#he just doest know that he knows. he doesnt have to erase his whole past just because he came out to fit into this new mold

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When Mac came out it was like moving a peg to the other side of the board. How he thinks about gay people and how he thinks about straight people barely changed. Mac never used to feel shame or embarrassment, but now that he's mentally put himself into the Gay category, he is lesser. That's why he became (even more) subservient to others (Especially Dennis, who supposedly exemplifies a golden Heterosexuality.) Mac's under a self imposed dehumanization because of what he's been taught about queer people. He knows he can be gay, he knows(?) that god doesn't hate him for being gay. He's clearly addressed obvious and surface level homophobia, but he doesn't even realize that the entire foundation of how he understands his sexuality is rooted in gays being inherently inferior. So he is too.