#he gets mad he gets sad he clings to a semblance of control and doesn't even get that really

[ey-there-little-guy]

hmmm thinking of,,, this g/t spin on a fic idea i had. might just stay a concept but... god AU c!tntduo with god of the moon g!wilbur and t!quackity who's fiances left him. very heartbroken very angry just speaking his woes to the night sky like he's been prone to.

and g!wilbur up there in the sky, having listened to every rant listening to this one with a dreamy sigh like "i could make him better".

Tommy (fellow god of the sun) would pop in with something like "if anything, you'd probably make each other worse." or "oh my gods Wil you're such a wierdo— just go talk to him already if you're gonna be like this again, you're holding up my fucking sunrise."

quackity was not expecting, the night after his broken engagement, for the god of the moon to show up outside his balcony over 50 feet tall to... ask him out? is that what's happening??? what the fuck do you mean you've been listening to me—

so. yeah there's a few issues, these guys have problems, but it'd probably be funny.

[tbob-enthusiast]

TUMBLR IS SO EVIL

IT GAVE ME ZERO NOTIFICATIONS NOOOO AHFHAHFHBSFNSBA

It did give me the time to make a very crappy "beta" of the thing I had in mind tho. Gosh. AAHHAHHFJDBFJDBFJD YOUR GIDEON IS JUST A LITTLE GUY

I'M ON THE FLOOR FOR HIM NOOOOOO

Him getting along with the Zodiac after everything... Befriending Pacifica, bringing presents for ROBBIE MY BELOVED AAUAUHFHFHFJDH

THE SUFFERING THE SUFFERING I'M SO SAD FOR THIS BOY

"HE'S THE YOUNGEST OF THEM AND WILL BE THE FIRST TO GO"

NOOOOO

WHYYYY

Gods man AUUJHFHFHFJF. I just want you to know that this was not cringe in he slightest, brother, this was art and I'm SO SAD OVER HERE. You will not get any semblance of shame from me for "mellowing out" a character, because heavens know I do that all the time HAHEHHE. Sometimes, man, they just need to lose their edges to shine... Like tumbling a rock, y'know?

AHRJEBGJD. OKAY I'M CUTTING THIS OFF BECAUSE I WENT ON A RANT ABOUT A HYPOTHETICAL COMBO BETWEEN YOUR AU AND MINE AND AHFJSHFHSHS IT'S SILLY OKAY

I hope your Gideon had a big funeral... and everyone of his friends came and :((

I'm so sad, man. I'm so sad for him and I'm dumping all of this sadness upon my Robbie because he IS DEATH. Imagine BEING RAIN or BEING SUNLIGHT — you don't control when you show up or when you happen. You just *do,* and there's nothing you can really do about it. You can't say sorry for being the rain to ruin that one bride's dream wedding venue. You can't say sorry for being the sunlight that killed the dehydrated bud left too long in its little pot under the sun. You can't say sorry to a kid who was trying to do good, who was trying to change, who deserved to live live live.

Death is a force of nature, a god who needs no follower, a deity who needs no temple; but Robert is a man who saw too many losses, who found out the hard way that "fairness" is impossible for someone like him. It's for fair for a mother to die in childbirth, not fair for an infant to be stillborn, not fair for the elderly to suffer on a hospital bed while trying to cling to life that is no longer theirs, not fair that he has to come for people who have yet to live. God. He hates that Gideon just accepted his fate, but commends it as well. He's strong (was strong) and he's changed (had changed) and way too young for his liking. Things were just getting started! That wasn't fair!

Why couldn't this other Gideon get mad? Why couldn't he scream to the heavens and gods for this? Yeah, he fucked up, and messed with magic he shouldn't. Consequences happen, sure, and Death is impartial, but Robert is selfish and hates hates hates that he'll have to take this other Gideon. That's his friend, in another dimension, in a different world; different colors and different memories, but Gideon nonetheless, and that's his friend, and Robert doesn't want to take his friend — but he'd want far less for the AXOLOTL to have him instead.

21 years old. That was his due date, at least according to his own Gideon. 21 years old. Old enough to take one single breath into real life and die without ever experiencing a damn thing. No, to hell with that.

He was omnipresent, once. He was Death, all of it, everywhere, and he was a god as important as Time or Space or Life themselves. Why couldn't he use that power? If every soul in the multiverse would eventually die, then aren't they all his by right? Well, he wants that one to stay out of his lane for a while, then. He wants Time Baby and the Axolotl and all of the other bastards to leave him be and let him live, even if just a little longer, even if just for another day! If he could only distract the gods long enough, who's to say that Other Gideon wouldn't be able to live well into his 80s? Hell, his 90s!

And for a moment, just a moment, it worked. He turned 22. Then, 23. And Robert watched, anxious but happy, because it was working. He was Death and he was rejecting a soul for his own good, right? Just a little bit longer. He'll turn 24 and then 30 and then...

He tried. But alas. There's only so long you can hold off a storm, an earthquake, or Death.

At least here, down in the Abyss, the Axolotl cannot take him and can't recycle his soul back into reincarnation. And Robert knows that's selfish, to take a soul and hold him down in his own personal void, but he has lost people too soon before — his friends, his friends, those who never had their 14th birthday party. Those who he couldn't keep, because the Axolotl took them first — and he didn't want to lose this one, too.

Besides. In the darkness of the Abyss, these souls shine brighter.

teen gideon headcanons because i love him :] i am constantly thinking about him and how he's the only zodiac member (and honestly, only main-ish character because of the book of bill and the website) that doesn't get a sympathetic moment, other than POSSIBLY the finale but that barely counts

i think he deserves to have a SORT OF redemption, at least internally, because he took dipper's advice in weirdmageddon to heart. even if he gets over his crush on mabel (which i think he does. mom said its my canon now) theres still the truth of "people wont wanna be around you if youre a selfish prick"

anyways he makes me emotional so i'm giving him attention

im scared tumblr will kill the quality on my tiny handwriting so transcription under the cut:

after turning like 15, he just starts traveling, gets out of oregon and hits the ground running

uses my headcanon (?) that the amulet takes years from you, and gideon probably won't live past his 20s

he finds this out, has a total mid-life (literally) crisis at 14-15 and decides to do anything "normal" he can do because he doesn't have long to do it

ofc he still has anger issues and obsesses over people and everything else, but he's a lot better at managing it [than] when he was a kid

he doesn't care if he dies with people still hating him, but he wants it to be known that he tried