#he fucking revels in them seeing him as the fun teacher tho

[dkettchen]

Gojo JJK and Aizawa MHA are opposite archetypes insofar as Aizawa presents himself as the not-fun teacher but means well, while Gojo presents himself as the fun teacher but will absolutely destroy his students' expectations with work

[teddystrap]

[神なる君と] Spirit duo - Rei

なんかちょっとラストスパートな感じですけど…

Rei is the friendly spirit that Sakuya and co. met when they were investigating rumours about hauntings in the old school building. He’s arguably the most ‘mysterious’ character, since nothing is known about his former life, and I was super curious what his deal is. Not to mention he’s the final obstacle standing between me and Mikoto!! Ψ(￣∀￣)Ψケケケ

Truth be told he’s not really my type, though - since I’m not 15 anymore. I mean he’s a ghost but looks more like a forest elf / Mori Boy circa. 2001, and his voice sounds like it’s breaking. Compared to the other characters also he has a personality (or lack thereof) that is blander than konnyaku. In fact I found myself opening all the Yuzuru options in his common route first before going back and redoing them for Rei, because senpai saranghae I only wanna be wit u <3... 

Aaanyway.

-Mizuniwa Rei-

Rei-kun’s common route was actually quite revealing and interesting - in two of his ema, Mikoto actually asked to tag along, so it seemed like there might be some important information there idk. 

In his second ema, Mikoto tells Sakuya that she has the power to push people who are on the brink between Life and Death into one world or another, depending on what kind of guidance she gives.

Which in retrospect seemed like heavy foreshadowing for what’s about to come.

Fuu-san’s backstory was also revealed here:

Around 10 years ago, Fuu-san and his bff, a boy named Kawashina Yuuya, were students at Mikagurayama High School. One day they found a hidden basement storage room in the old school building, and turned it into their hang-out spot.

The basement used to be a bomb shelter, and had some books left over on occult spells and curses, that were used during the war to protect the townspeople. Fuu-san found a book with a spell to summon the powers of the Great Demon, and wanted to try it out of fun/boredom, but Yuuya was against it.

So Fuu-san did it by himself anyway. He got the sealed cursed box from the magical cave and took it back to the basement to perform the spell. Halfway through he passed out... and when he came to, he realised that Yuuya saved him by transferring the spell onto himself. 

Yuuya never woke up again, despite a lot of medical attention and whatnot. After half a year, Fuu-san decided to quit school and skip town to learn exorcism so that he can save his friend. But when he finally returned a few years later, Yuuya had already died...

Fuu-san lived with guilt all these years and thought that Yuuya died hating him. But when he went down to the basement with Sakuya to liberate his spirit, Yuuya’s spirit communicated through Sakuya that he doesn’t ever regret saving Fuu-san, and he hopes Fuu-san can stop blaming himself and go forward in life, smiling... By this point I was pretty much crying like a baby... ｡･ﾟ･(ﾉД｀)･ﾟ･｡

Oh how I wish there was a Su-sa-no-o in my neighbourhood, with a sexy store-owner like Fuu-san... 

But we’re not here to court Fuu-san (I wish we could, mang. I wish we could), so let’s get back to Rei. In his route Sakuya tries to help him to find out about his family and his past. She asks Aki for help ofc, and Aki reports back that she couldn’t find anyone matching Rei’s description in the database of deaths, nor the missing persons list...

And the mystery deepens dun-dun-DUN. This would’ve made for an interesting story development,... except the writers totally abandon it and instead opt for Rei and Sakuya frolicking around in the forest, true to his Mori Boy style (wholesomely tho, since they are both underage XD). Then Rei realises that he’s not long for this world, and he tries to put some distance between them - but Sakuya eventually convinces him that they should spend his last remaining time on earth together and make lots of beautiful (wholesome) memories.

There were a lot of group events in his route, which was nice since I got to see Yuzuru-senpai mucho. (Although he’s not an option here obvsly T_T)

You know I will happily choke on a fish bone for you, senpai <3.

So hoshimatsuri night, Rei undergoes the ceremony to pass into the other world. Sakuya stays home, because she’s not strong enough to go and say goodbye to him. Is this like deja vu from the Yorihito/Nisei story arc or what?? ...After that, Sakuya goes to the old school building one day after school, and finds a note from Rei. SURPRISE - he’s still here.

...

It turns out that Sakuya’s, uhh, clinginess is keeping him from successfully departing. At this rate he’s going to grow weaker and weaker and become trapped in the interstitial space between two worlds - forever. They keep communicating through notes, and through voice chatting over radio, while Sakuya grows enough balls to finally let him go.

Eventually she does. Because let’s face it - Otomate can’t afford to pay their seiyuu to carry on a story for like two gajillion chapters.

In his final moment of departure, he appears to Sakuya in a dream, but they can’t hear each other’s voice. Just as Sakuya is freaking out, he pulls her in and kisses her, then disappears into the ether. (*ฅ́˘ฅ̀*)♡

...I guess Yuzuru and Rei’s routes don’t work the same way as Narumi and Yakumo’s, bc you don’t get the alternative ending by choosing the ‘wrong’ option for the last couple of choices. I wasn’t strong enough for senpai’s bad end, but I was actually pretty curious about Rei’s, although all the same I wasn’t able to unlock it. Either way I hope he didn’t get stuck in between worlds forever, poor kid has been through enough.

1. Good end: Fast forward 10 years, Sakuya becomes a teacher at Mikagurayama High School, just as Rei had hoped. She still goes to the garden every day to take care of Rei’s flowers. The old school building is about to be torn down because it’s too old and might be a safety hazard. She’s on her way there one last time... when she gets a call from Aki, who finally found out what happened with Rei’s past-life investigation 10 years ago. Unfortunately Aki trips on something and the line cuts off before we get to hear it. _(:3」∠)_

So Sakuya is there happily watering her flowers, when guess who appears - ahem *Rei*, now all grown up. He tells her that this time he’s not a spirit anymore... and the scene just ends there. I’ve seen a lot of abrupt endings but this has gotta take the cake. Although I’ll admit adult Rei is kinda sorta smoking hot, so less talk more making out!

[Thoughts] What can I say? This route really didn’t explain as much as I thought it would, although there were some good bits. For one, the Fuu-san backstory really got to me. Fuu-san was always the side character that I was most curious about, since he seems kind of... shady, and like he might’ve had a colourful past. His arc really delivered, and it’s my favourite out of all the four side stories, although I loved them all in their own way.

I was expecting to find out about Rei’s past here, but I guess the writers are saving it for Mikoto’s route / wrap-up, which almost certainly means there’s going to be a surprise revelation. So I am looking forward to that and I hope they don’t fuck it up.

The route itself actually felt like it was mostly stuff that belongs in a fandisk, rather than an individual character route. All the group hangouts, and scenarios that reveal idiosyncrasies about the other characters (e.g. everyone’s drawings in the Fuu-san arc. I finally got to see Yuzuru-senpai’s kawaii creations! :3).

Senpai’s art totally unleashes his inner otome...

As expected, Rei failed to give me any doki-doki feels... except at the end, where we saw grown-up Rei and got to hear Iguchi Yuuichi’s normal voice for like 2 seconds. (I wish this game had a fandisk bc I *definitely* need more of that!!) From the other character routes I got the sense that he’s an iyashi-kei type of guy, and he’s probably the most consistent out of all of them, because he continues being selfless and caring about Sakuya before himself throughout - e.g. helping her to find her future path despite not having one himself. 

Still I gotta admit, when he confessed that he liked Sakuya, I did a silent fist-pump in the air, because FINALLY here’s a guy who said it first. I’m so tired of always having to make the first move >;(

Also the thing that Narumi said really touched me here: that Rei would rather choose a lonely existence as a spirit trapped between two worlds for the rest of eternity, than force Sakuya to let him go. Even when he was weakening, he never said anything to Sakuya. In a way he was perhaps the most adult-like one out of all of them. Admittedly I didn’t like Sakuya very much in this route. She seemed very self-absorbed and immature, refusing to face the truth. But eventually Narumi kind of slapped some sense into her (figuratively ofc, I mean Narumi would never actually slap her XD) and she did choose to do the right thing.

...I guess Narumi is determined to be the guy that has a crush on her and ‘saves her’ one way or another in every route. Kudos to him but he’s still only, like, my third or fourth favourite lols.

Lastly, I felt that this route was actually the most poetic + metaphorical one so far. (Maybe the other ones were, too, and I just wasn’t paying attention?) ...The metaphor of flowers bearing seeds that blossom into new flowers, bearing witness to their relationship and carrying on their legacy. When they first met the flowers were newly planted, and when they said goodbye they were just about to wither. 

Also Sakuya and Rei always met after class at sunset, the time between day and night - like the space between Life and Death. Idk mang but that’s, like, really beautiful or sumshit.

But this is the most poetic thing of them all~!

[purekate88]

Here i go again pretending to be a writer again and I am pro choice so if you don’t like it and don’t read it.

This modern AU is not an attack on people who don’t to have children again I’m pro choice. Also lily and her family in this are low born purebloods but still upper middle class in the muggle world and mr. and mrs evans are social climbers but only in the wizarding world WARNING: Implied/past mpreg, severe physical bullying, severe internalized homophobia 

  At 21 years old lily evans finds herself with an unwanted pregnancy only finding out moments ago she can’t put the blame on anyone her and james were having sex without protection willingly. With the war against voldemort and his death eaters and just yesterday finding out with the whole order that gellert grindelwald escaped azkanban and his way to voldemort. So yeah! everyone was stress out and needed something to relieve it with. lily sighs gets up from the toilet comes out of the bathroom and walks in to the living room where james and his friends were hanging out and having drinks james looks up at her lily asks to talk to him privately she gives it to him straight that she’s pregnant and she’s not going to keep it and that she never wants to have kids  james just looks at her gobsmacked after he collected himself and ask her what if he wanted it and that it’s his kid too even tho james hated small children and the fact that true be told james potter was kind of selfish the only thing the cared about was having fun with his mates getting drunk and fucking. Lily looks at him smirks and tells him that he can go find someone else she’s still not keeping it and then the fighting starts they screamed at each other for a good 3 hours lily tells him she going for a walk to clear her head. At times like this lily really wants to talk to her friends but feels none of them really understood over the years of knowing her she remembers one who truly did and she dumped him for the people she has now she remembers him telling her and her sister about hogwarts and playing house dress up playing with dolls making flower crowns and she recalls being happy to find someone to play prince and princess with lily being the prince and her friend happily playing the role of princess lily remembers those light and beautiful days but she ended it all when she decides to go hogwarts her older sister petunia older by 1 year she recalls her sister telling their parents that she did not want to go hogwarts and that she get in ilvermorny that she want to go that school for long time lily recalls her parents worried faces but none the last let petunia go to ilvermorny. she remembers the busy floo station and her sister looking so happy she never saw her that happy before when they got to the american station petunia kiss and hug their parents goodbye and that the last she saw her petunia never came home even for the holidays she recalls her mother and father reading petunia letters from her first year at ilvermorny saying that she wants to stay alittle longer and that it will be good for her education their parents still worried but still said yes to her sister and then her sister’s the 1st and 2nd place trophies and ribbons arrived. Trophies and ribbons that came from academic competitions to athletics and performing arts if that wasn’t bad enough ilvermorny had this tradition of sending the guardians and the parents of their students reviews of the students progress ever 6 months the teachers writing to mr.and mrs. evans on how good of a student petunia is and how she’s so hard working. lily recalls every letter all said the same thing about her sister over the years it get even worst when petunia got her first role in a stage play at 4th year  lily remembers her mother and father reading the goods news over dinner when she was home for winter holidays. Petunia said in her letter that the play was an open casting call for all ages she said her role was a small supporting one and the play was a dramedy and it will premiere in the summer. Lily and her parents when here opening night before they went home petunia told lily and their parents that she was already doing auditions for other plays.... she got two more roles by the end of the summer.Mrs. evans collected the overwhelming positive reviews over the years about her older daughter’s acting. Lily looks back on years at school when her sister become an even bigger star on stage and started auditioning for movies getting roles and roles one after the other and by the time petunia was 18 she was one of the muggle worlds biggest stars. lily starts to realize the people at school the people at home started to only talk about her sister and her parents loved it they reveled in the fact now their on top of the small upper class social circle in cokeworth like they always wanted mr. evans small shipping business get more clients and mrs. evans vintage store was getting more and more customers everyday the evans were on top of the world and if life could not get any sweeter they could finally afford a 5 bedroom house outside cokeworth where all of their new and dear upper middle class and upper class friends all lived and lily it wasn’t like she didn’t bask in the attention she got from her new social status. Lily started to notice it more the difference between her and her best friend his clothes his appearance basically everything about him didn’t fit in her new social circle especially in school all her new friends all came from the same social class as her. lily slowly stopped relating to her best friend in the 2nd half of their 1st year at hogwarts lily started minimize their interaction both at school and at home. On the summer holidays before school starts again lily and her mother were having lunch in the evans backyard mrs. evans looks at her little girl tells her she’s so proud of her on what she did. lily smiles but confuse on what her mother is saying lily asks her mother on what did she do that made her so proud mrs. evans responds by saying lily made so happy when lily stopped being friends with that severus boy and that the snape family were not good people and that mr.snape was a drunk and dead beat and what kind of mother let’s her son wear blouses and run around looking so improper lily’s mother also ads that her and lily’s father were always nervous when the boy was in their old house and that they thought he might take something of value like lily’s father watches or her mother’s jewelry or some of the family’s vintage silverware and antique fine china. She’s glad she raised lily to make the right choicest and what makes her even happier is that lily made real friends at school. It was early evening now lily sighs she’s tired she remembers it all her fucked up childhood where her and sister were against pinned each other by every adult in their family but mostly by their parents now she knew why her sister was so happy to leave and find something better. She realize later on in life how they made her the star of family and make petunia sit in the background because of the sole reason she was the pretty and skinny one that her poor older sister overcompensated by building her confidence around by being the best at academics sports and playing piano singing and being the best at modern dancing and what freed her from their parents acting. she remembers their mother telling petunia was to fat she needed to go on a diet she recalls overhearing their father once telling mrs.evans that he was worried about petunia it was going to be hard to marry petunia off to a good pureblood family because she was little to plump and plain unlike lily. Lily stop listening after her father said her name and locked herself in her room nowadays the evans rarely saw their two children. Lily gets up looks at her phone it’s still early she can still make it to the clinic to make appointment the nurse said they can schedule her in on monday lily smiles at the nurse tells her she’s fine with that and that she’ll see her next monday. lily comes in her apartment and her parents and lord potter are there sitting in her living room with james her mother stands up crying and hugs lily tells her she so happy for her. Lily looks at her mother she opens her mouth to tell her in the same fashion she told james about this and everyone in the room stood still like time stopped after she was done speaking to her mother mrs.evans broke down in tears. lily acted as if nothing ever happen and went to her bedroom she can still hear her mother sobbing to her father asking him where did she go wrong why did lily became this type of person. lily thinks to herself that she has no more fucks to give she knows her parents wanted her to marry james so they can up their status with the high born purebloods. she looks back on it they were a little to happy when they find out who was she dating at 14 they didn’t even care that james potter was known to do reckless and stupid things and he never changed he still was that judgemental cruel and highly manipulative boy from hogwarts. Lily remembers all cruel things he did to their former classmates and.....sev her best friend can she even call him that after all the things james and his friends did to him and that she ignore it in favor of being Lily evans the most beautiful girl in school with a movie star for sister and rich parents lily with truly perfect life with her picture perfect family and her gorgeous rich”prankster”boyfriend and all her perfect friends with equally picture perfect lives living in their expensive houses wearing their designer clothes‘shoes and bags with their perfectly “effortless”hair and makeup and nails the truly envy of all. She protected that image she made herself and for what she has nothing no real relationship with her sister no real friendships she stares at herself in the mirror and feeling the guilt slowly building up in her throat how could she let them do that to him. She remembers 3 vs 1 fights that left sev with the healers for weeks she recalls the disgusting names they used to call him and the damaging rumors they spend about him. And the time in 5th year when james came in the common room bragging about how he saved the slimy fucker from a dark creature to his friends and teammates and on the last week of 6th year was where everything really escalated james and sirius with peter along with 4 other of their friends also from gyffindor. Everyone in their house was pissed that year not only they lost the house cup to slytherin and they also lost the last quidditch game of the year to hufflepuff or the “house of idiots and morons”as james and his friends liked to call them. After that james and his friends started to harassing the 5th and 6th year slytherins and some of 3nd and 4th year snakes. But on the Last 3 days of that year james and his friends wanted more they wanted to really blow off some steam they went out those last 2 nights found slytherin prefects and a few ravenclaw prefects and some of the hufflepuff prefects and beat the shit out of them it was a terrifying 2 days but no one said anything because they knew that the headmaster will turn a blind eye as always or make gyffindor the victims again. The last and final noon of that school year was the most tensed and fear filled afternoon severus snape was found that morning half alive in the school courtyard madam pomfrey and healers quickly worked on the boy lily a few hours later heard from a classmate that madam pomfrey will move severus to St mungo’s hospital. lily couldn’t stop thinking about sev all summer she went to see him but couldn’t he was in intensive care only his mother was aloud to see him. The new and final school year finally came and more things came out about severus her friends dorcas and mary told her they heard from the girls that didn’t go home that summer severus was not only severely beaten but stabbed 14 times in the stomach lily vaguely remembers seeing sirius and james playing with knives one morning in 5th year and laughing about how their going to find and finally get that disgusting fuck. severus never came back to school and a month later drop out of hogwarts and was never seen or heard of again after a few weeks more things came to the light the whole student body was shock with the new information that severus snape was with child when the attack happen after hearing this she looked at her friends all of then looked hungry for more gossip Lily watches james and his friends from across the common room james and sirius with peter and with the rest of their friends all looking at remus lupin like they taught him a very valuable lesson.lily always thought that remus was the good one in james group of friends he never hurt anyone he never said anything bad about anyone he was a “good” prefect but remus never stopped james from hurting anyone everyone knew remus was of james closest friends. lily wonders what happen between them and suddenly feeling tired lily says to her friends she was going to lay down for a bit before she gets to her dorm room she passes out and wakes up a day later when she opened her eyes she saw her friends and boyfriend james he played the caring and doting boyfriend card so will but both knew they only use each other for status and image even now as adults and everyone last of their friends knew about this because they do the same thing to each other. lily sighs siting in front of her mirror questioning herself how and when did she get this reckless she had that inbred freak seed in side of her. After questioning her life decisions the former head girl stands up and decides she can “fix” her life later after her monday’s appointment starts to think about lighter things like what to wear how she’s going to do her hair and makeup on monday there’s a knock on her bedroom it’s Lord potter asking if he can come in and talk lily hesitates but lets the man in. Lord Wallace of house potter was intimidating handsome man from his height to muscular build he looked better then most men in their 20s lily’s father will never compare to this man both in intelligence and looks. Lord potter was divorce him and his ex wife lady euphemia of house fleamont they had an arrange marriage they were also 1st cousins an old practice from the high born pureblood families after him and lady euphemia had their first and only child they divorced with reasons that lord potter is still very much in love with his first lover and lady euphemia felt she already done her duty that her family requires of her. james was basically raised by nannies and a governess his parents give him what he wanted all the time so they didn’t have to deal with him. After a few moments of silence the man sighs and ask if she knew how he felt about her lily only nods she knew how lord potter and lady euphemia didn’t like her or parents and their social climbing ways she ask what he wanted to talk about lord potter sits and rest his forearms on his thighs looks right at lily it makes her feel uneasy. but just like how lily told james and her mother about the seed the man was straight to the point he tells that he needs her to give birth to the child and after she can sign away all her rights to the child and he’ll give her enough money so she can get away from her parents and never see them again just like her sister. before she can even ask lord potter tells her it’s because they made a mistake with james and says they’ll give him his inheritance and then disown him after the child is born. lily was alot of things but stupid was not one of them she smirks she knows a good deal when she sees one tells the sliver fox his the one going to pay for everything from new clothes to the prenatal workouts and the high end spas every week lord potter tells her that she has a deal and a year later lily evans changed her name and left england and never came back and that same year james potter was disown.

Remus lupin just woke up from another nightmare again sits up turns his head looks out it's already light outside sighs and decides to get ready for the day the young 22 year old werewolf looks out at the sun rising he  always thinks about him at this hour especially after a nightmare.Remus parks in front of the large brick hospital after everything that happen at hogwarts he decides to leave everything behind in his world for the muggle one but also to try find him lately his been making a few progress with his private investigator a half-blood named brian mask found some information on the snape family and what happen to them after severus stopped going to school but after tonight he'll know more but the private investigator he hired said he has more to tell him remus sighs and gets out of his car walks in the hospital greets his co-workers in this world he wasn't remus lupin high born pureblood wizard son of  the house lupin in the muggle world he was Dr.adam erikson an Er doctor just a ordinary man with a good job he made sure not to draw attention to himself and live a normal life and have an ordinary routine wake up  workout eat take his wolfsbane twice a day drive to work go home and  check his emails repeat. After his second surgery that night remus smiles tells his co workers that his going home and have a good night. An hour lately remus get back to his apartment sit on his black large sofa with his laptop opens the email that his P.I send him and starts to read his P.I. brian mask tells him that a year after severus(or savvy as he used to call him)disappeared. Mr.snape and some of his co-workers died in a horrible factory accident and the company that own it paid off the families to the some of 2 million pounds each. mrs.snape moved them to london for her son to get full face and body reconstructive surgery and after a year of rehabilitation with a stroke of luck within the same year the long disinherited mrs.eileen snape received her inheritance from her younger brother the now Lord valentino of the house phylarchus and welcomed them back to the family. After reading half of the email the young doctor needs to take a break he needs a minute to get all his feelings out.The feeling of happiness that his savvy with all his bad luck finally something good happen to him and his mother but the feeling of horrible guilt and self-loathing that if he wasn't a coward that if he just stood up to james potter and told the fucker that his staying with severus and that sirius and him can go eat shit his savvy wouldn't need surgery on his face and body. After sobbing non-stop for 2 hours remus takes a deep breath and stands up walks to his modern kitchen make himself some tea a few seconds pass walks back to his sleek grey and black living room and continues to read. In the same year miss.eileen hired private tutors for her son to finish his education both muggle and wizard after miss eileen moved residence to a town in italy's mountainous northern region.Remus's P.I. continues that severus went on to attend University of Milan remus reads on his P.I. goes on says that he could not get close to severus to talk because his always surrounded by bodyguards but he did manage to get pictures of him from the far. Remus eyes widen he immediately clicked on folder to see his savvy face his eye started to water "He looks so good" remus thought looking at his savvy's face while he was laughing at something one of his guards said remus admiring his first and last loves face his pale skin looked healthy his jet black hair looked full and shiny his aquiline nose was no longer crooked from the years of abuse his misaligned jaw and teeth both straighten and fix his once skinny underweight body was now a healthy pear shape.The strawberry blonde haired doctor always thought that his love was a late blooming flower. Now that he blossom remus knew that he would not be the only man who wanted this classic gothic beauty remus thinks he needs to move fast he already knows that his former best friend is also trying to find severus. Remus doesn't want to know why james was so obsessed with his gothic beauty but the werewolf knew james potter well enough to know his still obsessed with him and james trying to find him as well. Remus lupin remembers all the things james potter did when they were still in school and still friends he  remembers the 1st year at hogwarts just getting to know each other and just ignoring the fact that james was alittle weird james used to laugh or smile when someone got hurt or he would to dare their friends to do dangerous things. Now he recalls remus realize james was incredibly manipulative he controlled and molded remus and their other friends to his liking he made them all dependent on him so they never leave and when they try to....they got punish james made them do horrible and humiliating things. All those 7 years at hogwarts james potter ruled over the school with an iron fist either you loved or lusted after james but if you fought against him or broke one of his rules make sure your family has the money to get you of hogwarts there was one rule The ONE rule no one dares to break remus warned the on-coming 1st years about it. ‘Never ever under no circumstances that you touch look or speak to severus snape’  

But james an exception for remus in 4th year because slughorn told them that their partners that slughorn chosen for them will be with them an till 7th year     

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[thegoodthebadandtheempty]

1. At first I didn't really wanna start it bc I thought it would be too gory. But thanks to Levi tok I gave it a go and have been obsessed ever since 😅

2. Well either nothing (lol grisha would've played us) or the origin of the titans.

3. 13

4. Some of my friends have been watching the show since season 3 and I remember them talking about the colossal and armoured revelation.

5. I got into the fandom pretty recently and the person who got me into the fandom is the one and only Levi Ackerman. But I have been unfaithful and my favourite characters now are Reiner and Hange.

6. Look from the start Eren and I just didn't click. But I can't say he's me least favourite character. In fact I don't think I have a least favourite character bc even the ones I hate they are so well written that I can't hate hate them. You know what I mean?

7. Hands down season 4 (especially part 1).

8. I think the episode where the female titan shit happen (don't remember number lol)

9. Nope.

10. Again nope.

11. MOTHER FUCKING JEAN (Reiner too but tbh I couldn't believe in my eyes when I first saw Jean).

12. No one.

13. If it were up to me everything would end with everyone being happy and running throw meadows.

14. I don't know if commentary is considered contribution 😂

15. If Armin Hange and Pieck sat down and talk things through before the whole Zeke/Eren plan, everything in s4 wouldn't have happened.

16. I would love to but I fear I'd be the first one eaten regardless of my position 🤣

17. The way Marco died. And the way Zeke and Eren both played each other lol

18. Season 2 and season 4 part 1

19. Season 4 part 2

20. The hardest death for me hasn't happened in the show yet lol

21. Depends on the day I arrive but I'd be an early goner for sure.

22. TIMESKIP🥵

23. I would love for it to be the scouts but I'm too much of a coward. So either MP or Garrison.

24. I feel like out of everyone Mikasa is the calmest sleeper and Hange the most chaotic.

25. Connie. At first I was like meh. But I've grown to love him.

26. Somehow I feel like Annie and I would click pretty well.

27. Zeke.

28. The war hammer is just 😙👌🏻. Sure.

29. Mikasa or Levi. Maybe even Hange.

30. The trio Sasha Jean Connie. Too much fooling around.

31. Hange Levi Erwin and Porco Reiner Pieck.

32. It's a Levi/OC story on wattpad called hiraeth by -akumah. Very very well written. Love the development between Levi and the OC.

33. For some reason I really love the Marley uniforms.

34. Okay so Mikasa, Annie, Erwin, Levi and Marco. Least probably Sasha or Connie bc even tho they have every good will to protect my drink they would either spill it or forget it somewhere 😂

35. I don't really see myself in anyone that much. There are definitely characteristics I share with many characters.

36. I've only seen a few pages of the manga but I would love to read it given the chance.

37. I think Jean Connie and Sasha would be really fun to have a beer with but bc I don't really drink they would get wasted and I'd have to babysit them. So I'm gonna go have some tea with Levi instead 😂.

38. For some weird reason I could see Jean as a kindergarten teacher or a babysitter 😂

39. Levi would be constantly up my ass for cleaning. It's never really clean for him!

40. I learned very quickly that we should not be making dreams with aot 😂😭

41. I think Mikasa and Reiner could be big romantic comedy fans.

42. Sasha/Historia -> Kpop, Jean would be into some Arctic Monkeys/The neighborhood kind of music and I can definitely see Eren liking rap music.

43. In my head Annie has a huge sweet tooth, it's also been referred on the show. I think Bertholdt would really like Thai food idk.

44. Okay so a legit Smash would be Reiner 🥵. And a pass probably Zeke (he hot and all but he annoys me too much).

45. OKAY OKAY HEAR ME OUT:

Fuck Levi/Annie

Marry Reiner/Pieck

Kill Floch/Yelena

Done!😁

9th Anniversary Ask Game

April 7th is the 9 year anniversary of the premier of Attack on Titan! In honor of this event, I’ve created a (not so little) ask game for the community! Since it’s officially the 7th in japan, I’m posting this now! Feel free to reblog and answer the questions yourself!

What was your first impression of the show?

What did you think was in the basement?

How old were you when Attack on Titan first came out?

What’s your first memory from the show?

Who was your favorite character originally? Did it change?

Who was your least favorite character initially? Did it change?

Favorite season?

Favorite episode?

Do you own any AOT Merch?

Any AOT tattoos?

In your opinion, who had the greatest glow up?

Worst glow up?

One thing you’d change about the story?

If you contribute to the fandom, what’s your proudest work?

Controversial opinion?

Would you go to the AOT world? What would your role be?

What twist genuinely surprised you?

Favorite op?

Favorite ed?

What was the hardest death for you?

You're transported into AOT, how long would you survive?

Original uniform or timeskip uniform?

What regiment would you join?

Any weird headcanons about the world / a character?

What character grew on you?

Who would be your best friend irl?

Who would you hate irl?

What’s your favorite of the 9 titans? Would you be willing to be a titan shifter?

You’re trapped on a deserted island, who would you be paired with ideally?

Who would be the worst person to be paired with on a group project?

Favorite trio?

Favorite AOT fanfic?

Favorite outfit for your favorite character?

You're at a bar, list five characters you’d trust to hold your drink. Who’d you trust the least?

Is there a character you really see yourself in? Why?

Did you read the manga? Do you have a favorite panel / scene?

Character(s) you’d love to share a beer or two with?

What job do you think [Character] would have in real life?

Who’d be the best roommate? The worst?

How did you originally think the show would end?

What kind of movies/tv shows do you think [Character] would enjoy?

What kind of music do you think [Character] would listen to?

What do you think [Character’s] favorite type of food would be?

Smash or Pass [Character] ?

FMK [3 Characters]

[tulpacest]

Repost, don’t reblog.

Tagged by: @ahogedetective​ , thank you so much!

Tagging: @luminaryblood​ if u haven’t! And if u have... pls link me this is my fav kind of quiz. Otherwise!! Please steal! 

Name: K/orekiyo Shing.uuji. (Sorry but,,, I’m going to be talking about some uncomfy stuff and I’d really rather it not go in the tag riuguir). 

Nicknames: Sweet/Gentle Korekiyo, Kiyo, Korey (Hagakure why...), Shitguuji, ‘shit eating worm’, ‘slug’, ‘creep show’ (I love you Miu). 

Orientation: Pansexual Panromantic (No preference.) 

Preferred pet names: I think Korekiyo would find petnames to be interesting. I... actually like that he offers the name ‘Kiyo’ on first meeting, it creates a sense of immediate familiarity between himself and his peers - exactly what he wants as an anthropologist, after all. Additionally, it means ‘Korekiyo’ is a name reserved only for his Sister - which we’ll get into later. Obviously, he doesn’t particularly like being compared to an insect or dung, and would prefer only beautiful things be associated with him. 

Relationship status: He’s currently in a fully committed romantic relationship with his own tulpa. He truly believes that his dead Sister’s spirit rests inside of him and they are continuing the loving partnership they had in life - but she does not. This is a coping mechanism born out  of impossible grief, and he does have brief moments of self-awareness. In those moments, the world feels sterile and empty. This is his reality.   

Favorite canon ship:  H E  I S  T H E  C A N O N  S H I P.   In all seriousness, I do find the relationship he has with the tulpa to be incredibly fascinating, fucked up and inherently unhealthy. The tulpa is simultaneously the only thing keeping him alive, and simultaneously destroying any development he could possibly have. He cannot overcome grief without it, he cannot overcome grief with it.  And if he just didn’t ... you know... kill people because of it, I feel that the tulpa perfectly embodies the theme of the game. A lie can sometimes be good, can sometimes even save lives - and that is what his coping mechanism is -  simply an incredibly well-fabricated lie. He’s such a fascinating and... oddly tragic character because of it. 

Favorite non-canon ships: I really like Korekiyo/Rantaro! Their interactions in the board game were incredibly sweet... Korekiyo is actually concerned with his health! He asks after him! They visit each other inbetween trips! K O R E K I Y O  H A S  A  F R I E N D ??? And I know you could read that he’s just getting close to him in order to kill his sisters... but? He was doing all of those things before he even knew Amami had sisters! 

I really... really feel like Amami is one of the very few people who would have the patience and the kindness to help Korekiyo work through the whole tulpacest situation. I... Idk, I just have this really profound image of Kiyo finally asking Rantaro if he wants to meet his Sister, and Amami is hesitant at first - like, he knows by now that... something weird is going on, but it’s okay, he trusts his friend enough to see where this is going...  And then Kiyo takes the mask down, and Amami’s heart just. Breaks as Sister says ‘hello’ to him, her lip trembling - and he finally clicks it all together and he understands. And then he rushes forwards and just wraps her in the tightest embrace, and her eyes immediately turn to glass and she just sobs because this is the first time he’s been hugged properly in years, and suddenly all that time spent hugging himself is... not enough. Bluuhhh and that’s my sickly-sweet power fantasy, eventually Amami helps Korekiyo get over the tulpa and accept death (or he supports his friend’s coping mechanism and they enter into a more complicated relationship) - either way, GOD. That’s the healthiest Kiyo ship I can think of and I Am Here For It. 

A quick note on shipping: Korekiyo is really... really difficult to ship. He firmly believes his one true love is inside of him, and he has sacrificed everything to fulfil that delusion. Unpicking it would be a long and hard process, and cheating on her is not going to be an option unless it’s like. a very very very clear one-time affair. Even then, he’s... unlikely to get completely physical with you - and falling in love is simply not an option........ at least, not right away. Any shipping I did with Kiyo would have to be delicately paced and involve a lot of plotting/threading. 

Opinion on true love: He firmly believes in it, and it is one of the only matters (asides from death) where he will suddenly start acting illogical. Anything concerning love makes him highly emotional, but he would also expose that ‘real’ love is not a physical connection, it is something that is worked on and reshaped and kneaded over time. He is extremely romantic,  to say the least, and believes that you should do anything for the one you love. 

Opinion on love at first sight: Although this is something ever present in folklore, fiction and fantasy - he believes that love takes more than a mere moment. It’s something that requires tending to - even if it begins like a hot-flash in the pan. 

How ‘romantic’ are they: Very.... Korekiyo’s appearance may imply anything but, but he is a highly romantic person. He enjoys affection, soft touches, hugs, being squeezed, giving gifts, huge gestures, romcoms, holding hands, dates... I could go on. He adores the saccharine and can be incredibly gentle when it comes to matters of love.  

Ideal physical traits: Korekiyo would struggle with this question - after all, his pet theory is that all humanity is beautiful. Beauty is alluring, and beauty is born from the soul - less so the body. However... He has an aesthetic appreciation for features similar to his own - archaic beauty, ink-brush strokes for hair, well-kept and slender. But! Tbh, radiant love overcomes any physical imperfections, his tastes bent to his heart’s desires. 

Ideal personality traits: He is particularly drawn to bright, effervescent people. Those who possess a deep, unending curiosity - who possess wit and good humour, intelligence and grace. There are many traits that he admires - just as there are many roles in this great kabuki play of life. However, above all else... A thirst for life. If your character displays a drive to survive against all odds, a ‘fuck you’ attitude to death - then his heart sings. Bravery in the face of impossible odds, an unwavering heart, hope blossoming amongst  the tangled thorns of despair... cliche, yes, but traits he finds incredibly attractive.  Additionally, he really enjoys being approached by someone else. His love hotel scene begins with Saihara taking an interest in him, after all. 

Unattractive physical traits: Hmm, again... there really aren’t many. 

Unattractive personality traits: He is not fond of people who are loud-mouthed and quick to interrupt him. He really dislikes those who shut down intelligent conversation, or think of him as boring, or refuse to pay attention. He hates promises being broken, and he will blame himself for being a poor teacher if someone shows even the slightest disinterest in what he has to say.  He also dislikes those he cannot pin down easily. If he cannot assign you a role and you baffle him with layers of inconsistencies/lies, he’s... going to lose interest, fast. If, however, he can pick up some threads of your puzzle - he’ll have... so much fun deciphering you that he’ll get lose in it.  Overall, it can be difficult to predict what traits Korekiyo is going to find unattractive since he is forever fishing for your beauty... 

Ideal date: Travelling, discussing anthropology, consuming media and analysing it afterwards... but more romantic moments are appreciated, too. If it’s an activity that allows him to revel in your beauty... he’s down, lmao. 

Do they have a type? Immensely passionate, confident & bright people!  

Average relationship length: Forever...

Preferred nonsexual intimacy: Being held/holding. I mean. The boy literally hugs himself bc no one else will... he’s honestly so desperate for this kind of physical affection that it breaks my heart on some level. Please.. someone... anyone.... hug him,,,,  Outside of this, while sexual intimacy can be incredibly loving and important in a relationship, I think he values nonsexual intimacy more. I know! This sounds! Really weird! Coming from! The self-declared rope man! But! He constantly reiterates that love does not have to be ‘a physical connection’. So... honestly - beyond cuddling, his favourite thing to do to express intimacy is probably  just to talk. Talk and talk and talk. Enjoy doing things together, be in one another’s company, revel in the beautiful connection between you both  - the real meat of a relationship, you know? 

Commitment level: He’ll literally destroy himself and give up his flesh in order to let you inhabit his body if u go and die on him. And although he indulges his curiosity  in the love hotel scene... we have to remember that that is his fantasy. In the dating sim mode, he repeatedly shies away from sexual topics/intimacy (though he expresses they are normal human behaviours and he respects/is intrigued by Saihara because of them), because it would be ‘cheating’. Then again, he does claim that he tied up a whole village of women, so....

The thing is, Korekiyo’s. Well. What counts as ‘cheating’ might be a little fluid - can he indulge in Kinbaku because he’s doing it for ‘anthropological’ reasons? How far does that card stretch? He seemed to be aware that he actions with Saihara were dodgy given how much he emphasised it was a one-time affair... so, idk. GENERALLY THO I’d argue he is more committed than most, lmao. 

Opinion of public affection: He wants it, but it makes him incredibly uncomfortable. Like. Ideally he could be physical with his partner near constantly - but he’s learned that matters of love are best kept private, and with good reason. 

Past relationships: My personal headcanon is that his Sister is around a year & a half older than him, and they have been engaging in taboo acts since he was around 13. It’s... highly uncomfortable to think about, but. Yeah, so. Considering he still thinks he is in this relationship, they’ve been ‘together’ for 4-5 years. 

[todokori-kun]

Ack

 that sounds horrible, getting sick is the worst ;-; get as much rest as you can! I really hope you get better soon<3

(omg the pics are GORGEOUS. Like, Wow. Once I’m done writing this message I’m probably going to go back to stare at them for like an hour and silently scream over how awesome everything looks)

Don’t worry about it, I admit that Stoki is pretty much a crack ship ^^;;

And, well, the redemption fic I mentioned helped me fall deeper into Stoki hell, but I shipped it even before that XD I think part of it is just because I think they could have a really interesting dynamic- they’re just so different, complete opposites. Steve would confuse Loki so much tbh

Also, I just think that Steve (or at least, post-CW Steve) might be one of the avengers most willing to at least try to understand Loki. Partly because Steve’s just a nice guy, and then because of his relationship with Bucky- ‘cause Steve-Bucky and Thor-Loki are really, really similar and I think Steve would realize that.

And then like I said, Steve cares a lot about other people. If Thor ever told him about everything that happened between him and Loki Steve probably wouldn’t have too much difficulty in starting to see Loki as a human(?) being instead of some one-dimensional fairy tale villain.

Lastly, I feel like Steve is just the best person to handle Loki’s issues. He may not be able to personally relate to a lot of it (Tony, Bruce, maybe Natasha would be better for that) but he can take a step back and think rationally about the situation, help convince Loki that just because the rest of the world sees him as a monster, doesn’t mean he has to be one.

Hopefully this made sense? lol)

yeah, that’s pretty much how I felt about it too. It was just so freaking frustrating OTL

(And yes that letter destoyed my feelings too)

btw, can I ask what you think about T'challa? He doesn’t seem to have that many fans yet but I think he’s really cool and possibly one of the more sensible people in the CW movie (once he stops being furious at Bucky). Also the trailer for his new movie is epic and I can’t wait to see his sister…

Hisoillu is bizarre (sadistic murdery Clown with no sense of fashion + sadistic murdery needle guy with dead fish eyes) but also makes a lot of sense at the same time? Like, Hisoka got away with joking about killing Killua in front of Illumi, so…yeah. They’ve got something special LOL

omg imagine.

‘Satisfied but when you fantasize at night it’s Illumi’s eyes’

'Helpless but look into Illumi’s eyes and the sky’s the limit’

'History has its Eyes on you but it’s actually Illumi’

Why do I want these memes to be a thing

With the new revelation about who Touka was visiting at the hospital, I’m beginning to have my doubts about how this will end…maybe they might actually both survive for now???

But I’m a bit miserable rn because if one of them has to die I’d rather keep Juuzou too but it seems much more likely for Touka to survive. She’s like the main female lead, plus she has Kaneki’s baby…

R.I.P Naki, the sweetest cinnamon roll who just wanted to see his big bro again ;-;

(Also: Wow, way to go Kaneki, you finally started acting like an actual leader (in a way)! But can I just say, what absolutely perfect timing)

WTH I had no idea Soul Eater’s art style developed that much???!!! That’s actually pretty amazing! (And yeah, I know that SE has some pretty complex characters and interesting stories in it :D it’s just still a lot lighter and has different themes from the mangas I usually enjoy ^^ I might try it out though!)

Death The Kid seems really cool! (does he really have OCD in canon, though? Like, I’ve seen a lot of Soul Eater fans talking like he does but idk if it’s actually a thing? Maybe I sound weird but it just seems insensitive to say characters like DTK and Levi have 'OCD’ and talking about it jokingly when it’s actually incredibly difficult and stressful for people who actully have OCD, so I’m not sure how to feel about those fans)

Yay! Gotta go and try to find that fight scene now…

Join me in my suffering. I loved L so much ;-;

(But hey, don’t be too sad (what’s this? Is Evans actually COMFORTING Queen Luna for once instead of rubbing salt in the wound?!)! There’s always the book Death Note: Another Note (The Los Angeles BB Murder Cases)- it’s a prequel to the Death Note manga/anime with L chasing a murderer known as Beyond Birthday (…no comment on that alias). It also shows how he met Naomi Misora which is awesome if you like Naomi (I did, and kinda screamed when Light kiled her))

Eh, I think I’m one of the few people who doesn’t mind it being set in America because what’s the point of making an American adaptation if it’s going to be set in Japan anyway? I also don’t really have a problem with 'white-washing’ for this same reason (though I am disappointed because being Japanese-American would have added an interesting layer to Light’s character; despite fighting for justice, in canon, LIght’s never actually been victimized or discriminated against. He’s a handsome, intelligent young man who appears to be cisgender and heterosexual (even if it’s never confirmed) and is Japanese, just like everyone else around him. Japanese-American Light, on the other hand, would have really experienced how the 'rotten’ world could hurt people, so his acts as Kira might have more personal emotion in them)…like, it’s possible to cast a white actor as Light without it being white-washing, and since they changed the entire setting I think it’s fine to change other things too. Just, I’m cool with anything as long as they portrayed Light’s character properly…BUT THEY DIDN’T SO

I’m really just disappointed that they botched the characters and all the themes of the original Death Note story so badly. Sure, change the setting, change the circumstances, change the plot, changehe designs, but why did you have to take Death Note’s philosophy away?

But, because I might have been a bit too mean:

I will say that the movie LOOKS really good. The visuals are great. The soundtrack seems decent too. Also, though Ryuk’s motivations/role also weren’t done very well, Ryuk’s actor did an amazing job…and while I’m not happy with how L was portrayed in this movie, I do think that the actor they cast for him could have been a good L if not for the bad writing.

Well…from what I know, Light Turner ends up in a hospital at the end of the movie with his One True Love Mia(Misa) dead, so nah. The Keikaku failed.

(which just proves that Light Turner really is nothing like Light Yagami, because Light Yagami’s keikakus never fail.

Until the end of the Death note manga/anime, that is.)

Yeah, I know about SU’s terrible fandom, so I’m not going to actively participate in writing fanfic, drawing fan art or making HCs/theories with other people…I’m just gonna watch the show with my sister and look at pretty fanart XD

Tysm tho!

(Question: Which character do you think you are? And what kind of gem do you think you’d be?)

Aww, I’m so happy my awkward rambling actually made you feel better??? Like. Come on. You have no idea how much our convos helped me with anxiety and stress, so I have to thank you for that too <333

(And seriously, Queen Luna is amazing.)

For most people, they start going to elementary at seven (in international age) as far as I know, and then go to middle school at around thirteen. Then high school at…um…sixteen? Maybe? I’ve never really gone to school here so I might not be 100% correct but it’s something like that ^^;;

I really wanna try Mystic Messenger but since my phone is an old flip phone…I like my phone but sometimes this can be inconvenient LOL

(I’m totally fine with messaging here, but are you really ok with it? 'Cause if you’re not, we can try to work something else out!)

hi im luna and i wanna die.

HNNNNNNNNGH have i ever told you how much i hate school?  because i freaking hate school from the bottom of my heart i can’t feel my neck anymore from the amount of studying ive been doing that’s depressing.

anyway. heartfelt advice: do not fuck your stomach up in any way, because you will suffer if you do. take it from me, i’ve managed to develop this amazing thing called Gastritis and now i cant eat anything without getting the feeling that im gonna throw it back out which is absolutely wonderful. thankfully, i don’t throw up, but it’s freaking annoying and ive lost waay too much weight already. best part? the whole reason why i have it is apparently purely psychological,  too much stress. i got it in the middle of july. HOW my mom is also being INCREDIBLY helpful by basically telling me to ‘get over it’ like i can just snap my fingers and tell myself ‘oh yeah this is only in my head’ and it’ll all pass over. cause that’s how it works.  so is my sister by always laughing at me

oook moving on.

yep, school started and i am suffering. ive already gone through 4 tests and a bunch of oral quizzes. yay. thanks teachers for totally not putting horrible pressure on us from the start.  i stg, one of my most common thoughts these days is ‘see, this is exactly why i have a psychosomatic sickness.’ they’re sending my to a psychologist to see if i can let everything out and maybe get some advice on how to handle things better. i will laugh my ass off if i get diagnosed with a mental disorder. that’d be absolutely hilarious (I am in no way trying to make fun of people with a mental disorder, I’m just saying I honestly wouldn’t even be surprised if they said something like Burnout Syndrome or Depression (im not even joking when I say that I’ve been sleeping pretty much all afternoon + night these days, cry way too often, feel no motivation for anything, feel worthless, no apetite and also occasional suicidal thoughts which is oh so fun (ok but in my defence, the thoughts are really rare, probably caused by the fact that I feel nauseous like 90% of the time, and I would never ever do it, mostly because some people would miss me (I hope). there are moments when I go ‘wouldn’t it be easier to disappear?’ tho))

sorry about that rant

MOVING ON TO HAPPIER THEMES (and proper writing):

Yeah, Norway was truly gorgeous ^^ I don’t think I’ve ever felt more at peace than then. I fell asleep in the car at one point while watching the scenery outside, and it was one of the best sleeps in my life, despite being in the car. I’m glad you enjoyed them ^^ If you want, I can upload random pics like that every once in a whole.

Aaah, that’s pretty good reasoning! It makes a lot more sense now, thanks for explaining! 

Yeah, I kinda see why you’d ship it. Steve is a pretty understanding person and, like you said, would probably understand Loki the best ^^ Recommend me some fics and I might even start shipping it myself ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

I LOVE T’CHALLA THANK YOU FOR ASKING YES.  I mean, he angery™, but also freaking cool! Not to mention crazily powerful *^* I’m pretty excited for his movie, cause more badassery from him!

Wow those sound like genuine memes. Seriously why can’t i draw XD

Also HIstory has its eyes on you but it’s actually Illumi will give me nightmares.

GODAMNIT I JUST WANT JUUZOU TO BE HAPPY IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?? (apparently yes)

Yep, since I have all the volumes, I like to flip through them sometimes and I’m blown away every time by the development.  I also cosplayed the main character a while ago, so it holds a high sentimental value to me. But it is a lot lighter than your usual reads, true...

Well, uh, it’s kinda hard to explain? I mean, DTK is obsessed with symmetry and will go to crazy lengths to preserve it, get mad if someone disturbs it, will jeopardise missions if he’s not sure if he left something perfectly symmetrically at home etc, but it’s not so much as a mental illness as it is a consequence of who he is (part of the Grim Reaper)? Like i said, it’s really had to explain.

Did you manage to find the fight scene?

My reaction to Death Note in general:  FUCK YOU LIGHT YAGAMI. oooh, I’ll search that manga up!

Well, I’m not so much upset about the whitewashing, more about the fact that I feel like the japanese general ideology plays a big role in why light decided to start killing bad people? Idk how to explain it... 

Oh, Japanese-American Kira would’ve been a really interesting thing to see!

Yay, at least you found some good things? Well, it’s nice that you managed that ^^

Damnit, so it didn’t go according to Keikaku! It’s all because they didn’t include the potato chip scene.

Uuh, i don’t exactly remember much of SU, but I guess I’m most similar to Pearl? I didn’t really sympathise with any characters that much tbh. As for gem. Uuuuuh *quickly googles gem meanings* ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA.  I like Zircon because of the colour and alexandrite because it changes colour which is incredibly cool!

Your rambling always makes me feel better tbh. It gives me a looong message from a friend I appreciate incredibly much so, yeah, I always smile when I see a message from you (even though my replies are so slooooooooow)

Aaah, I see! That’s pretty interesting ^^ Quite different from our system.

Ah, shame, you would’ve liked the most recent route, there is so so so much suffering.

Yeah, I am 100% fine!! Don’t worry about it! The reason why I suggested something else is because on sites w an instant messaging system, my replies would probably be a lot quicker,

I AM IN LOVE WITH THE AESTETHICS, ESPECIALLY LIZZY, THAT IS GOALS

and the drawings are adorable ^^ Hide tho ;-;

[lady-nevermore]

Dear Wolf....Tbh, our friendship was doomed from the start.

Disclaimer: The people whom I’ll be writing these letters to will remain anonymous for obvious reasons, nor will I actually be sending (or wanting for them to read) these so-called letters (hence why I’m calling/tagging these as “Letters to No One

Dear L*** (Codename: Wolf - Cause you told me how much you loved, and how your fave animal are wolves).

Dear Wolf,

*sighs* ....I don’t even know where the fuck to begin tbh. :/

The beginning seems like the best place to start I guess; It was year the 2007, during our 6th period English Class, of our freshmen year of highschool. First couple days of class, and your were sitting behind my desk, I remember cause you kept obnoxiously, and deliberately shaking my desk so damn violently just to annoy the fuck out of me (i kept asking you politely to stop, like multiple times, but you persisted anyways); till it made me snap and i raised my voice, telling you to STOP!.....Don’t think it worked tho, cause I remember asking our English Teacher (Ms. H) if I could change seats, and she allowed it. -___-;

It wasn’t until later on in our freshmen year, that you realized I liked anime (most importantly to you: Inuyasha and Naruto); I’m not sure, if this was what got you to stop acting like such a dick towards me, but it was between this revelation that i loved anime, and the fact that at the time, I had befriended your Best Friend/Your Brother by a different Mother (as you preferred to call it) aka Cisco-Kid, that our friendship actually stood a chance of being possible.

That’s when we really started to bond,over naruto, over inuyasha, anime, etc. Hell, we used to butt heads from time to time, cause you’d argue that Naruto was better than YYH, and we’d debate (back then,  i was a cringey snobby, 90′s anime elitist, praising YYH above all else, thank god I’ve become more humble, liberal and open-minded on most things in life as a young adult, or else I wouldn’t be able to stand myself)....but we really started to get close during our sophomore year when I told you (you were the only person I ever told in those days) of how my Aunt C emotionally abused me, and you told me how you also suffered from abusement when you were young....that brought us closer together, you were prob the only person I ever allowed myself to get that emotionally close to. We also bonded over the fact that your former Best-Friend, let’s call her Karate-Girl, cause she used to love taking karate/self-defense lessons, ended up drifting apart from you and ended up being best friends with my former Best-friend (let’s call her Greenbean), cuz we too drifted apart from each other......in a way, we found solace in our mutual sense of loneliness together, and our friendship grew from there. Hell, we even talked a lot about our dream, especially when we used walk together after school, I remember cause you used to tell me how much you wanted to be a doctor or nurse. 

But yeah, we had good times as well with, me, you and cisco-kid, we’d always hang out go to starbucks and just talk about anything and everything both in real life and on the phone or through AIM, or just going to your house to play video games: like sing-star, hanging out at the mall, introducing me to sushi and making it a routine eating at Yo Sushi’s, We’d fangirl/fanboy over anime, studio ghibli films, anime, etc. Hell, during my 18th birthday, I ended up purchasing a replica of Kenshin’s Reverse Blade Sword (but it wasn't sharp, both sides were dull), and I remember how we’d fangirl/fanboy over it (but you especially had a gleam in your eyes when ever you held it and swung it around with one arm) and how’d you’d scoff at me for choosing to hang it on my wall.....cause you said it was pointless if you didn't use it.....and I was all like well it’s a replica, it just for decoration, it’s not meant to be used in real battle because it’s not in fact an actual real katana, plus kenshin’s way of life was to not show off and use his sword to hurt others, but rather as a last resort to protect the ones he loves....But yeah, after that we’d ended up often going to go eat Sushi at either Davis or San Francisco, which was always fun during the summer school breaks. Yup, them were good times indeed. ^-^

Then things got complicated, after i had broken up with Vegas-boy, you asked me why, I told you to keep this to yourself, and said: that I just didn't feel a connection with him, even after 6 months of us dating.....and the very next days, you told me upfront that the Bro before hoes aka the bro code was too important and that you told Vegas-boy what i told you to keep to yourself (that was when I truly felt a sense of betrayal from you....because yeah okay sure, i get that you value that stupid bro-code above all else, but what about our fucking code of friendship? Did our friendship mean soo little to you that you’d go and disregard my wishes to keep that to yourself (no matter how benign it as). I knew from that moment on, that I could no longer trust you to keep a secret, that’s for sure. :/

Later, on as time went by our playful banter back and forth turned into a slight sense of flirting, hell you almost even teasingly kissed me lightly on the corner of my mouth, almost, but then a few days later you told me how much of a bad idea it was for friends to date each other, because it would endanger or risk destroying said friendship (I thought that was ludicrous, because I would still be open-minded enough to remain friends with someone even if said relationship didn’t work out or if our feelings for each other weren’t mutual.....plus I think the concept of falling in love with a close friend, is such a beautiful thing)......But nonetheless i immediately backed off with the flirting, and so did you and we remained friends....hell I never even got the chance to tell you that i had feelings for you, mostly cause I was too afraid to get rejected, especially when you told me that it was a bad idea and too risky dating your friends, and all that nonsense (and I’m not gonna lie but it hurt seeing you date someone else for a bit....I got over it tho, and quickly cuz during my junior year I started crushing really like really hard on this girl, let’s call her Lady-Piña , but that’s a story for another time, i’m afraid). lol ^^;

As time went by, I remember how often you used to ask to borrow my cell-phone (a flip-phone in that day and age), cause you didn’t have one and you needed to text someone, and you used to say how important this was).....And I reluctantly agreed to let you borrow it (you said it was important, and my immediate thoughts were that you were using it to text your family members or something).....It never occurred to me that you were using for other means.....And see, this is what really started to piss me off about you (hell thinking back it still fucking pisses me off). You would borrow my cell-phone, and text (using my name mind you, and never telling others that it was you who was actually texting them) and you would emotionally manipulate anyone (most of our mutual friends, especially, in regards towards Karate-girl) that you texted or just talked shit to, in my name, using my name as your shield (and most of these text conversations were about defending your name in things, I remember cause during one of my classes, a couple of my good friends kept giving me the stink eye (and I was confused at fuck), hell one of them out right asked me upfront, What the hell was wrong with me and how could i emotionally mess one of our mutual friends like that....we cleared the air once she realized that I had let you borrow my cell-phone (I remember cause she said it was unheard of and just plain odd that I’d act like that, even if it was through text....I responded/and agreed with her with a “yeah, i know me too”.....Like WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WOLF? >:(

^Who the fuck would do something soo damn shitty, petty and manipulative like that, and constantly, mind you?!?! >_<

I mean sure, we were teens, we were stupid and immature and all that junk, but dammit, it wasn’t the fact that you used my name to talk shit to people (i mean like a part of it is) but it was more over the fact that you fucking emotionally messed with some of my friends, especially Karate-Girl, and hurt them without a second thought (and it wasn’t for those two that supposedly called me out for all this, that was your fucking doing, I would have never have noticed how much you hurt them, and immediately made sure to reassure them otherwise, and try to damage-control whatever the hell you put them through). It took a great deal of patience on my part, to not go off on you, and just let it go.....I kept making the same excuses for your actions, that you were still just a teenage boy and you just hadn’t learned to mature yet, but that you’d get there.....but oh how wrong, i was.

....Fuck, I mean if anything, you’re the reasons my trust issues have sky-rocketed to be honest. :/

And don’t even get me started on your possessive/jealous nature (you’d refer to this as a high sense of loyalty, but here’s the thing, it wasn’t, it was more possessiveness, with you being in control rather than loyalty); Every Time me and Cisco-kid would do projects, or hangout, with other people, you’d throw a damn fit, it was impossible to get you to see that we were not trying to replace you, no matter how many times I tried to reassure, time and time again that that wasn’t the case (i mean i get it, i know what it’s like to feel insecure about where i stand in friendships, scared that i’m just either in the way, or fear that people don’t really actually care about me) but you weren’t just jealous oh no, you were the type of person who’d painstakingly guilt-trip us time and time again whenever we’d hang out we people that weren’t you....*sigh* I mean hell, i even made plans several time alongs with cisco-kid to get you to meet and hangout with our other fellow classmates/friends.....but you’d always declined, and the few times you did join us, you’d always brood and give them the stink eye the entire day (and they told me how uncomfortable you’d make them feel cause of that). 

I remember when I was walking home from school with panda-boy one day, and told me he needed to tell me something important, that just didn't sit well/ or right with him.....he told that he heard you call me a bitch (and not the bitch please, funny meme kind, panda-bot told me that it was in a malicious-tone of voice)....Panda-boy told me it didn’t sit right with him because he was appalled and he didn’t know what possessed you say that about me behind my back, and that it was completely uncalled for (I said that it you were probably having a bad day and that you prob didn't mean it, so  i didn’t really pay too much mind to it)......I mean sure, I did feel sad and disappointed to be sure, because i felt like maybe i wasn’t doing a good enough job in being good friend, i asked Panda-boy if he thought I was a good friend or not, and he said i was being ridiculous, and that of course I was......but I didn't feel like it, after hearing you say something like that....it made me feel very small, alone, unworthy as friend-material, and just plain conflicted. So much so, that I ended up asking Cisco-Kid the same thing, and he ended up calling you Wolf, so we could smooth things over and talk. I asked you Wolf, I asked you directly if you thought I was a good enough friend, and you didn’t really meet my eyes and laughed nervously and said I was; that made me feel quite relieved and it reassured me, even if your response did feel half-assed at best. 

^And tbh, this wasn’t the only time you’d made me doubt myself, hell I recall the times when you would always tease me, about my mexican accent/spanish being less than perfect too, or how I ashamed you made me feel about me not knowing how to cook some of our culture’s most important mexican dishes (such as pozole, frijoles, arroz, caldo, etc).....I mean I’m learning how to do all of this now, and it’s been a long time since I felt torn or caught between both cultures, now that I’ve long since embraced my mexican culture/roots as best I can, and have found a calming sense of peace and belonging in accepting both parts of myself....but i can’t deny that your voice/taunts still haunt me from time to time (making me feel like I’m not good or worthy enough in regards to my mexican heritage).

Which reminds me, you always took great pride in having machismo (a sense of masculine pride)....it always bothered me, cause even though you said it jokingly, or so it seemed, I always got a feeling from you: that you felt like women needed to stay put in their proper places so to speak.....that and in combo with your anger issues, and the the way you used to tell me that whenever you’d get angry you’d punch a hole through your wall (or that one time this one girl in our class pissed you off, and you told me if you were allowed to punch a girl, she’d be the only exception)......all of that made me feel hella uneasy/and uncomfortable...and this had been going on and accumulating for years since we met.....All of these were red-flags that i should have seen coming a mile a way, tbh (even Karate-Girl, your former Best-Friend, you had a crush on whom said that she felt hella uncomfortable with you texting her constantly non-stop about your crush on her, warned me that she was afraid I’d turn into a doormat, if i wasn’t careful....so why do i get the feeling  that she was referring to you when she told me that.....and now that I think about it, was that why she always took those selfdefense/karate classes? Cause of you, Wolf). Plus my own mother said she was really glad that I’d chosen to cut all ties off with you.....maybe they were right.....

Cause the last time we saw each other (we were around 18-19), a year or so after we graduated high-school (when I finally told you how uncomfortable you made me feel, especially with your quick temper/anger issues, and all this stuff accumulating over time, but that i always thought you’d just grow outta of this toxic mindset by now, but i guess you didn’t cause), you obviously didn’t take it very well, cause we were playing ping-pong ball and you were obviously brooding, in a very bad mood, but most especially towards me, and you kept hitting the ball with soo much force and ferocity in attempts to hit me, that I could see the malicious smirk whenever it almost did hit me,  i could see the terrifying look of pure hatred you had for me in your eyes whenever our eyes met; Cisco-kid even had to forcibly pull you aside and ask you what the hell was going on with you, and you reacted to this by flinging the ping-pong paddle to the side so damn hard in anger and just stomping away.

But from that day on, i could tell that day how i could no longer feel safe or comfortable in your presence, let alone in being your friend, so i did what  i thought was best for me, and cut you and all your toxicity out of my life completely....A few months later my mentor had passed away, i was failing/struggling with my classes, all of our friends were drifting apart, and just felt soo damn alone, apathetic, and I just couldn’t take all of this anymore, and had a nervous/mental breakdown and fell into a deep depression, and hell you know the rest. 

^And Tbh, you’re one of the reasons why I chose this username, the: Nevermore part at least.....cuz I promised myself that I would never ever again find myself in another abusive/or in an almost abusive relationship: Platonic, Family, Romantic or otherwise, which is ironic, because you were the only person back then I ever told about me suffering from emotional abuse from my Aunt C (I did not want history to repeat itself anew, cause I won't stand for it anymore.....not with my aunt and certainly not with you Wolf). >:[

^And tbh, looking back (with how you violently shaking my desk just to mess with me) I can’t help but feel like that was the first of many signs, that our friendship was doomed from the start. :/

I mean I’ll always try to look back fondly on the good times and stuff, at the very least, cause we did in fact have some really good times, but I can’t help but feel like it’ll always be in a bad-taste in my mouth sorta way......just utterly disappointed and tainted....

I don’t regret our friendship, we had some good moments to be sure (but I can't deny that there are moments where I almost feel like I do regret it, looking back).....but if there’s one thing I’m absolutely certain of, is that I will never forget that look of pure hatred in your eyes when you kept hitting that ping-pong ball with suich force in my direction.....and in turn, will never feel safe, comfortable, or trust being alone with you, let alone want to reconnect with or couldn’t try to be your friend ever again.

I’ve made my peace with this anyway, and it’s best we continue to go our separate ways......but if need be, we can each always look back fondly at the good times at least (I know I will at least continue to try to do, despite it all).

Welp, thanks at least for trying to be civil there towards the end, I guess.

Farewell Forevermore,

-Lady Nevermore

[shacklesburst]

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