#he was just the viewpoint chara in my dream

[proudfreakmetarusonikku]

DAMN I REALLY FORGOT TO MENTION MY C!PRIME DREAM LAST NIGHT

tws: abuse, body horror, manipulation, murder, stalking, obsession and possessive behaviour, restraints, imprisonment

basically, it was a fantasy au. l’manberg was like a revolution or maybe an opposing kingdom to the dsmp? not 100% sure. but they lost and everyone was captured. c!fundy was spared because he was only very young, like eight or so, and obviously c!Eret did the betrayal thing and was fine, but everyone else was imprisoned and slated for execution (including c!jack and c!niki).

so, c!dream was the king/emperor/whatever, and he gave c!wilbur an offer. he’d spare another member of the revolution, but only one. the rest would be executed as planned. with c!fundy safe, c!wilbur chooses c!tommy in a heartbeat, but c!tommy is horrified, not wanting to live without c!wilbur and c!tubbo, but they’re dragged back into their cells and he’s left there.

c!tommy’s still a prisoner, and for some reason he’s restrained even heavier than anyone else, but he lives in luxury. creepily enough, it seems like whoever designed the cell he’s in now knew everything he liked and disliked, despite the fact they had no way of knowing that and even if they did they shouldn’t have known it’d be c!tommy who survives.

so, y’know how i mentioned this was a fantasy au? most characters were human, and c!clingy and c!fundy were beastmen (c!tommy was a raccoon, c!tubbo was a sheep, c!fundy was a fox), but c!Eret and c!Dream were both… something far more ancient. they might have been dreamons I’m not 100% sure? but they had fangs and feathery wings and big elaborate horns and stuff and they were immortal. and they could turn others into their species. I think you’re picking up where i’m going with this.

so, c!dream visits every day, and he’s both weirdly nice but also bluntly honest- he knew c!wilbur would pick c!tommy and organised the situation for that specifically (he refuses to say why, saying it’s more fun if c!tommy figures it out on his own), he has no plans on sparing anyone else no matter what, and he’s not ever going to let c!tommy go because he knows he’s stubborn and will want revenge. so c!tommy’s never really alone. he even has a bell he can use to ring for servants to request whatever he wants, except for any sort of freedom. if c!tommy forgets that everyone he knows and loves is going to be executed and is probably being tortured right now, it’s almost easy to pretend it’s not horrible.

and then the agony starts.

first, it’s days of splitting headaches, and flashes of blindness. then something sharp breaks through his skull and his eyes burn as their colours and shape shift. his old teeth fall out and razor sharp fangs break through his gums. the skin on his hands and feet harden and his bones shift painfully, leaving talons. his back is torn apart as it’s broken apart by the sprouting of wings, and it feels like his bones are melting as they hollow out to allow him flight.

and it’s not just his body, it’s his mind. first, it’s a craving for raw meat. then, it’s the overwhelming enhance of senses, and the dizzying newness of being able to sense magic itself leaving him bedridden and sick. he starts craving for stranger things he can’t describe too, magic itself and souls and emotions to feed on. his emotions feel so much stronger, even harder to control. and what he hates most of all is the instinctual sense of comfort he starts feeling around c!dream, the trust and affection forced into his head like some sick imitation of how he felt around c!wilbur.

c!dream himself is ecstatic to have another spawnling. it’s been so long, he’d felt scared after the exorcisms thousands of years ago and he’d missed having kin so much. if the people knew what he was, if that information wasn’t all but forgotten, they’d never look at him with the adoration they always did. but now, not only has he found kin from the time, who survived alongside him, but he had a new mortal with so much potential to become a new part of his kin too! and, obviously, the second he cast his eyes on c!tommy he sensed it, so he’d had intelligence on him at all times to learn everything about him, because that clearly made him important. he might have even tipped the cards a bit when it came to the l’manberg conflict itself, but all for the greater good, right? all for kin. kin is all that matters. and even if c!tommy hates him now, he’ll realise that eventually, right?

it ended with c!tommy forced to watch as his friends and family from l’manberg were executed, without ever being able to say goodbye and raise a hand to help them btw :)

[magic-is-something-we-create]

Writer’s Never Have I Ever

I was tagged by @lemon-writings​!! thank you!!!

Rules: Bold the things you have done and tag a few other Writeblrs!

PS: commentary is struck through  because i like talking. 

First Person  Second Person  Third Person (i dont like 3rd very much but i have done it) Omniscient POV Past Tense Present Tense Future Tense A complete story

A story longer than 1K A story longer than 5K A story longer than 10K A story longer than 50K A story longer than 100K A story longer than 150K A story shorter than 1K A story shorter than 500 words (might post it at some point) Fanfiction   Original Fiction Fantasy Science Fiction Historical Fiction Dystopian (fantasy dystopia but yes) A story in the Romance Genre A story With No Speculative Elements At All (some of my specfic can be seen as metaphorical, but it’s supposed to be taken in a literal sense) Non-fiction A children’s book (that was a really fun German IV project) A story about vampires (hello firebreathers book 3) A story about werewolves A story about robots A story with a non-human protagonist (@ ehlverse. @ 2 other unspecified wips. hell, @ a few of the Switched universe wips) A story with a main character based on yourself (what do you MEAN some people dont???) A story with a character based on somebody you know (cough NIMBUS cough) Male POV Female POV A POV character a different gender from yourself Animal’s POV (hunter is testing my patience) Multiple Viewpoints (aka all of the Ehlverse stuff) POV character under age 15 (aforementioned vampire) POV character over age 30 (tired Dad tm Emerald Corona) A story told in non-chronological order (does a super-long-past story interspersed with current events count? its not really memories...) Story with a happy ending Story with a sad ending (that short story?? yeah. my DAD cried.) Death of a minor character (essential but like. shows up in 1 scene in a WIP i have not mentioned here yet.) Death of a major character Death (offscreen) Death (onscreen) Antagonist death Protagonist death Villain gets redemption arc (hehehehehehe im excited to flesh this one out more. soon. SOON.) Kissing scene Sex scene (offscreen) Sex scene (onscreen) (entirely self indulgent fanfic of my own characters.) Swears (Mild) Swears (Heavy) (ember says fuck a lot.) Violence (PG or under) Violence (PG-13 or over) (the WIP with the minor chara death is VIOLENT. like. ridiculously detailed gorey violence. its v fun to write) Fight scene Torture scene (watch out) A flashback (vampire girl keeps coming up.) A dream sequence (VAMPIRE GIRL KEEPS COMING UP.) A scene that made you cry actual tears (im emotional ok) A scene that made you laugh at your own joke (at least I think im funny) A prologue An epilogue (hehehehehe watch out) A story with more than 30 chapters A chapter with fewer than 100 words A poem (a bunch. in iambic pentameter. because i had A Phase last year) A prophecy (hello main antagonist of Firebreathers) Story that takes place in the future Story that takes place in the past Story that takes place in a planet that is not earth (1 sci fi and 3 fantasy settings. im kinda obsessed with worldbuilding) (also that 3 means 2 oTHER THAN EHL) An anti-hero An anti-villain (he’s an ass but he does just enough good to be alright. just enough. i personally still hate him.) A parody Description of male character’s scent (elemental magic maKES A SCENT WHEN ITS FIRE. YOU CAN PRY THIS FROM MY COLD DEAD HANDS.) Description of female character’s boobs Character with eyes of a non-natural color (ehlves have wild design choices but i thank 12 year old me for being brave enough to make those choices.)

sweet doofus i talk a lot. anyway im tagging @keen2meecha​, @akanorskwritblr, @themillionthdraft, and @yogurt-writing!!!

[lavellane]

DRAGON AGE QUESTIONS

tagged by: @nordxz​ thanks so much !!! *heart emoji* 

favourite game of the series?

origins! although inquisition is very close as well.  inquisition was my favourite for a very time, but like midway through last year i replayed origins and it just felt.....so good. i really struggled with enjoying dao because of the clunky fighting system but an amazing mutual introduced me to a mod that lets u skip fights basically lol, so i was just able to focus on the story/characters/exploration of the game, which just....made me realize how immensely beautiful the game actually is, and i fell in love all over again aaaaa

how did you discover dragon age?

i was a huge mass effect fan ! mass effect was the game that motivated me to make this blog, actually, and obviously through following people i saw a lot of posts from the da community as well. so i bought origins and inquisition (i had NO idea there was a da2 until half way through awakening lmao) and tried to play origins but HATED it gtrhutgrhugtr and then eventually gave it another try like a month later and completely loved it and now here we are

how many times you’ve played the games?

not as many times as some people on here have - i would say origins maybe four times, da2 maybe twice, inquisition three times. but that also doesnt count all the timesw ive created new games and then abandoned them lol bc theres too many to count 

favourite race to play as?

love me some elf booty ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

favourite class?

at first it was rogue dual wielder ! i played as a rogue in every single first-time playthrough and idk i felt that class has always been the easiest/most op. but in the last maybe 2 years it’s changed to mage. ive always been super intimidated by magic classes in every game i play but i LOVE inquisition’s mage classes/specializations and i can never go back now

do you play through the games differently or do you make the same decisions each time?

im so so so bad and i usually end up making very similar choices, but usually bc i just......replay the same characters every time hgtuhgtruhgtrui. i REALLY need to make more da ocs to explore more choices but....i dont want to lol i already have to many. i still havent sided with the templars in a playthrough like i just cant do it 

go-to adventuring group?

i always bring my characters love interest with them no matter what, just bc its cute, but usually i try to evenly cycle the other characters around that. i always try to have a warrior/rogue/mage in every party. but sometimes i’ll go warrior/warrior/mage/mage especially if i need to focus on straight damage and a LOT of healing lol

my favourite parties would probably be:

dao - alistair + zevran + wynne (wholesome and also funny)

da2 - anders + fenris + merrill (SO much chaotic energy)

dai - solas + cassandra + cole (i just love them ok)

which of your characters did you put the most thought into?

ashara lavellan, my canon inquisitor who was never supposed to be canon tghtgurhtrg. my original canon inq was a trevelyan rogue, who was super nice and good. i made ashara so that i could actually play as an evil/mean character without feeling bad lol, oh and i also wanted to see what the deal with solas was bc i had heard his romance was good ;;;;) anyway that backfired and i ended up completely falling in love with her, and i STILL couldnt make the tough choices with her so i was like ok maybe she isnt THAT evil and now shes just..... the way she is now i guess lmao

favourite romance?

trhhtruih okay u guys KNOW its solas. u know. i dont even have to say anythiing about it bc...u fucking know

(alistair’s is very close tho)

have you read any of the comics/books?

i havent :(((( im such a bad fan but i cannot deal with ordering online and thats the only place ive been able to find them. im planning on reading asunder and the masked empire as soon as i get the chance (and the money) tho !!

if you read them, which was your favourite book?

nope

favourite DLCs?

trespasser ! its pretty simple and very plot-driven like u didnt have to worry about side missions as much as u would with other dlcs so idk that was... refreshing. but obviously i loved it just bc it was so beautiful and intense and sad (since my chara romanced solas obviously) and that music score????? unbelievable i’ll never be over it

things that annoy you.

can i say the fandom trghuitgrhutrhui

mostly the thing that pisses me off the most is the grey morality. writers trying to make everything deep and Thought Provoking like..... no jerry, slavery IS bad theres no alternative viewpoint lol??????? also the fucking whitewashing makes me see red. 

orlais or ferelden?

ferelden!!!!! (*blows a kiss* for highever)

templars or mages?

mages <3 

if you have multiple characters, are they in different/parallel universes or in the same one?

i only have like 3 protag da characters and they’re all canon, although emeraude is an au. so ella is my canon warden and ashara is my canon inquisitor, but emeraude does exist in that universe, bc i hc she befriended the warden and alistair when they visited the alienage, and she was very outspokenly angry and didn’t really give a shit that alistair was going to be heir. which alistair really,,, appreciated i guess? so emeraude is made his official elven adviser after his coronation but she also kinda helps out as a royal protector because she’s one of the only people in court they both trust completely lol. also she is....stronk. 

and the only other characters i have for da are obviously side characters who are related to my canon protags so. they’re all canon as well lol

what did you name your pets? (mabari, summoned animals, mounts, etc)

ella named her dog ser bark gthutgrhutghruihtr she thought it was cute ok

emeraude just went with barkspawn since alistair came up with the idea as a joke but she thought the joke was so bad she made them keep it as punishment vjhuightui

i dont really have a hawke oc but.....he named his dog shepard in my playthrough ! like from mass effect ;;;;)))

have you installed any mods?

origins is modded to hell and back and i genuinely couldn’t play the game without mods at this point. inquisition is slightly modded but im in the process of removing them all, and only keeping a few because my game runs pretty terribly with them installed 

did your warden want to become a grey warden?

ella did ! but it was kind of,, a naive childhood dream, she had a really romanticized view of the wardens and she wanted a life of excitement and bravery and adventure, not really taking into consider all the bad things about it (and obviously not knowing the full truth about what it means to be a warden)

emeraude did NOT want to be a warden. she basically had to be dragged out of the alienage because she wanted to stay and protect her community. she never really enjoyed being a warden, although her friendship with alistair was its one redeeming quality 

hawke’s personality?

uh i cant remember the colour/personality thing but he was a combo of funny/ethical. mostly there for memes tho. 

did you make matching armor for your companions in inquisition?

for origins i do ! i always make sure alistair and ella wear the grey warden armour, as well as every warden in awakening. thats like, all theyre allowed to wear lmao.

if your character(s) could go back in time to change one thing, what would they change?

ella would obviously change her family’s murder lol, and emeraude would at least try and change what happened at her wedding, to prevent shianni and the others from being hurt. 

ashara would change romancing solas :((( she was so angry at herself after discovering who he was, and she felt weak and foolish which she HATES more than any other feeling, so she definitely wishes she had never met him for a long time. after she kind of processes it though, and learns to deal with her anger, her answer would be that she wishes she had saved the chargers. it’s the one move she made that actually keeps her up at night sometimes. 

do you have any headcanons about your character(s) that go against canon?

ghuitrhuigtrhugtr so many. canon? dont know her. 

the biggest example would be that i hc king!alistair was at the winter palace during the wicked hearts level. because uh..... celene and the fereldan monarchs had been corrosponding for over 10 years, trying to build up rapport, of COURSE the king would be there to see who the potential ruler/s of orlais would be and whether or not he ought to be worried. like. im sorry but alistair was there lol you can’t change my mind. i also hc he helps ashara with information about the grey wardens during this chapter, because ???? it just makes sense??? im so angry i wish this was canon

are any of your characters based on someone?

ok it was unintentional but ashara reminds me of an english teacher i had in highschool who was very scary but also....really cool and i loved her. it was an accident but,, still counts. 

who did you leave in the fade?

gtiturghtugh okay at the risk of pissing off EVERYBODY who reads this, i left hawke in the fade, even though it was a toss up between hawke and stroud. it was ashara’s fault tho !!! she would have 100% prioritzed an alliance with the grey wardens over like,, some guy. it broke my heart but yeah That happened. 

favourite mount?

i like all the elk mounts mostly ! but i never use them bc they sound ugly af

tagging : @trvelyans​ @f3nharel​ @allisondraste​ @ensevens​ @tethraas​ @talizorah​ @fereldun​ if u are up to it <3 and whoever else wants to do this ! 

[kmartswiifittrainer]

the concept of communication is a force that psychopaths block in dying children as a calling and its one that people instinctively all answer but predators answer and kill and others call for help. monitoring this line generationally is what leads to thoughts like 9/11 scaring the population will solidify some sort of dominance stance mentally with the concept of 911 being a group calling for help like were all in a hive mind but always leashable (were not, broken worldview) this wall is so dense around me I cant communicate to anyone and all my body language is deciphered and puppets are built off me deep rooted into my consciousness for control, there's so many people assuming my face that I cant speak and all I have are my spellbooks and everyone just gets caught in the forests of wow nikki is a lazy slothish needy asshole that psychopaths lay narratives of around schizophrenics calling for help which is deeper of an instinctual calling then just babies needing to survive because the schizophrenic is the natural “shaman” class and is needed for dream interpretation to help all of society continue to function. this is why there is such a deep vibration for prophets and prophet and god stories that is calm and understood by all, these are instincts and physical paths people walked before us that led and taught them. people can feel that i am in need deeply and I am smart enough to teach like terrence and this has lead to observing and lowkey threatening since I was a kid out of misunderstanding between people conversing. lack of light in mental conversation and meeting will lead to poor choice and in terms of seeing, touching, material things the world has never been more black and white with poverty and the wealthy looking down, but in terms of light as a force conceptually, its not JUST people protesting FOR the planet and to force change for the sake of concept that IS the force of nature moving and pushing these lines AS CONCEPTS or FOR MONEY that IS backed by people and THOUGHT AND CHOICE and the west is like 99.9% people playing god astrally crawling up peoples assholes like south park or something. this plate frame is my slate like tablet for the script of what the astral is to me, real bone, the animals will keep the tune ive been making this on and off for weeks and the story around it like the pocahontas song changes everyday its nice but like, im literally dying ive been dying for years and joji will drop a mixtape in my womb with ninjas and grab em by the pussy america and everyone will just continue on like astral torture of schizophrenics does not exist like im going to make another dreamcatcher soon about the fucking emoji movie treating me like a trash can for all their insane thoughts and mania like full blown owo mania serial killer woman and men theater majors like cal arts nightmares and using me as a pillow case or a frequency to always have a concept around and a place to blame bad vibe in a  room people follow the hatred of weed smell worldwide into the crystals in my lungs and call me a fucking smoke and place their astral selves on my body in my lungs to crush my diaphragm and always narrate off me. people rape kids and keep their astral forms in the kids and then narrate over and for them in any situation regarding them and then go for that stance in everyone else. collectively those shadow people with blocked charas imitate the environment and find the lines in people and animals and conversations and draw lines where everyone moves like look her there simba song, bojack horseman, i need to die none of you understand mkultra torture on a schizophrenic they defined me as retarded when i was a kid and im the level of schizophrenia they all just want to hold hostage in a death threat or physically keep confused and numbed and lost because of THEIR FEAR and threaten me into physical (ooo psychopathic owo submission rape killing fetish) dysfunction FROM all the “symptoms” of paranoid schizophrenia like hearing threats thinking everyone is trying to come after you all your neighbors are out to get you everyone /would/ kill you at some point but you dont know when, this is all from being abused a lot as a child and growing up with a checked viewpoint in the astral and noticing how psychopathic predators will follow and threaten. nicolas tesla was abused heavily imho leading to the stance that he didnt believe in telepathy and then stating if someone wanted to murder you they would and he said that to guard his life from all the people who threatened him astrally for their crimes and would join with other psychopaths who work their way into the state and law and other forms of power and abuse positions, this is common with this form of insanity and as a human being they use me as a “paranoid schizophrenic” as a trash can for their emotions and then justify it with paying me ssdi and keep puppets with almost full karmic circles in their minds around me and in me like goddamn skin tags im 110lbs again from these rapists. yall everytime you question my psychic ability know that my books got you when you thought you got past me, ive known that my whole life I always will im nearing book 20 and age 25 which is natural adult and to 5d earth and all the broken worldviews i need you all to know a lot of you died already in prison riots for unwinding dna and telling everyone you were smart as shit. light is a force we all follow going into the earth from all angles it clears and teaches naturally and psychopaths get a coke high tailing the population for like a fear edge but the wall behind them is light, so they threaten us. thats a full circle, jackson storm