kyle:

- more of a switch, doesn’t care too much it’s mainly whatever you want but at the same time he likes some control of what’s going on but yk me I like writing sub characters

- I’d imagine Kyle liking things more gentle, he’s sweet and romantic. Likes holding your hand as you fuck him, telling you how good you are to him and etc.

- he gives soft moans and praises, relatively quiet and lets out tiny moans

- but when he’s angry it’s completely different. A whole other side of him will be revealed in the bedroom.

- like he just wants rough sex when he’s angry, and now he’s like super loud, his moans are ridiculously loud (you’re scared of getting noise complaints honestly), and he will probably yell at you from time to time to fuck him harder, “you can do better than that!”

- doesn’t degrade you exactly but he’s mocking and he’s a submissive brat loll

- but loves when you’re being rough with him? Like pull his hair, make him choke on your dick or something.

- it’s even better when he’s angry and horny in public or something because trust me he has a humiliation kink, and would totally dig shower sex too

- would be into choking but don’t be too rough with him I think it would freak him out a bit

- a lot of opportunities to explore when he’s pissed, he’s more open to new things sexually when he’s having a rough day because there’s more ways for him to let his anger out

- but when you’re being more gentle with him he likes heavy makeouts as you fuck him as he lets out a lot of I love you’s

- he’s just full of surprises

- but yeah you either get sweet Kyle or insane Kyle so take your pick I guess

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ay yo? lmao haiiiii any chance we can get some haikyuu boys and nicknames they'd call their s/o? a lil deprived of kageyama, so if possible can you pls include him?? i hope you're doing well :)

omg wait i remember seeing this in my inbox and planning on answering it but i ,,, i forgot :( im sorry :( but here it is lovely <3 

HAIKYUU BOYS AND NICKNAMES 

ANGEL ! — 

akaashi; out of all his nicknames for you, this is his favorite!! he just thinks it’s very fitting for you, because you’re nothing short of ethereal for him. loves to say it when he’s first greeting you or as he kisses you gn or!!! when he says thank you :) 

osamu; it slips sometimes with him!! not his go-to but it’s very familiar on his tongue when it comes to you, and that’s very endearing :,) just slips casually when he’s asking you a question like, “angel, do we need milk?”  

daichi; omg he usually adds to it and it ends up being some cheesy stuff like “angel-face” and it makes you all flustered because wtf man :( and he always says it while laughing teasingly too ugh :( 

suna; suna has the cheesiest nicknames for you and you cannot convince me otherwise, and you can never tell if it’s genuine or ironic but,,, it doesn’t matter. he sounds so sweet calling you “angel” so whatever :) 

aran; this man. this man. he says it cause he knows it has you weak. he says it so lovingly, so sweetly, so casually, so suave and relaxed and his voice is so smooth and deep. who wouldn’t be swooning over him??? 

aone; AONE AONE PLS AONE PLEASE. he’d just think it’s such a sweet and kind and soft nickname and he likes the way it sounds when it’s whispered and he thinks nothing is more perfect than nicknaming you angel and he says it all the time like “ok, angel,” and “see you tomorrow, angel,” and, “love you, angel,” and it’s so quiet but so sweet hwbwjsjd 

oikawa; he’s about to be in 90% of these cause he’ll be calling you anything but your name. is it because he wants to be annoying and to get on your nerves? or is it because he genuinely means it? the world will never know. you’re not even sure he himself does. 

DOLL ! — 

matsukawa; are you kidding me this is his. it’s HIS. he sounds so hot saying it and he looks so hot saying it and he’s so charming and it’s so like easy on his tongue. and he has a slight drawl to it too and he always says it with this aura of relaxation and ease it’s so hot. he just. he loves it. he loves you. you love it. the world is a better place. 

atsumu; he thinks he’s way cooler than he is when he says it. you suppose he is pretty hot when he calls you doll but you’re not gonna tell him that!!! it’s not his go-to but you can catch it slipping off his tongue every once in a while. 

kuroo; yesyesyes he loves it. only ever says it when he’s so up close and personal with you like cups your cheeks and hovers his lips against yours like, “heya, doll,” and he’s just so handsome. ugh. 

kageyama; at the start of your relationship, kageyama called you by your name and nothing else!! but then he had like this talk w someone and they asked him what he calls you and he realized like,,, am i supposed to be doing it differently??? spent so long just searching up “cute nicknames for my s/o” and then he found “doll” and was like ok. i’ll try. and he tried!! and it stuck!! plus timeskip kags calling you doll??? that’s so hot bye

oikawa; this might be the only sincere nickname he has for you cause everything else is either to provoke you or to be cringy and annoying. and i’m sure you prefer doll over sweet cheeks and pumpkin pie and cinnamon whatever like you hungry tōru?? anyways he loves loves loves calling you doll cause he thinks it’s such a ? smooth and serene nickname? and his voice always gets deeper and quiet when he says it so!!!! 

SUNSHINE ! — 

hinata; please he is all the sunshine, but he always claims that you’re the true sun in his life. idk hinata would be so lame yet so cute like that :( and he always says it with such a big grin he’s so cute pls :( 

tendō; he’s so cute he’s so cute he’s so cute !!!!! your contact name is “my sunshine” definitely definitely definitely. he is literally in love with you and wants the whole world to know it. he loves screaming it out for everyone to hear but also absolutely adores like hugging you from behind and whispering in your ear as he kisses your cheek, “hey, sunshine.” :(((((

kenma; kenma doesn’t wanna think too hard on the whole nicknames thing but he also does kind of sort of really wants to call you something special and the first thing that pops in his head is sunshine. first time he used it you were Shocked but he was acting nonchalant about it (read: freaking out on the inside) and you were like “ok guess im sunshine now.” and you are his sunshine to this day. 

BABY/BABE ! — 

atsumu; it’s easy and it’s endearing!! he personally loves being called babe but he loves hugging you close to him after a long day and just sighing, “hey, baby,” like. he loves it okay. he thinks it’s perfect cause it fits and cause it’s like kinda traditional yk!! 

bokuto; he loves calling you baby cause he just cannot fathom that you’re his like he loves to always say it!!! and he loves how casual it is too like he can just call you that?? that’s so cool?? 

iwaizumi; again with the traditional but endearing and fitting. he doesn’t have to think too hard on it, but also it still means something and is more than just your name or a shorter version of it. also he sounds so hot calling you baby or babe idk i just know it. 

hanamaki; king of “babe! babe :( babeeee! babee. babe come on! babe! baby :(” you’re 99% sure he’s just provoking you at this point. like say babe one more time. but he actually loves resorting to baby, especially when you’re upset and he wants to be as endearing and kind as he can to you. 

daichi; very traditional too tbh. honestly when you two first started dating it was all he could think of saying without feeling awkward or feeling like he was trying too hard. later on when he started to feel more comfortable and more secure he got more creative. 

nishinoya; he has been waiting for this moment his whole life. the moment he can actually call someone his baby or babe. it’s his favorite and possibly only nickname (aside calling you pretty or gorgeous or handsome) and it will always be. 

MY LOVE ! —

akaashi; definitely definitely definitely calls you “my love” like i am 100% sure of this. akaashi is just so. he’s just so romantic but it’s also so unintentional? he says it because it feels natural and it feels right like you are his love after all, aren’t you? 

sakusa; he’s not one for elaborate nicknames honestly, and he feels like “my love” is the right balance of sweet, kind, fitting, and subtle and serene. it’s not doing too much but it’s also doing more than enough yk? also people that look like they would wear a trench coat/blazer and a turtleneck beneath also look like they would use the term “my love” hence sakusa and akaashi. 

tendō; i am telling you guys he is a simp. the loveliest simp ever. he says it so sweetly too like it genuinely makes your tummy twist and heart backflip when you hear him say it cause you can hear how genuine he is in his words oh my god. 

kita; he just !!! he is just husband material okay!!! he is so endearing and he says it in the softest most genuine voice ever and it’s literally his go to because yes you are his love you’re his entire world!!! he loves you!! he wants you to know it every time he calls out to you!! 

BUNNY/PUPPY ! —

bokuto; ARE YOU KIDDING ME. HE LOVES IT. he. loves it. he just finds it so cute and like. he loves the way he associates it with you now. prefers puppy over bunny but like. he loves both. he adores both. 

matsukawa; calls you bunny all the time. not more than doll, but it’s definitely so common. he won’t use it around others not because it’s embarrassing but more because he kinda wants it to be just a thing between the two of you, honestly. 

kenma; IT SLIPPED ONCE AND HE WAS LIKE. A DEER CAUGHT IN THE HEADLIGHTS. he calls you bunny!! sometimes, not always. when he wants something from you mostly. “pass me the water.” “no.” “bunny please :(” it works like magic every time. 

oikawa; oh my god can you imagine??? he loves it so much because one, he thinks it’s such a cute nickname props to whoever decided let’s use pets as literal pet names, but also two, he thinks nothing describes you or fits you better. you are just his bunny :( his puppy :( he loves you :( 

kageyama; timeskip kageyama calls you puppy. i have nothing more to say.

hinata; timeskip hinata calls you puppy. again, i shall say no more. 

suna; hello !!! he loves to call you bunny and/or puppy. the feel of satisfaction he gets when he calls you that like ,,, he feels like you’re properly his yk? yk.

KITTEN ! — 

kuroo; this one is for him and only him. 

LOVELY ! — (maybe sweetheart too) 

osamu; is there anything more beautiful than a tired osamu snuggling up to yoi and with a deep gravely voice saying, “missed you, lovely,” ? no there is not. it’s his favorite nickname for you, and he uses it all the time!! kisses your forehead as he leaves and tells you, “have a good day, lovely,” and comes back home and says, “hiya, lovely,” and tilts his head when you wanna talk to him about something like, “what’s up lovely?” cause you are his lovely, you’re his loveliest. 

sugawara; i have no other explanation other than i can picture it perfectly. he thinks it’s the best choice of a pet name he’s ever chosen and thought of. and he loves the smile on your face whenever he says it, he thinks it’s the sweetest thing ever <3 

BAE ! —

hanamaki; is it a joke? is it not? both. 

okay im sure i missed so many boys but i can’t think of any rn bc it’s like. hella late :( but i wanted to put something out for you guys!! point is, if i didnt mention a boy and you want to know, send me an ask!! and if i didn’t mention a nickname and you want to know that too? send me an ask well!! ill be happy to answer it <3 

love u all mwah <3 

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i’ve got rtte on the mind so rvb race to the edge au but i mostly ignore canon and also pick and choose lore from the movies and book series at will (also largely ignored). as always i didn’t do any worldbuilding and all the “””plot”” is about grimmons so keep that in mind when nothing makes sense

ok just learnt how to make a cut so adding that now x sorry

the reds n blues are the dragon riders but don’t ask me how they all ended up as the dragon riders bc i only have ideas for grif n simmons (who knows maybe i’ll have thought of something while writing thi s up)

hiccup as church, idk they’re both main characters with sucky ‘dads’(creators?)

toothless as a dramillion called switcheroo. ik it’s like the whole point of the series but church n switcheroo don’t have the whole prosthetic leg/prosthetic tail going on i just didn’t think it fit very well? i didn’t want his dragon to be a nightfury bc imo it doesn’t really fit his vibes. switch is a dramillion bc of their multi-shot fire type, i was kinda hoping it’d be reminiscent of the different ai

astrid as texas, love interest moment😟 but ya both are badass blondes who everyone is scared of and they only have romantic feelings for their pathetic little boyfriends

stormfly as a deathgripper called grimsting. those things are fucking terrifying !! they have the black colour scheme n their weird little front legs remind me of mantis legs and as we all know, mantis ladies rip off their mans head & i think tex would do that to church if given the opportunity

ok quick note for tuffnut and ruffnut befor i get into it. we’re disregarding all the lore outside of rtte idk who ruffnut marries or whatever in the movies and idc at this point . so, donut and caboose are like, interchangeably ruff n tuff (but like donut is Mostly ruff n caboose is Mostly tuff, it’s just not set in stone) but they’re not related ! they’re just friends

tuffnut as caboose (most of the time), they’re really stupid that’s pretty much it. idk just in rtte tuffnut really gives me caboose vibes and and his pet chicken, chicken can be freckles :))

belch as a gronckle called bait, gronckles are basically like cute little puppies and also i think the size difference of caboose’s massive frame on a tiny gronckle is funny. dw about the name

ruffnut as donut (most of the time), again it’s mostly just vibes. when ow as rewatching rtte i could just see him as ruffnut aslo! the weird little fling between throck (who is wash in this au) and ruff reminded me of their season 16/17 relationship i can’t remember which one but uh the one where they fix time together and lowkey flirt

barf as a hobblegrunt called awe, it’s a dragon moodring, enough said

snotlout as tucker, i don’t even need to explain this one c’mon. womaniser meet womaniser, yes ik tucker has development or whatever but a key part of his character is that he can’t get any woman to sleep with him and a key part of snotlout’s character is that he can’t get any woman to sleep with him. they’re also both over-confident and kind of annoying (sorry this feels a bit mean idk why i’m tearing these guys a new one i actually really like snotlout my stupid little glup shitto)

hookfang as a razorwhip called dreadbeast, i did initially consider giving him that dragon that wears metal and tools as armour but changed my mind bc i think razorwhips are a bit cooler and tucker with a razorwhip-spike sword is a cool concept yk

oohoo now we’re gettin to the good stuff

fishlegs as simmons, come on!! it’s a perfect match!! nerdy little men who are the smartest idiot in a group of idiots, they both feel under appreciated in their leadership roles and get bullied by snotlout and tucker respectively for not being able to pick up women. i think the friendship between fishlegs and hiccup could be reflected nicely onto simmons and church but that’s probably just bc i’m dying for content of them together. i’m plucking that one bit of book lore that says fishlegs is of berserker descent (but was raised on berk by adoptive hooligan parents) bc i think the connection to the skrill is cool, it explains his very red hair and also taps into knife!simmons energy. it also becomes a relevant plot point in the au!

ok i’m so mad a massive block of text was just deleted abt simmons and his dragon and i cba rewriting so this is the abridged version. meatlug as a skrill called stormwrought, simmons stumbles across a singetail, singetail tries to eat him, random skrill on the hunt for a meal spots the singetail and tries to eat it- effectively saving simmons from the singetail. simmons loses an eye, arm and leg but survives and becomes a hermit studying dragons all day. by chance, he comes across the same skrill that saved him and studies it for a while until the skrill faces off against a much bigger singetail that nearly kills it, simmons is like oh shit and helps the skrill kill the singetail for good, gaining the skrill’s respect and it allows simmons to become its rider. (revelant info: simmons being a berserker knows their methods on how to reel skrills in by using metal and since half his body is partially metal the skrill takes a liking to him)

heather as grif, i initially jusg made grif heather bc of the fishlegs/heather relationship thing but then i was like wait this kinda works bc kai can be dagur since she’s literally batshit insane. oh and also heather is canonically the best chef out of the dragon riders and i feel like that’s reflective of grif’s entire personality x

windshear as a rumblehorn called slobgobbler, i absolutely love this pair, rumblehorns are the best trackers out of all the dragon species, and yes that’s probably so that they can follow objects or people or whatever but the prospect of grif making his dragon sniff out delicious food for them is something that tickles me. plus it’s very fitting of grif’s character since the madman managed to sniff out genkin’s pizza

dagur as kai, so this is another fun one, i think kai being a villain is a very under-utilised concept bc who doesn’t love sexy female villains?? so in this au, grif n kai’s mother takes the place of heather and dagur’s father (oswald the agreeable), however, instead of travelling alone prior to the shipwreck on vanaheim, she’s with kai, and an accidental fire is what causes the boat to capsize. kai manages to escape however, and returns back to their tribe (in this au they aren’t berserkers bc i wanted simmons to be a berserker, they’re just some unnamed tribe idk . ) grif doesn’t handle his grief well and leaves the tribe, blaming kai for their mother’s supposed death. kai also doesn’t handle her grief well but she channels it through her new position as the tribe’s chief. after that her story basically follows dagur’s in the sense that she eventually has her redemption

i’ve decided that shattermaster can stay as shattermaster and sleuther is still sleuther except i’ve changed his name to ravenous. i didnt see the point in changing that, instead of fishlegs/simmons training her to ride a gronckle caboose can do it instead. like in rtte canon, she has shattermaster first while learning to ride dragons and then bonds with ravenous after shattermaster dies

ok cool bit over now we’re just going back to listing

throck as washington, as afore mentioned, donut and wash’s relationship in season 17(?) reminded me of throck’s wee crush on ruffnut, and also throck’s whole ass personality just reminds me of wash minus the whole ‘graarr i’m evil’ moment w/ the meta

mala as carolina, i debated over this one a bit bc i think kimball would fit mala’s personality a little bit better but having mara!lina means there can be a kai x carolina wedding <3 plus it allows us to have the carwash duo as super cool ninjas

atali as kimball, so after i concluded that kimball wouldn’t be mala i was like who’s the next coolest woman, ah yes, the one who flies. kimball and the other (female) lieutenants (basically just simmons’ squad) are the wingmaidens w/ jensen being minden

ok i only just thought of this one but jensen got me thinking abt the other lieutenants and uhh palomo is gustav. that’s all + grey is gothi

alright villain time ! rubs my hands together like an evil little fly

johann as felix, now ik felix wouldn’t be betraying kimball in this situation, but i really liked the ‘pretending to help but was secretly a traitor the whole time’ parallel going on between them, plus they’re both good with throwing knives !! and were both foiled by their desire to gloat and hear themselves talk

viggo as locus, redemption arc redemption arc redemp . ok but in all seriousness both viggo and locus treat their respective wars as just a job instead of getting emotionally invested in it like johann and felix. viggo has his weird little obsession with hiccup, locus has his weird little obsession with wash . ultimately they both realise that their actions were wrong and try to make things better

krogan as sharkface, idk tbh. they’re kinda just there?? as the muscle of the team??

um anyway! i think that’s it for the characters ik i haven’t covered anyone but this post is getting too long anyway and i’m too tired to think of any more. i’ll just add in the extra ones if they come to me x

next post is more rtte!grimmons <3

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Juliasam hours

(this is the ask meme by dany that i filled out for Julia & Sam even though he doesn’t have rights ❤)

PRE-RELATIONSHIP

How did they first meet?

At Salieri’s DUH, in 1929.. Julia did some illegal bootlegging during prohibition cause she had no job and didn’t want to move back in with her parents (she does eventually :/ still continues to do it for fun) so she meets the gang.. through that... idk. She hangs around at the bar like 24/7 when she’s not working because her only friends are a bunch of criminals, the bartender’s daughter and a socialite who hangs around there too

What was their first impression of each other?

Julia is technically used to seeing mafia dudes around her house from time to time since her dad patches them up but she was still a little bit starstruck by it all.. she’s like WOW cool mafia man :) for the first day or two. Sam thought she talked a LOT but she’s cool and funny so. 

Did any of their friends or family want them to get together?

NO LMAO... they have the same friends but I do not think they really care. They have mafia things to do. Also Olive specifically NOT she knows how Sam is & is like... uhh HELLO have you seen this guy 😒 she’s cool with it later of course. 

Who felt romantic feelings first?

JULIA.... she had a dumb little crush on him since pretty much the beginning 😳 Sam likes her too because like i said she’s sexy and funny but thinks she’s just a friend until they hold hands when he’s bleeding out on her dad’s couch. more on this in the next question

Did either of them try to resist their feelings?

Omg both. Julia not so much but she thought it was dumb to be daydreaming about some mafia man who kills people for a living and Sam is weird & emotionally repressed and probably hasn’t felt anything like that before (I guess he genuinely liked that one girl he kept seeing that you had to tell to leave town but that was different. not actual love like with miss Julia 😌) so he’s like. time to ignore this :) 

If you had told one of them that the other would be their soulmate, what would they think?

omg they don’t believe in that shit.

GENERAL

Who initiated the relationship, and how did it go?

JULIA.... hand holding when he was dying on her dad’s couch/almost saying something sappy was too much so he ignored her for like 2 entire months (not ignore but yk. acting like nothing happened & avoiding talking to her and all that) & she’s just like ..men.. 😒 in the beginning but eventually she says something about it. don’t ask me how it goes I will come up with it later

Did they have an official first date? If so, what was it like?

Pepes babey.. before it gets shot up rip the staff there :( no one sucks up to them like they do with don Salieri but its ok 

What was their first kiss like?

Also don’t know the specifics but see the who initiated the relationship question 😏 at the end. it was nice though, uhh softer than she would have expected. They can have TWO corny moments but not more

Were they each other’s first anything (kiss, relationship, etc.)?

Noooo omg Sam is kind of a hoe (Sarah even calls him a ladykiller at some point like OK...) sooooo you know 🙄 at least before Julia that is. I guess it’s more of a first genuine love kinda thing, on his part at least, on hers just to some degree. She’s not like... inexperienced or anything, her past relationships were just not really that deep :/ 

What’s their height difference? Age difference?

IDK what the height difference is but. Age difference is about 3-4 years, Dany and I said he’s about 35 by the end of the game, she’s 31/32 i forgot :(

What’s their relationship with each other’s families?

GODDD Julia’s dad knows him from patching him up/being in her house when Paulie was getting patched up.. he’s ok with it I suppose, she could do better with someone who’s not in the mafia or something but it could be worse. 

Idk if Sam has any family. he doesnt 

Who takes the lead in social situations?

uhh both? depends on the situation

Who gets jealous easier?

Both smh 🙄 Julia seeing him hang out with some girls at the race like 😒 but can’t say anything about it

LOVE

Who said “I love you” first?

YOU KNOWWW JULIA DID. 

What are their primary love languages?

acts of service >:) and i GUESS physical touch, see hand holding. maybeeee also words of affirmation.. sometimes.. doesn’t happen much because it’s hard but yk

How often do they cuddle/engage in PDA?

not much 🙄 sometimes Julia WILL give him a kiss on the cheek in front of the other guys though and he’s like what are you looking at. mind your own business 😒

What are their favorite things to do together?

HMMM Julia likes to take little walks by the docks at night (also day but night is more fun bc it’s empty) and drags Sam along of course 😌 They can also go to the pictures like in her embarrassing daydreams :) other than that uhhh they also hang out in some corner booth at the bar when they’re not doing something and talk about random stuff lol

Who’s better at comforting the other?

also Julia :// Sam would probably be like damn that sucks. just don’t think about it. 

Who’s more protective?

GODDD SAM... not in a “man protects fragile woman” way he’s just a fucked up mafia dude ❤

Do they prefer verbal or physical affection?

HMMM probably... physical. I think.

What kind of nicknames do they call each other?

MJHJHDJ nothing too sappy but Julia calls him “Chief” LOL.... also “Sammy” in more uhh private moments. idk what he calls her :) Just her name :)) 

DOMESTIC LIFE

If they get married, who proposes?

no wedding :( she lives in his shitty little apartment during the last 1-2 years (ik we don’t know where he lives but i am saying this) but yk :((((((((

How many kids do they have, if any? What are they like?

NONE he dies duhhh but in the AU.. maybe... I don’t think it’d be realistic but I love giving my ocs kids just for fun to see what weird personalities they’d have :) 

Do they have any pets?

nope :/

Who kills the bugs in the house?

Sam.. Julia will attempt to kill it but then it starts moving and she’s like eeeewwwwwwwww this thing is evil >:(

How do they celebrate holidays?

TBHHH i feel like they’d just get themselves invited over at their friends houses & never do anything themselves 🙄 They’d convince Tommy and Sarah to invite the whole gang for Christmas even though they just wanted to celebrate with their daughter & Luigi :(

Who’s more likely to convince the other to come back to sleep in the morning?

They both have to get up early as fuck... mostly Julia though. just for the 5 minutes she stays in bed too :( Sometimes... he does it too. sometimes :)

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Day 8 ✿ Sep 22 ‘20

I just talked to Cat all morning about like books and philosophy. I like books and philosophy ALOT. I like it more than fish and water. If I could I’d have my own private library. Agh! I fucking love books. I also really like fish and aguaculture. Jobs I’d commit to when I’m older is editor, fish breeder or teacher. However downsides to that job is: editing is a job that might not be alive in a few years, fish breeding is hard and expensive if you don’t have a market and teaching may also be an obsolete occupation in less than a decade. Personally these jobs would be good if it was like the >2000’s. Now every job will either kill you or die before it can. Maybe like a teacher in a private school or a freelance editor. However those jobs are hell if you choose to work for the wrong people. So fuck it I’ll be a fish breeder. Even though School marm for a private school sounds amazing. And editors can read all day. I have Mr today. I’m excited cause he’s always fun to have(09:10)

‘Sorry for only letting you know now but I will be staying in your class. I thought about it and realized two things. 1. I get low test scores regarding state tests, so that’s probably why I’m not in an honors class. Besides this if my state test scores are that not good then maybe I should be in a regular English class. 2. If I worked my butt off and did the quality of my work like that consistently It’s really crazy to me that test scores make me end up in a class totally different than what my mind needs or whatever; so I’ve met the conclusion that If it’s not the test that got me here or just like human error is that Fate and the universe(or god if you believe in them or whatever you think makes the world go spin) needs me to be in this class. Whether it’s to meet you, or a classmate. Number 2 is a pretty complex philosophical idea however I believe in it more than everything else. Also I purchased Flowers for Algernon a while ago and it only came recently. From my memory in your slide thing it said you liked it(?). Well it’s very good so far and it’s making my brain do a lot of thinking. Like my brain is literally imploding from reading it and thinking about all the other questions it indirectly acts. So that’s just a side note I wanted to add cause I’ve only had it since yesterday and I’ve already rambled on about for like over an hour to a friend who hasn’t even read it.. and I’m not even done yet! Oh well see you in a bit:)’... I wrote this to D in regards for the whole not switching out. I truly did forget about ever buying this book for five bucks on thrifted books back in like August. And I had only remembered buying it after he added it to his slide thing about like getting to know him. I kinda hate like having to have so many ideas and stuff in my head. Like right now I have so much in my head. Three key things are the philosophy of love, god and science. Those three are always in my head but for some reason everything’s just touching and mingling. I feel like I’m disappointing people who I should love but is it any matter if I disappoint them cause they never loved me before. Love is complex whether it’s sexual or romantic or all of the above. How can I like my teacher. He’s just a school teacher who’ll dissapear from my life before I know it. However what if it is fate.. God and science always correspond when trying to understand one of the other. Like what I’m thinking right now is if interfering with gods stuff really is worth it. Like if we hate gmo corn so much why are we trying to fix genetic disorders or mental stuff idk. I’ll say more later I’m too hungry to think.. (12:46)

This class is like boring as fuck. I like him as a person and as a teacher BUT I DO NOT LIKE HIS CLASSSSSSSSS. If I like consume his class outside of class yes fun nice wow! But if it’s in Class this fucking zoom SHOOT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like when I talk to him outside of Class it’s fun it’s wow:) but this Class makes me want to die. I wish it was Face to Face Class so I could just daydream about eating him out. However i can only see his Face and his hopelessness during these zooms. Fuck me. (13:16)

Yk i’ll be so bored but I never fucking listen in Class. Maybe if I listened Class would be less boring. (13:27)

Oh my God im so Smart, well we know that already but i was the only one who got this dumbass question right. Like im literally amazed at how dumb these people are. Wow! I Love this Class. Im Smart as fuck (♡´౪`♡)(14:11)

Earlier I went to Petsmart with my dad and we got the biggest most beautiful fish tank. I’ve already added rocks and two little accessories. As for the lights and filter I just finished working on it. It was hard as fuck to do everything but I got it done so I’m happy:)... I’m so excited to get fish and enjoy the tank and have a cute little pet(s)! I wonder what D’s favorite pet is. He seems like a dog person who grew up with cats all his life.. but would never own a dog irl. He’s a turtle dude I bet:D!! I was talking to Cat and she was joking over my type. And I was like “guys that do the dishes and do chores” like my standards are so low a seven year old could reach them. However they’d also have to be able to discuss topics and ideas I find interesting. I couldn’t date someone who was dense or uninspired by the lack of answers in the universe. I think that’s a big thing for me, someone who can talk to me about things that other people try to avoid. That’s why I’d fall for a teacher. I can only see them as knowing plenty of not all. So I’d have to have faith that they can have these convos. So I chose the hottest young blonde of all my teachers and called it a day. Ah Im fucking tired(22:30)

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I have a friend that I made that we have been doing long distance sexy stuff online and like he’s a great dude and my only issues with him were 1 I am not attracted to men enough in real life only women and other identities. 2 he wanted us take turns being dominant and submissive and that makes it a scheduled thing/a chore and honestly I am only a little bit of a switch. I only dom like rarely do it was hard but I was somewhat willing to try it out. I don’t think he understands enough about bdsm culture despite my regular attempts to teach him that Dom and sub are different than top and bottom and that he can’t use the second terms.

But yk despite that and my teaching him of bdsm culture/etiquette he just slowly stopped getting it. I told him from the get go I wasn’t investing romantically and would not be. He still wanted kisses and to be romanticish so I indulged him(my bad I guess) but tbh a lot of the time he would use pet names on me without asking me and I really I mean REALLY don’t like being called babe. Especially since I am not his girlfriend. I barely have attraction to men and his behavior just wasn’t doing it for me. I really appreciated he didn’t ask for nudes or anything but last night the being forced to dom thing when I was feeling really submissive caused me to freak out- my anxiety acted up just as we were about to get sexy. It started with me trying to communicate but since his understanding of dom vs sub has lessened since time has passed it has been harder. Despite me giving him the actual information he seemed to be interpreting it as dom does 100% of work and doesn’t get pleasure- but no that’s not at all it. I really want to explain it for you guys at the moment but if this gets attention someone asks I can.

He then proceeded to ask a question basically asking how to get out of the friend zone and I asked him if he was serious bc to which he proceeded to call a rhetorical question and basically stated that he wanted to know. 😑

Honestly nothing against him but like I made it clear I didn’t want that from the beginning. So then I full on have a moment of anxiety bc I have issues with saying no if it hurts peoples feelings (hence why I had a toxic friendship for all of high school with someone from a summer camp and then one girl in my grade).

So I have that moment of anxiety. I calm down and we talk about a game for a few minutes which is nice and calm

Then we are like goodnight and I send him “😚” which I figure since we are in a good place then is a good idea not to mention I am extremely affectionate to all my friends. And then he hits me with “I wonder what the whole point of this is” then we have a back and forth where he is like an “am I the type who can do sex without feelings” and I am like “idk about you but I can and like society values have caused a culture of sex only being for love.” Plus some stuff of what you gain out of bdsm culture and non romantic sex. Then he is like “I guess I’m the fool that can’t break it up” and like I get that I sympathize you and I literally was like I care about you do what’s healthy for you earlier on but like dude please don’t do that. That’s a red flag for me. That’s how a lot of people forced themselves into my life and I was enjoying this with you please don’t do that. So then I empathize by sharing how I feel and valuing his difference and he’s all like I can enjoy it but I can’t chill. So... I am basically like okay I understand do what’s healthy for you. I am not going to hurt you by keeping you in this dynamic that is unhealthy for you.

Then he spews off something about he has been through this cycle before and I don’t understand his experience with this. And while he told me about his girlfriend who broke up with him because of certain reasons he had said that he had not been in this type of relationship before. So I empathized with him and made sure to clearly communicate and restate what I said when we first decided to do this “I am not interested in a romantic dating thing and will not” and I said I am sorry if he got the wrong impression. And then he was all like I don’t blame you... and so I was like I never said you did and then I told him about what I value in our friendship. And he was dismissive and only said maybe we could stay friends.

So I told him that I care about him and want him to do what is healthy for him. That he should take some time to think things through and tell me what he wants when he is ready. That whatever he wants won’t hurt me. (And it won’t) Then he throws the line “We barely talk as is” which I don’t say but pisses me the fuck off bc false. We don’t know eachother that well and we both are busy during the day so we don’t text often then and we text a lot at night and in the afternoon. So not true. I text him more than some of my closest friends at the moment. So that bothered me. But I didn’t want to show it because he is having some internal issues. So I ask him if he is okay and if I can do something for him. And he basically says this conversation isn’t productive and won’t move us to a position either of us like, but I want to make sure he goes to bed okay. And since I can’t I wish him sweet dreams and apologize and then he says “it’s not on you” and it’s not but the way he has been talking sort of blames me for it. That’s annoying.

So I think he is going to not do this with me anymore which is fine. But he mentioned early on that he is always the one who gets broken up with and while this isn’t a breakup. I think it might feel that way to him. We were never dating.

Why do all my fwb always want to make things romantic? It’s frustrating. I just want to 1 not have that issue or alternatively 2 actually be in a healthy relationship with a woman.

So long story short. Boy is upset we aren’t romantic despite sexual and I am frustrated about all my fwb relationship having the other party wanting romance.