#he didn’t look feminine okay let’s get that straight but he looked so ????? IDK HOE TO SAY IT

[kavehater]

Kaveh art so pretty it almost makes me forgive haikaveh

[weakconstruct]

I’m gonna do a special thing for my late Munday Post (lol since it’s Tuesday now)

I LOVE villains but have a hard time roleplaying one, I know it’s cliché but I try to be as kind as possible, and it hurts to hurt others.

My greatest source of inspiration when roleplaying is the material I get from my partners. All of my roleplay partners will say things I don’t traditionally think of, and together we create plot lines that wouldn’t be crafted if we were writing the plots alone!

I’m not religious, I’m spiritual! Religious people do bad things and hurt others in my opinion, while spiritual people follow their religion to spread love. I am a Christian, I am gay, and I love you for you!

I don’t always listen to music but sometimes I do, especially when roleplaying. It doesn’t matter what kind as long as it’s a fucking bop. Blast some pop, rap, anything catchy that I enjoy, and bam it’s a party!

My random fact is... I can’t stand pessimism. A lot of the time I’m my own worst pessimist, especially because I am pretty self concious and break myself down, but with nurturing and love, mostly from my friends, I enjoy the brighter sides of situations. You can’t live a happy life if you always look for the bad.

My preference for my own muses is actually women. I am a feminine gay male and so I write women easily, on the other hand though, I don’t write women sexually very well. I do sometimes write as strictly gay males since straight men don’t come naturally. Although... for some reason I can write lesbian pretty well! Idk what I’m doing guys, just gotta learn to love me.

When I was younger I stabbed a boy with a pencil right in the skin in-between your index and thumb. I was pretty unstable and a little crazy so I just got fed up with him and WHAM my graphite was in his hand. He was so scared he didn’t tell the teacher, and I knew it was really bad the second I snapped. After helping him clean it, I apologized like 400 times, and now that I’m older I’ve stabilized a lot.

My Monday was pretty great until I started watching sad Steven Universe videos... but in a way... that’s great too, I believe emotions are healthy and express them without fear.

On my birthdays I usually have my closest friends over to hang out, I get cake, my favorite dinner, and some small presents too. We aren’t very monitarily stable so I’ve never known big birthday parties before.

I wouldn’t clone myself... I’ve been told I’m annoying, but in a way that you learn to love and appreciate my quirks... but! My best friend also said if there was a second me, she would kill him so... let’s just not go there.

I do not choose to wear makeup, unless for fun. I’ll let my best girls practice on me, but I don’t go in public with makeup on. Not because it’s “only for girls” but because I don’t like how it feels on my face!

I have one, 26 year old, brother. We aren’t very close, but we are civil and kind to each other, so it’s still okay! I attribute our distance to how different we are in age. (I’m 19)

One time I was running from my dad and ran into the fridge. You know that moment when the cartoon rams into something so hard they vibrate and fall out unconscious on the ground? That was me... OH and another time I stepped on a gardening hoe, and really did experience that moment where the handle flies up and nails you between the eyes... I swear to God... I am SOOOO clumsy.

Sadly I don’t know what romantic love is. I may be almost 20 years old, but I have never had a significant other. While I have kissed and experimented a small bit, I think I’ve only ever had one deep crush on a boy. Meanwhile Galena may be developing some feelings in some of my roleplays! We will just have to see.

I like my signature, but my handwriting is fucking shit... like don’t even play... this is why I type things.

The last time I went to the movies was when I watched Deadpool 2 on opening day. Fucking fantastic movie too! I wanna see Incredibles 2 SO BAD... but it’ll have to wait... unfortunately...

Sometimes I can be a bit jealous when it comes to roleplaying, but I would never say anything rude or off-putting to my mutuals. I’m probably over reacting when I get jealous anyway, so no worries loves!

And there you have it! I answered EVERYTHING on that list for this LATE Munday post! I hope you guys will enjoy learning about me!

Yet Another Munday Meme  Send me a symbol and I’ll answer ooc 

ѩ - Are there any characters that you love, but simply cannot role play? 

Җ - What’s your greatest source of inspiration when it comes to role playing? 

ℛ - Are you religious? 

♬ - Do you listen to music when you write? If yes, what kind of music? 

ᚡ - Random fact about the mun? 

✒ - Do you have a preference when it comes to gender regarding your muses? 

ಹ - Share a story from your childhood! 

෴ - Tell us about your day. 

㉘ - How do you usually spend your birthdays? 

⨌ - If you ever had the opportunity to clone yourself, would you? 

ᚖ - Do you wear makeup?

༺ - Do you have any siblings? What’s your relationship with them like? 

๛ - Share an embarrassing story about yourself! 

❤ - Are you and/or your muse currently in love with someone? 

ℳ - Do you think you have a good handwriting? 

☢ - When was the last time you went to the cinema? What movie did you watch?

⨕ - Are you a jealous role player? 

[hirameki-amour]

🌈 My coming out story 🌈

Yeah, I’m gay. A gay cis male. Okay all done. That’s my story. That’s it. Goodbye.

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No but seriously I can explain my actual coming out story. Time to time travel~!

Okay so, when I was like.. how old is a 3rd grader? Fuck it. Anyways, I’ve always liked guys a little more than girls. When I was younger than a 1st grader, I never really like “liked” someone until I hit like 3rd grade. Back then, I was being bullied in 1st grade till 9th grade just because I loved feminine things like bratz, barbie, pink things, unicorns, and hung out with girls more. Most of the kids who bullied me were guys. At the time, I had like crushes on some of them but I was too scared to admit it to myself. Shit, I even had crushes on the guys I didn’t even talk to. I even drew very explicit things. Yeah, it’s a long story. I’ll tell that story another time. ANYWAYS, I kind of always liked guys since then but it was always very quiet and only I knew about it. I was also always oblivious if a girl liked me because y’know, I never saw them that way. I kind of never felt that attraction to girls till this one time in 2nd grade, this very pretty girl was around and I was like WOAH SHE’S SO PRETTY OMG I WANNA BE HER FRIEND. Looking back, I could tell it wasn’t a romantic feeling but a feeling of adoring her. She was so pretty like omfg. Too bad she was a hoe LMAO. Yeah, idk why I thought it was a romantic feeling. I guess it’s similar when straight people have like “crushes” on the same gender aka boy crush/girl crush. This quiet attraction to guys went on for a long ass time. Hell, I even had a giant crush on my neighbor’s older brother. Like, he was hella fucking cute but the only way I felt I could talk to him was if I was a girl. Yeah, I was catfishing at a young age. That’s another story I can tell another time. Okay now for the interesting tea..

Fast forward through all the depressing shit, I got into a new school in 10th grade to get a fresh start. I started crushing on more cute guys and ughh I swear some of them are still fucking cute now. Skimming through 10th grade because friends betraying me, I met a new group a friends in 11th grade who helped me out through the time I was feeling alone. Yes, they were all girls. That’s all who I ever hang out with because if I hung out with guys, I’d eventually get crushes on them. I have no type LMAO. Anyways, these friends of mine helped me come out. Especially my best friend. We were all crushing on guys in our little corners. We all giggled like little girls crushing baby daddies too old for them. That’s when I realized that I definitely wasn’t straight. In the past, I thought I had romantic feelings for the pretty girls in school but it was actually admiration for their beauty. I didn’t want to marry or fuck them. Hell, I didn’t even want to kiss them. Still, I was like still scared to admit it myself so I said I was bisexual. They all supported me but deep inside, I knew I wasn’t being real. Then there was that era in Senior year where I lied a lot because I was feeling lonely and wanted attention. Yeah I was a fucking attention whore and that led to me losing all of my friends. I basically died near the end of graduation. I was done with everyone, I was quiet, I was dealing with all of my friendly neighbor demons, and I was still confused about my sexuality. Only class that kept me sane was choir. I just enjoyed singing songs and singing in general. Hell, I don’t even know how I made it out of elementary and middle school without becoming insane. Eh, I am kind of insane, but the good kind. 

Later on that summer, I fell into a deep depression and shit but met a few Internet friends that helped me out of depression as I helped them out of theirs. They helped me fully come out of the closet and when I came out, I was so fucking happy. I saw rainbows and hot guys everywhere. I came out to the family relatives that I was closest to and eventually my mom. My mom didn’t like it but it’s oh well. I can’t let me dad know or else I’ll get kicked out so I’m just gonna wait till I get enough money to bounce, then I’ll tell him. I bet he already knows though but just doesn't want to admit it. Everyone else I told supported me since half of them were lgbt anyways. A year or two later, my best friend came back to me asking for forgiveness and acknowledged it was her fault but I told her it was my fault. At first I was skeptical but after a few months passed, we reconciled. Now we’re stronger than before and she felt honored that she helped me come out the closet, even if it was halfway at the time. 

That’s my story and a bit of my history. I did date a guy the first few months I finally came out as gay last summer but he was an ass, alcoholic, and he played my feelings. I have moved on though. I still can’t believe next month will be fully one year since I came out. I have felt a lot more confident since I came out. I may have lost a bunch of friends since then but the friend I have now is all I really need. Plus, they didn't leave me because I came out so thats good. Squads are overrated anyways. 

“Fuck out my way when you see me, I’m rolling with the LGBT!” - Cupcakke