#he didnt just lie and mainpulate and almost die in a murder suicide Just Because

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i havent read the novels yet but i have been thinking about shizuo a lot as of late so i wonder- does he see thru izayas facade and think its stupid that izaya has it? like, shizuo didnt CHOOSE to be how he is, hes incredibly honest- anger bubbles up quickly and he doesnt hold back on it, and he even dyed his hair to mark himself as Different. he doesnt hide what he is and doesnt want to. meanwhile izaya is a facade under a facade under another facade- one wonders if shizuo looks at all this and thinks, what's the point? why do something like that? why condemn yourself to this life based on a lie?

and then, "why hurt me based on false pretenses that YOU fabricated?"

which is why izaya gets him so pissed off. shizuo sees himself as having no choice and izaya as having a choice but choosing misery regardless

i so desperately want to read more of the light novels to get a better grasp on Shizuo. granted i've only read one light novel and some quotes for the Izaya ones, but it's so crazy to me that he does seem to see behind the disguise that Izaya always has up. the way he calls the both of them similar in their loneliness, and how (in the Izaya one after the time skip) he seems to feel a lot of pity for him. it's so fascinating and i'd love to do a character study on him once I read more