#he was really shitty to me tbh

[sonknuxadow]

hey guys look what i found in my drafts. from a few days ago .

[ganondoodle]

the closer we get to arcanes finale the more worried i am bc so often .. if not always .. things i like end in a way that i dislike so much it ruins everything else for me

and im so worried they pull a 'this is a multiverse' thing bc then they can say every skin is somehow canon bc its all different universes you seeeeee and jayce went mad bc he lived through all of them or something, or force it to end in a way that makes the champions end up like they are in game- Vi is a shitty cop, Jinx is just heehoo craycray bc xyz etc

[mephoj]

nickel and balloon would be so much more interesting if people explored the way nickel became everything awful that balloon used to be but so much worse ironically all in the name of "protecting" everyone from that history repeating. and not softboy tsundere yaoi or whatever is going on in those tags rn

[lucabyte]

🐮

[pickled-flowers]

I have such a hard time relating to cishet people like wtf 😭

[gwensy]

gonna be annoying in the tags

[horsegirlhob]

I'm not an Angel hater by any means however I do think Spike should get to be as big of a dick to him as he wants to be and people shouldn't get to say shit about it.

[loveryoushouldvecomeover-mp3]

yk what it was never that serious oh my god

[a-chilleus]

painfully aware of all the wasted time in cambridge and how what i might have wanted to do is just not ever gonna happen. idk if i'd have liked punting but i never went and now the friends who i'd have gone with are all too busy in exams and about to graduate. maybe i should have gone to the formals and just suffered through the sensory overload so that i could have taken photos with my friends at the end of the night and convinced myself afterwards i had fun. i've been to a couple of museums here, but only with my parents. i spent hours and hours in this stupid place hiding in toilets, self-destructing, not going to things because i was too scared, when i could - should - have been exploring the prettiest parts of cambridge with my friends. friends who were too fucking busy all the fucking time. friends whose social calendars were always already full of "drinks with [ensemble i'm not in] after the concert" or "dnd with [a group they formed before i met that friend]" - no one's excluding me on purpose, but what are you meant to do when you have friends you love but you missed out on all the things you wish you could have done with them and now it's too late? no one has time to do anything. i feel so so alone and i have for so long and it never seems to get any better

[reel-fear]

Hey if anyone wants to check out Moving Pictures Redrawn [a fan-made remake of the first chapter of BATIM that Mike n Meatly may have ordered to be taken down? It's unsure at the moment] Guess who downloaded a copy before they did that~

[osarina]

there is nothing more heartbreaking as an older sister for your younger brother to call you at 3:30 am drunk and crying because there’s too much pressure on him and too many high expectations that he feels like he’s not living up to and not being able to do anything about it 🥲

[saintedbythestorm]

Ok so...! Call done!

I am getting a new medication!! (thank fucking hell)

So this may lead to me getting my ass knocked out again of course... but since the last one was a bust I'd be fucked either way you know? Might as well aim for the chance of improvement instead! Doctor was completely on-board with changing what I took.

She also praised me for reading up on the medications and how it could take trying several different ones to find a match.

She was also super chill with fixing the error in my medical journal. No problems. Was a misunderstanding on her part. She was also very nice about the whole thing with my pronouns in the journal. And I have to give her praise for noticing my (... what should I call it... people pleasing tendencies perhaps?) ,where I try to go with the softer option to make it easier for others? Cause she said using "hen" (swedish gender neutral pronoun) would perhaps cause less issues with people writing the wrong pronoun in the journal later. She noticed I was doing this and was like "But I can hear on you that you'd like to it to be he" , which i admitted was correct. So she added some general observation thingy to my journal that it should be he. Made no big deal about it either.

I will say... I am liking this doctor. She's so nice to me? I feel like she isn't at all like a lot of doctors I've had where they acted like their word is basically law and how dare you even suggest they may have misunderstood you or that they may be wrong about something? Like she seems completely open to discussion of the meds and any issues I may have. She's very kind about everything and just seems to actually listen to me? Very reassuring too. And since she caught the thing I was doing, observant. (in a very good way!)

God I do hope this is a doctor I can keep and that it keeps rolling along this smoothly... cause it's fucking wild to me to have a doctor actually treat me like a person. May it just keep going this well, please!

But yeah, all in all it seems to me like it was a good call and I'm super happy to be off these pills AT ONCE after the call 💖 HELL YEAH FUCK THE MEDS!!!!

[antsday]

honestly a lot of the most truly terrifying and manipulative horror-villain type characters come from romance authors who think they're writing a desireable male lead

[girlfailurefelix]

i’m so glad we’ve started to open up to the possibility that the MCI is pre-CC bite cuz i’ve been thinking this for a while (yeah kid can be traumatized by his brother being a dick, but still) and while i know no one likes to 1:1 everything, it was really solidified as a concept for me w vanessa’s thing in the movie considering i’m pretty sure the MCI kids are CC’s age so that would be a very intriguing parallel. like william doesn’t need a “good” motive, he can just be awful.

[what-is-it-to-be-pk-esque]

Aaaaaaaaa just did the cazador mission and it was amazing, started off like I couldn't wait to kill his ass and then it just proceeded to get so sad and tense and emotional and ughh

That was honestly one of the most memorable experiences I've ever seen in a video game, hands down. And a choice that was both somehow easy and hard 😫

so unfair but deep down I love that

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

late Carlo and Moretti (during vinci-moretti war) are like Luca and Clemente to me. Moretti will never raise his hand on Carlo but! will he drive him into guilt in ways that are not direct? insult him in passing? convince Carlo that he's doing everything wrong, when in fact it's the opposite? of course such a painful kick to Carlo's ego, it's unfair, he doesn't deserve it. and it's not a father-son relationship, it's a professional relationship and he can't say anything back & defense himself in any way maybe Moretti's more favorable to Eddie in this period because he's more blindly loyal and Carlo feels he's about to explode