#he’s asked me to call atleast 5 times and i keep making excuses

[harukaluvr]

i miss you aiden

[like-rain-or-confetti]

Top 5 crushing on another Villain henchperson. 

Villain sent them on some dangerous mission and they came back looking like a wreck. Villain says since they're here he has another job for them Crush just says 

"The last month's were the worst time of my life and I didn't even get paid for it! Screw this I QUIT!" And just throw their mask to the ground walking away ignoring the Villain.

I quit!

The Riddler: Okay, not great. He can't actually stop you because he's talking to you through a screen. After your outburst you stormed off. "Don't-!" What could he threaten you with to come back!? "Don't make me come down there!" He snapped. You ignored him. He fumbled for a moment. "That's it! If you walk out if here, I'm taking your WiFi!" That made you stop. He sighed with relief. "Come to the main workshop so I can deal with your infantile dramatics over there." You were met with a rather large bot. His voice rang out through speakers. "Move! You're in my way!" You huffed but stepped back. After the large robot took a few more steps, it seemed to shut down and he came out the back, appearing from behind a leg. "You know, generally when something large is coming towards you, instinct should really tell you to get out of the way!" You rolled your eyes. "I know! I know, but you asked me to come here! If it were me, I'd be out the door by now!" The Riddler thrust a screwdriver into your hands. "Swap this with the wrench- the larger one." The Riddler, scrutinised the back of the robot leg. You sighed loudly before complying. "Now what are you throwing a tantrum about?" He asked. "You! Sending me out for all this pointless shit that nearly gets me killed. You don't pay me and then send me out on more ridiculous shit!? I'm done." "I'm rare in children but considered plenty in adults. I can be given but can be lost just as quickly, what am I?" "You're a pain in the ass." You replied flatly making the Riddler glare at you. "I don't know what the answer is." You added. He dug into his pocket, a large wad of cash in hand. "Patience." He said pointedly. "If you had any, you'd find i have your payment right here and intended to give you it today." He said dryly. He sighed. "Now, I'll give you this if you watch your attitude. Keep it up and maybe I'll send someone else on the next job." "Or you can give me it now, because its what you owe me and then I can leave because I quit." You replied and he chuckled. "Sure, you do, pet. Sure, you do." You took the payment but mumbled under your breath. Both you and the Riddler knew you wouldn't be quitting any time soon. He paid you good money and you like him more than you'd like to admit. Psst the feeling is mutual but I didn't tell you that. "Now if you insist in making your self known then do me another favour and bring me a hammer. Then you're atleast useful as you whine. You sighed dramatically. "Yes, your highness!" You said loudly.

Scarecrow: He watched as you stormed off, taking a left turn. "Wrong way, (Y/N)!" He called. "The door is on the right!" A second later you stormed past the door, this time heading right instead of left. He rolled his eyes. So very dramatic of you. As usual. However he did go after you. He took a short cut and got to the door before you did. He leaned against it. You huffed. "Excuse me." "Don't sulk." He quipped a smile. "What do you want?" He asked. "Well a payment would be nice." You began. "But we can start when you with opening the door." "Hey now...don't get so upset." Jonathan said softly. "Payments have been delayed. You get paid when I get paid. That's likely on Tuesday." He crossed his arms. "If you're that fed up with the work then I can give you something else but I'm putting my back out for you. I expect you to do the same." The statement left little for argument. However the fact that he would even offer an alternative was bizarre. He didn't do compromise. What was this? Did he like you or something? Was this a trap? "I'm not going to be the next experiment, am I?" You asked and he chuckled. "No. I'm fully booked but if you're volunteering, I can keep you in mind?" "No, thank you. I'll...I'd appreciate something else...please." You managed out reluctantly. "Good. You know I wouldn't be able to keep you alive if you quit. Best keep that in mind." He advised sternly.

Two-Face: Who are you talking to? You're lucky he likes you! He'd snap your legs like twigs and make you walk home if you weren't so lucky that he actually likes you. "You gonna do this here?" Harvey deadpanned, warning in his eyes. You continued to rant and rave and before you knew it you are lifted over his shoulder. You'd love to say you could do much beyond try to kick him and beat on his back...but you can't. He had a pretty good grip. He carried you into a room and dropped you onto a couch before darting out the room. You scrambled to chase after him only for the door to shut in your face. Two-Face closed the door and held it shut. "Hey! Let me out you bastard!" You screeched. "Act like a child and I'll treat you like one!" He called back. "This is kidnapping! You're holding me hostage!" "Self defence!" Harvey retorted. "Is it fuck, you have a gun!" You screeched. "Two guns bitch!" Harv' grinned. "Harvey!" You yelled. "When you're out of time out and willing to talk, then we'll talk! Until then..." Harvey yelled out. "Someone tell me when it's been three minutes!" "I'm not a three year old!" You shot back. "Could have fooled me with that attitude, gorgeous!" Three minutes passed. "Are you ready to talk now? Talk...not scream." Harvey called through the door. "I'm still quitting!" You shot back. "No, you're not. We like you too much. Decent help is hard to come by in Gotham, the world would have to pry you from our cold dead hands." "I can wiggle and I'm pissed at you!" You called back. "Oh give a man a chance, gorgeous! I'm sure we can work something out!" Harvey replied. There was a pause. "You get one minute, boss! Thirty seconds extra because I like you!" "But you do admit I'm still your boss?" Harvey smirked. "Damn it!" You snapped and he chuckled. "Prepared to be convinced, gorgeous. I only need twenty seconds to give you a concrete argument."

Black Mask: Who the ✨️fuck✨️ do you think you're talking to? You bet he's storming after you. The second he catches up to you, he had you by the arm and swings you into the nearest room. He slammed the door behind him. You could have sworn the room shook at the impact. He backed you against the wall, his fist balled by your head as he leaned on the wall. "Right, what was that all about?" "I'm quitting! Last month was the shittiest month I've ever had and I didn't even get paid for it! Now you want me to do this!? No! I'm done! I'm out." You tried to push him back but he only pressed you back into the wall. "What do you mean I didn't pay you!? Of course, I paid you! I gave it to you before you did it. I gave you extra!" "What!?" You asked quizzically. "I paid you for last month before you had even done it. I put it in with your pay for the month before!" Roman said. You gasped, remembering how last months you gave money back saying he had over paid you to one of his henchmen. What you thought was a mistake was your payment in advance. "Oh..." Realisation dawned on you. "What?" Roman asked. You explained and he sighed. "You fuckin' idiot." He stepped back. "You think I wouldn't notice giving you extra money at the time? I wondered why I had a stack of money left at my desk. You are an absolute idiot. You lost your shit at me and it was your fault anyway? Fuckin' dumbass." You picked up the first thing you saw- a magazine and hit him in the shoulder with it. He looked down at his shoulder. "Did you just hit me with a magazine?" Oh fuck you did. Before you could make an excuse, Roman snatched the magazine from you and hit you on the top of the head with it. It didn't hurt but it did make you gasp in disbelief. "Did-Did you just-!?" "Yes, I did!" Roman retorted. "Now we're even and you're still a fuckin' idiot." "Ummm can I take it all back? Including me quitting?" You gave him a sheepish look. "Doll, we're gonna pretend this never happened on every other occasion than a funny reminder how much of a dumbass you are." Roman did a double take. "Hit me with a fuckin' magazine. You're lucky I like you enough not to make you fuckin' eat it." He huffed.

Mad Hatter: Have you ever heard Jervis' impression of an alarm? A blaring, ear piercing alarm that there's just no ignoring? It's great for alarms in the morning. Most times his payment is probably just tea and...he might do it late just to continue the madness he tends to crave. Anyway enough about Jervis' hidden talent becoming an employed human alarm clock. Turns out he can get spooked easily. Your yelling made him wail, hands over this ears whilst he looked at you like you had grown a second head. It caught up to him what you said. "Wha- did they just say they quit!?" He let out a panicked screech. "No! No! No! No!" He took off running. Repeating the refusal like a chant, quick and in one breath. He was quick to snatch one of his hats that had a built in mind-control device. You heard the sounds of panicked running behind you and you barely had the chance to turn before Jervis put something on your head. "Jervis!" "(Y/N), don't move!" Suddenly you couldn't. After a moment Jervis sighed in relief. After catching a breather be pointed at you. "No quitting! No! No quitting!" He ordered like you were a dog.

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Imagine you got backstage passes for a 1D concert and you take this photo. Hazza notices you. He points at you. Management happens to see you. Being the beautiful person you are they make you a model (How? Idk). Then Bam you're famous. Then you meet Hazza again. You thank him. You become good friends. Later he confesses his undying love for you. You start dating. Then a few years later he proposes. Then later you get married and live happily ever after.

Now go back to the first word.

14 notes - Posted January 3, 2022

#4

WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT THIS

Sooooo there's a new disney movie called Encanto. It's gotten super famous! Maybe you know the song 'We don't talk about Bruno' from the movie.

So anywyas, the other day I was watching it and *gasp* there's this character called Camilo Madrigal. He can speak spanish, has curly hair, sorta dark skin and is kinda scrawny...sounds familiar?

HE JUST LOOKS SO MUCH LIKE LEO VALDEZ FROM PERCY JACKSON SDJNJSHGOIJS!

That's Camilo:

And that's Leo:

See the full post

18 notes - Posted February 4, 2022

#3

Me before watching Encanto: Meh sounds cool

Me after watching Encanto: HOLY- THIS COULD BE A NEW FANDOM

39 notes - Posted February 1, 2022

#2

Books || H.S.

"Harry! Let's see what they've got!" (Y/N) pointed at a bookshop and dragged Harry along with her. Upon entering the bookshop Harry was hit with an eccentric sort of atmosphere. The place looked dusty from outside but inside, it was extremely different. It was also bigger than what he had expected. It almost looked like Ollivander's wand shop (Harry only knew about the wand shop because he heard (Y/N) talking about it).

(Y/N) approached the book keeper. It appeared she was reading a book probably from the shop itself. "Excuse me?" (Y/N) asked causing the lady to look up.

"Yes?"

"Do you have The Whisper of Fog?" The book keeper nodded and pointed at a nearby shelf. (Y/N) thanked the lady and went to look for the book with Harry right behind her. He smiled at the book keeper but she was back to reading her book.

Harry saw (Y/N) looking at a book which was atleast two shelves above her. When he got closer he could see her eyes skimming though the books on the shelf. When she found the book she was looking for, Whisper of Fog, she got on her tippy toes and tried to reach the book but no avail.

Harry chuckled to himself but decided to help her out. "Need a hand?"

"Yes please, I can't reach it." Harry got close to her. He easily grabbed the book she wanted and handed it to her. "Thanks. Are you going to get a book for yourself?"

Harry shook his head and spoke, "Nah, I'd rather spend time with you."

"Aw Haz, that's sweet, but I'm still buying this book for myself." (Y/N) could swear she saw Harry roll his eyes in response.

Time skip to bedtime

(Y/N) and Harry were cuddling in bed. (Y/N) was the little spoon and Harry was the big spoon. (Y/N) had gotten her book in bed and was reading it. Harry had his head resting close to her neck. He kissed the back of her neck. Just as she turned the page Harry spoke. "Wait, I was still reading that..."

"Were you?"

"Mhmm, " Harry muttered sleepily, "Why does the main character go back to the forest?"

"Keep reading, love. It's on the same page.

46 notes - Posted January 2, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Okay so imagine this: two possible lovers are forced to publically not be together. One of them played a movie character years ago in a school play. Then years after that incident their "possible" s/o dresses up as that character for Halloween in front of the eNTiRE wORLd. THEY ARE GIVING HINTS, RIGHT?! YES HARRY AND LOUIS I'M LOOKING AT YOU TWO

53 notes - Posted November 15, 2022

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[shackermanwrites]

Lifetime

Summary: When everything's falling apart in your life, and you don't know what to do anymore, maybe asking the universe for something isn't a bad idea after all. In which Sol Reader finds herself in another reality after begging the universe for something. Everything is going well not until she was put into Levi's squad.

Chapter 4 -> Chapter 5

Lifetime Masterlist

“Read that carefully, the three of you, and sign it after. It will be an indicator that you understand it.”

You scan the paper as soon as it was handed to you, it is mainly about the jobs assigned, especially to Levi’s Squad. There is no turning back now, that is for sure. You carefully fold the paper in half and put it inside your jacket before returning your gaze to Levi.

‘This must be his office,’ you assume while examining the place carefully. The room is neat and clean, everything is in order considering that it must be hard to manage time by training cadets and giving orders 24/7 but still manage it to keep his office clean.

“Training tomorrow morning, be on time.” Levi looked at you when he said those last words, he did not say it but you know it is an order precisely for you yet your mind is still preoccupied with how clean his office and how he has so many books in his shelf.

‘I wonder what kind of book does he have. The library is far from here to even borrow some books,’ you thought to yourself.

“That’s all of today, the two of you can leave, and you Reader, I need to talk to you.” You turn your head back to Levi when you heard your name. He was arranging some papers while waiting for the two to leave.

Jean and Mikasa gave a salute at Levi before glancing at you to smile. Jean gave you a smile pat on your shoulder before leaving you with the Corporal.

“I am busy, so I'm going to make this quick,” he placed his hand on the table while his eyes are glued in yours. “I don’t tolerate the kind of behavior you were showing earlier. Sol reader, right? Do me a favor and be useful, properly do your job from now on. You top your class, so expect more.”

You are out of words by what the captain had just said.

You felt angry from what he just said to you, he's calling you useless, he's indirectly saying that you're not doing your job correctly. What does he know? You two have met less than an hour ago.

He reminds you of someone that’s for sure, and you don’t like it. You admit that it's your fault for being late, but you know that you're more than that, you’re helpful, and you can benefit this squad.

You rolled your eyes at him when you decided for yourself that you will be the bigger person here and understand him. There's no point in arguing since you just graduated and you don’t exactly know how they run things in the higher-ups.

“I already apologized for that, and I'm sure that it will never happen again.” You softly said while you look into his eyes to show how sincere you are.

There was a short silence after that. It seems that he was thinking of a response to your statement.

“Very well, that is all for tod-“ he was cut off by a loud, aggressive knock on his door that made you flinched. The door was immediately opened, revealing a tall woman with glasses, and she’s holding a lot of papers in her hands.

“What is it that you want four eyes? I thought you were with Moblit?” Levi said while rubbing the bridge of his nose.

You sense that he was annoyed by her presence, but you don’t seem to know why because judging by her looks, she looks friendly.

“Yes, I was with Moblit but not anymore! Also, here are the papers for your- oh hello ther dear, who are you?” She asked you with a smile on her face as she sat in front of Levi's.

‘The same similar cape captain levi wears’ you immediately gave her a salute before answering her.

“Sol Reader, ma'am.”

Her delighted expression slowly turns into a shocked one as she looks at you.

“Well, isn’t Reader! Congratulations on being at the top! I didn’t know shorty here would agree to have you on his squad! I was about to pick you on my squad personally, well I do science and experiments, so it must be boring to you since you are more likely to be physically active! Oh, I'm Hange, by the way, section commander.”

You don’t know how to describe it, but you felt joy about how she casually talks to you, you thought she was just a friendly person, but she was also lovely and kind.

“Well-“ you start as you gave her a smile before glancing at your captain, who was already looking at you the entire time.

“Tch, if you're thinking about changing squad, I suggest do it now.” He started arranging his papers in front of him.

No one in the room noticed it, but Levi was slightly hurt because you look like you're having second thoughts about joining his squad, or maybe he's just in denial that he thought of you regretting your decision to be on his squad.

You smiled at her and glanced at Levi, that is now writing and signing on a bunch of papers.

“Uhm, thank you so much, commander Hange, but I want to be on Levi’s squad. Although I can come to visit you from time to time if you're doing experiments. I can help you with that since I have knowledge about science and medicine.” You gladly replied to her.

“Oh, that’s great! You know I like you already! You can come by my office if you want to talk, not just about science, okay?”

“Might as well have some tea right here while the both of you have a chit-chat in my office.” The annoyed look on his face didn’t stop Hange from bothering him, saying that he should loosen up and stuffs.

You politely excused yourself for them to talk privately and for you to breathe some fresh air from the talk earlier.

-

“Well? What brings you here, Hange? I'm busy.” Levi mumbled while he’s still glued into the paper works he’s carefully reading.

“Oh come on shorty, I just brought the papers you need to sign, and there’s a letter there from Erwin. You have a new squad, so why didn’t you asked your assistant to help you with paperwork?”

Levi didn’t actually need an assistant, yes every higher up can assign an assistant from their squad, but Levi doesn’t consider that he needs one. Still, the paperwork that was was given to him are already enough for him to go crazy, not to mention that more are being added day by day.

“Yeah, I might assign one. I need to check first their handwritings if it's good.” He replied as he continues to sign on the papers.

Hange just smiled softly at him since she knows how hard it is to read and make reports all day.

“Well, I need to go now, do me a favor and rest from time to time, shorty!” hange stood up from the chair and marched her way to the door.

“Yeah fuck off four eyes.” He annoyedly replied.

“Love you too short bean.” Hange yelled before leaving his office.

Levi never really talks to many people, and Hange and Erwin are the only person he considers as his friends. They are the only person who can tolerate his behavior and understood him. He might now show it, but he’s more than thankful for them and the way they annoy him.

-

“Atleast I don’t look like a horse.”

“Fuck you dude, look at yourself in the mirror. You look like horse shit.”

You mentally slap yourself as you listen to the two men on your right and left arguing like little boys.

Jean dragged you to go town to buy some stuff and just to look around but you didn’t expect it to be this chaotic.

Jean and Eren have been friends since the two of you joined the scouts, they are friends, but both of them argue all the time like little kids, and you and Mikasa are like their mothers who would take care of them.

Being in the middle of them doesn’t help at all since both your right and left ears are tired of hearing the same insult for thirty minutes now.

“Will the two of you shut it before I actually lose my mind right now make the two of you marry each other?” you calmly said to them, but the threat in your voice is visible.

“Hah, oh by the way, how did it go with captain Levi? I hope he did not punish you for earlier?” jean asked while the three of you stopped in a stall that sells foods.

“What? Why? What happened?” Eren asked while he points at certain foods at the seller.

“She got in trouble for being late, and she bumped into captain Levi,” Jean replied while offering you his half-bitten bread with cheese that he just bought.

“Yeah, but no worries, nothing happened. I guess he just let it slide at the moment.” You replied before taking a bite on Jean’s bread.

“Woah, you’re lucky Sol, one time I couldn't transform into my titan form and Captain Levi beat the shit out of me. I mean, gotta push something in me right.” Eren said while he pays for the food he bought.

You cant help but to feel bad for Eren, his family is one of the treasured and known family in Paradis since his family holds the attack and founding titan for centuries that has been passed by generations.

The nine titans are initially from Paradis, they are meant to be excluded in this world since their origin is still unknown, but Marley stole the seven titans. Not only that, they used it for their plan, to win wars between different countries. It just happens that the founding and attack titan are still in Paradis. Yet the people in Paradis still don’t know the power it holds even after all those experiments due to the lack of knowledge and things to use.

Eren fighting seven titans is impossible. That is why they are experimenting with him to see if there can be improvements in the future for him to master.

The three of you stroll around the market while buying foods and drinks until you are satisfied. You talked a lot with them about the training and the new squad.

You saw some stalls are already closing since it's almost dawn, but this one stall caught your attention, the paintbrushes and the charcoals and the paints they sell. You didn’t know they sell one here.

“hold on ill be back.” You quickly ran towards the stall to look at the supplies they sell. There are a lot of different varieties but you know you're short of money now.

“Oh do you paint my dear? I have lots here, you can pick before I close the stall.” The old lady smiles at you.

Your hands made their way to a compiled papers, a set of paints, and a paintbrush since you don’t have enough money to afford more.

“Just this please, thank you.” You look at the lady wrapping the things you bought on a piece of paper before handing it to you.

‘Well, there goes my allowance for the week,’ you thought.

-

It was already nighttime when you had the chance to open the materials you bought, you're still unsure if you can still paint or even draw. Heck you don’t even know if you can.

But to know, you at least need to try. Your shaky hands grab the paintbrush and dip it on the paint before aligning it on the paper.

You don’t know what to draw.

“Fuck” you groaned at yourself for not being able to draw, you thought this was pointless, but you still wanna try.

You quickly grab your scarf and wraps it around your neck before collecting your materials to head outside. You thought that maybe being outside can help you paint a picture in your head to bring into life.

Just as you thought, not a single soul can be seen outside since it's cold, and most people are tired.

You quickly sat on a bench you saw and placed the paint right beside you. You looked up to the sky and saw the moon beautifully shining right in front of your eyes, that’s when you noticed the scenery above you, you can't help but admire it.

You grabbed your things and started painting on what your eyes saw just now. You didn’t really care if it is neat or messy since you want to start from scratch.

It's been a while since you have done this.

You always felt happy when you remember that you can paint, you always think of it as a gift since you can bring the things your naked eye can see into a picture. You can even create the things you want to see and want to bring into life.

“Cadet, what are you doing here?” you flinched in shock when you heard a voice from behind you that caused you to overline the moon you're drawing.

Well, there goes your gift of painting.

You angrily looked behind you to see Levi standing inches away from the bench. You noticed that he wears more casual clothes even when training and work hours are already done

“I can't sleep, so I was trying to paint, but now it's ruined, sir..” You replied to him before returning your gaze to your ruined painting.

“It's not my fault that it's ruined.” He deadpanned said before looking up in the sky and glancing at your work.

“I never said that it is your fault.” You replied while collecting your things back.

It was pointless to continue. Besides, you are already feeling tired and it's getting cold.

“Tch, get back to your room now cadet, its already late. We don’t want you showing up late again tomorrow.” He said before turning his back to yours.

You just realized that the bench you're sitting at is located in front of his office.

Maybe he doesn’t hate you at all, maybe it's just because he wants his squad to be more than responsible that’s why he is strict about certain things when it comes to being his squad.

“Thank you, captain, good night.” You softly said loud enough for him to hear it before you went your way to your room.

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A TALE OF ALWAYS AND FOREVER

CHAPTER 7

Fanfiction : Bloodbound (Choices)

Pairing : Adrian Raines x Amy Richard Parker (MC)

Warning : none

Rating: Teen

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read previous chapter here ….. Chapter 1 , Chapter 2 , Chapter 3 , Chapter 4 , Chapter 5 , Chapter 6

So here i promised this last night but sorry it got delayed ...got stuck in some important work .... now here i am .... i hope u like it

Amy had to forcefully cut the call, in order to shut her brother and she new that this will make him angry. But she didn’t need a pep talk for not getting wasted in the club before her interview. She could handle her brother afterwards and the interview was important. She wandered here and there and settled on the bench. She felt like she is being watched from behind but didn’t find someone. Just then a stunning woman with an icy demeanor came towards her.

“Amy?” stern woman said .

“ yes that’s me “ she replied .

“I am Nicole Anderson, VP of operations at Raines Corp. I will interview you . “ she said .

Amy was surprised to see that she was going to be interviewed by someone so high at post but her queries were eased when she reminded her that they take their hiring process very seriously and she followed her in the conference room keeping her confident look .

“ now then. The Raines Corporation is a global leader in technology and innovation . Why exactly are you interested in being the executive assistant to our CEO ? “

“well…” Amy took a deep breath and continued , “ I’d love to help make the world a better place . what I admire most about the Raines Corporation is your dedication to global innovation and improvement. The clean – water initiative …the vaccine for the cerella virus …the green energy project… you guys aren’t just getting rich. You’re trying to help people, to make technology that’ll save the planet. I can’t think of anything better than being a part of that.”

“hmm……a good answer. A bit cloying , perhaps, but Adrian might actually like that “ Nicole said with an appreciative look.

Just as she was going to speak the next thing , the door at the back of the room swings open , and a handsome man in a perfectly – tailored suit strolls in.

Intelligence sparks through his eyes . He was extremely charming , with his black obsidian eyes assessing her , her already killer nervousness now peaked a whole new level.

“ Adrian I wasn’t expecting you…” Nicole asked unable to hide the surprise in her voice .

Adrian as in Adrian Raines …well all escalated very quickly for her .

“ I had a free minute. Is this the candidate ?” he asked taking the authority in his hands as he decided.

Professionalism and seriousness reflected in his voice .

“ yes …but I’ve just started the interview and—“ Nicole asked stammering .

“ I’ll take over from here “ he cut her off not wanting to take any excuses .

“……of course sir , go right ahead “ she surrendered .

Adrian sat across Amy , eyes burning right through her . He has never seen such a beautiful person in his entire existence , god knows how would she be as a person .

Amy’s nervousness grew even more when his eyes bore through her but she remembered once more , she is Amy Richard Parker and nothing in this world ever scares her , she remembered her brothers’ advices on professionality and confidence and recalled her dad’s proud thought about her and her mother’s loving smile . Now that was enough to calm her down , so she put on the brave and fearless smile again on her face and straightened her back.

“ Amy , is it ? “ Adrian looked at her and saw her hazel brown eyes which her so hypnotizing , with all his strength he prevented himself from being lost in them .

“ that’s right “ she said interrupting his thoughts .

“ tell me Amy , what do you desire ? “ he asked her and she was surprised at the question .

Amy was already so mesmerized from him that this question surprised her.

“ You mean ……why do I want this job ? Because I – “ but was interrupted by Adrian .

“ I didn’t ask why you want this job. I asked what do you desire . “ he asked seriously and professionally.

“ I desire ……PASSION “ she answered after thinking fir a while .

“ oh , really ? “ he asked , his brows raising , he was in true sense intrigued by her answer .

“Sorry , if that is too personal but I am just being honest . I want to feel deeply. I want to experience life , live every moment like my last. We never know when is our last moment , it is better to live our life to the fullest than to regret it afterwards . That’s what I desire “ she answered honestly and it was the true answer she saw what happened to her family everything was good and happy then suddenly they lost everything , she do not want to regret anything .

“ I can relate“ Adrian was impressed internally but didn’t expressed it. He supressed a smile to reach his face. He was truly impressed by her desire to live and feel and experience. He now looked at her resume .

“ lets see here … graduated college 3 years ago …masters in communication …interned at Mannon financial…volunteered in San Torbida and France abroad for a year “ he read out and again was impressed from her but wondered why it took her an extra year to sign up for this interview or for that matter any other one .

“ yep that’s right “ she said .

“ well , how was that tell me in three words “ he asked .

“ difficult. Enlighting. Rewarding. “ she replied easily .

“ good , this job can be challenging and unpredictable , are you comfortable running unusual errands ?”

“Absolutely “

I have been doing them since a long time now , she thought to herself , smiling .

“ Handling confidential information ? “

“ I can keep a secret “

You wont even realise how many I am keeping right now too , she thought again and smirked .

“ Working nights ? “

“ Always been a night owl “

Okay , I atleast told him one thing fully without strings attached , she smiled while thinking .

“ Good , Anything else I should know about you ? “

“ Hmmmm …… I have got WORLD CLASS people skills “ , she said with a proud smile .

“ Oh , really ? “ he asked with questioning eyes .

“ I was voted ‘ most likable ‘ in my high school class . Also ‘ most popular ‘ and ‘ best smile ‘ . Technichally you are not supposed to win in multiple categories , but I was able to persuade them . And also the cherry on the top I was the PROM QUEEN “ , she stated out all of her achievements proudly and remembered how happy and proud her father was to see her that day . She and her brothers has always been the brightest in the whole family , anyways. Suddenly feeling nostalgic and tears building in her eyes she averted her gaze on the floor.

“ Thus proving your point “ said a grinning and impressed Adrian , but he saw a glint of sadness in her eyes and he doubted that he saw tears too , and was unable to understand why counting her proud moments made her sad .

“ exactly” Amy said after controlling her emotions and forcing a smile.

“ one more question “ Adrian leaned forward hands folded on the table and with an intense expression , told her the story of a man who got a genie lamp and destroyed everything , and then finally asked her about what should his final wish should be .

“I think his final wish should be to undo his first two wishes “ she said after thinking for a while .

“because ?” Adrian asked curious to know her theory .

“ because he already had everything he could ask for a family and many friends …what could he ask for more it was more than enough …all he wanted or ever needed was right there in front of him …this is a story of temptation and greed …he should have never played this game …all now he can do is making things as they were before “

Her answer was something totally honest … Adrian glanced at her and then noticed how true each and every word was . she was not only beautiful but also quite intelligent …in true sense beauty with brains.

She was quite interesting too …Adrian personally never saw such a person in his entire life … and he needed to know her …he knew that it is a huge risk and a mistake but he already did that when he decided to interview her himself …now he couldn’t resist her … so then he does the only thing he could do …he knew that Nicole will be a big trouble after this but guess he was okay with that if it was what would keep this girl around .

Then he grins brightly at Amy and says

“ You’re hired “

“wait what ? …seriously “ Amy asked with wide eyes , she was surprised , how in world is it possible that someone gets hired so fast …this was weird to her … but of course she was happy .

Adrian left an inside giggle watching her surprised reaction …she looked adorable with those wide eyes …his smile grew even wider … and he extends his hand …which obviously she took .

‘ oh my god …his skin is impossibly smooth…and hold so firm …wow he is really handso-……no no no …stop brain stop thinking …no eyes …don’t look in his eyes for too long … fuck …, I am a disaster …stop cheeks don’t turn red …god please ‘ she thought .

Good god if god wanted to kill her please kill her in this exact moment …someone save her from this embarrassment …she was a disaster with wide eyes blushing cheeks …FUCK.

Adrian saw her flustered reaction which was by far the cutest thing he saw in his life … his vampire senses made her blushing cheeks clearly visible …the dark pink tint on her cheek made her impossibly adorable.

“welcome to Raines Corporation “ , he said with a bright smile

They made eye contact for just moment but everything stood still for that particular moment …it was mesmerising .

In that moment Adrian didn’t knew about Amy but he knew that they were going to go a long way .

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Coming Home Finale

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PART ONE || TWO || THREE || FOUR || FIVE ||  FINALE || BONUS

“Oh my god, I could marry you right now”

“I don’t think I’m in the right mind to give you an answer for that”

“So you are considering it, atleast?”

“Shut up, Yuta” I told the man sitting beside me as I try and rub away the headache I currently have

“We’re finally done with this, I’m grateful that Taeyong picked us for this launch but damn I don’t think I’ll ever do this again” he said while he was still busy typing away on his laptop

“I’m with you on that one, why did we say yes again?”

“He used the eyes”

“Ah yes, that” I chuckled then went back to the files we were reviewing. 

“This is the only work I’m doing and I’m drained. How did you do this and the planning?” he asked me shooting me a quick look 

“I feel like I haven’t slept in months, so that’s great. But all in all I’m glad everything turned out okay and now it’s all almost done”

“And save. That’s it. That’s the last of it. We’re done”

I held out my hand for a highfive which he happily returned, “Is Johnny coming in tomorrow?” he asked while he closes his laptop and fix some of the documents on the table

“Yes, I’m actually picking him up tomorrow”

“Shouldn’t you be resting before the big day?” 

“You know Yuta, when you’re a mom you don’t actually get rest days. I just happen to have more than one child sometimes” I joked, I was referring to my friends who are grown adults but seem to always call me like a lost child

“I promise I won’t call you on the weekends” He said with a smile

“I might just say yes to your proposal if you keep that promise” I mumbled, making him release a chuckle

“See you on the big day, go home get some rest”

“Will do, see you” we said our goodbyes before he went back to his own office, leaving me on my own for a while 

Not even a minutes later, my phone started to ring. My brother’s name shown across the screen

“Please tell me Chae Yoon is fine”

“Hi noona, yes she’s fine she’s currently just running around. Chae Yoonie say hi to your mom”“ It was Hyuck who was talking on the other side of the line, then shouted out for Chae who just screamed back at him.

I laughed at the two. Ever since she was a baby, she has always been fond of my younger cousin, their bond didn’t lessen throughout the years. If anything, now that Chae Yoon’s a toddler running around and talking as best as she could, they cause as much havoc they can when they’re together. 

“Why are you calling from Mark’s phone?” I asked

“Oh right that. Well you see, we were playing hide and seek right, I left my phone somewhere and now I can’t remember where it is, but can you bring back some food when you pick Chae up?”

“I was already thinking that. What do you want?” he then listed off some food for dinner before saying a quick thank you then going back to whatever he was doing. 

Finishing the last of my work, I picked up the dinner for us then drove over at Mark and Hyuck’s apartment which they also share with Renjun. He was out of town for a while for some workshop but he’ll be back by tomorrow just like the rest of our friends. 

“Oh thank god you’re here. I’m hungry” Mark said when he opened the door to let me in

“Nice to see you too” 

“Sorry, Hi noona thank you for the food” he said again with a smile before taking the take away bags from me. After dinner I took Chae Yoon home, she looked like was ready to sleep

“Did you have fun today baby?” I asked her

“Yes, Hyuck oppa gave me cookies” she happily told me

“Really? Did you say thank you?”

“Yes, mommy. And we played lots of games. Mark oppa let me play too” she said, referring to her uncle as Mawk because she’s still working on her r’s

“That’s great. Want to come with us to pick up uncle Johnny?”

Fastfoward to next day. When we got back home, as expected Chae Yoon was knocked out. I need to wake her up early tomorrow too to go and pick up Johnny from the airport

For the past three years, Johnny has been coming back and forth from Korea ever since he got assigned the job over at US.

I thought a lot about Taeyong’s offer, I really did think about moving over to another country but I thought about my daughter. I can’t just take her dad away from her and the same to Jaehyun.

After much deliberation it made more sense for Johnny to take over the project overseas. He was born in the US and he’s been wanting to go back for some time now. So that’s what happened, Taeyong agreed with that proposition to just have Johnny and I to switch positions.

Fast forward to now, three years later. A lot has changed since then. Apart from the obvious like Chae Yoon being a big girl, Mark graduated from college last year and now works for the entertainment industry as an upcoming producer, Hyuck and the rest of the gang about to graduate.

“Can you see him? Is he there yet?” Hyuck asked the little girl who was sitting on his shoulders, holding tightly onto him

“No, there’s no uncle Johnny” the little girl answered, she was happily waiting at the airport for one of her uncles to arrive

“Tell me when you see him okay, make sure to scream out Uncle Johnny!” Hyuck said making the little girl laugh

“Okay!”

“Hyuck, please put down my daughter” I said when I saw the two of them standing by the arrivals gate

“But I need to look for uncle Johnny, mommy”

“Fine but please hold on to Hyuck okay, and you please be careful” I told the older one of the two, when those two are together lord knows what havoc they will cause. Chae Yoon’s favoritism over one of her younger uncle never faded throughout the years, if anything she’s closer to him more than anyone else.

“I see him! I see him! Uncle Johnny” Chae Yoon said then waved her hand up, Johnny turned towards the direction of the voice calling out to him. He immediately spotted the little girl excitedly waving her hands around.

“Chae Yoonie!” he said then walked to where his close, almost family, are.

“Look at you, you’re a big girl now”

“I’m three now”

“Three? wow that’s a lot of years”

That got Hyuck and me laughing for a bit, “Hi hyung, did you bring back any present for me?” Hyuck asked while setting down Chae Yoon on her feet

“Yes, I bought a hug for you”

“On second thought, I don’t think I need a gift”

“Y/N, thanks for picking me up”

“No worries, glad to have to back” I told Johnny as we share a quick hug

“How was your stay there? My guess is busy, I heard Taeyong held a meeting last week planning to open another site in New York” I asked him while we make our way to the car

“Yes, I’ve been packed with meeting up until yesterday I barely had time to pack my sutff. But of course I’m not going to miss this for the world”

“How about you? You okay?” He asked me, now I’m talking to big brother Johnny instead of business colleague Johnny

“Been busy too, with the planning and all”

“I’m sure you did good” he said with a smile

“She did. I don’t know what she keeps on worrying about” Hyuck butted our conversation

“Right Chae Yoonie? Your mom did good” he told the little girl

“Yep! Mommy bought me a pretty dress” Chae Yoon told the older boys excitedly

“Really? You can show me tomorrow. Oh by the way, I bought some presents for you” Johnny told the little girl making her look up at the tall man in excitement

“You didn’t need to, but thanks” I told him

“I’ll drop you off at Taeyong’s then I’ll drop Hyuck over at Mark’s then this little one over at three dad’s. Why do I feel like a mom dropping her kids off to daycare?”

“Oooh how was her first day in daycare by the way?”

“Don’t ask that, hyung” Hyuck said

“Too late. I cried in the car for a solid 30 minutes, I wanted to call her teacher every 5 minutes. The three hours she was there felt like the longest three hours ever”

I felt my phone vibrate, it was Mark calling

“Don’t tell you you burned your apartment down” I said when I picked up the call

“I didn’t. I just called to check in, is hyung there?” Mark asked from the other side of the line. I then passed the phone to the eldest one

“Missed me, Mark Lee?” Johnny asked, they talked for a bit over the phone while we walk to the car

“So Hyuck, got any new news for me?” I asked him while we were in the car

“News?”

“OH THAT” he said when he realized what I was asking about, my brother still on the line and is now on speaker phone

“Yes well, last Thursday was our last day right so we planned to go out and eat. We were all down to go but Mark said he couldn’t, I was wondering why since Lucas was coming with us too, he didn’t have anyone else to go with right”

“What are you talking about? I have other friends you know”

“Oh now you decide to join our conversation” our cousin rebutted

“Only because you’re about to tell my sister something else” Mark reasoned out to which Hyuck started to make faces while the one defends himself

“So something did happen” Johnny prodded

“No! Nothing happened, Donghyuck is just being being dramatic”

“Excuse you, I’m not being dramatic. You did ditch us”

“I didn’t ditch you if I never said yes to you in the first place”

“So who was he with?” I asked, waiting for either of them to spill the answer

“Noonaaaaa” Mark whinned, clearly not enjoying the conversation

“What? as your sister I need to know who you’re hanging out with”

“He was with-”

“I was with a girl. Okay. There I said it” Mark said. interrupting Hyuck from revealing where he was and who he was with

“I was just going to say you were with another friend but yea that works too, he was with a girl from our dance class”

“Oooh that’s cute”

“She’s cute, noona. You’ll like her”

“Shut up, Donghyuck-ah” Mark told the younger one

“Does she have a name?” I asked Mark gently, I respects his privacy, if he doesn’t want to tell me  then it’s okay, if he does then that’s fine too.

“Mina” he mumbled. it was almost inaudible

“What?”

“Mina, her name is Mina. And she’s a friend okay, stop making it weird” he said more to Hyuck than anyone

“Okay whatever you say”

“Will I ever get to meet this friend of yours? You should invite her over for dinner the next time you come visit”

“I didn’t want to intrude. it’s still your place so I don’t want to be inviting my friends”

“You’re just taking a friend, no biggie. I can still remember when you two decided to invite five other kids in our house” I said with a smile, recalling the old memories of Mark, Hyuck and the rest of their friends

“The rest of the kids will be here tomorrow, I know Chae will love one more person to play with. That is if she wants too”

“Is Jeno oppa coming?” the little one asked making everyone in the car laugh

“I thought I was your favorite” Hyuck told her, but he was ignored. The little one just repeated her question “Is he coming?”

“Yes he is, so you better behave” Hyuck told the girl, she shot him a smile before going back to just grazing out the passing scenery as the drive by

“Just tell me when she can come and I’ll make dinner”

“Can I come?” Hyuck asked

“No”

“Ofcourse” Mark and I answered Hyuck at the same time

“And you wonder why noona is my favorite cousin” Hyuck muttered

“I’m her favorite, what are you talking about” Johnny rebutted 

“No, I’m her favorite” Chae Yoon said then raised her arm making her mom chuckle at her reaction

“Well no one can beat that, fine you can be her favorite”

The rest of the ride was spent on just catching up and making plans about tomorrow.

“Just please don’t be late” I told Hyuck when I dropped him off

“Yes yes, we’ll be there. See you. Bye Chae Yoonie” he whispered to the sleeping girl

“Hey, sorry I was cleaning up” Jaehyun said when he opened the door

“Hi, baby. Did you get to see uncle Johnny?” He asked our daughter, picking her  up so they could talk eye to eye, she was still a bit grumpy from her nap

“She took a nap in the car, that’s why she’s still a bit grumpy”

“It’s fine, she’s always like that in the morning. I wonder where she gets it from” I knew where she got it from. I just rolled my eyes at him before passing her overnight bag to him

“You’re coming tomorrow right?” I asked him

“Of course” he answered with a gentle smile

“Thank you, and please don’t be late. We need her there” I said pointing to the little girl who was now resting in his arms

“Don’t worry I’ll take her, go get some rest” 

WIth one last smile I said my goodbye to him. 

I wasn’t really nervous for tomorrow, after months and months of planning I’m just happy that everything went smoothly and now we’re one day away the big day.

I made my way back home to take some rest and check for final details. I know everything is already set and ready to go but I just wanted to make sure. 

Mark was busy since all of the guys are coming today too, Taeyong was busy with Johnny and the rest of the guys who are visiting from abroad. So I spent the rest of the day relaxing. 

After a bath I was just arranging my closet when I turned to look at my dress, for a while I just stood there looking at it. 

In an alternate universe I would be walking down the aisle to the man I loved so much waiting for me at the aisle, of course that isn’t a possibility that I can just shut down. 

Jaehyun was my first love but he wasn’t the last. 

If he was then he would be the one waiting at the end of the aisle for me.

I didn’t notice I was twirling the ring on my finger, something I’ve unconsciously done throughout the years. 10 years and I’m still wearing this band I was given when I was high school, I smiled at the thought of that. 

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“I need four shots of espresso, or one of your americano coffee order I swear” I told Jaemin whose tie I’m currently tying

“Relax, noona. Everything will be okay” he told me with a comforting smile

“Say that to me when you’ve planned a wedding yourself, Taeil and his fiance trusted me with this. Why? I would never understand but I don’t want to let them down”

“Is she freaking out again?” Jeno asked as he enters the room

“Yes”

“No”

“You, where’s your bow tie? you told me you wanted a bow tie” I pointed at the other boy who was showing me his undeniably adorable eyesmile

“It’s right here, don’t worry I’m about to put it on” he said the walked to a nearby mirror

“Will you please look for Chenle and Jisung?” I asked Jaemin when I was done helping him

“No problem, Jeno-ssi let’s go” he called his bestfriend, they both said their goodbye’s before walking out

I took a deep breath before checking the time. Almost all the guys are here, Johnny was with Taeil, along with Taeyong. 

I was glad when he asked me if I could help in planning his wedding. I was ecstatic. The news wasn’t a surprise to our friend group seeing that Taeil and his fiance have been together for a long time. There was no denying that they were meant for each other. 

“Knock knock” I heard a voice say said from the other side of the door before it opened widely

“Mommy!” I hear Chae Yoon shout then saw her running to me

“Hi, pretty girl. Did you just get here?” I asked her as I pick her up

“Yes, look my dress has sparkles on it” she said pointing at the skirt of her dress

“It’s really pretty, you look beautiful love” I told her then kissed both of her cheeks making her giggle

Someone cleared their throat making me turn my attention to them. 

Through the years that passed I can’t say I didn’t try to fall in love again. I did. I went on dates, met guys but it just never worked out. I decided to not think too much about it and just wanted to focus on my work and my daughter. 

I also can’t deny the fact that I know I’ll never fall in love the way I did with the man standing by the door looking like he’s about to take my breath away with one smile. 

All the things that happened with Jaehyun and I, the hardships and joys, the time we spent away from one another made me realize that a lot of my life I spent with him. He was one of the constant in my life. 

And he always will be. He is the father of my child. My first love. The love of my life. 

No one can ever compete with that. There’s really no competition to begin with. 

But for the past three years we learned how to grow as individuals, to live again without the each other. When he told me he wanted to be the man who was worth my love I wanted to tell him he already was. 

“Hi”

“Hey, glad you could make it” I told Jaehyun with a smile

“Wouldn’t miss it for the world, I saw the set up outside by the way. It looks great” 

“Thank you, I mean I didn’t do it alone but yea thanks” even after all this years he could make me feel flustered. And the worst part is he knows. 

I could just see the smile he was fighting to show while he was looking down on the floor

“Is Hyuck oppa here?” Chae Yoon asked, taking my attention away from her dad

“Yes, he’s outside with the rest of the guys”

“Can I go?” she asked, I set her back down before fixing the bow on her hair

RIght on time, Jeno and Jaemin returned. “Chae Yoonie! You;re here” Jaemin cheerfully greeted the girl

“Your dress looks pretty, you look beautiful Chae” Jeno told the little girl, she muttered a shy thank you. I turned to look at Jaehyun who was watching the whole thing happen infront of him

I can’t help but laugh, making Jaehyun look at me

“Can you take her to Hyuck?” I asked the two guys

“Sure, noona. We’ll take care of her, let’s go Chae” 

I watched as the three walk back outside, I almost forgot Jaehyun was still in the room. 

“You look beautiful by the way, white dress and all”

I just rolled my eyes at his comment, looking at the mirror to check my hair

“What? You do look good” he said

“Stop, I know what you’re doing” I told him, looking at him through the mirror

“I’m not doing anything. You do look good”

He was just looking at me as if he wanted to say something but he was holding it in. I don’t know what it was and I was scared to ask. 

“Did you ask Rose to come?” I asked, his expression quickly changed. Something I didn’t quite catch but it was there, I’m just not sure what it was.

“No”

“Oh”

I don’t know what else to say, especially since he’s looking at me like that again

“Y/N-”

Just as he was about to say something, Yuta bursted in the room

“Y/N, I need- Oh sorry was I interrupting something?” he asked, looking between me and Jaehyun

“No”

“I’m gonna go and see what Chae Yoon is doing” Jaehyun said the exited the room without another word

“I did interrupt something, didn’t I?” Yuta asked me

“Shut up, what do you need?” I asked him

“I actually forgot”

“I swear to god I’m going to hit you, one day I will do it with no warnings” I told him. We walked out of the room to the garden outside where the ceremony would take place. Chairs were set up and flowers were everywhere, not going to lie I wanted to give myself a pat.

“You look happy” I hear Yuta say making me turn to look at him

“I actually am, thank you for asking” I say with a smile, and it is true. The big day finally came and seeing everyone here makes me feel happy. 

“They never dated you know” he suddenly said, I already knew what he was talking about.

“That I wasn’t asking” I said then turned my attention to the bouquet I was holding

“Then why are you-“

“I know where this conversation will go and the answer is no, Yuta”

“I was just going to ask why you went alone today, but it’s cute you’re being defensive and all” I just rolled my eyes at him.

Working with him for the past years made us bond more and form an unexpected friendship, I’m not going to lie he did intimidate me when we first met but the more you know Yuta the more you’ll know that he’s an actual sweetheart.

“You’re a headache, Nakamoto. Why don’t you go and find someone else to bother”

“You looked like you need someone to bother you though”

“Are you flirting with me?”

“No, I mean no offense but I don’t like you like that. No worries you look cute though”

“You’re a big nuisance to me, you know that”

“He’s looking our way, ooooh your ex is watching us” Yuta said then continuously poked me on the side

“Shut up, are you drunk? It’s too early to be drunk”

“But he is looking though”

“Shut up”

With one final tease from him, he walked away. After a while everyone was called to the venue to they could begin the ceremony, Chae Yoon was sitting next to me then Jaehyun on her other side,

Throughout the ceremony I could feel his eyes on me, I was trying my best not to look affected by it but I was. I still didn’t know what he’s thinking about but there is something going on. 

“And now, you may kissyour bride”

Applause and cheers surrounded us. It was a beautiful ceremony, we were surrounded with our family and the atmosphere was just so full of happiness and love. 

The festivities went through the day, at some point Chae Yoon started to feel a little grumpy due to feeling tired and needing a nap. Good thing was Jaehyun’s parents were there too, so they offered to take be back home and let her rest while we enjoy the rest of the night.

“We got her, go enjoy the night” I hear Jaehyun’s mom tell him

“Goognight, Y/N” she told me before they drove off. 

We walked back to the party, apart from the faint music that could be heard from a distance there wasn’t anything else. We were just walking in silence. 

I felt Jaehyun’s hand on my arm, making me look up at him

“What?”

He just shot me a smile before walking to the opposite direction and pulling me along with him

“Where are we going?” I asked him, shooting him a skeptical look

“Do you trust me?” his question took me by surprise because it sounded more than a simple question

I noticed that we were walking back to where the altar was, it was on the other side of the venue. The party and dinner was on the other side, while the wedding altar was on the other. 

“Jae, what are we doing?” I asked him, I stopped walking which made him stop too

“Do you trust me?”

“Depends on what you’re about to ask me”

He showed me a smile smile before holding out his hand for me to take

“Trust me enough that when I say still want to see you walk down the aisle you wouldn’t run away from me”

We just stared at each other for awhile before I looked at the hand he was still holding out to me

“You’re a dork” I mumbled before taking his hand, I hear him chuckle before we started to walk again

“You know this is not how it works, you’re supposed to wait down the aisle. Not walk with me” I told him

“Alright, wait here” He let go of my hand before walking the rest of the way and standing on the aisle by himself

“Please don’t run away” he told me

“I can’t, I’m wearing heels”

I love how easy it was with him. How effortlessly our conversations flow, how he knew what to say. Even after all this time we could still joke around.

I walked the rest of the way. My heart was beating faster with every step I take, the smaller the distance between us the more I see the small smile on his face.

And I knew,

I knew what he has been thinking about. 

The little smiles, the glances, the staring at me during the ceremony, the question he was about to ask before Yuta interrupted us. 

I knew. 

“Hi” I told him when I got to where he was, now standing directly in front of him

“So, what’s next?” he asked me, the look on his eyes told me he was planning something

“Well usually before we get here we’d have to be engaged. We were but you know- I mean- That’s not what I meant. I’m shutting up now” the more I rambled on the bigger the smile on his face gets

“If I ask you to marry me, again, will you say yes?”

“Why? will you ask me?” I asked back

“Only if you promise to say yes” he said the held out his pinkie finger, “You’re a dork” I mumbled, the smile on his face was contagious I couldn’t help but smile back

“I said I wanted to be the man who deserves your love, someone who is worth to spend the rest of your life with”

“Jaehyun” I wanted to say more but no words were coming out of my mouth, he was looking at me like I was the only one he wanted, like this moment right here was something he knew would happen. 

Maybe he did. 

He looked like a man that didn’t have one ounce of doubt in his mind.

Time did pass and seasons changed again. But right now, right now it felt like spring. Like life was about to start again, and everything was in full bloom. Our story finally came in full circle. 

“You still remember that?” I nodded as an answer to him

“I meant what I said, if you want me still then I do want to come home to you. I know I've put you through a lot. I know it isn’t fair that we’ve waited this long but I did want to be the right man for you” he was holding both of my hands in his

“You’ve always been the right one for me, the fact that you let me put myself first told me you do love me. You weren’t scared to let go of me if it meant we both could learn and grow from it” I told him, he shot me a smile before pulling me closer to him

The next thing I know I was in his arms, it felt like home. He was my home.

“Thank you” I hear him whisper

We still had a lot of things to talk about, but now we know we have a whole lifetime to do it. I didn’t have to worry even if the seasons change because I know he’ll be there.

 This time I’m not scared of change, we’ve been through it all. We did it together, we did it on our own. I’m thankful that Jaehyun did what he did. He knew we both needed the time and space for us to grow and be better.

“Was this a yes? or-”

“You just had to ruin the moment” I mumbled through his shirt, I felt his chest vibrate when he laughed making me look up at him

“Come home to me?” I asked him

“Always”

And with that he closed the space between us, our lips meeting once again. A kiss that seals not a only a promise of a new beginning for us but also a lifetime we’ll thread together. 

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Promise (Jungkook x You x Yoongi ONESHOT)

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A/N : And also, I’m trying a new thing here and you are in no way obligated to do it but if any of you like my stories and want to give some support, why not buy me a coffee? ☕💜

“I’m pregnant,”

“Oh fuck,”

Y/N looks at the boy in front of her with wide eyes. Did the firat word that came out from his mouth is oh fuck?

“Jungkook?”

“Are you sure?” He ran his hand through his hair multiple times, brows furrowed. “I mean.. it could be a false positive. We only did it a few times and its your first time too. How can you be pregnant?”

“Well…” Y/N held up the 10 sticks in front of him. 10 sticks of pregnancy tests that has a big fat positive sign on it. “If all 10 of this faulty, then maybe I should just sue the company. And also,” she pass him a slip of paper. “I already went to the doctors to confirm before I came to you. I needed to be sure too,”

“Y/N…” Jungkook weakly took the paper and scan its content. Yes, his girlfriend is a few weeks pregnant.

“We are going to be okay right Kookie? We love each other. And I know we are young, but we can do this right?” Y/N tried to smile, holding his hand. “I can find some work and you can do so many things. You have a bright future ahead of you. You c-”

“Thats exactly it Y/N,” Jungkook cuts her off and pull his hand back.

“W-what do you mean?” She looks at his retracted hand and back up at his face. Something is going to go very wrong, she can feel it.

“We are young. A-and I do have a bright future ahead of me…” Jungkook looks at her with sad eyes. “Y/N… remember that audition I went to?”

“Y-yeah?”

“I didnt win that but I got 7 different other offers instead and I have chosen one. I’m going to be a trainee. A trainee to become an idol!” Jungkook smile. Y/N knows this has been his long time dream. She wont stop him from going right?

Y/N looks at the smiling boy in front of her.

“You got in?!” She jumped excitedly and hugged him. “Then whats the problem? You can train and I’ll find work for a few years first until you debut. We can stay in Seoul together Kookie and start a new life!” Y/N grins. “I know you will debut and be successful one day. You are Jeon Jungkook, I believe in you Kookie,”

“Y/N…” Jungkook pushes her slowly, breaking the hug and is met with confusion from her. “I cant bring you… I… uh… I am not allowed to date until I debut and a few years after that in fact..,”

“W-what?” Y/N was shocked to the core. What is he saying? Is he breaking up with her? When shes carrying his child? “But.. what about..” she looks down and rub her still flat stomach.

“I-I dont know,” Jungkook sighed. “Honestly, I dont. But.. we will find a way, I promise okay?” Jungkook smile and hugs her, kissing her forehead. “I’ll never leave you and our baby alone. You will never ever be alone, I promise,”

/////

“Eommmmaaaaa!”

Y/N was drag out from her memories at the sound of her 5 year old daughter calling her name. She quickly wiped her tears and look at the little girl.

“Yes Jasmine, what is it baby?”

“Until when will grandma sleep in the ground? Its dirty!” She pouted. “Is she not coming home?”

“Well.. baby… grandma uh.. she went to a special place to sleep, and the ground is the way in. She likes that place so much she told me to tell you that she wont be coming back until quite some tine. Okay baby?” Y/N stroke her daughter’s hair softly.

“Okay eomma. But tell her to come back soon. I miss her,”

“I know baby. I know,” Y/N sighed and hugs Jasmine tightly, whispering, “I miss her too. More than you can ever know,”

The day Y/N told Jungkook that she was pregnant was the last day she ever saw or heard from him. He went back home that night, with a promise that everything will be alright, that she wont be alone and he will come up with a plan. But he dissapeared the same night, no texts, no calls, no messages, no one knows where and never came back. Y/N worked hard to raised her daughter up alone with the help of her single mother. Jeon Jasmine, she named her, but she can never answer when the little girl asks why her family name is different than her eomma or where her appa is. Soon, Jasmine stop asking and the three of them live happily together, the memory of Jungkook locked away. Until Y/N’s mother passed away a week ago and Jasmine keep wondering where she went.

Grandma sleeping at a special place is the best excuse she could come up with and after a week, Y/N decided that its time. She have to move on and make new memories someplace else with Jasmine.

A new job, a new place, a new life, just the two of them.

“And baby? We are going to a special place too. Not the same place Grandma went to, but another one okay. Lets go. Pick up your stuffed bunny and lets go okay?” Y/N place her on the ground and picked up the two luggage bags, fitting only the things they needed the most. New memories requires new things, right? and she take a step into a new future, hoping to forget every awful memory that ever happen in Busan.

You promise I’ll never be alone. Then what am I now Jungkook? Y/N sighed and looks down when she felt a tug at her hand and saw Jasmine smiling at her, making her heart soared. Well, Kookie, maybe you are right, I will never be alone afterall.

/////

Y/N looks up from the newspaper in her hand to the small building in front of her. This is the right adress, so this must be the place.

Hiring Coffee Girl

Y/N tapped the newspaper again, takes a deep breath and walks in. Being a coffee girl is not exactly a high paying job, but after dropping out from school to raise Jasmine, Y/N only works a few odd jobs here and there in her small hometown, which means she has no experience to apply for a high paying job in the big city of Seoul. But coffee? That she can do.

“H-hello?” Y/N nervously looks around the building. How can a supposedly entertainment company be this quiet. Yeah, its a small, unknown one, but surely they must have a handful of staff atleast? Theres not even a reception in this building. A building that doesnt even look like an office. Y/N wandered around the building, finding courage in herself to explore more. She came all this way, with what little money she have, she have to ace this interview.

Getting a little deeper into the building, she passed a few closed doors and finally hears music coming from a bright lighted room. With shaky hands and sweaty palms, she makes her way to the room and knock softly on the slightly ajar door.

“H-hello? Is anybody in here?”

No answer.

After knocking a few more times Y/N decided to push the door, only to be greeted by the bright light of the room. With blinking eyes she focuses herself and saw the room is some sort of a music room, with a grand piano located right in the middle of it. But what catches her eyes the most is the man sitting at the piano, head between his hands, slumping in frustration.

Y/N nervously take a few small steps closer and whisper.

“H-hi. Hello? S-sir?”

Still no answer.

“S-sir?” She reached out and tap the man’s shoulder, who immediately whipped his around, glaring at her, making her jump.

“What?!”

“I-I’m sorry. I didnt mean to disturb you but I-”

“Who the hell are you?!” The man turned fully at her and Y/N managed to sink in his features. He is good looking, no doubt. With short black hair, his beautiful pale skin glowing, his dark eyes shooting her death glares.

He is the most beautiful man she has ever seen.

“Are you deaf? Or u cant talk or something?” He waves his hand in front of her, making her jump again. “Heeellloooo?”

“S-sorry. I-im here to interview for the coffee girl position?” She stuttered.

“Do I look like an interviewer to you? Get out from here. This is private practice!” The man huffed and turned back around to his piano, shuffling through his music notes.

“Sorry,” Y/N quickly bows and turned to leave but stopped in her tracks when she heard a loud sigh from that same man, while loudly mumbling to himself.

“What cant I get this next note right? God damn it!” He slammed his hands on the piano keys, making a loud noise. Y/N knew she shouldnt, especially after the man just told her directly to get out but she turned around and approach him anyway.

“M-maybe I can help. M-may I? See? Your music notes?”

He looks up and glares at her.

“You? Coffee girl? What the hell do you know about music?” He scoffs.

“Maybe not as much as you Sir,” Y/N starts to get annoyed. How arrogant is this man? “But it seems like you are stuck and maybe a fresh perspective from a coffee girl can help,” she gritted her teeth, glaring back straight to his face. The man kept quiet for a moment before sighing.

“Fine, what do I have got to lose anyway,”

Y/N smile and took the papers he offered. After reading through and thinking for a moment, she smile.

“How about this? May I?” She gestured to the piano. “Sure. Go ahead,” he scooted a bit to give her space.

“I was thinking of something like this,” she starts to press the keys, making out a beautiful melody that fits the next part of the song perfectly. The man turns to her, mouth gaped open.

“H-how did you think of that? I have spent 4 days locked up in here, trying to think of the perfect continuation for that part!”

“Well,” she smiles, “sometimes a fresh perspective is all you need,”

“Are you sure you are just a coffee girl?” The man looks at her skeptically.

“Well, I am not practically hired yet, but I am hoping I would be. I reaaaaally need a job,” Y/N shrugs.

“No, I mean, you must have some sort of knowledge or maube some dumb luck or talent in music to do this so effortlessly. Who are you?”

“Well.. I do have a big interest in music. Me and my boyfriend, well, uh… my ex boyfriend,” Y/N gave a small smile at the memory of Jungkook, “use to compose songs together. I also studied music a little before I dropped out from school,”

“Do you still need a job?” The man looks at her with a serious face now.

“Yeah. I absolutely need one,”

“Then I am going to get you one,” he flashed a gummy smile and pull her hand.

“Wait, where are we going?!”

“To meet the CEO,”

“C-CEO?! Does the CEO really need to interview me for just a coffeegirl position!?” Y/N shrieked, making the man laugh.

“Of course not. We couldnt care less who will make us coffee. But I am going to make you a song writer for the company,” he grins again.

“W-what?!” Y/N felt dizzy. Is this man for real?

He just smile and continue to drag her to a room on the second floor. Suddenly he stops right before entering the room and smile, his hand shooting out to hers.

“I am going to be your colleague. We are going to spend a lot of time together since we are gonna be writing songs. I should at least know your name coffee girl,” he grins.

“I-Im Y/N. L/N Y/N,” Y/N reached out and shook his hand.

“Hi Y/N. I’m Yoongi. Min Yoongi, and it would be a pleasure to work with you,”

/////

“Working hard?”

Y/N jumped when that soft whisper hits her ears and turned around to smack the source of the voice right in the head.

“Owww!” “Serves you right Min Yoongi!” She pouted. “I told you dont sneak up on me when I am working!”

“But I brought coffee, and donuts. Is that enough to forgive me?” He gave her his famous gummy smile, holding up the tray of hot coffees and brown paperbag filled with donuts.

“Hmmm, depends,” Y/N crosses her arms and pretends to think. “Is it strawberry filled?”

“Of course it is. Dont you know by now to not underestimate Min Yoongi?”

“Then you are forgiven,” she smile and catch the bag that Yoongi threw at her. “Mmhhm delicious!”

Yoongi took a seat in front of her and smile. Writing music time is his favorite part of work. Sure, it has always been his favorite, but ever since that fateful day Y/N walks in looking for the coffeegirl position, it has gone even better.

“So, how was your band mates?”

“Oh right!” Yoongi smile. After years or training and just coped up writing music, he is finally introduced to another 6 trainees that will soon debut with him as part of the same group. Earlier today was the first time they actually officially met each other. Sure, he has seen them around the company sometimes, but never propeely introduced. “They are great. But I am the second oldest. Which means I have 5 bratty little brothes to deal with. I thought having you is punishment enough,” he laughs.

“Yahh. Who are you kidding? You love me,” Y/N giggles and continue to eat her donuts, which fillings has now dripped on her chin. Yoongi smiles at the sight of her scrunching her nose, brows furrowed trying to wipe the mess and mumble only loud enough for him to hear.

“I do. I really do love you,”

“Did you say something?” Y/N looks up at him, taking him by surprise.

“N-no. Just got some inspiration for the music. Stop eating and lets get to work you piggy,” he laughs and ruffles her hair.

“Yah, Im no piggy!” Y/N giggles. “Anyway, how long do you think PD-nim will keep with the rule that only married woman can meet and work with your group? I want to meet them too!” Y/N pouts.

“Well, a rule is a rule, and we are all devastatingly good looking you know, you might fall in love,” he laughs.

“That rule shouldnt apply to me. I have a kid!” Y/N protested. “And I am already working with you, for so many hours a day too! Whats the difference?”

“You might have a kid, but you are still single,” Yoongi rolled her eyes. Y/N had introduced Jasmine to him a month after they started working together, and just like her mother, the little girl managed to win his cold heart in a matter of seconds. “And its different with me. You knew me before I was an idol. Before I get all this cool clothes, 10 inch makeup and this swaggie dance moves. You already see me as a friend,” Yoongi smiles although deep inside he wished Y/N would say something about how he is more than a friend.

Y/N shrugs.

“Whatever. I still think the rule is stupid. I worked here but I cant see them? Stu-pid,” Y/N rolls her eyes and start to work. “But hey, atleast I get to spend time with you. And thats more than enough, right Yoongs?”

Yoongi smile at the nickname.

“Absolutely,”

/////

Y/N woke up that morning with her heart beating fast. She can feel something is happening today but she cant put her finger on what it is. Anxiously, she gets ready, take a shower, prepare breakfast for the two of them and send Jasmine off to school and make her way to the studio. Yoongi has a schedule today, so she will be working alone.

She smile at the thought.

Who knew that grumpy man she accidentally met a year ago, yes, a year ago, become one of her bestfriends and also a member of an idol group. Yoongi has debuted a year ago and to this day, she still dont know who his bandmates are or ever meet them. She always miss their show due to her busy schedule, balancing between work and taking care of Jasmine, and since the group dont have that many shows to begin with, she never get the chance to see them.

1 new message Yoongs 😊

Y/N smile and clicked open the text. She knows hes busy but he never fails to atleast wish her a good morning. Without realizing, her face etched with a huge smile. Y/N shakes her head and clears her throat as she realized what shes doing. Why am I smiling just from his name anyway?

Im taking you to lunch today. You are finally meeting my infamous bandmates. See you at 1 😘

/////

Y/N smoothed down her wrinkled shirt as she paced back and forth in front of the building, waiting for Yoongi. She dont know how to feel right now, nervous? Not exactly. Trying to impress? Not so much. But she do want to atleast look presentable in front of Yoongi’s bandmates. She has been bugging him to let her meet them for a year and now that he managed to do so, she should atleast act her best.

A few minutes later a small van with tinted window stopped in front of the building and out the first face she seens coming out fron the sliding door flashed her a big gummy smile.

“Yoongs!” She jumped and hugs him. Yoongi laugh and hugged her back.

“Wow, someone is excited to see me. I feel so touched,”

“Yah, I’m lonely. Writing songs alone is not as much fun as it sounds okay!” She pouted playfully and smack his chest.

“I know, I know and I’m sorry. To make it up to you, I am finally giving you your wish. Come meet my bandmates,” he takes her hand and leads her closer to the van. One by one they climb out fron the van, smiling, shaling her hands, telling her how they love her songs and how Yoongi talked so much about her.

“Thats Seokjin-hyung, Jimin, Namjoon, Hoseok..” Yoongi peered inside. “Wheres the maknaes?”

“They are coming out. Tae is trying to wake our sleeping beauty,” Jin explained. “Sorry, our youngest like to sleep,” he gave a small laugh.

“Its alright. You guys must be tired. Thank you for still making time to have lunch with me,” Y/N smiles. Before Jin coukd answer, Taehyung climbed out from van.

“Hes awake! I did it. Hi, I’m Taehyung,” he grins and gave his hand for a handshake. Y/N who is still starstruck by his beauty awkwardly take his hand as the “sleeping beauty” everyone talked about climbed out the car, which almost give Y/N a heart attack.

“Hi, sorry, I’m Jung-

“J-Jungkook?”

All six pairs of eyes are opened wide at whats happening in front of them. Their faces turned from Y/N’s shocked face to Jungkook’s disbelief reaction.

“Wait, do you guys know each ot-” Yoongi didnt managed to finish his question when suddenly a pretty girl ran up to the group and hugs Jungkook tight.

“Babyyy, I have waited for so long! Me and the baby is hungry!” She pouted playfully and rubbed the slight bumped on her stomach. Y/N’s mind is spinning as she tries to register what is happening in front of her. “Oh sorry, I didnt realized theres someone else,” the girl giggles and turn to Y/N, bows and sticks out a hand.

“I’m Nayla, Kookies’ fiancee. And this is our soon to be Kookie junior,” she smile and rubbed her stomach again. “And you are?”

“I-I,” Y/N’s eyes flicked over to Jungkook’s face who just look at her with a sad expression. Not sad for the situation, but more like sad for her. “I uh, I have to go,” she bows quickly and ran back inside as fast as she can, leaving everyone in confusion.

/////

“Hey.. Y/N? Are you in here?” Yoongi’s soft voice calls out to here and she sense a figure coming closer to her as she quickly wipes her eyes but to no avail. The tears just keeps on coming. Yoongi sighed and sits on the floor besides her.

“H-how do you know I’ll be here?” She whispered, making Yoongi smile.

“Because, this is your sad room. I know you come here when you had a writers’ block, or you feel like your work is not good enough or when you are feeling anything bad at all,”

“Y-you notice?”

“Of course I do. I just thought you would appreciate it if I leave you alone whenever you come in here,”

“Then why arent you leaving me alone now?”

“Because I dont know what makes you sad this time. And I want to make you feel better. But I cant do that if you wont tell me. So… can you tell me? Please?” Yoongi scooted closer and tuck a stray hair behind her ears. “Please?”

“I-,” Y/N sniffles. “J-Jungkook…”

“You know Jungkook? I know hes a maknae brat, but what could he have done to make you this upset,” Yoongi wondered out loud. “Want me to beat him up?”

Y/N lets out a small smile in between her tears.

“N-no,” she smiles and takes a deep breath. “Jungkook… he uh..” Y/N starts to cry again. “J-Jungkook.. he is… Jasmine’s father,”

“What?!”

“And Yoongi, he has a fiance and a baby on the way!” Y/N burst out crying and Yoongi immediately leap forward and engulfed her in his tight hug. “Im alone Yoongs.. I thought when I find him I wont be alone anymore. B-but.. Jasmine and me will be alone,”

No, Y/N,“ Yoongi strokes her hair softly. “I promise you Y/N. You wont ever be alone. I’ll take care of you. I promise, I’ll take care of you,”

/////

Maybe its true when people say omce you notice or know something, you will never unseen it. After that fateful lunch meet up, Y/N keep seeing Yoongi’s band mates everywhere in the company. Of course, Jeon Jungkook included. Funny how for the one year she worked there, she didnt even crossed their shadow.

Still, she tries her best to avoid them l at any costs until one day, while she went to the rehearsal room early to meet Yoongi. He usually came early to finish a verse or two before their dance rehearsal and Y/N usually meet him there for a little catch up on work and leave before the others arrive. But as she pushed open the door, Yoongi was no where in sight, but she was met with a sweaty, dancing Jungkook instead.

“Oh.. uh, hi,” Jungkook immediately turned off the music player and stops, wiping a small towel over the sweats on his face.

“Uh.. hi.. s-sorry. I was looking for Yoongi. He usually come here early..” Y/N looks down and fiddles with her fingers from the awkward tension. How can she felt awkward with the same guy who whispered words of love in her ear years ago?

“Oh. Something came up, so hyung will arrive a bit late today. You are welcone to wait,” Jungkook motioned to one of the couches.

“Uh.. thanks..” Y/N looks around, still not sure what to do. Should she just leave and text Yoongi?

“So how are you? We havent seen each other for so long,” Jungkook cuts off her thoughts, smiling at her. Y/N looks at him. How can he be so casual when the last time they saw each other is when she told him she was pregnant? And never heard from him again?

“Im good,” she smiles. “Im a song writer now. But of course you know that,” she slapped her forehead. “Obviously I write songs for your band,” she gives a small laugh. Jungkook smiles back at her.

“Yes, you are. So how is working with hyung? We are all scared to disturb him when hes writing, but you seems to be able to work well with him?”

“Yoongi is great actually. And he helped me a lot,” Y/N smile at the thought. “He works really hard. Im actually here becayse he actually always tired to fit in some writing before all of you have to rehearse your dance,”

“Ohhhh, typical hyung,” Jungkook smiles. “But Joonie hyung told me the rap line has something came up today. So they will be late. You want me to take a message?”

“Well…” Y/N thought for a moment. “Yeah, that would be great actually. Just tell him that I cant stay because I need to go school,”

“School?” Jungkook looks at her, confused. “Are you still studying?”

“Oh right no,” Y/N laughs, realizing Jungkook must be confused. “I need to go to Jasmine’s school. They are having a-”

“Jasmine?” Jungkook cocks an eyebrow and Y/N realized she never actually had a chance to introduce him to his daughter. Y/N feels her eyes starts to water and smile softly. This is the forst time Jungkook even hears his daughter’s name.

“Jasmine… well,” she spoke softly, eyes never leaving his. “Jasmine is my daughter. Well, actuallu, she is our daug-”

“Stop,” Jungkook raised his hand to stop her from finishing her sentence. Y/N looks at him with confusion. “Dont finish that sentence. I know what you are trying to say Y/N and I dont want to hear it. I dont want to know about her. At all,”

Y/N felt like her heart stopped. She knows Jungkook most probably dont love her anymore, but she had thought he would atleast feel something for his daughter? A little girl who never knew who her father was.

“Jungkook, I-”

“I know maybe you think by bringing her up I will feel regret, or maybe you can rekindle our love or something,” Jungkook sighed. “But let me tell you this now. I dont know how or what kind of funny joke the universe is trying to pull, that you somehow ended up working here of all places, but we are over. What we had are in the past and we will never be together again. We were teenagers, and I dont think I was even in love with you back then,” Jungkook runs a hand through his hair while Y/N is still dumbfounded about everything he says.

“Jung-”

“Let me finish ok?” He stops her. “I dont regret what I did. I know that makes me an asshole, but I am happy now. I love Nayla. I will do anything for her. And we have a baby on the way. And that baby is my daughter. I love my career and I have a bright future ahead of me, so please, please dont do anything that would jeapordize what I had or I swear Y/N, I’ll make you regret it. Clear?”

Y/N blinked a few times, the pain in her chest is killing her, her eyes trying hard to blink back the tears. Is this the Jungkook that she knows and love? How is he this heartless?

“C-clear,”

“Good,” without hesitation Jungkook turns and plays the song again and continue his dance, leaving Y/N standing there, frozen.

“Hey, you are early today,” Y/N turns and see Yoongi smiling at her. Without realizing, the other members are already entering the room one by one, chit chatting and placing their bags at the corner, ready to rehearse. She lifted her head to look at Jungkook, who is smiling and greeting his hyungs like their conversation never even happened.

“Yeah..” she smile weakly. “I uh just want to tell you that I dont feel well, so I’m gonna head home early today. Have a fun rehearsal,” Y/N smile, bows and quickly ran out before Yoongi can say anything.

/////

He knows. Jungkook knows that Y/N is avoiding him ever since the conversation they had in the rehearsal room. Jungkook didnt regret what he said because he meant every single word. He have a good thing going with Nayla and his career and he doesnt want a blast from the past to ruin it. But why is it he found himself cranking his neck to see if Y/N walks pass the hall? Or feeling irritated that Y/N didnt make any more effort to talk to him, or to introduce Jasmine to him? Or the feeling of extreme annoyance that Yoongi keeps on talking about her? He knows for sure that Yoongi knows about their history. Though his hyung never mentioned anything about it, but from the way Yoongi eyed him up and down or the sarcastic remarks he makes sometimes, Jungkook knows Yoongi knows exactly what happened. But what he doesnt know is, if Yoongi know about that conversation that took place a few days ago.

“Lets go Kookie,” Taehyung nudge him, snapping him out from his thoughts. Taehyung and him wanted to grab some food after the tiring rehearsal while the other hyungs decided to just go back to the dorm and sleep the say away, exhausted. They walked the short distance to their favorite snack stall near the building.

As Taehyung chatted away happily while stuffing his face full, Jungkook caught something at the opposite road in the corner of his eye.

Y/N.

He hasnt seen her for days already. Jungkook keeps on staring, blanking out everything that Taehyung is saying.

What is she doing?

Y/N turns to face him and thats when he realizes that she was talking to a little girl. Jungkook’s heart immediately beats faster at the sight fo the girl’s brown doe eyes, smiling and looking up to her mother with clear adoration.

Jasmine. His daughter.

Jungkook smiles without realizing. Sbe is so beautiful, and happy. Happy without him. Without a father. Because her father disown her. Jungkook’s smile turn to a frown. But the frown gets deeper when he saw Yoongi walks towards them and Jasmine immediately runs to his hyung and hugs him as Yoongi kneels to her height. He saw how Yoongi adjusted his daughter’s beanie and ruffle her hair. And how her tiny hands hugs Yoongi’s neck as he picks her up. How Y/N smiles warmly at the two of them. To everyone else, they look like a freaking happy family. But Jungkook knows better.

Because thats his family. And he wants it back.

/////

Ever since then, Jungkook has been following Y/N’s every step. And hes not being subtle about it either. Hes obviously watching and staying close and keeps on making snide remark about Yoongi and his closeness to her whenever they are together. At one point Y/N have had enough and drag the maknae to an empty rehearsal room.

“Why are you acting like this?”

“I dont know what you mean,” Jungkook shrugs. “Can I go now?”

“No! You know exactly what I mean. Why are you acting like a jealous freak?!” Y/N is frustrated with his behavior

“Fine!” Jungkook raised both his hands. “I dont want you close to hyung. Yoongi hyung,” Jungkook crosses his arms in front of his chest.

“Why the hell not? Hes my friend. And who are you to tell me what to do?!”

“Well, for starters, I’m the father of your daughter. I dont want you to simply let my daughter close to anyone!”

“What?!” Y/N looks at him in disbelief. “You said Jasmine is not your kid remember. What? You suddenly want us back now?!” Y/N scoffs.

“N-no. I dont want that. I just…” Jungkook is loss for words.

“Then what do you want from me Jungkook? You said you dont want me to get close. You said you dont want to get to know your daughter, but you flipped out everytime Im close to Yoongi! What the hell do you want?!”

Jungkook kept quite, his chest heaving heavily from his breath, trying to control his emotions. Y/N takes a deep breath and looks at him.

“Jungkook.. I love you. I admit it. I love you. I still do. Even after years you left me and treating me like crap ever since we met again, I still love you,” Y/N confessed. “Choose me Jungkook. Marry me and lets forget the past mistakes. Be with me. Be here for me, for Jasmine. For once in her life. Marry me Jungkook,”

“I-I cant…”

“You… cant? Why? Why Jungkook? Tell me why!”

“I-I dont know! I dont know okay!But all I know is that I dont want to get married now Y/N. I am still young!” Jungkook lets out his frustration. To be honest, he really dont know how he feels.

“You are engaged to Nayla, Jungkook! Engaged to be freaking married!” Y/N screamed back.

“Nayla and me will only be married in a few years time. We never picked a date yet,” Jungkook justify.

“Then fine, okay. I’ll wait. I have waited for so many years, whats a few more.m right? Jungkook, I love you. Please,” Y/N sniffles. “Please, leave Nayla. We have a family. You, me and Jasmine. Please Jungkook, Nayla will understand. We are a family. We are meant to be together!” Y/N reached out and hold his hand. Hoping this time, he wont leave them again.

“Its not because of Nayla or anyone. Dont you get it?! Its you! I dont want to marry you!”

“W-what?” In shock, Y/N drop his hand, mouth gaping open. Jungkook finally said it. Shes the reason why. Shes the reason why Jasmine doesnr have a father. Jungkook left not because he was afraid of commutmentor anything. Its because… of her. Jungkook just doesnt want to marry her.

“Wait Y/N, thats not what I meant,” Jungkook quickly realized what he said and try to reached for her hand again but she swatted it away.

“No Jungkook. For the first time you left me, I finally understand. Its very clear now why. You dont love me. You never did. And you never will. All this years I thought if I found you, I can trt to make you fall in love with me. But how can I? How can I if you never love me in the first place?” Y/N laughs emotionlessly. “I-Im gonna go,”

“No Y/N, wai-”

“No Jungkook. Let me go. And this time I promise I will leave you alone,”

/////

“Hey…” Yoongi smiles and take sits down on the steps besides her. Y/N quickly try to wipe her flowing tears but failed. Its just too much. “I didnt mean to eavesdrop… but I passed by the rehearsal room, and I kinda heard everything. Are you… okay?”

“Why are you so nice to me Yoongs?” Y/N sniffles, letting her tears flows down. She doesnt want to keep it inside anymore. “I am sure you have better things to do than be with me and all my drama. Than entertaining a kid who is not even yours. You dont have to be nice to me just because you feel like you have to. Im okay,”

“Is that what you think Y/N? That I have to?” Yoongi gave a small laugh. Y/N nodded.

“Im a nobody. Just a small town girl who you helped to get a job. You have big things ahead ready for you Yoongs. And I am sorry I drag you into this,”

“Hey…” Yoongi cups her face to make her look at him. “You might be a small town girl who I helped. But I know for sure that even if I didnt, you will be great elsewhere. So actually, I am the one who should thank tou for picking to work with me,” he flashed his gummy smile, making Y/N smile a little. “Y/N… you might be a small town girl, but you are so much more to me,”

Y/N looks him, confusion clear in her eyes.

“You are the girl whos talent so raw, so amazing, it amazes me. You ate the girl who with just a smile, or even a yawn,” he laughs, “makes my heart beats uncontrollably. I dont know how or when it happens… actually, I do,” Yoongi smiles. “It happens from the first day you tapped my shoulder and said I should open up and listen to some fresh persepctive. My heart cant stop beating at the thought of you ever since then, my mind cant stop thinking about you ever since and I just cant bloody stop smiling at the thought of you, at the sound of your name Y/N. There.. you know everything now. So I hope you dont think that I have to take care of you. I hope you know that I want to take care of you, because the thought of you and Jasmine alone or sad or unhappy makes me want to protect you, love you and just.. make you smile again,”

“Yoongi..,” Y/N whispered his name so softly while his eyes still locks on hers. “I… but I cant-”

“Hey,” he takes her hand and rubs it softly. “I am not telling you all this so that you will forget Jungkook or choose me. Its not my intention. Im telling you all this because you need to know how you make me feel, how important you are, how loved and how I need you. You dont have to say anything,”

“Yoongi…” Y/N cleared her throat, eyes glistening with tears. “I care for you. You are what makes me so strong to be here, to start this new life after I move. To face Jungkook and Nayla everyday. But Yoongi… Jungkook is my-”

“I know,” Yoongi smiles and squeezes her hand. “Jungkook is your first love. And its not easy to forget him. I know he is your first love Y/N, and I dont mind. Because… I am going to be your last love, and I promise I will wait however long that takes,”

Y/N mouth gaped open, but nothing came out. Speechless as she stares at Yoongi’s smiling face.

“I love you Y/N,” he whispered and kisses her forehead. “And you dont have to say anything,”

/////

Jungkook is going crazy. He didnt mean to say what he said. He was just so stressed about his feelings that it just came out. He loves Nayla, and the baby. He is happy. Was happy. Everything changes when Y/N appeared again in his life and he starts to doubt everything.

The jealousy, the longing, the constant nagging from Nayla asking why hes acting different… its all just too much. And when Y/N asks him to pick her, choose her, there and then, he lost it. He was scared, he was lost and he doesnt want to do something he will regret. But apparently, he did it anyway.

Its been a few months since then, and Y/N avoided him like a plague. It doesnt help that Yoongi is helping her to avoid Jungkook too, and worse, that hyung is getting extremely close to her too, and that shameless hyung is no longer hiding his feelings for her. His whole band knows about it now, and theres nothing Jungkook can do to stop him. Jungkook needs to see Y/N, to talk to her, to explain everything. He knows what he wants now. Its very clear now. He loves Y/N. He wants to be in her life again, to be Jasmine’s father, to watch her grow up with Y/N by his side. Never again missing anything in her life. Jungkook will be damned if he lets Y/N go to Yoongi. His own band mate. His own hyung. But what if its too late? What if Y/N stops loving him in this past few months? What if he lost his chances for good. He needs to see her.

And he needs to see her now.

“Y/N, please. Just hear me out,” Jungkook pulls her hand before she could escaped. After months trying, he finally gets hold of her writing schedule and waited at the music room where she and Yoongi always work together. He made sure its the day where Y/N is alone, no hyung in sight and waited for her for hours until she showed up. She has no where no run now.

“I have nothing to say to you Jungkook,” Y/N tries to escape but failed.

“But I do. So you need to listen!” Jungkook gripped her hand. “Please?” Y/N sighed and nodded. She cant never resist thise doe eyes.

“Thankyou,” he gives her a small smile. “Y/N, first I want to say I’m sorry. Sorry for saying I dont want to marry you. Sorry for saying I dont want to get to know our daughter. And most of all… sorry for leaving you all those years ago.. when I promised you that you wouldnt be alone,” he takes a deep breath. “I regret everything I did to you. I was stupid, a brat and selfish. I know that. But I also know one thing… I know that I love you. In love with you. And I dont want to live another day without you,”

Jungkook stops and looks at her, trying to gauge her reaction, but nothing. He cant read whats shes feeling, so he decides to continue.

“Y/N… I’ll do anything. I’ll go as fast as you want or as slow as you want. If you want to get married now, lets do that. If you want to wait for 10 more years, I’ll do that too. Please Y/N, you dont have to forgive me, but please, accept me…”

“What about Nayla?” Y/N finally speaks after being quite for a while.

“Nayla..” Jungkook sighs.“Theres something you should know Y/N. That baby.. its not mine,” Y/N gasps, surprised by his confession. “You see… I have been chasing after Nayla for quite some time… but she has always been in love with this one guy, her ex boyfriend. Then one day, she came to me crying, saying shes pregnant and her boyfriend left her… she was scared, and alone.. and for the first time, she said she wanted me. I said yes. I accepted her, and accepted her baby as my own. But.. she left… the guy came back, said he wanted her back and she went back to him. Nayla is not a problem to us anymore Y/N. We can be together,” Jungkook smiles.

After a moment of silence, Y/N lets out a long laugh.

“Y-Y/N?”

“So thats why you are acting like this. Because Nayla left you? Thats it isnt it?”

“What?! No!” Jungkook panics as he realized what Y/N must be thinking about. “No Y/N. I have realized long before she left me that I love you. I want to be with you. You and Jasmine. You!” He held her hand tightly. “Please, believe me Y/N,”

“How can I Jungkook? You have done nothing but breaks my heart and hurt me…”

“I know, I know. But I promise. And this time I really promise, that I will spend the rest of our lives to prove to you that I love you. To shower you with the love that you deserve. To be the father that our daughter deserve. Y/N… I know you still love me,” he places her hand in his heart. “And I promise, you will never be alone again. I will show you how much I love you. I love you Y/N. I love you with everything I got,”

Y/N looks down and looks back up to the face that she had always, always love. The face that he always longed for. Slowly, a smile appeared on her face.

“I love you,” Jungkook smile and leans closer, to finally give her the kiss she has been waiting for so long.

/////

Yoongi immediately turns away from the door and walks out from the building. He is pretty sure Y/N wouldnt notice that he missed their session today.

He was so excited to surprise her today, bringing her favorite donuts. Y/N has been happier lately, and they have been so much closer ever since the Jungkook situation. Yoongi had thought he actually stands a chance. That Y/N has finally moved on ftom her first love. From the speeech he hears Jungkook gave her, and that smile on her face before he leans in to kiss her… well, he knows hows thats going to end.

Yoongi sat at the bench along the road alone, munching on the donuts he bought slowly. This is where he usually meets with Y/N and Jasmine, before they went off for some food or fun activities on his free day. None of that anymore. He is sure Jungkook will be doing that with her now. Yoongi sighed.

“How can someone sounds so sad while eating such delicious donuts?” Yoongi immediately turns around to the sound of the voice and see Y/N walking towards her, smiling. Ia she here to tell him about her and Jungkook. He dont need to know. “And Min Yoongi, are you eating my favorite donuts alone?!”

Yoongi try to give her a smile and pass the bag to her. Y/N smile and take a seat besides him.

“Why the long face?”

“Nothing you need to know,” Yoongi shrugs. “You look happy today,”

“Yes. Its a good day today,”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah. I fell in love,” Y/N smiles and Yoongi felt his heart breaking.

“Well.. good for you then. I have to go. Ill see you?” He starts to stands up to leave but Y/N pulls his hand.

“Wait. Dont you want to know more?”

“Actually no,” Yoongi shakes his head and try to break free but Y/N tighten her grip and frown.

“No sit,” and Yoongi has no other choice but to follow. “I had a talk with Jungkook today,”

Yoongi kept quiet, wondering why he is putting himself through this hell.

“He told me he regrets everything he ever said, or did to me. He told me he wanted to try again. To be with me. To be with Jasmine. He said he finally realizes what he wants, that he loves me. And wants to spend the rest of our lives together. Its everything I wanted to hear Yoongi,” Y/N smile.

“Yeah? Congratulations. I am very happy for you,” Yoongi forced a smile.

“And do you know what I think about while he is saying all that?”

Yoongi shrugs.

“All I can think about is how I dont want any of that from him anymore. Instesd, all I can think about is all the days I spent with you. To spend my days with you. Laughing and having fun with Jasmine and you. The way you smile, the way you always here to listen to me, the way you care, the way you… love me…”

Yoongi feels his heart beats faster but his tounge is tied.

“And I realized… that I want to be all of that to you too. I want to be the face you remember, I want to take care of you, to listen to you, to make you smile, to make you laugh. Yoongi, do you know what I’m trying to say?”

“I-Im not sure? Maybe you can enlighten me?” Yoongi tries to keep a straight face but he cant keep his gummy smile from showing.

“Min Yoongi, I love you,” Y/N grins. “And I want to be your last love too. No, I’m gonna be your last love, and it starts now,”

/////

“I love you,” Jungkook smile and leans closer, to finally give her the kiss she has been waiting for so long.

Y/N stops him before his lips can touch hers and smile.

“Y/N? Whats wrong?”

“I dont love you anymore Jeon Jungkook. And I promised you that I’ll leave you alone remember? And unlike you, I always keeps my promises,”

[o-daintyduck]

AWAE 3.08 Reaction feat. MY FREAKOUT

The synopsis is giving me hope kinda.. We’ll see Ka'kwet but she’ll still be at the school so more weeping, Aunt Jo visits and brings a devious scheme,.. is it about Diana?? Will she or won’t she have to go to Paris? But why is it devious? And what about shirbert?????

Here we go.

Bruh Anne looks gorgeous in this still photo. All that fire just accentuates her looks!!!

Like an animal??? I’m angry already.

Mr. Avery is back!!! They’ve certainly hatched a plan of some sorts… But I guess it won’t be successful *sighs*

I knew she was in the barrel… Lol everyone knew that.. prolly.

How long will she hold her breath.. and will that poor boy hold the nun without giving anything away.. she’s going to hit him, isn’t she? WTF

Omg Mr. Avery is a beacon of light in this scene… he’s so pure.

Oh my Gods!! Did the plan actually work? She’s holding on it…

Anne is so happy!! Is she lying to Marilla tho? Lol 

Wait did they make up??? Moira won’t let me de clown in the Dianne fight too!! Insufferable… But I’m so happy at the same time.. Wait is Anne imagining this?

Well I figured it out before “Diana” ran away, cut me some slack guys… Normally I’m not this stupid..

Fuuuckkkkkk the SCHOOLHOUSE BURNT TO A CRISP…. I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY…

Gilbert sure loves to think out loud,“ the printing press can’t just up and walk away by itself!!”

Yep the fault of small minds…

Man I really miss the schoolhouse… I’m weeping already..5 minutes in..

Miss Stacy is so hurt… the memories i can’t...

Rachel’s gonna throw a fit too!!! Rachel had memories in the school too.. I can’t -

Yass things will not be the same… I said it once and say it again.. Rachel will go rogue by the serie ends… And I’m living for it!!!

I still can’t believe Ka'kwet actually fled that place… So proud of her!!! And anxious too rn.

Ahhhh Bash’s mom is here!!!!!!!!!!!! I already love her… Finally some of that mother’s love for Bash that he missed and Gilbert too!!!!

It’s a diff actress maybe but don’t care … It’s Bash’s mom y'all!!!!!

Yass someone to keep Bash in check too.. love it!! *chef’s kiss*

Lol Anne and Gilbert talking sooo loud!!! And nobody seems to care… Lol

Okay petition for a new gc name– “Can I borrow your pen?”

Okay so the shirbert scene just ended like for the 5th time… And I was gaping all along… Wtf

I really need to meet that kid of Rachel’s… Such chaotic energy to have burned down the shed multiple times.

Was this how Marilla and Rachel behaved when they lived together in the books??? I know the discussion is serious but so precious at the same time.

Lol Bash’s mom definitely is going through a “cultural shock” atm I CAN’T. Two white women cleaning his house while he was away *no offense* but so so hilarious…

Bash’s face says it all..

This first meeting of Grand mamma- Delli is too much for me too handle… Gonna go hug my Nana..

Wait Hazel is fine!! Mom still thinks that she was only summoned for childcare… Welp

Ruby couldn’t speak in front of Gil b4 if her life depended on it.. but oh look now with the crush gone- she’s a new person!!! And the things she saying have me jumping up the roof!!!!

Well ruby I trusted you too much, didn’t I? Aren’t Anne and Gilbert enough on there for bringing up Winnie and now you too!

Gilbert peeked at Anne, I mean how can a boy be so stupid.. no I’m not saying ooc calm your spears,people. my heart is breaking for Anne I can hear it almost.

Diana is going to fight with Jerry too, isn’t she?

LEAVE JERRY ALONE!! he deserves to be happy!!! Not hating on Diana… But he deserves better ..better than this.

My fav gal Aunt Jo!!! Diana wrote to Cole, maybe..and he told her.

Lol its not even been 15 minutes and I’ve written an essay already!!!

I’m confusion.. why does Diana have no choice??

Bash’s Mom lived all her life like this.. it will take her some time to break free from that. But until then, welp

Bash teasing Gilbert is out of this world!!!! And have you heard that Delphine is cho cho cute.. i cringed myself typing this.

I swear Anne is me!!! Had to take a test just today!!! And I was cramming until the last moment.. Matthew and Marilla are so proud.. and jittery too

WHERE IS KA'KWET????

Diana looks like she’s holding back a flood of tears even while eating.. ohhhh she gonna take the test!!!!!!! YAYYY

Aunt Jo’s happiness and pride knows no bound (mine too)

Moody dude, in the words of the ever so great Taylor Swift, you need to calm down.. Diana hasn’t studied nothing think of her..

Where is Gilbert ?? The gc needs to renamed to may I borrow your pen… To commemorate another one of Gilbert’s shenanigans. Ehh called it ! He didn’t take the test..

I’m all for bromance bw Miss Stacy and Bash but nothing more than that please….

This is the 4th (and presumably last) appearance of Winifred… I want her to remain involved, shes too cool, but just can’t figure her out even now…

Here it is!!! An advantageous marriage.. very few people could have called it b4 the season.. but it is canon.. I’m not worried about shirbert.. but just how far Gilbert is willing to go for his ambitions.

Okay the kids are wasted!!

A drunk Anne and somewhat sober Gilbert, the perfect combo!!!!!! I have read atleast 5 fics head canoning this…*another chef’s kiss for the fic writers*

Okay nobody imagined this …I take that back… That look Gilbert is giving her made my stomach to leap a mile…

What’s holding you back? Ahh the question of the ages… I’m gushing at this so much,like this is serious but the first person Gil wanted to ask was Anne about all of this.. and she’s so drunk but at the same time utterly heartbroken, still encourages him to do it…. Slow burn madafuka.

Okay the PROPOSAL just happened !!!

And I’m freaking out just every bit as Anne!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m really not okay and they had to show Ka'kwet feeding off of berries… The poor girl *cries yet again*

They are searching the letters, aren’t they???

No, the dictionary and a wedding ring… And here I go weeping again…

I really went outside to scream at the sky a second ago… But need to scream again!!!! I’ll not be okay this week or this year at all.

Anne needs her bosom friend now… She’s just been PROPOSED!!!!!!! I know it’s gonna go haywire any second now but please let me live this for now… I can’t even imagine this is happening..

Aunt Jo with the best advice… Just hope Anne takes it as we want her to..

Bash has his mother with him.. i’m just happy for him.

He’s gonna propose Anne and I too need to get up for this again…. BASH IS THE WHOLE FANDOM RIGHT ABOUT NOW.

And that’s how you shatter a million hearts!!! “Now I can be happy with Winnie”.. I’m still happy that they didn’t stretch this till the finale atleast.. the heartache would have been unbearable.

Marilla is onto something. Now Rachel has full reign over these old hacks.

Go Rachel Go go Go Rachel!!! They just got vetoed!!! And I love it… Other 2 women will have to be Muriel and Marilla..

SHE’S HOME AT LAST!!!!!

And in her mother’s arms!! Is it too late to give those nuns and that whole school HELL

Poor Minnie May and Diana.. atleast she’ll understand now that she always has a choice to be herself no matter what anybody says…

I love that They’ve made up!!! They are made for each other… #DianneForever

“I’m in love with Gilbert Blythe!”

Aren’t we all? Anne.

It took me 3 hours to watch this episode because i was freaking out so much, tell me if this was comprehensible at all if you came this far…

This episode was different for so many reasons but the proposal...oh the proposal... excuse me gotta scream again..

And “Anne rejected” him... i guess Moira couldn’t stray far from og on this one.

[thisartemisnevermisses]

Going Under 5/-

Paring: Mostly Steve Rogers x Reader; little Clint Barton x Reader

Warnings: angst, fluff, out of character acting, probable smutt in later chapters, sad reader, broken, sweet ending.

Summary: You work as head oversight for the Avengers. After a party and a little kiss, you start crushing on Steve. Only an event from you’re rookie years, is sabotaging the possibility of your crush to evovle into something more.

A/N: my dear readers you get treated on a very long chapter. I could have stopped and made an extra chapter of it, but it didn’t feel good or do justice fort he story. SO here you go a very long ( words) of Going under.

Chapter 5: Call me when you’re sober

 “I will get there, you see, I encountered Clint at that party and fled to the balcony. But we're getting ahead of things. I know the story is long, but you gave me the chance to tell my version. I don’t want to let anything out.” You say looking at Bucky. He could see te determination in your eyes.

“So, when I was outside, there was someone else."

“Steve” Bucky clarifies. “Yes, Steve was there too. He also fled from the party. I believe he had just buried Peggy and absolutely no desire to party.” You add.

“We started talking, forgetting what was happening inside and..” you drift off.

Bucky looks at Steve. Steve nods, he remembers that night well. You two had such a interesting conversation. You had such a beautiful charachter, sincere, straightforward, but also loving. He was immidiately infatuated by your presence. How could he have forgotten that. He still remembers the black dress you wore and how the evening breeze had mingled with your parfume. And then it hit him right in the face. Steve stared wide eyed at Bucky, Oh god, what an ass, had he been.

Walking out of the quinjet you look up to the tall building before you. You remembered the building differently. Higher, darker, maybe even bigger,  but that could have to do with the bad memories you had of this place. Lexi, Callie and Avery walk ahead of you. Talking busy about there expactations of the party. You walk slowly, counting your steps and your hand nearly strangling your purse. Breathing out heavily, ”you can do this” you whisper to yourself.

“You okay?” Owen asks from behind you. Looking at him smiling slight, “Yeah, I’m fine.” You answer. Owen smiles at your answer. “You know what fine means, don’t you.” You look at him questionly. “Freaking out, insecure, neurotic and emotional” Owen answers looking at you. “Owen, I’m fine.” You smile, but your voice cracks a little. “Come on, lets get inside” you say while grabbing him by his arm. “Thank you for caring” you say without looking at him, you can’t do that wright now, you would burst into tears. Owen was wright, his definition of fine, was exactly how you were feeling right now.  

The party was well visited. It seemd like everyone from shield was present. When entering the party, Avery and Owen were gone soon. They had this crazy idea of challenging Thor to a drinking competition. Those poor wretches didn’t know what they were doing. Callie and Lexi stayed with you. When you told your story on the way there, they didn’t know what to say. They were speechless, how could anyone do such a thing? How could agent Barton claim you were sleeping around to get promotions. You were the kind that worked hard and didn’t expect much. After 8 years of working with you, they knew who you were. To them you were an open book, not only were you hard working, but caring and loving too. Your team was a strong team, but it wasn’t just a team, you were close friends to. Owen and Avery were your ‘big brothers’, when there was trouble, the two of them would solve it. Seeing how anxious you were, the team decided it wasn’t for the best to let you wander around alone at this party. Yeah you had a great team, you couldn’t ask for anything more. They made you feel human again, made you laugh, care and have fun. They were there for you, when you most vulnerable, without asking what the cause was.

You were walking around mixing with the crowd. Occasionally you stopped to talk to a group of people. You had an interesting talk with Pepper and Tony about an possible update of your server. After speaking to some old colleagues Callie excused herself going to the badroom.

There you stood, all alone, waiting for your friends to return. Callie wend to the bathroom and Lexi wanted to get drinks for you three. You take a look at where Avery and Owen are. Both have a red face, Avery stands shaky on his legs. You hear Owen talk and know he has had enough to drink. Poor boys, they didn’t stand a chance against Thor. "YN" you hear a soft voice say. You recognise that dark silk voice out of a million. Slowly you turn around. There he stand, handsome as always, in casual clothing and his characteristic leather jacket. His hair in in a messi do and a smile on his face. His eyes, oh, those beautiful blue orbs. He looked at you, his eyes showing no emotions, at least you thought, years ago you could read them, but couldn’t at the moment. You swallow, “Hello agent Barton.” You answer a little bit shaken. Just keep calm, don't get nervous. He can’t make you feel that way anymore. You try to calm your breath and even out your shaky voice. “You look stunning” he says, taking you in from head to toe, likking his lips, hoping you would’nt notice. When he first saw you, you were a girl in her early twenties. Now before him stood a woman. It had been eight years, since you last saw him in the office of Nick Fury. Eight years of guessing. How you were, how you looked like and if you had other relationships. He never stop yearning for you, but he was bound to the promise he made, the life he built, after you left. “Thanks you”, you answer soft. Breath, just breath. You feel your face blushing. It had been eight years, you left all those feelings behind you. Just get a hold on yourself and let him see, he doesn't have that effect on you anymore. “So how are things going?” Clint ask while fidling with his weddingband. You look at his hand. He never wore his weddingband before, not while he was in the compound nor during his missions. It felt odd to see him with it. “Everything is oké. You know busy with everything.” you answer casually. “Stil working with team beta on the Airbus? Or did you get stationed elsewere?” he adds with a cocky smile. And there it is. The hint of disgust. The unspoken aqusation of sleeping with your superior for promotion. He didn’t change his opinion about you, it sadens you, but you won’t allowe him to see that. Your eyes harden "I think you're mistake me for someone else. I didn’t sleep around to get promotion." You answer looking angry at Clint. I'm not mistaking. If I remember correctly, we where on a mission and we slept together. After the mission you got promoted too level 6." Clint said mockingly, his Eyes had a dangerous glint to them. "You remember correctly, about the mission part. But couldn’t be more wrong about the promotion." You answer disgust all over your face. "If you would excuses me, agent Barton." you walk past Clint, trying to leave, when he speaks up, eyeing you from the side. " You know I'm an Avengers know. Maybe you could make another promotion." Clint smiled mockingly, hopefully you wouldn't notice the pain in his eyes. He longed for you, but knew to well he couldn't have you. He had broken his promiss to you, lost all trust that Laura had in him and disgrassed his son for having feelings for you. Maybe he was childish, but he would rasther have you hating him, then see that longing feeling in your eyes. Thinking about the way you moved beneath him, made him groan. "You forgot how you made me feel, when you broke my faith and dragged my spirit down. Thank you for the pain, it made me raise my game." You spat at him, looking one final time at Clint and walked away. Once your out of his sight, you let out a shakinly breath. You take a glass of champagne from a waiter and head outside. After that encounter, which you handelt quite well, you need some alone time.

Its been eight years since you saw Clint, three since you could move on and give it a place. All of it, heel he was on your mind the last few days. Getting that freakin invitation made you nervous. But never guessing, you would see so much emotions in his eyes when you said those final words. It looked like he let his guard down and showed you what he really felt.

"Keep telling yourself that, don't be foolish. You've moved on." you whisper to yourself while walking on to the balcony. Feeling the breeze of air tickling your arms. You decided to lean on the railing and look at the twinkling and moving lights beneath you.

"It seems I'm not the only one looking for a little peace." a dark and smooth voice startles you. Walking out of the shadows is no other then Steve Rogers.

“Captain Rogers you scared me.” You look at the person behind you. “Sorry that was not my intention. It looks like we both don't need a party.” Steve stands beside you.

“No you’re right, on this party there are only assholes. Sorry for my language.” You drink the glass of champagne empty in one go. Eyeing Steve, his reaction over his face, “No offense.” You replay.

“Non taken.” Steve shuckles a little. “And your reason not to party is..” you ask Steve, but see the tears in his eyes. “Oh sorry, I didn't mean to invade into your personal problems.” You turn towards the citylights, better let him handle it his own way.

“No, it's okay. Two days ago I buried one of the most important people in my life. You can imagine that I don't need a party. Drinking the light out of me doesn’t work, because of the super serum.” Steve answers bitterly.

“Oh tell me about it. Sometimes you would like to disapear and say fuck yourself world.” you smile, looking at Steve “Atleast I would say that, not sure you would.” You continue,  Steve laughs his chest rumbles, it feels good to laugh.

“Yeah i know that feeling all to well..would like to do that right know.” Steve says while looking at the sky. His face shows so much emotions, grieve, worry, lost and mostly anger.  

“Who was he or she.” you ask soft touching his hand.

“She.” Steve smiles, “She was my first love and..”

You two talk for a while, you tell about your encounter, well knowing not to name names. You wouldn’t dare to create a rift in this team. Steve tells you about Peggy and what an impact she had in his life, even after being iced for such a long time. You laugh, even cry a little, but mostly you enjoy each others company. Time pases slowly and you both payed no attention to what happened behind you at the party.

At some point you stood closer together. For a moment you looked deep into each other's eyes. It felt seconds like time stood still, until Steve stepped towards you. He took your face in his hands and gave you a little  chastice kiss. A little peck on the lips. After opening your eyes, you see Steve looking at you. Searching for your consent, was it oké? Did he cross a line, ofended you, his eyes were stormy, emotions all over his face.

You smile "Well Captain, if this is your way....." You began but Steve stopped you mid sentence smashing his lips in yours. His hands shifted from your face to your waist and guided you to a dark corner of the balcony. His kiss changed from sloppy to passionate. Soft and then demanding. It was a rapture of emotions put into one kiss. The heat rose in your cheeks as his tongue touched yours, quick and electric. Enchanting you over and over again, with every kiss, both of you were lost in each other. The intens and demanding kisses became soft butterfly kisses, just long enough to savour your lips a little longer.

Steve stops kissing and looked at you. He had wierd look in his eyes, what was wrong? Your lips felt swollen from this little make out session. "Well that's a way too say goodnight." you smile looking at Steve. Steve snaps out of his thoughts. "I'm sorry.. I shoudn't have done this." He said avoiding your gaze, cheeks red of shame. "..I... need to go,  Captain Roger." You say greeting him, blinking away the tears in your eyes. Not again, please note again. You walk away from Steve, the party and head towards the quinjet. You couldn't stay any longer on this party. It was full of assholes.

She watched you leave, anger all over her face. How dare you kiss  Steve. How dare you invade in this relationship she is trying to built. She wants him for herself and you interfering with that plan, was something she didn't thought about. Good thing she had an ace up her sleeve.

“So that was my first meeting with Captain America.” You look at Bucky, the pain all over your face. “As if it wasn't enough for one of you to fool me, another one was added. Just when I started to get a little hope, he undid it with one sentence. I was foolish, thinking that someone was genuinely interested in me.” Wiping away your tears, telling your side of the story evoked so many emotions.

“Yn stop it, that’s nonsense.” Bucky says angry, “If I thought about you in that way, I wouldn’t bother asking you, your side of the story. I’m sorry for that ass of a best friends. They way he reacted is not okay.” Bucky said smiling mockinly, taking a slight glance at Steve.

[ellus986]

Is summer different in the jungle? Chapter 1

Eugene Sledge x nurse!reader

Summary: You met Eugene on the field, when the nurses arrived at the Beach of Peleliu. You met thousands of injured soldiers, but none of them give you butterflies in your stomach, until you met him in the camp. You knew immediately that he will mean so much to you. It started with a little flirt, but ended in a two months realtionship while they were in the camp.

Warning: swearing

Three days before heading back into the jungle

“Eugene! I’m not going home!” You yell, while he is following you to the empty beach.

“Y/N, Why? I want to know that you are safe!” He runs his long fingers in his brown locks.

“I’m a big girl, I can take care of myself!” You mumble turning back to him, stoping so fast he almost falls on you.

“Don’t make me mad!” He grabs your temple, and pulls you closer.

“I don’t want to, but I can make my own choices!”

“It was your choice to say yes, when I asked you to marry me!” He replies even angrier.

“And I will as both of us made it back home safe!” You nod.

“Why can’t you just go?” He whinces.

“Because if I do, I wouldn’t be the woman you felt in love with! Do you want someone else?” You wishper slicking his face, but he grabs your hand and throws it away.

“Don’t touch me when you are a brat!”

“You can call me a brat, but love I will be still here when you walk out of that jungle again!” You shout in his face.

“I can’t believe you!” He gets away.

“Why can’t I be here? You will be on the frontline, not me! I will watch every injured who comes in if it is you, and I will be waiting here, hoping that you are still alive!” You can’t take it anymore, as sweet he was most of the time, if he got something on his mind, God help you with that.

“You can do that at home too!” His respond cuts deep.

“Fuck you, Eugene!” You scream.

“Ooh me?”

“Yes, you!” You are mad, and your stomach is already spinning around.

“I can’t believe you!” He start to walk away. “I don’t want to deal with you right now! I will if I got back, as you won’t go away anyways!”

He leaves you there, and you vomit.

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5 months later

“Y/N! They are coming back! They are coming back!” Runs Brittany, your bestfriend to you.

“Why are you so excited, doll?” You smooth some hair out of her face, she is five years younger than you, and sometimes you can’t even feel it, but today it is obvious.

“Me? You should be!” She giggles.

“I will if I really need to, but until than I save my energy!” You put your hand on your aching back.

You later sit at the camp fire with a light blanket over your shoulder as the summer breeze got a little colder this evening, when you see Snafu. He is looking for someone in the almost empty place, and you can see how his eyes are lighting up as he finds you. You get up as he is running to you. “I thought you will be with all the ladies waiting for us, but Sledgehammer already burried your love, as he thinks you find someone else for yourself!” He says it with one breath, and you giggle into his ear, as you hug him.

“It is hard to move on, if you can’t even move easily!” You chuckle rubbing your belly.

“What the heck?” He looks at your bump in shock.

“You never saw a pregnant woman before?” You chuckle.

“Yes I did, I ... I just...” he sutters gazing on you.

“You are suprised?”

“To say the least!” His eyes finds yours again. “Why didn’t that fucker ever told me?” He hugs you again, kissing your temple.

“Because he has no idea!” You mumble pulling out of his arms.

“What?” He looks at you in disbeliefe. “But...”

“Ofcourse he is the father, this...” you point at your belly. “Could happen in the last 5 months!”

“You shouldn’t be already at home?” He puts his hand on your belly.

“I still have time, and I did promise to Gene I will be here when he gets back!” You smile.

“You stubborn woman!” He grimaces at you.

“I just wanted to keep my promise!” You admit.

“But now you are not going to see him?” He smooths some hair out if your face.

“Shelton, honey! He left after not speaking to me for three days after our fight, excuse me but I won’t be the one running after him!” You walk to your tent. “If he wants to speak with me he knows where to find me!” You step in the door of your tent. “Good night Snafu, have fun, get drunk, be happy you are out again!” You kiss his cheek.

“Good night Y/N!”

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Eugene’s point of view:

He missed you so much, and wanted to apologise for how he went off, but you were nowhere between the nurses waiting for the marines. The one thing keeping him alive: the thought of you waiting for him, was a lie. He should’ve been more wiser, you were young, and beautiful ofcourse you found yourself someone else in the last almost half year.

He saw Snafu walking away from the crowd of nurses, and he already knew Merriell was about to look after you. You two immediately get close as friends, in the minute you fell in love with Eugene.

He followed his bestfriend to see where you are at, to maybe break his heart in a second to see you in someone elses arms, or just find out you are not here anymore. When Shelton started to run he stayed close behind, but far enough to be not seen. That was his luck, as he needed to lean on to something, when his gaze finally find you. You changed, you are still beautiful, but look so different. Your eyes told everything about how tired you are, and your hands constantly rubbing your back told Eugene it is hurting a lot, and your belly, it is round and nothing he would expect coming out of the hell he was in.

He was not ready to meet you, to find out it is his child or someone else’s. He was not ready to find out you waited for him or not. His heart was racing, he finally saw you, but was too afraid to walk up to you.

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The next morning

Your point of view:

You had a restless night as Eugene never find the way to you. Your dream about him with some other woman was so vivid you wake up crying, waking Brittany up too.

You get your now almost too tight uniform on, put your hair in a bun and walk to get some breakfast.

As you want to sit down you see Snafu waving in your way, so you get down next to him. “Good morning!” He turns to you. “Oh God you cried?”

“I had a bad dream, woke up crying!” You nod.

“Oh honey! You dreamed with him?” He rubs your upper arm for comfort.

“With an another woman...” you sniff.

“Hey, hey, hey! It was just a dream! He slept next to me all night, or atleast tried!” He smooths some hair out of your face.

You can’t help it, just to feel down. He was here, but doesn’t even bother to look after you.

As you finish Brittany walks up to you with your cardigan in her hand. “I take your shift, honey! Go for a walk on the beach to calm yourself a little bit, Shelton would you look after her if I ask you?” She puts the piece of clothes on you, and smiles at your friend.

“Yes ma’am!” He winks at her.

“You don’t need to do my shift too!” You grab her hand.

“You shouldn’t even be here, I don’t even know how you maneged to not be sent home! You need rest after this night!” She kisses your cheek and walks away.

“She is right! You should be already at home!” Shelton gives you a helping hand.

“I still can work, and there is a lot of soldiers to help on, so I was needed!” You mumble hardly standing up.

You grab into his upper arm as you are about to walk to the windy beach. It helps with your dark thoughts a little bit, but still you cannot not think about Eugene, your sweet Eugene, who do not want to see you. Your sweet Eugene who you will see everyday in your child, you would bet that every part of your child will remind you of your love.

You sit on one of the dunes, next to Snafu who is speaking to you consantly, but you can’t hear anything he says. “Do you even listening?” He waves infront of your face.

“Sorry! Where were you?” You shake your head, not even realising how much you are rubbing your bump.

“Shelton, can I speak with my fiancé alone for a moment?” Rings the so familiar voice behind you, and you turn so fast you almost fall from the dune, his hand grabing yours is the only thing keeping your from that.

“Yes ma’am!” Mumbles Snafu already running down to the water.

“Eugene...” you sutter already tears in your eyes. He gets on his knees and holds you close. “I missed you!”

“Y/N! I can’t believe I am holding you in my arms!” He wishpers in your ear and you feel how tears are falling from his face, just as from yours. “You waited for me...”

Eugene’s point of view:

“You waited for me...” it fell from his lips, as in the second he looked in your eyes he knew, he knew he should have been there with you last night, he should have run to you, you did keep your words, you waited for him.

“Yes, we did!” You sniff, burrying your face in his shoulder. “They wanted to send me home, but I couldn’t go without seeing you on more time!”

“Thinking about you waiting for me was the only thing keeping me alive there!” He kisses your cheek, your temple, your forhead, your nose.

“You are here now!” You mumble looking into his hazel eyes.

“In your arms...”

“In my arms, love!” You giggle, pulling him on your chest, falling back in the sand. “My night were so lonesome without you, even I had a piece of you with me all time!” You mumble rubbing your belly, and he puts his hand on it too.

“A piece of me...” he repeats your words.

“Gene...” your voice is so weak he looks up at you. “I’m afraid...”

“Of what love?” He pinches your jaw, and a faint smile sits on his face.

“What if I won’t be a good mother? What if I fail without you?” You close your eyes, but he can’t stop your tears falling from your cheek.

“Don’t be Silly!” He smooths your hair. “You will be wonderfull!”

“I don’t want to do it without you...”

“You don’t need to...” he kisses your forhead. “The war will end sooner or later and I marry you in the minute we are both finally home!”

“I can’t wait for that day!” You mumble and he is suprised, even he wanted this so bad.

“You still want to marry me?”

“Ofcourse I want! Why would I not want to? You are the love of my life, we are having a child!” You say it. He thought this is the Truth, but hearing it was the last thing he needed to be sure, you really waited here for him, with his child under your heart.

“You are the only one who matters to me!” He wishpers into your forhead before corecting himself. “And ofcourse... our child!” You can hear his hesation.

“I know you wouldn’t ask my sweet Gene as Snafu did, but yes I carry your child, and it couldn’t be anyone else’s as I was only with you all my life!” You say it huffish but not mad.

“You didn’t needed to say anything!” He wishpers, realising how childish this looked, it felt like he did not trusted you. “It was long time, but maybe it will be more, I trust you!”

“Gene, I understand! Yesterday you thought I maybe find someone else, you needed the clear answer, it is okay!” You giggle. “But instead eating ourself on how we treated eachother, tell me, how would you name our child!” You put your head in his lap as he sits up.

He still can’t believe what is going on, that he is going to be a father soon, that he is not dreaming. It was on his mind, that one day he wants to start a family with you, but he never thought that he already did. He was proud, he was happy, but most of all he was shocked.

You spend the day on the beach planing on your future once the war is over. God how much he wanted it to happen, to just go home with you in this moment, to take you to Mobile, to be your husband, watch your child growing up, together.

To be continued ...

My sweet perms:

@simply-sams-things @spacedust1124719

[arohasfiction]

MJ X Reader

So This My first Astro Scenario and i hope you like it..this might be the first part...i will try to write another part for each member. Each member will have his own stroy with the reader so please don't hesitate to read them~^^

Gener: fluff .. I guess..?!😅

Words count : 1309

Summary: You are JinJin's childhood friend, Although he was 3 years older than you but he always stayed by your side and so you did. JinJin's dream was to become an idol and you always supported him and he did the same. You admired jinjin alot as a big brother though you weren't blood related, and when he became Astro's leader and they debuted you were so proud of him and wanted to follow and become an idol like him some day.

After Taking a permission from your parents to become an idol, you additioned to be a trainee at fantagio entertainment where Jinwoo works, you loved music since you were young and you kept writing songs along with jinjin and sanged them since you have a very beautiful voice. You decided that you will not tell jinjin that you are a trainee and tried to avoid every considence that might make you two to meet, and you said to yourself " when i will debut i will tell jinjin oppa about me being a trainee here... " You giggled to yourself as you imagined his reaction when he finds out about you.

Five moths passed without JinJin noticing you being a trainee , on lovely sunny day you where inside the practice room dancing on some astro songs that you liked to warm your body on them.. you heared someone entering. " Oh (Y/N) are still parcting!! Atleast take a break for 5 minutes" said your supervisor ." It's fine, hehe I'm just warming up" . "Well then, the Ceo wants to speak to you so could you please head to his office?" You titled your head in confusion wondering why would ask you to come to his office..you put on your sweater and headed to the ceo's office.

You knocked the ceo's office door and entered.. " Hello Sir, Did you ask to see me? ", " Oh, (Y/N) it's nice to see, well yes, i asked to see to tell you something important, as i saw you've got the talent both in singing and songs writing...and as result i would to tell you that your life as an Idol will start soon so i hope you keep that energy". You still didn't understand what the ceo is trying to say so you just kept your smile on your face and told him that you're going to do your best." I will do my best sir!! " . The ceo started laughing and said " hahaha that's the excitement!, I would like to congratulate you as your first debut as a solo idol will be after two weeks from now congratulations (Y/N)!". You tried to process what he said, when you did you couldn't help but happy tears fell on your cheeks and kept bowing while thanking him.

" It's finally the time to tell Jin oppa" you said that while walking towards Astro's practice room. You infront of their parctice room door, you took a deep breath and knocked the door and went inside. JinJin notices you immediately and stand up and walks to you, " (Y/N) !!! What are you doing here?!" . The rest of the members didn't know you so they waited for JinJin to introduce you to them . But you took the step and did it first, " Hello, My Name is (Y/N), nice to meet you sunbei" . Everyone greeted you as well and you sat next to jinjin. Mainwhile, MJ's eye kept staring at you with a small grin on his face from the moment you entered the room as if he fell in love from the first sight . " It's been a while (Y/N) !! I'm glad that you're okay , but you still didn't tell me why you are here!" Said JinJin. " Oppa!, You know that i always supported you to achieve your dream to be an idol..while i was doing that i got inspired by your passion and decided to be an idol just like you.. so i additioned here and got accepted as a trainee." You said as Sanha suddenly cut you, " but, I never saw you around here, how come we didn't ran into each other atleast once?!". You giggled nervously as you looked at them saying " actually i was avoiding meeting up with you guys on purpose,..." They looked at you still not understanding the reason of your action.. so you continued saying " I decided that i will tell Jin oppa that I'm here in the same agency with him when i get the chance for my first debut" the silence filled the room while Mj kept looking at you , when your eyes met both blushed and turned around, you always called JinJin before and after being a trainee and you could always hear Mj's voice in the background and JinJin never stopped talking about him being the happy virus of his group and how he keep them laughing, you also loved his voice while listening to Astro's songs and you admired him day by day as you learned alot from listening to his vocal parts for reference, so you build a crush on him although he is 5 years older than you. "So... You're telling me that you are debuting!!!!???" JinJin suddenly jumped in excitement. " Yes it will be after two weeks from now" you said shyly . After that eveyone congratulated you and excused you to go and eat , everyone left except MJ who was pretending to pack his things in the bag just to talk to you..

You slowly walk to him and said ". Mmmm hello sunbei,..." It was actually akaward as it is the first time you spoke to him, he couldn't look directly to your face while his cheeks were blushed a bit, he didn't want you to feel uncomfortable aroumd him so he put his sunshine smile on his face and said " hey!! Congratulations on your debut" . You shyly nodded and thank him then the place became silent again, you tried to broke it and said with a grin on your face while blushing " I've always admired you sunbei.. you have really lovely warm voice and eveytime i listen to your parts i learn new things... And JinJin oppa always talks about you which made me want to meet you in person even more" . Mj blushed even more and couldn't find the right words to say , he placed one of his hands on the valc of his neck and thanked you shyly... A moment later, Your two eyes locked together and Mj kept moving torward you as the distance between you was decreasing each second... His hand cupped one side of your face and he leaned and gave you a soft peek on your lips.. it lasted for few seconds but you felt like it was happening for long time...ypu both breaked up the kiss when suddenly Rocky entered the room calling his hyung "M-Hyung!!, What are you doing there lets go and grab something to eat!" "I..I'm coming!!!" He gave you a small smile from the mirror and went with rocky leaving you alone in the practice room. You felt your cheeks burning and your face redden up ..you still didn't believe what just happened..." Did my crush just kissed me..omg!!! Omg omg omg!!!!" You placed your hands on your cheeks and said " Clam down (Y/N) !!! ...but i can't... Is it even possible...does he like me?!!! But it's our first time meeting " many questions came to your mind but in the same time you didn't regretted it ..you slowly moved your fingers on your lips and you giggled to yourself while in the same time Mj did the same while smiling like a goofy

To be Continued....

[citrinecoven]

I need to get some things off my chest...

For the last 2 months I have been in school taking a web dev course, i came from working in retail for 8 years straight and was hoping to change my “career path”. But all kinda sorts of weirdness are going on in my school... Before i start writing about the weird stuff that goes on in school, i want to say that I have realised on my own that web dev is not for me. I need something a bit more creative, a bit less technical... maybe web design? who knows... that’s not the point. I’m just saying this to preface that school didnt make me “give up”, it just helped. Right so... I go to a school for adults that teaches lots of techie stuff like web dev, app dev, ui/ux design, etc... They use a lot of more modern teaching styles, one of them being that they heavily rely on self-learning. They also focus a lot on the job market, meaning school work is done the way it actually should be done if you were a web dev in a company. 

The school also requires a 90% attendance rate in order for you to receive your certificate at the end of the course. The catch is tho if you are 30 mins+ late, you get written down as having missed a half day of class. if you are 1hr+ late, on paper,  you have missed a whole day of class. So if you have really bad luck with traffic/trains/busses a few times, you could essentially be f*cked... So first day we all agree that we should text our group chat when you’re running late, just a sign of respect towards your teachers and other student.  ✔️ -Cool, i definitely agree with that. This works wonderfully for the first 2 weeks, everyone is texting when they’re running a bit late and so is the teacher. Then one morning, my comrade students and i are waiting for our teacher but he’s already 10 mins late... no text... and he ended up being 2 hours late.  And the next day again... This keeps going on for a while... people pay a minimum of 10k for these courses and after i got a bit fed up i did the math and turns out for every hour we don’t have a teacher in, we each lose aprox. 50£. But hey, i have a friend who works at the school so i decide to talk to her about this issue. she’s very understanding of the issue and tells me she’ll bring it up during their next staff meeting. but she says she’s sure all they will answer is that “well this is a course that is heavy on self-learning, this is what they signed up for”. 🤷‍♀️ -Fair enough lads, but hey a text like we agreed upon couldnt hurt then maybe... Then things get a bit weirder, we are in a building that houses many different companies and there is common areas with a kitchen and seating, meeting rooms etc... suddenly all the admin staff, including my friend, are sitting in the common areas all the time and my friend lets me know the school will be moving theyre renting a new building. the admin staff will already be moving there in a week so they didnt renew the rent for their offices. The next week comes around and admin are still sitting in the common area, my friend complains because they promised theyd have the keys to the new building by now and could start moving their offices. - We’ll come back to this later it’s a few days after this or a week maybe? and we all receive an email where we get asked to rate our experience at the school so far. We get all the students togheter and we get told by one of our instructors “fill out the score email, oh btw you need to rate atleast a 9 if you’re having a good time, anything below that is not acceptable“ Another student and i look at each other and make a weird face, because why are you telling us how to rate our experience? Anyways i get petty, ask them if it’s anonymous (it was) and rate them a 5 and tell them i’m not impressed with (at this point) teachers being late everyday without letting us know and using self-learning as an excuse.💁‍♀️ From the next day on, i follow class from home via video call for about a week because my lumbago+sciatica had gotten rly bad. near the end of the week my friend texts me “hey, has someone come in and talked to the class yet?” and i’m like “oh hey, i havent been in this week bcause of health issues so i dunno?” and she tells me she doesnt work there anymore and my brain is just like “??!🤯?!?” She goes on to explain to me that she had been working so hard, hitting all her targets, so when the big bosses came in and called her into a meeting room she thought they were going to praise her but instead what she got was “you’re no longer needed” together with almost all of the other staff...🙃 So i get back to school, my back is a bit better, i ask students about those ppl that came and talked to them and so basically the school is calling it quits. Now i only have a front-end web dev course, one of my friends in school has a full-stack course and now they won’t be receiving the back-end (or second half) of their course and finding a back-end web dev course is not going to be easy and will be very expensive. And throughout the day i hear so many other students talking about this and freaking out over what theyre gonna do... so we’re the next week, monday was a bank holiday, tuesday morning i go in and i’m there all alone... so i text the group and apparently theres no class today because there’s no teachers available... so i text my usual teacher to see what the plan for the week is and basically he can’t find any guest teachers and we’re essentially off all week unless anything changes (it didnt) so at this point we haven’t had class for a week, this is a short course, a week of missing information is critical...  However in that week i’ve realised that this just isn’t for me, i don’t have the right way of thinking and problem-solving, it’s a bit sad but it’s fine. if it’s not for you, it just isnt.

and guess what... it’s monday and i’m in my bed writing this petty review of my school experience because there’s no class again... I have so much more to say but this is already so long...

[yoosungiib]

Hello ~ I would like to request (for all my fellow sleep deprived students) rfa + v and saerans reaction to mc who cant sleep well because of stress caused by school. Like sleeping a couple of hours at night and them napping and sometimes sleeping in the weekend like 15+ hours. Thank you :)) ~~~ sorry for my english and have a good day/night ~~~

Honey, I relate so hard. First term I got no sleep because I was so stressed with all the work given to me.

RFA + V and Saeran reacting to an MC unable to sleep due to stress from school

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★ Yoosung ★

Honestly, he isn’t one to talk about not sleeping much considering the amount of video games he played during college. However, the difference between what he was doing and what you’re doing is that you are not sleeping because you are so stressed from school.

From the moment you get home to the moment you leave, you are frantically doing school work. Yoosung gets into bed pretty late in hopes that you will come and rest with him, but around midnight you are still usually working.

He tries to alleviate some of your stress by doing household chores you would normally do. For example, cleaning the dishes. However, he did a really bad job the first time so you had to redo it, but after that he got the hang of it and would do it for you.

He’ll also sometimes do the laundry. He had to do the laundry when living with his mom, so this isn’t something he messes up. What a sweetheart

To help you with sleep, Yoosung suggests cutting back on caffeine, so no more coffee. And he even decides to do it with you so you don’t feel alone.

“Yoosung, please, I need one more cup.”

“No, cutie, what you need is some sleep. If you are unable to continue without a cup of coffee, listen to your body and go to bed. Come on, we’ll go together and cuddle!”

Yoosung also suggests that you set yourself a regular bedtime, and once in bed, read. He buys you a whole stack of books in your favorite genre, and he’ll even read to you some nights.

♪ Zen ♪

You need to sleep.

He refuses to let this charade of you not sleeping go on for long. It is not healthy for you to only sleep three hours a night.

“But, Zen, I take naps during the day-”

“Jagi, that isn’t enough to keep you functioning. This isn’t healthy for you,” he says, pulling you in for a hug so he can rub your back and play with your hair.

Zen completely understands your stress with school. Before he dropped out of school, he admits to getting stressed with some of the work he was expected to do. He definitely thinks, however, that you are being too hard on yourself, and that it’s essential for you to take some breaks.

But the anxious look and expression on your face whenever you are pulled away from your work just shows him how much school means and effects you. He thinks your stress and anxiety with school is much more serious than it seems. “Jagi, please try to relax. It’s one paper, and from reading it over once I can tell you now it’s really good!”

Zen suggests going on twenty minute walks or runs with him to take your mind off of things. He tells you the fresh air will help you and put you at some peace.

He even says if you want that he’ll give you a piggyback ride around the neighborhoods!

To help you sleep, Zen will cuddle you under the sheets, the blanket wrapped snug around you guys, and he’ll just sing to you. Sometimes it will be songs from his latest musical, songs he knows you like, or he’ll just hum to you.

“Just listen to my voice. Let my voice be what drifts you into a deep slumber.”

Zen also likes to do stretches with you before bed not only to help you destress but to tire you out a little bit.

He positions you on your back with your legs against the wall. Sometimes he’ll massage your shoulders while you’re doing it, or he’ll join you.

❀ Jaehee ❀

Jaehee knows where you’re coming from. Her stress comes from work, but she understands completely not being able to sleep due to stress.

She is more than happy to help you and share some of her tips in dealing with stress and sleep. For one, she has lavender scented candles all around the apartment. Lavender is known for reducing anxiety with its lovely aroma. She makes sure every candle in the house is lit when you sit down at the desk to start your work.

Jaehee suggests limiting your caffeine; no coffee or tea past 8 o’clock. She even does it with you to encourage you, and so you don’t feel alone.

Instead of coffee, she suggests having a glass of hot milk before bed since she read online that milk helps you to sleep.

“Mm, thank you, Jaehee, but do you think maybe I could just have one cup of coffee instead?”

Jaehee frowns, putting the glass of milk on the bedside table. “If you have a coffee now, there is no way in hell that you are getting to sleep.”

“But I still have tons of work to do. I have a project that’s-”

“That’s not due for another week. You can afford to take a break from it, ok?” She won’t have any of your excuses. 

Jaehee also suggests that you take a melatonin before bed. At first, you’re really hesitant about it, but after awhile you agree to taking it, and it does help to knock you out. However, that doesn’t solve the fact you are still incredibly stressed in bed, thinking about school even as you drift off to sleep.

After a while, realizing that the stress really is just consuming you, she suggests that you start seeing a professional to talk about your stress and to find proper ways to cope with it. That or see the counselor at your school.

☂ Jumin ☂

Like Zen, he refuses to let this go on for long; it is not healthy for you to only get three hours of sleep each night and then to sleep for more than 15 hours a day on the weekend. He has his doctors on speed dial and everything, and he’s already setting up appointments with therapists to help you with your stress once you tell him that’s the reason you can’t sleep.

The first time he saw your habit of no sleeping and swamping yourself in work, he was willing to let it go because he’s no better in all honesty.

But after a week and you finally confessing to having this issue all year, oh, he’s not having it and he’s doing whatever he can to help you. With stress and your sleeping.

Jumin arranges tea times for you and him. He believes not only will this help you to alleviate stress and to relax, but himself too. Everyday at 5, you will put your school work down and he’ll put his work down, and the two of you will go to the kitchen to have some tea.

Jumin makes your favorite tea and brings some cookies too for you guys to nibble on. If you are still visibly stressed, he’ll ask you to explain to him what it is exactly in your school work that is stressing you out, and if there is anything he can assist you with.

“I don’t want to take you away from your work, darling. I can figure it out I’m sure,” you say, though there is uncertainty in your voice.

Jumin frowns, reaching across the table to take a hold of your hand. “Sweetheart, I am more than willing to help you. I can take an hour of my time to assist you, especially if it means that you can at least get some sleep tonight.”

Jumin also regularly during the week will take you to a sauna; a nice big one reserved for just the two of you too.

Jumin is a little clueless at first when it comes to helping you sleep. As much as he thinks stress is a huge aspect of your inability to sleep, he also thinks you may have some insomnia. He first off decides to get a new and more comfortable mattress that is more supportive to your back. It’s soft, warm, cushiony.

Jumin will also read to you at night. He’ll have you rest with your head on his lap, and he’ll let you chose the book too. And hell, he’s reading till you fall asleep. It doesn’t matter if it means he’s reading for about three hours, he’s not stopping until he knows you are asleep.

☺ Seven/Saeyoung ☺

Guys.

Seven can not be talking here. He is no better than you are, and if anything, he is worse. But still, that doesn’t stop the fact he is incredibly concerned with your sleeping habits.

It’s totally ok for him to sleep at iradical times, but you, no. Immediately he’s doing research on insomnia and proper ways to help someone with stress. He’s hacking into your school to see the agendas.

Seven offers going on walks when he sees you at your desk, visibly anxious and getting yourself worked up. “Honey? The fresh air is calling for us. Maybe we can even get a ride on my phoenix.”

“That sounds wonderful, honey, but I have– SAEYOUNG!”

No buts, no nuts, no coconuts, he is pulling you out of your chair and dragging you outside. If he has to, he’s handcuffing you to him and he’s dragging you around the neighborhood. That may only just stress you out more, so he’ll start to tell you funny stories and jokes till you’re distracted from the work left at home and more relaxed.

To help with sleep, he has the house automatically dim the lights around 8 o’clock each night. This can be a bit of problem sometimes since Saeran and Vanderwood really attest to it.

“Can’t you atleast wait till 9?”

“Idiot brother, I can’t read my book now!”

Seven also likes to do exercises before bed. The exercises does it’s job, tiring you out, but also a lot of fun, making you both laugh. “Now the happy baby pose! No crying babies. Honey, I think you just made the sound of Yoosung’s emoticon!”

❆ V ❆

His sweet girl is stressed, and it’s causing inability for her to sleep, and he hates it. He hates that whenever you come home from school, after kissing him and offering to make tea, the first thing you do is sit right at your desk and work.

And you work for about 6 hours straight, with only a few bathroom breaks and one break for dinner. V think’s it’s great that you are hardworking and focused on school, but he feels you are too hard on yourself, and if you don’t learn to take a break, or just sleep, you’ll grow sick.

It’s incredibly concerning when he’s getting into bed around 11 and he still sees you at the desk with the lights on, a cup of coffee besides you and your hand wringing through your hair. He’s pretty sure the most sleep you get in a week is about 8 hours, and that is what you should be getting every day!

And on the weekends, you’ll be in bed for 16 hours. Once time you nearly slept through a Saturday. V knows he can’t let this go on for much longer. It isn’t good for your physical or mental state.

He sits you down and asks you to tell him specifically what it is that is making you stressed in school; projects, papers, big tests, what is it?

“Well, I have a really big test in my Chemistry class coming up. And if I fail this test, it could bring my whole GPA down, and if that happens, then-”

“Sweetheart, calm down. You need to slow your heart rate.” He takes a hold of your hand and massages your palm lightly. “Here, why don’t you show me what it is you need to study for your Chemistry class, and maybe I can help you.”

V will put all his work aside to help you – even if it means he’ll have more work later on. What matters to him is that you are calm and relaxed, and he feels if he leaves you alone for any longer than an hour to work, you’ll drive yourself mad.

V limits screens, for the both of you, each night. Of course, he won’t force you, but he really enforces that you come off of any computers, any phones at around 9 and start to settle down. He suggests that you guys build a puzzle together if you’re still will awake.

Normally, the peacefulness and quietness of the puzzle building helps you to become sleepy. One night, and he was quite happy about this, you fell asleep on top of the puzzle, and he carried you to bed.

He gets a better mattress. One that is more comfortable and suitable for your back and supporting you in general. As a little stress reliever, he even suggest that you guys jump on the bed together, and then do another activity to wear each other at~

☻ Saeran/Unknown ☻

At first, Saeran didn’t really notice that you were so stressed from school and hardly sleeping since he was so concentrated on getting his own health back on track.

But when he finally does see just how little sleep you get and just how stressed out you really are with all the work from school, he feels terrible for not noticing before and not doing anything to help you.

Now watching you, he can’t figure out how he didn’t realize or notice you were only getting about three hours of sleep a night, and if not with him always at your desk doing work, and using the weekend to sleep for about 18 hours!

He brings it up casually over a bowl of ice cream at the dining table. You’re sitting next to him, the two of you have your pinkies hooked and your shoulders touching; a simple gesture of affection.

“MC? How is school?”

“School? Oh, well… it’s stressful, but you don’t have to worry about it.”

Saeran frowns. “I’m worried about your sleeping.”

“Oh… I am too, but you don’t need to concern yourself with that. I’ll figure something out. I… promise.” Oh, Saeran is going to worry, no matter what you tell him. And he’s going to help you whether his actions are subtle or obvious.

Saeran first has to look up what to do to help someone sleep and deal with stress. He tries to think back to some things you did with him when he was having particularly bad nights sleeping, or when he was stressed over life in general.

Saeran starts with making work around the house a little easier for you. Still living in the bunker, Seven hardly does anything, and when Vanderwood isn’t working, it’s normally you tidying up, doing the laundry or making dinner.

Saeran decides to start by doing the laundry so you don’t have to do it or worry about it while you’re doing your work. He also downloads some cooking recipes on his computer so he can cook dinners once and awhile.

Saeran decides to establish a regular bedtime with you. He thinks for one, not only will it be beneficial for you, but it will help him out too. “9 o’clock every night? But… I don’t know if I will be done, honey?”

“I don’t care. Having an established bedtime will help you with sleep. If you still have work to do, you can get up early in the morning.”

Before bed, Saeran always brings you a glass of warm milk because he read online that milk, especially when warm, facilitates sleeping.

Saeran will give you massages, even if you don’t ask from them – sometimes you will, and sometimes you just let him grab you and tend to you. He has you lay on your stomach so he can massage your shoulder and back. And with lying down in the bed, his hope is for you to drift off to sleep.

In general, to help with both the stress and lack of sleep, Saeran is very comforting. When he sees you’re stressed, he compliments you and encourages you, reminding you it’s ok to take breaks. “I’d really like some ice cream. You should get some with me.”

“You look so beautiful when you’re concentrating… but I think you should take a break. You’d look even more beautiful relaxed.”

When he sees you struggling to sleep, he’ll kiss your cheek or neck and pull you to him. He’ll soothingly rub your back and stroke down your hair.

“Try listening to my heart. That might help you.”

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Pas. Johnraj Lamech

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Greetings in the matchless Name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Topic: A Worldwide Ministry (Par 1) – Breaking Down of Prejudice Resulting Into Opening of the Door to Gentiles!

Rhema Word (1): Acts 10:15 (NIV) “The voice spoke to him (Peter) a second time, “Do not call anything impure that God has made clean.”

Rhema Word (2): Ephesians 3:6 (NIV) “This mystery is that through the gospel the Gentiles are heirs together with Israel, members together of one body, and sharers together in the promise in Christ Jesus.”

Let’s pray. Our Gracious Loving Father, thank you for giving us an opportunity to meditate Your Word today along with your children who have been called to live a holy life Father. I commit everyone who are all meditating this message into your mighty hand Father. Bless them and give them the oneness of Spirit and make their heart as a good land to receive each and every Word which is living and active Lord. Thank You Holy Spirit for helping us to understand the in-depth treasure of Your Word and helping us to live a life as per Your Word Lord. We give all the Glory and Honour to You only Father. We pray in the mighty Name of Your beloved Son Jesus Christ. Amen.

Peter was staying at Joppa on the Mediterranean coast. It was the city where the prophet Jonah had fled to board a ship to Tarshish. He was trying to run from the Lord’s command to go and preach at Nineveh, the capital city of Israel’s arch-enemy, Assyria. About 30 miles north of Joppa and some 65 miles northwest of Jerusalem, was the Roman provincial capital, Caesarea, where the governor lived. Under his authority were some 3,000 troops, including the Italian cohort. Serving with this unit was Cornelius, a centurion who commanded 100 soldiers. The Jews despised the Roman occupation of Palestine; they hoped that Messiah would come and deliver them from the Roman oppression.

And so, the stage is set: you have a Gentile Roman soldier, representing the despised occupation of Israel, residing in the main city of the Roman occupation. Thirty miles south you have a Jewish apostle, temporarily residing at the spot where Jonah had taken off in disobedience to his commission to preach to Israel’s enemy. And behind the scenes, God is orchestrating the events to bring these two men together in a way that shocked both of them by breaking down the wall of prejudice between them. The result of the story is that today you and I who are Gentiles are fellow heirs and fellow members of the church with the Jews, and fellow partakers of the promise in Christ Jesus through the gospel (Eph. 3:6).

Prejudice (discrimination) existed from the beginning of time (Cain & Abel, Genesis 4:11). Yes, prejudice is everywhere in the world – in every nation, state, city and neighbourhood and even within families. There are atleast two basic reasons for prejudice:

a) People differ in nationality, beliefs, religion, speech, looks, behaviour, ability, energy, position, status, social standing, possessions, wealth, birth and heritage. Yes, prejudice arises when people feel they and their differences make them better than others.

b) Mistreatment causes prejudice, both mistreating others and being mistreated. When a person mistreats others or is mistreated by others, his nature is immediately aroused to become prejudicial and judgemental. The mistreatment that gives rise to prejudice covers a wide range of behaviour: ignoring, neglecting, joking, gossiping, opposing, cursing, abusing, persecuting, segregating and enslaving.

This passage recorded in Acts 10:1-33 strikes a fatal blow against prejudice. It shows forever that Jesus Christ has erased all prejudices and barriers between people. Jews and Gentiles are now one in Christ Jesus.

Let us try to understand the breaking down the prejudices between Gentile Cornelius and the Jewish minister Simon Peter in the following three parts today with the help of Holy Spirit:

1] Prejudice – Jew Vs Gentile – Breakdown of Prejudice in the Gentile, Cornelius:

2] Prejudice – Jew Vs Gentile – Breakdown of Prejudice in the Jew, Simon Peter:

3] The Confrontation and Lessons Learned by the Jew & Gentile:

1] Prejudice – Jew Vs Gentile – Breakdown of Prejudice in the Gentile, Cornelius:

Remember, it is God who breaks down prejudice as it is so deep-seated in the heart of man. Yes, only God can erase it and reconcile man.

a) Cornelius was a soldier, a military officer, a Centurion in the Roman Army. The Bible says in Acts 10:1 “At Caesarea there was a man named Cornelius, a centurion in what was known as the Italian Regiment.” He is stationed in Caesarea which was a Gentile city, a place in which Jews would never set foot.

b) Cornelius had an unusual reverence to God. The Bible says in Acts 10:2 “He and all his family were devout and God-fearing; he gave generously to those in need and prayed to God regularly.”

Yes, he was a devout man: one who worshipped the true and living God.

Yes, he was a God-fearing man: one who sensed the presence of God in the world and knew he was responsible to God to live righteously, justly and morally toward all men.

Yes, he was a benevolent and charitable man: one who gave to charity generously.

Yes, he was a praying man: the word “deomenos” means “begging of God. Note, he was regularly praying.

He had looked at nature and at the world around him and seen that there was bound to be one God who had created all things as Apostle Paul says in Romans 1:20 “For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—His eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.”

c) Cornelius was given a vision from God. The Bible says in Acts 10:3-6 “One day at about three in the afternoon he had a vision. He distinctly saw an angel of God, who came to him and said, “Cornelius!” Cornelius stared at him in fear. “What is it, Lord?” he asked. The angel answered, “Your prayers and gifts to the poor have come up as a memorial offering before God. Now send men to Joppa to bring back a man named Simon who is called Peter. He is staying with Simon the tanner, whose house is by the sea.”

Please note five points here:

(i) Cornelius was in prayer when the vision came.

(ii) The vision involved an angel bringing a message from God.

(iii) Cornelius “stared at him” (atenisas) - that is, fastened his eyes, gazed, focussed his attention; he was startled, frightened.

(iv) Cornelius realized the angel of God was a messenger from God.

(v) The message to Cornelius was two fold:

(a) His prayers and charity had come before God as a memorial (Acts 10:4).

(b) He was to send men to Joppa to see Peter and ask him what to do (Acts 10:5). Now, note a critical point: despite Cornelius’ enormous reverence and faithful service for God, he was still not doing enough, something else was missing and one-thing was still lacking.

Yes, Cornelius was aware that he still lacked something, very aware of the fact. He had asked God what he still needed. Despite all his reverence and good works, he still felt a lack, an emptiness; and he was begging God to fill that emptiness, to show him what he still had to do.

d) Cornelius was obedient to the heavenly vision and instructions. He sent two trusted household servants and his most trusted military orderly to find Simon Peter. Cornelius would seek the answer to his heart’s need from a Jew.

Jesus said in Matthew 7:21 “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven.”

He further said in John 7:17 “If anyone wills to do His will, he shall know concerning the doctrine, whether it is from God or whether I speak on My own authority.” And He said in John 15:10 “If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love.”

The Bible says in Revelation 22:14 “Blessed are those who do His commandments, that they may have the right to the tree of life, and may enter through the gates into the city.”

2] Prejudice – Jew Vs Gentile – Breakdown of Prejudice in the Jew, Simon Peter:

Let us see how God has broken the prejudice in the Jew, Simon Peter. Yes, the servants from Cornelius had almost reached the city of Joppa where Peter was. They would be approaching Peter soon with the request to visit and help Cornelius. However, Peter was not ready – to welcome these men, to return with them to visit Cornelius, to stay and share in the home of Cornelius.

Why? Cornelius was a Gentile and Peter was a Jew. Yes, there was a deep-seated racial discrimination between the two. Welcoming and visiting and sharing in the homes of each other was out of the question. And on top of that, there was a religious difference, a difference that was even more deeply seated in Peter’s mind than the racial difference. Peter was just not ready for these Gentile men to approach him with the request to visit Cornelius the Gentile, not yet.

BUT GOD WAS READY. And it is God who makes the difference by breaking down the prejudice. God can reconcile the Jew to the Gentile and the Gentile to the Jew. God can reconcile man to man; He can bring peace to men and between men. Note these THREE FACTS:

Fact 01: Peter prayed often every day. This is seen in the fact that he was praying about the sixth hour (12 Noon Jewish time). This was one of the three prayer hours practiced by Jews. Peter got alone and prayed at least three times daily.

Yes, Peter was such a man of prayer that God could intervene in his life and direct him, give him specific instructions. It was while he was praying that God spoke to Peter.

Fact 02: Peter was mere man, very human. Despite his being the leader of Jesus’ apostles – the great apostle to the Jews, a man of great spiritual maturity and depth, a great servant of the Lord, a minister highly esteemed – Peter was still just a man, a man who hungered and thirsted, ached and hurt, was weak and frail, prejudiced and too often wrong just like the rest of us.

The significant point is this: being saved and spiritually mature and called to serve God did not make Peter perfect. It did not free him from need and lack, nor from sin. Yes, Peter as a mere man was subject to hunger just as all men – subject to the prejudices until God changed him. And praise God, He was about to change Peter’s prejudice against us, the Gentiles! If God had not changed him and his prejudices, we would still be lost and without Christ in this world.

Fact 03: Peter experienced a trance. The Greek says that “a trance (an ecstasy) came upon him”; that is, he was transported out of himself (ekstasis). His mind was so concentrated, so focussed that Peter lost all sense of the world around him. He was swallowed up in the thoughts of God, transported mentally out of this world. It is something like a daydream, but a daydream so concentrated and focused that all contact with one’s surroundings is completely lost. It is a time of ecstasy in the presence of the Lord, receiving His Word, whatever He has to say to one’s heart.

Let us further explore “What God did through the vision to break down Peter’s prejudice in his daydream?

a) The trance (ecstasy) was of heaven. Peter saw heaven open. The Bible says in Acts 10:10 “Then he became very hungry and wanted to eat; but while they made ready, he fell into a trance.”

Peter’s prejudice was encrusted and hardened. He had never known anything but prejudice within his environment except what Christ had demonstrated. Yes, Peter did not think or know that he was prejudiced. He thought he was only standing against the unrighteousness and injustices of men, that he was to ignore and have nothing to do with ungodly and unjust men. If Peter was to change and begin to reach out to the heathen, the ungodly and unjust, he had to know that the instructions were from heaven, from God Himself.

b) The large sheet upon which a meal was served was huge. The Bible says in Acts 10:11 “He saw heaven opened and something like a large sheet being let down to earth by its four corners.” The sheet contained all manner of animals.

c) The instruction to Peter was, “Get up, Peter. Kill and eat” (Acts 10:13).

d) Peter refused, for the animals were common and unclean according to the laws of Jewish religion (Acts 10:14-16). Note the enormous spiritual struggle Peter was going through.

e) Peter was clearly corrected. The Bible says in Acts 10:15 “The voice spoke to him a second time, “Do not call anything impure that God has made clean.”

f) Peter experienced the event three times and then the trance ended with the platter being received up into heaven (Acts 10:16).

g) Peter was perplexed. While Peter was thinking about the trance and wondering what it meant, the men arrived downstairs and asked for him (Acts 10:17).

h) Peter’s sensitivity to the Holy Spirit’s leadership is clearly seen from this point on. Yes, it was the Holy Spirit who told him (i) that the men were downstairs; (ii) to go “with them” (Peter did not yet know that they were Gentiles); (iii) not to hesitate – do not waver, wonder, doubt, question the thing to be done; and (iv) that He, the Holy Spirit, had sent the men after him.

Yes, Peter did not know the men were Gentiles. But the Holy Spirit had just told Peter exactly what to do. Peter could not question this fact and he was now ready to have his prejudice against Gentiles erased.

i) Peter received the Gentile servants. He obeyed the Holy Spirit, did exactly what the Spirit said. Peter even invited the men into the house to be his guests, an unheard of thing.

Psalmist David says in Psalm 25:5 “Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Saviour, and my hope is in you all day long.” He further said in Psalm 27:11 “Teach me your way, Lord; lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors.”

Again Psalmist David says in Psalm 143:10 “Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground.”

Yes, finally, God could break the prejudice seated in the hearts of Peter which enabled us to have Christ in our lives, today. Hallelujah!!!

3] The Confrontation and Lessons Learned by the Jew & Gentile:

The confrontations and lessons learned by the Jew and the Gentile, the prejudiced of the world are as follows:

Lesson 01: The preparation by Peter: Peter took six Jewish believers, orthodox Jews, with him (Acts 10:45; 11:42). He knew he was treading troubled waters by associating with Gentiles; he sensed he would need witnesses to what he was doing. Therefore, he was preparing himself against attack (Acts 11:11).

Lesson 02: The preparation by Cornelius: Cornelius was expectant, excited, eagerly waiting for their arrival. He had “called together his relatives and close friends”. There were many present. Note also the faith of Cornelius. He knew Peter would be coming, that God would fulfil His Word and do what He had promised.

That is why Psalmist David says in Psalm 34:22 “The Lord will rescue his servants; no one who takes refuge in him will be condemned.” He further said in Psalm 37:5 “Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass.”

Prophet Isaiah said in Isaiah 26:4 “Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD HIMSELF, is the Rock eternal.”

Just see the faith of Cornelius: He was already witnessing by bringing people to hear the messenger from God. How about our faith? Let us check our hearts.

Lesson 03: The confrontation of the Jew and the Gentile, two men humbled by God.

Yes, Cornelius had been humbled by the vision from God. He had been mulling over the experience for four days now, being humbled and prepared more and more to receive the Jewish messenger. When he confronted Peter, he was so humbled he prostrated himself before Peter in an act of deep reverence.

Yes, Peter also demonstrated humility. It was the custom to bow before men of high honour, showing reverence and respect for them. But God had humbled Peter too. Peter forbade the act, disallowed it. No man is to be idolized or reverenced in the sense of being held in awe. Peter rebuked Cornelius: “I am only a man myself” (Acts 10:26).

Jesus accepted such reverence and worship (Matthew 2:11; 8:2; 9:18), and He accepted it from Peter himself (Matthew 8:2; Luke 5:8). But Peter says no man is to bow or reverence another man, no matter who they are. We are all mere men, each one saved by God’s wonderful grace.

Jesus said in Matthew 18:4 “Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”

Apostle Paul said in Romans 12:3 “For I say, through the grace given to me, to everyone who is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think soberly, as God has dealt to each one a measure of faith.”

Apostle Paul while writing to Philippians says in Philippians 2:3-4 “Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others.”

That is why Apostle Peter says in 1 Peter 5:5 “Likewise you younger people, submit yourselves to your elders. Yes, all of you be submissive to one another, and be clothed with humility, for “God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble.”

Lesson 04: The lesson learned by Peter as explained by him in Acts 10:28-29 “Then he said to them, “You know how unlawful it is for a Jewish man to keep company with or go to one of another nation. But God has shown me that I should not call any man common or unclean. Therefore, I came without objection as soon as I was sent for. I ask, then, for what reason have you sent for me?” Yes, Peter now knew that no man was impure or unclean. He now knew:

That Christ had abolished the distinction between Jew and Gentile.

That Christ had abolished the wall of partition between Jew and Gentile.

That Christ had abolished all distinctions between men, whether racial, social or some caste system.

No man was to treat any other man with anything but love and care, mercy and forgiveness, concern and compassion. Peter’s prejudice was wiped out, erased, and overcome. It had been overcome by God. The door of salvation was about to be thrown open to the Gentiles forever.

Jesus said in Matthew 5:44-45 “But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust.”

That is why Apostle Paul while writing to Romans said in Romans 10:12 “For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek, for the same Lord over all is rich to all who call upon Him.”

While writing to Galatians, Paul said in Galatians 3:26-29 “So in Christ Jesus you are all children of God through faith, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ. There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. If you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham’s seed, and heirs according to the promise.”

While writing to Ephesians, Paul said in Ephesians 6:9 “And masters, treat your slaves in the same way. Do not threaten them, since you know that he who is both their Master and yours is in heaven, and there is no favouritism with him.”

Lesson 05: The lesson learned by Cornelius was THREEFOLD:

a) The man who truly seeks God moves God. Cornelius declared that God answered his prayer (Acts 10:30-31).

b) The man who seeks God must listen to God and obey God. Cornelius declared that he listened and did exactly what God said, and that he did it immediately (Acts 10:33).

c) The man who seeks God must be receptive to the Word of God (Acts 10:33).

The Bible says in Acts 17:11-12 “Now the Berean Jews were of more noble character than those in Thessalonica, for they received the message with great eagerness and examined the Scriptures every day to see if what Paul said was true. As a result, many of them believed, as did also a number of prominent Greek women and many Greek men.”

That is why Apostle Paul said in 1 Thessalonians 2:13 “And we also thank God continually because, when you received the word of God, which you heard from us, you accepted it not as a human word, but as it actually is, the word of God, which is indeed at work in you who believe.”

Thus, we’ve seen that we all are prone to prejudice, but that God is gracious to gently break us of this sin so that He can work through us. His purpose is to spread the gospel among the nations for His glory, and He does it through His servants who are willing to cross cultural barriers. When He confronts our prejudice, we must yield in obedience to Him. What is the result?

When we yield to the Lord and put to death our prejudice, He will use us mightily in His service. As we’ve seen, God had prepared the listeners and He had prepared the preacher. Cornelius had invited in all of his friends and neighbours, who had gathered, as Cornelius puts it (Acts 10:33), “before God to hear all that [Peter] had been commanded by the Lord” to say. That’s a ready situation for God to work, when the hearts of the people are prepared and the heart of the speaker is prepared and they gather in God’s presence to hear a message that God commanded him to give! As we see, Peter didn’t even get a chance to finish his message before the Holy Spirit fell upon everyone there and they all got saved. And, of course, this was just the beginning of the gospel moving out into Gentile territory. Yes, the same gospel that saved the apostles was mighty to save the Gentiles who believed in the Lord Jesus Christ. Because of Peter’s obedience in putting to death his prejudice, the gospel has come to us who otherwise never would have known God.

Shall we ask God to show us our prejudices? When He does, let us obey Him by putting our prejudices to death and by showing His love and offering His gospel to those whom we might not naturally be inclined to like. Surely, He will use it to exalt His name among the nations!

Let us introspect ourselves.

Shall we always pray to our Lord like Cornelius?

Shall we not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart?

Shall we obey to God’s instructions immediately like Cornelius?

Are we allowing God to intervene in our lives when we are so deeply seated on some religion beliefs or doctrines?

Are we obeying to God when He instructs us to come out from our deep rooted behaviours which are against our Lord’s teachings?

Are we blocking our Lord’s plans in reaching the unreached souls with our own selfish plans which are contrary to God’s Plans?

Are we thinking that we are only standing against the unrighteousness and injustices of men, that we need to ignore and we have nothing to do with ungodly and unjust men?

Shall we obey to the Holy Spirit and do exactly what the Spirit says like Peter even the instructions are entirely opposite to our customs?

Are we having our faith on Jesus while going for sharing the gospel to Gentiles or preparing ourselves by taking fellow believers along with us like Peter?

Are we so excited, expectant, eagerly waiting for God’s presence and miracles while doing God’s gospel work amongst Gentiles like Cornelius?

Shall we commit our ways to the Lord, trust in Him so that He shall bring the desired results according to His perfect will?

Shall we humble ourselves like Cornelius and Peter keeping our Lord’s purpose in mind?

Shall we look for the interests of others instead of looking out for our own interests?

Shall we treat everyone with love and care, mercy and forgiveness, concern and compassion?

Shall we yield to the Lord and put to death our prejudice so that He can use us mightily in His service?

Shall we ask God to show us our prejudices and obey Him when He does?

Let us Pray: Our Heavenly Gracious Father, we thank You for helping us to understand about “Breaking Down of Prejudice Resulting into Opening of the Door to Gentiles” today Father. Father, please help us to do good always without losing our hearts, help us to Your instructions immediately like Cornelius, help us to allow Yourselves to intervene in our lives when we are seated on some religion beliefs or doctrines Father. Father, please help us to obey You when You instruct us to come out of our deep-rooted behaviours and our plans which are contrary to Your Plans Father. Please help us to obey to the Holy Spirit and do exactly what the Spirit says like Peter even the instructions are entirely opposite to our customs, help us to commit our ways to You Father and trust You completely so that You shall bring the desired results according to Your perfect will Father. Please help us to treat everyone with love and care, mercy and forgiveness, concern and compassion and look for the interests of others instead of looking our for our own interest Father. Father, please show us our prejudices and help us to obey You and put to death our prejudice so that You can use us mightily in Your service Father. Father, please help us to understand Your wisdom, Your will and Your mercy and try to seek Your perfect will besides seeking Your power to do the miracles and use the miracles to make people believe and glorify You Father. We give all praise, glory and honour to Your Holy Name. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.

God bless you all.

[survivor-mountmerapi]

Ep. 9&10: “I’m just--------peeing quite frankly” - Madi

Steven

Was I entertained by this tribal and Julia playing her idol? Yes I very much was. Was I about to simultaneously puke and cry at the same time? Yes. Yes I was. Can this game have one single ounce of something that wont make me go into tears.

Anastasia

We are so dumb and stupid and dumb and stupid. I dont know why we would all vote for one person?? ESPEVIALLU if the person knows they are going and especially if that person is julia and shes already rlly good at lying. we were all blinded by our mutual force to get her out and we didnt think it out heck frick. sorry moth this is so unfair. moth was trying to get julia out the most bcs julia targetted moth last season. why julia has a thing against moth in this game? i dont know!! anyway we have to get that girl out next round and we will split vote pls it has to happen we cant give up she has to go

Madi

im just--------peeing quite frankly

go off julia, you did that, props to you

Raffy

Julia playing that idol is the best and most iconic play in this game thus far. The dramatics of the fight to ensure that all the votes landed on her? Keeping the people who she knew would get skittish and snake-ish so she has a higher chance of staying next round? Literally, this all works in her favor. To be honest, I don't even want Julia gone at this point. I want someone like Ginnifer or Rachel gone for future security. Sure Julia will eventually snake me, but keep your enemies close and all that.

Ginnifer admitted ON CALL that she almost voted for Steven WHEN STEVEN WAS THERE. She also wanted an alliance with Julia, Madi, Steven, and I in the same call! Then, DeNara gets on call and Ginnifer ADMITS to wanting to create an alliance without her. I'm just kind of shook. Why would I want to work with Ginnifer anyways if she's been targeting me since the swap? There's no reason to other than being chaotic. Then, Julia transitions to pitching with working with her! And Madi is calling her out! This after-tribal call is a mess. But, now the target is fully off of me. Mwahahaha. These people???

Ginny

Moth was idoled out yikes but I tried to make a new alliance but it failed

Steven

Im trying to figure out what Ginny's logic is. First you say that you wanna target all the winners cause we are the biggest threats in the game. Then you tell me TO MY FACE after a wild tribal that you almost voted for me to leave tonight. Even after all that you then turn around and try to align yourself with the winners that you were just targeting to spice it up???????? Im sorry but Im not following this.

Julia

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1AxVD3qWAkVmL_7fWiHERvNIg9VkKFS1W/view?usp=drivesdk

Raffy

According to DeNara, Elle wants to create an alliance with DeNara, Steven, and I. This could be a good back up alliance for the time being. Additionally, it gives us more numbers on our side if we ever need to turn on Gian and Madi. However, I don't want to do that anytime soon. They are great allies to have. Plus, they are able to think and are going after Julia. So, it should all work in my favor. I love being able to slip by each tribal with my target not being shot. I am thinking of throwing this challenge so Ginny can get the yeet though.

Madi

hi its madi and im being messy did I just text DeNara and ask her to be in a tighter alliance with me bc its gonna get to the point where the winners have to go? have I been reinforcing since the merge to anastasia that we are working together and that shes my partner in this game? did I just say “partner to partner” to anastasia that we should start an all girls alliance? did I also ask denara? me, denara, anastasia, rachel, and elle? rachel wont talk to me tho:( bc I “lied” so thats a speed bump denara also thinks she is the only one I told ab this and when I asked if we should tell anastasia she said that anastasia is a “blabber mouth” so “not yet”??????? am I fucking up my game? idkkk come back tomorrow thank the lords I have an idol if this blows up in my face???

DeNara

That awkward moment when you don't remember what your confessionals say anymore and you are repeating yourself a lot lol

Steven

https://youtu.be/2NGxkNjrGdk

DeNara

Soooo after Moth got voted out and Ginnifer decided to go a little crazy and try and make new alliances without us, Elle and I have decided to jump ship on the Lucky Charms alliance. She suggested talking to Steven and Raffy which was a great idea. I talked to them and they said they would be down with that so we are going to make a new alliance when Elle brings it up.

TEA. Steven and Raffy want to stick with our alliance of 5 with Madi and Gian because they trust them but Madi messaged me today saying she wanted to make a tighter alliance with me so we can eventually take out the winners. I am not sure if I should tell Steven and Raffy this or not yet, as it could end up worse for me if I do....

DeNara

You know, I should give myself more credit in this game. I have played the middle so well this season so far. I have an alliance with literally everyone in this game except Julia and Anastasia and Anastasia tells me things when I ask her lol I think I can do well in this game if I play my cards right.

DeNara

Oooooh so I made an alliance chat with Raffy, Steven and Elle. Sounds like we are gonna try and get Ginnifer out before Julia now. I did tell Julia I would try and spare her a round since she didn't vote me out o.O

Elle

✨A New Alliance Has Been Formed✨Me, DeNara, Steven, and Raffy ^_^ Which is great bc I trust DeNara, and I feel really good about Steven and Raf (I don't think?? they would betray us 😂but I am not sure of anything anymore lol ahhhh the post merge paranoia is real) I also feel really good about this challenge. I get to work on my layout designs for the magazine me and Madi are working on which is great! I don't know why I always worm in something I want to be practicing into these challenges lol, probs bc I'm prone to being like "I'll get right on that!" and then... not 😂 so the challenges are good excuses. I also would have Loved to make a tarot deck like the example ugh that seems so cool 😭

DeNara

So I told Raffy and Steven about Madi bringing up a potential tighter alliance and I regret it. I feel like that was something I should have kept to myself Stevenhttps://youtu.be/dWdKo0iuaV4

Raffy

DeNara created an alliance with Elle, Steven, and I. Steven and DeNara still don't want to tell Gian and Madi about it. Ok I guess. If they find out though, I am throwing DeNara under that bus so fast. Secondly, it seems Elle wants to target Ginnifer as well this round. I love ur impact. Now, we just need two more votes. One of them being Julia. The others possibly Gian and Madi if I can convince them. Rachel and Anatasia would probably still target Julia. I am trying to not obviously throw this challenge.

Gian

The way I ate Steven up on this lip sync. It was so fun to do! Im really happy we did this challenge :)

Elle

The judges are judging🎶 (to the tune of "The Lady's Improving" from The Prom) Anyway, I just want to preface that the first ad was supposed to be the only like, purposefully kinda bad layout in the magazine 😂 I was low on time and I regretted the color palette, it was way too saturated but Madi and I had agreed on it and I didn't want to be more annoying than I was already being about the magazine 😅. Also, I need to remember people read these afterward 😂 I'm incredibly bad at not just spewing whatever is in my mind sometimes, I feel like I might've overshared a couple of times but it happens! This probably counts as oversharing bc it's not about gameplay... yes okay back on topic I hope we win, if we don't I'll be okay I'll just be ticked at myself for staying up past 2AM but realistically if I didn't hyperfocus on that it'd be something else 🤷🏽‍♀️ atleast this was productive, I got to work on layouts a little (I mean technically I got quite a few layouts but so many are baddd 😭😭😭 like if a professor saw some of these they'd faint and then kick me out of graphic design lmao). But the point wasn't for it to be professional, so it's okay!!!!! I'm telling myself that so I don't go back and fix everything lol.

Raffy

The plan as of right now is to target both Ginnifer and Julia. Personally, I want Ginnifer out because she has been a very chaotic mess since the merge started. I would rather want that gone now rather than later when we no longer have the chance. I made the plan to split the vote 4-4 against Ginnifer and Julia. DeNara, Steven, Elle, and I (the secret alliance hidden from Gian's and Madi's view) will vote for Ginnifer. Gian and Madi know about this. They, along with Anastasia and Rachel, will vote for Julia. So, it should not matter who either of them vote for. However, it would be nice if they could vote each other. This plan does come with its risks though. I am willing to take those risks. And, if I get a bad smell, I will use my SWP to get out of the sticky situation.

DeNara

Well. Today is tribal day. I have been feeling worn down so much the past couple days and part of me just wants to be carried by others for a while. On the other hand, part of me feels like it might be time to make a big move soon because that is how you win. If Julia is still here after the vote tonight, then I feel like I just need to team up with her because clearly she needs to be blindsided. The lack of chatter has me worried.....like why is nobody talking??? Is it because they have all teamed up and are plotting against one of my alliances, or are they just tired and busy like me? I am not sure... I am suspicious that Julia hasn't really been talking. I know she said she had personal stuff going on but who knows if that is all of it, or just part of it. I am feeling the desire to flip on my alliance soon. Idk if I will because I feel tight with Steven and he plays loyal, but if I told him about Madi wanting to flip on the winners soon I may be able to do something... I kind of want to start actually lying to people, like... full blown lies... muahahaha! We shall see what happens if I am not blindsided tonight.

Raffy

DeNara is so paranoid. This is what she told me: "I am pretty nervous about Julia teaming up with some ppl and making a play tonight. Should we come up with some crazy lie just to scare her? I am not sure what we could say, but I am feeling nervous about her?" Like, do you want to become the target? Doing that is a surefire way of becoming one. Everyone is BUSY. They're DOING things. The situation only becomes dire later on in the day. There's no reason to be doing all this when there is still time to discuss tribal. I might just dip because I am not going to get punished for DeNara being paranoid. Like, if Julia wanted to target us, she would have already done so. DeNara is just... very taxing to work with because she thinks that everyone is against her. I feel like I needed to talk her down from making a move that would have certainly gotten her voted out.

Ginny

Ohhh girl I’m scared tonight I better not get blindsided because Lordy I got it when moth left and I wasn’t prepared whooo Jesus

DeNara

So I have been talking to Elle a bunch and someone told her about the split vote between Ginny and Julia. I am trying to play as though she is the one giving me this information, even though I helped plan it. I actually am feeling really close with Elle and hoping I can get far with her. I might make her my real number one with Steven. I like Steven a lot but I am worried he won't turn on Raffy when it is time. Raffy keeps getting a little frustrtaed with how hard I am trying to play this game (which is fair) so he may have to go after Julia and Ginny. I am getting concerned about these newbies though. We should take one of them out soon to even out the numbers. Also, I have been trying to get idol hunt information from as many people as I can and I remembered that Gian got an advantage during a game, so I am trying to get him to tell me what number it was since he didn't add it to our group chart

Anastasia

Me and Julia were paired together for the challenge. Since we're trying to get that girl out I didn't want to win. I was a little worried that somehow ours would win but we got second to last. Julia was sadly going through stuff in real life and struggled. It's good for me but I sympathize with her.. Anyway Julia is out of here tonight.

Julia

Ok so last tribal was so sexy the looks on everyone’s faces are now burned into my brain

Julia

I’m really hoping it’s Ginny tonight. I’m going to try to pull out some shit and hope and pray put nothings in my hands tonight

Rachel

i am so happy to be playing with such nice people. i really do be getting in my own head sometimes, but it is so nice to be reassured that i am playing a fun game and no one feels ill will towards me in anyway. i feel awesome to be supported by this group. i had a tragic event happen in my life this week, but plan to move forward and try to have the most fun while playing in his honor.

Julia

I’m at tribal right now and I feel like I’m going to puke. It’s definitely me. It’s been a ride friends. Julia out

Madi

So I got immunity, Julia went home. Sad but necessary. I really respect her as a player and would love to work with her sometime but just not this game. Also kinda annoyed that raffy called me out at tribal during the revote..... like yeah I came up with the revote but why call my name out for it???? like what is the deal with that. He is my next target tho so like hehehehe raffy its time to go. I am thinking we convince him ginny is going home and blindside him instead??? idk just thoughts

goodnight!

DeNara

So we just voted Julia out and I am actually sad about it. I am glad the threat is gone, but she was fun for sure. Now my alliance of 5 is standing strong, if I stay loyal...

Raffy

R.I.P. Julia, Queen of the Idol. The plan went off without a hitch which is pretty boring, but it means I have a lot of control in this game. I am excited for Touchy Subjects as it will be a very revealing challenge. If I had my choice, a newbie or Ginnifer would get voted out next.

Gian

My game is borderline UTR/Goat at this point and idk if that’s something I’d want to change lol. I’ve been feeling lazy >-<

[lunarimagines]

WATCH ME BABYGIRL [pt. 14]

Summary: Jungkook is your brother’s annoying best friend. You can’t stand him but he just can’t resist teasing you. How far will he actually go?

Warnings: language

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You were practically a zombie as you stumbled to your locker and put in the combination incorrectly four times before finally putting in the correct combination and opening it. You’d been getting home even later from dance practice and then you’d had to stay up even later to finish the insane workload teachers were giving you. You almost regretted agreeing to do the dance with Hoseok. Almost. The thing was, you could tell you were improving when it came to dance. Moves came more naturally to you and you were building up muscle. Your butt? Amazing. Your thighs? Even better. Plus, you were getting to spend a lot more time with your best friend and other people you wouldn’t have normally even thought about striking up a conversation with.

However, a thought had been nagging you. Something Taehyung had told you about. Was Hoseok really more friendly towards you? He was naturally flirty, that much you could tell, and maybe he was nicer to you just because you were the only girl on the team. Still… maybe he was a little too nice to you.

You shook your head. Why on Earth were you getting annoyed that somebody was being nice to you?

Closing your locker, you looked down and realized you hadn’t even grabbed the right textbooks. Sighing deeply, you opened your locker again to grab the correct books when you a hand slammed down on the locker beside you. You jumped, nearly dropping your binder. Looking towards the culprit, you narrowed your eyes in annoyance.

“What the hell Jungkook?” you hissed, willing your heartbeat to slow down.

Jungkook simply cocked an eyebrow and smirked before leaning in to place a kiss on your forehead.

“I haven’t seen you in like forever. What have you been doing?” he asked, twisting around to lean his back against the locker.

“Don’t be so dramatic you saw me two days ago when you a came over to my house and completely IGNORED me to play video games with my brother,” you said, gathering the books you needed and slamming your locker closed.

Jungkook looked sheepish, his smirk turning into a shy grin.

“Ahh… yeah,” he said quietly. “But you haven’t been home that often. Jimin always says you and Taehyung are still here and that he doesn’t drive the two of you home anymore.”

You shrugged your shoulders.

“Taehyung and I are part of the dance team remember? We have practice, like, everyday.”

Jungkook rolled his eyes.

“Yeah, you have practice literally every single day but Taehyung doesn’t,” he replied curtly, crossing his arms over his chest.

“Well, Taehyung doesn’t have an extra dance to work on,” you huffed, readjusting the books in your hands.

Jungkook’s eyebrows shot up and he looked genuinely curious.

“You’re doing another dance? Is it solo? Is it sexy?”

“Yeah, it’s a duet. It’s kind of sexy I guess,” you replied slowly.

“But… you’re the only girl on the team? How is it a sexy duet?” Jungkook asked, his lips curving down into a frown.

“OH MY GOD Jungkook. The dance captain and I are doing a duet to gain extra points. He’s the best dancer and I’m the only girl,” you said, suddenly hoping the conversation would be over quickly.

“Why are you doing a dance with him?” Jungkook asked, sounding more than pissed off.

“Why do you even care?” you retorted, half rolling your eyes. “It’s not like you ever go to any of our practice competitions.”

Jungkook opened and closed his mouth like a fish out of water, his eyes even bugging slightly as he tried to find a viable excuse.

“I’ve had other things to do…” he finally mumbled, avoiding eye contact.

You narrowed your eyes. If Jungkook was going to be vague then so were you. You began walking towards your first class, Jungkook trailing closely behind you stuttering out half sentences. You weren’t in the mood. You were fine with him having ���other things to do” but what you weren’t fine with was him not even bothering to show up to one performance. You’d gone to his games, couldn’t he at least pretend to care about your interest and see you dance just once? You were so frustrated by him that you weren’t sure if you wanted to scream or cry… or do both at the same time.

You reached your first class, Jungkook still close behind you, but before you could pass over the threshold he grasped your arm and pulled your gently back towards him. Tugging you out of the doorway, he held onto your shoulders, his eyes staring directly into yours.

“Can I come see a dance practice? Please babe? I can’t make it to any performances so can I atleast come see a practice?” he asked, sounding sincere.

You were still cold towards him, feeling a sudden rush of anger.

“Why the sudden interest? Just because I’m dancing with another guy and you feel threatened? Do whatever you want Jungkook, but keep your mouth shut if you come,” you hissed, pulling away from him and stalking into the classroom.

You spotted Taehyung and the usual table the two of you shared. He was already watching you, his eyebrows raised in confusion. You tossed your stuff onto the floor and plopped down into your chair, your head immediately falling forward to rest on the desk.

“First couple's quarrel?” Taehyung asked, placing his hand on your shoulder in sympathy.

Your head snapped up and you stared at Taehyung. He shifted uncomfortably in his seat, a small laugh escaping him.

“W-what?”

“Why do you think Hobi likes me?” you asked, your voice flat and your eyes slightly glazed over.

“Y/N, are you okay? Did- did something happen at dance practice the other day?” “Answer my original question Tae,” you said, feeling hot tears prick at the corners of your eyes.

Taehyung took a deep breath, his hand sliding off of your shoulder.

“The way he looks at you… it’s how Jungkook looks at you sometimes. And the way he looks after you… Jungkook does that too. I don’t know if it’s fair to compare them but…” Taehyung trailed off, his eyes concentrated on you.

“I have to tell Hobi that I’m not interested. He’s nice and all, but Taehyung I really do think - no I know I love Jungkook. The fight thing we just had? I feel really bad right now.”

Taehyung let out a snort, a soft smile gracing his lips.

“That means you’re really in love Y/N. And if Jungkook’s feeling the same right now- which he probably is- then you know it’s true love. If you explain it to him, he may be annoyed that you’re dancing with Hobi, but he won’t be mad. Nobody really wants to see their significant other grinding on somebody else with a sultry look on their face, even if it’s fake,” Taehyung said, turning his attention forward as the bell rang and the teacher began to talk.

The truth was, Jungkook was feeling the exact same way. Why couldn’t he have just told you the reason he wasn’t at any of the performances?

“Hey, you all good?” Jin asked, leaning towards him with a concerned look on his face.

The baseball team was currently having a meeting about the championship game that was coming up in less than two months. Jungkook hadn’t heard a word the coach had said. His mind was still replaying the argument.

“Yeah, no I’m fine,” Jungkook whispered back.

He could tell Jin didn’t believe him. His eyes had that “I know you’re lying but you do you” look in them as they were slightly hooded and dark. His eyebrows were raised and his mouth was drawn in a straight line. Jungkook sighed knowing that one way or another Jin was going to pry to problem out of him.

“This morning Y/N and I g-”

“Did you hurt my sister?” Jimin interjected, his eyes cold.

“No. I mean yes. I mean not really,” Jungkook said, still trying to sort out the issue in his head.

“Yes or no? It’s not really a hard question,” Jimin hissed.

Jungkook sighed, pushing a hand through his hair. How was he supposed to say that the two of you fought and now you weren’t really talking without making it sound bad?

“It’s nothing. I’ll fix it, okay? I don’t like feeling this way,” Jungkook mumbled, avoiding eye contact with Jimin.

Jin nodded thoughtfully beside him. It was clear that Jin could see how in love with you Jungkook was. It would take a blind fool to not see how in love he was. Every time somebody said “Y/N” he perked up, his mouth curving into a slight, shy smile. His eyes would get warmer and would flick down to the ground then back up to the person who had said your name. Jin couldn’t help but wonder how Jimin didn’t see how in love with his sister Jungkook was. Maybe Jimin was the blind fool.

Jimin opened his mouth to respond, but the coach called out to the three boys, grabbing their attention and focusing it back on the problem at hand: the championship game. Not only would the championship game give them pride and glory, but it would also help with funding the baseball program at the high school. Therefore, Jungkook put his best effort forth in order to focus on what the coach was saying. He couldn’t though. How did you have this effect on him?

You couldn’t say you were surprised to see Jungkook loitering by your locker at the end of the day. He looked nervous, shifting his weight from foot to foot. He was focused on his phone, typing something before locking it and slipping it into his pocket. Jungkook looked up, his eyes locking with yours and he broke out into a nervous smile.

“What time does practice start?” he asked, stepping aside so that you could get to your locker.

“3:30,” you mumbled.

Jungkook nodded, opening his mouth to say something before you cut him off.

“I don’t know if Hobi will let you stay for practice but you’re welcome to see if he will,” you said curtly.

Jungkook tensed at your nickname for Hoseok, but he simply nodded. You closed your locker and headed towards the women’s locker room, your backpack slung over your shoulder. Jungkook trailed behind you like a lost puppy. His pitiful act was causing your anger to dissipate. He really did feel bad about not seeing you often and not supporting your interests when you supported his. He was just unsure of how to show his support. Truth be told, you were his first real relationship; he’d never loved anybody more than he loved you.

“Jungkook, I have to change. Just… wait here,” you said, stopping him before he could follow you all the way into the locker room.

He pouted, peeking around you to see an empty locker room. Most after school sports didn’t start until 4:30 so it was easy to see why the locker room would be empty. He looked down at you, his signature smirk plastered on his face, any trace of his endearing pout gone.

“There’s nobody in there, babe. C’mon, it’s nothing I haven’t seen before,” he half whined.

You shoved his chest. Your anger towards him - which had been ebbing - was completely gone so it wasn’t that you didn’t want him near you. Mostly, you didn’t want somebody to walk in and see you pinned up against the lockers by Jungkook half naked.

“I’ll be out in a few.”

You changed as quickly possible because you wanted to get to practice early enough to have a little downtime with Jungkook before you had to start. Walking out of the locker room, you noticed Jungkook was right where you’d left him. He grabbed your hand as you began to walk towards the cafeteria. When you got there, Hoseok and Taehyung were already there.

“Y/N!” Hoseok called, smiling brightly.

Taehyung simply looked from your hand intertwined with Jungkook and back up to you, raising his eyebrows as if to say, “All good?” You nodded before smiling at Hoseok.

“Are you up for staying late again tonight? I can still give you a ride home.”

You nodded before turning to Jungkook to introduce him. Jungkook’s jaw was clenched and a forced smile was on his face.

“Hobi, this is Jungkook. Jungkook, Hobi. He’s the dance captain,” you said, gesturing between the two boys.

Jungkook shook Hoseok’s hand, his fake smile slipping slightly.

“I’m Y/N’s boyfriend,” Jungkook said.

This time, it was Hoseok’s smile that slipped slightly.

“Boyfriend? It’s great to meet you Jungkook. Y/N’s never mentioned you,” Hoseok said, looking between you and Jungkook. Jungkook jaw clenched even more at Hoseok’s comment.

Long story, you mouthed.

Hoseok nodded, his smile finding its place back on his face.

“Well, you’re welcome to watch the practice. I don’t know how fun it will; there’s a lot of starting and stopping,” Hoseok said brightly as Yoongi and Namjoon joined the three of you in the cafeteria.

“Can we skip the long stretching Hoseok? I know it’s important, but I have a ton of homework so if we can end practice early…” Yoongi said, trailing off as he dropped his stuff onto one of the cafeteria table.

Hoseok nodded and clapped his hands loudly.

“Okay! Let’s start then.”

Jungkook’s eyes had barely left your body during the entire dance practice. At first, you were slightly self conscious but as practice progressed you began to feel less flustered and more confident. Knowing Jungkook couldn’t look away felt good, especially after not being able to spend any time with him for the past few weeks.

“Okay, Y/n - if you’re still up for it- and I will stay after to work on the duet and the rest of you can go home. Make sure you ice and get some sleep!” Hoseok called.

In three minutes flat, everyone except for you, Hoseok, and Jungkook were gone. Taehyung had shot you a look but even he hadn’t stuck around.

You sucked in a deep breath, suddenly wanting to be anywhere but in that cafeteria. The tension was thick enough to be cut through and each of you were waiting for the other to make the first move.

“I um- I think we should call it a night,” you said finally, well aware that you’d promised Hoseok earlier that you’d be able to stay after to work on the duet. However, you’d had a thought during practice that it may be better for Jungkook to see the dance practices you’d filmed for individual work at home before he saw the live version...

Hoseok let out a sigh of relief. There was really no way to make the dance not awkward with Jungkook sitting in the room just seven feet from the two of you. Was it the best idea to delay it? No, probably not. Was it a good idea to let him see the recordings of the dance before he saw it live? Oh yeah, definitely.

“I think you should get some rest. We’ve stayed late every night for the past few weeks. Take the rest of the week off actually. I think that, um, we have the dance almost completely coordinated so it’ll be, you know, fine,” Hoseok stuttered out, his face flushing in relief.

Jungkook’s eyes had narrowed, but he didn’t seem to mad about you not having to dance with Hoseok, alone, for the rest of the week.

“Do you need a ride?” Hoseok asked as he turned to pack up the dance stereo.

Before you could reply, Jungkook spoke.

“I can give my baby girl a ride home. Thanks though man.”

Both you and Hoseok flushed, but Hoseok - ever the professional - nodded quickly and plastered a smile on his face.

“Thanks. I’d hate to lose my dance partner. I’ll see you tomorrow Y/N,” Hoseok said.

You smiled brightly, trying to shrug off the arm Jungkook had slung around your shoulders.

“Thanks Hobi. I really appreciate it.”

Before he could reply, Jungkook was leading you out of the cafeteria. He picked up your bag and slung it over his shoulder, his arm that was around you coming down so that his hand could grasp yours. He gave it a squeeze, but it was still tense. You were angry at the idea of him not being able to handle you and Hoseok trying to help the team win the competition. He was angry at the idea of you being okay with any man touching you “sexually” that in public. It was going to be a long and quiet car ride…

taetae: how’d he take it?

you: didn’t show him…

you: i’m gonna send him a video of the practice first i think that’s a good first step

taetae: for once, i agree with you… ;)

taetae: soften the blow

You sighed, laying on your back and staring up at your ceiling. The entire house was silent, every occupant except for you sound asleep. The only sound came from your phone buzzing softly beside you and the slight creaks from the house settling.

taetae: otherwise did he take it well?

you: yeah… he said he wanted to go to practice because he couldn’t go to any performances

taetae: hmmm

you: what do you mean “hmmm”

You felt your stomach clench as you waited for him to share his wisdom with you. He had been right about Hoseok liking you after all…

taetae: all of the “baseball boyfriends” are there to support except for jungkook…

taetae: what’s he doing?

you: you don’t think he’s… idk like cheating

taetae: no

taetae: he loves you a lot it’s just weird you know… he might be but i really doubt it

taetae: just ask him and don’t think about it too much he really loves you and i’m sure he has a good reason

you: but his reputation as a player

taetae: yeah… his reputation :(

Thanks to Taehyung, you got no sleep that night.