#he makess me so ill

[milestonekestrel]

I´m so normal about billy

i need you guys t. he means to much to me. do u understand. he is a silver spoon baby who is extremely bisexual and so so so in the closet about it. canon is what I want it to be. caz and suze are the only people he feels like a person around. they are his best friends. he wants to kiss both of them and this is vaguely upsetting. he cant deal with these feelings. he tries not to have a crush on caz and that makes it worse. the inner turmoil is insane. caz gets with suze and billy is so so mad he doesnt even know why. (he wants to be with them both thats why.) he can´t deal with his feelings. he lashes out. he gets his ass beat. he loves caz. he wants to put him in prison. his parents don´t change. caz runs away. billy wants to see him. billy wants to write to him. billy wants to talk to him. billy wants to talk about it. he goes to the police. he fights with suze. he loves her dearly. he wants to see caz again. he doesnt. caz never comes back. his parents don´t change. he can´t deal with his feelings. he doesnt feel like a human.

he is a disaster i love him so much. i love him so sososs sos much. billy youll always be famous.

[ging-pegger]

long ass rant ab ging 💀

i know alot of ppl dont like him, but ging is really special to me :] i honestly dont even really remember how he came to be such a big comfort for me / how i was just like 😍 awooga this is the one ... but tbh I'm honestly fine w it. Idc that he's an unpopular character, and i don't care that people might think that im really fucking weird for liking him 💀💀 he's my grumpy little man and <33 i love him so much. he has his flaws but so does every other character 🙄🙄🙄

its embarrassing to rant like this but sometimes i just cant help it 🙏 i cannot verbalize the joy and happiness just talking about him brings me . When ppl ask me my opinions on different things regarding him i get so happy because ive spent so long just trying to really get canon ging down 🧐 i mean obviously my interp/hcs arent exactly like the canon but thats to be expected however i feel i do a good job accurately portraying him, and it makes me happy that i can do that

because in a way it's kinda like i understand him, and why he is like he is, and i dont think alot of people in the fandom do, or if they do understand most still do not like. Idk get it ?? Ig? Like they hold alot of things he cant help against him. (Which i mean i dont have room to talk i dislike kurapika and a few other characters for no reason at all)

I just wld like to think that he and i wld get along really well. I wldnt say we're similar, quite the opposite in most aspects really, but the differences compliment each other nicely. Not to mention i want nothing more than to take care of him. help him keep himself clean, and healthy. it's the little things really. I make jokes about sex all the time but honestly most if not all of my actual thoughts about this man are so soft and fluffy its almost embarrassing.

What I would give to make sure he was showered , well fed, and had a decent sleep. he deserves it. He works so hard all the time he just deserves someone to make him feel like the only man in the world. He gets so distracted that he doesnt even take care of himself. what i would give to change that </3

Unfortunately though, i am not a 2D girlboss 🙏🙄 and i cannot waltz in there and change his life. But i sure will think about it long and hard 😍😍 every day 😍😍

i think that the fact the majority of the fandom dislikes him only fuels the fire really. Because i really genuinely like him. Like my little "crush" or whateva aside, his personality is so <3 ik he seems insufferable at times but i just find him to be so sweet !! Like hes all grumpy and gets so flustered easily its so cute 😭😭 stinkie little hobo man (affectionate)

hehe i just dont know how people cld hate him hes so jsajqlaioaosoqoqiaiqi !!!!! i cant even find words to describe him i just. Speechless 💀😭

THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING BUT OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS MAN WITH MY ENTIRE BEING *SHAKING YOU* I AM IN LOVE WITH A FICTIONAL MAN

i get so happy whenever i see content ab him and stuff its like i cant even fucking function 😭😭😭 its bad im down bad for this man

I GET SO HAPPY WHEN PPL VALIDATE MY SELFSHIP BY SAYING WERE CUTE TOGETHER OR EVEN LITTLE THINGS LIKE COMMENTING "OTP" OR "CANON" UNDER SMTH I POST IT JUST MAKES ME SO AKAJQKKAS :]]]]

cos like honestly its one of my biggest coping mechs (alongside writing but they go hand in hand tbh) at this point 2 selfship w him zjksjka

theres just something about him that makess me feel safe and secure. it might be my raging daddy issues 💀💀 but talking about/ranting abt ging makes me feel safe and stuff. It helps me calm down and shit. In fact just writing this embarrassing as fuck unwarranted rant has boosted my mood a little :]

UGH ill shut up now but :] <ging3