#he really reminds me of onew but long

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Monthly Music 250131

Still working thru Bad Bunny's album but standouts for me are "Perfumito Neuvo," "VeLDÁ," & "Ketu Tecré." Amazing progression from his last album as he becomes more experimental and genre bending and his crooning really matches the more sentimental moments spread across the album

Fka Twig's entire album except the final track (which is good just.. not for me). I chose my stand out tracks and it's literally the entire album. This album feels like a possession, a haunting at the club. It's intimate, it's inside you, it's pouring out. If I was gonna select a new track (not pre-release) to introduce you... maybe "Striptease" or "Girl Feels Good" but imo just click shuffle and jump right in. The album is so ecclectic it can be picked apart and enjoyed however you'd like. My current fave is "Keep It, Hold It" but it changes daily.

"JRJRJR" by Jane Remover. Trans hyperpop that is... messy in the way only hyperpop can pull off. This song is like 5 fireworks going off at once.

"Protect the Cross" by JPEGMAFIA is similar explosive. Confrontational, rocking, this song steps on your throat and jumps.

Vibe shift: "Gravity" by Lacuna Coil is like running in the middle of a battle between axe wielding brutes and magic wielding priestesses. Growling, wailing metal.

Vibe shift back again: Mandopop's princess is back. Lexie Liu's "Come Dance (Miu Miu Encounters)" probably is a stepdown from her PERFECT album The Happy Star but still enthralling for anyone into dance music. Yeah, I will grab my mama and come dance

Vibe shift part 3: Want Japanese METAL? Nemophilia is female led and... scary at times. My current faves off their new album are "Just Do It!" "Anatadare" and "Good as hell quartet." Very high energy and spirited

Kpop break: Onew came out with new music! I think I already gloated about "Yay," so check out "Boy." A song that makes you want to walk and dance to the beat while going along t your day--it's pep in your step.

My FAVE track: "True Religion" by Shygirl, Isabella Lovestory, and Pinkpantheress. Just a force of nature from some of the best girlies in the industry rn.

I recommend but not as strongly because I realized this post is too long and I need a read more but tbh I really do love these songs:

"Hypnotized" Anyma & Ellie Goulding. Kinda generic but intense. I just like Ellie when she's doing EDM

"Forbidden Tale" Bandmaid. Kinda generic JRock but uplifting. Kinda feels like being shot out of a cannon and soaring thru the sky a bit.

"Paradox" by Guest Room isn't for everyone It's where Japanese indie R&B, a bit of jazz, and a bit of city pop meet and curl up together. It feels like a bath with epsom salts, wine, and a nice massage but without the sleepiness.

Keke Palmer came out with a lil album. It's just good pop R&B; not quite Flo tier but "S.O.B." kinda reminded me of Aaliyah a lil bit.

In a similar good but not inventing the wheel space "Lucky" by Kim Wan Sun and Seulgi is a retro throwback track. Like Wonder Girl's Reboot album but less sparkling. A rejected b side perhaps.

"Believe In Ya" T-Pain and YAEJI???? and Girl Talk. I don't know if this song and its interpolation of "Hold Tight" is good but I'm having a fucking blast I know this song goes off with a vodka lemonade in hand!

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Yonghoon (Onewe) | Reunion fluff | 0.8k | gn!reader A/N: made the terrible horrible mistake of watching that one clip of Giuk sitting on Yonghoon's lap when I was already a mess and you can really tell but anyway... he's back 🥹

It’s sort of loud, but for once you don’t really mind. The music playing in the background can barely be heard over the chatter and laughter, the whining and swears cut into threatening silence. It’s just as it always has been when the whole friend group hangs out. You don’t know everyone, maybe less than half of the people, but it doesn’t matter when you’re barely allowed to move an inch. Speaking of which…

“I’m just trying to get my glass,” you sigh and roll your eyes when the arm around your waist tightens and pulls you back against Yonghoon’s chest just as you lean forward to reach your drink. 

“Oh, okay,” he murmurs as lets you go - not after another quick peck to your shoulder. Your eyes meet Dongmyeong’s briefly as he’s also getting his drink and he mouths want help? at you, chuckling at the position you found yourself in. You shake your head with a grin and wave him off to leave, leaning back into Yonghoon’s waiting arms. As annoying as the position is when you’re trying to function, you’re actually pretty satisfied. You know he’s been waiting for the night to get to the point when everyone’s mingling with each other and separates into smaller groups to talk and they leave you alone for a while; waiting for when he’ll be able to hold you in his lap without coming off as too clingy. 

“Give me the glass,” he mumbles into your neck, lips spoiling your skin with kiss after kiss that leave the area ticklish and sensitive, but you can’t tell him to stop. Not after you’ve missed the feeling for so long.

You do as told without questioning it, that is until you see Yonghoon trying to carefully balance the glass on the armrest of the couch, leaning it against the wall for more stability.

“Absolutely not, that’s gonna spill all over us,” you hurriedly take the glass from him again and set it back on the table before he can stop you. Not a second later you’re again trapped in his arms before you can even process being pulled back. You feel his pout against the skin of your shoulder. Then a kiss - and another…

“Love, I missed you too,” you sigh, melting into his hug, “Let me see you?” Then you add when he doesn’t loosen his hold: “Please?”   

His reluctance is very obvious from how slowly he moves and his dissatisfied grumble. You shift your position to sit sideways on his lap, wrapping your arms around his neck as soon as he pulls you closer again. 

“You know, I’m starting to think you asked the guys to host this just so you can’t be called a bad host,” you tease but the reaction comes in the form of another hungry kiss to your lips. He’s mindful of the people around, though, so he stops before he can get carried away. 

“So?” he whispers against your lips before stealing another kiss.

“Not even denying it?” you laugh, trying to appease him by kissing the corner of his lips. He leans his head on your shoulder and gives you not-so-subtle puppy eyes. You roll your eyes but you still kiss his forehead and move your hand to his hair, gently running your fingers through it.

“You know it was them who offered,” he reminds you, and you do. At the time they said they didn’t want to make you too busy with preparing everything and then cleaning up when you’re supposed to celebrate, some jokes about how Yonghoon won’t be able to keep his hands off you were made, but you suppose they didn’t expect they’d be so right. “We should thank them again.”

“Yeah, we should. But we can go home now if you’re tired,” you suggest, although you’re quite content here, even if you’re taking a break from socializing for the moment. He seems ready to sleep though, seeing how peaceful he looks resting on your shoulder. 

“I’m not,” he shakes his head, “Just want to be with you for a while.” 

“We were together the whole evening,” you point out, “And the whole day, and we’ll be together the whole night.”

He smiles at your words and you wonder if he’s thinking about the evening too. It’s hard not to feel butterflies in your stomach as you think of his hands barely ever leaving your body - always either playing with your fingers or holding your hand, holding you close to his body, stroking your back, your thigh�� Good thing everyone’s already used to Yonghoon being affectionate with the people dear to him.

“I’m not letting you go,” he whispers, “You’re stuck with me.”

To stress his words, he pulls you even closer and tilts his head up to get free access to your neck. You tug at his hair lightly when he starts kissing up your neck, smiling at his touch starved behavior. It’s welcomed, it’s needed.

Gradually things will return to normal, but right now you’re not sure if you’re looking forward to it or dreading it. As annoying as it gets sometimes, you’re in love with your clingy boyfriend.

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K-pop Discography Deep Dives: Onew

Onew is one of the five members of 2nd generation group SHINee, and debuted with them in 2008 before debuting as a soloist ten years later with Blue. Here are my credentials: If you’ve ever read my blog before, you’ll know I’m a huge ShaWol (SHINee fan), and so I’m slowly making my way through their solo discographies before eventually tackling their huge discography as a group. I’ve done Taemin, Jonghyun, Key, and now Onew, but Onew’s actually the one I know the least well, so I’m excited to get to know more! (Also shoutout to @fallsouthwinter, who knows his work like the back of their hand).

Blue is a ballad if ever there was one, and usually ballads take a lot to win me over…but this one managed! I love dancing and beautiful production, but I’m a singer at heart, and so I couldn’t help but be won over by Onew’s absolutely stunning voice mixed with such light strings. I don’t know exactly which life experiences the song is about, but the way he sings it, it’s like he’s pouring his heart into every note, and it’s quite an affecting performance, even without a translation. The MV too is gorgeous, all in shades of blue, gray, and white, swirling around him in a vortex.

Voice is quite a melancholy EP on the whole, but I still enjoyed the gentle pull-back and rush-forward of Your Scent, the catharsis in the slow-building Illusion, and especially the sweetness and warmth in the lyrics and acoustic guitar of Shine On You (my hidden gem); I go “aww” at the “I love you” every time.

Dice is a song that, somehow, I hadn’t actually heard before? It seems kind of shocking, considering it’s his most popular song. It goes the precise opposite way from Blue, being much cuter, poppier, and stranger (the last mostly in terms of music video), and overall reminded me a little of Jonghyun’s laid-back R & B style, just with a peppier edge. Though the song itself is nothing incredible, Onew’s voice makes everything more enjoyable, and the music video had me very amused (especially when they run away together, lol). I also like the bridge a lot. From the EP, also called Dice, I enjoyed the building synths in the dancy, appropriately sunny Sunshine (my hidden gem), the vintage background beat in On The Way, and the vulnerability expressed in Love Phobia.

Kirakira, of course, is a Japanese release, and returns to the orchestral style of Blue, but with a far more upbeat feeling that I think works quite well with his voice. It has an excellent driving beat from its underlying guitar (which actually gets a solo, here), and a brightness that feels like it comes from deep within. And, that music video is adorable; I can never resist a cat! This is actually my favorite single so far, which is a surprise. Apparently it’s a cover of an older J-pop song by Odu Kazumasa, and “Kirakira” literally means “shiny”, which I hope was a choice made on purpose, because if so, that’s very sweet.

From the EP, Who Sings?, I loved the jazzier direction taken with the building strings in the slowly burning (seven-minute-long!) Everything, which feels like more of an epic or opera than just a song, so I couldn’t pick anything else as my hidden gem. But, I also enjoyed the feel-good orchestral pop of Uroko.

Life Goes On is also a Japanese title, and like Kirakira, features the story of someone other than Onew in its music video (though he does appear in this one). It’s peppier from the outset, and feels like the OST of a drama set by the beach, which makes sense for a summer track. I especially enjoy its central message of joy and its encouragement for the little trials that life puts us through, and I admit that, though I expected to be bored at first, it won me over. From the EP, Life Goes On, my hidden gem was made by the 60’s indie-soft-rock vibes of Yoake No Sekai and the pathos and comfort in his voice in Lighthouse.

Circle is the first single I ever really saw from Onew, and it made me fall in love with his voice, for good reason. It’s so light and airy, but holds so much warmth and inner strength in it, which makes it quite unique. Circle is at times peaceful and soothing, and at others a little haunting with how high his voice goes. As a Wiccan, of course I appreciate the idea of life going on in cycles of seasons, years, and elements, and the ending with the full choir behind him mixed with the gentle strings and slow beat gave me goosebumps.

From the album, Circle, I had so many highlights: the coffee-shop vibeyness and percussive guitar of Rain On Me, the easy charm of Caramel (which reminded me of IU’s Bbibbi with its bubbly beat), the spacey synths of Anywhere, the soaring vocals and bright acoustic guitar of Paradise, the tongue-in-cheek vocalizing in the groovy No Parachute, and the cozy warmth of Walk With You. I completely understand why Billboard named it their top k-pop album of the year. Well deserved.

Inspiration and Knock On My Door are Japanese singles, and I won’t spend too much time on them. Inspiration combines a very classic K-pop winter sound (those twinkling sound effects!) with a peppy underlying beat, and is pretty enjoyable, as holiday-sounding songs go. Knock On My Door is slower and more stripped-back, opting once more for an acoustic guitar and the strength of Onew’s vocals to create what’s quite a pleasant song, but a bit forgettable.

I’m glad I did this! Looking through Onew’s discography is something I’ve been meaning to do for a while. I gained a brand new respect for Onew’s beautiful voice and how well it fits with strings. I don’t have the same emotional connection to his work that I do with Taemin’s, Key’s, and Jonghyun’s, but I think it could really grow on me in time.

My Top 5 songs are Kirakira, Circle, Everything, Life Goes On, and Shine On You, with No Parachute as an honorable mention. Onew gets an 8.25 out of 10 from me, which is about what I expected. Like with Kim Sejeong’s work, I’m not a fan of an overwhelming amount of ballads, but I found that besides that, it had a pretty decent balance. The genres he delves into aren’t always among my favorites, but when he nails it, he nails it.

Next time, we’ll be doing part 2 of the SHINHWA deep dive and a girl group supplemental. Tschüss!

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hi hi hi today's reminder is it's just hit me that the dreamies will soon have seven years of work experience. more if you count the rookies days. i, older than all of them, feel like I'm too young to have my 2.5 years of work ex. and now, as much as I love current grown-up dream, i feel sad they never got to be kids.

also on a lighter note shinee is doing a video series of them doing 10 minutes of different types of youtube content/challenges and i love them and it's so fun to watch them together. they did debates and taemin was just being a hater towards all of romance, key was trying to talk sense and Minho was flirting with taem. my absolute babies (we're ignoring that they're all significantly older than me). it's just so nice to watch them goof around together, i love them so much

Hii!, Aw, yeah they never really got to have a real adolescence compared to the older members of 127 and Wayv where they had already graduated highschool and college for Kun. I think despite all of them being in their early twenties it's why like they just seem so much younger than their peers. I know there's a reason for this but it's escaping me how to articulate it. But it does at least seem like they created a childhood with each other. It's like Taemin he debuted at 14 but at 30 he still seems like a little kid like he was a bit stunted. To be fair I see that in a lot of millennials, like so many of my friends say they still feel like high schoolers and being an adult doesn't seem real. But that for a completely different reason. But yeah they especially Jisung feel very stunted compared to like Sungchan, Taehyun, even Jeongin feels a bit older. Not Yangyang though but it's cause of his brattiness and being babied by Ten. But I hope they're able to have experiences that give them back at least some of their childhood and they don't feel too pressured to give up "childish" things, and can keep that childlike wonder I think all adults should keep that as long as you can, ideally forever.

This made me realize I'm not subscribed to shinees personal YouTube channel and now I have to. Taemin, taeminning as usual Key being the only one with sense is just how they are and Minho, yeah of course. I gotta go watch this. I hope Onew is doing well.

Also I just learned that the movie She's too young, has actually happened to a lot of schools, like there have been multiple syphilis outbreaks in highschools. I thought it was just maybe one but it's multiple. I'm at least glad none of the dream members went to a North American highschool, it's wild over here. Ask Johnny, he knows. Mark only went to middle school so he's fine.

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2024 Retrospective: Album of the Year

Like last year, this is going to be a ranking from best to worst. Though I am excluding single albums as it doesn’t feel fair to compare a mini or full album to a 2-song single. I still want to write about them, but I’m going to put them at the very end. Beware, this is going to be a long one.

PITTA – New Normal Life (7,3/10)

Hyungho really has a voice that never gets boring to me and this album really showcases that the best. His range is absolutely insane. Aside from one song, all of the tracks on this album made it onto my playlist. It’s just really that good. It also very much helps, that it reminds me of OO-LI and Colorful Trauma, the last winners of this ranking. I guess I just have a type. Packaging-wise, there isn’t much going on. The album is shockingly thin compared to ID: PITTA and BE FREE and there aren’t really any inclusions. I accidentally managed to break it though, because I tried to get the CD out on the wrong side. I’d say that’s 99,5% my fault.

Apollon 8/10 – Haunting and beautiful. I imagine this is what you hear at the pearly gates.

Don’t Be Quiet 7/10 – Makes me want to shout.

G.T.H.O 8/10 – Should have played this when my co-worker was fired. Or when my boss quit.

Newness 7/10 – Just badass, really.

Better 8/10 – Makes me want to lie down in a puddle and cry. Feels like an answer to Drowning (by WOODZ).

This Song 6/10 – His voice is beautiful, but the song is just fine.

PURPLE KISS – Headway (7,2/10)

This album kind off came out of nowhere.  They started teasing for it barely a week before the comeback and we got MV teasers before we even got the highlight medley. By all intents and purposes, this should be a mess. But it might be one of PURPLE KISS’ strongest mini albums to date. After the release of BXX anything would be though (more on that later). The packaging does reflect the mess though. It’s a sleeve, which is usually not terrible, but it’s loose and I don’t understand why they would print the cover sideways. RBW did this with Gravity (by ONEWE) as well and it’s just not a good design choice.

Intro: Concrete Jungle 7/10 – My second favourite Intro by PURPLE KISS, probably.

ON MY BIKE 8/10 – Beginning reminds me a little of Wicked Love but in a good way. The Outro/Final Chorus is also one of the coolest of the year.

Sweet Nightmare 7/10 – There could be a little more going on with the lyrics, but it’s catchy, so I’m willing to overlook that.

Encore 8/10 – New favourite song from them, tbh.

Light the Way 6/10 – Hopeful ballads are really underrated.

Ten – TEN (7,2/10)

(I thought the album was called Nightwalker…) Really, it’s just a solid solo debut album. It’s what he deserves, honestly. I don’t necessarily understand why all of the songs are in English, but they all slap, so I don’t care really. The packaging does work, but it also feels a little cheap, which seems to be the standard for SM most of the time. I don’t know, I just think it deserved something cooler.

Nightwalker 8/10 – Showstopping. I couldn’t have imagined a better debut song for Ten myself.

Water 6/10 – I imagine a lot of fans feel thirsty after hearing this song (not me though, sorry).

Dangerous 9/10 – One of the best songs of the year. Genuinely as suave as it’s trying to be.

On Ten 6/10 – I can appreciate what this song is trying to do, but it doesn’t work for me.

Shadow 7/10 – Strengthens my thesis that songs called Shadow can do no wrong.

Lie With You 7/10 – Sounds like a Harry Styles or Ed Sheran song (affectionate).

Kenshi Yonezu – LOST CORNER (7,1/10)

It has really been a while since Kenshi Yonezus last album. Stray Sheep came out in 2020, and he released a bunch of singles since, which were all really fantastic and definitely boost the score of the album up. The songs from the album itself are also good though. The cover art of the album looks really cool. Apparently, he made it himself, which I’m willing to believe since he has made past cover artwork. It really helps with the charm of the album.

RED OUT 9/10 – One of the most complete sounding songs of the year, despite being under 3 minutes.

KICK BACK 9/10 – One of his best songs, probably. Will always be a banger.

MARGHERITA 8/10 – Might be my favourite collab of him. Their voices sound really nice together.

POP SONG 8/10 – Just funky goodness. Might be the best console ad ever.

Shinigami 10/10 – My favourite song of him tbh. It’s just so well written.

Mainichi 7/10 – Beginning is kind of weird, but the rest of the song is good, so it doesn’t matter.

LADY 6/10 – One of his most nothing songs, honestly.

Yumeutsutsu 5/10 – He has much better ballads to listen to instead of this one.

Sayonara, Mata Itsuka! 8/10 – A positive break up song? Not unheard of, but rarely done this funky.

Tomaremiyo 7/10 – Just fun.

LENS FLARE 6/10 – His voice in this song sounds amazing, but it could be a little more.

Tsuki wo Miteita – Moongazing 8/10 – Cinematic and grand.

M87 7/10 – A really solid ballad, honestly.

Pale Blue 6/10 – Was beaten out as a single by its B-Side and is also sinking here.

Garakuta 7/10 – I’m just saying, if I were fighting with my partner and some random dude started singing dramatically behind us, I would punch him.

YELLOW GHOST 6/10 – The vocals sound a little weird on this song.

POST HUMAN 6/10 – Kind of dull.

Chikyugi 6/10 – I feel like this song is not as emotional as it could be.

LOST CORNER 7/10 – Encapsulates the vibes of the album really well, as its namesake.

OHAYO 6/10 – This might be one of his most unique songs, but I don’t know if that is a positive thing.

Jaejoong – Flower Garden (7/10)

Not only does this album serve as a celebration of his past 20 years of music, but also as a really good stand-alone release. It has vibes of his older emo-rock influences all over it, just more positive. His voice is still really good. He also managed to get a collaboration with MIYAVI on it, which means that he now has collaborated with 3 of the 4 “Last Rockstars” (Yoshiki, we’re waiting). It shouldn’t have come as a surprise to me, but it still did. This album really is massive. It’s not the biggest album I own, but it does really fill up the shelf. It also looks really pretty. The design on the cover is supposed to be reminiscent of his back tattoo and I think that’s really cool. Personally, I think the black version looks a little cooler than the white version, but I’m not complaining about what I got. The puzzle is also a really cool idea for an album inclusion, though maybe it shouldn’t come already done. It’s also very satisfying to open and close.

Good News 8/10 – I feel like this song deserves to have a cool performance attached to it. It also would have been funny if he performed this on Inkigayo.

Glorious Day 7/10 – It is glorious indeed.

Dream Party 7/10 – Jamming out to this, but like… softly. Snoopy happy dancing.

The Light 6/10 – The voice editing sounds a little weird, but it’s still a really cool collab.

To The Boy 7/10 – It makes me smile, but also sad at the same time.

Tru Love Tru Lies 7/10 – I can see why he wanted to make this a vocal challenge for other idols. I don’t think many would have managed to succeed though.

Summer J 6/10 – It feels kind of weird to get a summer anthem from Jaejoong, but I’m not complaining.

Devotion 6/10 – Writing wise it’s fine, but Jaejoongs vocals carry it hard.

Dopamine 7/10 – Jaejoong showing everyone how it’s done. Also, still wild to me that this collab exists in the first place.

Don’t 7/10 – Hilarious, yet also terrifying when you read the lyrics. The one time random noises make sense in a melody.

Concrete Heart 9/10 – I don’t think I ever heard a Jaejoong ballad that I didn’t like. Showstopping, honestly.

Rain Shower 6/10 – Makes me want to dance in the rain.

I AM U 8/10 – As far as songs written for fans go, I think this is the best one. Also watching him perform this on Inkigayo made me cry.

201208 – It’s not really a song, so I don’t think I can rate it, and I also have been unable to find a translation of it. If anyone has one, please let me know.

ONF – Beautiful Shadow (6,8/10)

I have to say, this is not what I expected from them after their military enlistment, but it’s really good. All of the songs on this album are just really solid and catchy. The packaging is fairly solid. It’s one of the few times where a book sleeve is not too tight and thus pulling on the edges of the cover. However, the CD is just shoved into an envelope that isn’t even attached, which happens to often really. I feel like I mention this being a problem with albums every year.

Bye My Monster 8/10 – Love to see theatrical ONF. It’s really just the right amount of dramatic for them.

Aphrodite 7/10 – Feels more like a 2nd Gen song. Very campy.

Breath, Haze & Shadow 6/10 – Beautiful Vocals, but I wish there was more to it.

Chemical Type 6/10 – I still don’t understand how chemistry is romantic but go off guys!

Slave to the Rhythm 7/10 – Not the best song on the album, but the one I have the most fun with.

ENHYPEN – MEMORABILIA (6,7/10)

I’d like to state that I bought this album purely because it looked cool. I hadn’t listened to it previously and didn’t even know it came out. But I really enjoyed it. Fatal Trouble is  probably their best song to date and also the best song to come out of HYBE this year. I know why they didn’t promote it, but that doesn't mean I understand it. The metal box does look really cool. I don’t really know how to put in on my shelf, but it would look fancy anywhere, I think. I put it with the rest of my albums, which looks a bit funny, but that’s fine with me (for now). The inclusions with the album are also cool, but I think someone who actually read the webtoon might get something more out of them than me.

One in A Billion 6/10 -  I feel like the chorus needed a few more rewrites.

CRIMINAL LOVE 7/10 – One of the best songs to come out of HYBE last year (2023).

Fatal Trouble 8/10 – The vocals could be a little heavier, but that doesn't dim my enjoyment of the song at all.

Teeth 7/10 – I feel like it shouldn’t work, but it does.

Lucifer 6/10 – The mixing sounds a little weird, but it’s still a jam.

Scream 6/10 – Remind me to never get into a car driven by one of them.

F.T. Island – Serious (6,7/10)

It’s been a while since we last heard of F.T. Island and this album really makes it seem like they never left. I completely forgot though how good Hongkis voice sounds. He really has a very theatrical voice and it mixes well with the type of music on this album. They should do dramatic rock, really. The folder design of the album is pretty solid. The only weird thing I can find about it, is that the album name is only printed on the open side of it. I think it would look much cooler if it were on the spine.

Letter to Myself 6/10 – Feels oddly comforting.

BURN IT 7/10 – Sounds like it should be on the soundtrack of the Devil Judge.

Serious 8/10 – Appropriately badass and theatrical for Hongkis voice.

Aqua (Korean Ver.) 7/10 – Sounds just as cool as the Original to me.

Sunrise Yellow (Korean Ver.) 6/10 – Fun, but it also feels like it could be much more.

T.I.V (Tears in Vain) 7/10 – I love the new genre emerging in K-Rock right now that’s encouraging someone or yourself not to cry, as opposed to feeling sad for yourself.

Inferno 8/10 – If I had a nickel for every time a song used a “gottasadae” chant and made it badass as fuck, I’d have two nickels. Which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice.

My Birthday (Korean Ver.) 6/10 – Sounds like he is singing without really opening his mouth, if that makes sense.

Journey 6/10 – Uplifting and depressing at the same time.

Reason 6/10 – Even on multiple listens of the song, I don’t quite know what to think off it.

Lee Seung Yoon – Pre-Release Album [YEOK SEONG] (6,6/10)

I didn’t realise this was a pre-release when I bought it. It’s objectively a hilarious thing to do though. It’s still a full album really. It just got a repackage. I don’t own the full album though. I listened to it and liked it, but all of my favourite tracks are already on this one, so I didn’t feel the need to buy it. The packaging is pretty simple, using a jewel case and a book with a sleeve around it. It fits well and doesn’t just slip off.

Waterfall 7/10 – I want to listen to this song while standing in the pouring rain.

POKZOOK TIME 8/10 – Has a really cool beat and guitar riff.

Strings as a Sword 7/10 – I don’t think you should bring strings to a swordfight, but he makes it sounds badass.

SOLD OUT 6/10 – Sounds cool but has little substance.

Return Match 6/10 – Appropriately cool.

28k! LOVE 8/10 – Sounds really hopeful and is just perfect to vibe along to.

Blown to Me 6/10 – Shelter of Dreams in less depressing.

Canon 5/10 – Kind of a nothingburger.

P1Harmony – SAD SONG (6,6/10)

They aren’t the only group I bought two albums of, but they are the only group where I enjoyed both releases. SAD SONG (the song) barely missed out on being in my top 10, actually. This whole mini album is just a vibe. Packaging-wise, it’s fine. It’s just a slim book. It does its job fine. The only thing I could complain about is that I own the A version, which means I get to look at them in knight costumes. It’s not that I dislike that, I just now wish that they would do a medieval inspired comeback.

SAD SONG 8/10 – Really just a full-on vibe. The most fun I had with a song this year.

It’s Alright 6/10 – The title is really the program.

Last Call 6/10 – Sounds more like they are singing “Let’s go” instead.

Welcome To 7/10 – Just a banger, really.

All You 6/10 – Sounds oddly like a Christmas song.

WASP 6/10 – They are good rappers, it just doesn’t sting.

SAD SONG (English Version) 7/10 – Still a banger, but I’m going to question its existence regardless.

E’LAST – Everlasting (6,5/10)

The only reason I bought this album was because I found it in the store and just couldn’t resist. And owning it, I noticed that the songs on this album have a different producer. Up until Thrill, all of their songs credited one guy and this album doesn’t. I don’t really know why this is. Perhaps he left or was fired after the scandal, who knows. And I’ll also be the first to say it: Their new producer either doesn’t know what to do with them or isn’t very good. There definitely are good songs on the album, but others are not so good. I don’t really have any notes about the packaging though. It caves inwards a little, which is weird, but it actually protects the CD quite well, which is rare nowadays.

Intro: Dystopia 8/10 – Their instrumental intros always slap, and this one is no exception.

Gasoline 6/10 – They make this song work, even though it absolutely shouldn’t. It’s very messy, though.

I 6/10 – Would be better without the post-chorus.

Addiction 6/10 – It’s Desire, but worse.

Fade Out 7/10 – Should have been the title track, really. A fun pop song.

Dark Light 8/10 – It wouldn’t have made a good title track, but it also feels too good to be relegated to a B-Side.

Candy Shop 6/10 – The kind of music you listen to while relaxing in a hot bath.

Rewind 6/10 – Yes, please let us rewind the clock back to 2022.

You 6/10 – A boring ballad.

Forever and One 6/10 – This is a cute ballad, but it could have been more.

P1Harmony – Killin’ It (6,4/10)

I liked some of their songs before, but this release was really what got me interested and also invested in the group. I honestly think that out of all the 4th Gen. groups known for doing noise music, they are doing it best. They make music sounds so fun and I really like that. This album is just fun to listen to. The packaging also mostly reflects that. I like the cartoony art style of the cover, and it does feel very secure, despite being made of cardboard. The misspelled English on the back is kind of funny though, when you remember that Keeho is Canadian, and no one noticed.

Killin’ It 7/10 – The type of fun noise music I like. Makes me want to see them collaborate with Stray Kids in some way.

Late Night Calls 7/10 – The type of music you listen to while on a long drive through the rain.

Everybody Clap 6/10 - *thunderous applause*

Love Story 6/10 – Solid ballad but nothing more.

Countdown to Love 6/10 – I like the rap parts, but the rest is a bit generic.

Emergency 7/10 – Is this what it sounds like when they have to drive one of their members to the hospital?

2Nite 6/10 – The chorus is really cool. The rest is… fine.

Let Me Love You 6/10 – I don’t think they’ll take no for an answer…

Street Star 7/10 – Sounds like a soundtrack for a racing game.

I See U 6/10 – Aggressively Average.

PURPLE KISS – BXX (6,2/10)

I think this mini album might be their most nothing and boring release to date. It just… sounds a little off. The vibes aren’t completely there. Maybe it’s just that this type of concept is so overdone and while they make it work, they deserve something better. RBW really needs to figure out what to do with them. The packaging is fine. The lid is not to tight or loose. The only thing, I could complain about is that the CD maybe shouldn’t be placed on top, if it’s barely protected. It should be in the folder, not on the outside of it. But I do have to appreciate that all of their releases are roughly the same size and format, just with different packaging that ranges from good to really bad.

Intro: Crush 6/10 – made me realise that I have a pet peeve about ending a song in the middle of a line. It makes the song sound incomplete, which would be fine for an intro, if it flows into the next track well. It doesn’t.

BBB 7/10 – It’s carried by their vocals, really. Also, please look up the pronunciation of caviar. It drives me insane that there are two different pronunciations of it.

Bitter Sweet 6/10 – Could be a little more cohesive, but the vocals save it.

Toy Boy 6/10 – Easy solution for your dilemma, girls: get off tinder!

Heart Attack 6/10 – Sounds a bit like a Taeyeon song.

Voyager 6/10 – This is what I imagine a dream to sound like.

And that’s all for full and mini albums. Now onto the three singles that would destroy this ranking on principle.

KISS OF LIFE – Midas Touch

It’s just really good. I’d say this comeback is the one that made me a fan, though their other releases this year weren’t as good. I gonna have to reduce points because the music video has nothing to do with Midas though. It’s not that hard to use gold instead of stone guys, it’s just a different effect. The packaging is fine. I’m not the biggest fan of magazines, but this one at least has games in it. I’m never going to play them, but they are a nice touch.

Midas Touch 8/10 – Just a solidly produced and performed pop anthem.

Nothing 7/10 – Makes me want to see them collaborate with PURPLE KISS.

RESCENE – Re:Scene

As far as debuts go, I think this one was really good. The girls are clearly talented, and their label really knows how to make them stand out from the crowd. It really seems like there was some thought put into this debut, and I like that. I own the PLVE version of the album though and I think it’s broken. I don’t know. I scanned the code with the app and downloaded it, but my WLAN died for a second and now I have an album I can look at but not listen to. I don’t know if that is what’s supposed to happen, mostly because I can’t find anything about PLVE online that was written in English. If it’s supposed to be like that, why create an album version you can’t listen to? And if it’s not, how do I fix it? Well, whatever. I still have the small standee, that was in it, on my shelf and the photocards are cool.

YoYo 8/10 – Reminiscent of 1st Gen music to me.

UhUh 7/10 – A really great debut. Reminds me of (G)I-DLE.

ATEEZ – Not Okay

It’s kind of sad to me, that this is my favourite ATEEZ release of the year, but their Golden Hour series just wasn’t it for me. This is pretty good though. To be fair, I only bought this single, because I found it at the store, but I do listen to it. Their Japanese could be a little better, I guess. They fall into a trap, that many idols fall into, when singing, where it does sound stiff and clearly learnt. It’s not too distracting from their vocals though. The packaging for this album isn’t fancy. It’s just a jewel case really. Fancy packaging hasn’t caught on in Japan quite yet, it seems.

NOT OKAY 7/10 – Their tiny bit awkward Japanese doesn’t dim my enjoyment of this song too much.

Days 6/10 – Sounds like it should be the Ending of a sports anime.

[blu-joons]

When You Kiss Him Because You Want Something ~ SHINee Reaction

Onew:

“Can we go and get a coffee?” You asked, pointing across to the store that was just across the street.

“We’ve only just left the house,” Jinki chuckled as you tugged against his arm, “how can you already want a coffee when we’ve walked for five minutes.”

Your head shook as you took a step towards him, trailing several kisses along the length of Jinki’s jaw, “we need something to walk with, and coffee is perfect.”

“Y/N,” Jinki smirked, knowing exactly what you were up to, “you know people are beginning to look across at us.”

Your head nodded proudly, “let’s go and get a coffee and then I’ll stop, but you know that I won’t let you go until you agree to get a coffee.”

“Do you really want one that badly?”

“Of course, I really fancy one.”

“Come on then,” Jinki sighed, taking a hold of your hand as he led you across to the crossing, “I can’t believe I’ve caved and given you what you want so easily.”

The smile on your face continued to grow, “your jaw has always been a weakness, I learnt that as soon as I started dating you.”

“You know me too well, it’s so unfair.”

Key:

“Don’t leave without me,” you pouted as Kibum got his final bits together before going to work.

“I’ve got a schedule,” Kibum reminded you as you held onto his arm, stopping him from going anywhere else, “there’s a car waiting outside too.”

You moved closer towards Kibum, pressing several kisses against his cheek, “do you really want to spend the day without me? We could have fun and be together.”

“Will you really be able to control yourself whilst I’m recording?” Kibum challenged, slowly beginning to cave.”

Your head nodded, knowing that you were wearing Kibum down, “I promise I’ll be on my best behaviour,” you vowed, continuing to kiss him.

“You can’t be doing this all day too.”

“Do what? I’m not doing anything.”

“You know exactly what you’re doing,” Kibum smirked, pinching against your waist, “and in case you’ve forgotten, two can play this game if you want to.”

Your head nodded as you grabbed your jacket off the back of the door, “I just always know how to get what I want from you.”

“Just this once, don’t get used to it.”

Minho:

“Do you have to stick to your diet tonight?” You frowned across at Minho, tucking beside him.

“I said that I’d help you cook if you’re too tired to do it yourself,” Minho reminded you, wrapping his arm around your frame, “I don’t mind.”

You shuffled closer to Minho, beginning to trail kisses against the crook of his neck. “Just say no to the diet for once, I know that you’re tempted by takeout.”

“I’ve got to watch my figure,” Minho squirmed, struggling to keep it together as you continued to tease against him.

Your shoulders shrugged as your hand trailed against his chest, “from what I can feel, you’ve got nothing that you need to worry about.”

“Do you know how bloated I’ll be tomorrow?”

“You can do an extra hour at the gym.”

“How long do you plan on keeping this up?” Minho chuckled, feeling his heart start to race as you managed to find Minho’s sweet spot against his neck.

You pulled away momentarily to meet his eyes, “I’ve got all night long if that’s what you want, I don’t need to go anywhere.”

“Fine, you win, pass me the takeout menu.”

Taemin:

“Please can I come and watch,” you smiled across at Taemin as he picked up his bag for work.

“You never let me do any work when you come to the studio,” Taemin reminded you, only for your shoulders to shrug in reply to him with a smile.

You stood in the doorway as Taemin approached, pressing several light kisses to the tip of his nose. “I love watching you dance though.”

Your hands cupped either side of Taemin’s face to keep him in position, “how do I know that you won’t just distract me once you’ve watched me dance.”

Your hands continued to grab at Taemin, trying to keep his attention watching you, “you won’t even know that I’m there with you.”

“Do you promise to be quiet whilst I rehearse?”

“I promise, the room will be silent.”

“I suppose that you can come, but if you distract me, I’ll make sure that you pay,” Taemin warned you, “management won’t be happy too.”

Your head nodded in reply, “I’ll sit in the corner, and watch without saying a word, like another member of staff.”

“I could find some work for you to do actually.”

---

Masterlist

[faceglitchsworld]

It's the 24th of January today. You know what that means... it's Giuk's birthday! :D

And that means that I made a new collage ☺️

I must say that it was difficult. Choosing a selca from him was the hardest part, there were so many good choices and I was this close to just making the collage with just selcas 😫

But, at the end of the day, I've found a good compromise: selca with glasses + he with curly hair. I'm sorry, he's so adorable, I couldn't resist 🥹

Proud of the corners' photos too even tho I really wanted to find another good photo of him with long hair 🥲

And as always let's go to the emotional part now.

If I should describe my love for Cya probably I'll say something like "If I didn't find him, I would have never loved Onewe as I do now". Before becoming a full-time OT5 stan, my heart was completely attached to him. And the reasons were pretty simple. First and foremost, he's the bassist. When I discovered Onewe I was in my Jamiroquai phase and I discovered my love for the bass sound. For a long period, the bass was the best instrument a band could ever have (and I still believe this in part. Give me a song with a groovy bassline and I might easily fall in love with it lol). And this is why I had the pattern of immediately fall in love with the bassist every time I discovered a new band.

The second reason is that he wrote Veronica, the song that made me discover Onewe and made me curious about them. A cute bright song dedicated to a childhood crush. And I must admit that I freaked out a little when I saw the title since Veronica is an Italian name and I was like, "No way, what? An Italian name here in a Korean song, what? What is this? Now, these people got my attention." How little I knew at the time. That was just the beginning of my journey with Onewe. The more time passed, the more Veronica hold a special place into my heart. I always thank Giuk for this.

There are of course other reasons why I love him of course. His solo lives are the most coziest lives ever. Maybe it's his room that reminds mine a lot or the way he talks about the songs' writing process but every time I listen to him it's like listening to a dear friend. And I love him for this.

My dear Giuk, you've come so far as an artist. I remember when on Bubble you promised us that you would become a better artist during Leader Line's enlistment. And you already did so much. Remember when White Noise was released and you proudly said that you didn't just composed and wrote your part but you also made the cover all by yourself? Or when you released a new mixtape? Or the fact that, during the last encore concert, you and Dongmyeong performed for the first time Salty Boy aka one of my new favourite songs now (and I can't wait for an official release)? All of these are great achievements and you need to remember it.

Remember to not push yourself too much. You already did a lot for the band and I'm sure all the members and WEVEs acknowledge it. This year I really want to see you focusing on yourself and finding more happiness. Remember, WEVEs are always with you.

Hope you'll spend this day with the members and your family and that this year you'll find more and more things to love.

Happy birthday Giukie 💙

[sweetlyocs]

Little Headache

synopsis: Phoenix is living her best life as Onew's favourite little headache

prompt 13 “You were put on this earth to give me a headache”

note: it's honestly a really cute day of the life with Onew and Phoenix, just because we're spending some time exploring more of her friendships

Phoenix wasn’t sure what was happening between the screams and yelling voices but she was having the time of her life. When she had been invited to visit the set of Onew’s new mv she wasn’t expecting to be thrown straight into the chaos. Sure she expected those kinds of things when she would come and be around Taemin or if she was visiting some of the other members of NCT but this was a shock to her. The main reason she wasn’t allowed to be left with Taemin was because she would, unknowingly, cause havoc with him but it couldn’t be helped. When Taemin or Minho said jump she responded with, you wanna see a flip? 

As it hit the final hours of filming, Phoenix wasn’t blind to how tired her senior was getting, with so much happening behind the scenes with his members and this intense media pressure of having their own solo comebacks it was a lot. She would try and visit Onew in the recording studio as often as she could, and she noticed all the strewn coffee cups and half eaten meals that would litter the floors. She had also wound up on the receiving end of one of his sleepless nights and had to remind herself that he was just stressed. Much like she had to do in the early days of NCT when she was trying to comfort a very stressed and very scared Mark. 

She was currently twirling around the hotel set of the music video with the elders phone as he tried to reign her back in, the younger being well aware of how childlike she was being but she couldn’t help herself. He wouldn’t show it to her as to not encourage the behaviour but  she caught his smiles in her direction when he thought she wasn’t looking. 

“Phoenix you’re being a child…” Onew was tired, ridiculously tired. But Somin looked like a kid who had just finished a bag of sherbet treats and was running wild. “You’re being old” She sang out, quickly turning to poke out her tongue before jumping to the side of a staff member, quickly bowing before running back to the man, seemingly with her tail between her legs. 

Scooping her in his arms, Onew rubbed his somewhat sweaty forehead against her as she protested and cried out in disgust, “No no no no no no! TaTae oppa does the same thing and it’s gross! You’re being weird!”

Her cries were met with nothing but laughter as he finally got her to calm down in his arms, “One more shoot and we’re finished okay?” “Then chicken?” “Yes,” he laughed out, “Then chicken. Can you behave long enough for me to film or do I need to throw you into the dressing room?”

Zipping her mouth shut, she pressed a kiss to his cheek, silently promising to behave. 

She loved spending time with him, with any of her big brothers really. Noticeably her demeanor always shifted more childlike when she was with any older idol that she was close with. Somin was lucky enough to form many friendships and connections with her seniors and she was always thankful at the end and beginning of each year that she had people who loved her. Even the staff around them loved seeing the young idol break out of her reserved and rehearsed persona and act like a kid. 

As the filming slowly began coming to an end, Phoenix stood behind the camera, in slight awe of her senior, she wasn’t unaware of the dedication that it took to create the art of a music video but being able to watch Onew was something that she was floored by. Her eyes lit up as she watched him in front of the camera, following him at every movement. His eyes connected with hers behind the camera as he shared a smile with her. As he walked towards her, he stretched out his arms as she collided into his chest, “You were so cool oppa, you’re like an idol idol” Laughing he shook his head at her tone, “You were put on this earth to give me a headache, go get your stuff while I get changed babo” 

As Onew drove them to dinner after the shoot, he shook his head at her dramatic retelling of her latest adventure with her groupmates and the things that they had all been up to. As he pulled up to a red light he leaned over and held out his hand, confused she placed her hand in his, “You keep telling me about your brothers here, what about Miles? Tell me about back home, I missed hearing those stories”

[whatifyoulivelikethat]

care less, m | myg

pairing(s): yoongi x reader, implied taehyung x reader

summary: There are countless partings in this world. People come in and out of your life, impacts large and small. But there is one where you could care less. You really could. And that’s Min Yoongi, your high school ex-boyfriend, the one who took something from you and promptly disappeared, only to come back with a furious declaration, on the night you’re supposed to teach Kim Taehyung how to eat pussy.

warnings: rated M (18+) for language, discussions about adult topics; mentions of slut shaming; reader is pansexual; rough angsty smut (fem reader, slight dom/sub themes, m-receiving oral, overstimulation, hair-pulling, cowgirl); regrets everywhere; non-idol!AU; exes-to-lovers; pianist, softsub!Yoongi

inspired by “I get mad when I see you, and even madder when I don't”, wet-haired Yoongi in Run BTS! 131, ONEWE’s song ‘소행성 (Parting)’, and you’re probably wondering how these things go together. 

–

"How do you eat a girl out?"

"I... what?"

"How," Kim Taehyung repeated, slower this time, emphasizing each syllable with his impossibly deep voice. "Do you eat a girl out?"

"Why are you asking me?"

Taehyung raised his eyebrows. "Because you've hooked up with tons of girls. You must have eaten out at least one of them." You blinked at him as he continued. "I figure you have a unique perspective because you're a girl whose probably been eaten out and whose eaten out other girls."

You put down your spicy chicken. "Is this why you offered to buy me lunch?"

Taehyung's giant brown eyes shifted around uncomfortably. "Look," he said in a hushed tone. "I took this girl on a nice date and then it got to the spicy bit–"

"Leading her on, yes, yes, continue."

Taehyung narrowed his eyes at you but ignored your comment, barreling on. "And she asked me to eat her out, but I didn't know what I was doing."

"An absolute tragedy for sex god Kim Taehyung," you mocked. He growled and threw one of his chicken bones in your direction as you laughed. 

"Oi, this is serious!"

You kept cracking up, taking a bite of spicy crispy meat. "Yes, seriously funny." He kept glaring at you, so you relented a little. "She didn't ask for the dick like everyone else?"

Taehyung pouted. "Well, she did, after I spent twenty minutes doing what she called, basically nothing," he scowled. 

You shrugged. "Then you redeemed yourself, so what's the problem?"

Taehyung crouched over the table, stabbing your plastic tray. "The problem is, she's gonna tell other girls I can't eat pussy."

"Nah, she won't," you chewed, relishing the spiciness of the chicken. "She'll be too busy daydreaming about your giant dick."

Taehyung frowned, obviously not believing you. You casually are another piece of chicken, watching him contemplating. He was wearing cream slacks and a beige sweater, casually handsome with his dark brown hair, long enough to curl around his eyebrows. His fried chicken was already demolished into bones. He always got his not spicy. 

You never understood that. 

"Why didn't you ask me to eat you out?"

You shrugged. "We were only hooking up. I wanted to sit on your dick like everyone else."

"Teach me."

Your fingers were turning bright red with the crispy breading on the meat. You could feel the tingle of the spice on your puffy lips and throat, a measured fire burning. You didn’t bother to reach for your drink. Better to lull in the fire for a bit.

"Taehyung, it's just practice."

"Then let me practice on you."

You sucked out a bit of chicken from your teeth as you gave him a disbelieving look. "Thought your policy was to never fuck twice?"

He shrugged. "Not technically a fuck? Besides, you're the Sex Teacher," he added with a snicker.

You rolled your eyes. "Ugh, don't call me that. Some dudes started calling me that just because I took some guy's virginity."

"You've probably taken several virginities with your track record."

"Speak for yourself."

"Do you or do you not know how to eat a girl out?" Taehyung asked, brown eyes boring into you.

You picked up the toothpick the restaurant had provided you and stuck it between your teeth. Brushed the crumbs off your flannel dress and picked up your tray, standing up. 

"'Course I do."

-

Thus, you were now in your apartment with Kim Taehyung, several days later, wondering why you agreed to this nonsense. 

"Do I just whip off your pants or what?"

You rolled your eyes, keeping a firm grip on your gray sweatpants. He had arrived in a long black coat and brown turtleneck, black billowy slacks. Kicked his shoes off and presented you with said question.

"What do I get out of this?" you grumbled, turning around and heading into your apartment, shivering a little because of your loose white t-shirt that you had cut in half ages ago, turning it into a crop top. It had a stain at the bottom, so what better way to fix it than chop it off? Still, you should have opened the front door with your hoodie on, but it would warm up soon with the door now closed. 

"What do you what? Money?"

"I'm not a prostitute, Taehyung," you muttered. "Even if you think I am."

"I don't," Taehyung said coolly. "But money happens to buy things, so maybe you want some to buy something for yourself."

You pursed your lips, grabbing your mint thermos of warm water. It was a bit weird, but you preferred warm water over most drinks, except soda. But you couldn't be binging on soda all day, unfortunately, so you tried not to buy it and stuck with the water. Kept you from getting diabetes. Damn you, weak human body!

"Nice nips."

You raised an eyebrow as you took a sip. You weren't wearing a bra. Your hard nipples were poking through the t-shirt thanks to the cold.

"Are they distracting your fragile mind?"

Taehyung smiled, dark curls around his teasing brown eyes. "No, I'm simply appreciating them. A lot."

You looked down. Taehyung opened his coat. You sucked in the side of your lip, seeing his bulge. Maybe he was too chill with you now. Ever since you two realized your sex partners overlapped, a strange friendship developed. You’d talk about it casually with him, as if you two were discussing Pokémon trading cards instead of one-night stands. He would advise you against so-and-so and you would warn him about who-the-fuck-ever. Of course, you two only figured that out after you sat on his dick, but, hey, it was a nice dick. Lived up to the hype.

Unlike Taehyung, you didn't really have any weird rules when it came to hooking up. You went with the flow, and if you were feeling it, then you did it. Didn't really matter who it was, what gender, if they wanted to be upside down on a park bench as you sucked their balls and they jacked off into their own face (happened once, was kind of interesting to be honest). Taehyung, however, had some kind of conquest thing going on, numbers and all that, and needed everyone to know he was good at it. Insanely good. Mind-blowingly good. 

Taehyung closed his coat, tilting his head. "Whatchu want then? Not another fuck. Something else."

Your doorbell rang. 

"Oh, for fuck’s sake," you muttered, slamming your thermos down and marching to the door. "What is this, a fucking zoo, I swear–"

You wrenched the door open. 

"Fuck you."

Slightly slurred, husky, deep. 

Okay, well, yeah, sure, after I teach Taehyung how to–

The black head of hair raised and your thought disintegrated into pure shock.

"I get mad when I see you," the man growled. "And even madder when I don't."

He was holding a half-full bottle of soju.

"I... what?" was your incredibly weak reply, because you were staring at the hunched form of Min Yoongi. Black hair longer than the last time you saw him, styled over a clean undercut, wearing a torn-up black bomber jacket and a green t-shirt, acid-wash jeans with giant holes, revealing his pink, slightly bruised knees. He was breathing hard, glaring at you. 

Accusing you. 

Suddenly the years without him felt like an eternity.

"Hyung?!"

Oh right. Taehyung existed. 

But you couldn't react, couldn't breathe, starstruck, awestruck, dumbstruck at seeing Min Yoongi at your doorstep. Yoongi cocked at eyebrow, looking past you, and Taehyung's body was suddenly pressed against your back, reminding you, yes, he was real, actually there, why was he there again? What was life?

"Hyung, holy shit! I haven't seen you in ages, since..." Taehyung's voice suddenly died, baritone vanishing into nothing. 

"Why the fuck is he here?" Yoongi grunted.

"I... was going to ask her to–"

"He was leaving," you interrupted, shoving Taehyung from behind you to in front of you. "Taking his coat and leaving."

"What?" Taehyung sputtered, brown eyes wide, confused, blinking rapidly. "Hyung, why do you have a bottle of soju–"

Yoongi clicked his tongue, very loudly. 

"Forget this."

He turned, but Taehyung grabbed his arm. 

Not you.

Taehyung stopped Yoongi. 

The world was so cold. Your arm outstretched but touching nothing, because Taehyung was faster, Taehyung was closer, and you were so very far away from Min Yoongi. Yoongi turned his head slowly, venom in his gaze. 

"Hyung."

Yoongi's eyes locked with yours, making you breathless. 

"I don't understand," Taehyung said quietly. "What's going on? I thought you didn't care about her."

Those cat-like eyes narrowed, expression cold and emotionless. "Is that what you told them?"

It was airless and then the world burst into flames.

"You didn't tell me until the last day," you hissed, curling your hands into fists, voice rising. "You told all your friends, but you didn't tell me until the last day, not until the very last second before you flew to fucking Europe to go to university for that fucking music program!"

Taehyung's eyes widened. "Y-You said she didn't care..."

"Fuck you, Min Yoongi," you snarled, every muscle in your arms tensing, remembering all the moments, the gentleness that turned to coldness, the last night and what he took from you, turning into years and years of not caring about anything, fucking everything in sight, anyone who said yes, trying to forget his kiss and his memory before he got on a fucking plane and flew time zones away, never trying to contact you after. 

"Fuck you for thinking you can be angry at me for any reason at all, fuck you for thinking I did anything, fucking anything, to deserve that shit, taking my fucking virginity and leaving me!"

"I didn't take your virginity," Yoongi spat back, spinning around, hair bristling. "You lost it to that–"

"Maybe you should have fucking asked me instead of believing stupid fucking rumors!"

The human body was useless, but also driven by emotion, and you didn't even feel cold anymore, years of anger piled up, rumors that you were a whore, so you became that whore, owning it, doing it all, because why did it fucking matter when everyone already thought that? Sex Teacher they called you and your first teacher was standing in front of you, completely clueless. 

Fucking idiot.

Yoongi glared at you. You glared back. 

Taehyung stood there, gawking.

Yoongi's eyes dropped. He shoved the half-empty bottle of soju into Taehyung's arms and pushed Taehyung aside, Taehyung flailing to prevent dropping the glass bottle, and closed the distance between you and him, and now you could see, older, more tired, still handsome, still the same dreamer from years ago who traced your fingers and placed them on the keys, slowly helping you play the notes even though you didn’t know jack shit, and you enthralled with his smile, his laugh, his dream of becoming a world-renowned pianist.

Yoongi grabbed your face and kissed you. 

The first was the scent of alcohol, a subtle sweetness on his lips, but alcohol nonetheless. The second was the softness, the faint flush of his cheeks paired with his lips on yours, dainty despite the strength in grip on your cheeks. The third. 

Heat.

The years-old iceberg of 'I-don't-give-a-shit' melting faster than the polar ice caps, sheets and sheets of ice crashing into the sea of emotions, youth and stubbornness combined, melted in his kiss, you grabbing a fistful of his shirt and yanking him in your apartment, Taehyung calling after you both.

"Um, guys? Hello?"

"Go drinking Taehyung," Yoongi growled and slammed the door. 

-

Taehyung held the half-bottle of soju.

What now?

What about his reputation?

He frowned. 

Maybe he should call up Park Jimin. 

Taehyung took a sip of the soju as he walked away. He made a disgusted face. Ugh. Why did hyung like such strong shit? The flavor was unique and rich, but his throat felt like a layer of skin was being sloughed off.

One would only drink something like this if they were depressed. 

Oh.

-

"Your reputation precedes you."

"Fuck off."

"You became quite a woman."

"And you're still an insensitive shit."

You yanked his jacket off and dumped it on the floor, fists back in his green shirt, biting his lip, kissing him hard, him gasping in your mouth, his hands on your breasts, kneading them through the t-shirt, fingertips brushing over your hard nipples, sparks of pleasure crackling through you. 

"I was trying to protect you," Yoongi snarled, just as angry as you, both frustrated at time lost, both knowing it was for the best, both realizing that his misunderstanding and your reaction was just shitty communication of stubborn youth and time past that couldn't reset.

But still. 

Anger doesn't care about reason. 

"Protect me, my ass," you scowled, dragging him into your kitchen, pinning him against the counter. "What do you think I am, emotional fragility queen?"

"You wouldn't have cared?" he shot back, gripping your shirt and flinging it up, sucking in a breath as he revealed your tits. 

"Obviously! Why would I spend years being a slut to forget about your stupid hands?" you scowled, grabbing his wrists, planting said hands on your breasts, shuddering at the cold touch, chilled by night air, not exactly the same hands as back then, but better, rougher, strength of a man and not a high school boy, thumb and index finger rolling your hard nipples. Once again, fistfuls of his shirt, shaking him aggressively through heavy breaths. "You and your stupid mouth."

Kissing him, not the same, but better, stronger, more intense, stained with alcohol and regrets, devouring your tongue hungrily, intertwining.

"It would have ended the same," Yoongi murmured, the hurt creeping in his grating voice. 

It would have. 

And that was the shittest bit.

Knowing that even if he told you earlier that it would hurt no less, knowing that you would have gone and fucked other people anyway, because even if you tried to make it long distance, it wouldn't have worked. Some people could do it, but not young you and young Yoongi, too immature to know the meaning of wait.

"Still gives you no right to believe the words of others instead of asking me outright," you muttered, bending him backwards on the counter with your weight and he was letting you do it, hands still glued to your tits. "Why would believe that shit?"

"Because it was easier to leave you that way," Yoongi admitted, shame flitting in his dark eyes. 

"Fucking shit, you're an idiot."

You already knew that. Guessed, after years of agonizing over it. Easier to be angry than understanding. Easier to feel pain than to acknowledge it. What could you do? Tell him not to go to Europe? Not when his parents, his family, his friends, his neighbors, fuck, the whole damn school was ecstatic and congratulatory for him, everyone except you, not because you didn’t want Yoongi to follow his dreams, but because you wanted him to stay.

With you.

Selfishly.

And so, it was so much easier to be mad, so much easier for the two of you to fight until he tumbled on top of you, kissing you, tearing off your clothes as you tore off his and the first time hurt, it hurt but not as much as you thought, maybe because there was so much adrenaline from the anger and because he was so careful and loving about it.

He really was.

And there was pain, but it was nothing compared to the pain you felt the next day and the day after, and the next month, years, numbing everything, agreeing to really stupid propositions like the thing with Taehyung, all because you knew and he knew, but you both chose to be mad over being reasonable.

You hauled Yoongi up onto your kitchen counter, him kicking the side of the cabinets to lift himself up, not speaking. One look in his eyes and you saw yourself reflected in them, so close to tears that you kept your mouth shut and he kept his shut, preferring the anger to the sadness.

Because deep down, you were so, so happy to see Yoongi again.

It didn’t discount any of the wrongs though.

You fumbled with the button of his jeans and his hands came to help, unzipping, fingertips tracing over yours, more agile than before, swifter than an amateur. You raised your head, locking your gaze with his.

Yoongi was panting, cheeks flushed, guilt consuming his features.

It stung.

You yanked his pants down unceremoniously, not caring right now about stupid young you and stupid young Yoongi, gripping his underwear and dragging them down, his hard cock springing up, bigger than you remembered, thicker, red tip twitching, still wanting it just as bad, not looking at his face and closing your mouth in on it, gripping his hips and pulling him closer for better leverage. His scent and moan encompassed you, your eyes shutting as your tongue circled around his hot length, swallowing it up, oh so good, so good, better than anyone else’s because it was the one you tried to forget, entranced by the way Yoongi’s cock slid down your throat and filled your mouth, hearing his ecstasy from your touch, gasps of pleasure as you began to bob your head up and down, tongue going from the bottom of the head, down the quivering veins, all the way to the base, nudging his balls with the tip of your tongue, a skill you learned from many, many blowjobs.

You opened your eyes and you knew your guilt was in them. Yoongi could see it with every mouthful of his cock disappearing into your lips, his eyes half-lidded and pupils dilated, empathizing.

“Yeah, so what if we’ve fucked other people?” he grunted, rolling his hips into your face and making you growl in your chest. “I could care less.”

Yeah, you could, and me too.

Faster and tighter, suffocating him with your mouth, hands flat on the counter, blowing him at the same spot you were eating a fucking salad two hours ago before Taehyung’s arrival and contemplating tongue techniques, back when your iceberg of uncaring was still intact but now it was part of the ocean of emotions once more, watching Yoongi unravel, rubbing his fists into the granite, crying out and arching his back, black hair fanning out with every harsh swallow and throat clench around the head, leaking pre-cum into your throat and throbbing into the roof of your mouth.

“F-Fuck me…”

He hissed out your name and snapped his chin to his chest, thrusting into your mouth, exploding, salty thickness coating your tongue and down your tight throat, you gulping it down with a choked gasp, his taste a part of you now after all this time, an edge of bitterness that you welcomed, who knew what the fuck he was eating before this, but you didn’t care, didn’t care, you had Yoongi’s cock in your mouth and every second was worth it.

Your tongue coated the head, collecting the dribbling cum and you swallowed that too, glaring at him. Lowering down once more, swallowing him to the base once again, him sucking in a pained breath at the sensitivity because your throat was unforgiving, constricting him as forcefully as you could, tongue sliding up, teasing right under the head, the thin skin that make Yoongi squirm and hiss under you, spreading the slit with the tip of your tongue. Yoongi slapped his palms onto the counter, clenching his jaw to avoid screaming.

But he didn’t stop you.

He simply watched you with pained eyes, letting you do whatever you wanted, thrashing under your merciless mouth, rutting the sensitive head against the roof of your mouth roughly, his body thrashing to try to get away, but still Yoongi said nothing, thin moans escaping his closed lips, even twisting his hips back and rocking them into your face to let you abuse him more, manhandling him to your heart’s content. You kept going, long agonizing minutes, strongly sucking the head, shoving it all the way to the back of your throat, teasing it with your tongue, swirling around and around, pressure, roughness, tightness, aggravating the sensitive skin until you saw Yoongi on the verge of tears.

He still didn’t stop you.

You retreated, your lips now only around the head, tongue ghosting over the pulsating, inflamed tip, drenching it with saliva.

“You deserved that,” you muttered.

“I deserve a lot of things,” Yoongi grunted, finally relaxing his shoulders and laying flat against the counter, panting hard, cheeks still flushed, staring at the ceiling.

Neither of you were saying sorry.

You gave him one last painful suck and he swore under his breath, but didn’t say anything else, biting his lip hard as you popped your mouth off his cock. For a few moments, there was nothing but oppressive, irate panting. Yoongi’s dick was still hard and sticking straight up, he himself spread out on your kitchen counter like a fucking buffet, still wearing his shirt and half-wearing his jeans. You were shirtless, tits out, gray sweatpants slung low on your hips.

“When are you going back?”

Yoongi was still staring at the ceiling.

“Don’t know.”

“Liar.”

Dark eyes flickered down.

“If you asked me five minutes ago, the answer would have been in two weeks.”

Your eyes narrowed, boring into his. “How many blowjobs have you gotten overseas, huh? One hundred? Five hundred?” Frustration, grief, vehemence, all rolled into one, turning your voice into ice, sheets of frozen water churning and reforming, snapping together one by one with each word, your hands coming up and digging your nails into his thighs, racking them down, bright red scratches in your wake. “How many people have you fucked? Do you think I’m fucking stupid, Yoongi?”

He gritted his teeth, screwing his eyes shut, fingers curling onto fists at the pain.

“I really thought you didn’t care,” was his distressed hiss.

You stopped; nails sunk into his pale skin, creating dark crescents with how hard you were pressing.

“I thought you would hate me forever.”

Your hands left his thighs, glaring scarlet lines of your pain on his skin now.

“And I thought it would get better, but it didn’t.”

His fingers uncoiled, one by one. Long, deft digits, practiced, trained, beautiful, crescents of pink from his own nails in his palm. Eyes opening, lash by lash, lifting, dark, pained, regretful, drifting down to you and his exposed, still-hard cock, just there, ignored, surrounded by scratch marks.

“I was mad that you didn’t try to contact me,” Yoongi mumbled. “And madder at myself for not trying to contact you.”

Ice cracking, melting off, crashing back down into the vast ocean of emotion.

You reached into your pocket.

Your name, tumbling from his lips, his eyes shifting to you.

“In between countless partings, the one I always remembered was you.”

You climbed onto the counter, sweatpants and underwear on the floor. Yoongi’s eyes widened in shock, so stunned that he couldn’t stop staring at you, knees, thighs, crotch – clean, you were always clean-shaven, but he didn’t know that, a habit you developed without him and now you felt weird with hair down there – and so he could see everything, wet lips glistening. Up to your waist, a pattern of small moles above your bellybutton that high-school Yoongi had danced his fingers over.

Saying, “My Milky Way, my galaxy.”

This was after you called him an insensitive bastard and he accused you of losing your virginity to some athletic jock kid, as if high-school you would ever have a chance with someone like that.

Up your tits, your collarbones, your face.

Determined.

Yoongi jumped, realizing you had wrapped your hand around his cock and pumped it a few times before rolling down the condom, angling your pussy above the purple-red head. He made eye contact with you.

“I can’t go back if you do this,” he whispered.

“Boo-fucking-hoo, shut your trap.”

You sank down and he clamped his jaw shut, veins on his neck popping out in strain as Yoongi tried not to cry, your previous ministrations amplifying the sudden hot, wet pleasure that overwhelmed him, you sighing in bliss as he filled you, nicer than before, better because you knew what to do now, relaxing your muscles before pulsing around him, his eyelids fluttering, whines in his throat, palms flat on the granite, such beautiful hands that you reached down and put them on your thighs, wanting him to touch you.

Dark brown eyes shaking, pupils dilated, fingernails digging into your skin.

“Isn’t that what you do? Use your hands all day?” you taunted.

He gripped your thighs tight, apology flashing across his features.

“You better not cum before I do,” you snapped, rocking your hips a little.

Yoongi sucked in a breath. “I’ll try.”

You leaned forward, one hand on the counter, the other closing in on his black hair. Twisting the black locks in your fingers, gripping so hard your knuckles were white, but you weren’t pulling on his hair, only holding it, but your eyes told him everything.

“You fucking owe me.”

Him staring into your blazing eyes.

“I owe you for the rest of my life.”

You rolled your hips into his crotch, hard, smacking your ass down on his balls and he whimpered, jerking his head to the side and pulling his own hair, whimper turning into a wounded gasp.

“Shut the fuck up. We both know you deserved that scholarship, you talented asshole.”

You began your pace, bruising and intense from the start, unforgiving, but you had already forgiven him, years ago, by yourself with no one else to know, now your hand in his hair with Yoongi writhing under you, causing his own pain flaring across his scalp because your grip was so tight, his hands on your thighs, his length sliding out and then shoved back in. You could feel him getting harder, swelling more, the sensation unbearable so he kept igniting the pain to prevent himself from orgasm. You made sure to let the maximum amount of your skin to hit him – clit on his crotch, pussy enveloped around his cock, the tip hitting your deepest, most pleasurable spot, ass smacking against his balls – so that even you moaned, shivers of ecstasy layering on top of each other, climbing notes of a song from long ago.

Now continuing.

From that night at your parents’ house that bedroom of painful and lovely memories, his hands on your wrists, telling you that he could go slow until you felt better, how could he not know? Yoongi just assumed it was because you weren’t aroused since you were so angry at him, and you never accused him of having any experience before you, and to be honest you didn’t give a shit; if that was society’s fault or your feelings for him, you didn’t know. It all seemed so foolish back then, stupid, why were you so attached to a high-school boy when there were thousands of other men and women out there, and you tried, you fucked them, but in the end.

In the end, it wasn’t the roars of pleasure or multiple orgasms or big dicks or sweet pussy that made you feel the same as you felt when you looked down at Yoongi, eyes rolling back, biting his lip so hard the skin was white, black hair bunched around your fingers, his fucking green t-shirt still on but you could tell every muscle was tensed and he was barely breathing, anything to prevent himself from orgasm, knuckles white on your thighs, clutching them so hard they would surely leave bruises, but you didn’t care.

Yoongi was a genius. He could play the piano like no one else.

Someone could be technically better, someone could be more experienced, someone could be more nuanced, but no one felt music like Yoongi felt music, no one loved piano like how Yoongi loved piano.

He deserved every cent, every experience, every year he spent overseas.

He seemed to feel your gaze on him and his eyes found yours, black pupils nearly overtaking the irises, sweating so bad that his t-shirt was soaking down the front.

“Hold on,” you breathed. “Hold on for me, Yoongi.”

He whined pathetically.

Did he love you as much as he loved piano or was it the soju talking?

Who are you kidding?

Yoongi would never love you as much as the piano.

You set your jaw and leaned down a little more, bending his cock the tiniest bit, more leverage to go harder, rougher, rolling your spine down, smack! Onto his crotch, Yoongi’s mouth flying open and crying out your name in shock, your knees screaming on the harsh granite but you didn’t care, fucking Yoongi for all you were worth, using every muscle and every technique you knew to apply as much pressure as you could, choking his dick. Yoongi’s hands jolted off your thighs, hitting your open thermos on the counter, both of your forgetting it was there this whole time, the double-walled, stainless steel, mint thermos.

It toppled and spewed warm water all over your thighs, your joined crotches, part of his shirt, probably leaking down his ass and onto the counter.

You yelped at the sudden unexpected wet warmth. Yoongi’s hips jerked up, wild moan escaping his lips and your pussy spasmed, orgasm plummeting into you, a sudden avalanche that made your eyes roll back and a guttural groan vibrate your chest, both hands inadvertently clasping and yanking on Yoongi’s hair, and he lost it, whining your name as he came, hard cock lurching and convulsing against your walls, shooting his load into the condom, his cries extending to wanton, pained moans. It took everything in you to at least loosen your fingers, spreading them on his scalp and holding his head as gently as you could, whole body shuddering, even your jaw, not able to say his name properly because your teeth were clattering uncomfortably against each other.

You closed your eyes.

Listening to Yoongi’s strained breathing. Hearing pain, sadness, his raspy voice from long ago, words in the seconds before you feel asleep in his arms from being worn out from anger and losing your virginity. All this time, wanting to believe it was silence, wanting to believe he said nothing, letting yourself believe in your lie to fuel your rage.

“I am sorry.”

You opened your eyes, lowering your chin. Yoongi’s dark orbs, glassy and spent, trying to focus on your face. His hand came up, still wet with the spilled water, and you realized you had pitched forward a little from the force of your orgasm.

His fingers danced on the small mole pattern above your bellybutton.

“My Milky Way. My galaxy,” he whispered softly.

Lovingly.

Guilt all over his face.

“I have to go back. I have performances, opportunities.”

You leaned down. “Stop lying, Yoongi.” Eyes locked with his and a smile. “You want to go back. Because you are an ambitious, talented asshole.”

You knew you were right. You could see it in his eyes, the quickness as he looked away, not wanting to face you. You slumped down, knees giving out, Yoongi’s cock half-buried in you, slowly softening, but it didn’t matter. You put your full weight on him, fitting your chin on his shoulder, not quite looking at his face, nose far too close to your fucking kitchen counter. Yoongi grunted uncomfortably, but didn’t tell you to get off. There was water everywhere and the mint thermos was on the tile floor and somehow neither of you had noticed. It must have made a very loud sound.

“I hate my job anyway. Might as well run away to a different continent for some stupid boy.”

“I can’t ask you to come with me.”

“I’m not asking.”

He chuckled.

“You really have changed.”

“Sucks for you.”

You felt his arms wrap around your waist.

“Guess so.”

-

“Why was Taehyung here anyway?”

“I was supposed to show him how to eat pussy.”

Yoongi blinked at you, holding a damp rag. Both of you were kneeling on the floor, naked, attempting to sop up the mess. “How?”

“He was going to practice on me.”

“I can give a live demonstration instead,” Yoongi growled, an edge possessive.

“Yeah, no, I think my night is booked. Emergency appointment.”

You picked up your kitchen towels and wrung them out in your sink, looking down at him, raising your eyebrow. Yoongi’s hair was messy and curled, wet from sweat and water. He gazed up at you. You saw him shiver. You kept your expression neutral despite your heartbeat racing.

“Have some catching up to do.”

--

masterpost

[baka-writings]

𝐖𝐞𝐔𝐬 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐬

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: smut, a bit kinky at times

A/N: I did it like ONEUS, 3 some with ONEWE and vice versa

This just purely my opinion and I don't know what I'm doing, pls save me also the pairings are questionable as well

Also this is just a reaction how they'd react, but I might write something more detailed about each If anyone would like?

𝐘𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐧

You tell him you wanna have a threesome with Youngjo.. out of nowhere

He'd rise an eyebrow and smirk at how random that was?

Okay but to be f-cking honest, I'm pretty sure he'd be into that

Wouldn't admit it before you brought it up tho

"so you are into that huh?"

he'd make sure that happens

would give you smirks from time to time until it happens

but of course would make sure you're 100% sure with that

when he's sure it's really what you want, well you better get ready cuz neither of these men is stopping

𝐑𝐚𝐯𝐧

okay we know how much this man loves himself

so when you told him you'd want to try to have some fun with Yonghoon, he'd probably say no right away

cuz ya know, no other handsome and hot man should ever touch you like he does

BUT-

after you mentioned that he'd be thinking about it and the idea would lowkey turn him on

so after some time he might being it up again and try to make it happen

but would be a bit harder on you tbh as Yonghoon is a dom himself, Youngjo needs to show who you belong to

just sayin

𝐒𝐞𝐨𝐡𝐨

alrighty when you told him you'd want to have a threesome with Harin

it could go 2 ways

first, he'd awkwardly smile and question you

"oh? what was that?"

second, he'd ask you questions like

"since when are you into that?"

"I didn't know you felt like that about my friends, who else do you see like that?"

this all with that smirk of his

honestly, don't lie to yourself, you'd be lowkey flustered lmao

cuz he's exposing you

anyway, this threesome might actually happen ;) good luck

𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐧

you tell him you wanna have a threesome with Seoho

he gives you the most dirty smirk you've ever seen

not even kidding

he's into that, obviously

and finding out you like that too makes his mind even more wild

"are you sure you can handle it?"

smirks

well no, you probably can't handle it, but well 🤷🏻‍♀️

this would come sooner than you'd expect tbh

𝐋𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐨

you tell him you'd want to have a threesome with Kanghyun as you think he's cute and would match you guys pretty well

okay honestly, I don't think Geonhak would agree

not right away

he'd want to, but also no ?? ya get me

but on the other hand I think he'd be more vocal about it and talk it out properly with you

he might be thinking about trying it, but then wouldn't do it

i think he would do it if it was one of his members, probably Youngjo

okay bUT even though this would not happen, he might surprise you for your birthday and being Kanghyun over ;) you never know

𝐊𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧

honestly, I don't see Kanghyun kinky at all

maybe some softer kinks, but nothing extreme

so when you asked him to have a threesome with Leedo he'd be kinda shocked

as he'd not expect such question and never really though about it

oh man i honestly can't see him agreeing to that

maybe but only MAYBE If it was what you really wanted, but still not sure

"you know I love you, but can't we try something else instead?"

𝐊𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐡𝐞𝐞

"wHAT?" *insert a Keonhee shocked meme*

would be his reaction when you asked him to have a threesome with Dongmyeong

"You know that's my member's twin right?"

You'd nod

"It's like inviting Dongju"

he'd spend hours talking about it, already lowkey forgetting why he started talking about it in the 1st place

okay but when you remind him he'd still have the same reaction

i don't see him being into this that much honestly and i feel like he'd get a bit jelly if there was Dongmyeong doing something only hE is supposed to to

𝐇𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐰𝐨𝐨𝐧𝐠

this bitch-

i mean he'd be so intrigued honestly

you want Dongmyeong? Okay he's in

you want Harin? Okay he's also in

he'd want to try and experiment with such things so you bringing this up would make his thoughts go wild

whatcha know, maybe he will like it and it won't be a one time thing ;)

but as much as he might enjoy it, i think if this was about to happen he'd only probably want onewe members, not his own

just because that way he might end up not being in control which would result in whining

a lot

𝐃𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐦𝐲𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐠

okay so, he'd also be intrigued when you asked him to have a threesome with Hwanwoong

honestly I don't think he was thinking about this before you'd mentioned it

but now he is thinking about it and he likes it

"have long have you been thinking about this?"

he'd ask you with one eyebrow rised (you know what I'm talking aboutㅠㅠ)

and also

"I didn't know you were this kinky"

he'd ask Hwanwoong kinda awkwardly first tbh, what he thought about the idea

however this time i see him being more on the dom side, just because you have a company and he can't let anyone else be in charge but him

or you can try to be in charge, If you're are ready for two whining boys lmao

𝐗𝐢𝐨𝐧

okay no matter who you suggest, it's a no

mr. pillow princ(ess) right here would not allow for some reasons tbh

first, then he'd actually have to do something

second, I think he wouldn't be confident in himself If there was another person involved, especially his older members/friends

would be a bit embarrassed ngl

and also a brat

would whine each time you'd touch the other person

and If you didn't pay attention to him right away he'd be the brattiest bitch ever

loving him

𝐂𝐲𝐚

okay hear me out

he's shy and young, right

bUt I have a strong gut feeling that he might be a bit more kinky than we see him rn (as he's shy)

i think, when you asked him to have a threesome with Keonhee (??) he'd agree

of course would be shy af, but he'd really want to try

oh and also, don't @ me yet again but I'm sure he'd be thinking about some of these kinky stuff before

but kinda wouldn't know how to approach you with it

so as for Giwook, it's a yes

[inthediamondsky]

SHINee in the Good Place:

lesson 4 - so what even are SOULMATES?

note: this is my favorite quote from The Good Place! and I use it to illustrate an important point... it really bothers me when people say that the SHINee members aren’t close with each other because of the above quote. first of all, the lyrics to “Our Page” are the most beautiful, honest, and touching lyrics about a group of people that I’ve ever heard. so there’s that.

second of all, we’re not living in a fucking rom-com. relationships, especially long lasting ones, whether they are familiar, platonic, or romantic, are really hard to maintain. like seriously, relationships are FUCKING DIFFICULT. one of my favorite things about SHINee, ever, is that they’ve never been unrealistic when describing their relationships with one another. all five of them have drastically different personalities, some of them fought when they were trainees (minkey), some of them never thought they would be in the same team (onkey), some of them never wanted to be in the same team (minkey again), and at least two of them have said publicly that living together in a dorm - and for several years, all in one room - was hellish (jongkey). as someone who is both extroverted and loves spending time with friends AND is very particular about personal space and alone time, this makes complete sense to me. but they adapted to each other so that they could continue working together, and somewhere along the line they developed a unique relationship that “is hard to put into words.” (as kibum said in his 2020 cosmopolitan interview)

sometimes, kpop feels like a competiton to see which group can say that they are the closest the most. but a real relationship isn’t about the number of times you can gush about being “an inseparable family” in front of a camera. the real work is done behind the scenes, and honestly, fans will never really know exactly what their faves’ relationship is really like. SHINee, the team as we know them, was put together by a company known as SM Entertainment in somewhere around 2007. I can confidently say that I’ve never seen a musical group that made more obvious sense together. on stage, they fill in each other’s gaps flawlessly, as they’ve said and as I felt when watching their concerts live. it’s like onew said in 2018: “we all always had the same goal... we were all at our happiest when we were together on stage.” but it’s pretty clear that their personal relationships weren’t always so magically seamless. and that’s okay!

in 2018, when asked about why SHINee has been able to go on for so long, kibum said: “버텼기 때문에” or “because we endured.” he went on to say that if each of them had done whatever they wanted to at the time, with no concern for the others, they probably wouldn’t have been sitting there together as a ten-year old group. instead, they held back their impulses as best they could and put in the time together. they adjusted to each other and tried to understand and accept each other’s differences. it reminded me of what Michelle Obama said in her autobiography, Becoming, about how her marriage to Barack Obama (yes, the most famous shawol in the world) never wavered in the face of immense public and private pressures: “You find ways to adapt. If you’re in it forever, there’s really no choice.” now that’s a really fucking realistic look at lifelong relationships.

in the end, for whatever reason, SHINee decided they were in it for the long haul. and then they adapted. they made it work. they’ve made wonderful music and awe-inspiring performances together, and their relationship has stood the ultimate test of time. and I happen to think that is so, so beautiful.

oh, and here’s my favorite ot5 picture! idk what that says about me, but enjoy~

💓💖💗💘💕💝💞💝💘💗💖💓💗💞💗💓💘💖

[synthetickitsune]

Omg your yonghoon fics are just *chef's kiss*. Can you do 13 and 19 from ur smut prompt list for yonghoon?

Here you go and thank you, anon! You're sweet ♡

Yonghoon (Onewe) | Not allowed to touch & Slow and sensual smut | 0.8k

Somebody must’ve exchanged your boyfriend for his perfect copy. That’s the only explanation you can come up with. He’s smirking against your lips, his hips barely grinding into yours. He only hums a little broken noise when you clench around him, your pleads falling on deaf ears. Who’s this man?

“I like it when you’re like this,” Yonghoon whispers, barely parting from your lips. There’s still a hint of sleepiness in his gaze, which only makes you wonder more what got him into this mood.

“Babe, please,” you whine again, arching your back as he rubs against the perfect spot inside you. And only because of that. Not because you want to touch him in any way you can. You try to wriggle your hands out of his grip above your head, without success.

“See, that’s exactly what I mean,” he smiles, a sly grin on his lips, “So cute.” He dips his head down, kisses your neck when you tilt your head to give him more space. All the while he continues his sweet torture. It feels good, better than it should. He moves so languidly, like he has all the time in the world to make love to you. You feel so full in more ways than one. The slow rocking of his hips allows you to really feel him, to focus not just on the pleasure, but also the way he tries to keep his breathing steady, on his blown out pupils when he looks at you, and the adoration in his eyes when your gazes meet. He kisses you and his lips are so soft.

"Please touch me, please let me touch you," you whimper quietly, begging him with your eyes. He raises your hand to your cheek, caressing your skin as he considers your request. His thumb strokes over your cheek in time with his lazy thrusting and it’s heaven. It’s too sweet, but you forgive him. It’s still morning, after all.

"Choose one," he smiles. The confounded look you give makes him giggle. "Just one. Let's try something new."

"Isn't it too early for that?" you try to argue, but he shakes his head and stops moving, drawing another cute mewl from your lips. “Touch me then, you’ll beg me to touch you too, soon.”

“Hmm, if you think so,” he kisses your cheeks and lets go of your wrists, “Don’t touch.” It’s a playful warning, but you fully intend to obey him. You’re curious how long it’s gonna take before he’s pouting at you and asking for your hands on him. 

Your lover starts rocking his hips again, and you sigh contentedly. He’s finally touching you. His fingertips caress your skin, his eyes follow their path with wonder. He sits back a little so that he can run his hands over your thighs wrapped around his waist and he bites his lips as he grips your flesh. You chuckle, watching him admiring you with nothing but love in his eyes. His hands run back up along your sides, then further still up your arms to tangle his fingers with yours. He squeezes your hands and whines when you don’t do it back.

“That would be touching,” you remind him, a teasing smile on your face. He groans, purposely making his few next thrusts a little harder to make you clench around him and your hands instinctively close around his. You roll your eyes at him, your breath hitches at the way he’s looking at you, all smug. You can’t deny confidence looks good on him.

“You’re mean,” he says softly as he frees his hands and runs them down your body until they ghost over your breasts. You know the combination of his perfectly aimed thrusts and his fingers playing with your nipples would be heavenly, but you resist. You don’t lean into his touch, making him pout just like you’ve expected. Seems you were right all along.

“I’m sorry, please touch me,” he draws patterns on the skin of your stomach, once again stilling inside you. It’s slowly driving you crazy. Maybe that’s why you take Yonghoon’s hands in yours, pulling him close until he’s hovering above you, body on body as you kiss him, arms around his shoulders. Maybe you just love him.

He moans, happily resuming his lazy pace. His hands cup your cheeks, cradling your face tenderly as you kiss. Neither of you’s too keen on pulling away except to moan or gasp when he hits your sweet spot, when you clench around him or when he feels your nails scratch his back. He doesn’t increase his speed, nor does he slow down, simply enjoying the moment with you. His ragged breaths fan your face, mixing with yours when he pulls away to actually breathing instead of kissing you. 

Time seems to cease to exist in the moment, and neither of you would have it any other way.

[latte-fairytaekwoon]

Ateez: Their Little Sister Is A Popular Idol

Kim Hongjoong:

Hongjoong and you debuted roughly around the same time, and fans lived for your sibling interactions because they were just outright hilarious. You would always end up yelling at each other or having cute little banters.

One day, you were both invited on a special sibling episode of Weekly Idol with other idols, such as Jessica and Krystal, Izone's Chaeyeon and Itzy's Chaeryeong, Oneus' Xion and Onewe's Dongmyeong and Ex Boyfriend's Youngmin and Kwangmin. It was filled with competitions and Hongjoong and you just seemed to struggle to work together. It was especially hilarious when you two played the 'Shout In Silence' game.

"Knock Out!!" You shouted once you saw the word, which was coincidentally your debut song.

"Huh?!" Hongjoong couldn't really understood what your lips formed.

"Knock Out!" You repeated, louder this time.

"Blocked cow?!" He asked, unsure of his answer.

"Stop messing around Kim Hongjoong! Think! My debut song! Knock Out!" You were getting desperate.

"Wait what!" Hongjoong asked.

"My debut song!!!"

But Hongjoong stayed silent, his brain trying to think.

"Didn't you watch it?! Knock Out!!!" You hollered even louder.

"Jumped Out?!" He tried answering.

"Kim Hongjoong I will knock you out if you don't get it!!! Knock Out! Knock Out! Ugh! Stupid!" Your voice was hurting at this point.

"Hey!!! I understood 'stupid'!!! I'm older than you!" He warned you.

Yeah, you had the entire set laughing.

Park Seonghwa:

As your older brother, Seonghwa was extremely protective of you growing up and that didn't change even after you debuted. In fact, his desire to protect you intensified. You often complained about it, hating how he was always fussing over you, reminding you to eat healthy and annoying you at times.

Seonghwa lived for it though. His members were even surprised by how soft he turned for you only. And of course fans thought you two were so adorable. Atinys often liked to tease him about it, often asking him about what he'd do when you started dating. That always seemed to annoy him.

"She's not allowed to date until I'm dead." Was his response every time.

Being Seonghwa's sister, of course you were beautiful, and a lot of idols had their eyes set on dating you. But of course, Seonghwa was always there to cockblock them. Even on tv, he had no chill when telling them to back off.

"Seonghwa have you heard the news?" The tv host asked.

"What news?" He asked.

"Well, with your sister acting in the new web drama, there's rumors going around that she's dating her co-star."

Seonghwa's eye twitched at that, and the other members started laughing.

"I don't think he likes that idea." Yunho chuckled.

"Any words about the situation or to her co-star?" The host asked.

Seonghwa looked to the camera for a few seconds before holding his microphone up.

"Over my dead body." He responded causing the members to go into chaotic mode over his response.

Jeong Yunho:

Yunho was the most supportive brother and he often said he was your biggest fan. Any chance he got, he'd promote you and your group, and was always dancing around to your songs. He'd even post dance covers of them, just to show his support. Every interaction you had, whether at music shows, ISAC or variety shows, he was your personal cheerleader.

He was also extremely clingy towards you, often hugging you, tangling his long limbs over your tiny body.

"Let go Yunho! You're squishing me!" You often told him.

"No! Let me love you!" Your protests would only encourage him to squish you even tighter.

Of course, the dancing genes ran strong in your family. Fans often praised your dancing abilities and were often wondering if you two would ever collaborate together to come up with a choreography. That's exactly what they asked Yunho one day when he was reacting to your comeback music video.

"Wow! As usual, Y/N slays the dance. She's getting better than she already was."

He looked at his phone, reading the fan's comments and landed on a particular question everyone was wondering.

"Would we ever create a dance together? Hmmm."

He thought about it for a moment.

"Honestly, I'd love to do it. What do you say baby sis? Wanna help your Oppa create a choreography? Just us two?"

He snickered when he thought about what you'd say when you saw his VLive.

"She's probably going to say no, tell me I'm annoying and to get lost. She has such a temper........"

He paused before smirking.

"You know what they say. Tiny creatures are more feisty cause their tiny bodies can't hold a lot of rage."

"She's going to kill you when she finds out you said that." Yeosang said from behind the camera.

"Probably. She hates being called tiny." Yunho agreed.

Kang Yeosang:

Although Yeosang was super proud of you for debuting, he kept the fact you two were siblings a secret for a long time and honestly you liked it that way too. You were both introverts and preferred to lay low.

Fans of your groups often compared you two, saying how similar you looked, how you were both the savage ones of your groups, even your little habits and love for chicken was extremely similar. Of course, both of you saw their posts and videos comparing you two, and you both cringed when some thought you'd be cute together. That's when you two stepped in and clarified you were siblings. Now it was fan's turn to be shook at the revelation.

And that became the topic when your groups were invited on a variety show. At one point, Ateez was complaining how Yeosang roasts them so much that they're scared of him and can't ever say anything back. You burst out laughing at that.

"He may be my older brother, but I'm not scared of his sharp tongue." You bravely admitted.

That's when the hosts suggested you expose something about your brother, like he did to his members on Weekly Idol. All of Ateez were super excited about the suggestion.

"Try your best. I'm not scared." Yeosang said confidently, but you knew deep down he was nervous about what you would say.

You couldn't help the smirk on your face as you thought about how to embarrass him.

"So my Oppa here, in front of cameras and with his members, likes to be cold and aloof, hating aegyo and skinship......not wanting Seonghwa or Wooyoung to baby him.......but it's a lie."

Everyone gasped at that.

"Cause at home, our parents are always babying him and he basks in their affection. He's always doing aegyo for them too. Atinys don't be fooled. Kang Yeosang is a literal baby."

Everyone started laughing at that, San and Wooyoung standing up and exclaiming that he was such liar and fake.

For once, Yeosang was so flustered at getting exposed, by none other than his little sister. He was speechless.

"Finally! The great Kang Yeosang had a taste of his own medicine!" Mingi exclaimed, having been Yeosang's constant victim.

No one had the power to make Yeosang scared like you did.

Choi San:

Your number 1 hype man, your caring brother, your part time manager, your personal photographer, and your cuddle bug, there's nothing Choi San wouldn't turn himself into for you. Would legit run a fan blog dedicated to you if he could. Is always praising you and saying the sweetest things about you.

Tries to get you to show off more of your skills and talents. You're shy and somewhat quiet, so people tend to look more at the other members, that's why San is always promoting you and encouraging you to not be afraid to show your true colors.

If you two are in public together, he's always holding your hand or holding you close. Yeah, definitely wants pics of you two to circulate the internet. Spoils you to no end. And he enjoys having you spend time with the other members. They adore you as well.

"Isn't she the cutest? The most adorable thing you've ever seen?" He gives you endless aegyo constantly.

"Did you just call me a thing?" You raised an eyebrow at him.

But you can't stay mad at him, not with that sad pout.

That being said, sometimes you do feel embarrassing by him. You're more reserved and somewhat conservative and so used to seeing cute San, that whenever he turns into demon San you're covering your face or screaming loudly.

"Aaahhh! What the heck San!!! What was that? Oh my god!" You screeched one day when you were reacting to one of his fancams.

"What happened to my older brother?! The one that carries Shiber around everywhere?! What have you done to him?!"

You grabbed your bottle of water dramatically and pretended to throw some at the screen.

"Be gone unclean spirit! Off with you!"

That's the one thing you two have in common: you're both super dramatic and so extra over the smallest of things.

Song Mingi:

He's the older one? Really? That's what everyone was thinking when you confirmed you were siblings. It's not that you looked older or him younger, no. It was your personality. You were extremely mature for your age and were often captured taking care of Mingi or scolding him. Naturally, people thought you were the older one.

Mingi honestly didn't mind. He often joked that he was indeed the baby and you were the older one. Every time you got asked why you babied him, it was the same thing.

"Have you seen him? He'd be dead if it wasn't for me. I'm the reason he's alive."

Mingi actually didn't mind you saying those things.

"That's how she shows her love. She knows she enjoys my company."

It was extremely hilarious for fans to see you guys spend time together. You two once did a VLive collaboration and it became a trending topic for days because it was extremely chaotic and funny.

"Mingi! I told you to flip the eggs!" You shouted at him.

"I tried! But it was stuck!" He tried to excuse himself.

"You're just a scaredy cat! Afraid of getting burnt!" You told him as you turned off the stove.

You immediately grabbed a kitchen towel and started fanning it over the smoke that accumulated in the kitchen.

"God! Mingi I know for a fact you have brain cells.....so fucking use them!"

Mingi gasped at your words.

"Y/N! There's a camera!" He reminded you.

You went wide eyed and panicked. Mingi began laughing at your reaction.

"Oh my god! You cussed live in front of fans!"

Mingi was cracking up so hard at what happened. You were so embarrassed by your mistake. You banged your head on the counter.

"Kill me now." You groaned.

Mingi came up behind you and hugged you.

"Hey don't worry little sis. At least now they know not to mess with you."

Finally, Mingi showed that he was indeed your older brother who was always there to comfort you when you needed it.

Jung Wooyoung:

"You're Ateez' Wooyoung's younger sibling right? What's he like as your brother?"

You often got asked that question and it was always accompanied by you sighing.

"Honestly.....he's a pain. I love him, but he's too much."

Yes Wooyoung loved you as well, but he was super annoying and his past time was teasing you to no end. Even if you threatened to smack him, which you did, or threatened to tell your parents, he'd still keep going.

"And here we see our tiny main vocalist getting ready, and like most females, she's going to take an hour on just her hair then spend 45 minutes on foundation, then-"

"Moooom! Wooyoung is narrating my life again!" You interrupted his narration.

"Snitch! Don't you know that snitches get stitches?" Wooyoung exclaimed, pushing the camera he was holding closer to your face.

"Bitches get stitches too.....Bitch!" You glared at him.

"Oooh! You! I should upload this to the internet and let all your fans know their sweet honey vocalist cusses like a sailor." Wooyoung threatened you.

"Do it no balls! Just remember who taught me those words in the first place." You smirked at him.

"......Shit! Why'd you have to inherit my blackmail skills?" Wooyoung said as he finally stopped recording.

Wooyoung was always reacting to your content though, often making fun of you, but he wasn't mean all the time. He often complimented you on your singing abilities. He was always saying you had the voice of an angel. And if there was something he was extremely vocal about was about any hate comments you got. He was quick and eager to call haters out.

"Dying dolphin? Who you calling dying dolphin? Have you even heard a dolphin dying? This is what it sounds like."

Suddenly Wooyoung began screeching at the top of his lungs, startling the member in the next room.

"What the hell are you doing on your VLive Jung Wooyoung?!" Seonghwa called out.

"I'm showing some bastards the difference between a dying dolphin and an angel singing so they can stop saying bullshit!"

Choi Jongho:

Jongho hates people acting cute, doesn't react to his Hyungs doing aegyo, and is never soft with anyone.....except you, his little sister. It was extremely surprising, even for the members of Ateez. You were the complete opposite of Jongho: you were tiny, cute, adorable, full of aegyo and were not afraid to show it off any chance you got. Loona's Chuu and Lovelyz' Kei had nothing on you in cuteness.

It never failed to amaze people how he smiled that bright gummy smile he had every time you did aegyo for him. The first time you did it was during an episode of Idol Room. It was a game of trying to get Jongho to smile, laugh, react to anything and all of the Ateez members failed. Then you came up with your pigtails and bright smile.

"Oppa! Why so angry? Can't you smile for me?"

The whole room burst into screaming and groaning when Jongho immediately smiled for you and patted your head.

"What the heck!" "That's impossible! He hates aegyo!" "This is rigged! That's sibling privilege!" "What the hell did I embarrass myself for?!"

Anytime anyone mentioned you, he'd immediately light up. He was so soft for you.

"Isn't my sister the cutest?"

Don't push him though. He's also very overprotective of you. Anytime he sees an idol staring at you too much, he flexes his muscles. Anytime the members said you looked cute or pretty, he'd warn them he'd split them like apples if they got too close.

Jongho nearly had a heart attack when he was watching your group's comeback with the other members. And it was because your group suddenly changed your cute concept for a more mature and sexy concept. He was flipping tables, literally.

"What did they do to my little sister?! What happened to her space buns and oversized sweaters?! Why is she wearing that short skirt?! Why are you guys staring?! Stop looking at the screen!!"

The others were cracking up at him as he tried to cover the screen with his body.

Gifs not mine, credit goes to their respective owners.

[what-if-nct]

hiiii today's reminder is it's Choi Minho's birthday!!! and his album came out and it's so fucking good. i just. love him so much. he was my first ever bias, before i even knew what a bias was. i just saw him all leather emo in Lucifer and thought "this is my man" and I've stuck by that for half (!!!!!) of my life. i was all of twelve years old when i first saw them, and now I'm twenty four. even when i got out of k pop, I'd check in on him and shinee. when i got back into k pop, it was his acting stuff first then shinee again, then slowly the rest. and like. he's the absolute opposite of my type. he's a hyper competitive dad jokes sports guy. and yet i have such a fondness for him. none of my other celebrity crushes have even come close. and like i don't even have a crush on him, not the way i do, say, Kun or Hoshi. i just straight up love him. and I'm so proud of him and how far he's come and how much love and joy he constantly radiates. ugh i just hope he has the bestestest day now and also always

(also thank you for reminding that that Kun video exists, now i gotta go back and watch the 2022 lore videos just to see that in context, it's my favourite thing in the world)

Happy Birthday Minho!! Also Soon Onews!! His birthday is the day after Taylor Swift's, no that is not how I remember Onews birthday....fine it is. Anyway oh He's really such a special guy, and I love seeing him get competitive. My first time seeing Minho was in the ring ding ding video and I just thought he looked so pretty with his long curly elf hair. He also looked like my friend Antonio from high school who was like my school son even though he had a crush on me. So I kind of just saw Minho as a baby because of that. But like he is actually such a a baby though. He's 31 but still a baby And I'm just so proud of everything he's accomplished and after many years he released his first solo and he's doing so amazing.

[dubububbles]

SHINee scenario: SHINee being stressed out from work and you comforting them

(can you write a SHINee scenario where they're crying/stressed because of work and you comfort them/help them relax? also, im curious, who's your bias? :D)

Requested by anon

- My bias is Onew 🥰 since he’s closest to my own personality and I love his voice so much~ (but It’s sooo difficult having a bias in SHINee since I really do love them all equally!)

Onew:

While Onew was always there for the people around him and gave thoughtful and helpful advice he could be very reluctant to open up about his own struggles, which definitely worried you a lot. 

Since you knew him well you could instantly tell when something was wrong and would then approach him in a careful manner. 

If he was open to talk you would listen and give advice accordingly, and if he wasn’t then you would still be there to support him in whatever other way you could. Either by distracting him and talking about something else or simply by easing his stressful mind with a warm and comforting cuddle, which you knew he was particularly fond of. 

“I’m always here for you if you need me, so please don’t keep things bottled up inside. It’ll only make things worse in the long run.”

Jonghyun:

Whenever Jonghyun had a tough time he wouldn’t hesitate to reach out to or lean on you for support. After all, you shared a very close relationship where you had become each other’s comfort. So, when he told you he was feeling rather anxious and stressed out because of his hectic schedule you would quickly rush to his side to help him calm down. 

“Do you want to talk about it?” 

He subtly shook his head and instead opened his arms, which was your cue to walk over and hug him tightly. Your mere presence alone would instantly fill him with warmth and also sooth out his built up tension. 

He loved to simply hold you in his arms and stay that way for a while. Then by the time he felt calm and collected again he would ultimately open up and talk everything out with you. 

Key:

When Kibum hadn’t texted you as he usually would you already knew something was off but decided to hold off on questioning him until he came home to your shared apartment. By the time he did his expression was rather tense and he looked on the verge of tears. 

“What’s wrong?” 

His response would only be a very long sigh but it was enough. You knew he was a hopeless workaholic at times and despite you reminding him to rest he would still end up wearing himself out like this. 

Part of you wanted to tell him ‘I told you so’ but you decided to save it for later and start by hugging him and rubbing his back as he slowly leaned into you and released some of his built up stress through another long sigh and a faint sob. 

Minho: 

“Is everything okay?” 

After you returned home to find your usually cheerful boyfriend in tears it definitely surprised you and also made you feel very concerned. Instead of waiting for a response or an explanation you simply walked over to sit down next to him on the couch and then engulfed him in a hug. 

He leaned into you, welcoming your comforting warmth and allowed you to console him in silence until he had calmed down significantly. You knew he would open up on his own when he was ready, so you just needed to be patient. 

When he did start talking and shared everything that was on his mind you would listen attentively while rubbing his back and also offer him your best advice. 

In the end you were able to put a smile on his face and your previous concern was then quickly replaced by relief. 

Taemin: 

When you showed up to the dance studio where the two of you had planned to meet you were excited at first, since you hadn’t seen each other in a while due to his busy schedules, but it quickly faded as you found him in a distraught state. 

It was the first major clue that something wasn’t right but despite you pointing it out he attempted to shrug it off as if it was nothing, telling you that he was just tired and that his schedule had been hectic lately. 

“I understand if you don’t want to talk about it but don’t try and convince me you’re okay if you’re not.”

Since he rarely spoke about his feelings or worries, his reluctance to open up didn’t surprise you but it did still concern you. However, after listening to your sincere words he eventually dropped his act and allowed you to comfort him with a long hug and some encouraging words. 

[blu-joons]

When He Thinks That You’ve Forgotten His Birthday ~ SHINee Reaction

Onew:

You hurried everyone to hide around the room as the front door opened, waiting nervously as Jinki walked into the house, noticing the dark.

“Happy birthday!” Everyone yelled as the living room light came on, sending Jinki stumbling back as his eyes looked around, flustered by the number of familiar faces that were stood in your home.

“Happy birthday,” you repeated as you came up to his side, “we thought we’d celebrate you.”

His eyes were wide, looking at you in disbelief. “How?” Was all he could say, struggling to find the words to describe how amazed he was by what you had done for him.

“What do you think?” You grinned, pointing out a few of the decorations that you’d put up which you knew that Jinki would love, “did you really think that I’d forget?”

“You’ve acted so well, I really thought you forgot.”

You leaned across and pressed a kiss against Jinki’s cheek, “there is no way that I’d ever forget your birthday, it’s my favourite day of the year.”

“Thank you isn’t even enough, this is amazing,” he grinned.

“I’m glad you’re happy, it’s all paid off.”

Key:

Your smile was wide as Kibum approached you, matching your smile as he wrapped his arms around your frame and pulled you in tightly towards him.

“I can’t believe you pulled this off,” he laughed with a shake of his head, “I really thought that you had forgotten my birthday today, and then you go and throw a party without me knowing.”

“It’s been hard work,” you smiled back at him, “I was expecting you to find out, you’re sharp.”

Kibum nodded in agreement with you, “and you’re rubbish at keeping secrets from me too, all the times you must have sneaked out and I had no idea the reason for it.”

“I’ve texted so many people to make arrangements when laying on your lap,” you informed him, “I’m pretty lucky that you never read my texts when I’m there.”

“I might have to now to stop any more surprises.”

Your head shook, poking against his arm, “there won’t be any more surprises like this for a long time, I’m exhausted after organising all of this.”

“It’s amazing though, you did an incredible job,” Kibum told you.

“Only the best for you on your birthday.”

Minho:

A groan came from Minho as you pulled him into the restaurant, continuing your act of forgetfulness as you led him to where your table was.

“Happy birthday!” A chorus suddenly spoke up as the two of you got to the table, causing Minho to look up from the ground, his expression of disappointment switched for one of amazement.

“What took you guys so long?” His mum asked, “we were ready to order without you both.

You quickly pointed across to Minho, “someone was getting stroppy because they really thought that I had forgotten their birthday and refused to come.”

“You really made me think that you forgot,” Minho sighed as he took a seat, “is this why you’ve not done anything for me? You’ve been planning this all along, right?”

“Your wish was to celebrate with your family.”

Minho nodded back at you, “I never thought that that wish would actually come true though, I can’t tell you how much this means to me.”

“At least now you can enjoy your birthday,” you teased.

“There’s no more grumpy Minho now.”

Taemin:

You frowned as you listened to Jinki tell you about the message that he had just received from Taemin, convinced that you had forgotten.

“We’ve only got two more hours to keep this a secret,” Kibum reminded you as he blew up yet another balloon, noticing the look of deflation on your face, “this will all be worth it soon.”

“I hate pretending to him,” you admitted to them all, “he really thinks that I’ve forgotten him.”

The boys all offered you weak smiles, “he might be annoyed now, but when he sees the efforts that you’ve gone to with this party, he won’t be annoyed anymore.”

“I really hope that you’re right,” you replied to Minho, taking another look of the venue that you had hired out. “There really feels like something more to do.”

“This is perfect already, Taemin will love it.”

Minho and Kibum nodded in agreement with Jinki, “it’s been years since he got to celebrate his birthday properly, a party is a dream for him.

“Especially knowing that you organised it,” Jinki added.

“I really hope he loves it guys.”

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