#he was in anguish and angry and alone and jumped at the first solution he could think of; even if it was completely irrational

[razberrypuck]

hey. if the codeflippa thing ever gets to the point where charlie is *aware* (but in denial/doesn't care/whatever) that she's a code monster and if anyone else ever sees her switch and kills the code and if charlie finds out about it (or, god forbid, he witnesses it). that will end not well I think. because we saw the aftermath of his daughter being killed accidentally- and he understood that fact fully. how do you think he'll react, if someone takes his daughter from him again, on purpose?

[caxsthetic]

Away From Home

Oikawa Tooru x F!Reader

No matter how far you were from home, your heart will always be calling out to the said place.

Pt. 1 < Part 2 > Pt. 3

“Hey, can you finish the report for the TV commercial this afternoon?”

“I need it on my desk as fast as you can, but no pressure, okay?”

“How is the advertisement going for that section? Anyone gone to the studio?”

Today was just like any other day; your office was bustling with people who needed to give you reports and information. There was no time for you to think about anything outside of your business, that’s actually your goal from the start. You need to do something, talk to someone, or maybe just look outside of the window, observing people that were passing by.

But you couldn’t just do nothing, not even for a second.

Because if your mind were empty for a split second, he would haunt you, and those memories would rip your heart apart, piece by piece. Oikawa Tooru used to be your home, but he decided to left you in the cold. Without warning, without a sign, without preparation.

“Miss?” You jolted, once again letting your mind fall to the deepest hell called anguish, “I am sorry, should I leave for now?” Your assistance looked worried, it’s not the first time you suddenly become quiet all of a sudden.

“No, you can stay.” It only needed a second to make you come back to the real world, “So, any report that you want to share with me?” There it is, a megawatt smile that no one could resist. A smile that your business partner was always happy to see. 

But what they couldn’t see was how that smile was just an empty shell. There’s no reason for that smile. It’s just a facade to tell the world that you were happy and striving. Nothing could break you, not even one man that you were supposed to love. For everyone, seeing you with that smile meant that you were alright. And if that means you wouldn’t get bombarded with questions, you were okay wearing the same mask everyday.

You will always go to the office around 7 am, and you were not going back to your apartment until midnight. Being alone in your apartment was not an ideal place for you. Since the second you lay in your bed, the only thing that will creep into your mind was his presence. Something that you have lost for five years now.

When he left you in your bed alone that particular day, you were lost for weeks. You didn’t know what to do except bawling your eyes out and sobbing for him to come back. But when two whole months passed without a hint of trace about him, you knew he left you for good.

You lost the home that you built together for something that you didn’t even know the reason was. The only way for you to get out from there was to jump into conclusion. You needed to coat yourself with a hurtful lie, and when he started to engulfed your heart once again, you knew what you needed to tell yourself to.

Oikawa Tooru left you because he didn’t love you anymore.

That’s the mantra when your mind was falling back to him, that somehow telling yourself over and over, seems like it was the real reason. You still save a box that was full of his stuff. There was his cologne, his jersey, and some things that you got from him. There were numerous times when you almost burned it. But something always stopped you from doing so, and you will always end up sobbing, realising that no matter how many times you try to forget him, he still owned your heart just like from years ago.

“Going home, boss?” Your mind was in the cloud when you heard someone’s voice, “I wonder why you are always the one who comes first and goes home the latest.” Turns out; it was one of the security guards. You only let out a little smile at his remark,

“Well, there’s no one waiting for me in my apartment.” You hugged your jacket tighter, feeling the night breeze a little bit suffocating, “I have no home, just a place to stay and sleep.” He was taken aback by your behaviour. You are known as someone who never let anything bring you down no matter how hard life is. But here you were, looking so vulnerable in front of the security guard nevertheless.

“S-sorry, boss. I didn’t mean to intrude your privacy,”

“Ah, no. It’s alright.” You walked up to him and patted him on the back, “Don’t forget to rest well when your shift ended, okay? I’ll be going now, good night.” He smiled at you before going back inside.

People at your office always wondered why you, their CEO, never drove a car and chose to use the train instead. It’s not that you hate it, but it will always remind you about someone who will never sit on the passenger’s seat or drive you to anywhere you want with music playing in the background.

It’s like you tried to avoid any chances that could make you remember him. But again, who are you kidding here? It’s not like all of your feelings could be evaporated to the thin air no matter if you really want to. Every step that you took, he will be there, lurking at the shadow to remind you that he’s always concealed in your heart.

You never bothered to say that you were home, knowing that no one will be there to greet you. There’s only darkness and silence when you open up the door to your apartment. You slipped your bag to the couch, preparing a hot water to brew a cup of dark chocolate.

“Bweh! How come you could drink something like this, (Y/n)-chan~?!” Your boyfriend always commented the same every time he sipped your chocolate, “It’s so bitter!”

“It’s dark chocolate, Tooru. Of course it is bitter!” You chuckled as he gulped down a glass of milk to erase the bitter taste from his tongue, “You know I always drink this, why bother taste the same thing again?”

Oikawa was silent for a second, a smile suddenly appeared on his face. He walked to your figure and plopped down beside you on the couch. His index finger turned your chin to looked at him,

“I want to get used to everything that you love,” You blushed at how close his face was, “Because someday, we will wake up in the morning together, and I wouldn’t complain if you mistaken the chocolate for me.”

“What a liar,” You blurted it out to the empty space, letting out a deep sigh as you poured the hot water to your cup. It was almost 1 am, you wonder, is he asleep right now? Was there someone who calmed him down when he had a nightmare? Who lay by his side to warm his body as you sitting here alone?

Something happened, that’s what you know when Oikawa didn’t give you a kiss on the forehead anymore. Every time you two were together, it’s like his mind was far away from you. His figure will always be there by your side, but his mind wasn’t. And it scared you, creating a twisted possibility in your head.

He never told you that he would have extra practice at school anymore. It’s only a month before graduation, but it felt like forever to you. He didn’t say that he loves you, not for as long as you remember. His hugs became cold and his kiss was just a kiss. You could only feel his lips on yours, but you couldn’t find the warm that was usually there.

“Tooru, did something happen?” You were sitting on his passenger’s seat, right in front of your house. The ride was silent after having lunch together with the third-year who had now graduated. You love being there, seeing him smile and laugh with his teammates that he loves so much. But somehow every time he caught your eyes, he always averted his gaze like you were no one.

“Nothing,” You have asked him numerous times already, and his answer will always be the same, “You don’t have to worry about anything.” And now, it feels like your patience was in the thin line.

“Are you falling out of love from me?” Your question caught him off guard. He didn’t show how his heart broke to think that he made you feel unloved, “Please, I want you to say something, Tooru.” He gulped as his grip on the steering wheel became tighter, making his knuckles white at the process.

“I still love you,” But even though the words sounded beautiful, the fact that there’s no emotion in his voice said otherwise, “Can you get down now? I need to pick up Takeru.” Lies. You gritted your teeth at his remark as you removed the seat belt from your body. He knew that you were angry, frustrated by his behaviour for these past few weeks.

“You know what?” You were already getting down from the car as you called out to him. He turned to face you, hoping to see your eyes blazing with fire. But he could only found a pair of glossy eyes instead, “If you still love me, fucking act like you do!” That’s the only words you said before you slammed the door’s car.

You stomped away from the car, tears blurring your vision as you tried to unlock the front door. You take it slow, hoping that maybe he will run to you, explaining why he’s become so distant. But when you heard the car engine’s start, you slid down to your door frame, knowing well that he didn’t even bother to calm you down.

You opened up your eyes slowly, hearing the alarm from your phone. The sun already started to rise and hit your face, making you groan as you realised where you were right now. Your hands frantically searched for your phone, wanting to end the annoying sound.

Rather than finding where your phone was, your hand decided to bump the hot chocolate that you made last night, resulting for the chocolate to spilled and soaked your rug,

“What is- Argh!” You sat up straight, bodies aching all over the place due to how you fell asleep on the couch. Today feels like a nightmare already, and you hate every second that you waste for not doing anything.

So you stood up, turned off the alarm and immediately grabbed a white cloth to absorb the spilled chocolate. You pour the vinegar and water solution and let it absorb for a while. It was 5.30 right now, and you only have an hour before going to work.

You walked to your bedroom and bit your lips when you saw how cold it was in the room. Five years had passed but somehow, he still lingered in your head without a way for you to get rid of it.

Showers usually helped you to think, or just made you calmed down and prepared yourself for the day. But at the same time it makes your mind run wild without a break. You gaze at your hand, fingers calloused due to a lot of works that you needed to do for the last years.

Your hands used to feel so soft, and you will always take care of your skin. He loves feeling how your fingers would stroke his soft brown hair even at the most random time. He would hold your hands and say things like, “Your fingers were so soft~ It feels good compared to mind.” Now it made you pout as you thought about that.

You loved him with all of your might, and you were sure that he felt the same. So it was all a mystery to you when he disappeared in the morning and never once coming back. And since then, you felt like you were always away from home.

It’s been days since the last time you talked to your boyfriend after the little fight that you two had. He never called you, and your messages somehow always went unread. No matter how much heartache you felt, you couldn’t just forget about him and go on with your life.

You were just done taking a shower, it was around 7 pm and today you were packing for your college days. It was tiresome, and the fact that you don’t have him to cheer you up made the day harder than it was supposed to feel. When you opened up your bathroom door, your eyes immediately fell to a figure that was now sat on the edge of your bed.

At the sight of him, you were enraged. He didn’t answer any of your messages but here he was, sitting on your bed like he owned the place. But when your eyes scanned his whole figure, all of your anger seems to dissipate into the thin air, replaced with worries.

The figure dropped his face to his palm. His hair that was usually well styled, was now unruly and messy. The shirt that he wore was crumpled, it looks like he didn’t care for himself for the last few days. It broke you, seeing the man that you love so much looking so vulnerable.

“T-Tooru?” He jerked his head when he heard your voice. You widened your eyes when you saw the tears that were streaming down his face. Without thinking, you immediately ran and embraced him. He’s trembling, hands clenching on your arms. You know it will leave a trace, but you didn’t care at all by that time.

You don’t know what to do except to just be there for him. The only thing that you want was for him to be happy, nothing else right now. So here you were, embracing the man that you loved so much, even if he didn’t feel the same anymore, you couldn’t just erase the feelings that were always there for years.

After an hour he crumbled down in your embrace, he finally looked up at you. His brown eyes that usually looked so beautiful were still covered with tears. You wiped all the tears away and pampered him with kisses, didn’t dare to ask him what happened. Because for you, the most important thing is him. And if you live with unsatisfied feelings, for you, it’s the price that you need to pay for loving him.

“Do you want to stay here for tonight?” Your voice was soft, soothing his heart little by little. He nodded, putting his head on the crook of your neck. In your arms was where he found the safe haven, “I have your clothes on my wardrobe, let me bring it for you, okay?” You kissed his forehead and let him lay down in your bed before searching for his trousers and shirt to wear for sleep.

When you gave him the clothes, he was just silent. He didn’t emit anything, not even a syllable from his velvety lips. It was strange for you to see him so quiet. He was a man of words, so it feels like life was being sucked out from his body, leaving him to hovered this world without a soul.

So you didn’t speak, you showed him that you were there for him. Both of you laying on your bed, he engulfed you in his arms as the warmth from his body channeled towards you. You were laying on his chest, feeling the heartbeat that always soothes you. After a month drifting apart, you now could feel the love that he radiate. Something that you have missed for just a short period of time. 

“I miss you,” His voice was cracked, like it’s the first time he let out a sound for the day, “I am going to miss you so much,” You don’t want to think about it, but no matter how many times you want to deceived yourself, the words sounds like a goodbye.

You looked up at him as you could feel his tears fall to your own cheek. The sight was creating a storm of feelings inside your heart. You positioned yourself on top of him, wiping all of his tears delicately,

“Oh, Tooru… I am going to miss you too, love.” Your lips met with his eyes, trying to erase any trace of hurt in his mind, “Yes we will go to a different college and it’s hard,” You put your forehead on his and closed your eyes, “But I am still going to be here when you wake up tomorrow morning,” His breath hitch for a second, like he was gasping for air, “Take some rest now, Tooru, my king.”

You kissed his lips, pouring all of your love on that one particular kiss. It’s just like you know it might be the last time. You were craving for him, and he understood that. His hands gently fall to your hips, caressing your skin up and down. Gently, he turned the position so you were now the one who lay on the bed.

This night, he kissed all over your body like you were some kind of an angel embodiment. His touch was soft and yet electric that ignited the fire inside you. It feels magical as two bodies connected enticingly to become one. Your hands wrapped around his neck, lips moulded to each other, a perfect fit.

You didn’t even know when it was all over. The act prolonged the warmth that was shared, keeping it there to be remembered forever.

“I love you, my queen.” His voice was soft, you smiled at this. Too tired to answer, you just kiss his hand gently. He chuckled to see how you were already drifting apart, “And you deserve to be with the man who could promise you the world.”

It was strange, hearing those words. But it only rang in your head as your mind started to go to the dream state. You want to say, ‘Who needs the world when I have you?’ But you had already gone to another place, and he couldn’t hear something that was only lingering on your mind.

So when you woke up in the morning and found nothing, your mind was frantic. It’s not real, Oikawa Tooru was too in love with you to ever leave. With only a blanket wrapped around your body, you looked around your house, trying to find the heavenly figure. 

But it’s like he was never there. Every picture of you together, his clothes on the wardrobe, some dolls that he gave you on your dates, it was all gone. Your house feels like there was no Oikawa Tooru in your life. Tears were already streaming down your face when the realisation hit you.

“Tooru? Love?” You called out to the empty space, “My king?” It feels like someone clawed your heart, and no one was there to heal it. You called him, and it’s a dead end. You emailed him, and it says there’s no one with the said email, “Tooru, please… Don’t joke around like this…” 

You gulped down, sliding yourself in the corner of your room, engulfed by the blanket that you two shared last night. One of the remaining things that you found that signified him, “Tooru,” You called out to him, again and again like it was the only words you know.

But he was not there anymore to answer your calling.

“Y-Yeah, I will be late.” You were on the phone with your assistant right now, “Nah, I am okay, you don’t have to worry about me.” When you heard what she said, you almost choked, “No way! I am not going home with a guy! Pfft, who would want to love a guy when I have you guys?” You mute for a second, letting out a deep sigh.

It’s not that you are out of love from that one person though.

“Yeah, I am already on the train right now. See you in an hour.” You hung up, looking at the wallpaper on your phone when you were done. There was a picture of him with Takeru. It was taken after a match when you celebrated his win with the young boy too.

A smile plastered on your face. The picture is the only remembrance of him. You were a hypocrite after all. You want to forget him, or rather, you didn’t want him to spread on your mind. But here you are, with the same wallpaper that you put even after five years losing the light.

“(L/n)-san?” You jolted when you heard the voice that you were familiar with. You turned your head to your left, finding a dark hair that sticks up straight upwards, “You are (L/n)-san, right?” You blinked at this, the undercut that he had made you wonder for a second who was the man beside you,

“OH MY GOD!” Your squeal made the others around you jolted, “KINDAICHI!!!” You wrapped your arms around the younger man. He was someone that you cared about while you were still in high school. There’s a blush in his face since he rarely got into close contact with a woman.

“(L/n)-san yes it’s me!” He chuckled awkwardly, you noticed this and pulled your hand back, “Y-You look great!”

“Thank you, Kindaichi!” You gave him a sincere smile. It’s funny how everything that relates with your high school somehow feels like home, “You look great too! How are you doing?”

Kindaichi told you all that happened and how he was right now. Deep in your mind, you were hoping that maybe Oikawa’s name could slipped on the conversation. You wanted to just ask, but you are not ready for the answer that might come out from his lips.

“So,” He scratched his neck, wanted to ask you something but hesitated, “Uhm, I am sorry but… Are you still with Oikawa-san?” Well, you didn’t expect him to be the one who asked about the relationship.

“I-I don’t know,” He looks confused with your answer, “We lost contact.”

“Huh?”

“We really lost contact, right after we graduated.” You looked down, regretting the words that you chose. But it’s the most neutral thing that you could muster from the deep of your mind, “So yeah, we lost contact without having the time to talk about our relationship basically.”

“So you didn’t know?” That question caught you off guard. What this man doesn’t understand from losing contact? You let out a long sigh. Still thinking either you should ask him about it or not. You were not ready for the answer, not at all, “Oh, this is my stop.” He stood up and bowed to you before walking to the exit door.

That’s when you snapped. You didn’t care anymore if the truth would break your heart. The only thing that mattered was him. You need to know that he’s alright, safe and sound and enjoyed his life. Your hand gripped on his wrist, making him jolt. He turned around and widened his eyes when he saw the desperate gaze in your now glistening orbs.

“W-What I didn’t know?” Kindaichi straightened his posture, tried to give you the news with the most simple words that he could think of. You gulped down and prepared your heart for the worst. Five years, you were ready to hear anything.

“He was now a professional player in Argentine.”

[sadlittlenerdking]

Dark Places

The Magicians

Word count: 3k

Summary: Everyone but Quentin dies, and he goes to the one person he knows of that can turn back time.

Warning: This is angsty as all hell.

He barely manages to complete the quest. His body aches, and his mind’s screaming at him, telling him it’s not worth it. But they didn’t—none of this happened for . . . for nothing. There were too many sacrifices, too much lost, for him to turn his back on the quest. To turn his back on magic and, possibly, the only chance he has to fix this. If he brings magic back he can fix it all.

At least thats what he tells himself right up until magic is restored.

And then he collapses on the floor, a heap of misery and pain. There’s so much pain. It races through his every bone, courses through his veins like it’s molten lava, turning his insides into stone. He sits there for he doesn’t even know how long, his back pushed up against the stone of the castle walls. He’s not even sure how he got back to Fillory. How he ended up in the throne room. All he knows is he can’t move. He can’t move until he finds a solution.

Because he can’t do this.

He’s never been good at being alone. And he can already feel that darkness, the one he’s kept suppressed in the name of completing the quest, creeping in at the edges of his vision. The thoughts of suicide seep in at the corners of his mind, slinking in like dark shadows of the night, waiting for the perfect opportunity to strike. But they don’t need to wait, because Quentin is defenseless. He’s got nothing keeping him from pushing up from the floor, running to the balcony, and just—learning to fly. Or fall. Whichever comes first.

But something keeps him where he is. Cemented to the floor.

There’s got to be a way to fix everything.

He closes his eyes, his head falling back to rest against the wall. This is the first time he’s really sat down since it happened. He’s not even sure he’s slept. The tugging lull of sleep on his eyelids is more than enough to attest to that much. But he can’t give in to sleep. He knows what lies on the other side. Fully aware of what nightmares his mind will pull from his memories, and make him live over and over and over while he lies paralyzed unable to stop it.

Unable to save them.

Again.

He opens his eyes, a dull throbbing in his chest.

God.

He’d been so close to stopping them. So fucking near. Perhaps thats the hardest part. Knowing he wasn’t fast enough. Knowing that had he run just a little faster, pushed a little harder, they’d all still be alive. He had the answers. He knew why the spell wouldn’t work, even with the fairy dust. He knew what would happen.

And instead of stopping it, he’d barely been able to catch Eliot’s attention just in time to—

He shakes his head.

Fuck. No.

He can’t go there.

He has to find a solution.

As much as he wants to end this. As much as the thoughts dance around in his head, and the light of the balcony shines down on him, all warm and welcoming—as much as he wants it, he can’t. He can’t give in. He lasted long enough to bring back magic. He just needs to figure out the next step. He survived long enough to do the one thing he knew would give them all a fighting chance.

Now he just has to survive a little longer.

He owes them that much.

He can’t change the past but he can—

He can change the past.

Holy shit, he can.

His breath hitches as he finally moves, his bones creaking and aching as he nearly jumps away from the wall in search of the keys. He doesn’t even care when his bare skin grazes against the one he’d so desperately avoided all this time. Doesn’t even notice the manifestation of all his misery casually leaning against the wall watching him. Because he can’t say anything Quentin isn’t already thinking. He digs through the keys, fingers slipping over copper clumsily, until he finally, finally wraps his hands around the one he’s looking for.

He twists until he’s sitting on his knees, and cupping the key in front of him.

This is it.

He can use this to fix it.

He climbs to his feet shakily. The world goes wobbly for a second, dizzying and dancing until it balances itself out and Quentin remembers he hasn’t eaten or had anything to drink in days. But it’s okay. He can eat and drink and do whatever the fuck else when he fixes this. He blinks away the blurry vision, shaking his head slightly, as he takes a wobbly step towards the doors on the opposite side of the throne room. He takes another step, pulling the key in and clutching it to his chest. This is the only way. This is his—their—salvation.

He follows a map he’d written lifetimes ago. He’s not even sure how he remembers it. But it’s there, stuck in his mind, vague but just strong enough to outshine the memories he doesn’t want to access.

She’s not even surprised when he stumbles through the barrier.

“Hello, Quentin,” Jane says, looking up from her plants. “I had wondered when I’d be seeing you.” Quentin sways in place, and she shakes her head, waving a hand as a chair appears. “Please, do sit. You look exhausted.”

He doesn’t even spare a glance at the chair. “Undo it,” He says, taking an unstable step towards her. “Turn it back. Let us—let us redo it.” His throat is dry, and his words are hoarse from lack of use. It almost feels weird to speak again. He hasn’t said anything since it happened. Since he screamed across planes of grass…

She clicks her tongue, turning her back on him as she settles her attention on one of her plants. She reaches up and trims an out of place twig. “I’m afraid that’s not how it works,” She says, soft, as she clips another twig.

“That’s not how what—“ He pauses, swallowing thick, as she clips at another plant, “Would you please just ignore the fucking plants for five god damned seconds!”

Jane pauses, before sighing, and setting the cutting sheers beside the plant and turning around to face him. “Honestly, Quentin,” She says, and he wishes he had the energy to punch the look of pity off her face, “You really should sit down. You’re in no shape—“

“Please,” He says, instead, interrupting her. He reaches out, holding the key in front of him, delicate. His hands shake around it, as he holds it, palms up. “You’re the only one who—who can fix it. Just. Give me one more chance. Please.” His voice cracks on the last syllable, as he stretches his arms out even further, just in case she can’t tell whats in his hands.

She purses her lips. “Quentin.”

“My friends are dead.”

“It’s not the first time they’ve died.”

“But you can fix it!”

She shakes her head sadly, “Oh, Quentin,” she murmurs, holding her hands out at her sides. “You’re forgetting one thing. I’m dead, as well. I can’t leave this bubble.”

Quentin stumbles backwards a step, shaking his head. It’s more erratic than hers. More desperate. Tears sting at his eyes, and he realizes for the first time, just how much he hurts. Beyond the shock and determination. Beyond the desperation. His bones don’t ache because he’s been fighting to bring magic back. His heart isn’t heavy and practically bursting because of the quest.

God, he just wants his friends.

He needs his friends.

“Please,” he pleads, voice breaking as a sob bubbles up at the back of his throat and cuts him off. “Please. I’ll do anything. Just turn back the clock. Give me another chance to save them.” He squeezes his eyes shut as another dizzy spell washes over him, blurring the world around him. He sways in place. “Please,” he tries again, opening his eyes. Hot tears stream down his cheeks, “Please, Jane.”

“This is how it was meant to play out, Quentin. Who are we to change fate?”

Who are they to change fate? Is she actually kidding? He squints his eyes at her, his anguish suddenly morphing into something darker. How the fuck dare she. After everything she did to get her desired outcome? After everything she changed and took from them? After the lives she ruined to get what she wanted?

“You have got to be fucking kidding me,” He says, rage lacing his voice. “Who are we to change fate? That’s all you do! You used us as pawns to defeat your brother—to fix the mess you made! You turned us into martyrs and addicts and victims. You—you changed our entire lives and who we were supposed to be! And now!” He takes an angry step towards her, ignoring the way the world spins around him, “You have the audacity to say no? You took everything from us! All you have to do is turn the clock back one more time! You owe them that much!”

She doesn’t even both wiping off the look of pity. “Quentin,” she says, chastising and he hates her. Oh god, does he fucking hate her. “This is not the same thing. What I did was for the fate of magic—“

“They died for the fucking fate of magic! It’s back! I know how to fucking—I know how to finish the quest. Just turn back the clock. I can’t —“ he breaks off, shaking his head again and pointing a trembling finger at her, “You owe me,” he growls. “Don’t think I don’t know that you’re the one that planted the cancer in my dad.” Her mouth falls open and he nods. “It’s the only thing that makes sense. You took Julia from Brakebills. You made Eliot an addict. You made my dad sick. All so we could be stronger when it came time to defeat the beast, right?” When she doesn’t respond, he repeats, louder, “Right?”

She clenches her jaw. “I will admit,” she says, “I did some awful things in order to—“

“You can fix it! Just turn back the clock!” His anger fades back to pleading, as he clasps his hands together, “Please, Jane. I will—I’ll. I’ll forgive it all. Just turn back the clock. One more time.”

“Quentin—“

“I am begging you.”

She rushes forward to grab him by the shoulders, “I can’t.”

“Yes, you can!”

She shakes her head, rolling her lips, and squeezing his shoulders. “Quentin, if I do what you want, I’ll die.” She raises her eyebrows, “And I’ve worked much too hard to stay alive. I’m sorry. But there’s nothing to be done.”

He stares at her for a few long moments. Nothing to be done? She just admitted that she can do it. She’s just too selfish to. Fuck that. He breaks free of her grasp, and lunges forward, stumbling across the clearing. She steps aside, and he crashes into the plant and the table it’s sitting atop.

“Quentin,” She says, too pitying, “Really, you need to sit down. Let me make you a cup of tea, and we can work out how this all—“

He wraps his hands around the sheers she’d set on the table and whips around, holding them out at her. His hands shake, but he keeps them pointed directly at her. “Jane,” He says, taking a trembling step closer, “You are going to bring them back. You’re—You’re going to think about someone other than yourself for once.” She raises her eyebrows, but he takes another step, “If you leave this bubble, you die, right?”

“That is correct.” She smiles, close lipped, “But, we both know you’re not capable of—“

“You don’t know what I’m capable of!” He bellows, the sound ripping out of his throat angrily, “I’ve lost everything! And I will do what the fuck ever it takes to bring them back!” He takes another unsteady step, “Including killing you. So,” He takes a deep, steadying breath, “You either bring them back and die doing something good for once—or. Or. You just . . . die. For nothing.” He laughs, the sound hollow and lacking humor, “Like they did.”

“Quentin, dear,” She actually takes a step towards him, holding a hand out between them, “I live every consecutive moment in this bubble. You don’t think I’ve seen this story play out? You won’t kill me. You can’t. You’re not a murderer.”

“I’m not?” He asks, blankly, tilting his head, “That’s funny. Because from what I remember .  . . that’s exactly what you made me. With all your tweaking and meddling. All your time loops. I am a murderer, Jane. I’ve fucking killed gods in the name of saving the people I care about. You think I won’t kill you because you’re some character in a series that you planted in my life?” He doesn’t wait for her to respond before he’s taking two more steps, grip tightening on the sheers, “If you think my nostalgia is going to save you, you’re wrong. I—I have nothing left to live for. Nothing.” He spits the word out like it’s venom, “And that’s because of you. Now you’re going to do something useful with your life, and turn back time. Or I’m going to slit your throat.”

“If you kill me, you’ll have no opportunity—“

“Then I’ll make you suffer until you have no choice but to bring them back!” He exclaims, extending his free hand at his side. “I will do whatever the fuck I have to.”

She stares at him, her eyes flickering between his face and the sheers. He wonders if she’s thinking she can rip them out of his hand before he can react. If she can stop him, before he does anything permanent. But magic’s back. And using something as mundane as sheers isn’t good enough. So, he lets the sheers fall to the ground beside him. They plop into the grass, after a single, small bounce, and then lie there innocently. He looks down at the sheers, and then back to her, wide eyed and empty. “Jane,” He says, “Turn back the clock.” His voice is almost terrifyingly calm, and somehow the shaking and trembling has all but ceased.

Her gaze locks on the sheers on the ground, before she looks back up at him in confusion. “Quentin . . .” She starts.

“When you made us into your soldiers,” Quentin interrupts, taking the steps between them, “We learned a lot of spells. A whole lot of magic.” He reaches out at his sides with both arms, laughing, empty, “And magic’s back, Jane. I don’t need a weapon to kill you. I don’t need your sheers.” His arms fall back to his sides, fingers twitching as he sneers at her, “Turn. Back. The. Clock.”

“This isn’t you—“

“Of course it isn’t!” He yells, “I don’t need magic to survive! I just need them!” HIs chin trembles as he finally stops, barely a foot away from her, “Take them, and you take my humanity. Take them, and you take anything, and everything, that makes life worth living.” He raises his hands in front of himself, fingers flexing as he readies himself to cast a spell. “I don’t want to be empty, Jane,” He says, softer, as her eyes dart down to his hands, “I don’t want to be angry and alone. All I want is them.” He purses his lips, with a short nod, “And once I have them back, I’ll be okay again. You’re the only one that can make that possible. So, you’ll do it. Whether you want to,” His fingers fly through the air, casting with near perfection as he locks into eye contact with her, “Or not.”

She seems to realize what he’s doing only moments before he finishes the spell. Her eyes go wide, and she lunges forward as if to grab his hands, “Que—“ But she stops, her mouth falling open, and her limbs freezing in the movement. One hand is outstretched, just inches from Quentin’s. He stares at her for a long moment, his heart pounding in his chest.

“I’m sorry, Jane,” He says, stepping backwards and straightening out his shoulders. “But this is the only way.” He closes his eyes, eyebrows furrowing angrily as he wills away the tears. When everything goes back he won’t even remember. It’ll be okay. He won’t remember. He opens his eyes again and swallows thickly, before reaching up and casting the second half of the spell.

He’d read about it before they defeated the beast. A spell to take away ones autonomy. To make them a mindless zombie, to follow every command. Part of him is surprised he remembers it. The other part is just grateful that he does. She’ll die when she does it. And he’ll be back in a world without magic. All he has to do is run faster. He just has to make it to them before they blow themselves up in a magical explosion. And then everything will be okay.

This time everything will be all right.

He won’t have the memory of looking into Eliot’s eyes right before he died. He won’t have the memory of being blasted backwards while his friends scream in agony, and he crawls across the Brakebills grass, trying to get to them. Trying to save them.

He won’t have any of it.

But, he will have them.

It’ll be okay, he thinks. He won’t even remember killing her.

He finishes the spell, and his hands fall back to his side, as the dizziness returns. She stays still for a few seconds longer, until she’s moving across the clearing, reaching into her pocket and pulling out the watch and the key. He can still see her, behind her eyes, fighting it. But’s it a powerful spell, and even someone as powerful as Jane Chatwin can’t fight it. There’s no history of anyone being able to out maneuver such a spell.

His legs give out from beneath him, and he falls onto the grass in a clumsy heap. He watches her, as she casts the spell to send him back, silently working. Her eyes dart towards him a few times, but he leans back in the grass, chest growing heavier with every moment that passes.

Then there’s a flash.

And he’s running across Brakebills, screaming out their names.

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Sixth Year AU: Chiara, Stay Back! What do you mean 'no'?

Summary: The day started like any other for Hakon though he was in more grouchy mood than normal. The boy has been holding a secret from many for his time at Hogwarts and one incident exposed it to th world. Though there is comforting hand that reaches out to him, will he take it?

Word Count: 2,683

It was like any day at Hogwarts; birds were singing. Students were going to class. Professor stopping Tonks from throwing some insane prank involving Dennis the toad and Snapes left shoe. Just another wonderful day if you could get past the worries of cursed vaults and evil wizard cabals. Luckily, for Hakon, he was in the hospital wing, helping out with some of the friendly students who were messy. Some idiot (probably Peeves) unleashed a swarm of pixies, and some people ended up falling off their brooms, resulting in some minor broken bones.

"Easy now. Just drink up, and you should be okay," Hakon said as he was helping a Slytherin boy drink down some Skel-o-grow. The Slytherin boy flinched at the taste and would have spat it in Hakon's face if he hadn't held the cup he was using at the right angle. 

"Easy friend. I know, it tastes horrible, but it's for your own good."

"How's it going over here?" 

Hakon glanced over his shoulder to see Chiara Lobsoca carrying a tray with some medical tools for Madam Pomfrey; a small smile crept onto his face. The two of them became friends during their third year at Hogwarts when Hakon discovered she was a werewolf. He wasn't one to give secrets as he harbored a few of his own and wasn't keen on sharing like say Rita Skeeter's paparazzi half-assed stories. Especially with how hard Chiara worked to keep that secret from coming out but after that event, the two were almost inseparable like he was with Rowan.

"Going," Hakon responded as he made sure the split on his patient leg was still secure. "Those pixies aren't a joke, especially when they cause that much mayhem. Who's bright idea was that?"

"I don't know. Merula Snyde?" Chiara said jokingly. 

Hakon couldn't help but chuckle at that assumption. "On her own house? Yeah, that'll be the day, but she isn't so bad as we think."

That comment got Chiara to pout temporarily. "Since when was he friendly with Snyde? Must be the thing with Professor Rakepick's apprenticeship?" Chiara pushed those thoughts down as she refocused on her friend.

Chiara had to admit that Hakon's bedside manner and patience with those injured was something to respect. It was one of the many things she admires about her friend who was bouncing between patients and asking Madam Pomfrey for any additional task. What can you ask from the son of a healer, right? She wasn't going to lose to him, though, when it came to helping with the patients. 

For the next two hours, the Ravenclaw and Hufflepuff healer duo were cleaning wounds, giving remedies, and little words of encouragement. While handling another patient who came in for a scratch from a hippogriff, Chiara caught wind of less of conversation; she wishes she didn't.

"All I'm saying is he doesn't have a girlfriend, and he's cute. What more could I want?" said Gryffindor girl patients of the pixie fiasco.

"I'm not disagreeing, but you see his eyes, though? Silver and red? Isn't that normal?" her friend responded, clearly in need of convincing.

"Oh please! They're unique, and besides," the patient paused as she glanced to Hakon, rerolling his sleeves as not to dirty them, "his arms are something I could see wrapped around me - ouch! Careful!"

"Sorry," Chiara responded halfheartedly. She wasn't much for making mistakes or causing harm, but given the circumstance of seeing her friend as eye candy didn't make her any less angry. Wait, why would she be angry?

Later...

Madam Pomfrey had finally released Chiara so the young witch can enjoy the rest of her day. Partially because Madam Pomfrey loved and hated how competitive she and Mister Odinson got when handling her patients. Hakon left a little before her; she could as he had to handle something in private. It seemed from his behavior he looked kind of sickly or something. He mentioned something about anemia when she saw him like that last.

It was odd that Hakon would have episodes once in a while where he'd get anxious and avoid people. Whatever the case was, it worried Chiara deeply as he was her first real friend in a long time. One whose stubbornness is matched by his will to help and find a solution. 

"Well, time to go get some food!" Chiara exclaimed as she stretched her arms. She made her way down a corridor to only see Hakon yelling at some random Gryffindor. There was a broken bottle on the ground with remnants of what seemed to be a potion. Its scent was so strong even Chiara got a slight hit of the intense aroma it gave off. Something about it seemed familiar, maybe one of Snape's lectures? She remembers seeing a bottle similar to the one on Snape workbench from class earlier today.

"Why didn't you watched where you're going?!" Hakon snarled.

"Why do I need to watch where I'm going? Maybe you should watch your way!" the Gryffindor pushed Hakon's shoulder. "Or are you hard of hearing to bird boy?"

That set Hakon off as he pushed the student to a hall picking him up with one arm gritting his teeth as fangs bared themselves slightly. The boy struggled in the tight grip of the Ravenclaw boy, who was snarling at the boy. 

"Hakon!" Chiara called, scared at the sight she was seeing. Her friend wasn't acting like himself, and it wasn't right. "Put him down!"

Hakon turned as he bared his fangs only to cover his mouth before dropping the Gryffindor kid who looked at Hakon in sheer terror. "You're a freak! You're a-!" Before the boy could go on, Hakon pulled out his wand casted Obliviate at the boy wiping his memory.

"Hakon did you just?!" Chiara was about to get closer before she saw Hakon runoff.

"Hakon! Wait!" Chiara called as she chased after him. 

She was hot on his trail, passing other students, and professors who were onlookers watched the two students running. Chiara had to shove two students out of the way as she followed him, giving an apology as she glanced back before turning her sights on her friend run. How was he so fast compared to her?

As Chiara cut a corner, she made her way into the clock courtyard. She got a glimpse of Hakon jumping before he transformed into a raven and flew off in the Forbidden Forest direction. Following Hakon's raven form, she made her way to the forest as the sun began to set. His form faded as he flew into the treeline, causing Chiara to lose sight of him. Now she had to really work hard to search for Hakon.

Once in the forest, Chiara scoured the haunting woods, trying to find any signs of where was Hakon or had been. The forest was much more intimidating when she wasn't a werewolf, but she couldn't leave him alone. He was her friend, and he has some explaining to do. 

"Where are you." Chiara wondered as she glanced at her surroundings.

"Bark!" 

"Aaaah!" Chiara jumped and looked down to see Borf. "Borf! Don't scare me like that!"

"Bark!" the young werewolf whined at being reprimanded by his friend. He then looked up to Chiara, confused.

"Sorry, I'm looking for Hakon," Chiara said as she knelt down, petting the pup. "See, he did something. He almost hurt someone, and I'm scared he might get hurt being out here alone."

"Bark!"

"Yeah, I know I came out here alone." Sighing, Chiara looked to the sky, seeing night had finally covered the sky in a dark veil. "I need to hurry. Borf?"

"Bark?"

"Can you help me find Hakon?" Borf ran around in circles before sitting and nodding at Chiara's request, causing her to smile. The two continued on the search to find the missing Ravenclaw healer. 

An hour later...

"I can't believe I did that! What was I thinking? Damn it! Why didn't I drink it sooner?" Hakon was scolding himself as he walked in a circle. "Dad would kill me for losing control! Mom would beat me within an inch of my life. Heal me. Then beat me again. Gods," he bit his lip as he covered his face with his pam, "Chiara saw what I did and thinks I'm a psycho who hurts other students!"

It was one thing for Hakon to be irritated when he hasn't subdued his problem, but it was altogether another thing when he loses control. Hakon hasn't had an accident in ages ever since his father taught him how to deal with the hunger that comes from being a "unique being" like they are. In other words, "son, we are freaks that survive on the life source of living creatures but don't worry as long as you drink your medicine, you'll be fine." 

"How can I so stupid?!" Hakon growled as he slammed his fist into a defenseless tree, causing a thunderous clap, splitting his knuckles but leaving a large indent. "Damn it!"

Crying, Hakon fell to his knees as he held himself. Wailing in anguish not merely from the disappointment he felt but the anger, the pain of the hunger for blood, causing his insides to feel like they were burning. His head was spinning, his throat felt dry like a desert, and his canines ached horribly.

"At least," Hakon took a shaky breath, "I'm alone. You can't hurt anyone now, Hak-"

"Hakon?" called a familiar voice causing a lump to form in Hakon's throat.

"No!" Hakon thought to himself. "Please, not her!" As he was about to make a run for it, Chiara's blue eyes locked with his silver and red eyes. Concern was filled in her eyes while his eyes were filled with fear.

"Hakon?" Chiara began walking towards him with Borf right next to her.

"Chiara, stay back!" Hakon shouted at her as he tried to back away from the approaching; the panic was evident in his voice. 

"No!" Chiara finally found him, and she wasn't going to leave him in one of the worse places with far worse creatures. Worse than her or him.

"What do you mean 'no'?" Hakon asked.

"I mean 'no'! I am not leaving you out here. Hakon, please! Tell me what's wrong?"

"I... I can't..."

"Why, no? You're my friend, right? Friends tell each other their worries to help the other." Chiara pleaded as she made her way to him. Slowly as not to scare him off and go searching for him deeper in the forest. "Hakon, why did you attack that student? What was in that bottle? What are you hiding from me?!"

"It's complicated!"

"Then make it less complicated! Tell me!"

"You'll think I'm a monster!"

"You're not making sense! I don't understand why you think I would see you as a monster!"

"Because..."

"Because, why?"

"Because I'm a goddamn vampire, Chiara!" Hakon snapped as tears streaked his face. Finally, after two years of being friends, his biggest secret was out in his friend's open.

"So what?"

"Huh?"

Chiara was now standing in front of him, placing her hand onto his cheek while giving him a gentle smile while a teardrop fell along her cheek. "If anyone knows what it's like to see themselves as a monster, it's me."

"But you were made into one. I was born one Chiara." Hakon tried to argue his self-disgust.

"So? It doesn't matter because I know that you're more than that. You see me for me and not the beast within me. You see, Chiara."

"I..."

"That bottle, it was Sanguine?" Chiara asked to receive a nod in confirmation. "I guess that was your last dosage."

"Yeah." Hakon looked at the witch before him. "Chiara really is someone special as she is beautiful, wait no. Bad Hakon!"

"Well, we only have one option left for you." Chiara took a step back as she removed her cloak, followed by losing her tie and unbuttoning her shirt's top two buttons. 

"Chiara! What the hell are you doing?!" Hakon asked as he turned his head away, feeling his heartbeat rise and his face grow warm.

"If you don't feed, you might hurt someone. So I'm offering myself - I mean my blood to help you!" Chiara felt her face burning with a blush. 

"Chiara, I can't!"

"Yes, you can. I'm literally willing to spill my blood for you. To help you," Chiara turned Hakon's face to look at her, "please don't push me away, Hakon. Let me help you."

"It's just giving blood is um an intimate act, and you can't do it with just anyone." 

"Hakon, it's okay if it's you. So please, just do it. It's embarrassing being like this. So hurry up!" Chiara didn't know what has gotten into her, but she wants to help him even if it means she has to something he sees as "intimate." Then again, she wasn't against the idea as long as it was him. Her friend. Her closest friend who she...

Hakon gulped as he took Chiara into his shaking arms, one on her waist and the other on her cheek. As he felt his pulse banging in his ears, the urges slowly began to rise as he leaned into the croak of his friend's neck. The tingle of his hot breath grazed her, causing her to shiver only made it all nervewracking. It was only worse by the primal want, the beastily need for what he needed to survive.

"Hakon..."

Without warning, Hakon bared his fangs as he sank them into Chiara's flesh and feeling the taste of fresh blood slowly coating his tongue. Chiara let out what could only be described as a moan and yelp somehow twisted together. The taste of iron was so sweet, unlike anything to Hakon but what made it all the more everlasting was the taste that came from Chiara's blood. There was an almost citrus-like taste to it that was addicting. He drank and drank, feeling his urge calm itself, being soothed into a slumber.

"Hakon," Chiara groaned as she gripped his cloak. "It's okay."

Her voice. Her taste. It comforted him until he slowly prided his fangs away, panting himself.

"Chiara?" Hakon looked to Chiara with a blood-coated mouth and worried worn on his face.

"I'm okay," Chiara leaned into his chest as she didn't trust her legs to hold her up. "I promise."

"I'm sorry," Hakon pulled his wand out from his pocket as he began to cast a spell.

"Don't erase my memories," Chiara said as she glanced up at him.

"I won't. Episkey," Hakon said as he healed Chiara's puncture wound from where he bit her. To anyone else, the vampire bite would appear to be a hickey. "Chiara, I'm sorry."

"For what?"

The two stood in a temporary silence as Hakon tried to find the words to describe how he hid his vampirism from his closest friend, second to Rowan. It's not something he wanted to hide, but he was scared of sharing it, especially with someone that meant so much to him. But she knew now, and part of him was relieved, but another part scared of the unknown.

"For hiding what I am."

"You had your reasons." Chiara looked up at him with a smile. That damn smile caused his heart to race faster than a snitch.

"Still, you trusted me with your secret, and I should have trusted you with mine." Hakon caressed her cheek as she looked at her, guilt still clearly in his eyes. 

"You're an idiot."

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me, an idiot. Hakon Talon Odinson is an idiot, and I will do anything I can to help him. Whether it be at the hospital wing. Tending to your wounds after your vault missions. Or offering my blood, so you don't hurt anyone. I'll be there for you." 

The next thing Chiara did would change the grounds of what their friendship was. She stepped on her tiptoes and kissed the vampire, stunning him.

"You are my sunrise Hakon, don't take that from me."

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