#he has zero concept or worry for his own bodily autonomy as long as it benefits someone else. it's fine. it's all fine

[layzeal]

an important note on wwx's characterization that i think is important and sometimes people will get wrong, is that wwx doesn't have low self-esteem ("i'm stupid, i'm ugly, i'm annoying, i'm bothersome, nobody likes me") nor does he have low confidence ("i can't do this" "i don't know this" "i can't do anything right"). in fact, both of these are extremeeeely high in his personality as a teen and young adult

what wei wuxian does have, however, is low self-worth, specifically when it comes to his own needs and well-being compared to other people. couple that with his high confidence and urge to pay off debts of gratitude, and you get his extremely self-destructive behavior ("it's fine if i lose my core as long as jc has it for the good of the sect, i can survive without one", "it's fine that i'm being forcefully kissed by a stranger because she's nervous and i don't want to embarrass her", "it's fine, it's all fine, as long as it's me, because i can take it")

[math-is-magic]

#it's also why i think lwj's worry that wwx slwpt with him out of gratitude was very well based#bc let's be honest. if wwx DID remember his confession.... i don't doubt that's something he could do#he has zero concept or worry for his own bodily autonomy as long as it benefits someone else. it's fine. it's all fine#this is just a note from smth i had been thinking about! it wasn't prompted by anything#just remember: wwx. especially teen wwx. had a self-esteem and confidence as high as the sky#the only time he worried over being bothersome was as a lil kid when he was first brought back to LP#and that's because he was very much still traumatized from the streets where good behavior was a matter of survival#once he established his place as head disciple? he became a MENACE

an important note on wwx's characterization that i think is important and sometimes people will get wrong, is that wwx doesn't have low self-esteem ("i'm stupid, i'm ugly, i'm annoying, i'm bothersome, nobody likes me") nor does he have low confidence ("i can't do this" "i don't know this" "i can't do anything right"). in fact, both of these are extremeeeely high in his personality as a teen and young adult

what wei wuxian does have, however, is low self-worth, specifically when it comes to his own needs and well-being compared to other people. couple that with his high confidence and urge to pay off debts of gratitude, and you get his extremely self-destructive behavior ("it's fine if i lose my core as long as jc has it for the good of the sect, i can survive without one", "it's fine that i'm being forcefully kissed by a stranger because she's nervous and i don't want to embarrass her", "it's fine, it's all fine, as long as it's me, because i can take it")